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Choi Seungcheol
The Pen Pal Project
âł Pan pal AU - super fluffy, tiny bit of angst, 10.2k â
Over a decade of handwritten letters later, you can happily say that the Pen Pal Project was your greatest success.
Yoon Jeonghan
Merger & Acquisition (Of My Heart)
âł Office Romance AU - angsty, fluff, crack, 17.2k
Jeonghan thought navigating corporate mergers was hardâturns out, navigating corporate mergers with his ex is harder.
Kwon Soonyoung
Echoes of Summer
âł Camp Counsellor AU - fluff, angst, 18.7k
Get ready for the most unforgettable summer yet at Camp Logan, where lifelong memories are made, friendships are strengthened, and old crushes make new appearances.
Jeon Wonwoo
Through the Lens
âł Photographer x model AU - smut, fluff, 12.5k
Six months. Full access. Intimate photos. A glimpse into the world of celebrity. And the last thing Jeon Wonwoo thought he was signing up for.
Kim Mingyu
Crossing the Finish Line
âł athlete AU - fluff, angst, 17.4k
Winning is the only thing that matters, except if you're raising money for a charity event with an infuriatingly good-looking swimmer.
Glass Towers
âł architect AU - fluff, angst, smut, 18.2k
City lights are beautiful, but they're nothing compared to the spark between a hopelessly optimistic architect and his no-nonsense boss. He hopes.
Vernon Chwe
Picture of You
âł regency AU - fluff, angst, smut, 22.2k
Three years away was meant to quell a decade of unrequited love, but your family home appears not to be the only thing you are returning to.
Lee Chan
Chapter One: How to Not Get Stabbed
âł superhero AU - action, smut, fluff, angst, 22.2k
The peace of quiet of your garage is only broken by the hum of machines and clanking tools, and you like it that way - until a superhero crashes his car straight into your door.
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Warnings: Swearing, alcohol, sexual insinuations, bad decision making
Word Count: 17.2k
Summary: Jeonghan thought navigating corporate mergers was hardâturns out, navigating corporate mergers with his ex is harder.
A/N: Missing Jeonghan hours
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"Jeonghan, just trust me! It's gonna be perfect!"
You're grinning, and itâs that grin. The one that made Jeonghan's heart do that ridiculous, fluttering thing the first time you flashed it his way. The one thatâs practically a cheat code for his soul. Your eyes are sparkling like you just cracked the secret to world peaceâor maybe just how to make him melt like a popsicle in the sun.
Youâre gesturing to something behind him, but honestly, heâs not even looking. To take his eyes off you? Not in this lifetime, buddy.
"Iâm serious!" you press, eyes wide with wild excitement. "We should get matching sweaters!"
He stares, blinking slowly like maybe heâs hearing things. You look so absurdly excited, like you've proposed something truly genius. And, for a second, just for a second, he almost gets it. Matching sweaters... Huh. He squints.
"I swear to God," he mutters, almost in awe of your audacity. "You've got a one-track mind, you know that?"
But you're already dragging him inside the store, ugging him toward a rack of sweaters in shades so painfully pastel, they might be illegal. Youâre holding up twoâone a disturbingly washed-out pink and the other an equally offensive lavender - and beam at him, radiating enough joy to power a small city.
Jeonghan narrows his eyes at the monstrosities in your hands. "Are you trying to publicly obliterate my dignity?" he asks, deadpan. "Because Iâm pretty sure this is some kind of crime."
Your laughâsweet and impossibly brightâbounces off the walls. Itâs so loud, it feels like the store itself is laughing with you. And for a split second, he doesnât even care that youâre suggesting he wears an offence to fashion. All he hears is your laughter. And, okay, it is contagious. He canât help but chuckle, his chest warming even as he contemplates his future in pastel hell.
"Iâll wear it if you wear it," you challenge, a wicked glint in your eyes, practically daring him to back out.
And you know Jeonghan can't resist a dare.
He crosses his arms, a perfect picture of exaggerated seriousness, mirroring how seriously youâre taking this whole thing. "Fine," he sighs dramatically. "But only because Iâm too exhausted to argue with you."
Before he can even finish his thought, you're already wrapping your arms around his neck, giggling into his ear like itâs the most precious sound on earth. And just like that, any resentment he might have had about wearing a sweater straight out of a fashion crime scene? Gone. The swell of his heart forgives you, even as he silently prepares to suffer through the worldâs most embarrassing outfit.
"I love you sooo much," you murmur, squeezing him a little tighter.
And, just before he can say it back, his phone buzzes in his pocket. Distracted, he fumbles for it like itâs the most urgent thing in the worldâbecause, hey, maybe itâs a work thing or, God forbid, a text from his mom about dinner plans. When he looks up, youâre gone. The matching sweaters are gone. The street is just a blur again, and the store, with its obnoxious neon lights, has disappeared completely.
For a heartbeat, Jeonghanâs standing there, staring at the space where you were, feeling like heâs just been dropped into some weird alternate universe. The air feels thick, heavy, and for a split second, everything just feelsâwrong. Empty. Off.
And in that moment, he realizes with a gut-punch of clarity: itâs all slipped away, like sand through his fingers. Heâs standing in the middle of a street that doesnât make sense, holding onto an empty promise he canât possibly keep, his hand still tingling where you once touched him. And all he can hear now is the echo of your laugh, so bright, so full of life, fading into nothing.
And just as quickly, before he even has time to breathe, the dream shatters. Gone. Like it was never there at all.
Jeonghan wakes up with a jolt, his chest tight like a too-small sweater, heart thumping like itâs trying to escape his ribcage. The sheets are tangled around him like he'd been wrestling them all night, and he blinks at the daylight streaming through the window, a little too bright, a little too real. For a second, heâs not sure if heâs still stuck in the dream, his body caught in some weird limbo between sleep and being awake.
That laugh. That stupid, infectious laugh. It hangs in the air, teasing him like a ghost that refuses to leave. Jeonghanâs hand brushes absently over his chest, like heâs trying to wipe the sound away, like it hasnât completely lodged itself in his mind.
âStupid,â he mutters, shaking his head and tossing the sheets off himself, hoping to shake off whatever weird spell the dreamâs put on him.
By the time heâs staring at himself in the bathroom mirror, his mind is a chaotic mess of swirling thoughts. Mostly, heâs thinking about the dream and how ridiculous it is that itâs still making his heart beat a little too fast. And then, of course, thereâs the thing he canât shakeâthe stupid, pastel sweaters.
He scoffs at his reflection, splashing water on his face like itâll somehow help him wake up properly. Matching sweaters, he thinks bitterly. Really
Getting dressed feels like a chore, like he's moving through molasses. His eyes drift over his usual black jeans and plain tees, but thenâsomething catches his eye. A flash of pink, hidden at the back of his closet like some kind of forbidden treasure, tucked behind other, more respectable pieces.
Jeonghan hesitates.
His fingers brush over it, and for a moment, he feels as though he's standing back in that ridiculous store, the weight of that challenge still hanging in the air. He almost laughs at himself. You canât be serious, he thinks. But before he can stop himself, his hands are already pulling it out.
âIâm not doing this,â he mutters to himself, but even he can tell his voice is a little too uncertain, like heâs trying to convince someone else.
A few minutes later, Jeonghan stands in front of the mirror again, the soft, unreasonably pastel pink sweater clinging to his frame. He tilts his head to the side, frowning at his reflection. Then, he looks back at the sweater.
It's ... fine. Actually, it's kind of comfortable. And, okay, itâs not nearly as terrible as he thought it would be. The color is soft, gentleâmore like a whisper than an explosion of pastel horror, and the fabric feels a bit like a soft cloud.Â
Of course, none of that changes the fact that itâs ridiculous that heâs wearing it.
âWhatâs wrong with me?â he laughs, shaking his head at himself, unable to stop the sound from spilling out.
And then your laughâthat bright, carefree, spark-of-light laughâflashes through his mind again. Itâs like the room is a little less dark when he thinks about it, and, for just a second, he lets himself imagine that maybe... maybe it wouldnât have been so bad to go along with it. The matching sweaters, the ridiculous plans, that kind of carefree joy only you could make him feel.
But he's alone now. And the sweater is just that. A sweater.
He shakes his head, adjusting it one more time, trying to ignore the flutter in his chest as he thinks about youâyour voice, your touch, your laughâand focus on just getting out the door. He grabs his jacket, slinging it over his shoulder like heâs trying to shake off the last remnants of the dream.
âFine,â he mutters to himself. âItâs stupid. But Iâm wearing it.â
And if anyone dares to comment on it, heâs donating it to the first charity store he passes on his way home.
Jeonghan's brain feels like a blender on full speed as he pushes through the glass doors of the office building, his shoes clicking against the marble floor. He steps into the start-up chaos, where the morning energy is already off-the-charts: people darting between desks, having phone conversations that are somehow both urgent and completely pointless, and juggling coffee cups that are half-full of caffeine and stress. And thereâs something else hanging in the air, something that makes him feel like heâs forgotten something super important, but of course, he has no idea what that is.
He shrugs it off and marches to his desk, where Joshua's already sitting, a fresh cup of coffee in hand and laptop open in front of him. He looks like he's already been up for hours - effortlessly composed, a picture of fcous while Jeonghan has barely kept it together this morning.
He drops his bag on the desk with a dramatic thud, letting out a long sigh.Â
Joshua glances at him, then at his sweater, then back up at Jeonghanâs face like heâs trying to piece together some kind of puzzle.
"I thought you didn't do pastels?"
âI donât,â Jeonghan responds immediately, running a hand through his hair like heâs trying to untangle his thoughts. âBut⌠itâs a long story, actually. Not one Iâm getting into right now.â
Joshuaâs lips twitch, clearly not buying it. "Uh-huh. And I'm sure it has nothing to do with a certain someone who shall remain nameless waltzing back into your life?"
Jeonghan freezes, his whole body going cold like he's just been caught in a lie. How in the hell did Joshua figure that out?
He forces a laugh, but itâs way too high-pitched. âI donât know what youâre talking about,â he says, his voice cracking like a bad sitcom.
But Joshua isnât letting it slide. âSure. And Iâm definitely not looking at someone whoâs still wearing a sweater that belongs to their emotional turmoil.â
Jeonghan snorts. "Oh, please, the only thing emotional about this is how much I regret wearing it." He waves his hand dismissively, but canât hide the way he checks the sweater like he's trying to make sure itâs still presentable. âAnyway, whatâs going on today? Please tell me we're not having another one of those âI-just-want-to-innovate-the-industryâ creative meetings. Iâm not sure I can sit through another round of âbrainstormingâ where Iâm expected to solve all our problems with a Pinterest board.â
Joshuaâs face glitches as he shuts his laptop with a dramatic click. âTell me youâre joking?â
Jeonghan blinks.Â
Joshua sighs, long and slow.
"The merger? I know you remember that the merger is happening today, right?"
"Merger? Oh. That merger." Jeonghanâs brain starts scrambling for clarity, trying to sort out the chaos of thoughts. Theyâve been talking about this merger for weeks nowâa rival company with a reputation for being way more corporate and buttoned-up than their own start-up chaos. Jeonghan hadnât really paid attention. Too busy juggling project deadlines, chasing creative briefs, and making sure everyoneâs sushi orders were on point.
But now, with Joshuaâs reminder, the weight of reality hits him. Todayâs the day. The day they officially merge with the enemyâand, if weâre being honest, itâs a little more corporate than he ever thought heâd get. Also, probably the reason for those stress dreams last night.
Jeonghan grimaces. "Right. The merger." He sighs, slumping in his chair. âI think I just blocked it out of my mind for the past week because Iâm not sure I can handle becoming corporate Jeonghan.â
Joshua chuckles, setting his coffee down. "Thatâs the point of today. Theyâre bringing in their big bosses to meet with usâthis afternoon, right after the all-hands meeting. Itâs officially happening. The big, serious meeting where we all sit around and pretend to care about âsynergyâ and âoptimisation.ââ He does air quotes with his fingers, rolling his eyes. "But, don't worry - you won't be corporate Jeonghan. You'll be corporate Mr Yoon."
Jeonghan groans, leaning back in his chair dramatically. ââSynergy,â optimisation...â he repeats, doing an exaggerated version of Joshuaâs air quotes. âHonestly, I think Iâd rather go back to bed and wake up in a parallel universe where Iâm not wearing this sweater and weâre not merging. Could we please pretend weâre still a bunch of creative geniuses who just want to make awesome things? Is that too much to ask?â
Joshua smirks, clearly enjoying Jeonghanâs theatrics. âItâs the price of progress, my friend. Besides, Iâm sure youâll do just great. Just remember: donât look too enthusiastic about the merger. Weâve got to keep some of that âcreative chaosâ spirit alive, right?â
âRight,â Jeonghan mutters, still adjusting his sweater. âCreative chaosâthatâs what weâll call it. But, seriously, Iâm really hoping they donât ask me to do the whole âpowerpoint presentationâ thing today. Iâm already two cups of coffee in, and the only thing I can think of is whether this sweaterâs a crime against fashion or a step toward self-expression.â
âWhy not both?â Joshua grins, clearly enjoying the chaos of it all. âMaybe your sweater will be the key to saving us from corporate hell. You never know.â
Jeonghan shoots him a look. âIf this sweater saves us from anything, Iâll personally make sure we keep it as a company mascot.â
âDeal,â Joshua says, grinning wider as he takes a sip of his coffee.
The conference room looks like a page out of Jeonghan's worst nightmares: sleek, polished, and cold enough to make an ice cube look like itâs on vacation. A long, minimalist table stretches down the middle, surrounded by chairs so expensive they probably cost more than the rest of the startup's furniture.
Jeonghan slides into the room with Joshua just behind him, trying his best to look like he belongs in a room where every person looks like they could run a Fortune 500 company. He adjusts the collar of his pastal pink sweater, wondering for the hundredth time if he's made a grave mistake. But, well, it's too late to back out now.Â
Joshua, in the seat beside him, has immediately begun typing away on his laptop, not a hint of nervousness in his posture. Jeonghan, on the other hand, is doing everything he can to stop himself from fidgeting. He's been in plenty of meetings before, but this one feels different. It's like everyone is playing on a higher level - every handshake more formal, every "good afternoon" more stiff.
He slouches further into his chair, doing his best to hide behind the carefully natural expressions of the other startup team membersâeveryoneâs pretending theyâre not deeply unprepared for this meeting (Jeonghan knows they are).
Just as the final few stragglers file in, Jeonghan hears it again.Â
The laugh.
Itâs quiet, almost imperceptible, but itâs unmistakable. That laugh. The one that makes his stomach do that ridiculous fluttering thing. Jeonghan freezes, his hands stiff at his sides like heâs a statue trying to pretend itâs not about to crumble. His pulse quickens, and he does his best to shake the thought out of his brain. I'm hearing things, he tells himself. Itâs probably just my brain playing tricks after that stupid dream
But no. Itâs there againâsoft, bubbling, infectious laughter, drifting from somewhere off to the side. Jeonghan blinks, his head snapping towards the sound like itâs the answer to a riddle he didnât know he was solving.
And then he sees you.
There you are, standing at the front of the room, radiating effortless confidence in a sharply tailored suit, like you belong in the boardroom as much as Jeonghan belongs in a hoodie.
His heart stops.
It can't be.Â
He blinks. And blinks again. But you're still there. Youâre still smiling, your grin as radiant as it ever was, as you exchange pleasantries with the higher-ups from the startup. The same grin that used to make Jeonghan question his entire life philosophy, every single time you flashed it his way.
What the hell?
There's no way. You can't possibly be the one running things on this side of the merger. This has to be a joke, right? His head spins, his thoughts running in frantic circles as the realisation dawns on him.Â
You are here. In the flesh.
A hundred questions rushes though his brain all at once - how, why, when? But most of all: Why didn't I know about this?
And then it hits him. The absurdity of the situation. The dream. The sweater. The weird sense of unfinished business he'd woken up with this morning. It all seems to click in a way that makes his brain ache with the sudden weight of it all.Â
Jeonghan slouches even further into his chair, if that's even possible. His stomach is in knots, and his palms are starting to get a little too clammy for comfort.
Maybe if he just... quietly gets up and leaves. Maybe if he justâ
âAre you okay?â Joshua leans toward him, his voice low.
Jeonghan swallows hard, trying to keep his cool. âIâI think my ex is in charge of the merger.â
Joshuaâs eyebrows furrow, confusion flashing across his face. "Yeah, I know."
Jeonghan blinks, his brain trying to process this new layer of nonsense. "Youâwhat?"
âI thought you knew.â Joshua leans back, looking unbothered, like Jeonghan just missed a memo. âI literally brought it up this morning.â
Huh?
Oh.Â
That makes more sense than Joshua knowing about the dream.Â
Jeonghanâs brain is running full speed ahead, trying to piece together the puzzle of his existence in real-time, but nothingâs clicking. Joshuaâs voice is just a dull hum in the background as his eyes are locked on you. There you are, standing at the front of the room, looking like youâve just walked out of a business magazine. His mind keeps bouncing between the memory of you in those casual clothes, laughing over pizza, and the version of you now, all polished and corporate, like youâve somehow always belonged here. Itâs dizzying. How the hell did this happen
He forces himself to breathe and look away for a second, trying to center himself, but just as heâs about to look down at his handsâthose traitors who are clammy and betraying himâhe hears the sound of a microphone clicking on.Â
Your voice.
âGood afternoon, everyone.â
And just like that, the room falls silent, hanging on every word. Your voice is smoothâconfidentâbut thereâs this little edge of warmth that makes Jeonghanâs chest tighten in a way thatâs definitely not professional. Heâs trying so hard not to look at you, not to let his eyes wander back to where you standâhands moving gracefully, voice flowing effortlessly. Youâre the same you he knew, but also not. Somehow both.
âToday marks an exciting new chapter for both our teams,â you continue, âand Iâm thrilled to be standing here with all of you as we embark on this new journey together. As many of you know, this merger is the culmination of months of careful planning and preparation. Weâre combining our strengths to create something that will redefine the industry. And weâre all here today to ensure that weâre setting the right course.â
The words are professional, perfectly crafted, and so very corporateâbut itâs the way you speak them that gets to Jeonghan. Itâs the way you still carry that spark, that undeniable energy, as though nothingâs changed. As though youâve just slid seamlessly from one world to another.
Jeonghan rubs his forehead, wishing his brain would just catch up with reality. But no. Instead, itâs like everything around him is shifting, the room suddenly way too big and his sweater way too bright for comfort.
You continue with the presentation, talking about key figures from both companies, introducing executives and senior membersâthose faceless people Jeonghan will never need to rememberâbut then⌠you pause. Your gaze sweeps over the room, and then it locks with his.
Jeonghan freezes. Time slows, or maybe it speeds up. He can feel his heartbeat in his throat, thumping against his ribcage as if itâs trying to break out.
You donât look away.
For a split second, Jeonghan wonders if he imagined it. Maybe his mind is just playing tricks on him, but noâno, thereâs a shift in your expression. Itâs subtle, but itâs there.
Thenâoh, Godâyour gaze drops to his sweater.
You stop mid-sentence.
The room goes quiet, all eyes on you, but Jeonghan knows itâs him youâre looking at. His sweater. Specifically, that sweater.
You swallow hard, your fingers tightening around the podium as you glance at his sweaterâthat damn sweater. He watches, horrified, as the corners of your mouth twitchânot with amusementâbut something else. Something close to annoyance.
He canât breathe. His hand twitches around his collar like he might rip the damn thing off and flee the building entirely.
Then, mercifully, you clear your throat. The sound snaps through the silence like a rubber band, and for a moment, it feels like the tension might break. But still, that lookâthat look on your faceâit doesnât go away.
"Uh..." You stop. A beat of awkwardness. You glance at him again, brow furrowing just the tiniest bit. "IâmâIâm sorry, I just... I'm a little distracted. Let me start that again.â You take a breath, visibly steadying yourself before you continue with the presentation, but Jeonghan can hear that slight crack in your voice.
He tries to make himself invisible in his chair, sinking lower, his hands buried in his lap like he could somehow physically shrink into the chair itself. The way your lips tighten as you force yourself to focus on the presentation makes Jeonghan want to disappear.
âOh, my God,â Jeonghan mutters under his breath, doing his best to keep his voice just quiet enough so only Joshua can hear.
Joshua just gives him a deadpan stare. âWhat happened? Is this because of the sweater?â
âDonât. Please.â Jeonghanâs voice cracks, and heâs pretty sure heâs never felt more exposed in his life.
Jeonghanâs heart is still trying to hammer its way out of his chest when the meeting finally breaks. The tension in the room has been almost unbearable, and now, as everyone starts shifting in their seats, the low murmur of conversation rising, Jeonghan begins to think maybeâjust maybeâhe can make a quick exit. Maybe sneak out of the room and pretend this never happened.
But before he can even attempt a graceful getaway, he feels a sharp pressure on his arm, and a voiceâyour voiceâcuts through the noise like a knife.
âJeonghan. Now.â
Thereâs no mistaking the authority in your tone, the same tone youâve always used when you were determined to get something done, to make sure things went your way. He doesn't even need to look up to know that your eyes are narrowed with a familiar intensity.
Heâs being dragged down the hall, his feet barely keeping up with the determined pace you set as you pull him into a small, secluded room just off the main conference area. The door shuts with a definitive thud behind them, and itâs as if the air in the room thickens, suffocating him.
You whirl around, closing the distance between you with a look of pure exasperation on your face. âWhat the hell do you think youâre doing?â Your voice is low, but it still carries the bite of someone whoâs been wronged. âWearing that ridiculous sweaterâhereâof all places. You knew Iâd be in charge today. You knew Iâd be in this room. So why? Why would you do that?â
Jeonghan, on the other hand, is trying to appear unbotheredâbut inside, his mind is spinning. He's suddenly very aware of how small this room feels, how close you are, how everything about you is pulling him into a vortex of confusion he does not want to be in. But outwardly, heâs just... smirking. Of course. Because what else can he do but pretend this whole thing is no big deal?
"Why would I wear a sweater to throw you off?" His voice is as nonchallent as he can muster, the words coming out cockier than he intends. With a shrug, he adds, "With or without it, you always said I was hard to ignore, didn't you?"
He sees your face twitch, your eyes narrowing further, and something about the way you stare at him makes his breath catch. Shit.
He's panicking. He's trying to hold it together, trying to keep that sharp edge in his voice, but the truth is, looking at you right now - it's like nothing's changed. It's like he's still that idiot who'd fall for you in a heartbeat. The way your gaze locks with his, the way your presence fills up the room, makes his insides twist.
It makes his chest ache.
But you don't get to know that, not anymore.
So, instead, he leans back against the door with his arms crossed, letting the smirk stretch wider on his lips. âI mean, really. Look at you.â He gestures to your perfectly tailored suit. âYouâre the one who seems all riled up. Could it be that you're the one trying to throw me off? Hmm?"
You open your mouth, about to fire back some scathing retort, but Jeonghan watches your shoulders stiffen instead. You exhale a slow breath, something like frustration flickering behind your eyes.
âJeonghan,â you begin, voice dangerously calm now, but still carrying that edge, âIâm serious. You are not making this easy. Iâm just trying to do my job, and youâre in here, wearing... that. I swear to God, are you doing this on purpose?â
âWould it even matter if I was?â Jeonghan raises an eyebrow, his tone light, casual, as if he doesn't feel like heâs one stupid comment away from completely combusting. âItâs not like I care what you think about my sweater. It's a free country, and I like a little colour in my life, alright?â He shrugs again, even though inside he's a mess. A nervous wreck. A miserable wreck. âYou donât get to dictate my wardrobe.â
But God, every word he says feels like it's coming out of his mouth without his permission. He watches you, sees the flicker of something thatâs almost like frustrationâand he can't stand it. He really canât stand the way you're looking at him right now. Heâs never been good at being calm when it comes to you.
You shake your head, running a hand through your hair in that way thatâs more exasperated than anything else. âI donât know why you do this. Why do you always make everything so complicated?â
And thatâs it. Jeonghanâs breath catches, and something cracks in his chest.Â
He doesnât even know why heâs here, trying to push you away with all these stupid jokes and sarcastic comments. Youâre still the one who holds all the strings in this game. Even now, even after everything, heâs still just as tangled up in you as he was back then.
âI donât know,â he mutters, his voice finally losing its bravado. His arms uncross, and he takes a slow step toward you, his gaze falling to the ground for just a moment before he looks up again. âI guess I just canât help myself.â
You blink, visibly taken aback, and for just a secondâjust a secondâthereâs a softening in your expression. A flicker of something.
Heâs about to say somethingâanythingâto regain his composure, but then the door swings open, and a voice from the hallway shatters the fragile moment.
âHey, is everything alright in here?â
Jeonghanâs chest tightens again, and he forces himself to turn, pulling away from you with a rueful glance. âYeah, everythingâs fine,â he says, the sarcasm back in full force. âJust having a lovely chat about fashion choices."
As you move past him toward the door, your eyes lock for just a split second, and Jeonghan canât help but wonder if this is where everything starts unravelling again.
The door closes behind you with a quiet click, leaving Jeonghan alone in the empty room, the weight of his own confusion pressing down on him like a suffocating cloud.
He breathes out a shaky laugh. What the hell is he even doing?
Jeonghan's never been good at avoiding things - especially you. But he's trying. Really trying.Â
The second he steps into the office, he practically sprints to his desk, eyes darting across the room like heâs in a spy movie and not just trying to avoid his ex at his place of employment.
Itâs a solid plan. A foolproof plan.
Except, of course, the universe hates him.
âHey, Jeonghan, did you see that email from accounting?â
He freezes.
His heart does that stupid, traitorous thing againâracing a little too fast, a little too obvious. He forces a smile, carefully ignoring the fact that you just happened to walk by at that exact moment.
And, of course, he hears you before he sees you.
The sound of your heels clicking against the floorâthe same precise rhythm only you haveâcuts through the noise like some cruel reminder that heâs fighting a battle heâs already lost.
âNo, I didnât,â he replies, voice too tight, too controlled. He stares at his screen, ignoring how your gaze flickers toward him for just a split second. His palms are sweating again, but heâs good at pretending.
He doesnât even glance up at you.
Not yet.
By some miracle, Jeonghan makes it through the rest of the week relatively unscathed. Heâs been ducking behind desks, taking suspiciously long coffee breaks, and strategically avoiding eye contact like itâs an Olympic sport.
But, of course, his luck has limits.
And today, at the all-hands meeting, he knows heâs finally reached the end of the track.
Everyone from both companies is gathered in the conference hall, waiting for the latest updates on the merger, and Jeonghan?
He is mentally checked out.
Completely.
Heâs sitting at the very back of the room, scrolling through his phone, barely registering the corporate bullshit being discussed at the front. Heâs safe. Heâs comfortable.
Untilâ
"Jeonghan, would you mind coming up to give an update on the latest project?â
Joshuaâs voice cuts through the room like a gunshot.
Jeonghanâs entire soul leaves his body.
His head snaps up, panic settling in his bones.
And thenâoh, no.
Because there you are.
Sitting right in the front row.
And youâre looking directly at him.
Your eyes flick over to him, slow, deliberate, the way a cat might look at a bird right before it destroys it for sport.
Then, just to make it worse, you raise an eyebrow.
And smirk.
Not now.
Jeonghan stands up, legs way too stiff, shoulders squared like heâs heading into battle. Heâs trying to look professional, trying to appear composed, but all he can think about is you.
You, sitting there with your arms crossed, wearing the exact same expression you always used to give him whenever he was desperately trying to impress you.
And the worst part?
It almost works.
Almost.
Standing at the podium, Jeonghan realizes immediately that he has made a mistake.
A huge mistake.
Because he cannot focus.
His brain is full of static noise.
The slides? No idea. The project? What even is a project? His own name? Questionable.
He starts talkingâkind of. Words are coming out, but heâs not sure they mean anything.
Somewhere, in the distance, Joshua looks like heâs re-evaluating their entire friendship.
Meanwhile, Jeonghanâs mind keeps veering off track.
Because youâre there.
Right there.
Arms still crossed, head tilted, eyes locked onto him with that look. The look that says impress me. The look that used to make him try harder. The look that used to make his entire day.
And it is so distracting.
He stumbles through the rest of the presentation, barely making sense, barely keeping himself together, barely resisting the urge to die on the spot.
By the time he finally scurries back to his seat, he hears itâ
The faintest whisper of laughter.
From you.
And itâs all he can do not to scream.
The Friday team dinner is supposed to be a casual affair. Just a bunch of coworkers, bonding over overpriced appetizers and painfully forced small talk. No stakes. No tension. Chill.
Except, Jeonghan has this suspicionâno, this certaintyâthat the universe has personally taken offense to his existence and is now actively trying to ruin him.
He walks into the restaurant and immediately spots you. Of course, you're sitting at the head of the table like you own the place. Everyone else has already sat down, their conversation filling the air with a hum of disinterested chatter. Jeonghan spots the seat that was âreservedâ for himâright next to you.
âHey, Jeonghan, come join us!â Joshua waves him over cheerfully, all but pushing him to the only empty seat at the table.
The thought of sitting next to youâof having to endure hours of the same damn tensionâmakes his stomach churn. But what can he do? He canât just ... stand there and look like an idiot.
So, with a carefully hidden sigh, Jeonghan accepts his fate.
His steps are slow and deliberate as he slides into the chair, forcing a perfectly polite smile as he does. He keeps his gaze fixed ahead, not looking at you, not acknowledging the fact that you are literally right there.
But he doesnât have to lookâhe feels you turn toward him. He knows youâre watching.
And thenâ
âFancy seeing you here.â
The words are light, playfulâtoo casual. But the way you say it? The way you pause just long enough to make sure he knows youâre enjoying this?
Jeonghan opens his mouth to say something snappy, something clever to deflect the growing weight between them, but instead, he just smilesâtiredly, like heâs given up trying to fight the inevitable.
âYeah. Guess weâre stuck together again.â
He flicks a glance around the table, where everyone is too absorbed in their own conversations to notice the invisible battlefield currently forming between the two of you. But Jeonghan notices. He notices everything.
And worse, so do you.
You hum, tilting your head slightly. âI didnât think you were the type to shy away from good company.â
Thereâs a bite to it. A slight challenge. A reminder of the way you two used to talk beforeâwhen the teasing was easy, when the tension was intentional.
Jeonghan exhales through his nose, willing himself to stay composed.
âDepends on the company,â he mutters, aiming for casual, but it doesnât quite land. Not when his pulse is pounding in his ears, not when his fingers are gripping the edge of the table a little too tightly.
For a moment, thereâs silenceâjust the lingering weight of his words.
Then, instead of responding, you just smirk and turn back to the person beside you, amusement flickering in your eyes like a silent victory.
Jeonghan barely makes it through the rest of the meal.
The conversation around him blurs into meaningless chatter, and the food tastes like cardboard because how the hell is he supposed to focus on anything when youâre right thereâclose enough that if he so much as shifts, his knee might brush against yours, close enough that he can still smell your perfume, close enough that every time you laugh, something in his chest tightens stupidly, unfairly, uncontrollably.
He tries so hard to focus on his plate, on anything other than you.
But his mind keeps slippingâback to old memories, back to the way you used to look at him, back to the way things were before he ruined it.
And it hits him, all at once.
How much heâs still invested in this ridiculous, unspoken battle.
How much heâs still hoping for something thatâs already gone.
How impossible it is to pretend like youâre just another coworker at a casual Friday dinner when the truth isâ
Youâre still the only person in the room that matters.
Things take a turn for the worse.
It starts innocently enoughâa vague email from his superior thatâs equal parts informative and infuriating, letting him know that heâs going to be working with you on a new project. A crucial one. Something about "collaboration being key to success."Â
Jeonghan can feel his blood pressure spike just reading it.
For a moment, he considers drafting a quick email to HRâmaybe something professional, like:
Subject: Urgent Request Regarding Project Assignment
Body: Please, for the sake of workplace productivity (and my personal sanity), put a clause in the merger agreement ensuring that Y/n and I never have to be in the same room again. Ever. Thanks.
But of course, that would be unprofessional.
So instead, Jeonghan settles for the next best thing: avoidance.
He doesnât look at you in the office. Keeps his distance like youâre a literal bomb ticking in the corner.
But thereâs no avoiding it now.
He shows up to the morning meeting, already bracing himself for the collision of chaos thatâs about to unfold.
âJeonghan, you and Y/n will handle the creative direction,â Joshua announces, voice bright and cheerful like he isnât actively ruining Jeonghanâs life.
Jeonghan forces a smile, the kind that could probably be classified as a threat in some countries. âGreat. Thrilled.â
When he finally dares to glance your way, he catches itâ
The look.
Just the briefest flicker of amusement in your eyes, like you know exactly how much this is going to drive him insane.
âJust like old times, huh?â you muse, sipping your coffee, your voice smoothâtoo smooth.
Yeah. He hates how his stomach flips at that.
The first meeting to discuss the project is, to put it mildly, a disaster.
âLetâs start by deciding on the key themes,â you say, flipping open your laptop and pulling up a presentation.
Your eyes flicker toward him, expectant.
He shrugs it off, trying to stay neutral, focusing on the screen. âYeah, sure.â He types quickly, trying to keep his fingers from betraying him.
Your hands brush ever-so-slightly as you both reach for the same document on the table, and for a brief second, Jeonghan feels that electric connection between you. The old chemistry that used to make every second with you feel like he was walking on fire. The kind of chemistry that used to make his pulse race. And now? He feels it all over again, like itâs been reawakened.
You pull your hand back fast, but the moment hangs in the air, heavy and undeniable. No words. But Jeonghan can see it in your eyesâannoyance.
Of course, youâre annoyed.
Because this? This thing between you? Itâs still there. Itâs always been there.
And neither of you know what the hell to do about it.
The project moves forward, takes shape, but so does the tension between you two.
âI think we should go with a more minimalist aesthetic,â Jeonghan suggests, his voice casual, but he knows the words are loaded.
You look at him over the rim of your coffee cup, eyes narrowing slightly. âMinimalist?â you repeat, incredulous. âJeonghan, thatâs your go-to for everything.â
âAnd?â he replies smoothly. âIt works.â
âItâs predictable,â you shoot back, leaning forward. âYouâve been stuck in that box for ages. Itâs time to try something different.â Thereâs the challenge. Thereâs the dig. Jeonghan can feel his temper flare, bubbling under the surface.
âYou think you know better?â Heâs a little too sharp, but itâs impossible to hold back.Â
And there it is again.
That look.
The one that always made his chest tighten. The challenge. The fire. The heat. It makes his heart beat too fast, and for a split second, heâs there again, back in that night.
Itâs late. The air is thick with everything youâve both avoided saying for God knows how long. The tiny apartment is a disaster: takeout boxes strewn across the counter, half-finished projects littering the floor like ghosts of attempts never fully made.
âYou never talk about whatâs going on with you, Jeonghan!â Youâre on your feet, pacing now, voice rising with frustration. âItâs like youâre a wall! A goddamn wall I canât break down!â
âIâm fine,â he mutters, but even he can hear how empty it sounds. His jawâs clenched, eyes hard as stone. âEverythingâs fine.â
âNo, itâs not!â You slam your hands down on the table with a force that rattles everything in the room. Anger, frustration, everything spilling out like a dam thatâs finally cracked. âYou shut me out every time, Jeonghan. Every time! And Iâm so damn tired of it! I feel like I'm the only one holding this together."
A breathy, almost humourless chuckle escapes him, but his voice stays flat, defensive. "That's not fair."
"No?" You glare at him, hurt flashing across your face like a strike of lightning. "Then tell me, when was the last time you actually tried, Jeonghan? To show up - to be here, with me, instead of just ... floating through this like it's some casual thing?"
His jaw tightens. "That's not-"
You cut him off, standing up straight now, fire in your eyes. âI tell you things, and I donât even know if youâre listening half the time. You joke when Iâm being serious. You shut down the second anything real comes up. And Iââ You stop yourself, voice cracking, barely holding it together.
His fingers curl into the hem of his shirtâthe same way they always do when heâs trying to keep something inside. But still, he stays silent.
And maybe that silence hurts more than anything.
"Just say something," you whisper, your voice barely there, exhaustion bleeding into every word. "Anything."
Jeonghan exhales sharply, shaking his head like heâs already decided he doesnât know how to fix this. âWhat do you want me to say?â
âI donât want you to say anythingâI want you to mean it.â
That hits him. Hard. He knows itâs trueâheâs been so closed off for so long, pretending everythingâs fine, and maybe it never was.
âI donât need you to fix me,â he says, his voice colder than it should be, every word sharp like glass. âI just need you to stop pushing.â
You let out a dry, humourless laugh, nodding to yourself like youâve heard it a thousand times. "Okay," you whisper, voice barely a breath. "Got it."
You stand, grabbing your coat, your bagâanything to keep your hands busy, your mind elsewhere. Jeonghan stays sitting, motionless, like maybe if he doesnât move, none of this will be real.
And that only makes it worse.Â
His voice finally breaks the silence, quiet but cutting. "So that's it?"
You freeze for half a second, then shake your head, slow. "No, Jeonghan. You ended this way before I ever did."
His breath hitches, just slightly, just enough for you to notice - but it's not enough. He doesn't stop you.
Doesn't ask you to stay.
Doesn't fight for it.
So you walk away, closing the door softly behind you.Â
Jeonghan blinks, pushing the memory back as quickly as it came. The sting is still there, lingering under his skin, burning.Â
"Maybe you're right," he mutters, forcing his focus back on the task at hand, pretending itâs not tearing him up inside. "I'll rethink the design."
You meet his gaze for a beat, something flickering in your eyesâsatisfaction, maybeâbut you donât say a word.
The office is quiet.
Late-night quiet. The kind of quiet that settles in your bones, heavy and unmoving. The kind that makes you feel like if you breathe too loudly, you might disturb something fragileâsomething thatâs been stretched too thin, waiting to break.
Most of the team has already left, abandoning their desks for the promise of sleep, leaving behind the low hum of fluorescent lights and the rhythmic click of Jeonghanâs fingers against the keyboard.
The project drags on, never-ending, details shifting like sand. But Jeonghan isnât really focused on any of that anymore.
His mind keeps wandering.
His eyes keep drifting to you, sitting across from him, scribbling furiously on a notepad, the stack of papers in front of you growing steadily higher.
Youâve barely spoken since the argument earlier that afternoonâsharp words and stubborn silences widening the already vast distance between you. And Jeonghan is starting to wonder if this⌠whatever fragile truce exists between you, is about to snap.
Still, he canât help but watch you.
The way your brow furrows in concentration. The way you bite the edge of your pen, like itâs the only thing tethering you to the room.
You look up suddenly. Your gaze meets his, and for a second, everything in the room goes still. His stomach flips.
His fingers still over the keyboard, his breath catching just enough for him to feel pathetic about it.
âJeonghan,â you say, your voice quiet, almost tentative. âYou ever think about how we used to joke about working these ridiculous hours and still getting paid like itâs a 9-to-5?â
The words catch him off guard.
Like a memory materializing out of nowhereâlate nights spent in this very same office, takeout boxes stacked on the desk, laughter echoing between you as you made fun of the corporate grind, passing time with inside jokes and shared exhaustion.
His lips twitch before he can stop them. Without thinking, he mutters, âYeah, we used to joke that if we worked this much overtime, weâd need to start paying rent here.â
You grinâa small, genuine smile. One that shouldnât affect him as much as it does.
And just like that, for a second, itâs like no time has passed at all.
You sigh, leaning back in your chair, and Jeonghan catches the way your eyes soften just a bit. âI miss that,â you say, voice distant, almost melancholic. âI really miss that.â
The words are quiet. Honest.
They land between you with the kind of weight Jeonghan doesnât know what to do with.
His heart skips, hope flaring in his chest before itâs immediately smothered by the cold, logical certainty that heâs taught himself to live with.
You miss that.
The late nights. The way things used to be. The version of you that existed before everything fell apart.
You donât mean him.
And stillâstill, Jeonghan is stupid enough to want to believe it, even for a second.
You exhale, shaking your head slightly. âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have brought that up.â You hesitate, fingers absentmindedly tapping against the table again. âI just⌠I donât know.â
You pause, and when you speak again, your voice is quieter, more uncertain.
âThe merger, everything⌠itâs been a lot to handle. Honestly, sometimes I wonder if Iâm doing the right thing. If Iâm really where Iâm supposed to be.â
Jeonghan freezes, his thoughts swirling. Your voice is quiet, almost vulnerable in a way that he hasnât heard in a long time. He hasn't heard this from you in a long timeânot this version of you, the one with the mask cracked, revealing something deeper, something real.
Before he can think too much about it, the words leave his mouth.
âI think youâre doing just fine.â
Your gaze flicks up to meet his, startled.
His voice is steady, but his heart isnât. He leans forward slightlyâlike he wants to get closer, but knows better.
âYouâre good at what you do,â he says, softer now.
You shake your head, a humourless laugh escaping your lips. âI donât know. Sometimes I wonder if Iâm just faking it. I thought I had it all figured out, but...â You hesitate, glancing down at your hands, clasped tightly in front of you. âBut I donât. Not anymore.â
And God.
The way your voice cracks. The way your words linger. The way you sound so tired, so uncertain, soâ
So much like him.
Something twists in Jeonghanâs chest, sharp and unforgiving.
He wants to fix it. He wants to reach across the table, to close the distance between you, to say somethingâanythingâto make it better.
But he knows he canât.
He knows he shouldnât.
So instead, he just saysâquieter than beforeâ
âI think⌠I think youâve always known exactly what youâre doing. Even when you doubt yourself.â
Your gaze softens, and for the first time in a long while, you smileâa small, bittersweet thing.
A smile that isnât just for himâitâs for everything that came before.
For the memories.
For the version of you that once existed together.
For something that will never fully fade.
The realization creeps in slowly, settling into his bones like a weight he canât shake.
Jeonghan is still in love with you.
Deeply, hopelessly, impossibly in love with you.
And maybeâmaybeâhe never stopped.
Maybe all this time, heâs been pretending. Trying to convince himself that the past is over. That whatever was between you is gone.
But now?
Now he knows the truth.
The past isnât gone. Not for him.
And you?
Youâve moved on. Youâve found your place. Built a life without him in it.
Youâve figured it out. And maybeâmaybeâthatâs something Jeonghan canât do.
Not without you.
He exhales shakily, the weight of the truth pressing on his chest.
He doesnât say anything.
He canât.
Because thereâs nothing left to say.
He looks at you one last time. His gaze lingers, and he knows.
Deep down, he knows.
Youâre not his anymore.
On paper, the company retreat probably sounded like a good ideaâteam bonding, trust-building exercises, maybe even a temporary escape from the soul-crushing chaos of the merger.
In practice?
Jeonghan is one minor inconvenience away from throwing himself into the nearest ravine.
First, Joshua confiscated the small tumbler of gin heâd carefully smuggled in ("Itâs literally a wellness retreat, Jeonghan." / "And alcohol would greatly improve my well-being, Joshua.").
Then, he tripped over a cursed log in the middle of the path, landing straight into a muddy ditch and missing out on all the good barbecue meat while he scrambled for a change of clothes.
And now heâs been paired with you for a âgroup hiking activityâ, which is apparently supposed to teach teamwork.
The others have already split into their little groups, laughing, chatting, pretending like theyâre not all secretly praying for a sudden earthquake to whisk them away from this corporate nightmare.
Meanwhile, Jeonghan is silently suffering, trailing behind you, doing his absolute best to not notice how good you look in your hiking gear.
He isn't sure it can get much worse, until the storm hits.
At first, itâs just a slight drizzleâbarely worth acknowledging, but still enough to dampen his already miserable spirits.
Then, as the group ventures deeper into the woods, the rain turns into a full-on downpourâthe kind that drowns out everything else, hammering against the trail, soaking through his clothes in seconds.
"Oh, shit, letâs find shelter!" you call ahead.
Before Jeonghan can even process whatâs happening, you grab his armâyour fingers wrapping around his wrist, firm and unthinkingâand pull him toward the only visible structure in sight: a small, semi-constructed shed at the edge of the clearing.
The storm is coming down so hard now that itâs impossible to hear anything over the roar of the rain.
By the time you both stumble inside, dripping and breathless, Jeonghan already knowsâ
This?
This is about to be a problem.
The shed is even smaller than it looked from the outside.
Itâs barely holding itself togetherânothing but a few sharp-looking tools hanging on the walls, broken pots stacked in precarious piles, and a couple of empty barrels.
Oh.
And you.
Standing so close that Jeonghan can feel the heat radiating off your body, the storm trapping you way too close for way too long.
He doesnât mean to stare, butâ
Your clothes are soaked, clinging to your skin. Your breathing is steady but deep, the rhythm oddly calming, almost hypnotic.
Jeonghan swallows.
This is fine.
Itâs totally fine.
Just a normal work retreat. Normal rain. Normal amount of completely ignoring the fact that every single nerve in his body is currently hyper-aware of how close you are.
Your chest brushes against his, the warmth of your body a gentle pressure as you close the space between you. His breath hitches at the proximity, your exhale a soft whisper against his skin. Your arm extends, reaching for something Jeonghan doesnât even register anymore; all he can focus on is the heat radiating from you, the way you glance at him with that look, that steady, determined gaze thatâs always made his heart flutter.
"You should know," you murmur, your voice barely more than a breath, the words hanging between you with an intensity that makes his pulse quicken. Your eyes flicker to his lips for a moment, before meeting his gaze once more, unwavering and focused. "I'm very determined when it comes to getting what's mine."
His heart stutters, caught somewhere in his chest as your words settle into the space between you. His breath is stolen by the closeness, the silent weight of the moment. His hand instinctively lowers, his fingers brushing against yours in a fleeting touch. The briefest of touches. Barely a graze.
You notice the shift, the slight tremor in his fingers, and your breath catches too, your eyes darkening with something he canât quite name. And in the next heartbeat, you pull your book free from his grasp with a soft, triumphant laugh, a sound that echoes in his chest as you take a step back, dancing with victory. Jeonghan stands frozen for a moment, watching you with a quiet, stunned smile playing on his lips. The adventure, the chaseânone of it compares to this. Watching you, in this small, victorious moment, heâs certain heâs never seen anything quite as beautiful.
Jeonghan shifts uncomfortably, scanning the shed like maybe, if he glares at it long enough, it will magically expand and offer him a dignified escape.
It does not.
The only space available is the narrowest possible gap between a stack of old crates and a wall of wood, and it is still far too close for comfort.
Fantastic.
âGreat,â he mutters, avoiding your gaze like it might set off another chain reaction of unwanted nostalgia. âWhat now?â
You let out a small laugh, clearly too entertained by his suffering. âIâm sure youâll figure it out.â
Jeonghan dares a glance at youâjust a quick oneâbut youâre already busy adjusting the collar of your soaked jacket, trying to make yourself a little less miserable.
He exhales slowly, forcibly fixing his focus on the floor.
Itâs not that he canât handle being near you.
He can.
Or at least, thatâs what heâs been telling himself for weeks.
But what really messes with him is how his heart picks up speed every time youâre close. How his chest tightens, like itâs about to implode under the weight of everything unsaid.
And then he says it. Because he's an idiot.
âWhy is it always you?â
The words leave his mouth before he can stop them. A little too sharp. A little too bitter.
But he doesnât take them back.
Because, seriouslyâevery single time something goes wrong, somehow, you are there. As if the universe gets some kind of sick joy out of watching him suffer.
You look at him then, the same sharp expression flickering in your eyes. âYou think I want to be stuck in here with you?â you shoot back. âI didnât exactly sign up for this either, you know.â
And, well. Fair point.
Stillâ
uJeonghan canât help but laugh, low and humorless. âYouâre right. I did miss this,â he drawls, sarcasm thick enough to choke on. âThe chemistry. Theââ he waves a hand between you, his smirk lazy, ââtension. Itâs great.â
You roll your eyes, unimpressed. "Is this really how we're going to do this? Right now? You just can't help yourself, can you?"
He stiffens, a retort biting at his tongue, but he holds it back. The old banterâthe biting sarcasmâis supposed to be a defense mechanism. A way to keep the walls up. But thereâs no denying it now. The walls are crumbling, and so is he.
You speak again, your voice softer this time. âJeonghanâŚâ The way you say his name, it feels different than before, less confrontational, moreâcareful.
