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Do any of your muse’s current behaviours echo things they did as a child?

❛ This is our home. ❜ ❛ This is my family. ❜ ❛ So many stars and everybody gets to shine. ❜ ❛ There’s just a lot you’ve simply got to know. ❜ ❛ Oh my gosh, it’s them! ❜ ❛ But I don’t know who is who! ❜  ❛ Alright, alright, relax. ❜ ❛ It is physically impossible to relax! ❜ ❛ Tell us everything, what are your powers? ❜ ❛ And that’s why coffee’s for grown-ups. ❜ ❛ We don’t talk about [name]! ❜ ❛ They say he saw the future, one day he disappeared. ❜ ❛ Her recipes are remedies for real. ❜ ❛ If you’re impressed, imagine how I feel! ❜ ❛ Hey, coming through! ❜ ❛ I know it sounds a bit fantastical and magical. ❜ ❛ Let’s go, let’s go! ❜ ❛ We swear to always help those around us. ❜ ❛ How do you keep them all straight? ❜ ❛ She’s a perfect golden child. ❜ ❛ The beauty and the brawn do no wrong. ❜ ❛ But what’s your gift? ❜ ❛ I never meant this to get autobiographical. ❜ ❛ You can marry my sister if you wanna, but between you and me, she’s kind of a prima donna. ❜ ❛ Yo, I’ve said too much and thank you but I really gotta go! ❜ ❛ My family’s amazing! ❜ ❛ Don’t be upset or mad at all… ❜ ❛ Don’t feel regret or sad at all… ❜ ❛ And I’m fine, I am totally fine. ❜ ❛ I will stand on the side as you shine. ❜ ❛ I’m not fine, I’m not fine! ❜ ❛ I can’t take another night up in my room. ❜ ❛ Can’t keep down the unspoken invisible pain. ❜ ❛ Always walking alone. ❜ ❛ Always wanting for more. ❜ ❛ All I need is a change! ❜ ❛ All I need is a chance! ❜ ❛ Open your eyes, open your eyes! ❜ ❛ Someone please just let me know, where do I go? ❜ ❛ I am waiting on a miracle. ❜ ❛ So what can I do? ❜ ❛ I’m sick of waiting on a miracle. ❜ ❛ I’m the strong one, I’m not nervous. ❜ ❛ I glow ‘cause I know what my worth is. ❜ ❛ I don’t ask how hard the work is. ❜ ❛ I feel berserk as a tightrope walker in a three-ring circus! ❜ ❛ Was Hercules ever like “Yo, I don’t wanna fight Cerberus”? ❜ ❛ I’m pretty sure I’m worthless if I can’t be of service. ❜ ❛ Give it to your [sibling], your [sibling] older. ❜ ❛ Give her all the heavy things we can’t shoulder. ❜ ❛ Who am I if I can’t run with the ball? ❜ ❛ Who am I if I can’t carry it all? ❜ ❛ I hide my nerves, and it worsens. ❜ ❛ I worry something is gonna hurt us. ❜ ❛ Can I somehow preserve this? ❜ ❛ You try to stop it tumbling, but on and on it goes. ❜ ❛ If I could shake the crushing weight of expectations would that free some room up for joy or relaxation, or simple pleasure? ❜ ❛ 'Cause all we know is pressure. ❜ ❛ Give it to your [sibling], it doesn’t hurt. ❜ ❛ See if she can handle every family burden. ❜ ❛ Watch as she buckles and bends but never breaks! ❜ ❛ Never wonder if the same pressure would’ve pulled you under. ❜ ❛ Who am I if I don’t have what it takes? ❜ ❛ It was my wedding day. ❜ ❛ It was our wedding day. ❜ ❛ You telling this story, or am I? ❜ ❛ I’m sorry, mi vida, go on. ❜ ❛ Why did he tell us? ❜ ❛ What a joyous day… but anyway. ❜ ❛ I could always hear him sort of muttering and mumbling. ❜ ❛ It’s a heavy lift, with a gift so humbling. ❜ ❛ Grappling with prophecies they couldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ Do you understand? ❜ ❛ A seven-foot frame, rats along his back! ❜ ❛ When he calls your name, it all fades to black! ❜ ❛ Yeah, he sees your dreams. ❜ ❛ He told me my fish would die, the next day: dead! ❜ ❛ He said that all my hair would disappear. ❜ ❛ Your fate is sealed when your prophecy is read! ❜ ❛ It’s like I hear him now. ❜ ❛ I want not a