MULTIFANDOMRAT

let's ignore last post completely mk? ANAYWAYS!! GUESSSSS WHAAATTT!??? I have all the toons in dandys world! And I'm not so happy about it... I'm working on mastering them and getting the trinkets and whatever but then what?... what do I do? Oh! Pfft! I already have a solution!! COOKIE RUN KINGDOM! welp yeah! Its currently 9:35 at night. On a school night 💀 like girl get some sleep! Hehe NAH. OH! I came up with two other Dandys worl AUs and I uh.... oh the previous one.... uhm... yeah... about that. I'm really lazy so... ill post something tonight PROMISE!! and if I don't then just call me a bunch of mean names ig? Uhm oh yeah! I'm like actually gonna kms!! HAHA nah. Anyways Bye Bye!! I Love you all!!!!

I have no desire to sleep nor to stay awake

Im tired but then not.

What do i do?

I can't keep up with this

Im sleepy

But refuse to sleep

Ive noticed I'm eating less

But why?

I don't know

Am I okay?

I don't know?

I should sleep

No I won't for some reason

I don't have insomnia

So then what?

Am I just being stubborn?

Whats going on?

hello again. It's been a while ig. I'm awake at 11:20 on a school night. I'm not feeling tired rn but effects will take place later on in the day I suppose. I really don't know how to feel about my life rn. I promise everyone these great things and that I'll make everyone's life easier in my family but I dint know anymore. High school is not too far anymore and the clocks ticking. What do I wanna be? I wanna be rich but let's be realistic thats unlikely at lest for me. I'll try to at least keep the promise of getting out Dandys world x ETM. I'm doing my best here but it seems that isn't enough. I feel like shit and don't know weather I should go to bed or not. Idk tho. It probably doesn't matter either my body will fail to function during the day ir I'll give in eventually and fall asleep but who knows. I might be gone a while again though schools hitting like it's raining bricks

it's low key been a Lil while. But i want you all to know I somewhat have therapy!! 😃 can we get a "yippee" or a "yay" for me?? LOL Anyway I don't actually have a therapist (tho I need one) but i decided to (well not me I was somewhat forced) write about my day from know on! It's alright I guess but I'm a bit TO honest in there... yeah send help... anyway I'm not even supposed to he in my phone rn! I'm supposed to be asleep 👁👄👁 (I have school at 6:00) it's currently 10:24 am? Epic the musical X dandy world will ve out soon I'm just a but lazy and tired and oh god how my body's begging me to sleep rn!! Ugh I'm tired so bye for now (I'm probably gonna stay up a Lil more tho.. just to torture me 😗💅✨️)

so 1st things 1st... WHY TF DID NOBODY TELL ME CONNIE AND LOONEY GOT SKINS!?!??! I brought them both instantly... HEHEHEHE... anyway! I haven't been sleeping again 👁👄👁 so that's lovely also... oop- should I even say this? I feel like it'll give me away... uhm.. imma just say my pookie left early today 😭😭 I was so sad but they had a doctors appointment sooooooooooo... you keep you kneecaps for now pookie!! Anyways the rest if the day was hella depressing like I had no energy after I found out they left. Is that bad? When I got picked up from school today all I did was complain and complain about how they left early. Honestly I'm so fucking tired but I don't wanna sleep soooooooooo like... yeah! I think I'm a little obsessed with my friend and that's a bad thing yk why?? My hyper fixations are super bad for fictional characters so imagine a real life person... who I can talk to and physically poke at!?? I had an idea that was he'll nasty now that I think about it I'm not gonna say it because... reasons but I need to find another distraction or calm tf down. I don't wanna do anything stupid that might get me in trouble and I mean like... with the fucking law. Fuck....I miss them. My uncle was all like "if they found out-.." IF THEY FIND OUT?? HA! NAH! I'm gonna make absolute SURE! they never find out HEHEHEHEHE although I've been slipping up recently and things might click for them here and irl soooooo. I might be cooked? I don't really think it'll click for them tho they keep getting bricks thrown at them from school so thier too busy to notice (I think) I'm honestly worried for them bc they've been posting some like crazy shit... it makes me worry bc they don't tell me this shit irl so how tf am I supposed to bring it up?? Yk what's crazy?? I think I'm in love. FUCK THAT SHIT THO!! I'm never falling in love yk why (not with my friend btw!!) Because that shit is just extra stress tho I'd like to be loved (I'd describe how but it'd sound chessy...) BUT NUH UH! NOPE NOT FOR AT LEAST 3 MORE YEARS!!

