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oughhhh fen is such a cool character I'm holding them gently in my hand before thrashing them around into the ceiling fan (haha the ceiling FEN *cue tomatoes*)

Oh Absolutely. i think fen in particular has a chronic issue of not knowing how to be vulnerable/show emotion properly, and still instinctively is hard on themselves about that sort of thing. they both probably have a weird relationship with authority figures; fen being likely to get on edge and try to avoid getting in trouble, juniper being more defiant and resistant to not having full autonomy (fen is almost afraid of having full autonomy!!). fen also has trouble with "downtime" and knowing how to relax.

and there are definitely differences between raising juniper and raising a non traumatised kid. shes a lot more reactive and really struggles to emotionally regulate, and a lot of the time when she gets upset, she gets angry and defensive and has trouble letting people get close enough to accept comfort. the way she reacts to triggers (of which she has many) isnt consistent and sometimes she shuts down and wont really talk, sometimes she'll scream and cry and lash out. in my mind she goes through periods where she intentionally acts out, in a way like shes almost testing how fen/the others will react and how far she can push it before theres Correction.

now that i think about it, i reckon juniper also struggles with her sleep beyond whats normal for a kid her age. she oftentimes doesnt like being alone and in certain circumstances that can be a trigger for her, so she'll sleep in bed with fen/in the same room. plus maybe nightmares and frequent wakeups, even bedwetting maybe??

i have barely even considered what trying to get juniper into regular schooling would be like HELP. trust it would be complicated. oh man

like imagine Torture Guy at your local park being like "aww your kid (juniper) is so cute" and just having to be like "do you remember torturing me or what"

by the time it could be a possibility for this scenario to happen, soren is dead as hell (so in fact fens first thought would be "wtf didnt you literally die") buuuut if we ignore that itsy bitsy piece of information...

INSTANT fight or flight for fen i think. even assuming fen is pretty far down the line of "learning to be a normal person and healing from conditioning", this is like. NOT something they can be normal about. they would probably assume that soren does recognise them (even though it is out of character for soren not to be direct with them). in the scenario that juniper is there? they would beeline for juniper immediately. grab her and get the FUCK out of there. that switch of "i have a mission to complete" would be flipped -- their mission is to protect the kid. after theyre sure the kid and themselves are safe -- hours later properly -- theyd finally come out of mission mode and lock themselves in the bathroom for a good ol breakdown.

leaving soren standing there like "what the fuck is wrong with people". or, alternatively, recognising fen's familiar fear response/recognising that switch into weapon mode and going oh. slow evil smile spreads across face