the 10th arcanum

going back to work in a few hours and I think I'd rather be stabbed to death

Unfortunately my problem is that I have no real ambitions I just want to live in my head

Official Wednesday post

happy not only is it not friday it's not even thurday wednesday

It's Tuesday

fave dynamic is platonic but somethings weird with it (the weird part is an insanely deep level of devotion, trust and understanding, as well as narrative importance that is not typically allowed for platonic relationships in media, making the portrayal feel unique and queer in nature. typically best served as m+f)

truly one of the most demoralising things about being in the job market atm is "only successful applicants will be notified" is practically a universal standard. so you spend hours, sometimes days filling out applications, writing CVs and cover letters only to be ghosted as the only form of communication. Not even a "thank you but this time you've been unsuccessful" email. You're in a constant state of "did I not get it or have they not contacted me?" and you just have to eventually conclude you were unsuccessful without so much as courtesy, "sorry, but thank you for your application." A literal thankless cycle for months and months and months. You'd think with all the ways to automate these processes they would at least have the time, means and decency to acknowledge your submission and let you off the hook, but no. You're just in limbo in every possible way in the name of "efficiency". Solidarity with everyone going through this because it is truly dehumanising and demoralising to work so hard on putting yourself forward constantly without acknowledgement or useful communication of any sort for long periods of time, and most ppl simply will not have any compassion for what that's like.

"This thing of darkness I acknowledge mine" is such a banger line that you'd think it would be from Vergil or Homer not some popular garbage they put on at the Globe

In Japanese, they don’t say “moon,” they say “tsuki,” which literally translates to “moon,” and I think that’s how language works.

Hey its been at least 9 years anything changed?

normal again

mama coming to visit me in less than 10 days, plus! last minute planning a week in greece with her and my aunt. life is good actually

can you believe I've yet to dip a toe in the sea this year? yet to smell the ocean??

normal again

mama coming to visit me in less than 10 days, plus! last minute planning a week in greece with her and my aunt. life is good actually