sound out of you. ❜ ❛ Yeah, about that [name]… ❜ ❛ I really need to know about [name]… ❜ ❛ [name], your boyfriend’s here! ❜ ❛ Time for dinner! ❜ ❛ Why did I talk about [name]? ❜ ❛ Not a word about [name]. ❜ ❛ I never should’ve brought up [name]! ❜ ❛ I just made something unexpected. ❜ ❛ It’s not symmetrical or perfect, but it’s beautiful and it’s mine! ❜ ❛ What else can I do? ❜ ❛ Free hugs, bring it in! ❜ ❛ So much hides behind my smile. ❜ ❛ Do you know where you’re going? Whoa! ❜ ❛ What could I do if I just knew it didn’t need to be perfect? ❜ ❛ Careful, it’s carnivorous. ❜ ❛ I wanna feel the shiver of something new. ❜ ❛ I’m so sick of pretty, I want something true, don’t you? ❜ ❛ You just seem like your life’s been a dream. ❜ ❛ But it’s awesome to see how you rise. ❜ ❛ What can you do when you are deeply, madly, truly in the moment? ❜ ❛ Seize the moment, keep goin’. ❜ ❛ What can you do when you know who you wanna be is imperfect? ❜ ❛ But I’ll still be okay. ❜ ❛ The way is clearer 'cause you’re here, and well I owe this all to you. ❜ ❛ Show 'em what you can do. ❜ ❛ There’s nothing you can’t do. ❜

~ long walks in rain at night ~

Sam Wilson in Falcon & Winter Soldier #1 (2021)

Captain America: Sam Wilson (2015) written by Nick Spencer & illustrated by Daniel Acuna

❝ let’s play a drinking game. ❞ ❝ faith’s a simple medicine for desperate souls. ❞ ❝ you don’t frighten easily. ❞ ❝ it’s what eats you alive. loneliness. ❞ ❝ i heard it all. fire, screams and death. ❞ ❝ you’ve become a lightweight, old friend. ❞ ❝ how are you not heartbroken? ❞ ❝ people do stupid things when they think they are trapped in a corner. ❞ ❝ are you a monster because you are different? ❞ ❝ this must be our secret. ❞ ❝ all you care about is your damn duty. ❞ ❝ i’ve lived through a whole dark age and three supposed end of days. ❞ ❝ that’s a tale requiring wine. ❞ ❝ do what you do best. stay and fight. ❞ ❝ fear is an illness. if you leave it untreated, it can consume you. ❞ ❝ you have taken something from me. someone i care about deeply. ❞ ❝ there’s times to stand still, and there’s times to keep moving. ❞ ❝ you’re panting like a dying mammoth. ❞ ❝ you’d rather be blind than see the truth. ❞ ❝ when you have power like yours, you never apologize. ❞ ❝ you have the social graces of a wild boar. ❞ ❝ last time we saw each other, you basically told me to fuck off. ❞ ❝ what would you have me do? ❞ ❝ promise me something. if we get seperated, remember what you have. ❞ ❝ all you have to do is keep your sword close and keep running. ❞ ❝ you were never one to go quietly, were you? ❞ ❝ i am here for you. i won’t let anybody hurt you. ❞ ❝ the path to true strength lies not in humble faith, but in believing in oneself. ❞ ❝ you would not know talent if i shoved it up your ass. ❞ ❝ you can tell me anything. ❞ ❝ it’s just ‘yap, yap, yap’ with you sometimes. ❞ ❝ my faith brought me this far. i’ll see how much further it can take me. ❞ ❝ power. that’s what you live for. ❞ ❝ i know this is dangerous, but now is not the time to be weak. it is the time to be strong. ❞ ❝ nowhere’s safe now. you can’t run from the world. ❞ ❝ i don’t want revenge. i want justice. ❞ ❝ your stomach’s growling loud enough to wake the dead. ❞ ❝ less than perfect means death. ❞ ❝ you can either be too strong to fail or too weak to try. ❞ ❝ you are always so emotional. ❞ ❝ we don’t kill out of fear. ❞ ❝ like father, like daughter. ❞ ❝ i understand that you are in pain and you can drown that pain with whatever you want. just not here. ❞ ❝ humans do bad things to everybody. ❞ ❝ i