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First off: She’s in my head and she won’t go away. Second: I considered making her a different regeneration, but it’s very important to me the Thirteenth Doctor be female, and Amanda is who I would vote for to play her.

So simply put, my Thirteen is different. I just wanted to say yes, I know I’ve got the same FC, but they’re different Doctors, and that’s totally okay. She’s great and does wonderful things that I would never dream of doing. My Thirteen isn’t her Thirteen.

This is not okay. I don’t want my url to be associated with a copy cat. And I’m sure the mun of the other blog doesn’t want her doctor or doctor’s fc to be confused with your mediocre copy. Seriously.

Let’s talk about this bullshit I just got sent to me. Let’s talk about this. Because it’s about me. Let’s clear this up RIGHT NOW. 

You have this giant victim complex that is hilarious. You think I am the only person in the universe that does NOT like you. I’m not sugar coating this. I do not fucking like you. I tried to avoid you. But you wouldn’t leave me the FUCK ALONE. It all started when I made a TARDIS blog OVER A YEAR  AGO  and you were so sure I copied you and made an OOC about my rules. I called you out and you denied it. From that point on I knew I did not want to be your friend. But you continued to badger me. You tried to get into my friend group and suck the literal shit out of my ass because I was ‘popular’. This is what you do. You befriend people because they are ‘popular’. You are not genuine, you are not kind. You are all about getting people to join your army instead of genuinely caring about people. And I wanted not a damn shady thing to do with it. But you just wouldn’t FUCK OFF. I was at a miserable time in my life. Working my ass off and having low tolerance for internet bullshit because I have shit to do. This was over a YEAR AGO. I couldn’t make you go away. All of my friends could not see through your bullshit and I did not want it. You had buried yourself deep into my friend group and I just left it. It wasn’t until I called you out in private that I became public enemy number one. Oh no!! Someone seeing through my bullshit and not sucking my ass and telling me how great I am?! ROT IN HELL, CASS. Everyone would always come crying to me about how fucking mean and hateful you are because they knew I was the only one who stood up to you. You’re a twisted bitch. Even now. I was convinced people can grow in a year. But it seems I still stayed fresh in your mind. Me and a few others who had dealt with your shit found friendship and support through your disgusting ways. Because it was just AMAZING to us how horrible someone could be and NO ONE see it. You’re like a germ. You multiply until you were just everywhere and all of us who wanted nothing to do with you could not find peace. 

I WAS GONE FOR SIX MONTHS. UNLIKE YOU, I HAVE DREAMS AND ASPIRATIONS AND A CAREER. I moved out and started my training for movie makeup. And even when I was away, I still got sent that you were so convinced every little anon every little burn book was from me. I WASN’T EVEN  AROUND, YOU PSYCHO. IT. WASN’T. ME. DO. YOU. GET. IT?  Even so, why would someone like me, who works with professionals and celebrities stalk some low life internet hermit who sends her own friends anons because she was jealous over a ROLEPLAY FICTIONAL SHIP like you? Take a step back and look. You fucking wish I was just oh so obsessed with you like you dream every night that I’m your abuser/stalker when you are CLEARLY MINE. And here I have been for the past six months, NOT GIVING A RATS ASS BECAUSE YOU ARE IRRELEVANT. And I should have been irrelevant to you. But I guess you have a hard time letting people go who dare stand up to you.

I checked your blog because you came back and I was damn well pissed. I didn’t want you to come back because I basically left because of you. My mom died and I deal with that, my life was hard, and you just made it x10 worse. A right sour taste in my mouth.  But now things are grand. I have an awesome job and I could give fuck all less if anyone listens now. But in case anyone is reading this, and I have been in this community a lot longer than you have, I just need to cast them a little warning. Because what the fuck have you done for people on here besides make everyone make graphics for you and just constantly complain?  You can tell by how finished I am with how much I’m cursing in this post. You are beating a dead horse. A horse that had been dead for 8 months on my end. I had no idea it was still active to you.

I want people to know you’re a monster. And I’m the one who should be taking legal actions against you. You tried to get people to find out where I live. That’s very fucking strange. But I don’t care. It’s the internet. For fucks sake.

It was a fucking accident I reblogged your post. As soon as I saw the source I deleted it so fast. Blowing shit out of proportions here. JUST CLASSIC YOU.

Before, I didn’t care that much. But now I do. Fuck you, Lulu. You’re a terrible person and you can rot in hell for all the pain you’ve caused everyone else on this website. Ones who aren’t like me, and it actually hurts them and upsets them. Just fucking stop. Stop trying to convince people everyone is out to get you when you’re the one causing trouble and being a toxic mother fucker for everyone. I am so tired of this shit. You are a grown woman. Get your shit together and just fuck off. 