He doesnât want to acknowledge how much that does to him.Â
âMaybe we should talk about it,â you continue, your voice steady but gentler now. âBefore it blows up in the middle of a meeting.â
Jeonghanâs breath catches.
Itâs too much, too fast. The walls heâs been desperately keeping up are crumbling, and he knows that once theyâre goneâreally goneâthereâs no putting them back up.
His pulse jumps, the back of his neck heating, a cold sweat creeping in.
A conversation like thisâthe one heâs been avoiding foreverâfeels like something he should run from.
And now that itâs here, he doesnât know how to approach it.
He opens his mouth.
Then closes it.
Because heâs not sure if heâs afraid of the past being dragged back into the lightâ
Or if heâs terrified of what it will mean to finally face the truth.
The truth about what happened between you, about how it ended, how he ended it.
âYou think itâs really a good idea to talk about this now?â he manages to say, his voice quieter than usual. Heâs trying to keep his cool, but the tremor in his voice betrays him.
His hands tighten at his sidesâa futile attempt to hold himself together.
You stand still, your gaze never wavering from his. "Is there ever a good time, Jeonghan?"you ask, voice firm but achingly soft. "Itâs been months. Weâve been walking around like weâre strangers, and yet here we are, stuck in this damn shed, acting like the last time we spoke didnât mean anything.â
The words hit him like a punch to the chest. Heâs been pretending, hasnât he? Pretending the silence between you didnât matter, that the weight of your absence wasnât suffocating him. That the ache in his chest wasnât still yours.
But it was.
It is.
And as much as he hates it, he knows that now. He knows it because of the way his heart clenches at the sound of your voice, the way his breath catches when your eyes meet his.
Thereâs no pretending anymore.
âI didnât want to hurt you,â Jeonghan admits, his voice thick with emotion. âI didnât know how to handle it. Everything was changing so fast, and I just⌠I shut down. I pushed you away when you needed me most.â
You donât respond right away.
For a long moment, it feels like time stops, like the storm outside has swallowed up everything but thisâthis moment, this space, this thing between you that refuses to die.
Thenâfinally, softlyâ
âYou didnât push me away, Jeonghan.â
The way you say itâitâs not angry. Not sharp. Just tired.
âYou just⌠withdrew,â you continue, your voice carrying the weight of something unspoken. âYou closed off in a way I couldnât reach you anymore. I triedâGod, I tried so hard. But you were so distant, so quiet.â
Your eyes meet his again, and for the first time in what feels like forever, you let your guard down.
âI never understood why,â you murmur. âWhy you couldnât just talk to me. Why you couldnât let me in.â
Jeonghan swallows hard.
Because how does he explain it?
He wants to say something, to explain, but the words feel inadequate, like a poor substitute for everything thatâs been left unsaid. How could he explain that he was terrified? Terrified of how much you meant to him, terrified of what it would mean to feel everything heâd been holding back.
And in the end, heâd chosen the only defense mechanism he knew: silence.
âIâm sorry.â
The words barely escape his lips, a whisper, a confession, a wound reopening.
He takes a step closer before he can second-guess himself, his voice trembling.
âI was scared,â he admits, the truth cracking through his composure. âI didnât know how to open up. I thought if I let myself feel too much⌠Iâd lose everything.â
His voice is hoarse, stripped bare in a way he never allows. The floodgates have opened now, and the words wonât stop coming.
"You were always the one, you know," he continues, voice uneven. "I spent so long convincing myself that losing you was better than hurting you. But I never asked what you wanted."
He exhales, a bitter laugh catching in his throat. âI never stopped to think that maybe not fighting for us was the thing that hurt you the most.â
The words settle between you like an exhaleâheavy and fragile all at once.
Jeonghan can barely believe heâs saying it.
But heâs made the mistake of staying silent once before.
He wonât make it again.
His heart is pounding so loudly now, drowning out the storm outside, the rush of blood in his ears making it impossible to think about anything except this.
His hand twitches at his side, caught between reaching for you and knowing he has no right to.
But thenâ
Your fingers brush against his.
Itâs barely anything. Just the smallest, hesitant press of warmth against his skin. But it wrecks him.
His breath shallows, chest tightening, lips parting slightly as his body leans in, as if drawn by some unseen force. He's not thinking about anything else. Just you. Just this.Â
And then, you move closer, just an inch, and his pulse spikes, his lips parting slightly, the ache to close the distance between you almost too much to bear.
"Tell me to move," he murmurs, voice so quiet it barely exists between you. "Tell me to stop, and I swear Iâll never do this again."
A pause.
A heartbeat.
A lifetime.
"But if you donâtâŚ" His voice drops lower, barely a whisper. "I donât think I can pretend anymore."
Your eyes flicker from his to his lips.
And Jeonghan knows this moment. Heâs felt this moment beforeâthe slow, aching pull, the gravity between you, the kind of anticipation that makes his head spin.
Maybe this time.
Maybe this time, youâllâ
Your breath catches.
Something shifts behind your eyes.
Hesitation. Uncertainty. Regret.
And thenâyou take half a step back. Just enough to break the spell. Just enough to make Jeonghanâs chest hollow out.
Your fingers slip from his, as if the moment had never happened.
"I canât," you murmur, voice barely steady. Your hands curl into fists at your sides, grounding yourself. âJeonghan⌠Iâm not ready to go back there. Not yet.â
The words are quiet, but they land like a blow.
Not cruel. Not harsh.
But final.
Jeonghan doesnât say anything, not at first.
He lets the silence fill the space instead.
Because he gets it.  The weight of the past is too much. Too much to dive back into. Too soon.
You search his face for somethingâanswers, reassurance, something neither of you know how to give.
He forces himself to swallow past the tightness in his throat.
"I understand." His voice is softer now, tinged with something dangerously close to heartbreak.
âI didnât expect you to be.â He exhales slowly, carefully. âI just⌠I needed you to know. I never stopped thinking about you.â
The storm rages on outside, but inside this moment, itâs quieter than it has been in months.
And as Jeonghan watches you turn away, watches your fingers curl slightly, like youâre fighting the urge to reach for himâ
His own fingers curl at his sides.
The ghost of your touch still lingering.
Jeonghan can tell you're wasted the second he hears the knock at his door.
It's an uneven, erratic tapâlike youâre struggling to find the rhythm of it, like the way youâre standing is fighting against whatever balance you thought you had. Itâs nothing like the usual grace you carry, the poised, deliberate way you do everything.
His first instinct? Donât answer.
Maybe if he ignores it, youâll turn on your heel and trudge back to your room, drunk enough to collapse into bed and forget whatever reckless idea brought you here in the first place.
Maybe that would be the best optionâsave both of you from whatever petty revenge youâve decided he deserves.
His fingers hover over the door handle.
He can hear you on the other sideâyour breath, shallow and unsteady, like youâre bracing yourself.
He knows he should stay inside. Let you figure it out on your own.
But of course, he doesnât do that.
Heâs never been good at resisting you.
With a soft sigh, he opens the door, half-expecting a drunken rant about how terrible he is, how he's probably ruined your life, again. You've always had a sharp tongue when you were upset, and he's sure that alcohol is only going to fuel it more.
But when the door swings open, the sight that greets him is nothing like he expected.
Youâre swaying slightly, cheeks flushed from alcohol, eyes hazy but burning with something Jeonghan canât quite place.
And then, thereâs the smileâmischievous, reckless.
The kind of smile that makes his pulse spike for all the wrong reasons.
"You know," you slur, voice low and playful, "I've been thinking about you all evening."
Jeonghan freezes, the words hanging between you like a strange, insistent pull. He was expecting anger. Accusations. Anything but this.
He clears his throat, tries to steady himself. "Uhâyou're really drunk right now." His voice is careful, measured. "Maybe you should go back to your room."
You donât listen.
Instead, you take a slow step forward, swaying just enough for Jeonghan to notice how unsteady you are, how the world is just a little too much for you to handle right now.
Your fingers brush the front of his shirt, then slide up to his collar, curling lightly around the fabric.
"Donât you miss me?" Your voice softens, the playful edge gone, replaced by something rawer. "Donât you ever think about what we could've had? I know I do."
Jeonghanâs stomach lurches, and a sudden wave of panic sweeps through him.
His first instinct is to back away. Create space. Put distance between you and this mess of a moment.
But he looks at you again, really looks at you, and what he sees wrecks him. Because behind the alcohol, behind the reckless smirk, behind the dangerously soft voiceâ
Thereâs desperation.
The same raw, aching need heâs spent months forcing himself to suppress.
âNo,â he says quickly, shaking his head, his voice more strained than he intends. âYouâre drunk. This isnâtâthis isnât the right time for this.â
You laugh, but itâs not light. Itâs not amused.
You laugh, but itâs not a light laugh. Itâs heavy with something else, something he canât quite decipher. âSo youâre saying I donât know what I want? Or maybe you donât know what you want?â
The words sting more than they should. Itâs like youâve taken all the walls heâs spent so long building around himself and torn them down in one shot. The thought of you, standing here and waiting for him, the weight of your gazeâhe can't ignore it. But it's not right to give in, either. Not like this.
He takes a step back, his hands instinctively raising to create space between the two of you. âYou donât mean this. Youâre not thinking straight right now.â
You reach for him again, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt, pulling him a little closer than heâs comfortable with.
He can feel your breath on his skin, warm and uneven, and the tension in the air is suffocating. Every instinct in him is telling him to kiss you, to lean into the dangerous edge between the two of you and let it all unravel.
Your voice is heavy, thick with something undeniable, something Jeonghan wants so badly it hurts.
âIâve missed you,â you murmur, fingers tightening against his chest. âI need you.â
Jeonghanâs heart is pounding in his chest, but he knowsâ
If he gives in now, this moment wonât be what he wants it to be.
It wonât be real.
Not in the way it should be.
âNo."
The word comes out raw, heavier than he expected.
Your face falls, disappointment flashing across your features before the alcohol muddles your expression again.
But Jeonghan holds his ground, even as his heart aches in his chest. You deserved more than this, more than a careless, drunken mistake.
âI donât want to take advantage of you,â he continues, his voice quieter now. âI care about you too much for that.â
For a long moment, you donât say anything. Just stand there, swaying a little, staring at him. Jeonghan watches you, heart pounding in his chest, waiting for something to give. But it doesnât.
And then, in a quiet voice, you say, "You donât care about me."
The words are so fragile, barely holding together as they slip past your lips.
Jeonghan flinches.
Because itâs not true. Itâs never been true.
"Of course, I care-"
You don't let him finish, the door closing with a slam behind you. The sharp click of the lock echoes through the room, final and unforgiving.
Jeonghan stands there for a long moment, staring at the closed door, his chest too tight to breathe properly.
Thenâslowlyâhe leans against it, closing his eyes, exhaling sharply.
You wonât remember much of this tomorrow.
You wonât remember the way you looked at him, the way your voice trembled when you said you missed him. You wonât remember the way his heart nearly gave out when you touched him.
And Jeonghanâ
Jeonghan prays that when the fog of alcohol lifts, you wonât resent him for this.
Jeonghan had spent the weekend stewing in his own thoughts.
The retreat, the storm, the alcohol, the way your fingers curled into his shirt like you needed himâand most of all, the quiet rejection that followed.
Itâs all settled into him in ways he doesnât want to admit.
But one thing is clear through the mess of it all:
You deserved better.
Better than a rain-soaked half-confession. Better than an almost-kiss in the dim light of a cramped shed. Better than standing outside his door, drunk and vulnerable, only to be turned away.
You deserved something real.
So Jeonghan spends the better part of Sunday evening preparing himself.
He rehearses what heâll say, how heâll say it, what kind of apology might be enough to make things right. He tells himself that this time, heâs going to be open, that heâs going to stop hiding behind his usual emotional armour.
That heâs not the same man you left behind.
Jeonghan isn't exactly a grand gesture kind of guy, but he figures that flowers might be a good place to start.
So he picks up a small, simple bouquetâa mix of pale pink roses and white lilies. It feels right. Not over-the-top, not desperate. Just⌠gentle. Sincere.
Something to tell you that heâs serious about this. About you.
About fixing what he broke.
Monday morning. A bouquet. A plan.
Jeonghan walks into the office, bouquet in hand, the familiar weight of anticipation pressing down on his chest.
He hasnât seen you yet, but he knows youâre hereâprobably sorting out someone elseâs mess, busy fixing problems that arenât yours to fix.
And besides, the lingering tension between you still hasnât been resolved. Thereâs still too much left unsaid.
He weaves through the office, eyes scanning each cubicle, looking for a glimpse of you. Your desk. Your chair. The little personal touches you leave behind.
But when he walks past your workspace, he barely slows down. Because, of course, you wouldnât be there yet. Youâre probably in a meeting or grabbing coffeeâ
Right?
Jeonghan stops by the coffee machine, hovering near a group of junior associates, waiting for the right moment.
Heâs still running through his speech in his head when one of themâclipboard in handâpauses beside him, eyes flicking to the bouquet with mild curiosity.
"Those are nice," she comments. "Are you bringing them to Y/n?"
Jeonghan blinks.
Heâs pretty sure no one saw you leaving his room that night, but maybe word spreads faster than he thought.
"Uh, yeah, I was justâ" His voice falters, uncertainty creeping in. "Wait, what do you mean? Are theyâ?"
The associate raises an eyebrow. âOh. Didnât you hear?â
And then, with the casualness of someone delivering a weather reportâ
"Y/n put in their resignation over the weekend. Theyâre leaving the company."
The words hit Jeonghan like a punch to the stomach. He feels the air leave his lungs, his body momentarily forgetting how to function. What?
His mind races. No. It canât be true. Youâyou wouldnât just leave. Not without saying something, withoutâ
He forces himself to reply. "When? Why?"
The associate looks a little sheepish, as though she's not sure if she should be saying anything. "I don't know the details. Something about another job, though. It's pretty sudden - just packed up this morning, said goodbye, and - yeah."
This morning.
Jeonghanâs thoughts go numb.
His eyes dart back to the desk he had walked past minutes agoâ
The empty desk.
The chair is still there, but everything else is gone. No personal belongings. No little notebooks. No coffee cup. No lingering signs that youâd ever been there at all. Just an empty space. Cold. Unfamiliar.
The associate says something else, but Jeonghan doesnât hear her.
He barely registers her walking away.
Without thinking, Jeonghan walks swiftly towards your office, although it feels like his legs are moving on their own, his mind detached from his body. He knows he shouldn't chase after you. He has no right. But this - this is different. You're leaving.
When he reaches your office, he knocks once.
Then, before he can talk himself out of it, he pushes the door open.
And what he finds isâ
Nothing.
The space is just as empty as your desk had been.
The table is stripped bare. The computer monitor is gone. The air still carries the faintest trace of your perfume, but even that is fading.
Jeonghan just stands there, clutching the flowers in his hand like they're the only thing keeping him tethered to this reality.
And then, the quiet voice heâs been trying so hard to ignore finally makes itself heard: You're too late, again.
Jeonghan slumps into his chair, staring blankly at the computer screen like it might somehow offer him answers.
It doesnât.
It just sits thereâcold, unhelpfulâmirroring the hollow ache in his chest.
The bouquet on the corner of his desk is dying a slow, miserable death. The once-vibrant petals are already wilting, drooping under the weight of their own existence, looking just as pathetic as he feels.
He doesnât realize how much time has passedâhow long heâs been sitting there, stuck in the endless spiral of what-ifsâuntil a voice yanks him back to reality with all the grace of a toddler on a sugar high.
"Jeonghan."
He blinks up, sluggish, seeing Joshua standing over him like some sort of judgmental yet well-meaning ghost, arms crossed and face set in that deeply irritating, all-knowing expression that screams I know exactly whatâs going on, and Iâm about to make it worse.
Joshuaâs eyes flick to the flowers.
Then back to Jeonghan.
Then, like he physically cannot help himself, he smirks.
âAre those for Y/n?â
The words are light, teasingâtoo casual. But the look in Joshuaâs eyes is something else entirelyâa mix of sympathy and secondhand embarrassment, the kind that makes Jeonghan want to sink into the floor and never be perceived again.
He exhales, dragging a hand down his face. "Uh, yeahâŚ"
His fingers skim over the petals, carefulâlike touching them too much might make them fall apart completely. "I was going to give them today. I mean, I did. I wanted to, butâŚ"
His voice trails off, disappearing into the abyss of 'things that aren't going to happen'.
Joshua doesnât say anything at first.
Instead, he just leans against the desk, watching Jeonghan with the kind of quiet scrutiny that makes his skin itch.
"I told you, man,â Joshua finally sighs, shaking his head. âYou have to start reading your emails.â
Jeonghanâs mouth opensâready to argue, ready to say something, anythingâ
But nothing comes out.
Heâs just so tired.
And so unbelievably stupid.
"I was going to fix it," Jeonghan mutters. The words taste bitter, hollow in his mouth. He hadnât meant to say them aloud, but there they are. Out in the open. "I was going to apologise. I was going to... to make it right."
Joshua just watches Jeonghanâarms crossed, gaze unreadableâlike heâs waiting to see if thereâs anything left to say.
When he does speak, his voice is softer. Gentler. Like heâs stepping carefully around fragile ground.
âYou know, Jeonghan⌠Sometimes you canât wait around for the right moment. Sometimes, you have to make that moment yourself. No oneâs gonna do it for you.â He pauses. âAnd itâs okay to feel bad about it. Hell, Iâd be a mess too if I were you.â
Jeonghan lets out a quiet, bitter laugh. "Congrats, Shua. You are me. This is your life now."
Joshua hums thoughtfully. âThatâs unfortunate. Iâd like a refund.â
Jeonghan huffs out something that almost sounds like amusementâbut it dies quickly, sinking beneath the weight pressing against his ribs.
His shoulders sag. His head tilts forward, gaze locked onto the wilting flowers.
"I thought I had time," he murmurs.
Joshua stays quiet. Listening.
"I thought theyâd still be there," Jeonghan continues, voice barely above a whisper. "Waiting for me to get my act together."
Silence.
Thick and heavy.
And thenâfinallyâ
âI donât even know if theyâll want to talk to me again.â
Joshua doesnât hesitate this time.
He just smilesâsmall, knowing.
âWell,â he says simply, âyou wonât know unless you try.â
Jeonghan doesn't get drunk on purpose. He just ... allows the alcohol to win.
Besides, it's the first step in his extremely well-thought-out, definitely-not-drunken plan to win you back. (alternatively titled: The worst idea he's ever had, and that's saying something).
Step One: Drown Your Sorrows Like a Man
One drink? Fine. Two drinks? Even better. Five drinks? You know what? Life is short, and so is his ability to keep a functional relationship. Might as well commit.
By the time he's properly marinated in alcohol and self-pity, Joshua has started looking at him with that faceâhalf pity, half âI should have left you at the bar and gone home.â But itâs fine. Everythingâs fine.
âYou know what,â Jeonghan slurs, pointing an accusatory finger at his best friend. âI think I gottaâ I gotta do something. Something big.â
Joshua sighs. âNo, you donât.â
âI do, actually,â Jeonghan says, deadly serious. âI need Y/n to know Iâm a changed man, Joshua.â
Joshua takes a sip of his beer, unbothered. âYou are quite literally drunk in a bar, thinking of doing something stupid. So, no, youâre actually the same man.â
Jeonghan glares. âWow. Negative energy. Get out.â
âThis is my apartment.â
âOkay but, like. Metaphorically.â
Joshua shakes his head. âWhatâs the plan, then? You gonna text her?â
Step Two: Send a Message That Will Definitely Solve Everything
Jeonghan fumbles with his phone, blinking until his vision stabilises enough to find your contact. He hits the audio message button and clears his throat, ready to deliver the most heartfelt, sincere message of his life.
"Heyyyy," he starts. Good start. "I was just thinking. About us. About how we had, like, something special, y'know? And then I was like. Wow. I'm dumb. Like, really dumb. Like, 'couldn't pass a third-grade math test' dumb. But you knew that."
Joshua groans from the kitchen.
"But you liked me anyway. Which is crazy. And so nice of you, actually. You're so nice. The nicest." He hiccups. "And I was thinking. You always used to say that I never fight for anything - which, rude, because I am literally fighting for my life every morning when I wake up. But like, emotionally, you were right. So I'm fighting now. Right now. At this moment."
Pause. Hiccup. Thoughtful silence.
"... Okay, technically, I'm sitting on Joshua's couch. But I mean it. I am spiritually standing up for this relationship."
There's a loud thunk as Jeonghan's knees hit the coffee table from the sheer force he throws his body up with.
Joshua looks up from his phone. "DId you just break my table?"
"Shhhh," Jeonghan waves him off. "Important matters are happening." He brings the phone back to his mouth.
"Anway. Listen. I was bad at the whole relationship thing. But I'm a changed man now. I mean, not right now because I'm drunk, but like, in general, I will be. Probably. Statistically. So like. Call me. Or text. Or send, like, a pigeon, I don't care. But let's talk."
"Wow. That was awful. Are you gonna send it?"
Jeonghan grins. "Oh, it's already gone."
Joshua looks like he wants to throw himself off the balcony.Â
Step Three: Online Shopping
Jeonghan, still drunk and now high on the confidence of his definitely good voice message, decides he needs a gift. Something thoughtful. Something sentimental. Something way better than those shitty flowers he's glad you never had to lay eyes on.
And then it hits him. The perfect idea.
"Joshua," he says, tone dead serious. "I need a taxidermy frog."
Joshua looks at him, horrified. "You what?"
"A frog," Jeonghan's fingers are already moving at lightning speed, typing the words into a very shady-looking website. "Y/n loved that stupid frog we saw in that antique shop. Remember? Y/n said it had 'big personality'. They respected that frog."
Joshua looks like heâs physically in pain. âJeonghan, noââ
âToo late. Itâs ordered.â
Joshua stares in disbelief. "You seriously just spentâ" He looks at the screen, jaw dropping. "FOUR HUNDRED DOLLARS?! ON A DEAD FROG?!"
Jeonghan nods, looking very proud of himself. "Only the best for my love."
"You don't even know if she wants that!"
Jeonghan scoffs. "Joshua. It's a frog. Everyone wants a frog."
Joshua puts his head in his hands. "This is literally why you're single."
Step Four: Pass Out and Let Tomorrow-You Suffer the Consequences
The last thing Jeonghan remembers is a very smug sense of accomplishment.
He has done it. He has made his move. He has sent a heartfelt message. He has made a grand gesture. He is fighting.
He is unstoppable.
âŚHe is also face-down on Joshuaâs couch, snoring so loudly the neighbours might call animal control.
The phone, still clutched in his hand, lights up with an incoming notification.
A text.
From you.
Three words.
"Are you serious?"
Jeonghan wakes up feeling like death.
His head is pounding, his mouth drier than the Sahara, and his soul feels like it has been forcibly removed from his body and drop-kicked into the sun. He groans, rolling over onto his side, only to come face-to-face with Joshua, who is standing over him with the look of a man who has seen things.
ââŚMorning,â Jeonghan croaks, voice wrecked from what he can only assume was a night of tragic decision-making.
Joshua crosses his arms. âDo you remember what you did last night?â
Jeonghan thinks. He remembers alcohol. He remembers emotion. He remembers⌠Oh God.
His eyes fly open. âI bought aââ
âA $400 taxidermy frog? Yes. Yes, you did.â Joshua gestures to the corner of the room, where, sure enough, a very dead, very wide-eyed frog sits in an equally dead, equally wide-eyed glass case.
Jeonghan stares at it in horror, clutching his blanket like it might protect him from reality. âOh my God.â
Joshua sighs and pulls out Jeonghanâs phone. âAnd you sent this,â he says, pressing play on The Message.
Jeonghan has never known true fear until now.
âHeyyyyyâŚâ comes his own very drunk voice, echoing through the apartment like a ghost of his worst mistakes. âSoooooo. I was just thinking. About us. About how we had, like, something special, y'know? And then I was like. Wow. I'm dumb. Like, really dumb. Likeââ
Jeonghan slaps the phone out of Joshuaâs hand so fast, it skids across the floor. âOKAY. Got it. Yep. Thank you.â
Joshua levels him with a stare. âOh, youâre welcome. Also, she replied.â
Jeonghan freezes. âShe what?â
Joshua pulls up the message, holding it out for him to read.
Are you serious?
He stares. Thatâs it? No "never speak to me again"? No "please lose my number and also possibly yourself"?
Joshua claps his hands together. âAnd now, youâre gonna go over."
âWhat? No, Iââ Jeonghan gestures wildly at himself. âI canât justââ
âYes, you can,â Joshua interrupts. âYou were literally crying over this last nightââ
âI wasnât crying.â
âYou sobbed into my hoodie and called me âa real one,â so actually, yes, you were.â
Jeonghan glares. âYouâre enjoying this.â
âOh, so much,â Joshua agrees. Then he gestures to the taxidermy frog still sitting ominously on the table. âAlso, youâre bringing that.â
Jeonghan sits up so fast his brain almost leaves his skull. âWhat?! No! Iâm notâthis was a drunken mistake!â
Joshua gives him a look. âYeah? So was letting her walk away the first time. And the second time. And whatever number time weâre on now.â
Jeonghan glares. âI hate you.â
Joshua pats his shoulder. âI know. Now take the frog and go.â
Jeonghan stands in front of your door, frog in hand, deeply regretting everything that has led him to this moment.
There are a lot of ways to win back an ex. A heartfelt apology. A romantic gesture. Literally any option that does not involve showing up at her doorstep, hungover, holding a dead frog in a display case like some kind of unhinged antique salesman.
But here he is.
He exhales, steadying himself. He has to do this. He has to explain everythingâhow he didnât know you were working for the merging company, how the pastel sweater was not some dramatic power move, how heâs an idiot (but, like, a reformed idiot now).
Most importantly, he has to fix whatever mess he made last night.
With a deep breath, he knocks.
The door swings open a few seconds later, and there you areâstanding there in sweats and an oversized hoodie, looking at him like you knew this day was coming but are still deeply unprepared for it.
Your gaze flickers to the frog. Then back to him. Then back to the frog.
ââŚNo,â you say immediately, trying to shut the door.
Jeonghan wedges his foot in before you can. âWait, wait, wait,â he pleads, balancing the frog case in his other hand. âJust hear me out.â
You cross your arms, unimpressed. âAre you seriously standing outside my apartment atââ You check the time. âNine-thirty in the morning holding a stuffed frog?â
Your expression remains unchanged. âYouâre insane.â
âPassionate,â he corrects, trying to smile. âLook, I just⌠I wanted to talk. Properly. No drunk messages. No misunderstandings. Justâcan we?â He gestures vaguely, still holding the frog case like itâs part of the conversation.
You sigh, running a hand through your hair. âFine. But the frog stays outside.â
Jeonghan pouts. âIt has big personality.â
You slam the door in his face.
Five seconds later, you open it again. âGet in.â
Walking into your apartment is surreal.
Mostly because it looks different. Like you took every single thing that mightâve even slightly reminded you of him and threw it into a bonfire. Jeonghan half-expects to see a sage stick burning in the corner, cleansing the air of his scent.
You sit across from him at the kitchen table, arms still crossed, watching him like he's about to unleash another round of chaos. Which is fair.
Jeonghan clears his throat, hands clasped together, like he's in a business meeting and not a shambles of a man trying to win back the love of his life.
Before he can even begin, you cut in.
âI heard you brought me flowers.â
Joshua, that absolute ratâ
"Julie from legal told me."
Ah. That makes more sense.
âWell,â he starts, thrown completely off track. âI figured you might be feeling bad. I just⌠didnât think youâd quit before I could even apologise.â
"Yeah, well, I guess it all got a little too much for me."
Jeonghan squints. âSo you did quit because of me?â
You level him with a deadpan expression. âJeonghan. I got a bit tipsy and practically begged you to take my clothes off.â
He blinks. âA bit tipsy seems like an understatementââ
"That doesn't mean much coming from you."
Okay. Fair.
You exhale sharply, rubbing your temples. âCome on, Jeonghan. You felt it too. How could I stay there when every moment, I was bracing myself in case I heard your voice? If every time someone passed, Iâd look around to check if it was you?â You shake your head. âThatâs not a productive way to work, and itâs definitely not healthy. I mean, I was thrown off the second I saw you, and I donât think I ever really recovered from that.â
Jeonghan licks his lips, hesitating. âAbout the sweaterââ
Your eyebrows shoot up.
"I didn't know you were leading the merger when I wore it," he says quickly, desperate to clear at least one crime off his record. "I swear to God, I didn't."
You narrow your eyes. "So you just ... casually decided to wear a pastel pink sweater to the most important corporate meeting of your career?"
Jeonghan hesitates. âUh. Yes?â
You stare at him.
He sits up straighter, suddenly feeling defensive. âI had a moment that morning, okay? I had a dream about the day we went to get them, and I thought, Hey, maybe if I wear this, then I'll feel one sliver of the same joy I did that day.â He waves his hands. âI didnât realize that it would lead toââ another vague, exasperated gesture ââthis. Besides, you know I donât check my emails, Y/n. I didnât even know you were going to be there.â
You blink. "You wore it because of a dream?"
" ... Technically, yes."
A pause. Then, to his absolute horror, you start laughing.
Not a mocking laugh. Not a wow-youâre-an-idiot laugh. Just⌠pure, unfiltered amusement, like you cannot believe this is what started all of this.
Jeonghan watches as you shake your head, covering your mouth with your hand.
"Shit," you gasp between chuckles. "I spent an entire week planning what I was going to wear, what I'd say to you when I saw you, how I'd prove to you that I'd moved on and was better without you before that meeting. And you saw right through it, without even realising."
Jeonghan is stunned and, frankly, a little offended.
âYou think this is funny?â he grumbles, watching as you wipe at your eyes, still giggling.
âOh, I know itâs funny,â you say, shaking your head. âAll that effort on my part and you justâobliterated it. By accident. With a sweater.â
Jeonghan huffs, crossing his arms. âWell, excuse me for having a sentimental moment.â
âOh, so now youâre sentimental?â
He hesitates. â...I mean. A little.â
Your laughter fades then, softening into something quieter, something a little too knowing. âI guess thatâs what last night was, too?â
Jeonghan stiffens immediately.
The message.Â
Oh. Right.
The actual reason he's here.
His fingers drum anxiously against the table. âI⌠donât suppose you ignored that?â
âOh, no,â you say, shaking your head. âI listened. Multiple times, actually. Almost sent it to HR for psychological damage.â
Jeonghan groans, burying his face in his hands. âI knew it was bad.â
You tilt your head, considering. âHonestly, it started fine. You sounded, like, half composed. Then you hit the âI am literally fighting for my life every morningâ part and, wellâŚâ You gesture vaguely. âIt kind of fell apart.â
He peeks at you through his fingers. âJust a little?â
âOh, no. It was a complete disaster.â
Fantastic. Love that for him.
Sighing, Jeonghan lets his hands drop, his fingers still fidgeting. âLook, Iââ He hesitates, pressing his lips together before forcing himself to just say it. âI meant what I said.â
Your expression shifts, just slightly, just enough for him to notice.
His voice is quieter now, steadier. âI know I sounded ridiculous, but I wasnât just talking out of my ass. Iââ He swallows. âI really do regret how things ended. I shouldâve fought for you. I shouldâve at least tried. But I didnât, and I lost you. And nowâŚâ He exhales sharply, shaking his head. âNow I donât even know if I have the right to be sitting here.â
You donât answer right away.
Instead, you watch him carefully, as if youâre still trying to figure out if this is real, if itâs safe to trust what heâs saying.
Then, finallyâ
âYou know, you couldâve said all of this before I left.â
Jeonghan winces. âI know.â
âI mean, instead of waiting until you were drunk out of your mind and making Frogbert the most cursed apology gift of all time.â
His face burns. âWe donât have to talk about Frogbert.â
âOh, we absolutely do.â
âY/nââ
You smile, shaking your head, but thereâs something softer in your eyes now. Something that makes Jeonghan feel like maybeâmaybeâhe hasnât completely lost his chance.
You sigh, leaning forward slightly, resting your elbows on the table. âLook, Jeonghan. It wasnât just you. I didnât exactly handle things perfectly either.â
He blinks, startled. âYou didnât?â
You shoot him a look. âWow. Try not to sound so surprised.â
âNo, I justââ He rubs the back of his neck, struggling to process this information. âI kind of assumed you had everything figured out. That you were, yâknow, thriving without me.â
You shrug. âI tried to be.â
The weight of that sits between you for a moment.
Jeonghan wets his lips, his hands still twitching slightly against his knees. âSo⌠what now?â
You tilt your head, considering. âI donât know.â Thereâs something guarded in the way you say it, like youâre waiting for him to give you a reason. A reason to walk away, or a reason to stay.
And JeonghanâJeonghan is so tired of giving you reasons to walk away.
So he leans forward just slightly, his voice lower, steadier than itâs been all week. âIâd rather spend the rest of my life proving that I love you than waste another second pretending I donât.â
Your breath catches.
And for a moment, everything stills.
Jeonghan can see itâthe flicker of emotion behind your eyes, the way your fingers tighten just slightly around the edge of the table. Heâs spent so much time trying to read you, but this? This is the closest heâs felt to understanding you in a long, long time.
Your lips part, but no words come. He watches as you swallow, watches as you fight the instinct to look away.
ââŚThatâs a really unfair thing to say,â you murmur finally, voice quiet.
Jeonghan exhales a soft laugh. âYeah. It is.â He tilts his head slightly, a small, wry smile tugging at the corner of his lips. âBut itâs true.â
You shake your head, eyes narrowing, but thereâs no real bite behind it. âGod, you are so annoying.â
âInfuriating, actually,â he corrects. âBut, yâknow. At least Iâm consistent.â
You roll your eyes, but youâre smiling nowâjust a little, just enough for him to notice. And Jeonghan thinks that maybe heâs finally done something right.
A beat of silence passes between you. Not tense, not uncomfortableâjust quiet. Just⌠yours.
Then, softly: âDo you mean it?â
Jeonghan meets your gaze, unwavering. âYeah,â he says simply. âI do.â
You exhale, rubbing a hand over your face. âYou literally sent me a voice message saying you were spiritually standing up for this relationship.â
ââŚI donât know how this is supposed to work,â you admit, quieter now. âI donât know if it can.â
Jeonghan nods, understanding. âMe neither.â He swallows. âBut I thinkâI think if I lost you again without at least trying this time, Iâd regret it for the rest of my life.â
You stare at him, searching.
Then, after a moment, you let out a slow breath, sitting back in your chair. âOkay,â you murmur. âThen try.â
And Jeonghan, for the first time in forever, feels like he can finally breathe again.
Planning a romantic date is, unfortunately, not Jeonghanâs strong suit.
Oh, he can be thoughtful when he wants to be. But romantic? That requires effort. That requires vulnerability. That requires not making everything a joke to avoid feeling things. And frankly, Jeonghan has built his entire personality around not doing any of that.
But here he is.
Planning a real date. A meaningful one. A Hey-Iâm-Actually-a-Decent-Boyfriend-This-Time-I-Swear kind of date.
Which is why Joshua, who is watching this entire thing unfold from the couch, looks horrified.
âI need you to be honest with me,â Jeonghan says, standing in front of a fully crafted itinerary. âIs this too much?â
Joshua, staring at a literal printed schedule, does not even blink. âYes.â
Jeonghan sighs dramatically. âI knew youâd say that.â
âYou wrote out timed activities, Jeonghan.â
âItâs called being prepared.â
âItâs called being insane.â
Jeonghan waves him off. âOkay, but listen. I messed up. And thisââ He gestures grandly to the schedule. âThis is how I fix it.â
Joshua pinches the bridge of his nose. âWhy do I have a feeling this ends with something deeply embarrassing?â
Jeonghan does not answer.
Which means Joshua is right.
Jeonghan picks you up at exactly 5:00 PM (because he planned this), and the first thing he notices is that youâre suspicious.
"Okay," you say, arms crossed, giving him that look. "Whatâs the catch?"
Jeonghan gasps. "Wow. Zero faith in me."
You raise an eyebrow.
ââŚOkay, fine. A little faith in me.â
You hum. âWeâll see.â
And that is so unfair, actually, because Jeonghan is really trying here. So instead of arguing, he just grins and takes your hand, pulling you toward the car.
"You trust me, right?"
You hesitate for a second too long.
Jeonghan squints.
"Okay," you say finally, sighing. "I trust you. For now." (Jeonghan will absolutely be holding onto that for life.)
The first stop is that little bookshop cafĂŠ you always used to drag him to, the one where youâd spend hours getting lost in shelves while Jeonghan sat in a corner, half-asleep, pretending to be deeply interested in a book he never actually read.
You blink when you realize where you are. âYou remembered this place?â
Jeonghan scoffs, feigning offense. âExcuse me. I was a very supportive boyfriend.â
âYou literally fell asleep on the couch last time we were here.â
ââŚI was a tired boyfriend.â
But youâre smiling now, eyes soft with something that makes Jeonghanâs chest ache.
"Come on," he says, nudging you toward the door. "I owe you a coffee. And maybe a book. Or five. Whatever shuts you up about my alleged napping problem."
Somewhere between coffee and Jeonghan deeply regretting letting you pick out a book for him ("This is 800 pages. Have you met me?"), he takes you to the park.
Itâs nothing fancyâjust a quiet place to walk, somewhere just yours, somewhere he can talk to you without the weight of everything pressing down too hard.
"You're still here," he says eventually, his fingers brushing against yours as you walk.
You smirk. "Yeah, well. I haven't decided if I'm staying."
Jeonghan groans. "Oh my God."
You laugh, nudging his shoulder playfully. But then, softerââIâm glad youâre trying.â
And thatâthat is all Jeonghan needs.
Jeonghan was not planning on this part.
The night is winding down, and everything is going well, and he should just call it there before he does something stupid.
But thenâ
Then, as youâre walking past a store, you freeze.
Jeonghan follows your gazeâ
And, oh.
Oh no.
Matching sweaters.
The pastel monstrosities. The ones that started everything. The ones he swore he would never wear again.
And youâyou are grinning.
Jeonghan is so in love with you, itâs disgusting.
You turn to him, eyes gleaming. "One last time?"
Jeonghan exhales sharply, dragging a hand down his face. âYouâre the actual worst.â
You tilt your head, completely unbothered. âSo thatâs a yes?â
Jeonghan looks at you, at your stupid smile, at the way your fingers are already reaching for the sweatersâ
And, well.
What else is he supposed to do?
Sighing dramatically, he grabs the second sweater and pulls it on.
You beam at him, absolutely delighted.
"God," he groans, looking at his reflection. "This is so much worse than I remember."
"You love it."
Jeonghan turns, catching the way youâre looking at himâsoft, affectionate, the way you used to, before everything got messy. Before he ruined things.
Before he got you back.
Andâokay. Maybe the sweater isnât that bad.
Jeonghan exhales, shaking his head. âYeah,â he admits, pulling you closer. âI really, really do.â
The thing about kissing you again is that it should be easy.
Itâs not like he hasnât thought about itâa lotâin the most pathetic, pining, staring-at-the-ceiling-at-2AM kind of way. Itâs not like he hasnât memorised the shape of your lips, the way you used to kiss him like you werenât even thinking about it, like it was just natural for you to be that close.
But now, when youâre standing right in front of him, beaming at him in that stupid, unfairly charming sweater, it feels like the first time all over again.
You tilt your head slightly, as if daring him. âAre you gonna stare at me all night, orââ
Jeonghan kisses you before you can finish the sentence.
Itâs not careful. Itâs not calculated. Itâs not like any of the times before, when he thought he had all the time in the world to figure this out.
Itâs just him, leaning in like itâs the most obvious thing to do, his hands sliding against your waist like muscle memory, like they belong there. You gasp against his lips, surprised, but it melts away in an instantâyour fingers curling into the fabric of his ridiculous sweater, pulling him closer, like you donât even want him to second-guess it.
And JeonghanâGod, he could die like this.
Itâs slow, and warm, and so achingly familiar that it makes his chest tighten, makes him want to grab onto you and never let go. He tilts his head, deepening it just enough to make sure you feel it, to make sure you understandâ
That this isnât just a kiss.
That this is a promise.
When you finally pull away, your breath is uneven, your lips way too tempting, and Jeonghan has never been good at restraint, so he almost kisses you again.
But then you blink up at him, slightly dazed, andâ
âYou taste like regret and poor life choices,â you murmur.
Jeonghan snorts, pressing his forehead against yours. âThatâs your fault. Youâre the one who made me wear this sweater.â
You laugh, quiet and breathless, and he feels it against his skin, and suddenly, everything is worth it.
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Summary: Six months. Full access. Intimate photos. A glimpse into the world of celebrity. And the last thing Jeon Wonwoo thought he was signing up for.
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The email arrives at the most inconvenient time, as all important emails do. Wonwoo had spent the entire day at the studio, taking newborn photos of a clientâs latest chow chowâ"latest" being bolded because this was the third time this year that heâd been called in for this clientâs endless stream of puppies. By the time heâd finished, his body was ached raw from awkward angles, and his mind was numb from a six-hour editing marathon. He only managed to drag himself back to his flat after the sun had long since dipped below the horizon, craving the sweet refuge of solitude.Â
Alas, he was dragged through a two-hour catch-up session with his flatmate, Mingyu, who, with his never-ending supply of caffeine and chatter, somehow managed to convince him to watch a movie about a guy who falls in love with his childhood friend who is also a ghost. (No, it didn't make sense, but Mingyu enjoyed it, and Wonwoo had long given up trying to follow his logic.)
By the time he collapses onto the couch, half-dead from human interaction, the email is waiting.Â
He groans as he clicks it open, his finger hovering over the delete button, ready to toss the whole thing into the digital void. Then he reads the first line:
"Dear Mr. Jeon, we are pleased to confirm that you have been selected as the official photographer for the upcoming feature on (Y/n) (Y/l/n), world-renowned socialite and philanthropist."
"What in the world..." Wonwoo mutters. He doesn't even really remember submitting his name for this, and he's shocked he'd ever consider it. Wonwoo has long made a mental vow to avoid people like you - socialites, celebrities, influencers - whatever you call them. In the world of photography, they are all the same: walking photo opportunity with zero personality and way too much drama. Perfect for paparazzi, but not something he has time for.Â
He's a quiet, detached observer of the world. He doesn't need to be a part of it.
But the email continues:
"We have full confidence in your ability to capture the raw and humanising side of Ms. (Y/l/n), giving our readers an intimate glimpse into her life, both public and private."
Raw? Humanising? Intimate? Which magazine is this again, the National Geographic?
His eyes flicker back up to the top of the email, growing wide as he sees the sender. Well, shit. Opus Magazine. He does remember applying for this, although, in his defence, they hadn't specified the subject of the op-ed when he'd submitted it.Â
"We are excited to have you on board for this project, which will span the next six months. Your first shoot is scheduled for next Thursday, at 10 AM, at Ms. (Y/l/n)âs residence. We look forward to seeing how your unique perspective brings this project to life.
Thank you for your time and commitment.
Wonwoo leans back, tilting his head toward the ceiling as if the world would offer him an answer. It doesnât.
Best regards,
The Editorial Team
Opus Magazine"
In all fairness, he has never actually met you before. But he's seen you everywhere. The perfectly curated Instagram feed. The charity galas. The interviews. The way you seem to be exactly what everyone wants you to be:Â flawless, effortless, untouchable.
A three-page approval form for every photo, he assumes.Â
The door to the living room creaks open. "How are you not asleep yet?" Mingyu says cheerfully, poking his head in. Wonwoo glances at the clock on his screen: 2:43 am. He chooses not to point out that Mingyu's still awake too.
"I've been assigned to photograph (Y/n) (Y/l/n) for the next six months." Wonwoo grumbles, tapping his phone screen as if he could wipe away the whole thing with a swipe.
Mingyu's eyes widen in surprise. "Wait - (Y/n) (Y/l/n)? As in Forbes Under 30 (Y/n) (Y/l/n)?!"
"Yes. That one." Wonwoo replies flatly, eyes narrowing. "Six months. Full access. I'm going to want to die halfway through."
Mingyu looks delighted, clearly missing the gravity of the situation. "Ooh, this is going to be so fun! You're going to be all glamorous and -"
"No. No, I'm not," Wonwoo interrupts. "I'm going to hide behind my camera and take photos of her from so far away that she doesn't even know I'm there."
âYeah, okay, Mr. Anti-Social. Butââ Mingyu plops down beside him, grinning. ââwhat if she wants to get to know you?"
Wonwoo turns to him, unamused. "It's a professional gig to make her look good; she won't want me digging into her real life."
Mingyu, without missing a beat, grabs a bag of chips and shoves them into Wonwooâs lap. âJust saying. People donât come with Instagram models and high-profile gigs attached unless thereâs something extra special about them, right? Maybe sheâs a hidden gem.â
"Hidden gem?" Wonwoo scoffs. "Or a nightmare in designer shoes."
It doesnât take long for Mingyu to bombard him with unsolicited advice. â... hereâs my tip for you. Donât just take boring photos. You know whatâs going to make her stand out in the sea of perfect socialite portraits?â He paused dramatically. âUnfiltered moments. Catch her when sheâs off guard. Capture her when she doesnât know sheâs being watched.â
Wonwoo shoots him a deadpan look. âWhat, you mean like stalking her?â
âI prefer the term artistic observation,â Mingyu replies, grinning mischievously. âTrust me. Youâre going to fall in love with her vulnerability. You know, the real her. The one she hides behind all the glam.â
Wonwoo shakes his head, already regretting this conversation. Heâs not even met you, and here Mingyu was, crafting an entire narrative of undiscovered depth based on nothing but a couple of well-lit photos.
Still, his finger hovers over the accept button.Â
Six months. Full access. Intimate photos.
Maybe he should just ... get on with it.
Wonwoo hasn't actually met you yet and he's already regretting his decision.Â
He's spent the past week alternating between panicking and ignoring the dozens of emails for your team, each one more frantic than the last. First, they sent a detailed itinerary of the shoot, followed by an even more detailed list of instructions on what he should wear, when to arrive, and what colour lens he should use for "optimal lighting" - as if he didnât know how to work a camera by now.
9:00 AM, Inbox:
âSubject: URGENT: RE: Ms. (Y/l/n)âs Preferences for the Dayâ
âGood morning, Mr. Jeon,
I hope you're prepared for todayâs shoot! Please note that Ms. (Y/l/n) prefers a soft light filter on all images, especially when sheâs not directly posing. Weâve attached a sample of how she likes her candid photos to look (itâs very specific). Do ensure that you have the required lens, and if you have any questions, donât hesitate to reach out.
Wonwoo stares at the email for a moment, blinking. Soft light filter? Do you breathe, or do you simply exist in a perpetual soft-focus glow? His finger hovers over the "delete" button, but he refrains. He already knows this is a battle heâs not going to win.
Best,
Assistant to Ms. (Y/l/n)âs PR Team.â
He takes a deep breath and forces himself to get up. He throws on his jacket, feeling the weight of the situation pressing down on him worse than when he submitted his final portfolio at college, and the project hasn't even begun yet. There's no escaping now. He has to do it - he's been hired for this. Paid for it, too, which means he's legally obliged to at least try.
He arrives at the shoot location just before 10 AM: a sprawling, minimalist mansion that looks like it's been pulled from the pages of an interior design magazine. It's sleek, modern, and incredibly intimidating. The atmosphere is slick with an 'unapproachable luxury' vibe, and Wonwoo can already feel the tension in his shoulders as he steps out of his car.Â
A member of the PR team greets him immediately, smiling far too brightly for someone who's probably already been working since 5 AM. "Mr. Jeon! So glad you could make it. Please follow me inside, Ms. (Y/l/n) is just getting ready.â
Wonwoo nods, trying to maintain the calm he doesn't really feel, muttering a "thank you" in response.
Inside, everything is sleek and spotless - nothing out of place, nothing too personal. Like no one's ever lived here. He's brought to a sitting room where the lighting is admittedly perfect. Almost too perfect. He's not used to working in these conditions. He's used to having to fix things last minute, create something out of nothing, or use the imperfections to his advantage. A soft hum of quiet chatter fills the air, and a stylist is busy adjusting something behind the curtain.
He doesn't know what he's expecting as you walk out. Maybe someone a little more ordinary, a little less polished than the figure seen in magazines. He's worked with models before, and they've always been so normal outside of shoots. But when you step into the light, it's like the room takes a collective breath. You're impossibly beautiful, even he can admit that, in that "perfectly put together, but effortless charming" way. Your smile hits him like a tidal wave, all dazzling teeth and liquid confidence, and for a split second, he forgets why he's here.Â
He opens his mouth to speak, but what comes out is a dry, âHello.â
You tilt your head slightly, looking him up and down with eyes that seem to see everything. âIâve heard a lot about you, Mr. Jeon,â you say, your voice smooth, almost teasing.