tell you no word of a lie. ❞ ❝ that was the first and last time…i saw my father proud of me. ❞ ❝ that’s quite barbarous, even for me. ❞ ❝ i’m not going anywhere, all right? i’m staying right here. ❞ ❝ and you call yourself a leader? ❞ ❝ magic. it’s lodged in you. like a spiked arrow. ❞ ❝ you bring terror and death wherever you are. ❞ ❝ do what you have to do to seize your destiny. ❞ ❝ it’s as if you’re determined to do the opposite of the thing that’ll keep you safe. ❞ ❝ remember what you have. magic. ❞ ❝ i’m hoping there is a grain of truth to fairytales. ❞ ❝ this place was meant for no one. ❞ ❝ i’m not having this conversation unless i’m drinking. ❞ ❝ you did what you had to do. ❞ ❝ all the people i loved in this world were taken from me. ❞ ❝ i would not wish that fate on my worst enemy. ❞ ❝ it came from the heart. perhaps a broken one. ❞ ❝ what’s it like? being alone because of what you are? ❞ ❝ all curses have cures. ❞ ❝ you pick up a thing or two while in hiding. ❞ ❝ how about we scout the property? make sure it’s safe for the night. ❞ ❝ my war is your war. ❞ ❝ you thought you were special. ❞ ❝ i wish i could go back in time. save everyone. ❞ ❝ something has changed. the world’s acting of its own strange accord these days. ❞ ❝ how did you spend your days when you first came here? ❞ ❝ i value the bond we have. ❞ ❝ i know what you are. an old wives’ tale for children. ❞ ❝ do you humans ever stop talking? ❞ ❝ if only you’d think of yourself instead of licking other’s boots. ❞ ❝ sometimes it doesn’t seem real. ❞ ❝ that’s your play? it’s rather desperate. ❞ ❝ i was hoping you’d do what i say. ❞ ❝ you’re the desperate one. the most. ❞ ❝ the path forward will be harder still. ❞ ❝ i’ve never met anyone alone in the heart like you. different. ❞ ❝ it is not in my nature to be cruel. ❞ ❝ stay with me tonight. let’s not be alone. ❞ ❝ do you think i’m asking because i personally give a shit? ❞ ❝ what is destined cannot be avoided. ❞ ❝ scary storoies don’t really work on me. ❞ ❝ you were wrong. or lied. neither’s a shock. ❞ ❝ what has been need not always be. ❞ ❝ we should keep moving. ❞ ❝ are you all right? you look like day-old shit. ❞ ❝ you don’t seem like a monster to me. ❞ ❝ thieving a thief merely makes you the latest thief. ❞ ❝ you can find power and purpose. a chance to survive the horror. ❞ ❝ i’ve fantasized about going back. ❞ ❝ the only certainty in this place, is that no one is ever what they seem. ❞ ❝ this is what you call free? ❞ ❝ you still have time to turn back. it’s not too late. ❞ ❝ it’s not a question of price. it’s a matter of cost. ❞ ❝ tell me what you want. ❞ ❝ sometimes i think i’m still a person. but…i know what i really am. ❞ ❝ i deserve my destiny. ❞ ❝ why help? what’s in it for you? ❞ ❝ i can smell your desires like rotten meat. ❞ ❝ it’s funny how quickly people forget about you when you are no longer any use to them, isn’t it? ❞ ❝ trust the path you choose, and it will protect you. ❞ ❝ move beyond the pain, the fear, the failure, until you become one with a killer. ❞ ❝ you can do anything. doesn’t mean you have to. ❞ ❝ what is lost is lost. ❞ ❝ you are all alone in a world that hates you with no way to protect ourselves. ❞ ❝ thankfully, men remain simple. ❞ ❝ verbose when i need you to be quiet. silent and stubborn when i need you to talk. ❞ ❝ even traitors speak the truth. ❞ ❝ shared dreams are a powerful omen. ❞ ❝ our most trusted advisors are becoming less and less trustworthy. ❞ ❝ i think there’s something wrong with me. ❞ ❝ nightmares are common after battle. ❞ ❝ when i say run, you