TL;DR

shes still going guys

so the lulu thing is just this ongoing fucking drama because this girl is a fucking bully. she’s attacked cass repeatedly over the course of months and has been a general scourge for years

but hi i was the original victim basically. lulu messaged me about rping like two weeks after she joined tumblr. i turned her down, because she didn’t have any ideas at all, and she…didnt like that. at all. she went off her fucking head at me for turning her down. i published her message because like hell im going to let people treat me that way, and it blew up

since then, dozens, and i mean dozens of people have come forward to tell me about similar things. People have been bullied into rping with her, shipping with her, and basically forced into this gross fucked up abusive friendship with her. I know like a good two thirds of the active rp community, and have not met anyone who actually likes her.

you know who i have met?

tens and tens of people who roleplay with her because if you don’t, she sends you messages. she complains constantly. she starts drama. drama like this. drama like she started with michi, john and dawn.

she is a vicious, cruel little girl with a massive sense of entitlement. she has made people leave. she has made the community unsafe, especially among younger users who unlike cass and me, aren’t mature enough to recognise these tactics and aren’t able to escape this kind of manipulation.

Let me lay down some things before I get into what she did to me.

It was about two years ago that I met Lulu. Originally, she based her Idris’ story on the Interfector, and from the beginning, she wanted a ship with the Interfector. Everyone who follows Dawn (Interfector’s mun) pretty much knows this as fact. Dawn herself can tell you this as well based on private conversations with Lulu herself. I’ve seen these conversations.

She befriended myself and John (mun of the-tenth-will-see-you-now). She added us to Skype, sent us the nicest asks, and made super positive posts about us. She did this quite frequently. So frequently that I actually started to think she genuinely liked us– that she genuinely liked me.

It was nice. Besides with Dawn and John, I’d never felt so appreciated on a blog before Lulu came around. I genuinely believed the nice things she said about me as things she felt. I bought it.

For a time.

Fast forward to around… idk March 2014? I honestly don’t remember, I’m horrible with dates. Lulu began voicing her opinions about one of my ships publicly on her blogs. About how she didn’t like it, and one of my ships was better than the other etc.

It made me uncomfortable, and it hurt my feelings. She didn’t need to post that kind of stuff publicly. So I asked her over Skype to please keep her comments about the ship to herself from then on because I didn’t appreciate it and it hurt my feelings. She quickly apologized and stopped from then on, and deleted the post. I thought that was the end of it.

I made it pretty clear on my blog Mason isn’t a shippable character. But she persisted, and I told her we’d see how things develop between them, because why not? Unexpected things happen all the time in RP. Suddenly, there was an increase in communication with me that I found odd. Was she suddenly speaking to me so much just because she wanted a ship? Probably.

Anyway, things never got to that point so it doesn’t matter. She sent someone she called a friend anon hate, and I was done with her at that point. Michi is an amazing person who believed Lulu was her friend. She didn’t deserve the cruel hate she received. 

As stated in Michi’s post there, it was over a ship. I know she’s spinning it to people on Skype. I know she’s spinning it to people on Tumblr, but it was 100% over a ship. 

Hey, hi, my name is Ghost. You may know of me from the blogs:doctoroverlord && corruptedpetals and I am here to share my story. I am a very patient and forgiving person, I’d like to think; but there is one way to lose me for good. Cause a full scale panic attack melt down, or treat me like shit honestly. When I first began, I was small in the Doctor who fandom, but as New Gallifrey began to grow, so did I. It was about when I had reached my 800th follower that I met Lulu.  At first I was intrigued by her muse and we began quick friends and began to plot. I honestly had no problem shipping her with my Doctor. But I began to notice a pattern: she had to control everything, always had to be right, she had to be better than everything and honestly, her muse seemingly had no flaws. But I looked passed that and the controlling nature in which she and her muse ruled. Until one night we were talking about someone who had hurt her. Now I enjoy listening to other peoples’ problems and listened to hers with joy. But when she began to tell me about this person, I too had had dealings with them and wanted to warn my new budding friends (quietly) about them. Well, one of the people I told went back to Lulu and well– she literally went apeshit on me. And when I told her she had triggered a full scale panic attack, she kept going, she didn’t care. I was terrified, I tried to apologize and every time I spoke with her, she treated me more and more like shit until I couldn’t take it anymore. I blocked her and went about my way on the Doctor Who fandom; but it wasn’t the same, she was everywhere and soon.. I left. I felt as if I didn’t belong, I lost friends mysteriously, people blocked me.. I felt as if I had done something truly wrong. It took me a full week to realize: It wasn’t me. I had tried to save a few friends who fucked me over and in turn showed me that a true m o n s t e rlurked in my midst. After that, I got angry, I hated her and deemed she didn’t exist. A few times, I can count them on my fingers, she has had mutual friends try to apologize to me from her. But I refuse to have any of it. I was emotionally, and mentally abused and I wasn’t going back for seconds. Take caution if you befriend this person; she is mentally ill and until she gets the help she truly needs, she won’t stop. I’ve lived with someone who has her exact problems and they don’t stop, they don’t understand how to stop. So we must stop them, even help them understand what they’re doing is wrong.

