âHeartbeat Next Doorâ
Tangerine x Female Reader
Warnings/Genre: Angst ⢠Hurt/Comfort ⢠Emotional Reunion ⢠Miscarriage
Summary: After surviving the Kyoto train disaster, Tangerine wakes in the ICUâonly to learn youâve been fighting your own battle down the hall, and nothing can stop him from reaching you.
The kind that made every beep feel louder. Every breath heavier.
Hated the antiseptic smell. The low hum of machines. The way time seemed to stretch into something shapeless and cruel.
You sat curled in a chair beside Tangerineâs bed, one hand wrapped gently around his, careful of the IV taped to his skin.
He looked so unlike himself.
No sharp suit. No sarcastic remarks. No steady, watchful eyes.
Just pale skin, bruising creeping along his neck where the bandages wrapped tight, and the slow rise and fall of his chest.
You were six months pregnant.
And youâd never been so scared in your life.
The doctors said he was lucky.
The bullet had missed major arteries by millimeters.
But luck didnât feel real when youâd watched them rush him past you on a gurney, blood on his collar, his face slack and unmoving.
The stress had been constant.
Waiting. Not sleeping. Not eating. Living in a hospital chair.
Your body kept going long after your strength ran out.
The cramps started small.
You told yourself it was stress.
The next thing you remembered was nurses, bright lights, someone calling your name, and the awful, sinking feeling in your chest before anyone even said the words.
When Tangerine woke, it was to the sound of a chair scraping.
He blinked slowly, throat burning, vision swimming.
Everything felt heavy. Thick. Like he was underwater.
A familiar voice spoke quietly.
âWelcome back, mate.â
He turned his head slightly, wincing.
Lemon sat beside the bed, arms folded, eyes tired but relieved.
âBeen out for a bit,â Lemon said softly. âGave us a proper scare.â
Tangerine tried to speak. His voice came out rough and broken.
Lemonâs expression shifted.
And Tangerine felt it immediately. That instinctive dread curling low in his stomach.
âSheâs here,â Lemon said quickly. âSheâs safe.â
But he didnât stop there.
Which meant something was wrong.
Tangerineâs fingers tightened weakly in the sheets. âWhat happened.â
Lemon rubbed the back of his neck, searching for words that didnât exist.
âShe was under a lot of stress,â he said quietly. âBeing here. Waiting. Worrying about you.â
The words landed like a physical blow.
For a second, Tangerine didnât breathe.
âIâm sorry,â Lemon said gently. âSheâs in another room. Sheâs alright physically. Just⌠resting.â
That was all Tangerine needed to hear.
He swung his legs over the side of the bed.
Pain exploded through his neck and chest instantly, making his vision spark.
âOiâ!â Lemon shot up. âYouâre not cleared to move!â
His hands shook as he pushed himself upright, IV tugging, heart monitor protesting with faster beeps.
âWhere,â he demanded, voice hoarse but fierce.
Lemon hesitated only a second before sighing.
âDown the hall. Room 312.â
Tangerine was already pulling the wires loose.
The hallway felt endless.
Each step sent sharp reminders through his body that he shouldnât be walking.
Nothing mattered except getting to you.
A nurse called after him. Someone tried to stop him.
One hand braced against the wall, hospital gown shifting with each uneven step, determination burning through the fog of pain.
The door was slightly open.
You were sitting up in the bed, a blanket pulled around your waist, staring out the window like you were trying to disappear into the sky.
You looked smaller somehow.
Heâd never seen you so still.
And for a second, neither of you spoke.
Your eyes widened, immediately filling with tears.
âTangerine?â your voice cracked. âYou shouldnât be out of bed.â
He just walked â slow, uneven â until he reached you.
Then he cupped your face in both hands like he needed to prove you were real.
A sob slipped out as you grabbed his wrists.
âIâm so sorry,â you whispered. âI tried to stay calm, I tried not to stress, I didnâtââ
âNo,â he said instantly, voice rough but firm. âNone of that. None of it.â
âI couldnât protect them,â you choked. âI couldnâtââ
âYou donât need protecting from this,â he murmured, pressing his forehead gently to yours despite the pull in his stitches. âAnd you didnât fail anyone. Do you hear me?â
You shook your head, overwhelmed, guilt and grief tangling tight in your chest.
His thumb brushed your cheek, wiping tears that wouldnât stop.
âI shouldâve been there,â he whispered. âI shouldâve been awake. I shouldâveââ
âYou almost died,â you said, voice trembling. âI thought I was going to lose you too.â
The words hung heavy between you.
For a moment, the room felt suspended in shared heartbreak.
Then he leaned carefully onto the bed, ignoring the pain, pulling you into his arms.
You clung to him immediately, burying your face into his shoulder.
He held you like he was afraid you might vanish if he loosened his grip.
âIâm here,â he murmured against your hair. âIâm not going anywhere.â
You cried quietly, shoulders shaking, and he just held you â one hand cradling the back of your head, the other rubbing slow circles over your back.
Just the quiet understanding of something lost and something still surviving.
After a while, your breathing steadied.
You pulled back slightly, eyes red but softer.
âYouâre really okay?â you asked.
He gave a small nod. âYeah. Bit sore. Bit annoyed. But Iâm here.â
Your hand drifted carefully to the bandage at his neck.
âYou scared me,â you whispered.
âYou scared me too,â he admitted.
âIâm glad you came.â
He leaned down, pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead.
And this time, there was no rush.
Just two people, sitting together in a quiet hospital room, holding onto each other â grieving, healing, and still here.