t h r a s h e r

before you fall in love with me, know i am a wildfire. i bite & i roar & i don’t do anything softly: i will not glow for you like a candle girl would. my kiss may set you alight, my touch may turn you to ash. i’m sorry. just know that i’ll never smother myself to the ground for you.

HER: Do you love me? Yes or no.   HIM: It’s more complicated than that.   HER: Just answer me so I can let you go.   HIM: I’m not going to answer you.   HER: Why?   HIM: Because I can’t have you letting me go.   HER: I hate you.   HIM: I love you.

“the truth is, i do love you, more than i should. and with you, the lines between platonic and romantic are blurred and i’m sort of fucked up like that, i’m kind of a tangled mess of affection for you that can’t sort itself out. i don’t know platonic from romantic when i’m near you, and i do love you. i just don’t know how.”

“I like the sea: we understand one another. It is always yearning, sighing for something it cannot have; and so am I.”

I’ve spent everyday since you left; crawling between dictionary pages; looking. But there is no word for this kind of pain. No word for the way your heart explodes silently between your lungs; a nuclear bomb in a land the world forgot. No word for the way your stomach drops like a man without a parachute. No word for that moment; when you realize you’ve had your head in the clouds all this time. No word for the taste on your tongue after trying cough up a broken heart. No word for the sound of empty promises cracking open in the hollow of your ears. No word for the way it hurts to become a regret; a left behind; a yellowed memory forgotten in the darkest corner of their mind while they shine so bright in yours; it burns. No word sad enough; empty enough; harsh enough; desperate enough to describe this kind of pain; Except your name.

I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did. And you didn’t mean to hurt me, but you did.

We made eachother feel something . It’s okay if it wasn’t love , It’s okay if we were too scared to call it love .

I was so fucking soft for you and you ruined me.

In alcohol’s defense, I’ve done some pretty dumb shit completely sober.