Ink Bloom

One of many writings will be posted these days, well I'm not an expert just I'm feeling it..

"The first time we met"

It's hard for me to forget you.

Do you still think of me? It's the constant question wandering through my mind.

I know I promised I would forget you,

But...

I can't forget the first time we met; there was something we couldn't hide.

I promise to forget you...

Our laughter, the knowing glances.

I promise to forget you...

Those genuine feelings, that innate connection.

I promise to forget you...

That dreamlike afternoon I can't leave behind, where time seemed to stand still around us.

I promise to leave you behind...

One moment to the next, we met again. I admit I couldn't help but feel nostalgia when I saw you, and for a moment, a glimmer of hope appeared—only to fade away.

I promise to leave you behind...

We were two strangers who knew each other too well—or perhaps not anymore.

"I promise to leave you behind" is what I keep repeating to myself... but am I really sure?

I promise to forget you—or at least, that's what I want to believe...

"Nothing won, nothing lost",

I say,

Warrior with a heart of gold.

What I had and what was left of us,

Lost in backyard fires.

I know I say I regretted everything,

Too many a story I told.

I would go back and do it all again,

But we're lost in backyard fires,

But you're all my heart desires,

Even though I'm tired.

Beautiful, those eyes that embraced. They were the color of the smell of coffee when I entered my favorite cafe, a bold, but welcoming presence. The color of crisp autumn leaves as they crunched underneath my footsteps. They steadily held me in their gaze, blurring out the rest of the unseen, colorful world around me. I focused every bit of attention I could ever muster into the wonderful sight before me. You noticed this, making a soft hum that I recognized as an inquiring note, but instead of asking a question like I had expected, I noticed a sort of change in your eyes. They softened, like the sensation of silk draping across skin. They melted like the drizzle of honey in the morning, showing the rich sweetness in the ring of color within the oval of white. They were eyes like the feeling of wet sand at the beach, soft and warm. Like the waves that came to kiss my feet as I walked along the shores, they swayed me ever so gently, but just enough to rock me off balance. In your eyes, I saw myself enveloped in a color of love.

I didn’t know that I would someday miss that feeling. I didn’t know that someday, you would give me that look one final time. All I know is that as each day passed, the glimmer in your eye dimmed. Every time you looked at me was every time that I noticed another piece of you was gone. 

Just like that.. You faded away. You were swept away like fallen leaves departing from their trees in the autumn. You slipped from my fingers like sand longing to be back to the beach.

And when you held me in your gaze, I knew.