Confused Wannabe Girlie

Hi and welcome If you are easily offended this is not the place for you please leave now. Still here where to start,male,50`s, married happily to a very understanding woman.. i gave up drinking,smoking and caffeine all at the same time and a long fight with withdrawal anxiety and depression, I find myself in an unfamiliar place, I now find myself looking out and questioning my gender my sexuality how long have i been suppressing these feeling. I now find myself wanting to be more female. I still find women sexually attractive,but I am also now drawn to some men. I have started wear some clothing around the house and panties when i go out. Please comment or give advice I need all the help I can get