myatlantis

That name will not make

make you smile anymore

Those memories will not

make you cry anymore.

I didn't say a name,

I lived a different life because i always invested my time and efforts in friendship bonds; for the betterment of them, for the betterment of us. Always telling them to study harder; teaching them concepts minutes before exams so we all could succeed together. Scolding them to get nicer partners; to look after their parents; so we all live a happy and comfortable life. Going an extra mile for our get togethers and meet ups. Correcting them in private every time they made a mistake and telling them to correct me if i made a mistake.

#Poetry #Friendships #BrokenFriendships #Lonely #Hurt

All of my poems tend to be hyper-focused on a specific thought or feeling, no matter how short and fleeting it may be, but it’s always an exaggeration of that feeling in that moment so I can amplify the power it has on the mind and soul.

Something I have always struggled with is investing so much, so wholly, in my friends that I see the end before they do - or worse I can see them lying to hide that they’re ready to move on to new friends, and I just have keep up the best friend act until they’re officially gone from my life.

Friendships exist in cycles, and no matter how important it is to have friends, many friends won’t remain your best friends forever. Like finding a partner, finding a life-long best friend is extremely difficult to do. You have to find the one that is just right.

This true tho.

And even after all this time, I still miss her. There's a hole in my heart where she lived. Everything else has faded. My hurt, my anger, everything. All that remains is a faded memory of that pain she caused.

And you know what that's not even the point. It's the fact that she was my best friend and that despite having new friends, I still long to be around her. I still want to tell her all the happy news first. I still long to just randomly videocall her and catch up with her. It still stings when someone mentions her name and they mention something abut her and I have absolutely no idea what they are talking about because we are that distant now.

I hate her and I blame her for the end of our friendship. I hate how she gave up so easily. I hate how she just stopped caring. I despise her. Loathe her.

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