My Astro Musings

I have been reflecting on how the Uranus transit through my 8th house as a libra rising has played out since 2018. I also have a 2H jupiter.

It’s been interesting to reflect. To set the stage, I have to share some earlier scenarios. In 2016, I took a student loan and that has become the biggest debt I’ve ever had and that was also the first debt I ever had. Of course, some other things could have been happening too. And of course in December 2016 is when my mother also died. Very tragic story for another time.

Fast forward to 2018, I walk away from church. This is a story for another day. I start to confront my trauma and pain and shame. I then realize suddenly that I am depressed in 2020 and start to deal with this through group therapy, one on one therapy and psychiatrist help. Also I come out as gay in this period and two of the LGBTQ support groups I attended were online. Did they say the 8h has themes of sexuality?

I went really really really deep with unearthing all the pain and shame that was buried deep in my psyche. It was not easy but it was worth it.

I learnt all about debt and money and how to make it work for me. I learnt how to really save and how to invest and how to cash flow. I kept on making sacrifices to get my finances to make more sense. I learnt how not to buy that which I could not pay for with cash. I think this is the gift Uranus left behind for me.

When Uranus was at 18° conjunct my natal chiron, I started the process of buying a house so I built my credit and even better money habits. I did not end up buying the house even if I put an offer on a house. I have the south node conjunct the IC in my 4H so tough luck.

They both have cancer mars… conjunct my NN in my 10H.

This transit is over and I’m here to reflect. I was very nervous about this transit. Saturn Through my 6H and opposing my moon.

All through the 2.5 years that Saturn in pisces transited through my 6H, dental issues were the focal point. From root canals to fillings to cracked teeth etc etc. It was a pain.

I was also diagnosed with degenerative disc disease— physical therapy helps.

I got a puppy during this transit. It was rough in the beginning… and such a huge responsibility. I love her so much. I feel like getting a pet is such a 6H Saturn transit thing.

Changed jobs suddenly at the end of 2023 which made my commute hell… I was spending about 4 hours driving at one point. Saturn can make daily activities so cumbersome and dreary.

Here’s the thing… pluto transited through my sister’s 5H carpricorn and in January 2025, I was thinking… ‘ wait a minute… how come there’s nothing to show for that?’.

I kept thinking… she didn’t really give birth, she did work with kids in a school but she quit that job, she didn’t do no crazy artistic stuff. I concluded that sometimes it can be subtle changes. I was a little heartbroken coz we tend to look for the loud significations.

Anyway, Just a few weeks ago, she shared a video of all the fun stuff we’ve done together… and how that has changed over the years from going to parties together to traveling the world together. The kind of 5H fun she was having got more detailed… more upscale and more fun. From 2008 to 2025… it struck me in that moment that that particular video highlighted the transit of Pluto through her 5th house.

I’ve loved this transit. Via whole signs, it’s in my 6H opp. my moon.

It was a season of lots of love, romance and sex. Dreamy conversations and lovely feelings - like all my problems disappeared. My dog was also receiving so much love and attention from everyone.

I wonder if the co-presence of neptune and the north node compounded these feelings.

I don’t see how having ketu conjunct my IC in my 4H or how having a 12H virgo moon ruling my 10H has been helpful.

Or a 5H aquarius venus ruled by libra Saturn.

Just a life of isolation, loneliness and pain.

I have not seen my family in 11 years… missed my mother’s burial. Single. Gay.

Just pain upon pain.

I’ve got aquarius venus and each venus return brings me money. Like real money - someone orders stuff from me or pays me for a service. Every single time.

My venus returns are less about romance and more about money, recognition and resources. I’m libra rising.

I’ve also noticed that venus through my cap 4H brings me money!

Sometimes a mars transit square your asc and descendant can look like tech failing on you during a virtual presentation… like your laptop goes kaput. I struggled to start a prezi presentation… couldn’t find the start button… my arrows totally stopped functioning - I didn’t have a mouse and I couldn’t figure out the touch bar. I ended up being embarrassed and upset.

Anyway… I was flying through tonight’s partial eclipse in pisces ( sept 17. 2024) - in my 6H. My screen wasn’t working so I wasn’t able to watch any of the entertainment— others on the plane were watching movies etc.

Anyway as soon as the eclipse happened at about 7:12p (PT), my screen came on.

Not sure what the astro here is exactly.

It’s been such a long journey— since 2014 and only hope kept me going.