run. when i say hide, you hide. ❞ ❝ i’ve never met anyone alone in the heart, like you. ❞ ❝ i know who you truly are. what are you hiding now? ❞ ❝ you’re eager to please. easy to wound. ❞ ❝ that all you got? ❞ ❝ your true power resides in more than your blood. ❞ ❝ hatred is an endless cycle of fear and desperation. ❞ ❝ perhaps we were meant to find each other. ❞ ❝ no matter how hard i train, no matter what i do, i’ll never be enough. ❞ ❝ shocking. we have to do it your way again. ❞ ❝ your heart has been beating fast this whole time. you’re nervous. ❞ ❝ do you like the dress i left for you? ❞ ❝ oh. that’s a look of a person who’s worried they’ve lost their touch. ❞ ❝ it doesn’t matter if it’s true. it only matters if the people believe it. ❞ ❝ i’m sick of feeling lost. ❞ ❝ i’ve had leaders, followers…but i’ve never had a partner before. ❞ ❝ i want to be indifferent to the past. to the lies. to the things i’ve done. ❞ ❝ don’t flatter yourself. i’m saving me. ❞ ❝ did you not think of the consequences? what if you were killed? ❞ ❝ we can leave under the cover of darkness. ❞ ❝ don’t be afraid. nothing can hurt you here. ❞ ❝ you are important to me. you always will be. ❞ ❝ yes, well, i’m topped off on magical mystery at the moment. ❞ ❝ you are already enough. you are extraordinary. ❞ ❝ you don’t get to play damsel in distress. that’s my job. ❞ ❝ i’ve destroyed so many things. please, let me heal things for once. ❞ ❝ the truth is you are choosing to be an asshole, aren’t you? ❞ ❝ i have nothing to hide. ❞ ❝ i owe you as much as you owe me. nothing more, nothing less. ❞ ❝ legends aren’t science. ❞ ❝ who are we, when we can no longer do what we were put on this planet to do? ❞ ❝ some wounds cannot be healed. i understand that more than you know. ❞ ❝ i can’t be what you want. what you deserve. ❞ ❝ you need to let me take care of your wound. ❞ ❝ everyone answers to someone eventually. even you, i suspect. ❞ ❝ you pretend to not have emotions, but you do. ❞ ❝ love and blood. they both possess a mighty power. ❞ ❝ prison didn’t exactly do you any favors. ❞ ❝ monsters are more than just horrid looks and claws and teeth. monsters are born of deeds done. unforgivable ones. ❞ ❝ i hope that in your search to feel again, you feel your value. ❞ ❝ i’m too hopeless to stop anything. ❞ ❝ i sleep like shit too. ❞ ❝ you don’t really give a shit about what i want. ❞ ❝ those who died…i say their names out loud at night so i don’t forget. ❞ ❝ something dark lies ahead of you. i can feel it. ❞ ❝ no one’s on our side, you trusting idiot. ❞ ❝ i’m not abandoning you. i’ll stay and fight. ❞ ❝ explain to me how you’re not deadweight. ❞ ❝ we’ll reach our destination by sundown. ❞ ❝ i see your wounds have improved, but your manners have not. ❞ ❝ don’t be scared. i’m not going to hurt you. ❞ ❝ hesitation will draw danger to you like fire. ❞ ❝ don’t flatter yourself. i’m saving me. ❞ ❝ you have the ability to break the cycle of hatred once and for all. ❞ ❝ sensitive questions are my favourite. ❞ ❝ sometimes we assume the worst because we fear to hope. ❞ ❝ it is in blindness we find our true strength. ❞ ❝ i know you know how dangerous this is. ❞ ❝ were you attacked because you’re different? ❞ ❝ who knows, maybe we’ll be friends again. ❞ ❝ i won’t let anything happen to you. ❞ ❝ you can fight battles and wear dresses. you can do both. ❞ ❝ holy men are the most depraved. ❞ ❝ watch me burn all the memories of you. ❞ ❝ what’s the difference between you and a heap of shit? eventually, the shit will stop smelling. ❞ ❝ you’re offering me up as