Wonwoo feels a flutter of unease in his chest, though heâs not sure why. Itâs not like he hasnât worked with famous people before, and yet something about youâsomething about the way you look at himâfeels like an interrogation.
âAh, well,â he stammers for a second, clearing his throat, âI⌠I hope itâs all positive.â
The smile on your lips doesnât waver, but thereâs something almost too sharp about it. The kind of smile thatâs practised, like youâve been wearing it since you were a child in front of mirrors, learning the exact angle for maximum charm.
âOh, absolutely. Youâve got quite the reputation,â you say, as if itâs an afterthought. âThey told me youâd be professional.â
Professional. Right. Because thatâs exactly what he is. Heâs always professional, no matter how much he wants to roll his eyes at the utter insanity of the situation.Â
He offers a stiff nod. âGood. Thatâs what Iâm here for.â
You smile again, but this time itâs softer. There's a flicker of something in your eyes, almost like amusement, but also curiosity. For a moment, Wonwoo wonders if he's just a novelty to you, something to poke at for fun. Or maybe you think youâre the novelty here, and he's just another player in the game you're used to winning. Either way, he can feel the weight of that gaze, and itâs not entirely comfortable.
You take a step closer, and Wonwoo resists the urge to take a step back. Itâs like you have this gravitational pullâmagnetic, impossible to ignore. But heâs not going to let that faze him. His eyes stay focused on your face, trying not to let your presence throw him off his game.
âSo,â you say, tilting your head slightly, âwhatâs your plan for today? Iâm assuming Iâm not just going to stand here all day and look pretty?â
It's a light question, but he can hear the expectation in your voice. Heâs used to people expecting things. Itâs justâwell, usually, itâs an email with 10 bullet points, not an interrogation delivered with a smile.
âIâll take a few shots first,â Wonwoo replies, keeping his tone neutral. âGet the feel of the lighting. Then weâll see if we need anything more posed.â
You nod, and decide the conversation is over, floating back over to the set.
Wonwoo lifts his camera, adjusting the settings to give himself a moment to settle down.
You stand still, not quite posing, but perfectly aware of your body. Everything about you seems calculated. Even your fingers, relaxed at your sides, seem to fall into the right positions at just the right time. Itâs strange, though, because youâre not the robotic kind of poised heâs used to. There's a subtle looseness to you, a humanity that he doesn't expect.
âHow does this work?â you say after a beat. âYou just take my picture and call it a day?â
Wonwoo focuses on adjusting the lens, trying to suppress the slight frustration thatâs bubbling up. He doesnât want to be here. He doesnât want to take your picture. All he wants is to get the job done and move on.
But instead, he clicks the shutter. One, two, three shots in rapid succession. The light catches your face in a way thatâs almost too good to be real, too perfect for anyone to be this unfailingly photogenic.
âRelax,â he mutters more to himself than to you. âJust act natural.â
You tilt your head again, this time a little more playfully. âNatural?â You raise an eyebrow, a soft chuckle escaping you. âIâm afraid Iâve forgotten what that is.â
Wonwooâs finger freezes over the shutter, and he looks at you again, the barest hint of annoyance tugging at the corner of his mouth. âOh, Iâm sure you can manage."
You laugh then, a light, almost mythical sound, and for a moment, the tension in the room eases just enough for Wonwoo to breathe. âIâll try. But no promises.â
He clicks another shot, and for the first time, something in his chest loosens. Itâs not muchâjust a tiny shiftâbut itâs there. Youâre... interesting.
âTell me, Mr. Jeon,â you ask, your voice low. "I'm intrigued as to why you decided to do this shoot. What's your opinion on people like me?"
Wonwoo lowers the camera, the question catching him off guard. âWhat do you mean?â
You shrug, your gaze flicking toward the window, your expression momentarily unreadable. âPeople who live in the public eye. People who everyone thinks they know, but donât. Whatâs your opinion on that?â
âPeople like you donât need opinions,â he says, his voice flat, âbecause you already know how everyone feels about you.â
Heâs being sharp. Cold, even. And he knows it. But he canât help himself. This isnât the first time heâs worked with someone who expects the world to revolve around them. Itâs what they do. Itâs why he keeps his distance.
You donât react immediately. You just stare at him for a moment, your expression unreadable.
For a split second, he wonders if heâs crossed a line. But then your lips twitch, just the slightest hint of a smile.
âWell,â you finally say, your tone warm but still guarded, âI suppose thatâs one way to see it.â
Wonwoo wants to say something else, maybe something witty or sarcastic, but he stops himself. Instead, he lifts the camera again, focusing on the next shot.
No matter how much he tries to bury it, Wonwoo canât help but feel... a little intrigued by you.
Just a little.
The second shoot is at your apartment.Â
Wonwoo had been floored when he'd found out - although the spotless nature of the first home had kind of given away that it wasn't actually yours. More than that, the fact that he, despite meaning to have creative control over the project, wasn't told that the purpose of the first shoot was to show a contrast between how people thought you lived and how you actually lived. Seemed like something he should have a say in.
As he arrives, the reality is different to what he'd imagined, and the opposite of the slick, minimalist mansion.Â
Your apartment is, in a word, alive. The first thing that hits him is the colour. Bright hues of teal and mustard yellow leap off the walls, the kind of vibrant tones that feel like they belong in a 70s sitcom. The entire place seems to be a throwback to a cooler, bygone era, as if time itself was gently bent to live in this space. Mid-century modern furniture clashes with bold retro patternsâgeometric prints, zigzags, and polka dots galore.Â
The space is wide and open, but itâs not the sterile kind of open thatâs all white walls and cold metal. No, this is a living, breathing room that demands attention with its quirk and charm. He prefers it.
The walls are covered in vintage posters from concerts, movies, and random ads from the 60s and 70sâfaded, but still full of energy. One poster catches his eye in particular: itâs a photograph of an old jazz band in action, the colours almost washed out but still vibrant in their intensity. He notices that itâs not framed, just tacked on with mismatched pins as though it was thrown up without a second thought. Itâs a detail that makes him think you probably chose it on a whim.
At the far side of the room, there's a vintage bar cartâwooden, with brass accents, stocked with various bottles and a large glass decanter that catches the light as though itâs waiting for its next cocktail to be poured. A small but proud collection of classic board games, with bright, cheerful colours that look like they belong on a childhood shelf, sits close next door.Â
Despite the space being filled with vintage charm, thereâs a kind of organised chaos to it all. The floor might have an old rug with faded patterns that don't quite match the couch, and the coffee tableâhalf-full of magazines, books, and a stray mugâcouldnât be called tidy, but itâs the kind of mess that makes the space feel lived-in.
The thought makes his stomach twist uncomfortably.
You lead him inside, wearing a loose, earthy sweater and faded denim jeans, a marked contrast to the polished image heâs gotten used to seeing in magazines. You still look beautiful, but comfortable. Not model-perfect.Â
âYou can set up wherever youâd like,â you say casually. Your voice is warm, and easy-going in a way thatâs almost disarming.
Looking around, he realises for the first time that none of your team is here. And, weirdly, it unsettles him.
He finds himself pausing for a moment when he notices a worn book sitting on the coffee table, the edges curled with time. Heâs always had a soft spot for books, the way their covers could tell so much about the person who owned them. And that book? Itâs clearly one youâve read over and over.
His fingers hover over his camera lens for a moment, and before he can stop himself, he mutters, âYou read a lot?â
You glance over, surprised. âHmm?â
âThe book.â He gestures vaguely, âIt looks well-loved.â
You laugh softly, a short, pleasant sound that makes his chest tighten in a way he doesnât fully understand. âOh, that? Itâs nothing, really. Just something I found at a little bookstore in Paris. Iâve read it a million times, but... sometimes, it feels like you can always find something new in the pages, you know?â
Wonwoo opens his mouth, but no words come out. It's almost spinning his head around - the way that you're mixing together something so casual like a well-worn book with the detail that you got it in Paris. There's this weird grating of human and celebrity that he doesn't know how to deal with.
You seem to notice the shift in his gaze, your smile becoming a little softer. But instead of explaining more, you walk over to the window and lean against the frame, glancing outside. âSo, how do you want to do this today?â you ask, clearly trying to get back on track.
Wonwoo nods, snapping himself back into work mode. âLetâs start with some natural shots,â he says briskly, pointing to the light streaming in through the window. âYou can stay by the window, maybe. Iâll catch the light.â
You agree without hesitation, sitting down on the frame.Â
The shots begin. You sit, your eyes thoughtful but distant, as if lost in some thought. He clicks the shutter a few times, and the room is silent except for the rhythmic sound of the camera.
The more he shoots, the more he finds himself paying attention to the small things. The way you absentmindedly twirl a lock of hair between your fingers. The way your posture softens after a few minutes, like youâre forgetting heâs there, and yet still poised.
The next shot clicks, and you look up at him, catching his eye.Â
âIs that good?â you ask, breaking the silence.
He swallows, feeling a slight tension in his throat that wasnât there before. âYeah. Yeah, thatâs perfect.â
The words come out without thinking, and he can feel his cheeks flush slightly at the sincerity with which he says them. He's fiddling with his camera settings again, trying to adjust the light for the shot, as you sidle over to the small vintage record player near the window. The soft crackling sound of a jazz record fills the air.Â
He doesnât expect it when you suddenly speak, your voice soft but with an underlying curiosity.
âSo,â you say, not turning around, your fingers gently tapping against the edge of the record player, âIâve been wondering⌠youâve been pretty quiet this whole time. Not like the others. Why is that?â
Wonwoo glances up, caught off guard. âWhat do you mean?â He doesnât look at you directly, still adjusting the focus on the lens, anything to avoid eye contact.
âI mean,â you laugh lightly, spinning the record playerâs dial, âeveryone else I work with is always talking. About work, about their lives, about whateverâs trendingâpeople like to talk, especially when theyâre nervous. Youâre the only one who hasnât said much about anything.â
Thereâs an open quality in your tone, no judgment, no pressure, just curiosity. And for some reason, that makes him feel even more exposed than if you had pried into his personal life directly.
âI guess Iâm not a fan of small talk,â Wonwoo mutters, setting the camera down a little too abruptly, feeling a tightness in his chest. âI donât really need to fill the silence.â
You turn to face him then, and for the first time, he notices how unguarded your expression is. Thereâs no fake smile or calculated poseâjust an interested look.
"I get that," you say, your voice now quieter, almost thoughtful. "But... do you ever feel like you miss out? I mean, silence is... great, but itâs also really lonely sometimes, isnât it?"
"Not really,â he says, not meeting your gaze. âIâm fine with being on my own. Iâve always preferred it.â
You tilt your head, studying him with an intensity that makes him shift uncomfortably. "You know," you say, taking a step toward him, your voice soft but deliberate, "I always thought Iâd be fine alone too. It's funny how we get so used to being surrounded by people, by noise, by the ârightâ kind of companyâwhen, in the end, itâs really the silence thatâs the most honest."
Your words sink into him, a little unexpected, a little disorienting. There's a weight to themâlike youâve really thought about this.Â
âAnd whatâs that supposed to mean?â he asks, his voice less guarded, almost teasing, but thereâs an edge of curiosity there too.
You pause for a beat, a soft smile playing on your lips. There's something mischievous in the way your eyes twinkle. "Well," you begin, you're voice light, "what I mean is that maybe the real stuff gets lost when you get too good at hiding behind the quiet."
He raises an eyebrow, but before he can reply, you finish with a playful, almost theatric sigh: "Or maybe I'm just trying to get you to talk. You know, because I certainly don't want to be the only one in the spotlight in this room. It's exhausting, really."
He can't help itâhe laughs. A quiet, breathy sound, but itâs real. Something about the absurdity of it all. Something about the way you deflect it all with that charming, nonchalant smile.
"You're a work in progress," you grin wider, eyes narrowing. "But I'm going to crack you open."
Wonwoo is still chuckling, a disbelieving snort of laughter he can't hide. He leans back in his chair, running his hand through his hair as he studies you with a wry smile. "Yeah, well, Iâm not sure Iâm the one who needs cracking open," he says, his tone half teasing, half resigned, as if heâs already lost the battle.
You pause for a moment, surprised that you've actually got him joining in on your jokes. But you don't press. Instead, you give him a sideways grin and lounge out over your statement, mustard couch. "Tell me, Mr Jeon - do you still think your opinion of me doesn't matter? Should I go back to hiding behind the perfect image for you to capture what everyone else already thinks of me?"
Wonwoo chuckles, shaking his head. He canât deny that something about you has started to chip away at his carefully cultivated indifference. "I donât think you could ever hide, even if you tried."
The jazz record continues to hum in the background, and Wonwoo starts to wonder if he's finally found something worth shooting beyond the lens.Â
When he makes it back home, the camera bag feels heavier than usual, and the moment he closes his front door, he's hit when the familiar sense of quiet.Â
He dumps the camera bag on the kitchen counter and heads straight for his desk, flipping open his laptop with the enthusiasm of someone whoâs about to dive into hours of editing. The usual dread of looking through the pictures fades as he opens the files. He didnât think heâd be so invested in this shoot, especially not with you, of all people. But the truth is, the moment he starts scrolling through the shots, heâs a little bit stunned.
There are candid moments of you, captured so naturally. Your hair falls in your face as you laugh at something he barely remembers, the light coming in through the window bathing you in that soft golden glow like you were born for this. The quiet, unguarded momentsâyour fingers absentmindedly tapping against the coffee table, your eyes softened with a thought heâll never fully know.
He doesnât realize heâs holding his breath until the shot where youâre sitting by the window, gazing out at the street, completely oblivious to the lens. Itâs raw. And weirdly, itâs beautiful in a way he didnât anticipate.
With a sigh, he leans back in his chair, running a hand through his hair.
And damn it, now heâs got to figure out how to keep it professional when all he wants to do is scroll back through these photos of you for the next few hours.
He grabs his coffee again, takes another sip, and mutters under his breath, "Whatâs the point of professionalism, anyway?"
Wonwoo is not thrilled about attending the gala. In fact, he's pretty sure if he could just get lost in the crowd and pretend he's not there, he would. But, alas, work. He's there, standing awkwardly by the hors d'oeuvres table, holding the camera like it's a shield. The entire place is dripping in opulence - golden chandeliers, champagne towers, and a sea of glittering gowns and tuxedos so shiny they could be mistaken for mirrors. It's the kind of event where everyoneâs either a billionaire or pretending to be one.
And then, of course, thereâs you.
You move through the room like you've got a personal spotlight, laughing with people he's never heard of, shaking hands with people he has. The dress you're wearing is stunning, too, naturally - deep emerald green, with a neckline just high enough to make it look elegant but low enough to make him briefly question his entire career as a photographer. He should be focused on the job. But you're flashing that perfect smile, chatting with rich old men and influencers alike, completely different from the version of you he saw in your apartment just a week ago, laughing over a worn book.
He watches you interact with the other guests, a dance of small talk, well-placed compliments, and calculated interest, and suddenly, he feels like heâs been shrunk down to the size of a cockroach. If someone took a photo of him, An intruder in your world would be the title. The camera, which he thought would make him feel a little less out of place, feels heavy in his hands, as though it might give away the fact that heâs just not meant to be here.
You glance in his direction, catching his eye from across the room. He freezes. He can almost hear you sighing internally before you offer a small, knowing smile.
"Mr. Jeon!" Your voice floats toward him over the clink of glasses and high-pitched laughter. "How are we doing? Getting some good shots?"
He stares at you, blinking. Youâre asking him in that casual, sweet tone thatâs just different from your âpublic personaâ voice. Itâs like a crack in the glass, and he suddenly feels... disoriented. The contrast is so stark that for a second, he forgets how to respond.
"Uhâyeah, I mean, everythingâs fine," he stammers, adjusting the camera lens like it might offer him some sort of escape from his discomfort. "Just, you know. Capturing the glamour." He motions vaguely at the glittering scene around him, feeling more awkward by the second. His fingers hover over the shutter button, but they hesitate.
You laugh, a polite, rehearsed sound. "Ah, yes. Glamour. The thing I do so well." You flash him a smile that could melt diamonds and suddenly he feels like heâs about two seconds away from accidentally snapping a picture of his own nervous breakdown.
The silence between you stretches just long enough for him to feel like the entire room is waiting for him to speak. He clears his throat. "Itâs... different, isnât it? Here?"
You tilt your head slightly, raising an eyebrow, as if trying to gauge whether heâs joking or not. "Different?" You laugh again, but this time itâs more self-deprecating. "I guess. But itâs what Iâm used to. The lights, the faces. I mean, itâs all a bit much sometimes, but..." You trail off, and for a second, it feels like you're letting something slip.
But then someone else approaches you, pulling you into a conversation about some charity auction or art gala (he stops paying attention, realising heâs been trying to capture your attention too long), and just like that, the moment is over. You slip right back into the role, offering another perfect smile, your body language straightening, as if youâre suddenly filled with all the energy you didnât seem to have a second ago.
The space feels suffocating all of a sudden, and Wonwoo wonders if he should have stayed home, maybe edited a few more of those photos, or gone for a walkâanything to avoid being a part of this gilded zoo. He looks through the lens, catching another shot of you laughing with an older gentleman, your hand resting lightly on his arm.Â
A loud crash breaks through the air.
Wonwoo's head snaps in the direction of the sound, instinctively lifting the camera as if it's somehow going to make sense of the situation.Â
He spots a waiter, wide-eyed and mortified, standing frozen next to a toppled champagne tower. Glasses are shattered everywhere, a sea of bubbly liquid spilling across the pristine white carpet like some kind of modern art installation.
The room falls into a hushed silence.
He can feel the collective tension, the people whoâd been laughing and chatting a second ago suddenly stiffening in disapproval. Someone gaspsâprobably just for dramatic effectâbut the truth is, everyoneâs too rich, too important to react with anything other than mild disdain. A few uncomfortable glances are exchanged, and one of the older men starts muttering under his breath, his hands clutching his glass like itâs a lifeline.
And then, like someone flipping a switch, youâre there.
You glide through the crowd with a purposeful ease that makes everything else fade into the background. People part for you as though they know exactly what youâre about to do. The smile that had been plastered on your face during the earlier conversation is gone, replaced with a soft, serious expression, one thatâs sharp in its concern.
"Excuse me," you say, your voice suddenly commanding but not unkind. Wonwoo can tell the waiter is waiting for the blowout, the yelling, the anger - but it's not there.
"It's alright, don't worry. It's just a few glasses. Are you hurt?"
The waiter shakes his head, and you kneel down beside him to start gathering up the broken shards of glass with careful motion. "Let me help, then."
The people around you are still hesitant, staring awkwardly, unsure whether they should step in or just stand back and pretend like nothing's happening. But youâre focused on the task at hand, moving with precision, completely unaffected by the sea of disapproving looks that surround you.
Wonwoo finds himself frozen again, his camera half-raised. His finger hesitates on the shutter button, unsure if he should capture the moment. You donât seem to care about the image you're creating, not in the way you do for the cameras. Here, youâre just someone helping out, unbothered by the chaos unfolding around you.Â
After you finish clearing up the last of the glass, you stand up and dust your hands off, flashing a quick smile to the waiter, who looks completely relieved. You stand tall, taking in the now-silent room with a playful glint in your eye.
âWell," you say, wiping your hands on your dress, "I always knew I was good at breaking the ice, but I didnât think itâd be literal this time."
The room goes quiet for a beat, and then, just like that, a few people start to chuckle. Someone claps lightly, another offers a small cheer, and the tension evaporates into a burst of laughter.
You throw your hands up in mock surrender. "Alright, alright, donât all applaud at once. Just trying to keep things interesting around here."
With that, the conversation picks up again. The guests move, shift, and suddenly, the night feels like itâs back in motion. Wonwoo watches from a distance, surprised at how quickly the entire atmosphere shifted. You just defused the room with a smile and a joke, as if it had all been part of the plan.
"Hey," you're walking up to him, stepping into his personal space as the final whirlwind of flashing cameras wraps up an evening of too many glasses of champagne and handshakes that feel more like a chore than a greeting. "What are you doing after this?"
Wonwoo looks up, startled. "Uh, I⌠well, I was just going to head back. Got a few edits to finish up," he mumbles, scratching the back of his neck.
You tilt your head, studying him with a slight grin. "That sounds like fun," you tease. "But Iâm guessing itâs not exactly going to be a good time."
He pauses, feeling almost embarrassed for a moment, before shrugging. "I guess I could skip it."
A small beat of silence passes between you, and then you speak again, quieter this time. "You know," you start, your voice softer than before, "if you donât have anything better to do... Iâd, uh, actually kind of like to go out. No fancy people, no cameras. Just⌠I don't know, something normal."
Wonwoo looks at you for a beat, wondering if you're asking him to go with him, as the corners of his lips twitch upwards. "You mean no red carpets and champagne?"
You laugh, soft and genuine. "Exactly," you say, your voice laced with a touch of vulnerability. "Just, you know, being normal for once."
The way you say "normal" almost makes it sound like a forbidden word in your world, and Wonwoo feels a flicker of something.
"Iâm in," he says, the words slipping out before he can think too much about them.
You give him a small, almost shy smile. "Alright. You follow me."
Itâs an hour later, and youâre driving through the city, the sound of the tyres on the road mixing with the faint hum of the radio. You didnât tell him where you were going, just that it was "something fun." Wonwooâs pretty sure youâve never driven anywhere that didnât require a driver, but here you areâon a small, crowded street near the heart of the city, pulling up to a diner with neon lights flickering like they havenât been replaced in a decade.
"This place?" Wonwoo asks, looking out the window at the 24/7 diner with its retro sign and low-key vibe.
"Yep. We said normal, right? Well, this is as normal as it gets."
He raises an eyebrow, but before he can protest, youâre already getting out of the car, leaving him no choice but to follow.
Inside, itâs a whole different world. The diner smells faintly of coffee and fried food, and the clink of mugs and chatter of a few late-night patrons makes the place feel strangely cosy. Thereâs a jukebox in the corner, and despite the place being stuck in a time warp, you both sit down at a booth, the vinyl seats creaking under you as you slide in.
You both sit in comfortable silence for a few minutes, the normal kind of silence that feels more like breathing than awkwardness. And then, finally, you speak.
"You want to know something crazy?" You say, looking down at the menu, though you made it clear in the car that you've already memorised it.Â
Wonwoo looks up, his brow furrowing slightly as he nods.
"This is probably the first time in a while I haven't felt like I have to perform. Which is, actually, crazy. Because I'm hanging out with a professional photographer who's being paid to capture every moment of my life." You let out a disbelieving scoff, your lips curling into a grimace-like smile.
"I get that," he replies, his voice softer than he expects. "It's different for me too. I'm not sure I remember the last time I spoke to any of my friends, other than my flatmate, who insists that we have a catch-up meeting every day."
You chuckle, the crinkles of your smile flattening out.Â
The waitress arrives, interrupting for a moment, and you order a milkshake without hesitation. He orders something random, revelling in the thrill of not thinking too much about anything.
"I get lonely sometimes," you say after your order arrives, so quietly that Wonwoo almost misses it. "I know itâs weird, I mean, people are always around me. But itâs like... they donât really see me. They only see the version of me they expect."
He's not sure if you're still tipsy, although the rosy flush of your cheeks suggests so, or if you now feel very comfortable with him.Â
Wonwoo isnât sure what to say, so he just lets the silence settle for a moment, letting your words hang in the air like a soft echo.
"You know," he says after a beat, his voice lighter than before, "I donât think Iâve ever met anyone who can juggle both a charity gala and a diner milkshake at 3 AM with such grace."
You snort, blowing bubbles into the drink that leave splashes of pink liquid sizzling on the diner table. The sight is enough to set Wonwoo off too, laughter spilling out of him in a way that's only possible in the early hours of the morning.Â
"I should take a photo of that," he chuckles as you give him a large grin, the straw still sticking out of your teeth as you mop up the spilt drink.Â
But he doesn't. Doesn't even think to take his camera out of its bag.Â
Instead, he just watches youâreally watches youâfor the first time tonight, as you sit there, messy and unapologetic, with your eyes twinkling. And you're not the person everyone in the ballroom thought you were.Â
"Maybe we should do this more often," you say, your voice unexpectedly soft as you look up at him.Â
Wonwoo nods, the corner of his mouth curving up in the smallest of smiles. "Yeah. Maybe we should."
You've taken a surprising interest in Wonwooâs regular work. Since you got him to admit that this project wasnât really his usual gig, you've made it your personal mission to dig deeper. 70% of your questions have revolved around what he actually enjoys doing, the kind of work that doesnât come with velvet ropes or high society guests. Itâs a little like watching a puzzle slowly get pieced togetherâa mixture of curiosity and the way you just can't let go of something that intrigues you.
So, when you mention, "I think it's only fair you show me what you usually do," itâs not entirely out of the blue.
"Alight, alright," Wonwoo mutters, realising that he owes it to you to let you peek inside his world too. "But don't expect anything glamorous. Magazine spreads don't feature heavily."
Your eyebrows shoot up in an exaggerated gasp that has him rolling his eyes. "I'm not expecting you to change into a suit and tie, if that's what you're worried about." You grin. "but if you do, I'll totally snap some behind-the-scenes shots."
"Don't get any ideas," he mutters, but there's a soft laugh behind his words.Â
You look like an archaeologist discovering ancient treasures as you step into the studio, and Wonwoo has to resist the urge to photograph the look on your face. He wasn't lying when he said it wasn't much, but it's quieter than the outside world, which is just the way Wonwoo likes it. The walls are lined with a few scattered prints, some framed, others just leaning against the wall, like theyâve been left to gather dust for the sake of catching a different light. The easel in the corner holds the remnants of his last attempt to paint, the workbench cluttered with film rolls, empty coffee cups, and a few stray brushes.
You pause in the doorway, taking it all in.
"So," you begin, "where's the real deal? Show me your favourites."
He shrugs and walks over to a table filled with various photo equipment, adjusting his glasses as he picks up a roll of film. "Iâm not sure what youâd consider my 'thing,' but I mostly shoot for personal projects. I like experimental work. I mean..." He looks over at you, and for a second, there's a flicker of something more, something deeper. "I like showing things that don't get seen. Telling stories that donât get told."
You step further into the room, your curiosity piqued. "The more I learn, the more I marvel at the fact that you chose to do photograph me," you tease.Â
He looks back at you, the hint of a smile tugging at his lips. "It's good to try new things sometimes. And, well ... I'm not so sure you're story has been entirely captured yet."
He pulls a print down from a shelf, careful with the edges, and walks over to where you're sitting. "This," he says, sitting next to you, "is one of my newer pieces. Itâs⌠different from the usual stuff I shoot. Itâs a little raw, a little wild."
The picture is a little hard to make out - a blur of colours and light, like a dream caught in motion. There's an image of a figure - slightly distorted and bathed in neon blue and orange, wrapped in streaks of light that seem to bend and curve in ways that don't make sense. It almost looks like the figure is dissolving into the frame itself, as though theyâre becoming part of the world rather than a separate subject within it.
"Itâs a long exposure," he continues, "but I played with the focus to distort things more than I usually do. You can see the movement in itâlike the person isnât static. Theyâre not just there. Theyâre changing. Becoming."
You tilt your head, your gaze flickering back and forth as you try to make sense of the image.
"Itâs unsettling," you say softly, more to yourself than to him.
Wonwoo nods, the corner of his mouth quirking up. "Thatâs what I like about it. People always expect something clear, something neat when they look at photos. But sometimes, the chaos is whatâs real. The blur, the overlap of light, itâs how I see things."
"Itâs like⌠you know when you try to hold onto a moment, but it keeps slipping away? Thatâs what this is. The image is still, but everything around it keeps moving. It doesnât stay still, no matter how much you want it to."
You reach out, fingertips brushing the edge of the frame, tracing the glowing streaks of light. "Itâs almost like youâre trying to capture the space between things."
He pauses, eyes flickering to yours as if reading your expression. "Itâs like that with people, too, right? You think you know them, but then they change. Or maybe you change. And all of a sudden, youâre looking at them and wondering who they really are. Who they were. Who theyâre becoming."
Youâre silent for a moment, but your gaze hasn't left his and it's piercing into him with all of the unspoken words.
And then you're eyes snap to something behind him, and he feels a little empty in the void of your gaze. A small smile slips across your lips. And you're gone, moving quickly out of your seat to get a closer look at whatever has pulled you away from him.
Wonwoo's head swivels around, like if he loses sight of you, you'll disappear.Â
"Now, this is unexpected."
Your voice is laced with that mischievous tone, and it snaps Wonwoo back into reality, his gaze darting to where you're now standing, eyes fixated on the shelf behind him.
He feels his cheeks heat up before he even registers why. The camera equipment on the shelf, partially obscured by a few stray photo albums, is a large, well-worn camera with an impressive lens. But itâs not the camera thatâs got your attentionâitâs the stack of photos beside it.
He swallows. "Oh, those. They're⌠um, just some old shoots,â he mutters, reaching for the pile as quickly as he can.
But you're already stepping closer, your grin widening as you grab one from the top of the stack. Your eyes light up as you hold it up, and itâs immediately clear why youâre grinning.Â
The photo is a high-end fashion shot, one of those artsy ones. It features a modelâclad in nothing but strategically placed shadows and some very expensive body paint, in what can only be described as sultry poses. The subject's entire form is captured with the kind of grace and sensuality you normally associate with glossy magazines and high-end ads.
You raise an eyebrow. âSo⌠this is what youâre hiding in here?â
Wonwoo, face flushed to a shade of pink that doesnât belong anywhere near a professional photographer, clears his throat awkwardly. âItâs not what you think. It was a concept shoot. A long time ago. For... art.â
âArt.â You repeat the word slowly, like you're savouring it. âA concept shoot. Right.â You peer closer at the picture, almost squinting like youâre studying the fine details. âWell, I have to say, I didnât expect you to have such a niche portfolio.â
He snatches the photo from your hands, but youâre quicker than him, leaning in just a little too close for comfort. "Come on, don't be shy. I'm sure these shots went for a pretty penny. You should be proud of them."
 âIt was a collaboration with a friend. We were experimenting with lighting and shadows. It wasnât meant to be, like, that kind of shoot.â
You tilt your head and flash him a teasing smile. "Right. I'm sure it was all very tasteful."
âStop it,â Wonwoo says, his voice a little more high-pitched than usual. He starts sorting through the other photos quickly, trying to hide the embarrassing ones. âThere were plenty of clothes involved, okay? I mean, mostly clothed. Sometimes there werenât.â
You laughâgenuine and loudâand Wonwoo has never felt more like a teenager caught in a lie.
"Donât worry." You lean back casually, looking him up and down. âIâm not judging. Everyone needs a little fun with their camera work. Besides, I bet your models really appreciated your... attention to detail.â
âOh my God, stop," he groans, hands covering his face.
"Oh, I know!" You jump up, the wideness of your grin setting of alarm bells in his head. Your body contorts into a lewd pose he's sure is captured in one of the photos. "Maybe you could shoot me like one of your French girls."
Wonwoo's brain is split in half between wanting to laugh at your stupid joke, and trying to stop his mind from digging any deeper into the way you look right now. He's never been more thankful for someone laughing so hard at their own joke that it gives him the time to remember to laugh too.
"Okay, okay, seriously though." You say, your words punctuated with breathy laughs. "I'd like to do a shoot in your style. Even if you don't use it for the feature, I'd like to have them - a little memory of the project."
Heâs not sure what to make of itâafter all, heâs never shot anything like that with someone like you. Itâs one thing to let a stranger model for his more experimental projects, but someone whoâs become... well, important to him? That complicates things.
You seem to sense his hesitation, so you quickly soften your expression, dropping the teasing tone. âI mean, no pressure. You donât have to,â you add, but your smile stays. âI just think it would be fun, you know? Something a little out of the ordinary.â
He shifts on his feet, rubbing the back of his neck, trying to think of a way to deflect without sounding awkward. But then, he catches the way youâre looking at himâexpectant, yet light-hearted. And he knows thereâs no way he can say no. And the idea of capturing you in his world - through his lens - is far too appealing.
"Alright," he finally says, "âI could set something up. But it wonât be anything like what youâre imagining,â he warns, though the faintest glimmer of a smile tugs at his lips. âYou might hate it.â
"I highly doubt it." Your grin widens, and you step closer. "The camera loves me."
He struggles to disagree.
You follow Wonwoo into a dimly lit loft space. The high ceilings make the place feel vast and open, but the shadows, thick and heavy, seem to swallow any trace of warmth. The windows let in just enough light to make the space feel like itâs holding its breath. Concrete floors, industrial beams, exposed brickâthis place is a world apart from the glamorous venues he's captured you in so far.Â
There's no luxurious set, no artfully arranged props, no stylists running around with last-minute adjustments. Just you and him. And a collection of cameras, lenses, and other mysterious equipment scattered about the space.
"We'll start here," Wonwoo's voice is firmer than he intends, and he hopes you can hear the edge of excitement underneath his words. Heâs already moving toward the equipment, setting up the camera on a tripod with a smooth, practised hand.
You take a deep breath, looking a little more nervous than he expected. "What's the concept? Just⌠me in a room full of shadows?â You try to make light of it, but your voice betrays a hint of apprehension.
He glances over his shoulder, catching your gaze for the briefest moment, and his lips curl into a faint smile. âSomething like that. I want to capture you as you are, not as the world expects you to be.â
He steps toward you, then pauses. âBut itâs up to you. You can be whoever you want to be in front of the camera.â
You take a breath, almost like you're accepting something, and step deeper into the room. Wonwoo can feel his pulse pick up just a little. Something about your movements makes it hard to look away, even as he tries to keep his focus on the camera.Â
As his gaze probes deeper, Wonwoo realises something. You're so used to being a perfect image that now, here, in the quiet, you have no idea what to do with yourself.
His breath catches as he presses the shutter for the first time. The soft click breaks the silence, but he doesn't lower the camera. His eyes stay on you, unable to tear away; even if he should be focused on the technicalities - the lighting, the exposure, the composition - he's not. He's seeing the cracks. The little parts of you that you've been hiding.Â
Another click. And another. His fingers move over the controls, adjusting the focus, framing you just so - but all the while, acutely aware of every tiny shift in your body. The way you inhale, the way you let go of something hidden, and your shoulders relax, just slightly.Â
"Good," he murmurs, though he barely recognises his own voice. The words are soft, his tone low, almost like a breath rather than a command.
You shift again. There's no thought to it, just a fluid movement, as if you're letting go of some invisible restraint. It's an instinctive thing, Wonwoo realises. You're not really posing anymore.
The camera clicks again, capturing the stillness in you, the way you seem to dissolve into the shadows, becoming part of the room. Part of the moment. He knows instantly that it's going to be his favourite.
For a split second, he wonders if you know what you're doing to him. If you know how you're affecting him, even without meaning to. His heart beats a little faster.Â
He doesn't lower the camera, not yet, not wanting to lose the moment.
"Okay, that's enough," he says finally, voice low and deliberate. Even as he says it, he's not sure if he wants to stop. He wants more. But it's not just the image he's chasing now. It's something else.Â
You reemerge, the colour of your confidence returning as you step out of the camera frame. "Was that okay?"
Wonwoo isn't completely sure what to say in response. If he should tell you that he wants to restart the entire feature, or that he's never felt like he's seen anyone as much as he just did. So he nods, swallowing the lump in his throat. "I want you to see the full vision, so I'll show you once they're edited, but I think they're going to be the best ones."
A beaming smile is released onto your face. It's heart-wrenchingly endearing how proud you are of yourself. "I'm so glad. I don't know if you noticed, but I was a little nervous about this one."
He lets out a little chuckle, his head hanging slightly as he looks to the floor, trying to hide the smile tugging at his lips. "I couldn't tell. You were," he clears his throat, hands moving to adjust the settings on the camera again, "perfect. And I mean it. It's ... not just the shot. It's you." The words come out in a rush, but even as he says them, heâs certain theyâre true.
He wonders, fleetingly, if you hear the difference. If you sense the subtle change in his toneâthe way he canât quite look away from you now, the way his eyes linger just a little too long.
You donât respond immediately, and for a brief, agonising second, heâs unsure of how youâll take it. Will you laugh it off? Will you brush it aside with that carefree charm you wear like a second skin?
But then, your smile softens, your gaze a little less playful, and you step closer. "Do we need any more?"
"I don't think so," he pauses. "Unless there's anything you want to try?"
"Well..." You look nervous, like you're trying to make your mind up about something. Your fingers play absently with the sleeve of your shirt, tugging at the fabric as if itâs a lifeline. "Maybe ... maybe I could try something different?"
Wonwoo's eyes flicker up to meet yours. He's not quite sure what you're asking, and it both terrifies and excites him in ways he's not ready to admit. He leans back slightly, considering it.
"It's your shoot," he says softly, "If you want to do something different, we can. You sound like you've got something in mind?"
You exhale slowly, and the air feels thick, drawn tight with possibility. Thereâs a hesitation in the way you look at him, but then you take a step forward, your presence commanding yet gentle, a stark contrast to the vulnerability in your eyes.
"The photos in your studio," your voice is soft and low, as though the words themselves are a kind of confession. "The ones ... with no clothes." Your gaze flickers briefly, almost shy, before you steady yourself again. "I want to try that. I want to see what that feels like."
Wonwoo blinks at you, his breath hitching for just a second as the words register. His fingers instinctively tighten around the camera, but he doesnât lower it. He canât look away from you now.
âAre you sure?â he asks, his voice rougher than he intended, though itâs more a response to the sudden surge of emotions than anything else. The suggestion itself isnât unfamiliar, but the weight of it, coming from you, catches him off guard.
You nod slowly.Â
He breathes slowly, trying to steady himself, but the air feels tight, like his lungs have forgotten how to expand properly. Wonwoo clears his throat, suddenly aware of the weight of the camera in his handsâof how utterly out of place it feels now. He thought he had control of this situation, of this shoot, of everything. And now he feels entirely, completely, out of control.
"Okay," he says finally, voice low, his throat dry.
You exhale, a small, almost imperceptible breath of relief, and for a moment, you both just stand there. Wonwoo watches you, his gaze tracing the small movements of your fingers, the way you breathe, the slight shift in your posture. Youâre standing there, raw and vulnerable in a way that no one else ever sees, and yet youâve asked him to witness it.
His chest tightens.
"Whenever you're ready," he murmurs, trying to sound as professional as possible, but the words come out softer than he means. He takes a step back, his heart pounding louder now, but heâs not sure if itâs from the anticipation of the shot or something else entirely.
You move slowly, agonisingly slowly, towards the chair that's hidden in the corner of the room and pull it into the camera frame. The clip holding your hair back is the first thing to go, and even watching you shake the tresses free feels like a glimpse of something he's not meant to see. Wonwoo's breath hitches as your fingers hesitate against the buttons of your shirt.
You look up at him, eyes glittering in the light of the loft. "Can you talk me through it?"
Wonwoo gulps, his brain desperately trying to keep a tether to his thoughts.Â
His voice is strained when he finally speaks, a quiet rasp that betrays his nerves. "I - uh - yeah. Sure." He clears his throat again, trying to steady himself. "Just take your time. There's no rush. I want you to feel comfortable."
You nod, but your gaze doesnât leave him. Itâs heavy, almost expectant, and Wonwoo feels it pressing down on him like the air in the room has thickened with each passing second.
His heart races, and he forces himself to look away from you, staring at the camera for a moment to regain some semblance of control. But when he finally glances back, thereâs no denying it: you're not just in front of the camera. You're right there, your presence inescapable. The air crackles between you, an invisible thread pulling you closer despite the distance.
You slowly unbutton your shirt, each movement measured and deliberate. The soft rustle of fabric seems deafening in the silence. Wonwoo tries to focus on the camera - on the framing, the lighting - by the sight of you undoing the buttons is sending jolts through him, making it hard to concentrate.
"Wait, stop." He's struggling to get out more than a few words, but he realises he has to explain himself as your head whips around, alarmed. "That shot - if you push the shoulder down a little -"
"I'm not sure I quite get it," your voice is a quiet invitation. He doesn't know if its a test, or something far more dangerous than that.Â
He moves slowly, not wanting to startle you. And, if he's being honest, not sure that he can handle being any closer. But he's started now, and he can't not go through with it just because he's nervous about seeing skin. Focusing on his task, Wonwoo's hands gingerly pull the loose fabric of your shirt, draping it down the side of your upper arm, the fabric slipping with an almost unbearable grace, revealing the curve of your shoulder, the soft line of your skin. Wonwoo feels his pulse spike, his breath coming in shallow bursts as his fingers brush against the bare skin of your arm. Itâs delicate, unintentional contact, but it feels like an electric shock, jarring and intimate all at once.
You hold your breath, your gaze fixed on his hands, your body still.Â
âJust like that,â he says, his voice quiet, as though speaking louder might shatter this delicate balance between you. âNow, tilt your head just a little to the left. Keep your eyes soft... like you're looking into something just out of reach.â
Your eyes flicker, a knowing glint passing through them. âLike Iâm seeing something I shouldnât?â
Wonwooâs stomach tightens, a shiver creeping down his spine at the way you put it. His hands hover over the camera, but for a moment, he forgets the frame, forgets everything except the weight of the moment.
"Exactly," he breathes, almost afraid to admit it aloud, but the words escape him. Heâs standing so close now, every muscle in his body taut, straining against the pull of something he doesn't know how to define.
You do as he asks, your eyes softening, lips parting ever so slightly, as if youâre leaning into the invitation.
The camera shakes in his hands, and for a second, he worries that youâll notice the tremor, that you'll see how much this is affecting him. But you donât. Your focus is unwavering.
âCan you⌠can you move your hand to your collarbone?â he murmurs, barely trusting himself to speak the request aloud. âJust⌠trace it, like itâs the only thing youâre focused on.â
You nod, and thereâs an eerie stillness in the air as your fingers drift up to the curve of your neck. Wonwoo feels like heâs drowning, like every movement you make pulls him deeper into this quiet, dangerous place between photographer and subject, between the lens and the reality unfolding just beyond it.
Each click of the shutter feels like a bullet leaving a gun.
Your fingers are back on the buttons before he can realise that the moment has moved on, and you let the shirt fall, the fabric slipping to the floor with a soft whisper. He canât breathe for a moment.
You stand before him, unguarded, vulnerable, and yet thereâs something about the way you hold yourselfâso composed, so intentionalâthat makes him swallow back every word that he tries to form.
Your eyes lock onto his again, and itâs like time stops. âHowâs the lighting?â Your voice is steady, calm, but the tension in it is undeniable.
Wonwooâs throat is dry as he forces himself to focus. "The light... it's perfect." He clears his throat, his voice tight. "You look perfect. Just... just keep moving, slowly. Let the camera catch it all."
You nod, your lips curling into that familiar smile that has him reeling.
Wonwooâs pulse quickens, but he doesnât dare look away. Heâs caught in the gravity of your gaze, drawn into the quiet intensity of the moment. He raises the camera, his fingers trembling just slightly as he adjusts the lens. The click of the shutter still sounds harsh, but it doesnât break the tension.
Wonwoo almost drops the camera when your fingers hook around the loops of your pants.Â
You slide them off in fluid motion, far quicker than the shirt. The smile on your face is more playful now, taunting and teasing. "What were those poses again?"Â
Wonwooâs breath catches in his throat, his hands freezing just above the camera as the image of you in front of himâthe subtle arch of your back, the way your skin catches the lightâburns itself into his memory. He canât look away, and itâs like everything in the room sharpens.
"Stop," he whispers, his voice shaking. "Youâreâ"
He cuts himself off, unsure of how to finish the sentence. How could he describe the storm he feels brewing inside of him? The way his pulse is beating in time with the shutter clicks. The way heâs watching you, but feels like heâs barely holding onto himself, like the space between him and you has closed to a point where it feels impossible to stay just the photographer.
âStop?â you repeat, tilting your head, the playful glint in your eyes both a challenge and an invitation. "You want me to stop?"
"Iâ" He clears his throat, trying to force his words into something coherent. You take a step closer, and the words fail him.Â
You stop a few inches away from him, your breath mingling with his, and for a split second, you both stand there, locked in a stare that feels like an eternity. Wonwoo's heart races, and he can hear the rush of blood in his ears, but the sound of your breath, shallow and steady, is louder than everything else.
âWonwoo,â you whisper, and the way you say his nameâso softly, so deliberatelyâhas his chest tightening even more.
His heart stutters for a second, and before he can think about it, before he can second-guess himself, he lowers the camera, his hand almost involuntarily reaching for you.
âAre you sure?â he breathes, his voice barely above a whisper.
You donât say anything at first. Instead, your fingers brush against the fabric of his shirt, dancing between the creases. The world seems to spin a little.
âIâm sure,â you reply, your voice steady but low. âAre you?â
Wonwooâs pulse thunders in his ears, and he thinks he's nodding his head, but he's not sure. He swears he can feel the heat radiating off of you in waves. The tension is almost unbearable now, and his hands are shaking so badly that heâs not sure if he should step back or close the space completely.
Before he can decide, you close the gap for him, your lips brushing against his in the gentlest of kisses. Itâs soft at first, tentativeâlike youâre both waiting for the other to pull awayâbut when Wonwoo doesnât, you deepen it just enough to make his head spin.
Everythingâhis thoughts, his control, his self-restraintâfractures.
He pulls you closer, his hand finding the curve of your back as he deepens the kiss. He can feel you shiver as his warm hands trace the exposed skin. He has to hold back a guttural moan at the feeling of your body pressed against his.
Your hands have found his hair, tangling your fingers through the strands and feeding off of the reactions, tugging a little every time he grumbles against your lips. A small gasp leaves your lips as he pulls away from your mouth, burying into your neck, which stretches prettily with each biting kiss he leaves.Â
"Is this how all your photo shoots go?" Even with your head tilted back, voice breathy as his fingers grasp onto your waist, you still find time to tease him. A small whine leaves you as his lips abandon your skin.
"You'll believe me if I say no?" His throat is scratchy, his voice raw, and it comes out more as a question.Â
You laugh. "Yes - I, yes, I believe you."
The silence feels unbearably tension, like both of you are trying to blindly navigate the other's feelings. Neither comfortable enough to take the next step forward.
"What did -"
"I thought -"
Your words stumble together as you search for the right way to break the tension. Wonwoo stops, not pressing you to continue, but his grip tightens on your waist slightly, a silent question hanging in the air.Â
"I was just - I wasn't sure you'd want to do this, too." You finally say. You still have that teasing smile, but your voice is small, almost unsure.Â
"I do," his voice is low, rough, and there's something tender there too. "I really do."
Your lips twitch upwards, a fleeting smile curving the corners of your mouth as you move closer again. "Then, what happens next?"
Wonwoo's head darts around, looking around the dim loft. There's nothing there, other than his equipment and a few chairs - nothing particularly helpful in this scenario. Although, he should admit, he wasn't expecting anything like this when he'd set it up.
"We could go somewhere else, if that's what you want to do?"
Your eyes follow his gaze, realising the dilemma.
"But I'm already half undressed." You bat your eyelashes innocently, and he knows you're fully aware of what you're doing to him. Yet, that doesn't prevent his trousers from feeling way too tight.Â
"I-" his breath catches, his fingers digging into your side. "I guess we'll have to stay here then."
"I guess so," you grin, and he wants nothing more than to pull you back in. So, he does. It's messy, primal, a tangle of limbs as your hands sloppily undo his shirt and his look for anything and everything he can reach. He doesn't miss your noise of appreciation when his shirt falls to the floor.Â
Soon, his hands are wrapped around your thighs, pulling you up in one swift motion and carrying you until you hit the nearest wall. You're panting, your eyes wild and hair tangled as you grab at his neck, pulling his lips back to yours.Â
It's not long before the rest of your clothes join the others on the floor. He feels a flutter of shyness as you take him in, eyes roaming across his body. But you're smiling, wide and joyful, the soft flesh of your thighs squeezing tighter on his hips.Â
"Fuck, I always thought you were hot, but I can't believe you were hiding this underneath those baggy sweaters."
