Personal thoughts

My sister's family is stuck somewhere in Laguna

*ate messages us*

Me: did you know that there are a lot of bae there in laguna?

Laguna de bae

Bae is the shortened version of babe and it sounds close to bay

Ate's disappointment was immeasureable

I'm just joking around to cope with my nervousness and catastrophizing

With that being said, I'd go straight to the point: Yes, I do follow other ladies for a myriad of reasons, like I'm a fan of their work, I like anime/manga-related content, they are wholesome or I just find them to be cool, but I hope that she'll remember that attention isn't love, that even though I follow someone, that doesn't mean that I'm pursuing them, like with the way I try to write to you often... I only write letters on a constant basis for someone that I'm currently pursuing, and I can't do that for multiple people for it's nerve-wracking to remember what I wrote before and to think of a topic for one person and it's time consuming to write letters... (someday, I'd repeat my topics... it's inevitable, at this point...) If I double the amount of letters I'd write, I'd be really stressed and I'd spend a big chunk of my night on writing letters... Yes, writing letters for a single person can sometimes be stressful, but I feel that it's worth it, that you're worth it.

They say that we two deaths. The first death is our physical death and the second death is when the people around us forget about us, maybe due to the people we know die or they forget about us. It is inevitable that we'll experience both deaths, that we were created from dust and to dust we will return. With that being said and knowing that a lot of my friends and relatives have passed on, I continue to pray for them every night, and for me, a good way of remembering them would be to take care of family and friends who are still alive, especially the newer generation, like my pamangkin, and I hope that by doing so, they'll have a reference on how to love one's family and friends.

With that being said, I hope that Belle will also have her own way of remembering her deceased family and friends. I hope that she'll always remember that even though they are dead physically, they are still around spiritually, and maybe there will be times wherein they'll let their presence known, like smelling flowers, seeing something white that seems to be floating behind a relative, or actually being seen by someone who has his/her third eye open. To end, one's love for family and friends who aren't here with us physically won't go to waste, and a good way of remembering them would be to take care of the people around us, and finally, I hope that Belle won't feel afraid whenever a deceased relative or friend made his/her presence known to her. For me, those are glimmers, too. Good night, take care, love everyone around you, and remember that you're loved more than you'll ever know, Belle.