"COMING STRAING FROM YOUR HOUSE!"

I had never really been exposed to videogames with intricate stories and memorable dialogue at the time, so undertale was revolutionary in my eyes. I know that sounds silly, but that was a huge moment for me. I was in my tweens seemingly recovered from the worst years of my life at the time. I was obsessed with the idea of videogame lore, and undertale was just the gift that kept on giving. The many endings, the character development of beloved npcs, the meta narrative about a players relationship to a game, I learned just about EVERYTHING about this game. I think the only thing I never memorized was all the endings. Primarily bc I was one of those no genocide run kids or whatever. I didn't comment or anything, I just didn't like the run.

But the fandom was both a blessing, and torture for my OCD. On one hand, there were comics that explored all sorts of potential stories, alternate universes/timelines, had all sorts of goofy bits and gags galore. On the other crusty side of the coin I went through self inflicted hell after being flash banged by horny pictures of my favorite short skeleton, and the shipping, ages up frisk stuff was really upsetting to me. My massive crush on sans also fucked me up bad in the intrusive thoughts dept. Bc like 'what if he likes me back??? He'd be a pedo and I don't want him to be a pedo!" So it was like intense yearning, but I was also scared of him, and obsessed in general, but I couldn't stop thinking about him so I just was in sans limbo for like 5 years. And then I finally got some fucking meds and I could just be like 10% more normal Abt him.

And then I fell completely out of love at chapter 4 bc bro wtf I thought you were cool, but now you're just l. Idk now he's just... I'm keeping an eye out bc maybe I'm wrong, but like I'm also kinda glad I'm not really into him anymore bc that crush has a LOT of emotional baggage. I feel like once I got over the para social heartbreak, I just accepted he's a morally dubious character and moved on. Like I still appreciate him, but I'm not glazing him until he is redeemed in my eyes. Like yeah he's a complex, well written character who can be a real badass, but he's also someone I just don't trust anymore. I think that's kind of the point. And ngl that's a little too real. That feeling of someone you thought you knew doing something wrong and now you feel like you don't know them at all. And now that I know that, I feel strangely apathetic now to him. Like he's just sans idk. Hell do what he does, and it's up to me to decide if I like him as a character. Because I don't know why he's 'like that' in deltarune, I don't think Im as sympathetic towards the sans I knew in undertale.

So like, that kind of bothers me ig. It's not that big of a deal bc I'm more focused on real life anyways, and spamtenna on the occasion bc that ship is still absurd to me.

But ohh my God I love this game and community. No matter what I've gone through, I can't ever loathe this game. People are so talented and creative, always coming up with new ideas to further my appreciation for the writing of this colorful cast. The story beats may be ingrained in my head, and frankly I'm slowly moving on, but I will always appreciate the theories, creativity, and imagination the fandom has.

Personally I'm growing more attached to deltarune now. I still love the development the blorbos are getting in deltarune, but it's much less para social and insane than it used to be. I love this game sm it takes what made undertale great and ramped it up to 11. Peak fiction! Peak!!

I've only been a fan of the game for 8 out of the 10 years, but I'll say this. Thank you Toby Fox, you're goated asf for making the most emotional, musical, funny, and personal works of fiction, and I'm glad to be on the hype train for the rest of deltarune's awesome journey. <3

Sorry I couldn't make a godsend work of art, I just don't have any ideas ATM. My art block has been really bad for a while now.... If I come up with something I'll draw it. Also I'm so sad I missed the even where people got to write about their relationship with undertale bc that was like the PERFECT opportunity to get my thoughts and thinking's out there and I DIDNT BC I MISSED IT AAAASSGHHHHHFIKWNFKSK

I guess I'm just more into other things rn, but I just wanted to like talk about how ut changed me as a person and I'm greatful how it positively impacted me. Maybe not so much the negative stuff, but that was more of a fandom thing rather than the game.

Woah angst :0 came up with this whole thinking of an AMV while listening to Want Some Fun by Musiclide.

He sure does encapsulate something...

Cw: blood, stab wounds

(yes the pencil is intentional)

Then I was like man I gotta make something cool for my older bro... why me

Now I gotta wake up after like 3 hours of shleep... uuuaaghhhhvykfjf

Update: they loved the gifts! My older bro said he wanted to make a craft for me in return and my younger bro said he could never make the mask I did (which I doubt hes really good with cardboard projects.)