Wonwoo can feel the blush running up his neck like a schoolboy being complimented for the first time. His heart is hammering in his chest, a warm rush spreading through him from head to toe as he tries to work out what his eyes should be focusing on.
"I wasnât expecting any of this. You... youâre making me nervous,"Â he admits with a shy laugh, his hands feeling clammy against your skin. "I mean, I'm sure I'm not the first person to say you're beautiful, but I think you're so much more than what they see."
Your smile softens for a moment, and you reach forward, fingers grazing lightly over his arm, the touch sending a shiver down his spine. "I'd like you to know all of me."
The words are soft, tender, and you can probably hear his heart fluttering. And, all at the same time, the implication of them is making more than his heart flutter.Â
"You're sure?" His body presses against yours even more, pushing your back further into the wall behind you.Â
"Please," you nod breathily, and that's all he needs. "I want you."
His hips grind against you, head swirling at the feeling as your arms wrap around his neck for stability. "I don't have-" he manages to choke out.Â
"It's fine, I'm on the pill. Just - just fuck me, please?"
His head buries into your shoulder, body twitching at your words. Pushing inside of you, the pleasure is immediate. Your hips are moving back onto him as far as you can against the wall, and his hands are firmly clenched around the flesh of your ass, holding you up in an iron grip. And you sound so good, and - more than that, you feel so good, so unbelievably good, that he's gasping out your name between thrusts.
Nonsensical words are babbling out of your mouth too; hot, dirty words of praise that only spur him on further. Your nails dig into his back, and then his hair, and then back again, like you can't pick which part of him you want to touch more.Â
And fuck, you're so beautiful. Like a goddess in the low lighting of the room - but he's too scared to tell you that just yet. Soft and hard and warm against him, surrounding him, engulfing him.Â
It's not long before he can feel you clenching around him, one hand clinging onto his shoulders and the other snaking between your legs. The muscles of his arms are burning slightly, but it feels too good to stop now. You're dragging him with you, panting moans with each pulse. You press your lips against his one more time, and it's all it takes to push you both over the edge.
After a few moments, he lifts his head from your shoulder and looks at you, a tender smile on his face. His lips press against yours gently, sighing with soft pants.
"Shit," You breathe, a small giggle bubbling out of you. The sound is so sweet it knocks any remaining wind out of him.Â
Wonwoo chuckles, his thumb gently tracing the curve of your jaw as he holds you in place.
Your smile is warm and teasing, and you press your lips to his for a second longer. "If I had the camera, I'd capture that look forever."
Warnings: Profanities, drinking, angst, sexual content, penetration, mouth stuff (f. receiving), tension, yearning
Word Count: 18.2k
Summary: City lights are beautiful, but they're nothing compared to the spark between a hopelessly optimistic architect and his no-nonsense boss. He hopes.
Mingyu's always had a thing for the city skyline. He stands there, staring up like a tourist in his own city, while the lights blink back at him. He's convinced that the twinkling stars work overtime in the winter to brighten up the world for busy employees, wonderstruck sightseers, and homebound natives alike.Â
And the people? Oh, don't get him started. City folk are like ants with a caffeine addiction, scurrying down streets wide enough to do doughnuts on (he's tempted), all on their own secret missions. Got places to be, people to bump into, lives to live. And every now and then, there's a stray tourist wandering around like they're decoding a map from a century-old pirate treasure hunt, or a food vendor desperately offering free samples and a good, if unique, conversation.
But, most of all, he's got a soft spot for buildings. Those skyscrapers that loom over everyone like friendly giants are his favourite. They're tall, dramatic, stoic - but also weirdly welcoming, like they're saying "Come on in, friend, there's an elevator with your name on it." Each one holds a mini-universe of people with no clue that they're all part of this giant city love affair. And honestly? That's what Mingyu loves most.
That is why he is practically vibrating with excitement as he makes his way to the towering glass-and-steel behemoth that houses his new firm. This building is the pinnacle of urban architecture. It has a shiny, almost reflective facade that makes every other building on the block look like they'd shown up to the party in sweatpants. Windows stretch floor to floor like a series of portals to success.
He's read about this building, of course. Brought it up in the interview for the position. Its architect was apparently a big deal who had once described it as "a dialogue between the earth and the sky." Which, as far as Mingyu is concerned, is just fancy architect-speak for, "Look at how absurdly tall I can make things."
Stepping inside, he is immediately hit with that professional smell - a mix of leather-bound sofas, artisanal coffee, and freshly printed documents. The lobby is decorated with minimalist sculptures that seem like they could either be priceless modern art or just very confusing coat ranks. Either way, Mingyu thinks they look amazing and decides that he'd probably best never trying to lean on one.
He stops at the reception desk, where a sharply dressed woman with an impressively unflappable expression sits.
"Good morning!" He says, a little too enthusiastically. "I'm Kim Mingyu. I'm starting as the new project architect, so you'll probably see a lot of confused-looking, lost-guy moments from me."
She raises an eyebrow, a faint smile quirking on the edge of her lips. "Good luck, Mr Kim. This building does tend to eat people up on their first day."
Mingyu lets out a small chuckle, unsure if she's joking or not, but he takes the smile on her face to signify that she is. After getting directions to his new office space, he makes a point of talking to every staff member he sees on the way, hoping to gain a little bit of familiarity with the new space. There's the security guard by the elevator, who gives him a quick nod of approval, the intern rushing by with a stack of blueprints precariously balanced like they are training for Cirque du Soleil, and the coffee cart guy, who looked positively thrilled to tell Mingyu that they're starting a 'Mocha Monday' deal, envisioning half-price mochas flying off the shelf to cure those start-of-week blues.
The elevator itself is sleek, fast, and almost comically over-engineered. Encased in glass and stainless steel, it features a control panel with buttons for every floor and amenities like a mini espresso machine, a retractable tablet and an adjustable lighting system for 'mood optimisation'. He barely has time to catch his breath before the elevator doors ding open, depositing him on the top floor.Â
Waiting for him is Mr Choi, the firm's head partner, a man so put-together than even his cufflinks look like they could close a business deal. Mingyu recognises him instantly - the same piercing gaze from his interview, though today softened by the faintest hint of a smile. Or, well, something that might one day consider becoming a smile.
"Good to see you again, Mingyu," Mr Choi greets, his voice as smooth as marble. He gestures down the hallway, as if guiding him into an architectural wonderland (which, for all intents and purposes, he is). "Shall we?"
They pass through a maze of glass-walled offices and open spaces dotted with architects, designers, and enough blueprint paper to wrap the world's largest birthday present. As they reach Mr Choi's office, Mingyu makes sure to hold the door open for his new boss.
The space is less of an office and more of an architectural shrine, humming with the wisdom of ten thousand blueprints. The floor-to-ceiling windows offer a panoramic view of the city, as if the whole skyline had been personally curated just to keep Mr Choi inspired. His desk - a sleek slab of dark walnut with edges so sharp they could probably slice bread - sits precisely in the centre of the room. On the walls sit framed sketches of the firm's most iconic projects, each one hung and lit like a small art gallery. The coffee table at the centre piles high with glossy architecture magazines and books with titles like The Future of Concrete and The Language of Buildings. It is as if every element in the room had been strategically selected to convey that Mr Choi is not just any architect.Â
And, most stunning of all, is you. Tall, poised, and commanding a presence that immediately silences whatever joke Mingyu has mentally queued up to break the ice. You're seated across from Mr Choi's desk, reading through a thick stack of documents with the intensity of someone evaluating world-changing data - or possibly planning the most efficient way to dismantle a skyscraper with your mind. You don't look up when he enters.
"Ms (Y/l/n)," Mr Choi says, a hint of amusement in his voice, "this is Kim Mingyu, our newest project architect. He'll be working under you, as we discussed."
Finally, you look up. There's a flash of something unreadable in your eyes as you meet his, and Mingyu's heart skips a beat. You're beautiful, of course, but not in the approachable way he'd normally charm his way though. There's a quiet sharpness to you, like the edge of a blade hidden under silk. You nod, polite but detached, and extend a hand across the desk. Mingyu's hand is halfway to yours before he realises he's probably grinning too wide.
"Mr Kim," You say, your tone flat and calm. "Welcome to the team."
"Thank you, Ms (Y/l/n)," he replies, fighting the urge to launch into an unnecessarily enthusiastic monologue about how honoured he is to work with someone as formidable as you. Instead, he forces himself to stick with, "It's a pleasure to be here."
Your handshake is brief, controlled, and you retract your hand almost before he's registered the contact. Then you sit back, folding your arms with a measured kind of grace that makes Mingyu feel like he's just been granted an audience with a queen.
"We'll be starting you off on the Langham project," you say, consulting your papers as if double-checking this fact - or maybe just avoiding his eyes. "I'll be overseeing your work and guiding you through our procedures here. We have high standards, and I'll expect you to meet them."
"Of course!" He nods vigorously, attempting his best I-won't-let-you-down smile. "I'm up for any challenge, Ms (Y/l/n). High standards are, uh, my middle name."
You raise an eyebrow, looking slightly perplexed, as though wondering if he might be serious. Mr Choi clears his throat, breaking the silence with a faint smirk that betrays a hint of secondhand amusement.
"Ms (Y/l/n)," he continues, "has been with us for nearly a decade. She's an invaluable asset to the firm. I trust you'll learn a great deal from her."
Mingyu nods earnestly, glancing at you, but you're already back to scanning the documents as if he's drifted into background noise. He's mildly disappointed, though he can't exactly blame you - after all, he is juts the latest recruit with probably a hundred questions, and you seem like the type who doesn't have time for aimless chatter.
"Any questions before we begin?" you ask, in a tone that suggests the answer you're really hoping for is 'no.'
But of course, Mingyu has questions. Too many, probably. He opens his mouth to ask one, but then catches the faintest glint of what he thinks might be impatience in your eyes and quickly changes gears.
"Actually, no," he says, flashing a thumbs-up. "Good to go!"
You donât seem particularly impressed by this, but thereâs a flicker of something â amusement, maybe? â before you turn back to Mr. Choi. "Shall I take him to the Langham briefing room, then?"
Mr Choi waves you off with a nod, and you rise with a brisk elegance that makes Mingyu almost trip over himself in an effort to follow. You walk him through the halls with a calm, businesslike air, giving succinct, precise explanations as you go. Every step you take feels purposeful, every word perfectly chosen. Mingyu feels like an eager puppy trotting beside you, but he's determined to keep up.
As you reach the briefing room, he can't resist trying to break the ice one more time. "You know," he starts, grinning. "I really love the city skyline. It's kind of why I got into architecture."
You pause, giving him a look that manages to be both blank and withering at once. "Is that so?"Yeah!" He barrels on, encouraged by the fact that you responded at all. "It's like ... it's all a big love letter to everyone living here, you know? Every building, every floor, every light in the window - it's all just there, lighting up people's lives."
There's a moment of silence. Mingyu wonders if maybe he overdid it.
Finally, you nod, albeit with an expression he can't quite place. "That's an ... optimistic way of looking at it, Mr Kim."
Optimistic? Not exactly the response he was hoping for, but he'll take it. He smiles, trying to hide his excitement at the fact that you actually acknowledged his point. "I guess thatâs me â hopelessly optimistic."
You glance at him with what he might, just might, dare to interpret as the tiniest hint of a smirk. But just as quickly, itâs gone, replaced by your usual professional demeanour.
"Well," you say crisply, gesturing to the plans spread out on the table. "Letâs see if that optimism translates to effective project execution."
By the time Mingyu finally steps out of the firm's towering glass sanctuary, the city has dipped into that golden hour where the skyline looks like it's been dipped in honey. The streets are packed with people still racing to meetings, or dinners, or late-night escapades, but Mingyu feels like he's in his own little bubble, still buzzing from the whirlwind of his first day.
He's not sure what's more overwhelming - the Langham project itself, which already feels like it's going to stretch every ounce of his architectural prowess and patience, or you. The way you carried yourself like you were born in this building, with all its sharp edges and polished surfaces. He isn't sure how to keep up with that level of composure.
But there was something there, wasn't there? A flicker of something. Maybe you were just humouring him, but there was that slight tilt of your lips when he said something slightly amusing. Or the way your eyes lingered just a fraction longer than necessary when he spoke. Of course, he could just be imagining it. But Mingyu isn't about to let go of that feeling just yet.
The subway ride home does little to calm his excitement. He thinks about the massive pile of documents he's expected to digest tonight for the briefing tomorrow. As the train rumbles beneath the city, Mingyu cracks open his bag and pulls out the folder that was handed to him this morning - a mess of blueprints, floor plans and complicated notes that look like they were designed to break a person's will to live.Â
But he's not scared, not by this at least. The only thing that kind of scares him is the realisation that you are going to be watching him closely. Judging. Monitoring. And if heâs being honest, heâs not sure if heâs ready for that sort of proximity.
The train screeches to a halt, and Mingyu exits at his stop, shaking off those thoughts. Tonight, heâll just have to forget about all that for now and focus on getting some food in his stomach. Besides, heâs almost home.
Mingyuâs apartment building isnât anything to write home about. Itâs not a shiny, glass-covered marvel like the office, but itâs cozy and warm, with enough character to make him feel like he has a place to call his own. His apartment is on the fourth floor, up a narrow staircase that creaks with every step. As he pulls his key from his pocket and unlocks the door, the familiar smell of instant ramen and coffee hits him. His flatmate, Wonwoo, is already home.
Wonwooâs there in the living room, sprawled across the couch with his laptop on his lap and a half-empty mug of coffee next to him. Heâs the polar opposite of Mingyu in almost every way: quiet, reserved, and extremely not into architecture, but somehow theyâve been rooming together for the past few years without any major conflicts. Mingyuâs loud, chaotic energy and tendency to overshare perfectly balances Wonwooâs brooding, half-mysterious vibe. Itâs a friendship forged in caffeine and mutual understanding that sometimes, you need someone who wonât judge when you blast pop music at 2 AM, or when you eat cereal for dinner because you forgot to go grocery shopping.
"Howâs the first day?" Wonwoo doesnât look up from his screen, his voice cool and unbothered. But Mingyu can tell heâs asking out of a form of polite curiosity, like a scientist observing a very energetic specimen.
Mingyu drops his bag on the counter and flops onto the couch next to him. "It was ... intense," he starts, rubbing the back of his neck. "The project I'm gonna be working on is a beast. There's this whole ocean of details to sift through. And then there's Ms (Y/l/n)."
Wonwoo looks up, his brow slightly raised. "Your boss?"
"Yeah," Mingyu says, leaning back and staring at the ceiling. "She's something else. Like she doesn't seem interested in me at all, and I'm not sure how to deal with that. But she's got this, like, presence. Makes you want to impress her, y'know? Even when she's totally stone-faced - especially when, actually."
Wonwoo hums noncommittally and takes a sip of his coffee, a faint smirk playing at the corners of his lips. "So, you're in love with your boss already. Good to know."
Mingyu shoots him a mock glare, his cheeks ringing with a hint of pink. "I'm not in love with her, okay? It's more like ... fascination. She's just really intimidating."
Wonwoo raises an eyebrow, the picture of dry amusement. "Uh-huh. Sure. And what's her deal, anyway? Too professional for your flirty smile?"
"She doesn't seem flattered by it." Mingyu dramatically drops his head into his hands, mimicking a tragic melodrama. "I might have to rethink my whole life strategy if I canât get her to crack a smile at my jokes."
"But hey," Wonwoo adds with a smirk, "if you want to survive your first week, I suggest you do not mention the city skyline and your theories about how itâs a love letter to people. Thatâs a hard pass."
Mingyu groans, covering his face in embarrassment. "Iâm never telling you anything ever again."
Wonwoo chuckles, leaning back against the couch with a satisfied grin. "You love me and you know it."
Mingyu snorts. "Yeah, yeah. Whatever. Iâve got work to do." He picks up the pile of documents, pulling them closer with a resigned sigh. "Gotta impress Ms (Y/l/n) somehow."
Gulping down a quick 'dinner' of left-over stir fry and a couple of eggs for good measure, Mingyu picks back up the Langham project folder, its content still a chaotic swirl of technical specs and words he can't read, and flips open the first few pages. The project itself is a massive undertaking - a luxury hotel and mixed-use complex nestled in the heart of the city, right by the river. The building is going to stretch twenty stories high, with glass facades that'll reflect the river's light like a prism. The design includes state-of-the-art amenities, with the goal of being the ultimate urban getaway - a haven for tourists, business moguls, and the occasional local who just wants to treat themselves to a little luxury.
Mingyu's eyes light up as he scans the proposed design. There's a grand atrium in the centre, stretching all the way up to the top floor, with cascading gardens and open-air terraces. "So fancy," he mutters to himself. His team is clearly trying to push boundaries here, blending modern steel and glass with organic elements - like a giant metallic tree-house hybrid for the city's elite.
He flips to a page filled with notes about sustainability and energy efficiency. Theyâre aiming for a platinum LEED certification â top-tier green building status. Itâs all about using smart, eco-friendly tech to make the building as self-sustaining as possible. Mingyu groans inwardly, wondering if heâs about to become an expert on solar panels and rainwater harvesting.
As he continues reading, one particular detail catches his eye. The signature design element for the building is a series of âfloatingâ glass bridges between the upper floors â a bold architectural statement meant to make the building appear less like a typical office block and more like something out of a futuristic movie. It sounds incredible, but Mingyu can already picture himself pulling his hair out over the engineering calculations required to make sure the whole thing doesnât come crashing down in a windstorm.
By the time he reaches the end of the folder, his mind is spinning, and a mild panic starts to creep in. Your expectations are clear, and the projectâs scope is enormous. But Mingyu canât help the tiny spark of excitement that flickers in his chest. This is what heâs been working toward â to be a part of something that will change the cityâs landscape, something that will make people stop and look up.
He rubs his eyes and glances at the clock. It's late, but he knows he'll need all the preparation he can get for tomorrow.
With one last long look at the papers, Mingyu closes the folder, shoving it aside with a resigned sigh. "Iâm going to need a lot more coffee," he mutters, flopping back on the couch beside Wonwoo, whoâs already half asleep with his laptop still glowing faintly in his lap.
Wonwoo snorts without opening his eyes. "Youâre going to need more than coffee for this, buddy."
"Tell me about it," Mingyu grins, grabbing his phone to order another coffee, just in case he didnât have enough already. Tonight, it looks like heâs going to be living on caffeine and architectural dreams.
A few weeks into the job, Mingyu has already made a significant number of mistakes. Well, significant is probably an understatement. More like a collection of blunders so impressive that, if anyone were to catalogue them, they might think Mingyu was trying to break some sort of world record in architectural mishaps.
It starts innocently enough, with a small miscalculation on the elevator shaft dimensions that nearly caused a minor freakout in the engineering department. Then there was that time he mixed up the load-bearing capacity for the glass facades and accidentally sent an email to the whole team saying, "We could use stronger glass" when technically, the existing plans were fine. And, of course, who could forget that time he got overzealous and rearranged the project's timeline, shaving an entire month off the construction schedule, only to realise later that it was a little bit too ambitious for anyone's taste?
He still hasn't lived down the elevator incident, which, for the record, wasn't even entirely his fault. But it's hard to explain that when your eyes are drilling into him from across the room, a careful blend of disappointment and 'I'm trying not to send you into an existential crisis right now.'
Today, he's perched at his desk watching the clock tick down the minutes until the inevitable meeting with you. His fingers drum nervously on the edge of his notepad. There's a fresh stack of papers in front of him, each one brimming with red-inked corrections, and he knows what's coming. He's almost perfected the art of nodding in silent shame during your critiques, hoping the earth might swallow him whole.
When the meeting finally comes, you walk into the room, as poised and unbothered as ever. He tries to stand up to greet you, but he stumbles into his chair instead, catching himself just in time.
"You've been busy," you say dryly, as you flip through the stack of appears, your eyes scanning the marked-up blueprints. Your tone is sharp, like an exam proctor giving him one last chance to pass without the lecture.
Mingyu forces a grin, wiping his palms against his pants. "Yep, learning a lot on the fly, you know?"
You don't smile. "You've certainly given us a lot to work with."
Mingyu winces, cracking for the inevitable storm of corrections. He can already feel the weight of your disappointment pressing down on him. He's been trying so hard to make a good impression, but it seems every time he tries, he only ends up making things more complicated.
But then, as if you've suddenly decided that maybe he hasnât completely bungled everything, you pause, tapping your pen against the papers in front of you. âBut thereâs one thing...â
His heart stutters. "What's that?"
You flip to the last page in the folder, revealing a neatly detailed diagram of the building's eco-friendly water filtration system, a proposal Mingyu put together at the last minute after a rather inspiring lunch break (where he might have gotten just a little carried away talking to the environmental consultant). You tap the diagram. "This," you say, your voice softer than he's ever heard it, "This is well done. You identified a potential issue with the system that we hadn't accounted for in the original design. We'll need to revise a few things to integrate it fully, but this is exactly the kind of thinking we need."
Mingyu stares at you, completely caught off guard. His brain is still half-parked in panic mode from the earlier mistakes. and he can't quite process your words. Did you just ... praise him?
"Really?" He blinks, his surprise making his voice higher than usual. "You mean the, uh, water thing? I just thought it might be better if we-"
"I know," you interrupt, your gaze steady on him. "You found a solution we missed. We'll be able to integrate it without a massive redesign. Good work."
Mingyu blinks again, this time in pure disbelief. It's like someone just handed him a bag of cash and told him to keep it. "I - uh, wow. Thanks." He tries to act cool, but he's pretty sure he looks like a kid who's just been handed an extra cookie.
You don't break your composed demeanour, but there's a subtle shift in your expression - a quiet respect that wasn't there before. "You're capable, Mr Kim," you say, your voice calm but with a hint of approval. "Despite your tendency to make things a little more complicated than necessary, you're on the right track."
The words hang in the air for a moment, and Mingyu feels an odd rush of pride â a mix of relief and the kind of warmth you get when you find out you didnât totally mess everything up. For once, heâs not the guy who ruins everything in your eyes.
And, maybe, just maybe, he can keep that âcapableâ label for a while.
âIâll expect the revised plans on my desk by Friday,â you say, your voice steady. âDonât disappoint me.â
âI wonât!â Mingyu promises, his voice more confident than itâs been in weeks. âIâm on it.â
Mingyu throws himself into revising the plans with a fervour that borders on obsession. Heâs got spreadsheets, CAD files, hand-drawn sketches, and a brand new stack of sticky notes covering his desk like a rainbow-coloured fortress of architectural ambition. The water filtration system has turned into his personal magnum opus, and heâs determined to make sure itâs nothing short of revolutionary.
He's started to stay later than usual, his desk lamp becoming a beacon in the dimmed office. At first, he doesn't pay much attention to who else is around, his mind so wrapped up in calculations and potential pitfalls that he barely notices his own hunger or fatigue. But after a few nights, he realises he's not the only one burning the midnight oil.
Your office light is always on. Sometimes he'll glance up, bleary-eyed and half delirious from staring at documents, and he'll catch a glimpse of you through the glass walls - hair pulled back, eyes locked on your laptop screen, fingers tapping briskly on the keys as if your thoughts are sprinting ahead of your hands. You're a constant fixture, as much a part of the office's architecture as the polished marble floors and unbreakable glass doors. And, he realises, you're usually there even later than he is.
One evening, after finally signing off on what feels like the hundredth draft of the plans, Mingyu yawns and stretches, feeling every vertebra pop like bubble wrap. He glances at the clock. It's nearly midnight. As he stands to grab his coat, he sees your office light flick off, and you appear, looking just as composed as you did this morning, as if working fifteen hours straight is just part of your weekly routine.
You both walk to the elevator in silence, the quiet stretch of the office settling around you like an unspoken truce. When the elevator doors close, you glance at him, breaking the silence with a casual, "You're still here, Mr Kim."
He lets out a soft laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. "Yeah, still making sure I don't mess up the Langham project. You know how it is."
You don't smile, but your expression softens. "I do."
The elevator ride is quiet, filled with the low hum of machinery and the faintest scent of Mingyu's cologne - a last-ditch attempt this morning to feel professional. When you step out onto the ground floor, you hesitate by the door, glancing out at the street. The city is dark and quiet, the only lights the occasional passing car and the soft glow of streetlamps.
"Do you have a way home?" You ask, your voice so casual it takes him a second to realise you're actually offering him a ride.
Mingyu blinks, caught off guard. "Uh, well, I was going to take the subway. But if you're offering..." He trails off, grinning sheepishly.
You nod, motioning to the car parked just outside. It's as sleek and polished as you are - a dark sedan that looks like it would have absolutely no patience for speed bumps. He slides into the passenger seat, trying not to fumble with his seatbelt, and you start the engine, pulling into the quiet streets with a calm, practised ease.
For a while, you drive in silence. Mingyu glances out the window, his thoughts tangled between the day's work and the surreal feeling of sitting in the same car as you.
"You're ... very driven," you break the quiet, your tone almost contemplative. "I don't often see people put in that kind of effort, especially so early on."
He chuckles softly, scratching the back of his neck. "Guess I just donât want to let you down. Or, you know, be known as the guy who destroyed the Langham project.â
You finally smile, a small, genuine expression that feels like a rare peek beyond the wall, and leaves Mingyu feeling a little breathless. "It's more than that, though, isn't it?"
Mingyu hesitates, taken aback by the question. Heâs not sure what he expected you to say, but it definitely wasnât that. âI mean, yeah. Iâve always loved buildings. Ever since I was a kid, Iâd spend hours sketching skyscrapers in my notebooks. Itâs kind of a dream come true, being here. Getting to work on something this big.â
You listen, your eyes fixed on the road but your expression soft, focusing now somewhere beyond just his words.
"This job can consume you, if you let it," you say quietly, almost to yourself. "It's a rare thing to see someone bring genuine excitement to it. Most people, they burn out or let it harden them." You glance at him, and for a brief moment, he sees a flicker of something almost vulnerable in your gaze. "It's good that you still ... care."
Your words hang in the air, and Mingyu feels a strange ache in his chest - a sudden realisation that beneath the cool professionalism, you had been through this same path yourself, fighting to keep that spark alive in an industry that seems determined to grind it out of you.
"Thanks," he says softly, the playful tone absent for once. "I mean it. And ... I think I get what you mean." He hesitates, then adds, "But I don't think I'll stop caring anytime soon."
You nod, a faint smile ghosting your lips. You drive on through the city, the lights casting soft, shifting patterns on the glass.
When you finally reach his building, he unbuckles his seatbelt, giving you a small, grateful smile. âThanks for the ride. And, you know⌠for everything else.â
You nod, your expression back to usual, but there's a warmth in your eyes now. "Goodnight, Mr Kim."
"Goodnight," he says, stepping out and closing the door gently. He watches as you drive away, the taillights disappearing down the street, and feels a strange mixture of inspiration and relief, and a hunger to get back in the car and learn anything else he can about you.
It's a week before his presentation, and Mingyu is thrilled about his latest proposal for the Lagham project - a sleek, eco-friendly rooftop space designed to collect rainwater, enhance natural cooling, and serve as a green oasis in the middle of the city for all visitors to access. It's his baby, his architectural pièce de rĂŠsistance. Heâs already named the design âGreen Aboveâ in his head, but, apparently, the client is less than convinced.
The hesitation comes during a routine check-in meeting, when Mr. Choi casually drops the news that the client has âconcerns.â The term is as vague as it is ominous, and Mingyuâs heart sinks. Apparently, theyâre worried itâs too âexperimental,â too âriskyâ for the firmâs conservative image. Mingyu tries to hide his disappointment, nodding as Mr. Choi politely recommends that he âpolish up his pitchâ before the big day.
By âpolish,â of course, he means pull a miracle out of thin air.
Enter: you.
Later that afternoon, you call him into your office, the door clicking shut behind him as you gesture for him to sit. He braces himself, ready for another dissection of his work, but instead, you surprise him by pulling out his sketches and nodding. "The client might be wary," you say, your tone clinical and level, "but there's a strong case for this. You just need to learn how to show them the vision." You pause, looking at him. "I'll help you with that."
Mingyu blinks. "You'll help me present?"
"Yes, Mr Kim," you say. "We'll work on this every evening until you're confident enough to convince a room full of sceptics. You'll have to be better than good. Exceptional."
And so, every evening for the next week, Mingyu stays late in the conference room, rehearsing his proposal with you. The first night, he stumbles through the trial run, mumbling about sustainable design, only to have you stop him after two minutes, unimpressed.
"Start over," you say, tapping your pen against the table. "And this time, stop burying the lead. Walk in there and make me believe it's the best thing I've ever heard."
You're relentless but patient, correcting him when he gets too caught up in technical jargon, showing him how to highlight the benefits rather than the process. "This is a story," you tell him one evening. "Show that what it feels like. Make them see the vision before you go into how it works."
Somewhere around the fourth late night, you sit back into your chair after another dry run, watching him with an intensity that makes him nearly forget his lines.
âStop talking like youâre trying to convince them youâre good enough,â you say, "You are. You have to believe it, or no one else will."
Mingyu blinks, the words landing with unexpected weight. You say it like it's a fact - as if there's no question about his abilities, just his confidence. Something in your gaze is softer than he's ever seen, and for the first time, he wonders how many long nights like these you've spent not just perfecting your work, but holding yourself up to impossible standards too.
He nods, taking a breath. âRight. Believe it.â
By the night before the presentation, heâd rehearsed the pitch so many times he could recite it in his sleep. You give him one last nod, a subtle flicker of approval in your eyes. "You're ready."
The day of the meeting dawns, and Mingyu arrives early, the faint taste of nerves tingling in his throat. When he enters the boardroom, the client representatives are all seated, an assortment of tailored suits and sceptical expressions. Mr. Choi offers a nod of encouragement from his place at the head of the table, and you stand nearby, arms folded, watching him with that same quiet intensity.
As he begins his pitch, Mingyu can feel his initial nerves settle, his voice steady as he moves through each point. He doesnât just talk about âGreen Aboveâ like an idea on paper; he paints it as a vision, something meant to make the cityâs skyline greener, bolder, better. He gestures to the architectural mockups, describing the rooftop garden as not just a feature but a destination, an asset that would be both functional and iconic.
He can tell, halfway through, that the room has shifted. The clients sit forward, nodding, leaning into his words, their initial scepticism melting as he lays out the plan. The numbers, the materials, the maintenance â itâs all there, practical but wrapped in the bigger picture heâs been rehearsing for nights on end.
When he finishes, the room is silent for a beat before the clientâs lead representative nods, visibly impressed. âItâs⌠ambitious,â he says, almost smiling. âBut I see what you mean. Letâs move forward.â
Mingyu grins, fighting the urge to fist pump as the clients exchange approving glances. He looks over at you, who gives him the slightest nod of approval. He can almost see a glimmer of pride in your expression, faint but undeniable.
As the room empties and the clients file out, Mingyu's heart is still racing, his whole body humming with triumph. He turns to you, grinning wide. "We did it," he says, his voice barely containing his excitement. "I mean ... I did it. But only because you..."
He trails off, realising just how close you're standing, the quiet of the empty room settling around you. Your gaze meets his, and for a moment, you don't look away. It's a long, lingering look, like you're seeing him not just as an employee or an eager architect but as⌠him. Someone who cares, who tries, whoâs just won his first major victory and feels like heâs on top of the world.
âThank you,â he says, his voice softer now, more vulnerable. âFor all of it. I donât think I could have pulled it off without you.â
You hesitate, your eyes flickering with something he canât quite place. Your expression softens, your lips parting slightly as if your about to say something else. And in that moment, thereâs a warmth between them, a shared understanding that words alone wouldnât quite capture.
âJust⌠keep going,â you say finally, your voice so quiet it feels like a secret. âYouâre more capable than you realize, Mingyu.â
The way you says his name â with that subtle, unfamiliar warmth â makes his heart skip. He nods, still holding your gaze, feeling the weight of everything youâve shared in the past week in that single, electric second.
And then, as if the moment might disappear if you linger too long, you step back, your usual composure slipping back into place.
For the first time, Mingyu feels that maybe â just maybe â thereâs more between them than late-night work sessions and professional boundaries. And as you walk side by side down the quiet hall, he canât shake the feeling that, for the first time, you might be feeling it too.
Mingyu's gotten good at convincing himself he's not entirely losing it. So what if his boss, who barely blinks at a 15-hour day and thinks "weekends" are a suggestion, is suddenly occupying 90% of his mental bandwidth? That's just ... professional admiration. So when he finds himself thinking about you at odd times - like, mid-bite of his breakfast burrito, or what he's supposed to be learning zoning codes - he brushes it off. After all, it's normal to be totally absorbed by someone you admire.
One evening, after bringing home takeout and trying (again) to casually mention his most recent success, Wonwoo decides to drop a bomb. "I saw an article about your boss the other day, you know. Back when she first joined the firm. People in the comments kept talking about something called the Westbrook Project - ever heard of it?"
"Westbrook Project?" Mingyu repeats, a little too quickly, his brain scrambling. Nothing. Heâs pretty sure heâs never heard the name before, but itâs his boss, so heâs probably supposed to know. After Wonwoo can't provide any more details, Mingyu does what any self-respecting architect does at 2 a.m. when faced with a mysterious professional tidbit: he Googles it. Expecting, like, a vague overview, maybe some old press releases. What he finds, though, are words like "abandoned," "budget issues," and, worst of all, "failure," with your name all over it. Ouch. Big, deep ouch.
The next day at work, Mingyu manages to strike up a casual conversation with the marketing guy who's practically the office encyclopedia. "Oh, the Westbrook Project?" he says with a knowing smirk. "I read the case files. It was supposed to be, like, revolutionary. Eco-forward, huge downtown build. A lot of drama when it got shut down. Man, Ms (Y/l/n) was obsessed with that thing. You've gotta respect someone who fights like that for their work." He laughs a little, but there's something almost pitying in his tone, like he doesn't quite know what to make of someone who has been through such a high-profile professional failure.
Mingyu's stomach drops as he realises that there's a whole side of you - this weight - he never saw before. He feels embarrassed for not knowing. But, maybe, it explains the way you hold yourself together, so careful with your words, so precise in every gesture. Because what happens when you give so much of yourself, and it still isn't enough?
Mingyu can't help but glance at you differently when you walk into the office. You're still the same, all business and poise, but there's a weight to you now that he hadn't noticed before. It's not his place to ask you about Westbrook, and he's not sure he could even bring it up without tripping over his own words.
So, Mingyu brings it up.
Not immediately, because he's not that much of a disaster. It's not the same day, or even the same week. It's one of those late nights when he's deep into pretending he's not panicking over math, and he's only going into your office to ask if you've seen the last-minute email from the client.Â
Except.Â
He sees the bottle of red on your desk.
It's sitting there, a little too casually, with half of it in a glass that's perched too close to your mouse.Â
It's not that Mingyu thought you didn't drink. But seeing it there, on your desk, is like catching a glimpse of a teacher's pet outside of school. His brain starts spiralling. Are you getting drunk? Are you able to get drunk?
Still standing in the doorway like he's caught in some sort of personal disaster movie, Mingyu clears his throat. "Uh," he starts, because his brain is still stuck on you drinking alcohol in the office, "What's the deal with the wine?"
You glance up from your computer, completely unfazed. "Oh, this?" You wave a hand, almost like itâs nothing. âA gift from a client. They thought I needed something to ârelaxâ after all the late nights." You flash a teasing grin. "I didnât think anyone else would be in the office this late, though."
Mingyu freezes again. Seeing a smile on your face is unnerving him. "Uh, well, yeah ... just ... I thought you were busy, y'know? I didn't want to disturb you," he stammers, as if that makes any sense. Of course you know he's here. He's always here. He's practically a fixture at this point.
You raise an eyebrow at him, clearly not fooled. âSure you didnât. Anyway, now that youâre here," you say, looking at him with a glint of curiosity, "whatâs been keeping you up lately? Besides zoning codes and whatever else youâve been trying to memorise, that is."
Mingyu, caught completely off guard by the question, opens his mouth to respond, but his brain, still fighting the urge to melt into the floor, can't form a proper sentence. His gaze flicks back to the wine bottle like it holds all the answers to his life right now. Finally, he blurts out, "Uhh... Iâve been, uh, thinking about the Green Above project. You know, the one weâre working on?"
âRight,â you nod, leaning back in your chair. âBig, green rooftop. Youâve got your hands full with that one.â You take a sip from your glass, and Mingyu swears the way your lips wrap around the rim is completely unfair to his focus. âWhat else?â
Mingyu, not used to people asking him personal questions that arenât about work or how heâs planning on saving the planet with his architectural genius, scratches the back of his neck. âUh... I mean, well, Iâve been wondering about... you. I mean, yourâ" he pauses, shaking his head, "your work, of course. Like, how you got into all this. Youâve clearly been through a lot, right?â
You chuckle softly, eyes softening for a brief moment. "A lot? Yeah, I guess you could say that. But thatâs not what weâre talking about right now, is it?" You lean forward. "What's really going on, Mingyu?"
Mingyuâs mind is officially in crisis mode. He could barely form a sentence when talking about wine, and now youâve flipped the tables. What is he even supposed to say?
âIâuh, well, itâs just... Iâm curious,â he mutters, struggling to sound casual. He bites his lip, then his curiosity gets the best of him. âWait, can I ask about something?â
You lean back again, clearly amused. âGo ahead.â
He takes a breath and gestures to the cabinet rested against the back wall of your office. "That picture there .. of a building, I think? It kind of looks like the Westbrook Project. Was it yours?â He winces as soon as he asks, knowing full well how awkward this must sound. But now he really wants to know, and heâs not sure he can keep pretending he hasnât been thinking about it.
You blink, clearly not expecting him to ask, but then you just sigh and open your desk drawer, revealing an old architectural sketch, detailed and bold, with a city skyline in the background. âYeah,â you say, voice quieter now. âIt was.â
Mingyu swallows hard, his voice dropping to a more respectful tone. âWhat happened to it? The project, I mean... why didnât it go through?â
You donât answer immediately. Instead, you take another slow sip of your wine, letting the moment stretch out. When you finally speak, your voice is calm but laced with something unspoken. âIt was a good idea, just... not the right time. But thatâs how it goes sometimes in this field. Things get started, and then... they donât.â
Mingyu doesnât say anything at first, processing what youâve shared. âI get that,â he says softly. âI think Iâve been there too. You know, not everything works out exactly the way you expect.â
You glance at him, and for a moment, thereâs this quiet weight in your expression, something raw you donât usually let slip. The smile fades, but itâs not replaced with sadnessâmore like... an understanding, an acceptance.
âThe Westbrook Project was supposed to be everything Iâve worked for,â you begin, your voice softer now, like the walls are coming down just a little. âMy goal has always been to help the community, to build things that people can actually enjoy, not just walk by and forget. I wanted something that would be a part of the city, something that people could useâa space that felt like it belonged to everyone.â You stop, looking at the picture in the drawer for a moment as if itâs not just a sketch, but a piece of your heart. "The Westbrook Project was supposed to be the culmination of all that. The perfect mix of green spaces, architecture, and public access. I wanted to create something people would look at and feel like they were part of it, you know? Not just bystanders."
You take another slow breath, running a hand through your hair, looking a bit less put-together than usual, but somehow even more... real. âI think thatâs the hardest part. It wasnât just a project to meâit was everything I believed in. And when it got shut down... it felt like a piece of that belief just... crumbled.â You shake your head, almost laughing at yourself. âI know it sounds dramatic, but when you spend so much of your time fighting for something, putting everything into it... and it still isnât enough... it makes you wonder what the point is.â
Mingyu watches you closely with a strange mix of admiration and empathy. For a second, heâs struck with the urge to reach out and say something comforting, but all he can manage is a quiet, "That... sounds incredible. You must have been really proud of it."
You nod, a small, wistful smile tugging at the corners of your lips. âI was. Still am, in a way. But life moves on, right?â You glance back at the bottle of wine, then take another sip, before setting it down and meeting Mingyuâs gaze again, this time with a lighter, almost teasing glint. "You want some?"
âUh... yeah?â he says, but it comes out more like a question than a statement, as if he's still trying to make sure this is actually happening.
You pour him a glass, your movements slow and deliberate. Mingyu watches every little gesture, thinking that maybe if he looks at the wine long enough, it might just turn into something less dangerous. It doesn't.
He takes the glass from you, trying to act casual, but honestly? It's a miracle he doesnât spill it everywhere. "Thanks," he mutters.
You smirk at him as if you know exactly whatâs going on in his head, and for a moment, Mingyu wonders if you can hear it, tooâthe way his pulse skips whenever he looks at you. He takes a sip of the wine, hoping it will steady him. It doesnât. It only makes him more aware of you, of the way your eyes glint in the dim light of the office, how close youâre sitting, how warm it feels in here all of a sudden.
âSo,â you say, your voice dropping a little lower than before, âNow that weâve gone through my failed projects, do you feel enlightened?â
Mingyu laughs, but itâs a little too breathless, a little too caught off guard. He leans back, trying to appear cool, but itâs hard to be anything but a mess when youâre so close and everything feels a little off in the best possible way. âEnlightened? Iâm still figuring out if youâre real,â he admits, voice cracking just a bit.
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued. âOh? What does that mean?â
Mingyu runs a hand through his hair, avoiding your gaze for a moment as his thoughts scatter in a dozen different directions. âItâs just ... youâre different than what I expected. I mean, youâre still, like, boss mode, but thereâs this whole other side to you. Like, I don't know ... I think Iâve been seeing you as this untouchable, perfect person, and now Iâm realising maybe Iâm not the only one whoâs human.â
You blink at him for a moment, and thenâbefore he can get too embarrassedâsomething flickers across your face. Maybe itâs recognition. Maybe itâs something else. You lean in just slightly, the air between you thickening, but you don't break the distance just yet.
âI think,â you start slowly, âyou might be onto something there, Mingyu.â
His breath hitches. Heâs not sure if itâs the wine, the late hour, or the way your voice dropped that has him leaning forward a little. Itâs all of it, really. âYeah?â
âYeah,â you reply, lips curling into a knowing smile. âYou might find Iâm not so untouchable, after all. Butââ You pause, the tension rising as your eyes flicker down to his lips, then back to his eyes. âWeâll see if you can handle the reality of that.â
Mingyuâs mind is going full tilt now, brain in overdrive, as his hand involuntarily moves closer to yours on the desk. He's this close to spilling all his thoughts and feelingsâabout work, about the project, about the way you make him feelâbut instead, he blurts out, âIâuh, Iâm pretty good with challenges.â
The words hang there, thick in the air between you. And then, before Mingyu can think any more about it, you break the tensionâjust slightlyâby leaning even closer, your voice barely above a whisper. âIâm sure you are.â
The space between you shrinks, just a little. And Mingyu, heart hammering in his chest, finds himself absolutely certain that if things donât shift soon, this office might just catch fire from how hot itâs gotten in the last few minutes. The tension in the air is thick, like static before a storm. Mingyuâs hand hovers just a fraction too close to yours on the desk, his heart a jackhammer in his chest. Heâs this close to losing all control, caught between wanting to say the right thing and just leaning in and kissing you. But what would that even mean? Would it be the worst decision of his life? Or the best?
His thoughts are a mess, but thenâjust like thatâitâs like youâve made up your mind for him. You close the space between you with a single, deliberate movement, your lips pressing softly against his.
Mingyu freezes for half a second, too stunned to process whatâs happening. And then, without even thinking, he leans into the kiss, his hand moving to cup your jaw. Itâs slow at first, soft, like neither of you can quite believe this is actually happening. Your lips are warm, and the taste of wine lingers on themâsomething sweet and intoxicating that has his head spinning.
You pull back just slightly, your breath brushing against his lips, and he feels his pulse race. You look at him, eyes dark with something unreadable. "You're not regretting this, are you?" you murmur, voice low.
âNo,â he breathes out, shaking his head. âDefinitely not regretting this.â
And then youâre kissing him again, deeper this time, your hands moving to his collar as if youâre suddenly both starved for this closeness. His fingers tangle in your hair, pulling you closer, and all he can think about is how right this feels, how every inch of him seems to have been made for this exact moment.
The kiss grows more urgent, more heated. His body presses into yours, the desk suddenly feeling too small, too far away. He wants you closer, needs you closer, and the way you move against him makes him ache with desire. Heâs so lost in you, in this kiss, that everything else fades awayâthe Westbrook Project, work deadlines, the office. Thereâs only you, only this.
You're mumbling something and Mingyu's not sure he has the brain capacity to listen when he can feel your hands on his chest and your body pressed against his.
"... couldn't believe it when I saw you. I mean, who looks like this?"
His brain practically short-circuits at that.Â
Youâre grinning now, clearly enjoying his flustered reaction, and he can feel his cheeks heat up. But before he can manage a reply, you reach up, your hand grazing the back of his neck as you lean in again. His breath catches in his throat, and suddenly his brain clearsâjust long enough for him to close the remaining distance between you two.
The kiss this time is less hesitant, filled with a kind of urgency that makes the room feel smaller, more intense. His hands find their way to your waist, pulling you against him, and he feels your fingers twisting in his hair as if you canât get enough either. Every brush of your lips sends another jolt through him, and heâs quickly losing any sense of professionalism or reason. Heâs just Mingyu, in this moment, in this office, completely undone by you.
Youâre mumbling again, half-laughing as he trails his lips down to the corner of your mouth and just slightly to your jawline. âI mean, really,â you manage between kisses, breathy but amused. âDid you even realise the effect you have?â
He lets out a breath of laughter against your skin, half a smirk forming. âIâI mean, maybe,â he says, but the words come out more as a gasp because youâve got your hands back on him, your fingers trailing along his jaw in a way that has him melting. âI might have... kinda hoped, at least?â
âOh?â Your voice is soft, teasing, and he catches a flash of that mischievous smile just before you lean in again, catching him in another kiss thatâs more intense, more consuming than before.
Mingyuâs senses are a blur, but he manages to break away for just a second, eyes dark, a grin of his own tugging at his lips. âI think,â he says, his voice low, âIâd like to show you just how much I can handle.â His tone is playful but edged with a confidence he didnât know he had until this very moment.
The moment is thick, like honey, everything moving slower and faster at once. Mingyuâs hands slip around your waist, and youâre tugging him closer, a little breathless, a little reckless. Youâre both lost in the feeling of it, the thrill and warmth that seemed impossible just minutes ago.
But thenâa sharp vibration echoes against the desk. The hum of your phone springs to life, startling you both. The screen lights up with an urgent notification, reminding you exactly where you are and what youâre doing.
You pull back, your lips just a whisper away from his, and a flicker of reality cuts through the haze of the moment. âOhââ Your hands drop from his collar, fingertips brushing his chest as if the memory of the touch will fade otherwise. âMingyu, I...â
His eyes meet yours, still dark and soft, a little dazed, a little too hopeful. But he pulls himself together, straightening and running a hand through his hair, somehow flustered and grinning at the same time. âUh, right. Sorry,â he says, though itâs not clear who heâs apologising to.
You swallow, nodding as you try to steady yourself. âIâneed to go,â you manage. âWe both do, actually. Itâs...late.â
Mingyu blinks, nodding, though he can't help the hint of disappointment beneath his expression. âRight. Of course. We probably... shouldnât even be here right now.â He laughs awkwardly, scratching the back of his head as if that could somehow erase the last few minutes. âGuess I should close up?â
You nod, and he watches your hand move to your chest, as if to catch your pulse before it runs off. âYeah, letâs...do that.â
As you step out of the office, you glance back one last time, catching his eye in the dim light. âGoodnight, Mingyu.â
His gaze is steady, his voice warm. âGoodnight.â
The door clicks shut behind you, and Mingyu stands there, staring at it as if it might magically swing back open. For a moment, he doesnât move, too stunned to process the fact that you were just here, inches away, closer than he ever thought possible, and thenâgone. The warmth of you, the softness of your touch, is still buzzing on his skin, and itâs taking everything in him to not replay every single second in his mind.
He lets out a shaky breath and rubs his face, laughing softly to himself. âWow,â he mutters, barely believing it. Did that really just happen? His bossâthe woman heâs spent months trying not to have a full-on crisis over every time she looks at himâjust kissed him. And it wasnât just a peck; it was real, and his head is still spinning.
He paces the office, catching his reflection in the dark window. His hairâs a mess, his shirt collar a little crumpled, and the look on his face is somewhere between ecstatic and completely lost. He feels like heâs standing on the edge of a cliffâexcited but terrified, staring down into something he canât quite see.