My story might not be as much as other people’s, but everything definitely adds up when you take it into context with what everyone else has said, and there are a lot of similar patterns to what has happened with others.

I am absolutely sick reading it. On behalf of everyone ABOVE mentioning what she has done. One, for using suicide and TWO mental issues to blame for her actions. You are not the only one who is suicidal in the roleplay community, or online even.Why do you think there are people who browse the internet more than others in the world? They find comfort in the reality they don’t have. You disgusted me then, and you disgust me now. How dare you show your face and not even say a trace of an apology to these masses of people above. Even in the notes. Why can’t you just apologize? its been 3 months.

I had a bit of debate about this. I initially was just going to delete it like I did the other messages, since it’s clear my mutuals only rule is getting ignored here. But I decided instead to try be a bit more helpful (this might just come across as rude so oops but oh well).

Personally, and I know some other RPers feel the same, I really dislike all variations of asks like this (I think we’ve all gotten “RP?” “Wanna RP?” etc asks before). I mean, yes I appreciate that someone wants to interact with me, but there are other ways to initiate it, ways that seem more thoughtful. This isn’t really about the issue of ignored rules, but rather how to approach people.

If there’s someone you want to RP with, sending an ask is good, but I suggest the ask has some sort of idea within it. And some sort of greeting too, otherwise it’s quite rude.

Think about your muse and the muse you want to interact with, come up with a few different plots/thread ideas or admit you don’t have an idea and ask if they have any ideas they would wish to RP with your muse.

Message them like, “Hey there! I really love your muse and portrayal and I would love to rp with you sometime.”

If you have an idea, add it on like, “I was thinking it would be cool to do a thread with our muses doing *insert idea* or *insert other idea*. If those don’t interest you or you have another idea, let me know.”

If you don’t have an idea, say something like, “I don’t have a thread idea yet, but if you have one, I’d love to hear it. Or we could look through some sentence starter memes and plot together.”

    ❝Well — Nine hundred and eight — It’s a big     number, ain’t it? Ain’t it a tad possible your     hearin’ ain’t as good as it used to be, Doc’?❞

    There’s a moment’s pause before the flapper     finally relented, pulling out a small jar of The     Doctor’s prized hair gel out from behind her     back, && holding it up high above here head     where he ( hopefully ) would have at least a      LITTLE bit of trouble reaching.

His jaw squared,   the   Doctor’s   patience   growing  just a smidge thin. She always teased him.  ALWAYS.   Their   cultural   differences   was such a pain sometime. If she   was   from   just   a   decade   later   she probably   would   have   fancied   his   hair, he thought. The sight of his hair gel had   him   react  quickly,   lunging   forward   and   coming to a halt as she raised it over her   head.   He   was   too    proud to reach for it. (Or maybe it was because   they   were   exactly   the   same   height. It was still an odd thing for him.) Adjusting   his  jacket,  the  Time  Lord sighed heavily, brown eyes casting her up  and down. This  was  a  time machine. A time machine full of bits and bobs. But she was a tricky one.

❛---Anythin’.❜

It don’t even gotta be an actual mermaid it can be a shark mermaid or a seahorse mermaid or even just a human stuck underwater

EDIT: SOMEONE WAS KIND ENOUGH TO SEND THE VERSION WITH MERMEN

SPREAD THIS VERSION AROUND TOO FOR THE BOYS!!

❛Because if I remember correctly, and --maybe my nine hundred and eight year old memory is failing me, it’s  you   who  tells me you don’t quite like   my   hair.❜   He took a sharp inhale,  giving   his shoulders a shrug and turning on his heel,  ❛And--stating the obvious. It is only   you   and  I  on  board.❜

Turning around   and   lowering   his   chin. Yes, he was looking directly into her soul.