Loverboy

You were scared to get hurt in the process, if you commit to this. And now I’m the one who feels like shit because I DID commit, even though I never knew if you would.

If I had met you now, I would have been a different person. Thank you for being there for me.

I wonder if I could have made this easier for you. I made your life a living hell and I wonder if I wouldnt have been so sensitive it would have worked out.

If I look at your pictures I just feel like crying and hoping for another chance. I miss your laugh, I miss your voice, I miss your smiles.

I saw a future with you and kids and a home, but for you I never even was worth a first date.

You never liked me, you just liked how I liked you.

I didn’t lie, I just didn’t tell you how I feel even if I knew exactly that you thought I felt differently. So basically you lied.

I can’t even describe how betrayed I feel rn. You just took the easy way out. You knew every step of the way exactly what you did. You actively knew what you were doing. So yes you lied

I fucking miss you. You don’t care about me anymore.

You mean the word to me and I wonder if you even think about me.

I want to tell you I miss you, but it will just hurt again that you don’t want me, so I leave my thoughts here instead.

My self harm of choice is dating. I know exactly I shouldn’t do it and that it will hurt me but I keep on doing it again because I hope it will fill the hole inside me.

Nothing is louder than the silence between two people who went from falling in love to never speaking again without closure. What makes it louder is that one of them tried so hard to keep it but the other one just let it go like it was nothing.

Maybe someday someone will finally love me for just being me and will have the courage to tell me.

When your worst enemies are your parents, then you know you have a tough battle to fight.

Eigentlich laufen wir jeden Tag so rum, als wenn es uns allen gut gehen würde und niemand redet darüber, dass sein inneres eigentlich ein komplettes Chaos ist.