âOkay, pull it together, man,â he whispers, clutching the edge of his desk like it might hold him steady. But he canât shake the lingering feeling of your hands against him, the way your voice softened as you spoke to him about your dreams, how for a moment, he felt like heâd glimpsed something real and vulnerable and human in you. Itâs like heâs been handed the answer to a riddle he didnât even know he was solving.
He glances back at the empty doorway and smiles, a little helplessly. Because he knowsâthereâs no going back from this.
On Monday, Mingyu is ready. He's had days to replay every single second of that kiss, dissecting the tiniest details: the way you'd smiled before leaning in, the way you'd pulled back just a bit only to close the gap even tighter the next time. Heâs convinced thereâs no way you could look at him the same after that. Heâs barely looked at himself the same.
So when he walks into the office Monday morning, there's this nervous excitement buzzing in his chest. He expects maybe a shared look or even a subtle nod, something that says 'yeah, we're definitely not forgetting that happened'. But he doesn't get that. In fact, he doesn't get much of anything.
âUh, good morning,â he finally says, attempting a smile, hoping to break whatever tension heâs imagining.
âMorning,â you say briskly, barely looking up. âDid you get the updated renderings for the Green Above project?â
Mingyu blinks, caught off guard by how quickly youâve brushed him off. âYeah, Iâum, they should be in your inbox. I, uh, made some adjustments you might want to look at.â
âGreat. Iâll check later,â you say, curtly, already turning back to your computer. Itâs not even like youâre being rude, exactly; just⌠distant. Professional. Totally not how youâd looked at him last week when heâd practically melted into you against this very desk.
The day drags on with more of the same. Every time he tries to catch your eye, youâre looking somewhere else. Every attempt at a lighthearted comment, something to bridge the gap, lands with a dull thud. By mid-afternoon, Mingyuâs just staring at his computer screen, feeling completely lost. Did he imagine everything? Because suddenly, it feels like heâs reading way too much into every little thing, wondering if the smile youâd given him that night was all in his head.
By the end of the day, he canât take it anymore. He decides to be subtleâor something like thatâand casually leans into your office as youâre gathering your things.
âHey, um⌠are we good?â He tries to keep his voice light, but thereâs an edge of worry there that he canât quite hide. âIt feels likeâwell, last week wasââ
You glance up sharply, your expression guarded. âWeâre fine, Mingyu,â you say, with a tone thatâs just a little too even. âYouâre doing great on the project. Keep up the good work.â
Thereâs that polished professional mask again, and this time it feels like a wall. Mingyuâs stomach twists, and he canât help but feel a sting in his chest. He nods, trying to ignore the disappointment sinking in. "Right. Yeah, Iâll, uh⌠keep that up.â
And just like that, you walk past him, your footsteps echoing down the hallway as you head out for the night, leaving him standing there, staring after you, wondering what just went wrong.
Itâs Thursday, and Mingyuâs still thinking about every clipped interaction youâve had all week. Heâs convinced heâs somehow messed everything up, but heâs not sure how. By lunchtime, heâs already halfway through a takeout sandwich in the break room when some of the other junior architects drift in, plates and coffees in hand. Heâs only half-listening to their conversation, until, like a magnet, he hears your name.
âDid you see how she restructured the timeline?â One of themâHyun, a friend from Mingyuâs first weekâsays, rolling his eyes. âFeels like sheâs trying to prove something to everyone.â
Another snorts. âYeah, sheâs always like that. Like she has to make everything harder just to remind us sheâs the boss.â
Mingyu freezes mid-bite, a flicker of irritation flaring in his chest. Heâd learned more from working with you in the past few months than he couldâve in years of grad school. You didnât ask anyone to work harder than you did yourself, and Mingyuâs certain no one stays later or puts in more effort than you do.
âMaybe she just actually cares about the projects,â Mingyu snaps, dropping his sandwich. The room goes a bit quiet, a few heads turning his way in surprise. âI mean, do you guys know how much time sheâs spent on this? Sheâs doing half of our jobs for us so we donât mess it up.â
ââIntenseâ doesnât mean you have to talk about her like that,â Mingyu says, his voice a bit sharper than he means it to be. âMaybe if people here actually appreciated all the work she does, she wouldnât have to be so âintenseâ to get things done.â
Thereâs a beat of awkward silence, everyone looking at him like heâs suddenly sprouted a second head. Hyun mutters, "That's easy to say when you're the one getting special favours from her."
Mingyu's jaw clenches, the insinuation making his blood boil. Special favours? He opens his mouth to snap back, but then catches himself. Getting defensive will only make things worse, and he doesnât owe anyone an explanation for the late nights or the extra hours youâve spent on his work. The truth is, heâs learned more from those âextraâ moments than he could ever explain to Hyun and the others.
âLook,â he says, keeping his voice as steady as he can. âIf you guys actually put in half the effort she does, youâd see itâs not about favourites. Itâs about getting things right. Maybe if you tried it sometime, youâd get the same attention.â
Hyun snorts, clearly unconvinced. âRight. Must be nice, though, always getting her undivided attention. Pretty convenient, huh?â
The others chuckle, and Mingyu feels his face flush. He glances down, jaw set tight as he clenches his fists under the table. He can feel the weight of their stares and half-smirks, their words pressing in on him like a slow burn he canât shake off.
The door swings open just then, and he catches sight of you standing there, eyes narrowed, a faint frown on your face. His heart drops, and suddenly he realizes you must have heardâpossibly all of it.
âCan I talk to you for a second, Mingyu?â Your tone is measured, calm, but he can tell thereâs something icy underneath. The others exchange looks, clearly ready to gossip the second you both leave.
Mingyu follows you out of the room, feeling a sense of dread settle in his stomach. As soon as youâre out of earshot, you turn to him, arms crossed.
âSo is that how youâre spending your lunch breaks now?â you ask, a cool edge to your voice. âDefending me in the office cafeteria?â
Mingyu swallows, unsure how to respond. âI just⌠didnât think they should be talking about you like that,â he says, trying to keep his voice steady, even though he can feel the intensity of your gaze. âIt wasnât right.â
You sigh, pressing your lips together, something almost unreadable flickering across your face. âI donât need you to defend me, Mingyu,â you say, your tone firm. âIâve been doing this job long enough to handle what people say behind my back. Youâre here to do your job, not to play protector.â
Mingyuâs jaw clenches. He wants to argue, to tell you that maybe you donât need anyoneâs help, but that doesnât mean you deserve to be dragged through the mud behind your back. But something in your expression stops him. He nods, swallowing back whatever words were fighting their way to the surface. âGot it,â he says, keeping his voice as even as possible. âIt wonât happen again.â
You hold his gaze for a moment longer, as if deciding whether to say more, but then you just shake your head, walking away with a tense set to your shoulders. He watches you go, the frustration and confusion still churning inside him, wondering just how much further away you both seem to get with every step.
Later that evening, Mingyu slumps into the apartment, looking so defeated that Wonwooâs expression goes from mildly bored to instantly entertained. âLet me guess. Itâs about your boss?â Wonwoo doesnât even wait for confirmation before tossing him a soda. âYouâre like a walking rom-com.â
Mingyu sighs, collapsing on the couch. âWonwoo, I think she hates me. I mean, really hates me.â
Wonwoo raises an eyebrow. âAnd here I thought you two were practically having candlelit takeout dinners in her office.â
Mingyu runs a hand through his hair, deflating. âYeah, well, that was before I kissed her.â
Wonwooâs phone slides out of his hand, falling onto the couch like a lead balloon. âYou what?â
Mingyu nods slowly, a rueful look on his face. âWe were working late. It justâhappened, okay? And now sheâs all distant. Like, avoid me at all costs distant.â
âYou kissed your boss?â Wonwoo repeats, still processing. Heâs looking at Mingyu like heâs a particularly unsolvable math problem. âAs in, the one you worship and whose entire life story youâve googled?â
âYes, that one,â Mingyu mutters, covering his face with his hands. âAnd it was incredible. Like, the kind of kiss that makes you think about life and all your choices and, you know⌠stuff.â He trails off, his voice a bit dreamy despite himself. âBut then, after that, she started acting all cold, like it didnât mean anything.â
Wonwoo stares at him, baffled. âDid you, uh, talk to her about it? You know, use words and stuff?â
Mingyu gives him a look. âOf course I tried talking to her. But sheâs been all serious and professional andâugh.â He sinks deeper into the couch. âAnd today, I may or may not have defended her in front of everyone. Like, really aggressively.â
Wonwoo groans. âYou really know how to complicate things, donât you?â
âLook, it just came out! They were acting like sheâs some kind of boss robot or something. I just couldnât listen to it.â Mingyu shakes his head. âAnd of course, she overheard it and was not happy. Told me she doesnât need someone to protect her.â
Wonwoo considers this, eyebrows furrowed. âSo basically, you kissed her, defended her honour, and now you think you ruined everything because sheâs distant?â
âExactly,â Mingyu sighs. âI feel like I messed it all up, and now she thinks Iâm just some junior architect with a crush or something.â
Wonwoo raises an eyebrow. âI mean, to be fair, you kind of are a junior architect with a crush.â
âThanks, Wonwoo. Really needed that.â Mingyu glares at him, but a hint of a smile tugs at the corner of his mouth.
Wonwoo nudges him, his tone a little lighter now. âLook, man, maybe she just needs to know it was more than a one-time, late-night thing for you. Like, a serious talk. But not at the office, where everythingâs so formal. Just the two of you.â
Mingyuâs eyes light up. âA serious talk⌠outside of work. Like, maybe over coffee?â
âOr dinner. Or anything where you can show her that youâre interested in more than work. Just, you know, donât do that thing where you panic and say something weird.â
Mingyu sighs dramatically. âSo, no pressure.â
Wonwoo grins, giving him a slap on the back. âYouâve got this, Romeo. Go win her over.â
Mingyu stands in front of your office door, hands nervously tugging at his sleeves like he's preparing for a public execution. Heâs been rehearsing this moment for the last twenty minutesâwhile staring at his desk like it could offer him some sort of guidanceâand he still has no idea what heâs doing. He only knows that if he doesn't get his foot in the door right now, he's going to spend the rest of the day overthinking this until his brain short circuits.
So, he knocks.
And of course, you donât answer immediately. He stands there like a complete idiot, holding his breath for about five seconds before taking the most awkward step inside. Your eyes flick up to him, and for a second, heâs sure his heart is going to stop.
âOh. Mingyu.â You sound surprised. Great. Thatâs just what he needed. "What do you need?"
He smiles, too big, too eager. This is fine. âHey! So, um, I was thinkingââ
âUh oh,â you mutter, narrowing your eyes as if you already know where this is going.
âNo, no, donât worry, itâs nothing bad,â he says quickly, forcing himself to sound more convincing than he feels. âI just, you know⌠youâve been working super hard, and I was thinking, you deserve a break. So, what do you say? Dinner? You and me, tonight.â
You blink at him like he just asked if you wanted to run through the streets naked.
âDinner? With you?â You tilt your head, looking him up and down, clearly trying to figure out if heâs joking or if his brainâs just melted from exhaustion.
"Yup!" Mingyu says, definitely a little too loud and way too enthusiastic. âYeah, just dinner. No work talk, no presentations, just a chance to unwind, you know?â He grins like he's already won, but thereâs something in your gaze that makes him freeze up.
You raise an eyebrow, studying him carefully. The air between you two is thick with that awkward tension, like youâre both trying to figure out if this is a professional gesture or something else entirely. Mingyu can feel the temperature in the room rise, and his stomach does a somersault as he waits for you to respond.
âAre you⌠serious right now?â You finally ask, your tone a mix of confusion and cautious curiosity.
Mingyuâs heart stutters in his chest. âOf course, Iâm serious,â he says quickly, voice cracking slightly as his nerves get the best of him. âI mean, itâs not likeâuh, itâs not like I want anything weird to happen. Itâs just dinner. With two people who both happen to work in the same office. Completely normal, right?â He laughs a little too loudly, and it sounds forced, like someone desperately trying to convince themselves of something they donât believe.
Youâre silent for a moment, and Mingyuâs brain spins with overthinking. Should he apologise? Should he leave before this gets even more awkward? Why did he even think this was a good idea? His palms are sweating, his throat dry, and he feels like he might pass out from sheer mortification.
You lean back in your chair, still watching him, and for a second, Mingyu is sure youâre about to shut him down completely. But then, something shifts in your expressionâjust the faintest flicker of amusement, like youâre trying not to let it show.
âDinner,â you repeat, almost like youâre testing the word, as though itâs foreign or absurd coming from him. âNo work talk?â
âNo work talk,â Mingyu confirms, nodding so hard he might give himself whiplash. âI promise. Just good food and maybe a chance to, you know, talk about literally anything else.â
Your lips curve into the smallest of smirks, and Mingyu swears the room feels a little less tense. âYouâre persistent, Iâll give you that.â
He grins, a spark of hope lighting up his chest. âI like to think of it as... enthusiastic.â
You shake your head, clearly amused now, though youâre doing your best to hide it. âFine,â you say, leaning forward to jot something on a sticky note. âDinner."
Mingyuâs heart leaps, and he barely resists the urge to fist pump right there in your office. âDeal!â he says, grinning so wide itâs a wonder his face doesnât hurt. âSeven oâclock?â
âSeven,â you agree, handing him the sticky note with an address scribbled on it. âDonât be late, Mingyu.â
He takes the note like itâs a golden ticket, clutching it in his hand as if it might disappear. âI wonât. Iâll see you there.â
As he walks out of your office, he canât help the goofy smile plastered across his face.
By the time the evening rolls around, Mingyu is pacing outside the restaurant like a man on the edge. Heâs checked his watch twice, his phone four times, and stared at the sidewalk so long heâs convinced itâs going to start judging him soon. Late. You're late. Or maybe heâs just early. Impossible to say when your nerves feel like theyâre hosting a small rave in your chest.
After all, thereâs something about you that makes him want to try harder. Maybe too hard, but heâs finally learned that no one gets anywhere by waiting for the perfect moment to arrive. So, here he is, standing outside the restaurant, pacing like a nervous wreck while waiting for you to arrive.
Heâs tried to stay calm, really. Spent the entire afternoon mentally drafting this⌠whatever this dinner is supposed to be. Not a date (probably). Not a work meeting (definitely). Just dinner. Dinner with the one person whoâs managed to turn him into a bundle of energy and chaos masquerading as a fully functional adult.
And then, right as heâs about to dial his mom and ask for advice (because thatâs clearly what any reasonable person would do), he sees you.
You walk up with that confident stride, the one that always makes his heart skip a beat, and Mingyu feels himself freeze for a moment, completely forgetting everything heâs planned to say. You've changed and you look good. Too good for a casual dinner, but thatâs a problem for another time.
âHey,â you greet him with a smile, your eyes soft, but not quite soft enough for him to completely relax. âI didnât expect you to actually show up on time.â
Mingyu laughs, awkwardly tugging at his shirt. âI like to be punctual. Itâs kind of a thing.â
You raise an eyebrow but donât comment on the obvious lie, allowing the small banter to settle between you like a cushion. Instead, you let him open the restaurant door for you, falling into that casual rhythm that somehow feels more natural than the air heâs been breathing all day.
The dinner itself is nice. Too nice. No weird silences, no work talk, just good food and easy conversation. And yet, thereâs a weight in the room that Mingyu canât shake. Itâs been lingering ever since the kissâthe kissâand he knows he canât keep tiptoeing around it forever. So as the plates are cleared and the server drops off the check, he reaches into his bag, pulling out the rolled-up plans heâs been carrying like a talisman.
He sets them on the table, his hands a little too careful, his heart racing like itâs bracing for impact.
âOkay, now youâre being mysterious,â you say, the smallest hint of amusement curling your lips.
Mingyuâs throat goes dry, but he pushes forward, unrolling the designs and smoothing them out between the two of you. âI know I said no work talk,â he starts, his voice steady despite the storm in his chest, âbut⌠Iâve been working on this. And I thought you should see it.â
Your eyes drop to the papers, and he watches as your expression shifts. At first, thereâs curiosity, then recognition, and finally⌠something deeper. Something he canât quite name but feels in the way your fingers tremble slightly as they trace the edges of the designs with a reverence he didnât know he could envy. Your fingers are delicate but deliberate, the way you touch the plans like they might vanish under too much pressure. Mingyuâs heart is pounding so loudly he's surprised you canât hear it across the table.
âWhere did you get these?â Your voice comes out hoarse, more vulnerable than you mean it to be.
âIâve been working on them for a while,â Mingyu admits, leaning forward, his hands clasped on the table. âAfter you talked about the Westbrook Project that night, I couldnât stop thinking about it. About how much it mattered to you. I wanted to do something with it. Something for you.â
You blink, unsure how to process this. âBut how did you know?â
âI justââ Mingyu hesitates, then shrugs. âI listened. I saw it. The way you talked about it that night, the passion you put into your projects. I wanted to give it the respect it deserves. I couldnât let it just end with a ânoâ.â
You stare at the designs again, looking like you've been hit by a wave of nostalgia and shock. "You really... did this for me?â
âI did,â he says quietly, his eyes meeting yours. âAnd I think it could be something we could do together. If youâre interested.â
You pause, the space between you thick with emotion, something unspoken hanging in the air. Finally, you swallow and look at him, searching his face as if trying to make sure this is real.
âI... I donât know what to say, Mingyu.â Your voice cracks, and you canât quite hide the emotion thatâs flooding through you. âYouâveâthis is everything Iâve been trying to do. But I didnât think anyone else could see it.â
He sits up straighter, his hands resting on the edge of the table as he tries to keep his voice steady. "I just didn't want you to let go of something so important," he admits, his voice barely above a whisper. "It deserves another chance. You deserve another chance."
He doesn't know where he finds the courage to say those words. They sound so earnest. Almost embarrassingly so. But, it's the truth, and if there's one thing he's learned from you, it's that honesty - no matter how uncomfortable - is the foundation of anything worth building.
Your breath catches, and for a moment, the restaurant fades awayâthe low hum of conversation, the soft clink of silverware, all of it. It's just you and Mingyu, sitting across from each other, separated by a stack of papers and an ocean of unspoken feelings.
"Mingyu..." You start, but the words get caught in your throat.
You look down, the faintest hint of a tremble in your hands. And Mingyu, who had been prepared for you to shut him down, to dismiss this moment as anything but professional, has to fight the urge to reach across the table and take your hand. He doesn't, of course. He can't. Not yet.
He leans forward, his elbows resting on the table. He's not used to this - seeing you so vulnerable - and he just wants to take some of that pressure off your back. "Look, I know Iâm not perfect. I mess up, I talk too much, and I probably drive you crazy most of the time. But I see you, (Y/n). I see how much you care, how much you put into everything you do. And I donât just admire thatâI... I want to be part of it. To be there for you."
Your lips part in surprise. "I donât know how to do this," you admit, your voice trembling slightly. "Iâve spent so long trying to keep everything together. To keep people at a distance. And nowâ"
"You donât have to figure it all out right now," Mingyu says softly, sensing the spiral of doubt you appear to be descending into. "We can take it slow. One step at a time. I just... I needed you to know how I feel."
For a long moment, you donât move. But then, slowly, you let your hand inch toward his, your fingertips brushing against his palm.
Itâs small. Tentative. But itâs enough.
Mingyu barely breathes as your fingers brush his. Itâs such a simple gesture, but it sends a jolt straight through him, grounding him in this moment that feels impossibly fragile. He wraps his hand gently around yours, his thumb brushing lightly over your knuckles. Itâs all he can do to keep himself steady when every nerve in his body is screaming at him to close the distance completely.
You donât pull away, and that feels like a victory in itself. But when you look up at him again, your eyes are brimming with something he canât quite nameâfear, maybe, or hesitationâbut also something softer, warmer, that gives him just enough hope to hold on.
âMingyu,â you start, your voice barely above a whisper. You glance down at your joined hands, your brows furrowing slightly as though youâre gathering the courage to say something thatâs been weighing on you. âAfter the kiss... I didn't know what to do.â
His heart skips a beat at the mention of it, the memory still fresh in his mindâthe way your lips had felt against his, the way the world had seemed to tilt on its axis for just a moment. He doesnât say anything, though, afraid that if he interrupts, youâll stop.
âI started acting cold because...â You take a shaky breath, your fingers tightening slightly around his. âBecause I didnât know how to handle it. How to handle you.â
Mingyu blinks, his chest tightening at your words. âMe?â His voice is soft, cautious. He doesnât want to push too hard, but he needs to understand.
You nod, your gaze flickering back to his, vulnerable but resolute. âYou scare me, Mingyu. Not in a bad way, but... in a way Iâve never felt before. Youâre so open, so sincere. You make everything seem so easy, like itâs natural to justâfeel. And for me, thatâs... terrifying.â
He watches you, his heart breaking a little with every word. He wants to say something, to tell you that you donât have to be scared, but he knows this isnât the time. He needs to let you finish.
âIâve spent so long keeping people at armâs length,â you admit, your voice trembling. âItâs just easier that way. I donât get hurt, and I donât hurt anyone else. But then you came along, with your ridiculous optimism and your... your kindness, and suddenly I didnât know how to keep you out. And that kissâit made me realise I canât.â
Mingyu doesnât know what to say. Doesnât know if thereâs anything he can say to match the weight of what youâre giving him. So he squeezes your hand, letting his touch say what his words canât.
âI didnât mean to push you away,â you continue, your voice soft but unsteady. âBut I thought if I could convince myself it didnât matter, that you didnât matter, then maybe it wouldnât hurt so much if it all fell apart.â
Mingyu shakes his head slowly, his grip on your hand firm but gentle. âYou donât have to protect yourself from me,â he says, his voice low but steady. âIâm not going anywhere."
You look at him, your eyes searching his for somethingâreassurance, maybe, or proof that heâs not just saying what he thinks you want to hear. Whatever it is, you seem to find it, because your shoulders relax just a fraction, and a small, almost imperceptible smile tugs at the corner of your lips.
âI donât know how to do this,â you repeat, your voice barely audible. âBut I think... I think I want to try.â
And thatâs it. Thatâs all Mingyu needs. His chest swells with something that feels suspiciously like hope, and he leans in just enough. "I don't need perfect. I just need you, the way you are, right here, right now."
For a moment, thereâs silence. Not the awkward kindâthe kind where the world feels like itâs holding its breath just for you. Mingyuâs words hang in the air, his thumb still brushing over your knuckles, as if heâs afraid you might vanish if he stops. His heart is doing that thing again, where it feels way too big for his chest, and honestly, heâs not sure if thatâs romantic or just a pending medical emergency.
You glance down, exhaling softly, and then look back up at him with that small, tentative smile that could single-handedly knock him off his chair. âDo you...â You pause, biting your lip like youâre still deciding if this is a terrible idea or just a regular bad one. âDo you want to come back to my apartment?â
Mingyuâs brain short-circuits.
Like, fully shuts down. Thereâs no reboot happening here. Just static, a faint buzzing sound, and a very unfortunate replay of every romantic comedy scene heâs ever watched where the male lead trips over his own words and ruins everything.
His mouth opens, but no sound comes out. Great. Perfect. Ideal response.
âMingyu?â you ask, your tone softer now, like youâre worried you mightâve just set his brain on fire.
âIâuhâyes? I mean, yes!â He blurts it out, too loud, and the couple at the next table glance over like theyâre wondering if heâs okay. Heâs not, but thatâs beside the point.
You laugh, and the sound feels like sunshine breaking through the clouds. âYouâre sure?â you ask, your tone teasing but warm.
âAbsolutely,â he says, sitting up straighter, like heâs about to sign an unbreakable contract. âI am very sure. Extremely sure. Couldnât be more sure.â
You raise an eyebrow, clearly enjoying his spiral. âOkay, then.â
You stand, and Mingyu scrambles to follow, nearly knocking over his chair in the process. Smooth. So smooth. He rushes to grab his coat, fumbling with the sleeve as he tries to put it on without dislocating a shoulder. When he finally gets it together and turns back to you, youâre just standing there, watching him with an amused smile.
He follows you out of the restaurant, trying to act like a normal, functional human being. Except his palms are sweating, his heart is racing, and heâs pretty sure he almost tripped on absolutely nothing as you walked to the curb. When you glance back at him, your expression softens, and suddenly, it feels like the worldâs gone quiet again.
âHey,â you say, your voice cutting through the chaos in his head. âYou donât have to be nervous, you know.â
âIâm not nervous,â Mingyu lies, his grin wide and unconvincing. âThis is just how I always look when Iâmâuhâhappy.â
You laugh again, shaking your head, and link your arm with his, pulling him gently along. âCome on, letâs go before you combust.â
The walk to your apartment is a blur for Mingyu. His brain is bouncing between, Wow, I can't believe this is happening and What am I supposed to do when we get there? Sit? Stand? Compliment her interior design choices? He's overthinking so hard he barely notices when you nudge him gently and gesture toward the building in front of you.
âThis is me,â you say, your voice calm, but thereâs a small smile tugging at your lips like you know exactly how fried his brain is right now.
âCool,â Mingyu replies, because apparently thatâs the only word left in his vocabulary. Cool. Not ânice placeâ or âwow, it suits you,â just cool. He could punch himself, but then youâre already unlocking the door, and the reality of the moment hits him like a freight train.
The inside of your apartment is warm. Not literally warmâthough the temperature is pleasantâbut warm in the way it feels lived-in and completely, unmistakably you. Itâs smaller than he imagined, but cozy, like every piece of furniture and every object has been chosen for a reason. Thereâs a soft throw blanket draped over the arm of your couch, a mug on the coffee table with a faint ring from earlier that day, and a half-finished book on the shelf that he knows heâs seen you reading during breaks.
Mingyu steps inside, toeing off his shoes at the door because it feels like the kind of place where shoes on indoors would be a crime. âYour apartment is really nice,â he says, his voice a little too high-pitched because heâs still desperately trying not to think about why heâs here.
âIt suits you,â Mingyu says before he can stop himself, the words slipping out too soft, too sincere. When you glance at him, your cheeks warm, he knows heâs said the right thing.
âThanks,â you murmur, ducking your head slightly. âMake yourself comfortable. Iâll grab us something to drink.â
You disappear into the kitchen, and Mingyu is left standing awkwardly in the middle of the room, trying not to spiral. This is fine. Totally normal. Just two people hanging out in a perfectly platonic and definitely not emotionally loaded way. Except itâs not fine, and his brain is racing faster than he can catch up.
He sits down on the couch, his hands fidgeting in his lap as he looks around again. Itâs impossible not to take everything in, to let the space tell him little things about you he didnât know before. Like how thereâs a stack of notebooks on the side table, their covers worn like theyâve been flipped through a thousand times. Or how thereâs a candle sitting on the shelf labelled something ridiculous like âCinnamon Forest Dreams,â and now all he can think about is you lighting it during one of your late-night brainstorming sessions.
When you come back, two glasses of water in hand (because youâre practical like that, of course), Mingyu straightens up, his heart pounding in his chest. You sit down beside him, closer than he expected but not close enough to touch, and heâs suddenly very aware of how small the couch feels.
âSo,â you say, handing him a glass, your voice light but your eyes betraying a flicker of nervousness. âWhat do you think?â
âOf the apartment?â Mingyu asks, taking a sip of water because itâs something to do with his hands. âI think itâs great. Like... really great. Itâs very... you.â
You raise an eyebrow, amusement tugging at your lips. âIs that a compliment?â
âItâs the compliment,â he replies, his grin a little sheepish. âItâs perfect. Just likeââ He cuts himself off, his cheeks flushing as he looks down at his glass. Donât say it. Donât overdo it.
But youâre looking at him now, your expression softening. âJust like what?â
Mingyu swallows hard, his brain screaming at him to play it cool. âJust like I imagined,â he finally says, his voice quiet but steady. âLike... a space that feels like you.â
Thereâs a pause, and for a moment, he wonders if heâs completely ruined everything. But then you smileâreally smileâand his chest feels like it might explode.
âThanks, Mingyu,â you say, your voice soft, almost shy. âThat means a lot.â
He smiles back, trying to ignore the way his heart is doing somersaults. This is fine. Totally fine. Nothing to freak out about. But then your knee bumps against his, and suddenly, heâs not so sure.
Mingyu swallows. A cough almost escapes his throat, but he manages to catch it, instead clearing his throat like he's trying to shake off the sudden, very real butterflies in his stomach.
You, on the other hand, seem perfectly at ease, sipping your water, your eyes not quite meeting his, but still playful, still warm. Your knee stays lightly resting against his.
He looks at you, his mind racing, and wonders if maybe this is one of those moments where he should just say it. Say whatâs been sitting heavy on his mind, almost screaming to come out ever since that nightâthe kiss, the awkwardness, the moments of quiet when he almost wished he could reach out and grab the truth like it was some kind of lifeline.
âY'know," he begins, his voice coming out a little more nervously than he meant, "Iâve spent most of my life messing up in the most spectacular ways possible. I donât exactly have a good track record when it comes to making things right."
You tilt your head at him, a playful smile on your lips, but your gaze is intense in a way that makes his breath catch. âYouâre being too hard on yourself, Mingyu,â you say, your tone teasing, but thereâs something beneath itâa quiet, steady assurance that has him clinging to every word.
âNo, Iâm serious,â he insists, his hand tightening slightly around his glass. âLike, when it comes to thisâ" He gestures vaguely between the two of you, "Iâm completely out of my depth. I donât really know what Iâm doing.â He bites his lip, willing himself not to spill everything at once. âBut, I think⌠I think I really want to try. With you.â
The silence that follows is thick. Mingyu mentally runs through every scenario, and none of them seem to be as perfectly awkward and fragile as this one. He starts to second-guess himself, but before he can say something stupid to cover it all up, you do something that catches him completely off-guard.
You shift closer, your knee brushing against his again, but this time, thereâs no hesitation in the way you move. Your hand reaches out, fingers gently resting on his forearm, warm and soft. He can feel your pulse, steady and strong, as if somehow in this small gesture, youâre grounding him.
âMingyu,â you say quietly, and heâs not sure if itâs his name or the way you say it that knocks all the air out of him. âIâm not asking for perfection. I donât even know what that looks like.â
Mingyuâs breath hitches as he watches you, his heart skipping a beat at the honesty in your eyes. It feels like you're both on the edge of something, teetering between what is and what could be, and yet all Mingyu can think about in this moment is how simple it is to be here with youâhow uncomplicated it feels to just let go.
âI donât know what Iâm doing either,â you continue, your voice soft but clear. âBut I want to find out. With you."
Itâs then that Mingyu realizes how quiet itâs gotten, how still the air is around the two of you. The world outside your apartment could be spinning at a hundred miles per hour, and in this small space, with your hand on his arm, time feels like itâs standing still.
Youâre sitting so close now. The space between you is smaller than the gap in his thoughts. His hand, which had been fidgeting with the glass of water, starts to move on its own. He places it gently on the cushion beside you, just a few inches from your own. His palm is open, but he waits.
And thenâhe takes a breath.
"Can I?" he asks, voice low, almost a whisper, as though he's afraid you'll pull away, as though he's asking permission for something he should have done a hundred times before.
Your eyes lock with his. They're soft, vulnerable, like you're weighing his words against everything that's happened before. For a moment, the world feels like itâs paused, like thereâs no room for doubts or what-ifs. Thereâs just you and him, and something thatâs undeniable between you.
You donât answer with words. Instead, you let your gaze drift to his lips, and then, almost imperceptibly, you lean in.
Mingyu doesnât wait for a second invitation. His hand slides from the couch to gently cup the side of your face, his thumb brushing over the soft skin of your cheek as he moves closer. He feels the heat radiating off you, and his breath catches when your lips are just a breath away.
And then, before he can even think, he closes the distance between you, his lips brushing softly against yours.
Itâs nothing like the first kiss. Thereâs no hesitation, no uncertaintyâjust the sensation of everything falling into place. The kiss is slow, tender, almost like heâs savouring it, wanting to memorise the moment because, for once, it feels like everything is exactly how it should be.
Your lips move against his in a quiet, unspoken rhythm, and he feels the tension that had been building between the two of you melt away. Heâs no longer nervous, no longer afraid of saying the wrong thing or doing the wrong thing. He just wants to be here with youânow, in this perfect moment.
When you pull away, itâs not with distance, but with the smallest of smiles tugging at your lips, your eyes full of something that makes Mingyu's chest tighten. Your breath is still coming fast, like youâre just as shaken as he is.
He doesnât say anything at first. Thereâs no need. His heart is still racing, but now, heâs not afraid of what comes next. He feels like heâs finally stepped into something real, something that might not be easy but is worth every bit of effort.
"I think..." he starts, his voice a little hushed, "I really wanted to do that again."
You laugh softly, the sound warm and familiar, as you tilt your head just enough for your forehead to rest against his. "Yeah?" you murmur, your fingers gently tracing the outline of his jaw. "Well, I'm glad you did."
Mingyu can't help but smile, his hand, still resting gently on your waist, pulls you just a little closer, as if to remind himself that this is real. That you're really here, and this is really happening. You donât pull away. Instead, your hand moves from his jaw to his collar, gently tugging at the fabric like itâs an invitation he canât refuse.
And Mingyu? He doesnât need any more encouragement. He leans in again, his lips finding yours with more urgency this time. His free hand moves to the back of your neck, fingers threading through your hair as he pulls you deeper into the kiss. Itâs like his bodyâs on autopilot, all his self-control falling away the moment youâre close enough to feel.
You gasp softly against his lips as his hand slides down to your waist, fingertips brushing the curve of your hip, and he feels you shiver. His pulse is racing in his ears, but it's the warmth of your body against his that completely consumes him. He can't stop. Can't pull away. You taste like the promise of something more, and the way your fingers grip his collar tightens the knot in his stomach until itâs a full-on spiral of heat.
Your mouth moves with his now, more desperate, more demanding, and Mingyuâs heart does that weird, annoying thing againâwhere it leaps in his chest, and all his thoughts vanish like mist under the sun. He kisses you harder, taking a moment to pull away just enough to breathe, his forehead resting against yours, both of you panting as if youâve run miles, even though youâve hardly moved.
âMingyu...â you whisper, voice breathless, a little unsteady. He feels the sound vibrating through him as much as he hears it.
"Yeah?" he responds, a grin pulling at the corners of his mouth despite how utterly wrecked he feels in the best possible way. "Youâre not gonna suddenly tell me this is all a huge mistake, right?"
You laughâa low, playful sound that makes his chest tighten, and then you kiss him again. This time, it's slow, deliberate, like youâre savouring each second, each touch. And Mingyuâs mind short-circuits all over again, as if he's trying to figure out how it's possible for something so simple to make him feel soâsoâalive.
Your hands are everywhere nowâon his chest, around his neck, tugging him closer until thereâs not an inch of space between you. And thatâs when he feels it, that surge of want, a physical ache deep in his chest that spreads out to his limbs, making him burn.
He presses you back gently against the armrest of the couch, his lips trailing down to your neck, his breath hitching when you arch into him. The way you melt under his touch is everything heâs ever wantedâmore than he even realised he craved. The warmth of your skin, the way your fingers dig into his back, all of it pulls him in, deeper, until heâs lost in the sensation of just being with you.
âMingyu, weââ you start, but the words cut off when his lips meet the curve of your neck, and the way you shudder against him makes his pulse stutter in his veins. You canât even finish the sentence, and heâs so close to being past the point of caring.
He pulls away just enough to look at you, his chest rising and falling rapidly. âWe what?â he asks, his voice rough. "I won't let you talk if you're going to tell me you changed your mind."
Your gaze flickers between his lips and his eyes, a playful challenge in your expression. "Iâm just saying," you murmur, your hands shifting down to his shirt as you slowly begin to unbutton it. "You're going to have to transfer to a different team after Langham is done."
Mingyu grins, a breathless huff of laughter leaving his lips. "As long as I still get to see you every day."
"I'd say you're probably going to get to see a lot more of me." Your words are said innocently enough, but the implication mixed with the feeling of your heaving chest against his is making his head spin again.
And just like that, you have him, every inch of him. Mingyu canât keep his hands from wandering, canât keep his lips from pressing harder against yours, canât keep from falling deeper into this beautiful mess of passion and want. The last shred of his self-control slips away, leaving only youâright here, right now.
Your clothes go quickly, his quicker, until you're both laid bare before the other, entirely vulnerable and at peace at the same time. He's drowning in you, his head nested between your legs, feeling as eager to please as he did the first day he met you. You're gasping his name, hands curling into his hair, head falling back onto your couch in utter bliss.Â
And then your fingers are wrapping around his shoulders, digging into the muscles and pulling him back up towards you. He almost falls off the couch he moves so fast, but you don't seem to notice. You're too busy looking positively angelic in front of him, with those large, sparkling eyes staring at him and dirty words pouring out of your mouth.
Mingyu has to hold himself together as you tell him, point blank, to "hurry up, and make love to me."
This isn't Mingyu's first rollercoaster. He's a good-looking guy, and he knows it. He's been with others before, but when you speak to him like that, he feels like he's eighteen again and a girl's just sat on his lap for the first time.Â
And it feels so good, you feel so good around him. You might not have to worry about transferring teams, because he's not sure he's going to make it. The noises you're making, the warmth of your body, the scraping of your nails against his chest - it's enough to finish him off (or at least allow him to ignore the ungodly sounds pouring out of his own mouth).
He makes sure you've finished as well before pulling out (because he wants to, not because he feels embarrassed that he came first). A blissful look falls over your face and Mingyu has to mentally take a photo of the image to make sure he never forgets it. He's staring at you; he knows it and you know it, and you're giggling a little and it's the most beautiful thing he's ever heard.
"Wait here," he whispers, not wanting to break the moment by speaking too loudly. He leans down to peck your lips, before running into your bathroom to dispose of the condom and get some towels and blankets.Â
The night fades softly into a comfortable quiet as you and Mingyu lay there, nestled on your couch, your bodies half-melted into the cushions, the air between you warm and thick with the lingering feeling of everything now spoken.Â
Mingyu is still processing it all. This. This feeling of being here, with you. Heâs supposed to be good at thisâthe whole dating thing, at least. But everything about tonight has been different. And, if heâs being honest with himself, much better than he expected. He expected the awkwardness, the second-guessing, the inevitable when do I leave? moment, but none of that happened. Instead, all thatâs left is you. And him. And the soft rhythm of your breathing in the stillness of your apartment.
He stares at the ceiling, trying to act casual, but the smile tugging at his lips betrays him. This is fine, he thinks, despite the tiny voice in the back of his head screaming that nothing this nice is ever fine. But the voice is quieter now. A lot quieter.
âYouâre thinking too loud,â you mumble, your voice muffled against the fabric of his shirt, your head resting on his chest. Your fingers play with the hem of his shirt absently, as though youâre trying to figure out the material, the way it fits him, the way it feels beneath your touch.
Mingyu chuckles softly, a little embarrassed. âSorry,â he murmurs, his chest vibrating with the sound. âI guess Iâm just... trying to make sure Iâm not dreaming.â
âWell,â you reply, shifting just enough to lift your head, your eyes soft but amused, âif this is a dream, Iâm okay with it. I think Iâll stick around.â
Mingyu's heart skips a beat at the words, but he keeps his voice steady, even if the teasing smile he wears is bordering on ridiculous. âGood, because if this is a dream, Iâm not waking up."
As the night deepens and the city lights paint soft patterns on the walls of your apartment, Mingyu finds himself drawn to your window. The skyline stretches before him, a tapestry of glowing spires and shimmering reflections, alive with the energy of the place he loves most. He smiles, realising for the first time how much this view has changed for him. It isn't just buildings and lights anymore - it's connection, collaboration, and the quiet promise of something new. A reminder of what you are going to build together, layer by layer, one light at a time.
you supported seungcheol through years of being an aspiring athlete, and all you got to show for it was your undergraduate degree and an awkward, stuttered apology when he dumped you to go semi-pro. now heâs back after an injury derailed his career, and thereâs only one problem: youâre the only one available to tutor him. you - 0; the universe - 1. talk about no return on investment.
â˝ pairing: choi seungcheol x f. reader
â˝ genre: exes to (lite) enemies to lovers; university au; angst, fluff
â˝ rating: while there is nothing explicit in this fic, there are two brief references to smut. while i can't stop anyone from reading this, i would prefer minors do not interact with this or any of my work.
â˝ warnings: cheol is some degree of famous, reader is a grad student/TA, mentions of an injury and coping with the aftermath of it, lots of economics talk that even i do not understand, swearing, one mention of alcohol, some misplaced jealousy, rom-com tropes, dino is kind of a loser but we love him anyway. probably a lot of other things i missed, but this is actually pretty tame for a fic of this length.
â˝ word count: 13.4k
â˝ thank you: a lot of people looked this over for me in the process and i'm sure i will forget some of them so if i do i'm sorry: @the-boy-meets-evil, @hot-soop, @highvern, and @haologram, who also gave me some wonderful ideas for the vlogs. thank you to MIT for opencourseware existing. i took microeconomics and dropped it, so i couldn't have done this without you. everyone in the discord server for helping me along the way and keeping me motivated.
â˝ author's note: i haven't posted a fic in nearly seven months, so i think it goes without saying that there are parts of this i like and a lot more i'm not 100% happy with. i'd love if this was more fleshed out and 10k longer, but i was able to write anything at all so it's good enough.
this was written for the back to school with seventeen collab, hosted by @camandemstudios. thank you both for letting me participate! please make sure to check out the rest of the stories! everyone worked so hard and this collab was a ton of fun to participate in. <3
You look down at the paper. Back up at who handed it to you. Down at the paper again.
âYouâve got to be joking.â
The poor freshman kid laughs, all nerves, and even though the sound is grating, you remember what itâs like to be forced into work study. How far away graduate school seemed; how large your professors loomed over you with all their power and knowledge and credentials; how you constantly felt like the dumbest person in nearly every room you walked into for four straight years.
âUmââ
You sigh, just barely resisting the urge to slam your head onto your desk. âIâitâs fine, donât worry about it.â Your words do little to ease Freshmanâs nerves. Heâs still hunched over in the doorway of your office, wringing his hands as he shifts his weight back and forth, in for a lifetime of body pain with the way heâs squaring his shoulders. âYouâre sure about this, though? Like, Iâm really not being set up?â
âI donât think so?â he offers, slowly starting to turn green right before your eyes. âDr. Lee ga-gave me the paperwork himself, I donât think he wouldâve messed it up? Oh no, did I mess it up? Should I go back to Student Services and confââ
Good god, this kidâs anxiety is gonna stink up your office for weeks. âNo need!â you interject. âIâll justâŚâ Sign it, you want to say, but the longer you stare at the sheet of paper the quicker youâre losing your resolve.
TUTORING REQUEST FORM
Student Name: Choi Seungcheol
Degree: Undergraduate
Major: Business
Course: ECON04101 Introduction to Microeconomics
Instructor: Lee Yeonseok, PhD.
Recommended Tutoring: High (3-4 hours per week)
You curse under your breath. Of the two names on the paper, Dr. Leeâs does not come as a surprise. Heâs a notorious hard-ass with an infamous attrition rateâmost students donât last more than a week in any of his classesâbut heâs also the sole reason you were able to pay for someof your grad school tuition out of pocket with all the tutoring money you made.
That, however, was two years ago.
âDoes he know I donât tutor anymore?â Stupid question. The kid stares blankly back at you, as if to say I donât know any more than the people in Student Services, let alone Dr. Lee. It is literally my first year here. âIâm Dr. Ahnâs TA this year. Iâve got my hands full with her bullsh⌠stuffââ
Immediately, you know youâve said something wrong, because the kidâs eyes light up, all that previous anxiety disappearing like smoke. âWait, the same Dr. Ahn that teaches the crypto course?â
âNo, that one died,â you say quickly. Kid deflates. âAnyway, I donât really tutor anymore, especially for econ. As you can seeââyou gesture vaguely around the cramped four walls of your officeââtheyâve upgraded me. They even put my name on a little placard by the door! Go look! They spelled it wrong! If that doesnât sum up this university I donât know what does.â
You heave another sigh. Try to school your face and tone into something that exudes professionalism and finality. âLook, Iâm sorry I canât help you. I tutored Dr. Leeâs students for, like, three years in undergrad so Iâm sure they just⌠forgot that wasnât my actual job here. Whoâs in charge of tutoring these days? Iâll shoot them an email and explain all this.â
Freshman gives you a name, and it takes less than a second to find them in the employee directory. You expect that to be the end of it, but heâs still taking up space in your doorway. You quirk an eyebrow. âYes?â
The hand-wringing returns, along with an embarrassed flush that disappears beneath the neckline of his school-branded sweatshirt. âI justâum. Maybe you could, uh. Send that now? Before I get back there?â
You blink. âDonât you have to go all the way back across campus? How slow do you think I type?â He shrugs, and you give up on the idea of getting rid of him. âFine. Whatâs your name, anyway?â
âLee Chan. Iâm a sophomore. Do you know that guy?â
âOh. I thought for sure you were a freshman, but youâre gonna need to be more specific, Lee Chan, Sophomore.â
âThe guy they want you to tutor.â You freeze. The guy they want you to tutor isââChoi Seungcheol,â Chan tacks on, and, yeah, you knowâknew, you correct yourselfâsomeone with that name, once upon a time.
But there are a lot of Chois and a lot of Seungcheols. Itâs been years since youâve spoken to the Seungcheol you knew, and that was when heâd broken up with you toââI heard heâs a football player? Well, used to be, I guess. The girls in the office were freaking out so I guess heâs pretty famous, but I donât know anything about sports, do you? They said they have photocards of him. I thought they only did that for idols.â
You think about being kids together in Daegu. Think about the exasperated looks youâd share when your parents would drag the two of you to festivals: Palgongsan in the autumn, Biseulsan in the spring; transformation and rebirth. Think about being eight years old and watching your father cram into the small space of the Choisâ living room, standing around the TV with Seungcheolâs dad, shouting at Park Jonghwan. Daegu FC made the FA Cup quarterfinals that year, and you think, of everything, thatâs what youâll remember for the rest of your life.
You think about falling in love slowly. Sixteen and clueless, the pair of you were. Didnât really know any different, just that youâd look at him and feel butterflies. That youâd hold hands in secret. Text beneath the dinner table. That youâd watch him on the football pitch and be consumed by pride. That the future felt impossibly far away, that life would never catch up to the two of you.
You think about all the football jargon you didnât understandâthe academies, the teams, the implications. You think about, Iâm thinking about trying out for the FC Seoul U-18, I just donât think thereâs much more I can do here in Daegu. You think about replying, Oh, I applied to university there.
You remember thinking it mustâve been fate, how easy that had worked out. How easy that first hurdle had been overcome.
You think about how fast everything happened. The try-out, the acceptance, the explosion. Remember being unable to go anywhere those first few months without seeing Seungcheolâs face, touted as the next big thing. Think about applying for scholarships when he was applying for international visas. Think about studying for midterms when Seungcheol was studying English for interviews.
You think about the last few weeks of your relationship, when it felt like you were desperately trying to cling to ghosts. Think about how Seoul had once felt endlessly big, both in opportunity and size, and how it now felt suffocating. You think about, So youâre just giving up? Is that what youâre saying? Think about, I donât know what else to do. It doesnât feel fair to you.
You think about all the places youâve watched him. On countless football pitches; shy glances in school hallways; in the passenger seat, wracked with nerves on the drive to Seoul; poised above you in bed, hairline dotted with sweat as he rolled his hips, telling you how much he loved you.
You think about watching him walk out the door, and how you never watched him again.
So you fire off your email, concise and to the point about why you canât tutor Choi Seungcheol in Introduction to Microeconomics, and turn to Lee Chan, Sophomore.
âNo,â you finally answer. âNever heard of him.â
For all intents and purposes, your rejection shouldâve been the end of it.
A few days go by. You hold office hours, attend lectures, work on your thesis when you have both the time and the energy. Try to ignore the feeling of bees beneath your skin, anxiety needling each time you check your email. You were well within your right to decline the tutoring request, but you canât help but feel like youâve done something wrong. That someone somehow knows who Seungcheol was to you and will pull you up on it. That those girls whoâd gushed about him to Chan are somewhere laughing at your expense.
But you donât hear anything at all about it⌠until you do.
Sunday evening. You havenât moved from your couch in hours, some variety show playing in the background, barely audible over your keyboard clacking. Much to your detriment, you donât write many papers these days, so youâre out of practice. Feels like you havenât done anything besides formulas in years, all of your academic knowledge reduced to fucking math, so youâre about ready to toss your laptop out the window long before the email even comes through.