sacrifice? ❞ ❝ our best chance is to kill the hatred we hold on to and move on. ❞ ❝ everywhere i go, people die. ❞ ❝ sometimes i feel like i could burn the whole world. ❞ ❝ was it worth it? ❞ ❝ you are brave, but let me help you. ❞ ❝ there is only death here. ❞ ❝ unlike you, i’m not one to waste power on such frivolous nonsense. ❞ ❝ the battle must have really taken it out of you. ❞ ❝ i know. i know you want to scream. ❞ ❝ that’s the problem. no one knows anything about you. who you are, what you are, where you are, what you want. ❞ ❝ my friend, you are very far from fine. ❞ ❝ i look a tad different since you saw me last. ❞ ❝ we both need to keep a low profile, it seems. ❞ ❝ we won. but barely. ❞ ❝ i hope there’s a plaque to commemerate your greatness. ❞ ❝ i will not let us down. ❞ ❝ i’ve never known a human to give out of the kindness of their heart. ❞ ❝ every day increases the risk of being found. ❞ ❝ forget faith. we’ve got power. ❞ ❝ your precious leader’s after something. you are a pawn to get it. ❞ ❝ are you my inquisitor or my executioner? ❞ ❝ you are a hero to me and many others. ❞ ❝ we’re only staying until the storm dies. ❞ ❝ so i’m your destiny? whatever that means. ❞ ❝ i won’t be here forever to protect you. ❞ ❝ faith sustains us all in dark times. ❞ ❝ your pain is my pain. ❞ ❝ everything i was told my whole life was a lie. ❞ ❝ after everything we did, what we saw…you turned your back on me. ❞ ❝ we all have our time in the sun. ❞ ❝ if you have an ulterior motive, you can tell me. ❞ ❝ from the moment we met, you have been trying to fill a void. ❞ ❝ history does have a way of repeating itself, doesn’t it? ❞ ❝ they’re desperate. which means they’re dangerous. ❞ ❝ i’m doing everything i can to keep you safe. ❞ ❝ i said don’t touch me. ❞ ❝ i’m one of the lucky ones. depending on your definition of luck. ❞ ❝ i don’t see any side upon which you are not entirely fucked. ❞ ❝ there are forces at play larger than we know. ❞ ❝ you will destroy us all. ❞ ❝ i don’t know who you are, but come any closer and you’ll regret it. ❞ ❝ i…dreamed about you once. ❞ ❝ it’s been a difficult few months…but things seem to be finally turning a corner. ❞ ❝ what is it with men lurking about this place? ❞ ❝ oh, what’s the hurry? ❞ ❝ ___. it’s nice to finally put a face to the name. ❞ ❝ in times of war, hard decisions must be made. ❞ ❝ if you free me, perhaps we can work together. ❞ ❝ you remind me of an old friend. ❞ ❝ i was stupid, and i was selfish. ❞ ❝ i have always considered you my equal partner. i wish i could prove to you that i’m worthy of the same. ❞ ❝ what are you doing out here in the middle of east bloody nowhere? ❞ ❝ family, blood…that’s the only bond that can’t be broken. ❞ ❝ when i’m with you, i don’t feel alone anymore. ❞ ❝ are you all right? who did this? ❞ ❝ what i’m really asking you is…is this what pleases you? ❞ ❝ we could be entangled in a war again before we know it. ❞ ❝ why do you want this so badly? ❞ ❝ there are those obsessed with finding power, and those who know their place. ❞ ❝ i’m asking you for help. for once, will you give me it? ❞ ❝ you dare show your face here? ❞ ❝ i wasn’t sure you’d make it. ❞ ❝ i wouldn’t ask you if it wasn’t unnecessary. ❞ ❝ your aim’s gone to shit. ❞ ❝ i pay you to solve my problems, not fill my head with piling bad news. ❞ ❝ the monsters aren’t new. they’re just new to here. ❞ ❝ i have some wounds that refuse to heal. ❞ ❝ you were having a nightmare. i came to check on you. ❞ ❝ please stay. don’t go. ❞

“I once believed love would be burning red, but it’s golden.”