Honestly… I need a miracle because the embers of hope are dying.

Sometimes Venus transiting into the first house can signify being happier and having a lighter spirit.

Saturn in pisces is currently transiting my 6H and opposing my virgo moon. I’d read somewhere that a signification of this can be issues with women in your life. This kinda stressed me out coz my sister is also my good friend.

How this has played out so far is the women in my life are so busy and barely have time for me. Conversations are less and sometimes I’m not always able to bounce off ideas with them. I’ve not even been able to hang out with many of them.

The women in my life are just too busy for me during this season.

Well… this started with my 6H profection year with a terrible toothache that took forever to be worked on.

Not long after I developed intense excruciating pain from my shoulder to arm — finding out later its disc degenerative disease… mild case. The pain isnt mild though.

Jupiter is the ruler of my 6H so saturn has to answer to jupiter - it does feel like jupiter tempers some of saturn’s harshness but i wonder; the pain especially because it’s opposing my moon is felt heavily.

I thought saturn over my aquarius venus was lonely but saturn opposite my moon is a different kind of lonely. Here’s what I’m realizing:

- I feel so lonely to the point that my being single is becoming an issue. I go back to an empty apartment every day. I’m hoping to be able to get a dog.

- I feel unseen and not heard at work. I don’t have the energy to fight to be seen. I also seem stuck at my job because it does pay better than most but I don’t necessarily enjoy what I do. I think I’m more aware of this as the moon rules my 10H.

- 12H moon can signify working in foreign lands. Been living away from home for 9 years. Have not seen most of my family. I feel this sort of loneliness deeply today as saturn opposes my moon as compared to the previous years.

- Because of living far from home, friends filled that void. Many of them got married last year and are now having babies. Others seem busy with their lives now… so I feel like my life isn’t progressing. Hence magnified sadness and loneliness.

- my peers are also buying homes as a couple has an advantage of combined incomes. I live in a super expensive state… me realizing that I cannot qualify for a comfortable home here. Hard realizations.

- I was talking to someone for a while… but they detached from any emotional connection with me because of some hardships they are facing. I miss them… and it’s just another painful reminder of how lonely and sad I feel.

This transit is hard… I feel like everything means nothing at this point. Is there hope? Yes… this is a 2.5 year transit so I know there’s an end to all this, but I’m tired.

I’m a libra rising… Venusian at heart! I thought venus in taurus would be a great transit for me regarding venusian things like love, friendship money… no… it wasn’t. Neither was venus in gemini. In fact I wasn’t working well with my friends… or even with the gal I was talking to. We were fighting!

As soon as venus crossed into cancer… I was talking to my gal… working through our shit… then sorting out issues with my sis.

Yet again, it could have been the eclipse season between April 20 and May 5.

whole sign houses… I had this transiting my 9H.

I enrolled into a higher ed course.

Been defending my beliefs… bruh! I’m not even talking to some people.

One thing I have to say is you can only see the transformation of pluto in hindsight as you reflect. In that moment… not so much because the process is slow and deep.

I also have SN conjunct my IC in Capricorn. I will be using Whole sign houses as it makes it clearer when breaking down themes.

4H can represent your mother or your matriarchal lineage or hometown or physical home.

For me… I discovered my dad was cheating on my mother round about 2009. I told my mother accidentally - I asked her what they had been doing at a health club close to my house at night. Anyway… soon after that my dad secretly got married in 2010. This destroyed my mother. Pluto in cap over my 4H. (Side note: pluto was also opposing my mother’s cancer moon)

Round about the same time my mom and her siblings find out that their brother had stolen from them. He was supposed to be custodian of the wealth left to them by their parents… but he’d secretly put everything in his names and added caveats to all the property. He had amassed a lot of wealth from selling some prime pieces of land. As I write… the family is now split up over this. It took 14 years for this to unfold.

I left my home country in 2014 and have become a permanent resident on another continent. Pluto changes tend to be permanent… its transition over my 4H triggered my move. It’s also painful… as we all know the pain of immigration. The are other factors that can be attributed to this like, my 12H virgo moon which rules my 10H. And SN conjunct my IC.

My mother passed on at the end of 2016. This exposed secrets in my family and also in the extended family. Pluto leaves nothing unearthed. Secrets will get exposed.

Because pluto was at an angle for me … there was a time there was a direct square to my ascendant. I had the most toxic bosses during this time. I had to face some things about me like my sexuality that I had ignored for years.