You see, From: Lee Yeonseok. You see, Subject: Choi Seungcheol - Tutoring.
Your stomach plummets to the floor.
You scan the body quickly. You see the words personal favor⌠friend of his father⌠urgent matter⌠and your hands start shaking. Whether itâs from the sheer audacity of this man or anxiety, you arenât sure, but itâs not like it matters. There arenât a whole lot of people on campus brave or dumb enough to go up against him twice.
âMotherfucker,â you spit, bitter the only taste in your mouth.
Where did you go wrong to wind up here? Youâd followed the script: got the grades, passed the exams, received half of the required education for the Respectable Career, helped a few others along the way chase dreams that may or may not have been their own. Youâd fallen in love. Only had a broken heart to show for it, but thatâd been in the script, too: The First Love, followed by The First Heartbreak.
The split from Seungcheol was supposed to have been the end of that chapter. Youâd planned on never seeing him again, and you never would have, had it been up to you. Apparently the universe has other plans, participation required.
âDid you spill onion dip on the rug again?â You startle, sending your laptop flying. Kaori, your roommate, is perched halfway in between the living room and the kitchen like a cryptid, clearly not expecting your reaction. âOh. Were you watching porn?â
Face burning, you fetch your laptop from the floor. âIn a common area? Kaori, please, I have far more decorum than that.â
She snorts, resuming her trek to the fridge. âSee, thatâs what I thought, but then I walked out here and you threw your laptop so fast it was like watching my ex get caught watching furry porn all over again.â She pries the lid off a large container of yogurt. âYou think this is still good?â
âDunno. Whatâs it smell like?â
She sniffs it and pulls it back to check the label. âVanilla, I think, which is concerning because itâs supposed to be strawberry.â
You shrug. âWhatâs the worst that can happen, you get extraââyou pause, trying to remember the correct order of things, before giving up entirelyââ...biotics?â
âMm, so close. Care if I just eat this with a spoon?â
Nose scrunched, you wave her off. âCouldnât pay me to eat yogurt on a good day, let alone if itâs expired. All yours, babe.â
Spoon in hand and a pleased smile on her face, Kaori collapses onto the couch beside you. You try to return your attention to your paper, try to find your momentum again, and it works for all of ten minutes before youâre groaning and slamming the top closed.
You donât even need to look over to know Kaoriâs staring. âWhatâs up with you?â she asks. Before she can answer: âWait, is this serious? Because I canât have a serious conversation in this t-shirt.â You steal a glance sideways. Ask Me About My Hemorrhoid! it says, and you exhale loudly. âDonât breathe at me, I lost a bet.â
âAnd continued wearing it?â
She jokingly rolls her eyes. âGod forbid a girl has hobbies.â Nudges you with her foot. âCâmon, spill.â
Kaori doesnât know about you and Seungcheol. Most people donât, aside from a few old classmates from Daegu who found you on social media and tried befriending you once he started making a name for himself in Seoul. After that, it was just easier to keep things private while you were together. New friends knew you were seeing someone but not their name or how long youâd been together. Any curiosity surrounding why the Choi Seungcheol was following you on Insta had been waved away easily. Our parents are friends, we grew up together. Then you broke up, and there wasnât any evidence to delete, and he wasnât following you on Instagram anymore, and it was easier that way.
So, yeahâeven though you hadnât met her until years later, Kaori knows you have an ex. She knows youâve had a few flings and situationships in the time since, too, and itâs why sheâs none the wiser when you ask, âItâs nothing, really. Justâdo you follow football at all?â
âNah, not really. The new guyâs pretty into it and keeps trying to get me to watch the games with him, but itâs so fucking boring? I dunno, I canât get into it. Not in real life, anywayâI binged all of Captain Tsubasa in an embarrassingly short amount of time, though. Why?â
âStudent Services asked me to tutor someone the other day and I had to turn it down. I just donât have the time, you know? This semesterâs already killer, and Dr. Ahnâs been riding my ass nonstop about grades. Turns out itâs some football player, so Dr. Lee emailed me asking me to do it as a personal favor, which means, on top of all the other shit I have to do, Iâm now tutoring some football player four hours a week in Microeconomics.â
Her face distorts. âGod, that guyâs such a prick. Like wow, youâre good at the economy! Good for you! Who cares! Why donât you go balance the national debt or something instead of torturing university freshmen!â
You also wrongly assume thatâs the last youâll hear of it from Kaori.
Two days later, after Student Services replies to your email with the days and times youâll be tutoring Seungcheol, she materializes in the living room to harass you.
âYou didnât tell me your football player was Choi Seungcheol.â
The panic is instant. You know how she means it, but itâs not how your body interprets it. All of a sudden it feels like an interrogation, an accusation, and a whopping serving of guilt takes up residence in the middle of your chest for not being entirely honest.
âExplains this weird text Ken sent me.â
She slides her phone over to you, open to her text thread with her current flavor of the week. Beneath an article about Seungcheol enrolling in classes at your school:
doesnât ur roomie TA there
Why are you calling her âur roomieâ like you donât know her name?? Rude. Also yes.
ask her to get me an autograph
No
babe pls he was my fav player before he got injured
No
đ fine. can i come over later?
Starting to think youâre using me for my roommate. Get your own job đ
You hand her phone back. âI didnât think youâd know who Choi Seungcheol even is.â Itâs the best you can do, even though it just digs you a deeper grave. âYou said youâre not into football.â
âIâm not, but unfortunately I am into that stupid man.â She sighs, wistful and longing. âBabe, you have to understand. His dick is so big.â
You hadnât wanted to stay in Seoul for your graduate degree, let alone the same university youâd gone to for undergrad.
Youâd applied to schools all overâJapan, Europe, even a few in the States. Romanticized the hell out of NYU, went window shopping for an overpriced apartment, picked a favorite pizzeria based on nothing but vibes and online reviews. In those few months after graduation, there wasnât a whole lot tying you to Seoul. Your and Seungcheolâs relationship had been old history by then, your parents split. Your dad stayed in your childhood home and your mother moved a few hours closer to her sister. Theyâd waited until your brother was old enough to be out of the house.
And itâd just been⌠a lot. Overwhelming. Some days you could barely shower or feed yourself, let alone move halfway across the world, so youâd stayed in the familiar and tried not to let it feel like failure.
But the good thing about familiarity is you learn its tricks, figure out the hiding spots. Early on, your first or second week of grad school, you laid claim to a study room on a floor of the library everyone else ignored. You write notes on the whiteboard with faded blue markers that are still there days later. The chair on the opposite side of the table is always exactly where you left it, the space between it and the table enough to only accommodate you. Sometimes you leave booksâold paperbacks littered with notes in your writingâor papers, just to see if they move.
They never do.
And all of this is why it feels like a punch to the gut when that sanctity is tainted. When youâre halfway through a stack of Dr. Ahnâs exams and the doorknob rattles behind you. When you donât even need to turn around to know who it is, because he still sounds the same, still has that overwhelming presence. Youâve always sensed him before you felt him.
âThere you are,â Dr. Lee says, ambling into the room before you can protest. He, too, is overwhelming, just in different ways. Immaculate posture that anchors his slight frame thatâs always dressed impeccably and expensively. Wears a watch thatâs triple your tuition. Shoes polished so bright theyâre nearly blinding. âIâve been looking all over for you.â
This time it is an accusation.
Well, you found me, you want to say, but just knowing Seungcheol is behind him, lingering in that half-study room, half-hallway space, is enough to keep you quiet. Like if you speak youâll summon him closer and youâll no longer be able to pretend this is nothing more than a nightmare.
You plaster on a polite smile. Say, âAh, here I am, kyosu-nim,â and put all your energy into trying to glue Seungcheol to the floor with your mind.
Which is fruitless, because Dr. Lee moves further into the room. Gestures for Seungcheol to follow him with an impatient huff, and the study room is small, sure, and with three people it feels cramped, but thatâs not the reason it feels like all the airâs been sucked out of the room.
Seungcheol looks⌠different. He looks as anxious as you feel, and he sticks close to the wall like heâs trying to disappear. Dr. Lee introduces him with grave importance, unaware of your history, and the forced smile he offers you almost looks embarrassed.
You know Dr. Lee is still hammering away, probably giving you a stern talking-to for rejecting his request the first time, but you canât tear your eyes away from Seungcheol. Feels like the world around you has reduced to a pinhead, all hyperfocus; feels like your lungs are sucking in stale air one at a time.
â...his father is a very good friend of mine, so I expectâŚâ
You expected to feel nothing. Seungcheol had left to chase his dreamâone youâd always been so supportive of that it sometimes felt like your dream, tooâand, perhaps naively, you thought the distance and the years wouldâve been enough. You expected your heart to have hardened. You expected all those nights you spent crying to hit you at full force. You expected anger, hurtâindifference, at the very least.
â...as many hours per week as you both can manageâŚâ
But you shouldâve known better. Shouldâve expected the butterflies, the way your palms grow clammy, the way your heart rate spikes. Shouldâve expected everything to feel upside-down. You shouldâve expected to look at Seungcheol and feel sixteen and in love all over again.
â...you are responsible for his academic progressâŚâ
And that simply will not do. Youâve spent the last few years pulling yourself out of that hole, clawing your way back to something resembling normal. Youâve purged the thought of him from your mindâlet his scent fade from your sheets, an old sweatshirt heâd left behind; forgot the way his lips felt against every inch of your skin; forgot the way his entire being lit up when he laughed; forgot the safety he encompassed, the way he whispered all those sweet nothings.
You cannot go there again.
So you roll your shoulders back, smile politely. Say, âAh, kyosu-nim, Choi Seungcheol-ssi seems very intelligent, Iâm sure he is capable of being responsible for his own academic standing, donât you think?â
Dr. Lee cannot disagree without all but calling Seungcheol an idiot, so he hovers before you in shocked silence. Makes a show of huffing and checking his watch, like heâs all of a sudden remembered heâs late for something and being inconvenienced by this conversation he started, and then heâs halfway out of the library with a terse, âDiscuss and figure this out amongst yourselves,â thrown over his shoulder.
You have an entire dramatic exit planned in your head. Gather your things, fake a phone call that makes you sound authoritative and important, and brush past Seungcheol wearing your nicest perfume as if all of this is so far beneath you you canât even bring yourself to care about it.
Of course, you actually have to brush by him for any of that to happen, and since youâve already decided you will not go there again, you quickly scribble your email address onto a piece of paper and slide it across the table at Seungcheol, who has steadfastly remained planted just outside the door. âHereâs my email. I donât have time to discuss this right now.â Seungcheol cocks an eyebrow. You start throwing things into your bag haphazardly. You know you look frantic and affected, but thereâs not much you can do about that. âWhat? Send me a copy of your syllabus and what you want to prioritize. Itâll be easier to get through this if we have a plan instead of winging it.â
He seems to catch on to your distaste because he mirrors it. Scoffs as he rolls his eyes and says, âYeah, no use spending more time together than we have to,â and if you hadnât gone years without speaking, you wouldâve seen right through it.
But you did, so it stings all the same.
As it typically does, the planet keeps spinning after your run-in with Seungcheol.
You grade Dr. Ahnâs coursework. Try running off your anxiety at the gym, even though itâs pretty good at keeping pace with you these days. You meet Kaoriâs maybe-boyfriend sneaking out of your apartment early in the morning and he has the good sense not to mention your ex, but you chalk that up to the mess of hickeys covering his neck and not any sense of social decorum.
Other peopleâs embarrassment saves you a ton of your own, youâve come to learn.
Throughout all of this, Seungcheol only emails you once to send you his course syllabus. Doesnât mention tutoring or provide you with his schedule or ask for yours, so when youâre sitting in a bar with your friends, three or four drinks deep and feeling a little petty, you forward him the original tutoring request and make sure to bold, underline, and highlight the âRecommended Tutoring: Highâ part for good measure.
He doesnât take your baitâelectronically, at leastâbut he does show up to your office hours the following Tuesday.
Bag tossed onto the floor, he flops unceremoniously into the chair across from you and says, in lieu of a greeting, âThey spelled your name wrong. On the door thing.â
âI know,â you reply, your smile polite and terse. Incredible how he has the ability to raise your blood pressure in milliseconds. âWhat can I help you with?â
âDepends. How long do you have?â
âWell, considering youâve shown up to my office hours on time, Iâm assuming you already know Iâm here every Tuesday and Thursday from four to six. Soââyou glance at the clock above the doorââassuming no one comes by who needs my help more than you do, you have approximately one hour and fifty-eight minutes.â
Seungcheol is quiet for a moment as he takes you in. His stare is weighted; it makes you feel a little green around the edges. Clinical and sharp, so far removed from the way he used to look at you. You clear your throat. âI looked over your syllabus. The good news is thereâs only a midterm and a final and the rest is problem sets. The bad news is thereâs only a midterm and a final so theyâre weighted quite heavily. You really need to know this stuff inside-out to have any hope of passing.â
âThatâs why youâre here, right? Dr. Lee specifically requested you.â
You huff a breath through your nose. âIâm here as supplemental help. I canât take your exams or do your readings for you. What else are you taking this semester?â
He sighs, sinking further into the chair, very much playing the part of the heir who has no interest in any of this. Which⌠is unlike him, you think, if youâre even allowed to. The Seungcheol you knew years ago took everything so seriously. Never clipped corners or took shortcuts. Anyone else would think him a spoiled, petulant child. âBusiness Accounting and International Trade.â
âCould be worse,â you note. âAt least those three courses are tangentially related.â
Seungcheol rolls his eyes. âEasy for you to say. I havenât taken a fucking math class in years.â
You return it. âYou remember how to add and subtract, donât you?â
âI ruptured my ACL, not myâŚâ He trails off, looking a little embarrassed that he canât name a part of theââBrain.â
Whatever you were going to quip back with dies on your tongue. It's the first time Seungcheol has broached the topic of his injuryâthe first youâre hearing of it at all, actuallyâand he says it like itâs a joke, like itâs not a thing at all, but the pain is all over his face. The bitterness of the situation heâs found himself in. The unfairness of it all.
And there are so many questions you want to ask that arenât your place: if itâs fixable, if heâll ever play again, how heâs coping. But you donât really need toâyou canât imagine how youâd feel if someone suddenly pulled the rug out from under you. If everything contained within the four walls of your office suddenly disappeared.
Not that the man sitting across from you hadnât already done that, but.
âRight,â you continue, as if he hadnât said anything at all. You know Seungcheolâknow he wouldnât want you prodding, sticking your fingers in that particular wound. âI want you to take a look at this,â you say, handing over a printout you have saved from your undergrad tutoring days. âTell me what looks familiar, what doesnât; what does and doesnât make sense.â
He looks down at the paper. Back up at you. Down at the paper again. âWhat the fuck is this?â
âIâwhat? Cheol, itâs my old notes on recitation. Surely youâve already covered thisâthe syllabus says this is week one stuff.â He looks down at the paper again, and itâs so familiar, watching the life drain entirely from someoneâs eyes.
You barely resist the urge to slam your face onto your desk a second time.
You meet Seungcheol at the sports center for your next tutoring session.
He likes the humidity and the smell of the chlorine by the pool. He also likes that itâs not the football pitch, so the two of you sit in the bleachers there and go over his lecture notes. Much to your surprise, Seungcheol talks a mile a minute. Has stars in his eyes when he says he finally understands elastic demand curves, supply shock; tells you he spent a whole hour making flashcards.
Itâs the first time youâve seen him so excited since your tutoring beganâthe first glimmer of hope youâve felt since Dr. Lee cornered you in your library hideaway. None of this surprises you. Seungcheol has always been smart, even when football was his primary (and sometimes only) focus. He has more determination and grit than anyone youâve ever met, so youâre not surprised heâs doing well, excelling, but you are surprisedâ
âCan I ask you something?â Seungcheol shrugs, shoves half a protein bar in his mouth and swallows without chewing. âWhy are you⌠uh. Here?â
âAt this university?â
âNot exactly. I mean, I am wondering about that, but I guess⌠why business?â
Seungcheol hums. Tucks his good knee to his chest and stares down at the pool. No oneâs using it, and truthfully the two of you probably arenât even allowed to be here, but you understand why he likes it. Itâs nowhere near as secluded as the library and definitely not as air conditioned, but it is peaceful. Calm. The water laps against the coping in quiet, small waves.
âAh, I donât know. You know how it goes.â
You quirk an eyebrow. Never, in all the years youâve known him, has Seungcheol done anything he didnât want to do. All that grit and determination. âWhat about your father, then? Dr. Lee mentioned this was a favor to him. Heâs a pretty important person to have in your Rolodex of favors.â
Doesnât take a rocket scientist to see what this is: Seungcheolâs father has new money; worked from the bottom up, made some smart investment decisions that finally panned out after Seungcheol left for Seoul. Started doing his own thing, made a name for himself. Last youâd heard from your mother, Seungcheolâs brother was second-in-command. Hell, even your own brother did an internship there.
So you know what this is: a father helping his son after his dream was shattered, life turned upside-down. You canât blame him, even if youâve heard the whispers from all the way across campus. That Seungcheol is washed up now, trying to nepo his way into his fatherâs company because of it; that all he knows is sports and he shouldâve stuck to that, what does he know about business, why is he the one Dr. Lee went out of his way to help.
Doesnât stop any of them from smiling at him, though; doesnât stop them from asking for autographs or selfies.
But you also know this isnât something Seungcheol seems willing to discuss, so you crack a jokeââI mean, business. God, whoâd wanna go into that?ââand go back to what he was willing to talk about.
Youâve never hated elastic demand curves so much in your life.
Deep in the throes of tutoringâwhen you canât tell if itâs week two or week twelveâyou make it back to your apartment just before ten, head pounding.
The door flies open just as youâre about to punch in the code, and there stands Ken, looking far more put-off than youâve ever seen him. Looks defeated, if youâre being honest, like someone mopped up all his emotions and wrung them out like dirty dishwater.
âOh, hi,â you say hesitantly. The man in front of you seems too much like a caged animal to let your guard down. âEverything okay?â
He aborts a nod halfway. Mutters an apology as he brushes by you and stalks down the hall, disappearing around the corner to the elevators. Usually heâs a talkerâyou havenât been able to avoid a Seungcheol-related conversation in weeksâso youâre a little stunned. Stand there stupidly for a while, and thatâs where Kaori finds you a moment later.
âYou gonna stand out here all night, orâŚ?â
âOhâyeah, right.â
You follow her inside. Toe off your shoes and put them in the rack. Focus on the sound of the kettle whistling instead of the overbearing tension in the room. Drop your bag off in your room, throw on a sweatshirt three sizes too big and a comfy pair of socks. Rummage through the fridge for leftovers, contemplate what mindless show youâll watch as you eat, and you do not, under any circumstances, ask Kaori what happened.
You donât have to. You knew what this was going to be the first time Ken spent the nightâthe way he looked mortified to be meeting you in the shared kitchen at seven a.m., wearing a look that begged you not to tell your roommate he was sneaking out.
I, uh, have an early class, heâd said. You know how it is.
Maybe you shouldâve called him on it then. Issued a warning-but-not-really. Sheâll get attached if you donât tell her. She should know itâs different for you, if it is.
But youâd convinced yourself it wasnât your place. Kaori wouldnât want you in her business like that, so you stayed quiet, just nodded before watching him slip his shoes on and close the door behind him so quietly you wouldnât have known he left at all if you hadnât been looking. Gone, just like a ghost.
So, yeah, you know exactly why your roommate looks haunted.
âIâm a few episodes behind on this if you want to watch with me,â you offer, pointing at the television with the remote. Itâs a lieâyouâve never watched this show a day in your life, which Kaori seems to knowâbut she contemplates it nonetheless. âAlso, my mom mailed us some cookies. I think theyâre in the fridge.â
âWhy are there cookies in the fridge?â
You huff a laugh. âThey were outside the door this morning before I left for campus. I donât knowâjust saw who the package was from and was like, oh, this must go in the fridge.â
She nods. Grabs the container and joins you on the couch. Sticks her feet beneath your butt and doesnât mention a thing.
The closest she comes is a few days later. Catches you right before you head out to campus and asks how tutoring is going.
âNot bad, actually.â
Her smile doesnât reach her eyes when she says, âThatâs good. Iâm glad things are going well for you two.â
Lee Chan, Sophomore makes his unexpected return at your office hours on an unsuspecting Tuesday.
âCan I help you?â
He doesnât answer right away, just helps himself to the seat across from you. âMaybe,â comes his cryptic retort. âI was thinking about signing up for that crypto course next semester.â
You narrow your eyes. âNo, you werenât.â
He sighs. Looks a little panicked, like he canât believe that didnât work. âYouâre right, youâre right. I, umâI wanted to come say thank you.â He pauses. âYou know, for that⌠email you sent.â
You blink. âNo, you didnât.â
Lee Chan, Sophomore cracks immediately. Thunks his head on your desk and lets loose a pained sound. It nearly sounds like heâs wailing when he says, âIâm sorry! They put me up to it!â
What youâre able to piece together is this: Lee Chan, Sophomore has become a bit of a celebrity in the Student Services department ever since he met you, Choi Seungcheolâs tutor. And, like any smart, previously unpopular university student would do, he took advantage of it. Mightâve stretched the truth a little to make it sound like he knew more than he did, so now here he is, angling for information the girls with the photocards may or may not have paid him to get.
âThey want to know about his girlfriend.â
âHis what?â
What youâre able to piece together is also this: the Photocard Girls are certain Seungcheol is dating someone, based on little more than vibes. You suspect these vibes are their three degrees of separation, considering there was an abnormal amount of Change of Major files formed after his enrollment, but you tell Lee Chan that you donât know anything and, even if you did, you wouldnât put his business out there like that.
But some part of you still has this inexplicable urge to protect Seungcheol, so you match their offer with interest and tell him to say thereâs nothing to reportânot that you didnât know, not that he couldnât get anything out of you. Seungcheol isnât dating anyone.
You donât know if itâs true, but you figure that if it isnât, he still deserves privacy.
Which is a notion you have trouble explaining a few hours later, when Seungcheol strolls into your office with a grease-stained paper bag full of cheese coin bread, offering one to you with a proud smile that drops slowly when you just stare in return.
âWhatâs wrong?â
Your mouth opens, closes, opens again. Nothing comes out, even though it should be simple. Some sophomore kid was just in here angling for information or the Student Services department is taking bets on whether or not you have a girlfriend would both suffice, but you cannot bring yourself to say the words.
What you settle on is, âSorry, I just⌠had an interesting meeting before you got here.â
âOh. Are you okay?â
You sigh. Tilt your head back to stare up at the ceiling. âIt was about you, actually.â
Seungcheol chokes, starts stuttering over words you canât make sense of. Says, âMe? Why? I passed my last examâI mean, barely, but I still passed. And that wasnât your fault! I didnât study enough! Iâve been losing my mind over my International Trade class, that shit sucksââ
âIt wasnât about your grades, Cheol.â
âOh.â Then, slowly, a lopsided, pleased smile overtakes his face. âHavenât heard you call me Cheol in a while.â
âSeungcheol,â you correct.
He seems to forget all about the meeting. Tries again to offer you a coin bread before he threatens to eat them all himself, so you acquiesce mostly to shut him up, say youâll bring the extras to Kaori. For some reason, you tell him about how much sheâd loved the cookies your mom sent, and the nostalgia sets him off, gets him talking again, asking if they were the yakgwa she used to make when you two were kids.
They were, but you canât seem to tell him that, either.
Seungcheol: sorry itâs last minute - running late. can you meet me at my place instead?
Seungcheol shared a location with you
Youâre halfway to replyingâI donât think thatâs appropriateâbefore you sigh and delete it. Midterms are only a few days away and you donât have time to argue over where your tutoring sessions will be, so if Seungcheol wants to meet at his apartment thatâs where youâll meet him.
You read over the midterm notes on the train. Once, twice, and then a hundred more times until theyâre nearly memorized, all so you can ignore the voice in the back of your head saying what a bad idea this is. That you have no business being on your way to your exâs swanky part of town or integrating yourself into his life beyond tutoring at all. You shouldnât know where he lives. Maybe you shouldnât even have his phone number or answer his texts.
Not that thereâs much you can do about it now, two stops away.
Seungcheol greets you warmly, if not a little rushed. Apologizes for the mess once you step inside, although itâs less âmessâ and more âhavenât finished unpacking,â but thereâs enough clear space to study at the dining table, so thatâs where you set up, determined to keep things professional.
âSorry again about this,â Seungcheol says, placing a can of cola in front of you as he takes the seat across. âI had to meet with my father and lost track of time, I guess.â
âOh. Howâs he doing?â
Seungcheol sighs, leans further back in the chair as runs a hand through his hair. A light brown, now. âSame as he always was, I guess. Talked about the business, about my brother. Canât get him to shut up about that stuff most of the time.â
âThe business is doing good, though.â You cough, clear your throat. âMy, uh. My brother interned there during undergrad. I donât know if your father told you that.â
You donât know why you say it, because itâs clear from the brief flicker of pain on Seungcheolâs face that he hadnât known, that no one had told him. And it hurts you too that they felt the need to keep it a secret, to protect Seungcheol from you even in tangential ways.
âHe didnât,â he admits, âbut Iâm sure he was happy to see him. He was, uhâhe was glad to hear youâre my tutor. Said you were always smarter than all of us boys combined.â
You laugh. Hope it sounds casual instead of strained. âWell, no need to prove him right. Come on,â you say, tossing a study guide in his direction, âletâs get to work.â
Everything is alright for a whileânearly an hour at least. He has the formulas memorized and attributed to the correct equations. He can explain supply and demand, preference and utility, but things start to fall apart around budget constraints and constrained choice.
The formulas get mixed up. He grows frustrated when he doesnât know the answers to your questions right away. Rolls his eyes and gets a little snappy when you correct him, try to explain things differently in a way he understands. At first heâs able to temper it, collect himself before things truly start spiraling out of control, but the longer the two of you sit there the more it all unravels.
He snaps, you snap back, and you canât figure out why. Youâve survived this long in Seungcheolâs orbit even though you never thought youâd be around him again, and perhaps it was bound to explode eventually, butâŚ
Itâs the familiarity, you realize.
You and Seungcheol arenât friends, though youâve been playing at it for weeks now: meeting outside of the library or your office, the personal conversations bordering on reminiscing, being in his personal space. You donât belong here. You donât want to be his friendâyou canât be, not for real or pretend.
âThatâs not what Iâm sayââ
âThen explain it better,â Seungcheol fires at you, eyebrows creasing. âYouâre the tutor here.â
You roll your eyes. âIâm trying, okay? All I meant wasâyour answer isnât wrong, but I know Dr. Lee and heâs going to want more than that in a response.â
âRightânot good enough, like I said.â
âIâm just asking you to expand on your answerââ
âAnd Iâm telling you thatâs all Iâve got. Iâm not like you, all right? I donât have all this shit just floating around in my head all the time. Iâm not smart, I barely have any idea whatâs going on half the time, and you sitting here being condescending about it is doing fuck-all to help.â
You inhale sharply, taken aback at the hostility in his voice. Suggest calling it for the night, say neither of you will be productive if you keep going like this, and neither of you bother to apologize.
So much of your relationship with Seungcheol was marred by clichĂŠs.
The two of you passing notes back and forth during class. You in the bleachers of all his games, screaming along to the team chants, waving a sign around with his name on it. Not realizing you had a crush on him at all until he liked someone else and it made your stomach hurt. Childhood friends turned lovers.
Another clichĂŠ: that itâs starting to feel like that all over again.
Seungcheol sits across from you in the library, econ textbook cracked in half in front of him as he pays no attention. Keeps grabbing his phone each time it vibrates across the table. Canât fight the smile that forces its way onto his face when he reads whateverâs there.
Stupid, you thinkâboth to do this and to think itâd play out any other way. Seungcheol left years ago. Probably lived ten lifetimes while he was away while you were here in this exact spot doing this exact thing. Barely lived half a life, just stuck your nose in textbooks and forced your way through.
âCheol,â you say, trying to drag his attention back to the study guide. No use. Heâs typing away, presses his tongue into the fat of his cheek as he responds. âSeungcheol,â you try again.
Also fruitless.
You have no claim here, you remind yourselfânot to his time, not to him. Heâs only here because someone else mandated it. Youâre only here because someone else mandated it, but it stings all the same. Another reminder of what used to be, of what ended regardless of what you wanted. Another reminder that the role you used to play in his life is not the role you play now. That the space you used to take up created a vacancy, and eventually it was going to be filled.
And if this was anyone other than Seungcheol, if you were more emotionally evolved when it came to him, it wouldnât gnaw at you as much. All of this would roll off your shoulders.
But it isnât, and youâre not.
âIf youâre not going to listen, thenââ
âI am listening,â he interjects, but heâs not looking at you. Not looking at his textbook or his study guide. Keeps laughing and smiling at his phone, and itâs sick how bothered you are by it. That it feels like your stomachâs been turned inside-out with jealousy; with annoyance, because you donât want to be here anyway, donât want to do this anymore, and youâre wasting your time on someone who doesnât appreciate it.
Perhaps he never did.
âWhat are we discussing, then?â
Still not looking up: âConsumer theory.â
You laughâmore a huff of air than anything, grin sardonically out of one corner of your mouth. Seungcheol sees none of it. âWrong,â you answer, already expecting the way he shrugs it off. âIâm gonna skip ahead a few chapters, though. Consider it a freebie for your business class.â
It must be your tone that finally grabs his attention. Cutting, precise, purposeful. Seungcheol lowers his phone, quirks an eyebrow, wonders where this is going to go. Itâs clear heâs pissed you off, that youâre itching for a fight. Itâs clear the years of silence are finally coming to a head.
âLetâs talk about ROI. You know what that is?â You barely give him a second. âReturn on investment. A performance measure used to evaluate the efficiency of an investment or compare the efficiency of several investments. So, letâs say I make one-hundred-thousand won on a ten-thousand won investment: my ROI is 90%. Are you following?â
He nods.
âGreat, now letâs try something a bit more hypothetical.â You suck in a breath. âLetâs say I invest years of my adolescence into someone. A friend at first and then something more. Letâs say I played cheerleader, supported every hope and dream he hadâwent to every game, cheered him on, helped him practice his English. Held his hand and talked him down when the pressure felt overwhelming, when the only thing that felt inevitable was failure. Now, letâs say all I got in return was a stuttered, awkward apology as he dumped me and walked out the door. Letâs say that guy showed up again after years of silence just to once again waste my fucking time.â
The thing about pain is itâs not linear. What hurt five, ten years ago might not hurt today, but it might tomorrow; what hurt yesterday may never hurt again. The thing about pain is it lets you stick your head in the sand until it canât anymore, and thatâs where you are now: that window of time between Seungcheol walking out the door on the assumption youâd never see him again before he bulldozed his way back into your life has been slammed closed, locked up tight.
So you donât even notice youâre crying until the room goes deathly silent and you can hear the drip drip drip of tears on paper. Until you watch Seungcheolâs hands flex and unflex in mid-air, stuck in that liminal space, wanting to reach out but knowing he has no right to. Until your chest aches so bad youâre sure youâre either about to break into stardust or cease to exist.
Until you say, âWhat, Choi Seungcheol, would you say my fucking return on investment was?â and he has nothing to say at all.
Kaori invites you to a party.
Just something small to celebrate the end of midterms and a classmateâs birthday. Nothing out of control or raucous, not even the kind of thing thatâd earn a second glance from campus security. I wonât even make fun of you if you leave before eleven, is how she sold it to you, in addition to a small amount of begging and bargaining and a powerful set of puppy-dog eyes.
After everything the two of you have been through, you find it hard to say no.
So here you are, nearly eleven oâclock on a Friday, a cup of cheap beer in hand. A friend of a friend of a friend is wailing into a karaoke machine and although your ears are bleeding, it does feel nice for that to be your greatest worry. You arenât thinking about your classes or how youâve been prioritizing everyone elseâs academic success. You arenât thinking about whateverâs going on between Kaori and Ken. You arenât thinking about Seungcheol.
At least you arenât, until he walks through the door.
Youâre going to continue not thinking about him at allânot about the fact heâs alone or how good he looks in a simple black T-shirt thatâs a little taut in the shoulders. Youâre not going to think about the way the air shifts, like the universe knows heâs important and is willing to accommodate. Youâre not going to think about how Kaori catches your eye across the room, recognizes him from all her internet searches, and the way she mouths oh my god heâs so beefy at you.
Youâre not going to think about how guilty you feel that she doesnât know, because if you do youâre certain itâll take over.
You watch Seungcheol work the room; watch as he floats between conversations, as strangers fall over themselves at the sight of him. How eager everyone is to give him something and how reluctant he is to take them. You watch as he winds up in the same circle as Kaori and how she must mention you, oh, your tutor is my roommate, because thereâs a question in return before he turns and meets your gaze.
You wonder why the distance between you feels more insurmountable now than ever before.
Seungcheol finds you in your office.
Itâs not a Tuesday or a Thursday, far later than four to six in the evening, but he doesnât even bother knocking before heâs barreling in, stifling your space with his bad energy.
You havenât seen him in nearly two weeks. Not since the party, if that even counts. Hasnât bothered to reply to any of your texts or emails, and that was just fine by you, if thatâs how he wanted to act, but it isnât until heâs brooding on the other side of your desk that you realize youâre still aggrieved, too. Feels a little too familiar, him leaving you behind and in the dark.
So you donât mean toâtypically have much more professionalism than thisâbut when he tosses a stapled stack of papers with a barely-passing grade on your desk and says, âThis is your fault,â the words come automatically and without forethought.
âFuck off, Seungcheol.â Itâs not your words that take him by surprise; more so the roll of your eyes, the accompanying huff. The impression that all of this is beneath you and nothing more than a mere annoyance. That however affected you were two weeks ago is not how affected you are anymore. âThatâs what happens when you blow off your tutoring for two weeks because youâre a coward.â
He laughs, incredulous; unable to help the sound the tumbles out of his mouth. âIâm aâIâm a coward?â
âYes,â you reply, tone giving away nothing. All he sees is feigned nonchalance despite the hurricane you feel brewing beneath the surface. âThis,â you continue, pinching the corner of the paper between your fingertips and disposing of it in the trashcan beneath your desk, âis all on you, but do please let me know if thereâs anything else youâd like to blame me for. Iâm all ears.â
You donât miss it: the way Seungcheolâs eyes grow wide at your âIâm all.â The way he thinks youâre going to punctuate that sentence with yours, and it nearly has bile rising in your throat. Makes you want to scream, rip at your hair. If the last few months have taught you anything, itâs that you are still hopelessly in love with the man across from youâthe man that continues to leave before heâs left, always at your expense.
So, yeahâSeungcheol is a coward, but only when it comes to you.
But he doesnât look much like one now, gripping so hard at the edge of your desk that his knuckles have gone white, baseball cap pulled down low enough his eyes are barely visible. Heâs always been overwhelming, always carried himself with an exaggerated arrogance even when it wasnât warranted, always took everything so seriously, and maybe thatâs why youâd thought heâd treat you the same way. Take you seriously. Wouldnât just throw it all away on a maybe thing, and thatâs why it's been years and you still arenât over it.
Maybe Seungcheol is a coward, and maybe so are you.
Because not once since heâs been back have you been able to say what you mean. Canât seem to tell him about the anger, the hurt, the heartbreak. Played it all off as petty nonchalance because you foolishly thought that would hurt him, that youâve been reduced to simmering ash, no hope left for a fire.
âI could never blame you for a goddamn thing,â he says, voice so deep you could drown in it.
You so desperately want to know. You donât want to know anything at all. You want Seungcheol to explain everything to you in detail and spoil the ending, but only if itâs guaranteed to be happy. Enduring another loss like the first timeâyouâre not sure you can take it. Not after you two have crossed paths like this, because youâve never quite believed in fate but you think that has to mean something. That so much time and life had transpired and you two came back together.
Today, though, it doesnât look like youâre going to get any answers.
Seungcheol straightens, looms at full height. Digs into the pocket of his sweatpants and pulls out a thumb drive. Wordlessly, he hands it over, and then heâs gone just as abruptly as heâd arrived.
Again.
Kaori wants to spend the weekend moping, and you canât come up with a good reason not to join her.
She doesnât mention Ken once. Not when sheâs sobbing over A Silent Voice and Toradora! after that. Not when she keeps glancing at her phone every couple minutes to see if she has any texts. Not when youâonly halfway paying attention between grading and your own assignmentsâsuggest ordering something for delivery, maybe that new burger place down the street you heard was good, and Kaori shuts it down so vehemently you can only assume it was Kenâs favorite place.
Kaori just cries over the man with the big dick she never expected to take so seriously, and not even your stonewalling makes her feel ashamed of it.
And thereâs respectability in that kind of openness and vulnerability. At least whatever sheâs feeling is honest; at least she can admit sheâs sad. You think watching Kaori process her breakup might help you process yours too, years too late, so you suck in a breath and ask, âCan I tell you something or is now not a good time?â
Kaori looks over at you. Dabs a soggy tissue at her eyes. âWell, I guess it depends,â is her answer, and she doesnât shy away from how waterlogged her voice sounds. âIf youâre going to tell me youâre a Takasu and Kawashima shipper, maybe, but if itâs anything worse Iâm not sure I could take it.â
âIâwhat? Who even are they?â She gives you a half-hearted thumbs up. You sigh in response, sink further into the couch. âItâs, uh.â Clear your throat. âDo you remember when we met sophomore year? At that party? And I told you I wasnât looking for anything and you said, and I quote, why not, I have a sixth sense for this kind of thing and I know that guy will have a hugeââ
She hides her face behind her hands. âEw, god, yes I remember that. My dick whisperer era. How embarrassing.â
âRight. And I told you I wasnât looking for anything because Iâd just gotten out of something.â
âNot really by choice, if I remember correctly. I told you if it was quiet it shouldâve been loud, and then you never talked about it again.â
You nod. âIâyeah, that sounds like something I wouldâve said.â You suck in a deep breath. âListen, this is probably gonna sound bad considering I did never talk about it again, butââ
âHey,â Kaori says, nudging you with her foot. Meant to be comforting, somehow. âItâs okay. Thereâs a lot you donât know about me, too⌠most of which Iâm not sure you should, actually.â
A laugh forces its way out, gives you a nice reprieve from the anxiety of the conversation youâre about to have. The need to explain it all, the need for advice. Maybe itâs not herâor anyone elseâsâbusiness, but you think youâve kept this to yourself long enough. You and Seungcheol loved each other, once, and it seems foolish that no one knows.
Maybe Kaori had been right. Maybe love should be shouted from the rooftops; exist out in the open. Maybe something hidden in the shadows can never thrive in the light, and you knew it back then, deep down, but now it seems so obvious.
You think back to a few days before the library. Think about how things didnât feel good but they felt okay. Think about the frustrated crease between Seungcheolâs eyebrows as he stared down at his textbook and how all youâd wanted to do was smooth it. Think about how youâd rolled your lips and tried not to laugh; how you thought itâd take a miracle to help Seungcheol pass this class.
Think about: What is the difference between the short-run and the long-run from the perspective of production theory?
Think about the short-run of your and Seungcheolâs relationshipâthat youâd burned bright and fast, even though itâd felt like a million years. Hadnât dared to consider the long-run because anything beyond that bubble felt impossible.
Think about: Which of the following is not a property of isoquants?
Think about the way Seungcheolâs eyes lit up when he knew the answer. That theyâre always linear, he said, and you smiled at his enthusiasm, raised your hand to high-five him and dropped it when he hadnât noticed.
You think about the explanationâisoquants can be linear when inputs are perfectly substitutableâand what those graphs look like. Downward sloping, left to right. Think about how the graphs change when the isoquants are perfect complements.
L-shaped. Less straight as the inputs become poorer substitutes.
You know what your and Seungcheolâs graph wouldâve looked like back then.
So itâs easy, almost, to tell Kaori everything. You tell her about growing up in Daegu, about the smell of the azaleas at Biseulsan in the spring. You tell her about how your parents had befriended the neighbors, how they had a kid your age, that that kid was Seungcheolâyes, that Seungcheol.
Sheâs able to anticipate the rest from there, but you fill in the blanks of what she canât: being sixteen and falling in love, holding hands, the clandestine notes. All those football matches and how your throat would be hoarse from cheering. How nauseous youâd felt applying to university in Seoul, how excited you were when Seungcheol said he was coming with you. That, after you arrived, it felt like you were living in fast-forward. Barely any time to breathe or adjust; no time to just be you and Seungcheol. You had to be a student, someone responsible; Seungcheol had to be a phenom.
âCould you feel it was going to happen?â Kaori asks, now sat ramrod straight, all her attention on you. âLike, did you know?â
âI donât know,â you admit. âMaybe I did? Itâs hard to say now, all this time later. I know things definitely felt different, like life was pulling us in opposite directions.â You laugh, bitterness coloring the edges. âYou couldnât go two blocks without seeing him on some billboard, and I was just⌠normal, you know? I wasnât some rising star athlete like he was, I just went to my classes. How was I supposed to compete with something like that?â
Your roommate hums, leans back into the pillows as she stares up at the ceiling. âI donât think you were. Maybe thatâs why Seungcheol was worriedâmaybe he felt like you were losing your own identity feeling like you had to keep up.â
You want to push back, argue that you werenât, that you didnât, but the truth is that itâs possible. That the shadows created by Seungcheolâs dreams were so massive you wouldnât be surprised if they unintentionally swallowed you up. âIt still wasnât his choice to make,â you say, voice barely above a whisper.
And Kaori already knows all about your hurt, listened as you explained it all and laid everything bare. So when she says, âSometimes thatâs just how it goes, though, babe,â it doesnât feel condescending. âWe do the best we can with what weâve got at the time. You can say now it wasnât Seungcheolâs choice to make, because itâs been almost five years and youâve made a life for yourself separate from him. But theâgod, this is gonna sound so patronizing, I am so sorryâbut you guys were so young. No one has it all figured out at that age.â
She snorts, runs a hand through her messy hair. âShit, Iâm nearly halfway to thirty and I still donât know anything.â Adopts a frown. âWhat do you want now? Do you want closure? Want to try to fix things and become friends?â
âI donât know,â you admit, biting at a hangnail. âHe actually, um. The other day when he stopped by my office, he left me a USB drive? And before you ask, no I did not already look at it.â
âA USB drive? Who does this guy think he is, James Bond?â A pause. âAre you gonna look at it, though?â
You do.
Not until the silver, midnight light creeps in through your bedroom curtains and youâve stared at the ceiling long enough; waited long enough for texts that never came, for divine intervention to, well, intervene. It never didâfair enoughâso you decide to take fate by the reins. Grab your laptop, instant headache from the screen, stick the drive into the port.
It takes a second for it to load, but when it does: dozens of videos, organized by date. Vlogs, by the look of themâsome from before your breakup but the majority of them from after.
Youâre not sure what you expected, but it wasnât this.
You click on the first one: a month and a half before both of you moved to Seoul. A fresh-faced Seungcheol appears on your screen, cheeks still round with adolescence. Heâs in his room back in Daegu, canât get the camera angle right. Nostalgia hits you like a ton of bricks as it pans to the side, to the wall behind his bed, and you see all his old posters. Mostly football players you couldnât name, some girl group he used to love, a few movies. Just below them are some of the notes youâd written him in school, and theyâre all you can focus on as he talks about how excited he is for the move.
The next: a few weeks after youâd started classes. By then, Seungcheol was well into the swing of things with Seoul FC. Already a big fish in a small pond, tryout offers from European teams starting to roll in. You can hear yourself in the background stressing over your first exam, wishing a generational curse upon your calculus professor. In the video, Seungcheol laughs, whispers like heâs telling the camera a secret as he talks about how nervous he is for his future. I donât know why, he says, but it just feels like everything is about to change.
Thereâs a long pause between that one and the next. You understand why when you look at the date: three months after your breakup. Your hands hover uselessly above your keyboard. Whatever answers youâve been looking for the last few years are probably in this video, but you canât bring yourself to open it. Not right away, at least.
You click on a different one at random. Seungcheolâs somewhere in Europe, judging from the language on the signs behind him. Snow falls quietlyâwhenever he filmed this, it mustâve been early. No one else is around, and he cracks a joke that itâs a good thing, people would probably think he was crazy if they saw him. He doesnât tell you where heâs going but he narrates the entire walk: points out a cafe heâs grown to love. The way to get to his practice stadium from where heâs standing. Pauses near a restaurant and laughs ruefully, shakes his head, says, I donât know why Iâm telling you this, but one of my teammates set me up on a blind date here and I got stood up. Youâd probably think that was funny.
(You do. It also makes your chest ache.)
One from two years ago: Seungcheol in a hotel room, clearly nervous. He raises his hand to wave at the camera and you can see the corners of his nails bitten raw. Dark circles beneath his eyes; cheekbones more pronounced than youâve ever seen them. On the screen, Seungcheol sighs, rakes a hand through freshly-bleached hair. Sucks in a deep breath as he says, Iâm so nervous. Iâm soâso fucking nervous and I donât. Fuck, I donât know what to do. I want to call you because you always knew what to say but thatâs so fucking selfish. God, we havenât spoken in years, and itâs myâthatâs my fault, I know, so I brought this all on myself. I just want to hear your voice.
Another from a week after that: the colorâs returned to his face, and heâs recording from what looks like a penthouse apartment. Sleek, modern; a small white dog napping on the bed beside him. He smiles, looks like he got his teeth fixed, looks like heâs no longer carrying around the weight of the world. Talks endlessly and excitedly about some tournament. Talks so fast you can barely keep up. Talks around words tinged with languages you donât understand.
Seungcheol wins a championship. Records a drunk vlog from the same night, hair soaked through with god-knows-whatâwater, champagne, you donât know. But he looks radiant. Looks like the culmination of two decades of dreaming. He looks happy, free, at peace. He looks like the reason he let you go, why he had to go away.
You scroll to the bottom of the files. Pause at the last video, dated seven months before the term started.
âHi,â he says, and you can immediately tell everything is all wrong. Seungcheolâs in the dark, face only visible enough to see the tears tracking on his cheeks. âThis is going to be the last one of these I make. I donât know if you, uhâIâm sure you arenât paying attention to meâmy careerâanymore, but. I, um. I got hurt. Ruptured my ACL. Theyâre not sure IâllâŚâ A sob escapes him. Has you wanting to climb through the screen to hold him, thumb away his tears, tell him everything is going to be okay. âThey donât know if Iâll ever play again.â
Seungcheol no longer looks happy, free, at peace. âMaybe youâll be happy to hear that,â he continues. âMaybe itâll help you to know I threw away our relationship for nothing.â
Cut to black.
The sudden silence is deafening. Has you desperately clicking back to the video youâd skipped, the one from just after your breakup. Seungcheol looks the same in that one, too, like the life has been drained out of him.
I donât know why Iâm doing this. Itâs not like Iâll ever show these to you now, since IâŚ
Iâm sure I owe you an explanation. To be honest, I donât know what Iâm doing, I justâthings have been so hard, and Iâm still trying to make sense of it all. I feel like my life went from zero to a hundred before I could even blink and now Iâm scrambling. I didnât think it was fair toâto drag you through that. Me being away, moving to an entirely different continent. I have faith we could do it, I just. I donât know, baby, I donâtâŚ
You deserve to have your own life. Be your own person. Iâm so scared that the world will never see you for who you areâso beautiful and intelligent and kind. You donât deserve to be reduced to my partner. And if you ever see this, I know youâre gonna roll your eyes. Probably call me a mean name because I took the choice away from you, because you think Iâm trying to be selfless and heroic, and youâd be right. Itâs not fair, and I wish I could tell you Iâm sorry.
I wish I could just⌠pluck out my brain and give it to you, because even if it killed me to do it, at least it makes sense to me. And I donâtâI donât want you to think Iâm not hurting. Iâve been sick to my stomach since I left. I know Iâm making a mistake, I know I am, I justâhow do I do what I think is right in the long-run when itâs not what I want right now, or ever?
I donât want to get over you. I donât want you to get over me, and thatâs how you know Iâm not acting selflessly, because you should. I want you to always be happy, I just⌠wish it was with me.
So, Iâm going to keep making these. Iâm going to take you along for the ride, wherever it takes us, because you should be here but I can only hope you can one day understand why youâre not. Iâm soâIâm so sorry, I donâtâŚ
Iâm sorry.
