A Loser like me

My name is Kira

I am 24

I am British

She/her pronouns

I can be very awkward

I like writing, mainly songs but sometimes I have the urge to just write stuff down for a book that will probably never be written.

I am on the waiting list for an autism diagnosis.

I play D&D though currently my party is doing a campaign in pathfinder and it's really fun!

I love musicals however my favourite musical is the Prince of Egypt, I love it more than the film surprisingly.

My favourite film however is how to train your dragon, my parents have gotten me something httyd for Christmas every year since like 2014 because I love it so much

I used to roleplay, especially a lot in like 2019 but it died down and I kind of missed it, it helped with my creative writing.

I am learning to cosplay but as a plus sized woman I find it hard to enjoy it but I'm slowly getting there.

The only people I won't interact with are people who are rude and disrespectful or just like to plain cyberbuly.

My fandoms/Ships

IT chapter one and chapter 2

Linking with the first one, Reddie, Benverly, Stanpat and Bill/Mike

Gravity Falls and the only ship I ship in that show is Stan and Carla

Genshin impact

Kavetham mainly but I don't mind talking about other ones.

Honkai star rail

Danganronpa

Ishimondo

Any of the Markiplier interactive works, my favourite is a heist with Markiplier but space is a very close second.

Sanders Sides

I know how people could be unsure of the whole Carla and Stan stuff in my fic but like, I kinda love their relationship and when I get around to it I'll be writing a what if they never broke up fic and how it changes everything and nothing in Stan's life in a sense plus I like giving Carla more personality hense her friendship with Ford but writing these characters... I don't know, I like that I'm giving them something else, I'm trying to keep the more fleshed out characters the same while also adding bits but for other characters, just giving them more life and personality and feelings to them is really fun.

The Summer of Pines: My first published wip, currently on second chapter, its a reaction fic but it has Carla, Gideon's parents and maybe one or two surprise guests.

Two Starla wip that I'm currently working on. The one I'm focusing on most is a what if scenario where what if Carla and Stan never broke up and he stayed with her during the science fair project night, what would then happen and what would that change going forward.

This is basically some things to do with Carla in my relativity falls au if I decide to write about it, I really want to though. She takes the place of Pacifica but Pacifica takes Fiddleford's place and Fiddleford is like a handyman assistant in the au.

After weirdmageddon she gets Stanley to teach her boxing.

Until she's about 16 years old, whenever she sees like a long tapestry or anything to do with that, she gets a little panicky and claustrophobic due to Bill turning her into one during weirdmageddon.

The Stan twins move to Gravity Falls permanently with Caryn after Dipper finds out that Firebrick hasn't been a good father to his great nephews, and so when Carla and Stan are 15 they begin crushing on each other but don't get together until they are 17.

Ford and Fiddleford like to help her study, turns out she's a lot brighter than her parents ever gave her credit.

She helps with getting Ford and Fiddleford together, especially since the four of them become a tight knit group together and almost give Dipper and Mabel heart attacks from their adventuring. So wanting to see her two best happy makes her happy.

So many freckles on her cheeks as a 12 year old that fade out as she gets older, she still has them, but not as many.

She once lost a tooth at thirteen, a summer the year after everything, having a similar gap tooth to Stan which does cause her to have a small lisp when she speaks . And Ford notices his brother going red at times when they speak to her.

When Stan gets braces, she finds him still extremely charming with them, she's constantly staring at him, finding that his smile basically sparkles with the braces in, she will also glare at anyone or threaten people with social ruin if they dare make fun of Stan's braces.

Carla and Ford are the mini golf fanatics and every year until the twins move to gravity falls, Carla and Ford would have friendly mini golf competitions, the winner earning prizes such as ice cream, Mabel's famous glitter waffles, a chance to use Dipper's ray gun (that was a prize once and never again after what happened the first time.)

She really looks up to the Pines adults, especially after what happened with Bill, they show her what familial love is really supposed to look like, she learns to be creative thanks to Mabel and Dipper helps her grow into her own person, helps her explore what sort of interests she likes especially since her own parents never did.

She helps renovate greasy's diner, and if it happens to have a separate jazz and roller skating area purely because her and Stanley talked about it... She won't say anything.

After wanting to change her ways, she seems to bond with Mrs Gleeful, she gets to see what she looked like when she was younger and seems to fall in love with the 50's/60's style of clothing and music and stuff like that.

She gets clothes from Mrs Gleeful, yes she does get her signature hot pants, but she feels so herself now, no longer does she have to wear specific coloured dresses and outfits that her parents would make her wear.

She bonds with Mrs Gleeful, seeing her as like a mother or aunt figure and also helps her leave Gideon because she still has some influence on her family name... Plus she knows a damn good lawyer.

She never really stopped dancing, however none of her dance partners were ever as good as Stanley.

She was raised by her grandparents, but she really longed for the love of parents.

It's why after her and Stanley's breakup she still visited Caryn, she's the kind of mother she wished she had in her life.

She would sometimes help Caryn out with the phone psychic business, turns out she's quite good at the hustling.

She also keeps a picture of her and Stanley in a pocket or her purse, she especially looks at it after she heard about Stanley's 'death.'

In school she enjoyed English and surprisingly PE, especially after Stanley gave her a few boxing lessons.

After the movie theater incident, even though she is grateful for Stan's help, she wishes she could have done more, so she basically demands Stan to teach her a couple of self defense moves (And Stan can't say no to her.)

She punched Stan once she found out he was alive after going to Ford's house to yell at him, because how dare he live near where Stan died and didn't tell anyone.

It takes about a year for them to get together again, Stan and Carla wanted it to be purely platonic at first, wanting to just stay friends while she helped him on the portal.

She reminds Stan of Ford a lot because she's so curious about all of the creatures in Gravity Falls, she fits so well into this town, she's friendly with the gnomes, her favourite is Shmebulock, despite him only saying one word, she learns how to communicate with him flawlessly.

She convinces Stan to start writing and drawing again, even if it's for his own personal thing and happiness, she disliked how many people told Stan that he was dumber and lesser than Ford.

She's Stanley's only marriage in this au.

Bonus:

When Ford comes back after all that time, she and Ford are the only one's apart from Mabel who enjoys Mabel juice.

Her, Ford and Mabel have pamper nights, she paints his nails, Mabel paints hers, and they all take it in turns painting each other's toenails.

Cue Carla, who still has some lingering feelings from her first love, panics, thinking Stanley is going to kill himself (I mean, she's kinda right but not in the way she expected) and she manages to get the address of where Stanley is and starts her journey to Gravity Falls.

Cut a few days later and Stan, who really can't remember that night since it was literally a night or a couple of nights after the Ford incident and he's hella depressed, gets a knock on the door and almost has a heart attack on who he sees.

And then like Carla helps out, maybe Stan waits a bit before faking his death so Carla and him can be legally married because if he marries her while having Ford's name... It doesn't sit right, or he just waits until Ford comes back to pop the question.

Plus Dipper and Mabel bonding with their Grauntie Carla, she teaches Dipper that being strong or manly doesn't define a man, since she tells Dipper how Stan loves to dance and roller skate and sing with her sometimes. She gives Mabel boy and people advice, she gives her cooking advice, she's a hoot on Mabel juice.