Life

I prayed to never be alone again. God gave me a baby boy. I cannot wait til June to hold you in my arms my sweet baby. I cannot wait til your able to start walking because we are going everywhere. Your going to be the most handsome boy in the world because your my SEED!!! I never in my life experienced the things I’m experiencing with you. No nausea no morning sickness no issues other than the beginning implantation pain. Feeling you move is the best!!! I am going to raise a WELL mannered man. I may regret it when you get married because then we’ll be separated but I’m not raising a guy that people won’t like. Baby boy the world is yours and anything is possible. The beginning it may be rough it may be stressful but everything I do in life is for you. I am working at more independence so that you can have a normal life. You will have your own room one day and your own space. You will ALWAYS have anything and everything you need. I am going to spoil you and try to take things away but I just know your going to be such a good boy. I dreamed of days of getting past 7 weeks pregnant and when I didn’t think it would happened now I’m here at 21 weeks in a row and I love it with no complaints. Sleeping issues will eventually change. This is 9 months/40 weeks for you to thrive in order to sustain life. Although your father MAY OR MAY NOT be around you will always have a male to speak to. Cousins, friends, etc will be present as much as they want to. I don’t want you to ever think your a mistake. Your father had major things to deal with that made a relationship impossible. Never not cared about you. I will always be here for you til the day I die. I promise you that! No matter what you do I will be here for you!! There is nothing that will keep me from my child. You have a cousin that loves you so much already. We are already waiting for you!!