I love you.
You fall asleep and dream that you were the one meant to meet him at that restaurant.
The first thing you do is make a call to your mother.
âCould you send another container of yakgwa?â
On the other end of the line, your mother tuts, motherly intuition audibly kicking into overdrive. Is probably wearing that all-knowing, sly grin she always does when you try to be coy and evasive. âWhat happened to the last container I sent?â
âAh, you know Kaori loves those. They barely lasted an hour after I told her what was in there.â
She hums an acknowledgement. Sounds like she takes a sip of tea. âI remember someone else being quite fond of those cookies, too.â
âWell, they are the most popular cookies in the country, so.â
After haranguing you into admitting theyâre for Seungcheol and not your roommate, your mother promises to send them quickly. A few days at most, which buys you enough time to figure out how youâre going to approach the man in question.
The vlogs have turned your entire world upside-down. Answered questions you hadnât even known you had. Took all that anger and resentment youâd been holding onto and set it free, and now youâre just left with⌠a void. Want to mend things, and it makes you wonder if such a thing is even possible, if itâs too late, but you donât let those thoughts get very far.
Instead, you let them spur you into action. Have you sitting in front of your laptop at your desk, office hours long since over, silence creeping in the more the department empties. The thrum of the airconditioning and the tick-tick-tick of the clock are all the only company you have.
You worry if itâll show on camera, how out of sorts you feel: sweating from the nerves, dabbing at your hairline; cheeks warm to the touch. But you suck in a breath anyway, steel yourself. Look at your webcam and the daunting red circleâŚ
And start recording.
He hadnât gotten it at first. Not really.
Thereâd been a container of yakgwa outside his door with his USB drive taped to the top of it. No noteânot that he needed one to know who it was from, but he wasnât sure what it was. A goodbye? A please fuck off forever and never contact me again?
Heâd just taken them inside. Ate too many of the cookies while feeling sorry for himself. Maybe had a glass or two of wine to compound the issue, and never, ever considered contacting you. Didnât think he could bear it if you never wanted to see him again, but he justâŚ
Well, he was drunk and alone and he missed you, and heâd rewatched all those videos he recorded a million times before when he was like this, so what was a million and one?
Itâd been the same as every time before: he smiled at the happy parts, cried at all his old wounds. Wanted to reach through the screen and strangle his past self for including that part about the blind date, because he never wanted to date anyone who wasnât you, why would he say that, felt mortified at the thought of you watching thatâ
And then there it was.
All the way at the bottom. A new video. One that hadnât been recorded by himâ
Hi, Cheol, you say, and thatâs all it takes to reduce him to a sobbing, yearning mess. Iâm not sure what to say here. I donât really record muchâsometimes for lectures when the professors are too busy, but never anything personal like this, but I watched every single one you made for me and I thought I should return the favor.
I wanted to tell you everything Iâve been up to since you left, but it hasnât been much. I got my degree. Tutored a lot in undergradâthe same thing Iâm tutoring you in now, actually. I was good at it and it felt good to have something that was mine, you know? I almost moved for grad school. Thought for a while I was going to wind up in New York, but then my parents divorced and it felt like too much, too scary, so I stayed. Kaori also stayed, so we got an apartment together. Itâs not much, definitely not as nice as your place, but itâs good enough.
I donât think I ever told you, but she was seeing a guy for a bit and he was⌠obsessed with you, to say the least. Thought you were the coolest person in the world. They arenât seeing each other anymore. Ended pretty badly, butâspeaking of which, maybe steer clear of Student Services for a while, too.
Sometimes it felt like failure that I wound up staying here. That I had scholarships from all these far-away, prestigious places and didnât take advantage of them. That I gave into my fear. And now⌠I donât know. Maybe thereâs a reason I stayed behind. Maybe thereâs a reason you ended up back here, too.
Whatever happensâI donât want you to think I still blame you. Kaori says we do the best we can with what weâve got at the time, and I understand now thatâs what you did. Even though it hurt me, you were trying to protect me. I get it now. And Iâm sorry you had to go through all of that alone. I canât imagine how hard it mustâve been to go to all these places you didnât know. To have to deal with your injury, the loss of a dream.
You said in one of your videos that you just want me to be happy, and thatâs all I want for you, too, whatever that looks like.
Hereâs my address if you ever want to come by to talk.
I love you, too.
âand then heâd been up and out the door, feeling stone cold sober, running to the front of his building to wait for his ride.
Felt like the drive took hours. Mustâve hit every red light between his apartment and yours. Took the steps two at a time just to get to your door faster.
Thereâs a man already standing outside your door when he gets there. One that looks shocked to see him, stars in his eyes, and when Seungcheol says, âOh, you must be Kaoriâs ex,â he looks more like he wants the earth to swallow him whole. Embarrassed in front of his idol.
He knocks on your door and gets no response. Knocks again, harder this time, and he has to try really hard to stifle his laughter when your voice yells from the inside, âFuck off, Kenji, I already told you sheâs not here!â
âItâs me,â Seungcheol yells back.
Thereâs quiet again. Just enough time for it to feel like his heart is going to beat right out of his chest and follow Kaoriâs ex down the hall.
Then youâre yanking the door openâslowly, so slowly, like youâre scared itâs not actually him. Your eyes are brimming with tears when they meet his own, and he doesnât let himself think, just goes on instinct, when he grabs for you, hands on your cheeks, and presses his lips to yours.
Somehow you taste the same.
Somehow you taste like redemption.
You taste like home.
Seungcheol kisses you until the tears slow. Kisses you until the universe realigns, until he could map your mouth in the dark. Kisses you until all youâre all he knows again.
When he pulls away, youâre gripping at his sweatshirt, donât want to let him go. He presses his forehead to yours, offers up a million more apologies, starts talking nonsense. Says heâs going to drop microeconomics, what the hell does he know, he barely has a passing grade anyway, what does it matter, heâs such an idiotâ
And then you say, âYou came back,â and nothing else matters.
âI always will.â
(Later on, as youâre trying to steady your breathing, slick with sweat, your thigh thrown over Seungcheolâs hip as he stares down at you, dopey smile on his face, you say, âChoi Seungcheol, donât you dare drop that class. I have worked my ass off to get you to barely-passing.â)
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Summary: The peace of quiet of your garage is only broken by the hum of machines and clanking tools, and you like it that way - until a superhero crashes his car straight into your door.
The garage hums with the familiar sounds of clanking tools and low rock music playing from your dadâs old radio, its worn dials barely holding the station through the static. The air stinks of oil and metal, a mix of grease and gasoline lingering in the corners of the shop that reminds you of home. Rusted car parts and half-disassembled engines are scattered across workbenches in an organised chaos that only someone who spends hours here could understand.
Most of the time you spend in the shop is alone â you havenât expanded enough to need to hire a second mechanic, although youâd been considering getting someone to do your telephone and books after you dropped the phone behind an engine block, trying to juggle too many things at once.
But, thatâs how you like it. Being surrounded by machines and metal brings you far more contentment than interacting with your customers â a necessity, although often a frustrating one. The beautiful complexity of the mechanisms feels like creation in your hands, the ability to mend and perfect a power usually reserved for God alone.
Something about the surety of everything having its place, and knowing what that is, brings you a solace well needed in your grungy corner of life.
Your garage sits on the edge of the city, tucked in a dodgy part of town where most people would think twice about wandering after dark. Itâs not unusual to see someone rush by with their hood up, or hear the occasional screech of tyres speeding away from something best left alone. Keeping to yourself is the chosen lifestyle here, and you are no stranger to the consequences of choosing to get involved.
Over the years, youâve managed to build yourself a reputation â not just for your skill with a wrench, but for being a place where no one asks too many questions. Youâve seen all sorts roll past: street races, ex-cons, people looking for a little discretion. You donât judge. As long as they respect the rules and pay their bill, you donât pry into their business. Itâs a system that keeps you afloat amongst an unforgiving landscape. Every time you flip the newspaper over to see another store shot up or looted, you feel even less obliged to know anything about your customers.
But, peace and quiet is never-lasting.
Youâre stuck at the bottom of a lifted car, trying to wrestle a stubborn bolt loose from the undercarriage as the high-pitched squeal of your doorbell rings out through the shop. Your hands, slick with oil, slip on the wrench and you mutter a curse under your breath.
Heavy bootsteps lumber into the shop, stopping a few feet away next to your squat wooden desk.
Finally, with a grunt of effort, the bolt loosens. It comes free with a satisfying click, and you slide out from under the car, swiping your forehead with the back of your hand. You wipe your hands on a rag, and take a quick glance out toward the street, taking in the dark, rusty tone of the early evening sky.
âHowâs she lookinâ?â A familiar, gravelly tone calls out towards you.
A lopsided smile crackles over your lips as you tilt your head with a small shrug, your gaze finally locking with the customer. âSheâs looked better â but I think you already knew that.â The car is an old classic, its parts worn and rusted like they havenât seen a proper tune-up in years.
Mr Corallo lets out a huff of laughter. His arms cross together over his broad chest, revealing a snake tattoo on his lower left forearm â a reminder to everyone of who he is loyal to, and who protects him. âYeah, alright. And youâve got a cure, doc?â
âGive me a few days and sheâll be as good as new.â You tap the hood of the car lightly with your fingertips, wiping off a speck of oil that had dripped from your shirt.
Mr Corallo nods, pulling an envelope from his jeansâ back pocket. âHalf now, half later, right?â
You give a small hum of agreement, walking around to wash your hands of the oil.
"Mr Scott thanks you for your business," Mr Corallo says, throwing the envelope down. The corners of his mouth curl up, revealing just a hint of teeth, and his eyes gleam with a dangerous glint, revelling in the uncomfortable shift in the air at the namedrop of Mr Scott.
âAlways a pleasure.â You reply with a tight-lipped smile. The invocation of Mr Scott bothered you less than it would others, but he wasnât a person you wanted to be associated too greatly with your garage. The âlawyerâ has a reputation for criminal activity more well-known than any of his actual court cases, and youâve seen the evidence of his anger splattered across the Lower South Rim back alleys. But, like many of your seedier customers, his business kept your shop out of harmâs way, and so you could get over his more displeasing mannerisms.
âOh, hey-â Just as you think heâs gone, Mr Corallo turns around one more time, his gait falling to a stop with one hand on the doorknob. â-you havenât happened to see or hear anything about that incident at Brewerâs Quarter, have ya? Mr Scottâs been interested in finding out more about what went down.â
You pause, drying your hands on the towel, careful to keep your expression neutral. The incident at Brewerâs Quarter had been all over the news â a warehouse fire, but not of the accidental variety. Word on the street was that it had been a targeted hit, a gang skirmish that went too far. Brewer's Quarter is just a few blocks over, close enough to your shop that youâd heard the sirens blaring late into the night.
You hadnât seen anything, not directly at least. Of course, there was that incident with the car, but you arenât sure that had anything to do with the fireâŚ
It was the early hours of the morning, police had scattered, the fire had been put out, and anyone involved was long clear of the area. You were walking back from the shop, having had a late night trying to sort out your accounts for the last month â a job that required at least two glasses of whiskey to get through it.
You didnât tend to stay late at the garage often, and the prospect of walking around these streets late wasnât one that sat well with anyone who knew them. But there was a shortcut to your apartment through the old dump on 64th that cut down your journey to a five-minute run, if needed.
The night air had been cool, the kind of eerie silence that clung to the aftermath of violence. You had been walking quickly, your hands shoved deep into your pockets, eyes darting around out of habit. The whiskey buzz had made the shadows seem a little more sinister than usual, but you were steady enough on your feet.
Youâd first noticed something odd when youâd reached the outer chain-link fence cornering off the dump â a faint, metallic glint, barely visible in the low light. At first, youâd assumed it was just junk, another rusted-out shell of a car left to rot. But, as you got closer, you could see the car was too new for this area, and wrecked â badly wrecked.
Instinct told you to keep moving; this kind of thing usually spelt trouble. But something about the car had caught your eye, something familiar. The lines of it were sleek, too well-crafted to be an average street racer.
You had crouched down, running your hand over the dented hood, feeling the grooves where it had clearly taken some kind of brutal impact. The whole front end was smashed in, the windshield cracked and splintered like a spider web. There were scorch marks, too, as if the car had been through a fire.
Either this carâs owner was involved in some dodgy business, or he was a terrible driver.
And then you had seen it â the unmistakable emblem, barely visible through the soot and grime. The flaming star, the symbol of the Red Comet. For the past two years, youâd seen headline after headline regaling how the Red Comet had saved the city once again, always seemingly one step ahead of the people who threatened to tear it apart. You know hardly anything about the superhero, although apparently nobody does. Even his name is a phantasm of the media, given in the aftermath of his first appearance which happened to be on the day that a red comet streaked through the sky. And this was his car.
Your heart had skipped a beat. What the hell was it doing here, and in this state?
You knew you should have walked away. But something in you just couldnât. Maybe it was curiosity, or maybe it was the whiskey making you bolder than you usually were, but you couldnât just let the car sit there. Maybe, it was your way of giving something back to the hero whoâd saved the city time and time again.
After making sure that no one was watching, youâd decided to tow it back to the garage. Youâd covered it up, keeping it out of sight, hoping that no one would come looking for it. For the next few nights, youâd worked on it in secret. The damage was extensive, but youâd seen worse. Underneath the mangled metal and burned parts, the car was a marvel of engineering. Youâd never worked on anything like it before â high-tech gadgets, reinforced steel, the king of stuff you only saw in movies. Every time you popped the hood, it felt like uncovering another layer of mystery.
Some of the damage seemed aeons old â definitely not the product of its latest encounter. The craftsmanship suggested that its owner knew his way around the car, but the lasting injuries let you know that he wasnât a trained mechanic.
You only left one trace of your involvement â a small note, scribbled on a scrap of paper and tucked neatly in the wheel well. It simply read: âFixed her up. No charge. -M.â
You figured if the Red Comet ever came back for the car, theyâd know someone had taken care of it. You hoped that the note would calm their suspicions of foul play...
âNope,â you reply to Mr Corallo, your tone light and steady. âI heard about it, like everyone else, but I was two drinks deep by the time I heard the sirens, and I wouldnât have been able to get down the stairs even if Iâd wanted to.â
Mr Corallo watches you closely for a moment, trying to gauge whether youâre telling the truth. Youâre good at this game, though; slipping in half-truths to conceal the true extent of your knowledge.
âSmart,â he says after a beat, the tension in his stance easing just a bit as he releases the door handle. âWouldnât want you getting in the middle of anything ⌠unpleasant.â
He flashes a grin, but thereâs a hint of warning behind it. You match his smile, though it doesnât quite reach your eyes. With that, he finally turns and makes his way toward the door, his boots scuffing the concrete floor. You let out a slow breath, the tension in your shoulders easing ever so slightly as he steps outside. But just before he leaves, he calls back over his shoulder one last time.
"And if you do hear anything⌠well, you know where to find us."
The door closes with a soft click, and the garage is silent again, save for the low hum of the radio.
Every bone in Lee Chanâs body aches, and heâs surprised his skin hasnât turned green and blue all over. Any little move hurts â and thatâs with days of much-needed recuperation. Groaning as he pulls himself up out of bed, he looks down to inspect the damage. A few cuts, scrapes, and bruises, and a particularly nasty swipe along his left thigh that has begun to scab over.
Chan winces as he gingerly presses his hand against the cut, the sting reminding him of just how close things had gotten. It had been a mess â a confrontation with Tempest as the Brewery Quarter. The whole thing had escalated far faster than heâd anticipated. What should have been a routine patrol had turned into a disaster as Tempest decided to unleash a barrage of electrical blasts, wrecking half the district in the process.
The fight is a blur now, fragments of shattered glass and the acrid scent of smoke lingering in his memory. Heâd been so focused on taking Tempest down that he hadnât fully realized how much damage he had taken in the process.
In the end, it was brute force and desperation that won out. He had managed to hold up the building just long enough to knock Tempest off balance, forcing the villain into retreat. But victory had been fleeting. Tempest had disappeared in the chaos, vanishing before Chan could deliver a final blow. By the time the authorities arrived, Tempest was gone, leaving behind only destruction and debris, and Chan had barely made it out himself, collapsing in a nearby alley as sirens blared in the distance. Heâd limped home under cover of darkness, his mask barely shielding him from prying eyes.
A low groan escapes him as he stretches. He limps over to the bathroom, catching a glimpse of himself in the mirror. He looks like hellâhis skin is pale, dark circles linger under his eyes, and the bruises that cover his torso are turning an ugly shade of purple. He splashes some cold water on his face, trying to wash away the fatigue, but it doesnât do much. His body is spent.
God, he needs a hobby.
A small laugh ripples through him at the thought, getting stuck painfully in his scratchy throat. Seungkwan had told him just as much last week when they finally had time to hang out.Â
"You're not talking to enough people," He'd said, and he'd been right - Chan has hardly talked to anyone as himself in days. Making quippy remarks and telling people to get out of the way isn't quite the same as having a proper conversation with a friend.
Chan towels his face and stumbles into the kitchen, brewing a pot of coffee while his mind drifts. Maybe a hobby wouldnât even help. Maybe what he really needs is to let go of the whole hero thing, at least a little. Being the Red Comet 24/7 is exhausting, and lately, it feels like it is swallowing him whole, leaving nothing for himself.
The coffee smells good, but Chan's stomach twists at the idea of caffeine. He sits at the kitchen table, cradling the warm mug in his hands but not drinking, staring blankly out the window. He canât help but wonder if next time heâll be able to handle it. Tempest is growing stronger, more reckless, and each encounter is becoming more dangerous. He doesnât know how long he can keep doing this, how many more nights his body can take the punishment.
I have to get ahead of this, he thinks, rubbing the back of his neck. Figure out where Tempest is hiding before he strikes again.
The thought of rest is tempting, but he knows there is no time for that. Not with Tempest still out there, licking his wounds and plotting his next move. Chan glances at the clock. Morning is just creeping in, but his mind is already racing through the next steps - tracking Tempest, preparing his gear, and finding his car.
The nagging feeling of unfinished business crawls under his skin. Chan hadn't had time to think about it amidst the chaos of fighting Tempest. His ride had been totalled - again - and left behind in the fray.
He stumbles over to his laptop, ignoring the stabbing pain in his thigh, and pulls up the city's traffic cams. His fingers clumsily tap at the keys as he rewinds footage from last night, scanning for any sign of the car. He remembers the last place he'd seen itâby the Brewery Quarter, just before Tempest had thrown him through a storefront.
The footage shows chaos: explosions, debris flying, panicked civilians running. For a moment, itâs overwhelmingâtoo much movement, too much destructionâbut then he spots it. His car, smashed and smoking, left abandoned next to the dump.
His stomach twists as the camera catches something else: a tow truck pulling up beside it. But not a city truck. The logo is fuzzy, and thereâs something strange about the way the driver movesâhurried, almost too careful for a standard recovery job. The truck hooks up his wrecked car and drives off, disappearing into the shadows of the industrial district.
"Who the hell�" Chan mutters to himself.
His heart races as he shuts the laptop. If heâs lucky, whoever has the car just wants to strip it for parts. If heâs not, well⌠there are people out there who would pay a fortune for the tech inside that car. And some whoâd use it for much worse.
He forces himself up, grabs his jacket, and heads out the door, ignoring the protest from his still-aching body. He knows the industrial district well enough to navigate it, even in his current state. If the car was taken there, it shouldnât be too hard to track down.
The sun is starting to set by the time he reaches the dingy outskirts of the industrial district. This part of the city is a graveyard of old factories and warehouses, the kind of place where no one asks questions. Chan walks down the narrow streets, scanning every alley and garage for a sign of his car.
Turning the corner to the large, decrepit dump, the first thing that hits him is the overwhelming stench of rust and decay. The place is a sprawling mess of discarded metal, twisted scrap, and a mountain of broken-down machinery.
But, there it is. Chan immediately spots his car nestled between two towering heaps of rusted junk. The sleek frame, now only slightly dented, stands out against the twisted metal and debris.
As he gets closer, he notices that the carâs exterior, though damaged, has been worked on. The front end, which had been complete wreck, is now at least partially repaired. Fresh metal panels have been welded on and the wiring had had once been exposed in neatly tucked away. Someoneâs been fixing it.
Chanâs mind races. Who would do this? And why?
As he begins inspecting the car, he notices a small white flap peaking out from the front-left wheel well. He's been in one too many fights to trust that pulling it out won't immediately blow him and the car up, but curiosity gets the better of him. Pulling a glove out of his backpack and creating a small blast shield from a nearby sheet of scrap metal, Chan takes a deep breath, positioning himself cautiously as he reaches out.Â
Carefully, he pulls the note free. Nothing explodes, nothing clicks ominously. The paper is crumpled and worn, as if itâs been shoved in the wheel well in a hurry. Chan straightens, exhaling the breath he didnât realize heâd been holding, and unfolds it with cautious fingers.
''Fixed her up. No charge. -M.'
Chan stares at the note, his mind racing. It still feels like a trap to him, but nothing about this situation makes sense. The repairs, the hidden noteâitâs too deliberate to be a coincidence, yet not malicious enough to feel like a typical setup. Whoever M is, they didnât just stumble upon his car. They knew exactly who it belonged to, and for some reason, theyâd chosen to help. The fact that the repairs are real, tangible, and expertly done is a gesture of⌠what? Trust? A warning? He canât decide.
He sighs and runs a hand through his hair. The car is functionalâenough to get him back on the road, at least.Â
Sliding into the driverâs seat, Chan checks the dashboard. The wiring looks as pristine as ever, the engine hums quietly when he turns the key, and though the car still bears the scars of its encounter with Tempest, itâs ready to move.
Pulling out of the dump, he glances into the rearview mirror, half-expecting someone to step out from the shadows and reveal themselves. But the place stays still, abandoned, as the setting sun casts long shadows over the heaps of twisted metal.
Between the note, the footage, and the repairs, he's got enough to work out who this mysterious mechanic is, and what they want.
Itâs about 11 pm, two weeks after you finished fixing up Mr Scottâs car, that you hear the crash.
The sound is unmistakable â the sharp screech of something heavy colliding with metal, followed by the distinct echo of glass shattering. The garage rattles slightly from the impact, and you pause mid-wrench, heart immediately kicking into overdrive.
What the hell was that?
You set down the wrench gently, wiping your hands as you strain to listen for any other signs of disturbance. The city is loud, but the crash came from too close â maybe just outside the garage. You mind runs through a quick list of possibilities: a car accident? A break-in? Something more sinister?
Instinct kicks in, and you head toward the door cautiously, flipping off the lights in the main work area to stay hidden in the shadows.
As you edge closer to the garage door, you hear another soundâa low, metallic groan followed by the clank of something heavy being dragged. Thereâs movement outside, slow and deliberate. You risk a glance through the small window in the side door and immediately spot the source.
There, just outside the window, the sleek black car that you fixed up all those days ago sits awkwardly on the side of the road, the front end crumpled around a streetlamp. The driverâs side door is hanging off its hinges. Standing next to the wreckage is a figure â tall, broad-shouldered, and wearing a long coat, their silhouette barely visible in the dim streetlight. They seem to be inspecting the damage, unfazed by the mess.
But thereâs something off about the way they move, something too calm for someone whoâs just been in a crash.
As the figure leans around the edge of the unhinged door, peering inside of the car, you realise that thatâs because they are not the one who was in the crash.
Grabbing a heavier tool from the nearby workbench, you edge towards your door, heart pounding.
The figure straightens and, as if sensing your presence, slowly turns toward the garage. Even in the dim light, you can see their eyes â cold, calculating. The figure doesnât move for a moment, just staring, and you canât tell if theyâre sizing you up or deciding whether youâre a threat.
Finally, the figure steps forward, their footsteps slow and deliberate as they close the distance to the garage door. You brace yourself, unsure if youâre about to get a question or a fight.
Then, you see something rustle from the corner of your eye. A blur, barely visible in the darkness, moves faster than you can register. One second, the mysterious figure is advancing towards the garage door, and the next, they're violently thrown back into the wreckage of the car. The sound of impact echoes through the night - metal crunching, glass shattering anew.
You blink, your heart pounding in your chest as you try to make sense of what just happened. From the shadows, another figure emerges, slightly hunched, moving with a combination of grace and exhaustion. The way they moveâthe fluidity of itâimmediately gives them away. Itâs him. The Red Comet.
He stumbles slightly, but regains his balance, turning toward the crumpled figure near the car. You can see the strain in his posture, the way his breathing is laboured. Heâs injured.
The man in the long coat struggles to his feet, groaning as he wipes a trickle of blood from the corner of his mouth. âYou think youâre so clever, donât you?â the figure sneers, pulling something from the inside of his coat. A gleam of silver flashes in the dim light.
Before you can react, the man lunges, moving with startling speed, the blade aimed straight for the superhero. You want to shout, to warn him, but it all happens too fast. The Red Comet dodges, just barely, the blade slicing through the fabric of his suit as he twists to the side. But even though he avoids a fatal blow, the movement causes him to stagger, his injuries slowing him down.
The mysterious figure presses the attack, slashing again and again with precision and fury. The Red Comet blocks and counters, but itâs clear heâs at a disadvantage. You grip the wrench tighter, your knuckles white, debating whether to rush in or stay hidden.
Before you can make your decision, the Red Comet manages to disarm the man with a swift kick, sending the blade clattering to the ground. The figure growls in frustration, throwing a wild punch, but the Red Comet catches his arm and twists, throwing him hard into the side of the car. Thereâs a sickening crunch as the manâs body slams into the metal, and he falls to the ground, unconscious.
For a moment thereâs silence. The only sound is the superheroâs ragged breathing as he stands over the fallen figure. His shoulders heave, and you can tell that every movement is causing him pain.
Then, without warning, his knees buckle, and he collapses to the ground.
âShit,â you mutter, your body moving before your mind has fully caught up. You drop the wrench and rush toward him, your pulse racing. Heâs still conscious, but barely. Up close, you can see the gash across his side, blood seeping through the torn fabric of his suit.
âHey, heyâstay with me,â you say, kneeling beside him, your voice low but urgent.
The Red Cometâs masked face tilts towards you, his breathing shallow as he tries to sit up. âIâm ⌠fine,â he manages to rasp, though the wince that follows tells you otherwise.
âYeah, sure. You look like youâre just peachy,â you mutter, glancing at the wreckage around you. âCome on, letâs get you inside before someone else shows up.â
He nods, clearly too exhausted to argue. With some effort, you manage to help him to his feet, guiding him toward the garage. He leans heavily on you, his weight almost too much to bear, but you grit your teeth and push forward. Youâre not sure how much time you have before the figure wakes upâor if theyâll wake up at allâbut right now, your focus is getting the superhero somewhere safe and outside of foreign eyes.
You heave him onto your makeshift cot, the one you use when you decide to stay in the garage overnight. He groans as he lies back, and you can see the toll the fight has taken on him now under the garage lights â bruises, cuts, and that deep slash across his side thatâs still bleeding.
"I'm going to grab a first aid kit," you say, your tone more commanding now that the adrenaline is kicking in. "Don't move."
He doesn't seem to be in any state to do so anyway.
You grab the kit and hurry back, your hands surprisingly steady as you kneel beside him. "Alright, I'm going to have to cut the side of your shirt away." You say, looking up at the masked face for confirmation. But, nothing comes. Moving forward, you realise that he's completely out cold, his breathing shallower than it should be. You know you need to patch up the wound before he loses too much blood.
Taking care to avoid causing more harm, you gently cut away the fabric of his suit. The fabric peels back to reveal the deep gash along his sideâangry and red, still oozing blood. Your heart pounds, but your hands remain steady. Youâve dealt with injuries before - though, usually your own.
Working quickly, you clean the wound, wincing as you realise how deep it really is. This isnât good. The gash will need stitches, but thereâs no time for that now. You press a gauze pad against the wound to stem the bleeding, your mind racing.
"Stay with me," you mutter under your breath, wrapping a bandage tightly around his torso to hold the gauze in place. "Iâm not letting you die on my cot."
Once the wound is secure, you check his pulseâfaint, but there. The manâs been through hell, and whatever fight he was in tonight clearly pushed him to the brink. You canât help but wonder how often this happens. How many times has he barely made it out alive?
You glance up at his masked face, wondering who exactly is lying before you. Thereâs the urge to check, the man completely vulnerable to you, but you think better of it. What would be the point of knowing anyway? It would just bring you more trouble.
You sit back on your heels, a shaky sigh of disbelief exiting your body. For now, he seems stable, but you know heâll need more help than you can provide tonight. In the morning, youâll redress the wounds and take him over to a hospital, if he wants.
You grab two blankets from underneath your desk, draping one over the suited man. Dropping a spare pillow down on the floor beside him, you make sure that youâre close enough that youâll wake up if his condition gets dramatically worse. The floor is cold and hard, but the exhaustion hits you as the adrenaline drains from your body, and you fall into a dreamless sleep, your mind still half-occupied with thoughts of the masked hero bleeding out in your garage.
It takes Chan a whole minute after waking up to work out where he is. All of his instincts tell him to run, to get out quickly and quietly before anyone finds him, but the pain in his torso when he squeaks even an inch is enough to keep him bedbound.
Touching his hand to the wound, he feels the soaked-through gauze. Thatâs going to need replacing.
His hands trail up, confused at the suffocating stuffiness that labours his face. He quickly notes the cause â his mask is still on. You didnât take it off last night, and heâs suddenly very grateful for the stuffiness.
Twisting his head to the side, careful not to strain himself any more than necessary, he spots you.
Youâre slumbering next to him, your back crooked at an awkward angle from sleeping on the floor. Oil and grease still stain your skin and shirt, the liquids mixing with a darker substance â his blood â on your hands and wrists.
Chan can barely recollect what happened last night. He remembers being chased down, and not knowing where to go. He remembers typing something in the navigation pad and your shop being the first thing to come up. He remembers getting stabbed, you helping him in here, and nothing more.
Letting out a small sigh, he canât believe that he actually came here. It was a reckless move that not only relied on an unknown personâs charity, but also put you in danger. It had been stupid and, more than that, selfish.
Yet, heâd made the right call. Anyone else could have left him to bleed out on the sidewalk, shut up their doors and windows and ignored him entirely. But youâd helped him, patched him up, and given up your bed to allow him to rest.
Chan isnât sure the last time someone else had done so much for him.
A low groan escapes his lips as he tries to adjust himself slightly, wincing from the sharp pain that shoots through his torso. He catches his breath, forcing himself to stay still, even though every fibre of his being wants to push through the pain and figure out what to do next.
"Alright, Chan, just move carefully," he mutters under his breath, trying to psych himself up. Gritting his teeth, he gently pulls himself into a sitting position, groaning as the movement aggravates his injury. Every breath feels like fire in his ribs.
Before he can do much else, you stir slightly, blinking groggily as you wake. You stretch your arms and rub your eyes, clearly disoriented. It takes you a second to remember where you are, and then your gaze locks onto Chan.
"You're awake," you mumble, pushing yourself off the floor with a grunt. "And sitting up? Thatâs ambitious."
Chan gives a half-hearted chuckle, though it turns into more of a pained exhale. "Yeah, well, I thought Iâd try not to bleed all over your place anymore."
You shake your head, already reaching for the first aid kit on the nearby table. "You shouldâve woken me up. That wound needs fresh bandages."
âI didnât want to disturb you,â he replies, feeling overwhelmed by your instinct to help. âYouâve done enough already.â
You pause, glancing at him as you grab the supplies. The look in your eyes makes him feel like a child again, shivering at the intensity of your gaze. âYou must be my worst patient â the cars never try to leave in the middle of being fixed.â
Chan watches you work as you kneel beside him, carefully unwrapping the soaked gauze. Your movements are precise, steady, but thereâs a certain gentleness there too. It strikes him how unphased you are by all of this. He shivers as your hands ghost over his obliques, careful not to irritate the damaged tissues.Â
As the gauze comes off, you let out a little hum of confusion, tilting your head. Chan looks down, and understands your surprise. The cut, which had been deep and angry last night, is now scarred and blistering, not fully healed but significantly better than it should be.
You pull back slightly, your brows furrowing in confusion. âIâm no doctor, but thatâs not normal,â you murmur, eyes flicking between him and the nearly healed wound.
Chan shifts uncomfortably under your gaze, trying to come up with a reasonable explanation. Heâs always kept his abilities under wraps, never letting anyone else get close enough to notice the odd things that happen to his body â especially when heâs injured. But here you are, kneeling beside him, piecing things together faster than heâs ready for.
âYeah ⌠itâs ⌠complicated,â he stutters. âI heal quickly. Doesnât help much with the pain, though.â
You blink at him, clearly processing what youâre seeing. âSo this is ⌠normal for you?â
Chan shrugs, wincing as the motion pulls at his side. âSort of. Part of the whole... superhero thing.â
Your eyes narrow a bit, but you donât press him. Instead, you shake your head and return to reapplying fresh gauze. âWell, whateverâs going on, itâs saving me a lot of work,â you joke, though your voice is tinged with curiosity.
He lets out a low chuckle, though thereâs still tension in his voice. âI guess so.â
When youâre done, you sit back on your heels and meet his gaze. âYou really should rest more,â you say softly, the concern in your voice genuine. âEven if you heal fast, pushing yourself like this is ... well, it's a bad idea.â
Chan nods, knowing youâre right but unwilling to admit just how much heâs been pushing himself. âIâll try,â he says, offering a half-smile.
âGood,â you reply, standing up and brushing the dust off your knees. âAnd when youâre ready, maybe you can tell me more about whatâs going on."
He looks at you, the weight of the situation bearing down on him. The last thing he needs is to bring someone else into his mess, but after crashing (literally) on your doorstep and bleeding all over your floor, he supposes that he probably owes you some explanation.
"Yeah," he murmurs, "I can do that."
You seem satisfied, and start to walk back over to your desk, pulling out a rusty, old kettle and a bottle of long-life milk. After a moment, you notice him looking at you, and quirk an eyebrow. "Still awake?"
A small laugh reverberates through his chest as he feels himself being pulled back into the darkness of slumber.Â
By the time that the superhero reawakens, youâve achieved a number of things. After making yourself a cup of very strong coffee, tidying up your sleeping nest, and checking that heâs still alive, you descended into a deep panic, and then you solved it.
The events of last night had been freaky, although it isnât unusual for crashes or violence to populate your area. But something about the way that man had moved, the look in his eye, had put you on edge. And now, you have a banged-up superhero sleeping in your garage, who can apparently heal himself at an extraordinary rate. The whole situation feels like being dragged into something you donât understand or have the ability to deal with.
The one thing you are certain of, however, is that you feel better for helping him.
The weariness in his voice, the untrusting flinch of his body â it all spoke to a man who knew loneliness as well as you did. And even if he could have survived without your help, there is a level of satisfaction in knowing that youâve done something for someone else; someone who isnât a crime boss or gang leader.
After deciding that youâd actually dragged yourself into this mess, and that you had to stick with your decision, you felt a level of calm.
Youâd spent the morning repairing the Red Cometâs car for the second time, wincing every time you saw your previous alterations damaged by the impact of last night. The collision with the lamppost had been particularly harmful to the car, and you realise that youâre going to need access to the superheroâs technology to be able to have a chance at fixing the complex mechanisms fitted under the hood.
By midday, the Red Comet stirs again. For a moment, as he reorientates himself, you sit in comfortable silence, the noise of the city outside barely filtering in. It feels a little odd to have someone else here. Usually, the garage is your sanctuary â your place to escape everything and everyone. Yet, having him here, even in his battered state, doesnât feel like an intrusion.
Eventually, he breaks the silence. âI, uh ⌠I guess I owe you an explanation.â His voice is rough, although less than it had been this morning, and it has a softer quality to it that you arenât expecting.
You nod but keep quiet, letting him decide when to speak.
âI donât normally ask for help,â he admits. âBut I didnât really have a choice last night.â
You watch him carefully. Thereâs something raw about him, something that feels more human than the stories youâve heard. Right now, heâs not really a superhero â heâs a man, wounded, worn out, and trying to hold it all together.
âWell, you found the right place,â you reply, keeping your tone light. âI guess you found my note?â
His head snaps up, and although you canât see his expression well through the mask, you think that he looks a little shocked. His gaze darts over to the car, now suspended in the garage, and back over to you.
âI did,â he nods, holding back from telling you too much.
When he doesnât say any more, you sigh, wringing out your frustrations on a damp cloth. âLook, I know you probably just want to leave. I also know that Iâm basically a stranger to you. So, Iâm not going to force you to tell me more than you want to. But, some guarantee that this isnât going to come down on my head would be appreciated.â
His head falls slightly at your words, a tired sigh echoing through the room. âI â I canât guarantee that. I shouldnât have gotten you involved at all, but now you are, and I canât promise that nothing will happen.â
You feel your heart drop a little as your concerns are confirmed. You know that what heâs saying is correct, and that youâd expected it, but it still strikes fear through you to hear it put so plainly.
Before you can say anything further, the Red Comet pushes himself up from the bed, wobbling onto his feet. This pushes you a little too far.
âNope. Stop. Youâre not going anywhere. You donât have to tell me whatâs going on, but Iâm not going to let you limp out of here and collapse two blocks down.â You grimace, your voice forceful and commanding.
He looks surprised that youâre stopping him. A moment passes between you, tension thick in the air, as you wonder if heâs going to push past you anyway. You know that heâs far stronger than you, even in his weakened state, and that he could leave any time he wants to. But he sits back down, a breath of relief releasing as he takes the weight off of his feet.
Another moment passes and he looks back over to the car. âItâs pretty bad, right?â
You nod. âAbout the same as you, Iâd say.â
The superhero huffs a laugh, but the sound is strained and weak.
âLook, thereâs a sink over there with some towels, and I can leave some water and food out for you to eat. Iâm just going to go over to the shop to grab some extra supplies for my first aid kit, but no one will see if you want to take off the mask and get some air.â You explain, pulling a bottle of water out of the mini fridge next to your sink.
He seems apprehensive, until you pull up a chair. âYou can sit on this â donât strain that cut any more than you need.â
With that, you march out of the garage, grateful for the fresh air yourself. Youâre not sure if heâll take up your offer, or if, by the time you get back, heâll be gone again. Either way, itâll be his choice.
 Two days later, your garage is still shut.
Youâve had to make far too many phone calls to concerned customers asking why the doors werenât open when theyâd driven by, and when youâd next be open. News of the crash had spread quickly around this part of town, and that has given you an easy cover for your current closure. The repairs needed after your shop front was damaged mixed with the emotional toll of the crash happening so close to you becomes the perfect excuse.
In reality, you and the Red Comet had been working on his car. After doing the basic repairs, the superhero had returned to his place and brought back the technology he used to supe up the vehicle, and youâd spiralled into mechanical heaven. The gadgets were like nothing youâd ever seen before, and your mind was spinning with ideas of other ways you could use them in your shop.
Every now and then, the Red Comet would slip some more details into the conversation, slowly letting you in on the knowledge of what is happening in the city, and the threats heâs currently trying to tide. But it is a slow process, and you are still more in the dark than in the light.
Nevertheless, you have to admit that youâve enjoyed the company. Contrary to his first impression, the superhero is chatty, having opinions on everything from the condition of the cityâs transportation infrastructure to the performance of the Southville Stormriders in the upcoming championship. As his body heals, his spirit follows in suit, becoming more lively with every conversation. He has the aura of a kid forced to grow up too quickly, but you can tell that whatever passion and zest for life got him into the superhero gig still exists within him.
And heâs funny, which shocked you at first. He makes you laugh in a way that you havenât experienced since your father passed, and the joviality is much appreciated in contrast to the looming fear that someoneâs out for you.
You still havenât seen under the mask, although he came back in normal clothes â a white tank under a black jacket, dark jeans, and heavy boots. Today, his face has been hidden behind a balaclava and chunky vizor glasses.
Youâre working on the undercarriage of his car, lying side by side beneath it. You hand him a wrench, the sound of metal scraping against metal filling the small space between you. The work is a little tedious, but satisfying, especially with the challenge of integrating his advanced tech back into the framework. Itâs the kind of hands-on talk youâve always loved.
âPass me the torque wrench?â His voice is muffled by the balaclava, but you can hear the concentration in his tone.
You hand it over, your fingers brushing lightly against his gloved hand. Itâs the closest youâve been to him since this whole thing started, and thereâs an odd comfort in the proximity. Youâve spent more time together in the last few days than you have with anyone in the past year, and the easy companionship is something you didnât realise you were missing.
"Itâs getting warm under here," he mutters after a while, loosening the final bolt on the undercarriage.
You glance at him and nod. The garage has become a furnace with the afternoon sun bearing down on the metal roof. Sweat is starting to bead on your forehead, and you can only imagine how hot it must be for him with the extra layers.
He shifts beneath the car and pulls off his jacket, tossing it aside. Beneath, the white tank top clings to his toned arms and chest, the fabric stained with grease. His arms are littered with scars â some fresh, some old. You try to focus on the work, but itâs hard to ignore the way his muscles flex as he reaches for the next tool.
"So, how exactly does this tech work?" you ask, trying to distract yourself and also genuinely curious. "Itâs like nothing Iâve seen before."
He chuckles, wiping his brow with the back of his hand. "Itâs⌠complicated. But I can walk you through it if you want. Itâs mostly about energy efficiencyâgetting more out of less, that kind of thing."
You raise an eyebrow. "Sounds useful. Ever thought about putting this stuff on the market? You could make a fortune."
His smile falters for a second, and he glances away. "Not really. Thereâs too much risk. The wrong people get their hands on this tech, and it could be dangerous."
You nod, understanding the weight of what heâs saying. "Fair enough," you say, going back to the bolts. "I guess weâll just have to make sure it stays in the right hands, then."
His gaze lingers on you for a moment longer before he nods. "Yeah. We will."
For a while, the two of you work in comfortable silence, the steady rhythm of the tools and the soft hum of the city outside the garage filling the space. Every now and then, you share a joke or a story, the conversation easy and unhurried. You realize that, despite everything, this feels ⌠normal.
The sun begins to dip below the horizon, casting long shadows across the garage. The temperature drops slightly, but the warmth of the day's work lingers in the air. You sit up, stretching your arms above your head, feeling the satisfying ache of a job well done.
"That should do it," you say, wiping your hands on a rag. "Sheâs ready to go."
You can see the balaclava shift as a grin appears on the superheroâs face. âThanks. I couldnât have done it without you.â Thereâs a sincerity to his voice that makes you feel like his words are about more than just the car.
âYou probably could have,â you admit, with a teasing smile. You offer him a hand. âBut Iâm glad you didnât.â
He takes your hand, his grip firm but not overpowering, and pulls himself to his feet. For a moment, as your hands connect through the gloves, you wonder what his life is like outside of this â what he does when heâs not saving the world or fighting villains. You wonder who it is behind that mask, and if heâs ever wanted a normal life, away from all of this.
But you donât ask. Youâre not sure youâre ready for those answers, if he would even be willing to give them. Thereâs something nice about the mystery â something comforting in not knowing everything.
"Drinks on me?" you offer, grabbing a couple of beers from the mini-fridge in the corner of the garage.
He hesitates for a second before nodding. "Yeah. That sounds good."
The two of you sit down, you on your makeshift bed and him on the hood of the car, facing opposite directions to allow him to drink comfortably. You take a sip of your beer, the cool liquid a welcome relief after the heat of the day. For a moment, everything feels stillâquiet. Almost peaceful.
"Thanks for letting me lay low here," he says after a while, his voice sincere.
You have to stop yourself from glancing around at him, surprised at the weight in his tone. âAnytime. If you ever want to give up the superhero gig, Iâd pay to have another set of hands around here.â
He chuckles softly, the low sound reverberating through you. âYou wouldnât want the business Iâd bring.â
You shrug, a smile breaking across your face. âEh, Iâm not interested in what baggage you have. Iâm really only about the money.â
A full, hearty laugh escapes him, and you feel warmed by the noise. Â
âYou know,â you say, leaning back onto your hands, âIâve always wondered what itâs like. Being out there, doing what you do.â
He doesnât answer right away, and for a moment, you think youâve overstepped. But then he sighs, the sound heavy with the weight of a thousand unspoken thoughts.
âItâs complicated,â he finally says. âPeople think itâs all glory and heroics. A sort of celebrity lifestyle â free things, all the attention you could want, as friends or more. But most of the time itâs just ⌠messy. You make decisions in the heat of the moment, and you hope youâre doing the right thing, but thereâs always a cost, and sometimes, you donât know if it was worth it until itâs too late.â
You feel your heartstrings tug at his answer. The idea of being a superhero always seems so black and white â good versus evil, right versus wrong. But you can see how every choice would have a consequence, and one that everyone else would have an opinion on. Given that, you admire that heâs stuck with it for so long.
âAnd I guess with your identity hidden you donât get to reap those benefits very much.â
âWellâŚâ He starts, and you can hear the grin in his voice. You let out a bark of laughter at the implication. âBut actually, no, not really. Friends are a bit of a luxury when everyone you know is put in danger just by knowing you. The free doughnuts from Jupiterâs are pretty sweet though.â
âAhh, a man with good taste,â you hum, nodding your head in agreement.
âI almost considered doing a sponsorship with them,â he chuckles.
âDo you ever wish you could just ... walk away from it all?â You ask, the question slipping out before you can stop it.
âSometimes,â he answers, not seeming bothered. âBut itâs not that simple. Once youâre in, youâre in. Thereâs always something more, someone else who needs saving. And if Iâm not there to stop it ⌠who will be?â
You nod to yourself, understanding the weight of that responsibility even if youâve never carried it yourself. âThatâs a hell of a burden for one person to bear.â
A beat passes before he responds. âItâs the life I chose. Or maybe it chose me. Either way, itâs mine.â
Youâre about to respond when a sharp pinging sound cuts through the quiet. You spin round, confused at the origin of the noise, and see the Red Comet pull out a burner phone from his pocket, glancing down at the screen. The balaclava scrunches up as something in his face ticks.
âIâve gotta go,â he says, standing up and moving towards the car door with one quick motion.
You feel the weight of your aloneness before heâs even left, but you just say: âOkay, be safe.â
The superhero stalls for a second, and you can feel his gaze lingering on you through the mask. Then, he nods a quick goodbye, dashing into the car and slipping into the night.
Your words have been echoing in Chanâs head all week.
Well, that whole conversation has. Youâd asked him if heâd walk away from it all, and he had almost said yes. Youâd asked him what it was like to be him, and heâd almost asked you if you wanted to find out. And youâd offered him something â a job, an escape, companionship.
Those are the words heâs thought the most about: âIâm not interested in what baggage you haveâ.
Youâd said it so casually, like it was just part of the joke, but heâd felt it in his soul. The uninhibited acceptance of everything he is and has, the knowledge that a life around him could never be one of safety â it didnât seem to matter to you.
It is that simplicity that tugs at him the most. You didnât want anything from him, didnât expect him to be more than what he is. And for someone who has lived his life under the pressure of constant expectations, that is a gift he hadnât realised heâs been longing for.
When heâd woken up after that fight at the chemical factory, the night that he left you, the first thing heâd done was reach for his phone. For once, it wasnât to check on the cityâs news feed or get updates from the fiend. He hadnât texted his informants or checked in with any of the underground sources he kept tabs on. Instead, heâd messaged Seungkwan.
Heâd texted him out of the blueâno preamble, no explanationâjust a simple: Hey, you free to hang out this week? It had been too long since heâd allowed himself to do something normal, something that didnât involve running across rooftops or dodging bullets.
Seungkwan had responded almost immediately, and theyâd planned to meet up at a quiet cafĂŠ on the edge of town.
Now, here, with his friend, Chan finally lets himself relax. As Seungkwan launches into another exaggerated story about his latest antics, Chan doesnât once think about putting on the mask.
Seungkwan is mid-sentence, hands flying animatedly through the air as he recounts yet another ridiculous moment from his week.
"...and then I swear, the cat somehow managed to lock me out of my own apartment. I'm standing there, in the hallway, keys in hand, and all I can think is, 'Is this really my life now?'"
Chan canât help but laugh â the kind of laughter that feels good, deep, and unburdened. He hadnât realised how much heâd missed this, the simple joy of sitting across from a friend, talking about nothing and everything all at once.
Seungkwan grins, leaning back in his chair. âSee, this is why you need me in your life, Chan. To remind you that no matter how crazy things get, at least youâre not getting outsmarted by a house cat."