Cw: some blood

As someone who is about 3/4 through season one ish, its pretty good so far. With it being a minecraft rp, things are very aprofessional and the editor just doesnt give a flying fuck. Sometimes the bg music is way to loud, sometimes the plot is interrupted by someone needing to leave. They can take it out, but they just don't, and its incredibly frustrating. I don't love it, but like, its investing, the drama is solid, and scps are really cool.

Onto the characters themselves:

Davis- He's cold and bitter, seems to deny any sort of positivity, and is all around a bitch. He complains about pretty much anything, and I understand where he's coming from in his situation, but g o d it can get annoying. But he also has his reasons. His ability causing him to remember how he dies every time he comes back, there is an insane amount of horror this man has seen. Hes died from both scps and people over and over again. He's taken advantage of his ability and will try time and time again under the idea he can get what he wants in the end. He's become pretty messed up and depressed in this state. He's either used or waiting to be used and he will do anything to get out. A total badass, but like I get tired of him complianing. Like dude you have a bed. remember being D-class? Yeah fuckin' appreciate it before its gone and you're back at square one. You don't have to pretend to be happy, just value what you got.

And with his trust issues, he can never see the good in the people he's working with (Kat SHE DESERVES BETTER) and its both his and the foundation's fault for this. Kat had to treat him like an experiment. She had to treat d-class like that, but Davis didn't get that. He still doesn't because he REFUSES to believe any of the researchers no matter how much integrity they show. Kind of silly and annoying of him, but thats kinda how trauma works.

I also forgot to mention I really liked him early on. He was like this angry lil guy who was pissed in his circumstance. His ability was rediscovered after those anesthetics messed with his brain. The atmosphere was great. These solitary rooms as Davis sees just how large this place is in his attempts to break free. The endless staircase and the meat room were probably my favorite parts of pre-scp Davis. I liked the mystery of that a lot.

After that its just been moments where there isn't much horror to it, but the angst is really good sometimes.

Once he found out he was a father, that frustration I had with him has lessened, given that kid is the one thing that makes him happy in this personal hell of his. And he only got to see the kid once and since hes been transparent about that. The thing is the foundation doesn give a fuck, so Harkmann and Kat had to put in work just to get it to happen. Again, Davis just doesn't think they care. I think I just want him to be a better person... and like maybe his son will do that. That'd be very sweet.

I also find it funny that Davis's self insert is a jacked badass who cannot die.

Kat- I like her. I didn't have much to say about her for a good chunk of the series, but she's the embodiment of "trying her best :'(" Shes new to her job, she just wants to help people, and shes gone through some awful stuff. For one, shes had to live through some horrific events. Containment breaches, held at gunpoint, stalked to the point where she couldn't stay in her own home, and kidnapped by that Cain cult. She lies that her kindness is for the complicity of Davis. That's just... tragic. At least she has a good relationship with Dr. Harkmann.

SPEAKING OF:

Dr. Harkmann- He's complicated for me. On one hand he came off as pretty kind and thoughtful of his fellow researchers, but if you get on his bad side, he can be brutal. That's sounds cool, but it hurts from the fact Davis had to go through some more torture after he blackmailed the foundation and Kat's life. He got pretty protective of her and goes pretty easy on her compared to the other colleages. It's not out of sexism so I respect that greatly. But kinda like Davis he can be a bitch. He feel like he has to put on this mask to be a cold and collected scientest and see any SCP as an experiement, no matter the sentience. He was also kind of taught to be that way. Idk his story is cool, I'm just not a big fan of who he is.

Reggie- Not enough screentime or standout scenes to form an opinion. He developed a hatred for Davis after... something went wrong. 99% sure it was the gunpoint situation, but it could have also been the time he knew he was killed. The time where- idk he was pretty chill but I just kind of stopped caring about him after some time I was watching.

Uh anyways. Good series. Lotta bad pacing (imo) so I get bored easily. 3/4 of them need therapy. Kat just got to see a therapist from where I'm at.

CW: blood, angst, spoilers for season 1

Lunar nooo :(

I also remade the thumbnail and I'm pretty proud of it.

(Old image here)

I procrastinated finishing this for a LONG time I'm glad I finally got it done.

*sharp inhale*