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I hate change, just let it all go back to normal. It doesn’t need to be different. Why do you want to ruin everything. Let it be fucking the way it was.

nice to be back on here, always a good gauge to see how bad I am getting again. X

I miss the warmth of a heart that’s grown cold to me

Im responsible for all the worst things that could happen on the planet.

I light it all on fire, but then feel insatiable guilt as I watch it burn.

Numbing yourself on the outside, to quiet the things on the inside.

You exist like a cruel reminder of everything I’ll never be.

I would die for a few minutes to get to experience what it’s like in your beautiful, wanted, important skin.

toxic positivity is disgusting. No, a fucking walk and eating healthy isn’t going to make me not want to rip my face apart.

I miss the rage

All the love you give to me feels fake, no matter how real it is, you’re just doing it to me make me feel better.

Nothing makes me feel as better than getting worse.

Who knew waking up could be so painful?

The worst feeling is pushing someone away when you’re sick, and all you’re wanting in your head is from them to keep trying while you’re doing it.

The devil couldn’t reach me so he gave me extreme self hatred that’ll never go away.