No 1, I HAVE MY SECOND MAIN SPROUT!!! 🥳🥳

No 2, I HAVE 100 PERCENT RESEARCH ON SHELLY!!!! 🥳🥳

No 3, I'm like a little over halfway to bobette!!

No 4, I found really good players and niw we play frequently:3

No 5, I saw astro vee and shelly in the same run but different floors !!!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHE

Some results from the only run I took pictures of.... yeah I was haveing zero fun but yeah....

WHO SAID SHELLY CANT DISTRACT!?

For context we were haveing a really good run but my sound cut out for whatever reason and blackouts and no sound don't mix so I died and decided to stick around a bit AND SHELLY IS AN ABSOLUTE GOD! She was literally distracting all the twisteds and didn't lose a single heart! They said later that they usually wear distractor trinkets im case the main one dies but that on that run specifically they didn't/forgot. They ended up dying tho and bobette was the only survivor.... I think?

Btw the whole Epic the musical X dandys world thing might take an even longer time to create since 1). Voting isn't done. 2) I've not finished the casts yet (for both) 3. Designs 💀 and finally School is starting back up again. So sorry about that. I plan to force myself to make animations but nothing is promised. (OOP! I forgot.... also my mom decided to make up sleep earlier 😐.... thanks mom....)

y'know what? I'm so tired of myself. Why can't I be normal and girly like my mom wants me to be? Why do I have to have weird interest? Why am I so mentally unstable!? Why can't I get my grades up? Why can't I change myself? Why can't I see the toxicity!? Why do I have to me so sensitive? Why can't they stop fighting!? Why won't the yelling stop? Why am i jealous? Why aren't I happy? Why can't I take care of myself!? IM SUPPOSED TO GO TO HIGH SCHOOL AFTER THIS FUCKING SCHOOL YEAR!!!! I'm never going to make it as a fucking animator if I can't pull my shit together. Sometimes I really wonder why I try with myself? My mom she's a good mom she takes care of us and is changing jobs to be with us more but still I feel unloved and unwanted. It doesn't help that my brothers constantly bully me. It's so weird all of this. It's so easy to get ride of by just ending it all. But I've tried so many times and I've never been able to. I am afraid death but that's not what I think about when I try. I think of my friends. What would they think? Would they blame themselves? Would they miss me? Would they cry? Why would they cry? I feel so bad all the time and it all really hurts. I know I shouldn't be rambling on about this on here. I should seek therapy but I can never reach out for help. They'd contact my mom and then things would get even worse for me. I really miss my friends thier the only good thing I have right now.

I didn't take pictures of the run I found her in. But I was super happy. (I'd basically turned my wallpaper and homescren to vee Pictures and didreverse psychology basically saying "Scew Vee! I want Sprout!!"

We love our king Dandy! <3 (sometimes)

Uh oh....

Yay!!

Uh oh... I died...

Somewhere In chat thiers a conversation with me and a Poppy asking how to do her mastery:3 I was low key happy

We trued doing a brighty run but cosmo joined so... naturally . . .

Yeah.....

It was a really good run but then later on I died trying to be a hero. Pebble was camping a fellow Brighty and well Brightys stealth isn't the best... so I'm all like "I can so do this".... I died... but they got it done and moved on so yeah!

Then I decided ti plat Cosmo and y'know what? I forgot how fun it is to play Cosmo. Fun Fact I keep misgendering him 😀 (I probably spelled that wrong) eventually it was just me and the other Cosmo. There was a Sprout but he died earlier. We got Astroke... I mean Astro and O.M.G bro must have been REAL THIRSTY. I was in a room doing the last machine but Cosmos skill check is buns so I kept missing and he'd always come over and just drink like half if the machine!!! We made it out but damn!

Idk what run this is from but yeah...

Alsi I decided ti be a distractor for once and guess what??? THIS PERSON DISTRACTED DANDY FIR THE 1ST TIME AND DIDN'T GET HIT!!! I don't have a picture because there's a reason I don't distract ... my hands are so shaky omg it's not funny.. I died later in a blackout and we got a total of two chill guy floors so that's a plus. M'kay bye bye for now!! I love you all so so much!! And just remember your amazing!! <3