Chan shakes his head, still chuckling. âMaybe if you let it outside once in a while, it wouldnât hate you so much.â
His friend gasps, an overexaggerated, sprawling exclamation. âIf you want him to get hit by a car and die, just say so.â Seungkwan crosses his arms in front of his chest, pouting out his lips.
âAt least then youâll be able to get inside your house,â Chan replies, unable to keep the smile off of his face at the horrified look that crosses his friendâs features.
âYouâre incorrigible,â Seungkwan sulks.
There is a moment of comfortable silence between them, the kind that only comes from years of friendship. Seungkwanâs face softens into something more serious, a tender look in his eye.
âYouâve been busy,â he says. âI havenât seen you in, what? A month? Two?â
âSomething like that,â Chan admits, leaning back in his chair. âThings have been hectic.â
Seungkwan raises an eyebrow. âHectic? Iâm guessing thatâs code for âIâve been running myself into the ground againâ?â
Chan grimaces. Seungkwan has always been able to read him like a book, even when he himself wasnât sure how to explain things.
âYou could say that,â He finally replies, his voice quieter now.
Seungkwan leans forward, his expression softening. "You know, you donât always have to be âon,â right? Itâs okay to take a break every now and then. Hell, you deserve it more than anyone I know."
Chan sighs, running a hand through his hair. "Itâs not that simple. Thereâs always something. And if Iâm not thereâŚ"
"If youâre not there, the world wonât end," Seungkwan cuts in, his tone firm but kind. "Youâre not a machine, Chan. You canât keep going like this forever. At some point, you have to take care of yourself too."
Chan looks down at his hands, the weight of his friendâs words settling over him. It isnât that he doesnât know Seungkwanâs rightâitâs that he doesnât know how to stop. Being the Red Comet has become so much a part of who he is that the thought of walking away, even for a little while, feels impossible.
But then he thinks about youâabout the quiet moments in your garage, the way youâd offered him something without asking for anything in return. And for the first time in a long time, he wonders if maybe, just maybe, thereâs a way to find some balance.
âI met someone,â Chan blurts before he can stop himself.
Seungkwanâs eyebrows shoot up. "Oh? Now this is interesting."
âItâs not like that,â Chan says quickly, though he isnât entirely sure what it is like. âItâs just ⌠theyâve been helping me out. And they said something thatâs been sticking with me.â
Seungkwan tilts his head, waiting for him to continue.
âThey said they werenât interested in my baggage,â Chan murmurs, almost bashful to say it too loudly. âLike it didnât matter. Like I could just ⌠be there without all the weight of everything else.â
Seungkwan leans back, crossing his arms. âSounds like someone who just likes you for you.â
âYeah,â Chan whispers, surprised by how much that realisation has hit him.
âAnd that scares the hell out of you, doesnât it?â Seungkwan adds with a knowing smirk.
Chan canât help but laugh softly, shaking his head. âI canât drag anyone else into this â I feel bad enough that you know.â
Seungkwanâs smile softens. âLook, Chan, whoever this person is, they sound good for you. Donât let that slip away because youâre too scared to let them in.â
He wants to push back, argue that you deserve better, it wouldnât be safe, but the truth is that youâre already involved. That the shadow of the Red Comet had already eclipsed you and youâd embraced it. And that scares him more than anything else.
The garage is dim, the overhead lights casting long shadows across the tools and scattered car parts. The air smells of oil and metal, and Chan can hear the soft hum of the city outside â far enough away to feel distant but close enough that the noise never truly stops. He understands why you like this place so much.
Tonight, heâd come without the excuse of his car. He feels a little bit embarrassed that the thought of visiting you without a clear reason is making him so nervous, but if you suspected his real reason for being here, you didnât let on.
Instead, heâs helping you with a different car, and youâre teaching him more basic repairs that he can do to his own vehicle when it inevitably gets scuffed up again. The implication is that then heâll need to use your services less, but Chanâs far less interested in that.
Youâre standing behind him, your hands resting over his, guiding him as he grips the wrench, showing him how to loosen a particularly stubborn bolt. âHere, let me show you. Itâs all in the wrist.â
âAm I bad at this?â He asks, puzzled as the bolt doesnât move despite the extra force he puts through it.
You chuckle, taking the wrench from him. âBad? No. Just hopeless, I think.â
He laughs, watching you remove the rusted bolt, his gaze shifting between the tools in your hands and the subtle way your brow furrows when youâre focused.
âYouâre awfully quiet tonight,â you say, pulling him out of his thoughts. âUsually I canât get you to shut up about how Iâm using the wrong size socket.â
Chan huffs a soft laugh at the absurd suggestion that he knows more about mechanics than you. You seem to have a way with the tools, the cars, the entire garage, that makes it all look effortless. Thereâs a confidence in the way you move, a fluidity to how you handle even the most rusted, stubborn parts, and Chan finds himself mesmerized by it. âIâm not always lecturing you.â
âOh, please. Iâve had more mechanical critiques from you than my old boss did.â
He grins, though it doesnât quite reach his eyes. âWell, Iâm just trying to make sure you donât blow anything up.â
You tilt your head, narrowing your eyes playfully. âThat sounds like a challenge.â
The low hum of the radio fills the quiet of the garage as you work. Suddenly, a voice crackles through the local news, catching your attention:
âAnother power outage struck the East Side last week, with authorities pointing to the recent attacks on the cityâs power grid. Though no group has claimed responsibility, speculation points to the villain known as Tempest.â
Chan feels himself tightening a bolt with a little more force than necessary as the report continues:
âSources close to the investigation say the damage could take weeks to repair, and citizens are growing increasingly concerned about the cityâs ability to handle these incidents. Vigilante Red Comet was spotted at the scene of the attack, but the damage seems to have eclipsed even his abilities.â
Thereâs a beat of silence as he grabs a wrench off of the bench, before setting it down with a sigh. âWe should talk about it.â
You sit up, brushing your hands on your coveralls. âTempest?â you reply, more softly now. He sits up too, his back against the carâs wheel, gaze distant.
âYeah,â Chan replies, his voice dropping. âItâs getting worse. Heâs not just causing chaos anymore. Heâs targeting the cityâs infrastructure. Power plans, grids, anything thatâll knock out a large portion of the city. The hit on the east sideâit was a disaster. People are starting to panic.â
âJesus. Why? What does he want?â
Chan runs a hand through his hair, frustration etched into every line of his face. âHeâs ⌠unstable. I think he just thrives on destruction. Thereâs no rhyme of reason with him. Heâs got power, and he wants to show it. Or, at least, thatâs how itâs always been with him. Recently, heâs felt more calculated, like thereâs something new at play.â
You nod, your face thoughtful. âYou think heâs working with someone else?â
âMaybe,â He shrugs. âI can think of a few people who would profit from issues with the city grid.â
Your eyebrows shoot up, and you look like youâve just had a realisation. Chanâs fingers tap the metal beside him, his adrenaline shooting up at the suggestion of new information. âSo can I.â You say, slowly getting up from your seat on the floor.
âI have a few regulars that come by the store, less than clean people, if Iâm being honest. They donât tend to bother me much, but recently Mr Scottâs people have been coming around more than usual, and they were asking about you.â
Chan's eyes narrow at the mention of Mr Scott. The tension in his jaw is unmistakable, and his fingers curl into a fist by his side. "Scottâs people have been around here? Asking about me?" His voice is low, dangerous. He doesnât like that youâre in the middle of this, that youâre even saying the name of a man heâs been trying to avoid for as long as he can remember.
You nod, your expression cautious. âYeah, it was subtle at first. Just questions about who comes in, what work Iâve been doing lately, but the last time they came, they dropped your name. They didnât ask directly, but it was clear they were fishing for information.â
Chanâs breath hitches. He pushes himself up from the ground, pacing slightly, his mind racing. âThatâs not good. Scottâs been trying to get a foothold in the cityâs underbelly for years, but if heâs working with TempestâŚâ He trails off, the weight of the implication hanging in the air.
âAnd you? Where do you fit into all this? Why are they after you?â
His head hangs back, staring at the ceiling for a long moment. âIâm the only one standing between them and control. Tempest sees me as the only real threat to his chaos, and Scott... well, Scott doesnât like people he canât control. Heâs offered deals, threatened me, tried to recruit me. But Iâm too unpredictable for him.â
Thereâs a heaviness to his words that makes you pause. âSo thatâs it? They want you gone because youâre the last line of defence.â
He nods, eyes closed. âIf I slip up, if I lose... the city falls apart.â
You let out a low whistle, trying to break the tension. âNo pressure, then.â
Chan smiles faintly, but the weight of it is crushing him. âYeah, no pressure.â
âYou know,â you say, nudging his knee with your foot, âfor a guy who spends his nights punching villains and saving the city, youâre pretty bad at explaining the whole âheroâ thing. No flashy speeches, no dramatic pauses. Iâm almost disappointed.â
He snorts, feeling the pressure draining from his body, just slightly. âYeah, well, I didnât get the âhow to be a superheroâ handbook.â
You raise an eyebrow. âClearly. Maybe I should write it for you. Chapter one: How to Not Get Stabbed.â
Chan chuckles, the sound rough but genuine, and the tension eases. Your teasing banter cuts through the weight of everything, pulling him back to the present, away from the looming threats of Tempest and Scott. He looks at you, really looks at you, and thereâs something about the way youâre sitting there, so calm and grounded despite everything heâs just told you, that makes his heart skip a beat.
Heâs always admired your strength, the way you handle yourself in situations that would break most people. But now, sitting here with you, thereâs something moreâsomething deeper that heâs been trying to ignore for too long. The way your eyes light up when you tease him, the subtle curve of your smile as you try to lighten the mood, even though you know how dangerous things have become.
His chest tightens, a sense of longing creeping in before he can stop it. God, how did I let it get this far? Heâs been trying so hard to keep you at armâs length, to convince himself that this was just a friendship, that you were just a part of his life he could protect from a distance. But sitting here with you now, he canât deny it anymore. He feels somethingâsomething strong, something that terrifies him.
âYou know,â you continue, leaning back and giving him a grin that makes his heart race, âIâm thinking of starting a new side hustle â PR for superheroes. I can make you look all mysterious and broody, like the cityâs very own shadowy protector.â
He shakes his head, trying to ignore the flutter in his chest. This is dangerous. Not the banter, not the situation with Scott or Tempest, but thisâthis closeness, this pull he feels toward you. He wants to reach out, to close the gap between you, to tell you whatâs been gnawing at him for weeks. But the thought of dragging you deeper into his world stops him cold.
You have no idea how much danger youâre already in just by being near him. If Scott or Tempest found out how much you meant to him ⌠the thought sends a wave of fear crashing over him. He canât let that happen.
He feels you watching him, your smile fading slightly as you sense his inner turmoil. âHey,â you say, your voice softer now, more serious. âYou okay?â
Chan nods, forcing a smile, but it doesnât reach his eyes. âYeah, Iâm fine.â
But you donât buy it. âYou know, you can talk to me, right? You donât always have to be the tough guy. I mean, I know youâve got the whole hero complex thing going on, but Iâm not going anywhere.â
He swallows hard, your words hitting him like a punch to the gut. Iâm not going anywhere. Thatâs what scares him. Because the more you stay, the more you get involved, the harder itâll be to keep you safe.
You are halfway through reorganising your toolbox when you hear it â a heavy, deliberate knock on the garage door. Thereâs something about it, the measured calm, that instantly raises your hackles. You look around, and realise that the noise of your work and the bright lights above your head are dead giveaways that youâre still in the garage.
Itâs not long before the knock comes again, and you get the sense that the third time wonât be so polite.
Swearing under your breath, you straighten up, trying to look as menacing as possible. You walk towards your door, not bothering to temper the sound of your footsteps. Your boots make a deliberate, echoing thud with each step as the tension in the room increases.
You yank the door open, not wanting to give whoeverâs on the other side the satisfaction of forcing their way in. Two hulking figures fill the frame, their shadows stretching ominously into the garage. Their suits strain at the shoulders, muscles rippling beneath as they size you up. The one in front leans in slightly, his eyes cold and calculating.
â(Y/n),â he drawls, his voice a low rumble. âWe need to have a word.â
The sound of your name rolling off his tongue makes your stomach twist, but you keep your expression hard, unflinching. Crossing your arms, keeping your stance wide and shoulders square, you look up and down at the man. âFunny. Iâm not in the business of chit-chat. What do you want?â
The response doesnât seem to satisfy them, and the next thing you know, youâre being hoisted up, your arms and legs swinging around furiously as the two men move you inside the garage, placing you down your desk chair.
The edge of your chair digs into your back as they force you into the center of the room. For a moment, panic surges, your heart hammering in your chest. Your breaths come quick and shallow, but then you see him.
The man from the crash steps into the light, his coat swaying slightly with each step as his eyes bore into yours, and the sight of him makes your blood run cold. His smile is familiar, twisted with cruelty, and it sends a wave of nausea through you. The two goons stand like statues beside you, blocking any potential escape route. You force yourself to stay calm, but the icy grip of fear claws at your chest.
âItâs nice to see you again, (Y/n).â He says smoothly, his voice laced with mockery. âDidnât think Iâd be back so soon, but it seems youâve gotten yourself mixed up in something ⌠unfortunate, and Mr Scott doesnât like his pets to disobey his orders.â He stops just in front of you, towering over where you sit, pinned by his presence.
You grit your teeth, struggling to keep your emotions in check. Rage simmers beneath the surface, but your heart is still racing. âIf youâve come for more trouble, youâre going to regret it,â you spit out, your voice sharp despite the tremor you feel inside. You flick your gaze toward the two muscle-bound men, wondering how quickly you can move if this gets ugly.
The man in the coat laughs, a sound that chills you to the bone. âOh, I think itâs you whoâs going to regret it, sweetheart.â He leans in closer, his breath brushing against your cheek. âYouâve made some... interesting friends lately. Friends like the Red Comet. And thatâs got Mr. Scott very curious. He doesnât like being curious.â
Your stomach drops.
âI fix cars,â you say flatly, keeping your eyes trained in front of you. âWhoever walks through that door looking for a tune-up isnât my business. Now unless youâve got something that needs fixing, get out of my shop.â
The man straightens up, his smile fading as he gestures to the two goons. âSearch the place.â They donât hesitate, immediately scattering toward your workbench and tool racks, tearing through the space without any regard for your belongings.
You try to keep your breathing steady, but your mind races. If they find anything â any trace of the tech that linked you to the Red Comet â it could be the end for you.
âStop!â you shout, jerking forward, but the goon behind you grabs your arm, yanking you back into the chair. Pain lances through your shoulder, and you twist against his grip, muscles straining, but heâs too strong.
âYouâve made this harder than it had to be,â the man in the coat says, stepping forward, his voice a mockery of sympathy. âBut all we need are answers. Tell us what we want, and weâll leave you in one piece.â
Your pulse races as you glance around, weighing your options. The tools are scattered across the floor, too far to reach easily. You know how to fight, but outnumbered three to one, itâs going to be a challenge. The man in the coat watches you closely, as if waiting for you to make a move.
The sound of metal clattering to the floor grabs everyoneâs attention. One of the goons has knocked over a pile of parts, and in the chaos, you see your opening. With every ounce of strength left in you, you twist, wrenching yourself free. The adrenaline surges, your muscles burning as you lunge toward the nearest workbench, your fingers closing around the heavy wrench.
The sickening crack of metal meeting bone echoes through the garage as you swing the wrench at the goonâs head. He stumbles back, cursing in pain, but thereâs no time to hesitate. Your breath is ragged, each gasp like fire in your lungs, and you scramble to your feet, racing toward the door.
But before you can make it, the second goon blocks your path. His fist swings toward you, and you barely duck in time, the force of the hit grazing your shoulder. The pain is sharp, but you ignore it, bringing the wrench up again and slamming it into his midsection. He doubles over with a grunt.
Before you can make it to the door, though, the man in the coat grabs you by the wrist, twisting your arm painfully behind your back.
âYou shouldâve stayed out of this,â he snarls, his voice dripping with venom. His grip tightens, and you bite back a cry as the pressure mounts, your muscles screaming in protest.
Just as you think heâs about to slam you into the ground, the door bursts open with a crash. In a blur of motion, the Red Comet sprints into the room, his fists a flurry of movement as he takes down the first goon in seconds.
His eyes lock onto yours, fury blazing behind his mask, and in a split second, heâs on the man in the coat. With a swift, brutal motion, he grabs him by the collar, slamming him against the wall. The impact reverberates through the garage, shaking the shelves as tools rattle.
âIf you ever touch them again,â the Red Comet growls, his voice low and dangerous, âyou wonât be walking out of here.â
The manâs smug expression falters, but before he can respond, the Red Comet knocks him out with a single blow, the thud of his body hitting the ground echoing in the now silent room.
You collapse against the nearest wall, your breath ragged, your muscles trembling from the exertion. The garage is still, the only sound the pounding of your heartbeat in your ears. The Red Comet turns to you, concern replacing the fury that had been there just moments before.
âAre you okay?â His voice is filled with worry as he steps closer, his hands hovering over your shoulders like heâs afraid to touch you, afraid you might break.
You nod, still catching your breath, the weight of everything crashing down on you. âIâm fine,â you manage, though your voice is shaky.
He shakes his head. âThis is my fault. I should have never come here.â
You reach out, resting your hand on his arm. The fabric is terse and warm, and you can feel that his muscles are still tense beneath it. âIâm not some damsel in distress. I can handle myself.â
His jaw tightens for a moment, but he nods. âStill,â he says softly, âIâm sorry.â
You stare at him, your chest tightening as the weight of the situation settles between you.
The strained cough of one of the men is a quick reminder that the situation is yet to be over. You glance around, feeling panic building as you try to figure out what to do before they wake back up. âDo you have, like, protocol for this kind of thing?â
The Red Comet nods, his posture straightening as he seems to shift back into superhero mode. âLeave them with me.â
You hesitate, your eyes scanning the room again. The unconscious bodies of Mr. Scottâs men lay sprawled across the floor, and despite the superheroâs calm demeanour, the tension in the air still feels thick and suffocating. You want to argue, to insist that you stay and help clean up the mess. After all, this is your garageâthey came here because of you.
But then you look over at him. His shoulders are tense, his jaw clenched, but he seems more confident and sure of himself.
âIâll be back,â you say, your voice softer than you intended. âFifteen minutes.â
He nods, his gaze never leaving yours. You can see the gratitude there, mixed with something deeperâsomething unspoken. And as you turn to leave, your heart feels heavy with the weight of everything unsaid between you.
You step outside, closing the garage door behind you and leaning against it, trying to steady your breathing. Your mind is spinning, replaying the events of the last few minutes over and over.
Fifteen minutes pass like a blur, and when you finally open the door again, the men are gone. The garage looks almost untouched, only the scatter of a few tools out of place letting you know that the confrontation ever happened. And the Red Comet is standing there, his back to you, head bowed slightly as if weighed down by something.
âAll okay?â You call softly, stepping inside. Your voice feels too loud against the stillness.
He doesnât respond at first. The silence that follows feels thick, uncomfortable, as though it's hiding words heâs not ready to speak. Your heart pounds harder in the quiet. You move forward, feeling unsure, and reach out to him, grabbing his arm and guiding him to sit with you at the workbench. His surprise flickers for a moment, but he doesnât resist your touch.
"I canât keep doing this,â he finally breaks the silence, his voice sounding so broken that it hurts to hear. âI canât keep pretending this doesnât affect you. That being around me doesnât put you in danger.â
Your breath catches. For a split second, doubt clouds your mind â am I making a mistake being involved in this?
But before the uncertainty can take hold, you push it away. You take his covered hand in yours. âI know what Iâm getting into. I knew the risks when I fixed your car, and I know them now. And Iâm still here, arenât I?â
He exhales, shaking his head. âItâs different now. They know about you, and they almost hurt you.â
The words hang in the air between you, an admittance of the truth that feels too heavy. A cold chill runs through you, the fear creeping in despite your resolve. But hearing the despair in his voiceâthe way it trembles with guiltâmakes you push past your own fear. Is it dangerous? Yes. But leaving him, letting him deal with this burden alone, feels worse.
Reaching out, you gently lift his chin so that heâs forced to look at you. A small, determined smile forms on your lips. âHey, you may have saved the day, but I had it covered. Donât underestimate my skill with a wrench.â
A choked, sob-like laugh leaves him, and his shoulders crumple slightly, releasing the bundle of stress heâd been holding.
âLook,â you say, trying to keep your voice steady. âYouâre just going to have to accept that Iâm involved now; thereâs nothing stopping that. And I donât want it to. Youâre not getting rid of me even if you try.â
A beat passes, and you wonder if youâve pushed too far. His posture is so still that you feel like you cannot move an inch either.
His hands are the first to move, slowly and a little shakily. When they reach the bottom of his mask, you realise what heâs trying to do.
In a flash, you pull your own hands back to cover your eyes, the instinct to respect his privacy taking over. âIâm sorry,â you blurt out, feeling awkward in the silence. âI didnât mean for-â
âDonât apologise,â His voice is softer now, more vulnerable. Thereâs a rawness you havenât heard before, unfettered by material. You keep your hands over your eyes, and jolt slightly as you feel his own covering yours. His fingers wrap around delicately, and gently pull the cover away from you. âI want you to see me.â
Slowly, hesitantly, you open your eyes, your heart thudding in your chest.
When you look up, heâs thereâentirely unmasked, fully exposed. Your lips part, and you instinctively reach out, your fingertips ghosting over his jawline. He lets you, his skin warm beneath your touch.
Heâs beautiful, each feature perfectly balanced in its own way. But thereâs something deeper in his eyes, a mix of concern, fear, and vulnerability that pulls at you. You canât look away, and yet, you feel your attention drawn towards his soft, full lips.
For a moment, you just stare, processing the weight of what heâs just done. Heâs standing in front of you, fully exposed, fully himself, no longer hidden behind the persona of the Red Comet.
And then you smile, a euphoric beam that lights up your face. The corners of his mouth perks up in response, slowly exposing his teeth and gums, and you realise that youâve uncovered his most beautiful feature.
âI donât deserve you,â he says quietly, as if heâs afraid of what you might think now that youâve seen him. âYouâre too good for this, for all the danger that comes with me.â
You shake your head, your grip on his hand tightening as you refuse to look away from him. âThatâs not for you to decide. I choose to be here, with you. And weâre going to figure it out. Together.â
His eyes search yours, and for the first time, your see something break in him â something deep and guarded thatâs been locked away from far too long.
âI donât want to lose you,â he admits softly, his voice trembling. âI donât think I could handle it.â
Your heart aches at the vulnerability in his words, and without thinking, you pull him into a hug. At first, he stiffens, like heâs not sure how to respond, but then, slowly, he wraps his arms around you, holding on tightly as if youâre the lifeline he didnât know he needed.
âYou wonât lose me,â you whisper into his shoulder, your voice steady despite the storm of emotions swirling inside you. âIâm right here.â
For a long moment, neither of you says anything. The garage is quiet, the world outside seeming to fade away as the two of you sit there, holding onto each other in the dim light.
When he finally pulls back, thereâs a softness in his eyes. âMy nameâs Chan. Lee Chan. Iâd like you to know that, too.â
Your heart swells, and your head tilts forward. âThank you for trusting me.â You say, hoping your sincerity is clear to him. âChan.â
Hearing his name from your lips seems to soften his worry, bringing him a sense of calm. You both stay still, sitting close enough that you can feel the warmth radiating from his body. The air between you feels charged with something unspoken. Your hand is still resting lightly on his cheek, your thumb brushing softly against his skin, and it feels like the most natural thing in the world.
His eyes flicker down to your lips, then back up to meet your gaze. His breathing hitches slightly. Thereâs a question in his eyes, a silent invitation.
Slowly, hesitantly, you close the distance between you. His breath mingles with yours, and just as your lips are about to meet, he pauses, as if giving you one last chance to pull away. But you donât. Youâre here, with him, and you want this.
When his lips finally press against yours, itâs soft at first, almost tentative, like heâs afraid of moving too fast. But then the kiss deepens, and all the tension, the fear, the vulnerability between you melts away. Itâs as if everything youâve both been holding backâthe uncertainty, the emotions you couldnât quite voiceâcomes rushing out in this one moment.
His hand moves to cup your face, pulling you closer as the kiss grows more urgent, more certain. You feel the warmth of his skin, the way his body moves against yours, and itâs like nothing else matters.
As you start to peel the suit from his body, careful to avoid touching the side heâd been stabbed, you reveal more and more of him. Your head swirls with thoughts of him â not just of the muscled body that now presses against yours, but of the vulnerability of the moment; the superhero allowing you to see all of him after so much hiding.
It makes you feel euphoric, being allowed a peak under the mask, knowing that he trusts you enough to let you.
As your own clothes are removed, you donât feel any shyness. The tenderness of his reveal is enough to put you at ease, to want to give yourself to him.
Heâs beautiful under your eyes, chest heaving as you wrap your legs over his, gently positioning yourself on top of him. The way your name falls from his lips, in the voice you know best of all, only makes you feel more eager to please him.
The movement of your bodies against each other is slow, subtle. Itâs quiet, other than the breathy moans that escape you and him. Itâs not the type of intimacy youâre used to â quick flings with rough strangers to satiate a need are completely different to the unhurried, deliberate push and pull between you.
It hits you part way through, as Chanâs hands flutter over your hips, that he must be holding back to not hurt you. A man with super strength, his grip the gentleness youâve ever known. You wonder what it would be like to have him at full strength, pounding into you, another time. But, now, youâre addicted to the slow movements, the hesitant touches, and almost teasing way heâs dragging you both towards completion.
You fall flat onto him, your body twitching slightly with exhaustion as you finally reach the peak, unable to tear your eyes away from his face, scared that if you look away youâll never see it again.
Heâs panting beneath you, head thrown back in bliss, but heâs cradling your body, holding you up as youâre unable to do it yourself.
Here, curled up into his grasp, you feel the safest youâve ever felt. You want to tell him as much, let him know how much you appreciate him, but you canât say anymore, too fulfilled to do anything but let your eyes flicker shut.
The hum of the city has changed.
What once was the usual rhythm of car horns, distant chatter, and the thrum of daily life has been replaced by something more unsettling â a tension hanging in the air that you can feel in your bones. The streets seem quieter, but not in a peaceful way. It is the kind of quiet that came just before a storm. A charged silence.
You stand in the doorway of your garage, leaning against the frame, arms crossed as you take in the atmosphere of the Lower South Rim. Even in your rough corner of the city, people are moving differently. Heads down, quick steps, and nervous glances thrown over their shoulders. There are more empty storefronts than usual, their "closed" signs flipped down in the middle of the day.
The power cuts have been getting more frequent. A few seconds here and there at first, and then they started lasting longerâwhole city blocks going dark for hours. You think back on what Chan said about Tempest, about his attacks on the power plants and grid, and wonder what the next step is.
You can hear the buzz of a TV playing from the diner across the street, the static of an emergency news broadcast cutting through the afternoon haze. The voice of the newscaster drifts through the open window, tired and strained.
â...no official statement from the Mayorâs office yet, but sources say that tonightâs blackout could affect up to 40 percent of the cityâs power grid...â
You canât help but let out a slow breath, your eyes narrowing as you scan the horizon, the towering skyscrapers of downtown standing like sentinels in the distance. Even from here, you can feel the anxiety thatâs creeping its way into the heart of the city. People are scared. And for good reason.
A flicker of movement catches your attention, and you glance down the street. Two men in heavy coats are standing outside the old hardware store, their eyes shifting nervously as they talk in low voices. Normally, you wouldnât think twice about it, but something about their hurried conversation and the way they keep looking around sets off alarm bells in your head.
You strain to catch snippets of their conversation as they move closer to your side of the street.
"...another one tonight... Tempest, they say..."
"...power plantâs next... you hear about Brewerâs Quarter? Thatâs not just a coincidence..."
Your heart clenches at the mention of Tempest, and the knot in your stomach tightens.
The men glance your way, cutting their conversation short as they catch sight of you standing there. You raise your chin slightly, meeting their gaze, and they turn and disappear down an alley without another word.
For a second, you consider following them, but then you catch the low growl of an engine coming up the street. Itâs a familiar soundâChanâs car. The sleek, black frame pulls up in front of the garage, its polished exterior gleaming in the dull afternoon light.
His eyes meet yours as he gets out of he car, and you can see the tension in his shoulders, the faint lines of worry etched into his face.
âAnother blackout,â you say, nodding toward the TV screen in the diner. âAnd it sounds like Tempest is involved.â
Chanâs gaze flickers toward the diner as he listens to the broadcast for a moment. Then he looks back at you, his voice low. âItâs worse than that. I think Iâve figured out what Tempest and Scott are planning.â
You frown, stepping aside so that he can follow you into the garage. The heavy steel door shuts behind him with a dull clang, sealing the two of you away from the restless streets outside. The familiar smell of oil wraps around you like a protective barrier, but even in here the tension of the cityâs looming crisis feels suffocating.
âWhatâd you find out?â You ask, your voice low with concern as you monitor the stormy look on his face. Your hand stretches out, instinctively wanting to make him feel better, and you settle it on his shoulder, drawing small circles on the tense skin.
He rolls his neck, letting out a long sigh. âTempest is targeting the main power plant. If he pulls this off, itâs not just going to be a few blackouts. The whole city will go dark. Emergency services, hospitals, everything will be offline.â
Your stomach drops. âHe wants to take out the whole grid?â
Chan nods, his eyes hard. âAnd Scottâs working with him. Heâs planning to seize control of the city once Tempest throws everything into disorder. Theyâve been building towards this for weeks. Those smaller blackouts were just tests. Tonightâs the real deal.â
A chill runs down your spine as the weight of the situation sinks in. The whole city could be plunged into darkness â people trapped in hospitals, traffic systems down, everything coming to a halt. And in the chaos, Scott would swoop in, consolidating power and taking control while everyone else is scrambling to survive.
âHow do we stop them?â You ask, your voice steadier than you feel.
Chan straightens up, his gaze snapping round to you. âNuh-uh, thereâs no âweâ. Iâm not letting you put yourself in danger.â
You feel a slight prickle of irritation that he doesnât trust you enough to let you help, but its tempered as you realise that he just cares about you. But, heâs wrong, and you think he knows it. Thereâs no way that heâs going to be able to stop Tempest and Scott at the same time, and your engineering expertise is too useful in this situation for him to stick you at home.
âChan,â you say, softly, watching him shiver as you say his name. âThereâs no way that you can do this alone. Please, let me help.â
The air between you feels charged, as if the storm Tempest is brewing outside has somehow seeped into the garage, thickening the tension. Chanâs eyes flash with conflict, his body tensing further at your words. For a long moment, he doesnât respond, his jaw tightening as he looks away, his gaze fixating on the far wall as if searching for the right words there.
âNo,â he says, but his voice is softer than before, lacking the firm conviction you were expecting. âI canât risk it.â
Your hand remains on his shoulder, your fingers still tracing soothing circles, but you can feel the tension rippling beneath his skin. Heâs at war with himself, caught between wanting to protect you and knowing deep down that youâre right.
âChan,â you say again, more firmly this time. His name feels like a thread that connects the two of you, tugging at something vulnerable and raw beneath his guarded exterior. And when his eyes finally meet yours, thereâs a flicker of fear, not for the situation, but fear for you.
âYouâre not a liability,â you continue, your voice gentle but steady. âYou know Iâm not. I can help with this. You need me.â
He exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair in frustration, his fingers tangling briefly in the strands. âItâs not that I donât think you can help. I know you can. Thatâs what scares me.â His voice is strained, the words heavy with the weight of something unspoken. âIf anything happens to youâŚâ
He doesnât finish the sentence, but the implication hangs in the air, thick and suffocating. You can see the battle playing out in his mindâthe need to keep you safe warring with the reality of whatâs at stake. Heâs terrified of losing you, of dragging you into a world of danger that heâs never wanted for you.
And you have to decide for yourself too. The cityâs fate hangs in the balance, and you can viscerally feel the weight of it pressing down on your shoulders. This isnât something youâve done before, youâre not superhuman like he is, and even if you have a good swing, youâre not a trained fighter.
But, as the fear about what will happen to you ripples between you, you feel your own fear for him fighting back, equally as strong. âIf you go out there alone, you might not come back. And then what? What do you think thatâll do to me?â You step closer, your hand sliding down from his shoulder to his chest. His heart is pounding beneath your touch.
He freezes at your words, his breath catching. You watch as his defences start to crack, realising that everything heâs feeling about you, youâre mirroring straight back to him.
âIâm not asking you to put me in harmâs way,â you continue, your voice soft but insistent. âBut weâre a team. Weâve been through enough together that you know I can handle myself. And you know I wonât sit by while the city falls apart.â
His eyes close briefly, as if heâs trying to block out the truth in your words.
When he opens his eyes again, theyâre filled with a mix of longing and fear, his gaze locking onto yours with an intensity that sends a shiver down your spine.
âYou mean too much to me,â he says quietly, his voice barely above a whisper, as if admitting it aloud makes it too real. âI canât lose you. Not like this.â
Your breath hitches at the vulnerability in his voice, at the raw emotion thatâs finally breaking through. The tension between you tightens, like a taut wire about to snap. The air feels electric, charged not just with the danger outside, but with the undeniable pull between the two of you.
You step even closer, your body now inches from his. âThen donât push me away,â you murmur, your hand still resting over his heart. âLet me stand by your side, Chan. Weâre stronger together.â
For a split second, you think heâs going to close the distance, to give in to the longing thatâs been simmering beneath the surface. His gaze flickers down to your lips, his breath coming quicker as he leans in just a fraction.
But then, just as quickly, he pulls back, taking a step away from you. The sudden distance feels like a physical blow, and you can see the pain in his eyes as he forces himself to pull away.
âAlright,â he says quietly, his voice filled with resignation. âBut we do this my way.â
Relief washes over you, but itâs tempered by the new distance between you.
Chan straightens up, his face set with grim determination. You watch him morph into superhero-mode, no longer the man you know. âWe go to the plant. Tempest wonât go down easy, but heâs not the brains behind this. Scottâs pulling the strings. Tempest just wants to destroyâScott wants control. If we can cut off their communication and disable whatever tech Scottâs got rigged at the plant, we might have a shot at stopping them both.â
You let out a slow breath. âAnd what do you want me to do?â
âIâll need you to guide me through the plant while I handle Tempest.â Chan continues, his voice frighteningly calm.
You watch as he begins emptying out his backpack â things you donât recognise but know are meant for the kind of fight thatâs coming. His suit comes out next, and you realise that you shouldnât go in there unprotected either.
As if having the same thought, he pulls out a set of spare clothes. Theyâre his, and they sit slightly too large on you, but they give you some protection and hide your identity.
He moves to the garage door, pushing it open to reveal the darkening city streets beyond. The sun is already starting to dip below the horizon, casting long shadows across the buildings.
"Weâve got maybe an hour before they hit the plant," Chan says, his voice low and urgent. "We need to get there before Scottâs men lock it down."
You follow him to the car, your heart pounding in your chest as you climb into the passenger seat. The engine roars to life, and within seconds, youâre speeding through the streets of the Lower South Rim. The city rushes by in a blur of neon lights and dark alleys, but all you can think about is whatâs waiting for you at the power plant.
The power plant looms ahead, a dark silhouette against the evening sky. The hum of machinery grows louder as Chan and you approach, its rhythmic thrum pulsing through the ground beneath your feet. The towering smoke and tangled networks of high-voltage lines have Chan biting his lip in anticipation of what sort of damage Tempest could do in this place.
He stops the car just outside the perimeter fence, far enough away to avoid being spotted by the guards patrolling the gates. He cuts the engine, and for a moment, the only sound is the distant buzz of electricity and the faint whistle of the wind through the nearby trees.
âWe go in quiet.â Chan says, turning towards you. He feels almost unable to meet your eyes, and is suddenly grateful that the mask means that you cannot see his. His voice sounds urgent, pleading, and all he wants to do is tell you to stay here. But, instead, he has to be content with urging you to stay safe. âTempest will be inside by now, and Scottâs men will be guarding every entrance.â
You follow his lead, slipping out of the car and crouching low as you both move toward the fence. The power plantâs lights flicker sporadically, casting eerie shadows across the yard.
âHere,â he whispers, pointing to a section of the fence heâd scouted out earlier that day. âThereâs a gap in the security feed by the northeast corner. We can slip through there without setting off the alarms.â
You nod, your eyes scanning the perimeter for any sign of movement.
Chan pulls out a small cutting tool from his belt and makes quick work of the chain-link, creating a narrow opening just wide enough for the two of you to slip through.
"Stay close," Chan whispers, pulling you to your feet as the two of you creep through the shadows toward one of the smaller side entrances.
The place is heavily guarded â more than he expected. Groups of armed men patrol the exterior, their faces hidden behind black masks, each carrying enough firepower to take out half the neighbourhood. He can count at least three groups circling the building, their movement precise and practiced.
"Theyâre serious," you murmur under your breath, ducking behind a stack of shipping crates as one of the patrols passes dangerously close.
"Scott doesnât leave anything to chance," Chan replies, his eyes narrowed as he watches the guards move. "But weâve got an advantage. They donât know weâre coming."
He feels like heâs trying to convince himself more than heâs trying to convince you.
âCan we take them?â You ask, glancing over. He has to stifle a small laugh, taken off guard by your instinct to run right into the fray of it.
Pulling a small device from his pocket, he shows it to you. âWe donât have to. This will scramble their comms for a few minutes â just long enough for us to get inside without raising the alarm.â
He activates the device and tosses it towards the guard post. Within seconds, the guardsâ radios crackle with static, and they begin frantically tapping at their earpieces, trying to regain contact with their base.
"Now," Chan whispers, grabbing your hand and pulling you toward the door.
You move quickly together, your footsteps silent against the concrete as you weave through the shadows. The guards are distracted, their attention focused on their malfunctioning radios, and you slip past them without a sound. It feels almost too easy, like heâs holding his breath, waiting for something to go wrong.
As you reach the door, Chan presses his hand against the electronic keypad, and the door clicks open with a soft hiss. You slip inside, the dimly lit hallway stretching out before you. The air inside the power plant is thick with the smell of metal and oil, the low hum of the generators reverberating through the walls. He wonders if it smells is at least a little comforting to you.
"This way," Chan says, nodding toward the far end of the corridor. "We need to reach the control room. If Scottâs got his tech set up, thatâs where itâll be." His eyes dart around the darkened hallway. The place feels like a mazeâindustrial pipes and steel beams crisscrossing overhead, the walls lined with electrical panels and junction boxes. Every corner feels like a potential ambush, every shadow a threat.
"How far to the control room?" you ask, your voice barely more than a whisper.
"Two floors up," Chan replies, glancing over his shoulder at you. "Thereâs a service elevator near the back. We can use it to bypass the main floors."
Just as you reach the service elevator, a crackling voice echoes through the plantâs PA system, sending a chill down Chanâs spine.
âAll units, be advised: intruders detected. Sweep the lower floors. Shoot on sight.â
Chan curses under his breath, his fingers hovering over the elevator button. "We donât have time for subtle anymore," he mutters, pressing the button as the sound of footsteps and barking orders echo through the corridors behind you.
The elevator doors slide open with a soft ding, and you and Chan slip inside, the doors closing just as the first group of guards rounds the corner. He catches a glimpse of their rifles as they move past, their boots thudding against the concrete. He takes the moment to glance over at you, and although he knows youâve seen the guards as well, you appear steady and calm.
The doors slide open with a soft hiss, and you step out into a narrow hallway, the control room just ahead. But before you can move, Chan grabs your arm, his eyes wide with urgency.
"Listen to me," he says, his voice low and serious. "Once weâre inside, things are going to get messy. I need you to stay close, and if things go south, you get out. No arguments. Just run."
You blink, caught off guard by the intensity in his voice. "What are you talking about? Iâm not leaving you in there alone."
Chanâs grip tightens slightly, his gaze locking with yours. "If something happens to me, you need to get out. Promise me."
You open your mouth to argue, but the look in his eyes stops you cold. Heâs not asking. Heâs telling you.
Swallowing hard, you nod. "Okay. I promise."
Chan lets out a breath, his shoulders relaxing just slightly. "Good."
He releases your arm, and the two of you move toward the control room. The door is just ahead, the hum of machinery louder than ever as you approach.
With one final glance at Chan, you push the door open.
The massive door creaks open, revealing the control room â sprawling, cold, and sterile. Row upon row of screens flicker with data, tracking every part of the cityâs power grid. You can see the central control panel at the far end, its flashing lights indicating the system's full capacity. If Tempest gets his way, the entire city will be plunged into chaos.
But thereâs no time to appreciate the magnitude of it all.
Standing next to the control panel, you see Tempest for the first time. His eyes glow with a crackling blue energy that dances along his fingertips. His face is twisted in a cold, sinister smile as he watches the screens.
At the far end of the room, perched in front of one of the larger monitors, is Mr Scott. Heâs leaning back in his chair, completely at ease, his sharp suit unwrinkled, as if this whole operation is just another day at the office. His eyes flicker toward you and Chan as you enter, a slow, calculated smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth.
"Well, well," Scott drawls, his voice oozing with smug confidence. "The cityâs little hero, right on schedule. And you brought company. How quaint."
Tempestâs gaze snaps toward you, the crackling energy in his hands intensifying. His grin widens, and you can feel the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end as the air around him grows charged with electricity.
"Red Comet," Tempest growls, his voice a low rumble of thunder. "Iâve been waiting for this."
Chan tenses beside you, his muscles coiling like a spring ready to explode. You can see the weight of the situation bearing down on him, the knowledge that every second counts. One wrong move, and Tempest will fry the entire plant.
But itâs Scottâs next words that make your blood run cold.
"Iâm impressed, Red Comet," Scott continues, his voice smooth as silk. "Not many people would be braveâor foolishâenough to bring someone they care about into a situation like this."
His eyes flick toward you, and suddenly, you realize whatâs happening. Scott knows. Heâs figured out who you are, and worse, heâs figured out how much you mean to Chan.
For a moment, everything seems to freeze. You can feel the weight of Chanâs gaze on you, the unspoken fear that heâs been trying to keep hidden now laid bare.
"Donât listen to him," Chan whispers, his voice tight with barely contained fury. "Heâs just trying to get in your head."
But Scottâs smile only widens, his eyes gleaming with malicious glee. "Oh, I donât need to get in your head. Iâve already won. Tempest, if youâd be so kindâŚ"
Tempest raises his hand, and in an instant, the air around you crackles with electricity. You can feel the charge building, the hair on your arms standing on end as the temperature in the room seems to spike. The power plantâs machinery groans in protest, the lights flickering as Tempest channels his energy into the room.
Chan reacts in a flash, grabbing your arm and pulling you behind one of the large control consoles just as a bolt of lightning crashes into the floor where you were standing. The air is filled with the smell of burning metal, and the ground shakes beneath you as Tempest unleashes another wave of energy, sending sparks flying.
"You okay?" Chan asks, his voice tight with worry as he crouches beside you, his back pressed against the console.
You nod, your heart pounding in your chest, the adrenaline coursing through your veins. "Yeah. Iâm fine."
But thereâs no time to catch your breath. The room is a war zone nowâTempestâs lightning bolts crackle through the air, shattering monitors and sending showers of sparks raining down around you. Scottâs men scramble for cover, their rifles raised, but theyâre clearly outmatched by Tempestâs raw power.
Chanâs eyes scan the room, searching for an opening. " âWe need to split them up,â he mutters, his eyes scanning the room. âIâll keep Tempest busy. You get to the control panel and shut down the grid. Thatâll cut his power supply.â
His body softens for a second, as if heâs realised something. âPlease, be safe. I lo-â
A spike of panic riles your body, and you put your finger on his lips, shaking your head. âNot now. Afterwards.â You know what heâs doing, giving you one last goodbye in case something goes wrong, but youâre not going to let that happen.
With one last look, Chan stands, his body moving with a grace and fluidity that belies the tension in the air. "Tempest!" he shouts, drawing the villainâs attention away from the rest of the room.
Tempestâs head snaps toward him, his eyes narrowing as a cruel smile spreads across his face. "Running away already, hero?"
Chan doesnât respond. Instead, he leaps into action, moving with lightning speed as he closes the distance between himself and Tempest. The two of them clash in a violent burst of energy, Chanâs fists moving in a blur as he dodges and weaves around Tempestâs attacks.
You watch in awe for a moment, until the pair crash out of the control room, leaving you alone with your task. And Mr Scott.
Ducking low, you sprint across the room, weaving between the shattered remains of monitors and control panels until you reach the central console. Your heart pounds as you reach the panel, your fingers trembling as you start scanning for the emergency shutoff switch.
The control panel is a messâwires sparking, glass shatteredâbut you spot the emergency switch buried beneath a layer of debris. Just as your hand reaches for it, a shadow falls over you.
âNow, now,â a smooth, chilling voice says. âWhere do you think youâre going?â
You freeze, your breath catching in your throat as you turn to see Mr. Scott standing just a few feet away. His expression is cool and collected, but thereâs a dangerous gleam in his eyes.
âDid you really think Iâd let you shut down my operation so easily?â Scott steps closer, his presence suffocating as he corners you against the control panel. âYouâve been very helpful, of course, playing your little part. But Iâm afraid your timeâs up.â
âYouâre wrong,â you say, your voice trembling slightly but defiant. âYou canât win this.â
Scott chuckles, a low, mocking sound. âOh, I already have. Tempest is keeping your little hero occupied. You really think Chan can save the city and you?â He steps even closer, his eyes narrowing. âHeâs going to have to choose. And I know what heroes always chooseâthey save the city, and they let the people they care about burn.â
Fear claws at your chest. Scottâs words are like poison, seeping into your mind. You know Chan, you trust him, but in this moment, Scottâs chilling logic feels too real. You glance at the control panel, your fingers brushing against the switch. If you could just reach itâŚ
But Scott is faster. He lunges, grabbing your wrist in a crushing grip, and slams your hand down on the panel, pinning you in place. âYouâre not going anywhere,â he sneers.
Panic surges through you. You try to struggle, but Scottâs hold is like iron, unyielding. Your mind races, heart pounding as you glance desperately toward the outside, but Chan is nowhere to be seen.
Scottâs grip tightens on your wrist, and he leans in close, his voice a cold whisper in your ear. âSee? He canât save you. Heâs too busy fighting for his precious city. And you⌠well, youâre just collateral damage.â
You grit your teeth, anger rising in you as Scottâs taunts cut deep. But then, out of the corner of your eye, you spot something â a heavy metal pipe, half-buried under a pile of debris.
Without hesitation, you spit in Mr Scottâs face.
He staggers back slightly, a furious yell retching out of his mouth. Itâs all you need. You lunge forward, loosening his grip on your wrist, and close your free hand around the cold metal. With all the strength you can muster, you swing the pipe up and slam it into Scottâs arm.
He curses, and you yank your hand free. You fall backwards, breathless and shaking, but you donât hesitate. You dive for the emergency shutoff switch, slamming your hand down on it. The room plunges into darkness as the power grid shuts off, the hum of electricity fading into silence.
Chan barely has time to move before Tempest is on him, unleashing a bolt of lightning that crackles through the air with a deafening roar. The strike slams into Chanâs side, sending him flying across the room. He crashes into a metal column, the impact knowing the wind out of him.
Tempest strides forward, his eyes glowing an eerie blue as arcs of electricity pulse around him. His grin is wide, feral, and filled with malice.
Chan groans, pushing himself up on shaky arms, his muscles screaming in protest. The force of the lightning has left a sharp, burning pain radiating through his body, his skin tingling and raw from the electric blast. He staggers to his feet, trying to catch his breath, but thereâs no time. Tempestâs next attack is already comingâa barrage of lightning bolts raining down from above.
Chan dives to the side, rolling behind the column as the floor where he stood moments ago explodes in a shower of sparks and shattered concrete. The heat from the lightning is intense, the air thick with the smell of ozone and scorched metal.
He grits his teeth, struggling to keep his focus. Tempest is stronger than ever, feeding off the power grid, the electricity in the room swirling around him like a living thing. Every movement is effortless, every attack precise and brutal. Chanâs every muscle aches, and he can feel the burn of his injuries starting to slow him down.
He knows heâs outmatched while Tempest is drawing power from the grid, but thereâs no backing down now. The cityâs fateâand yoursârests on him holding Tempest off long enough for you to shut down the power.
He darts out from cover, launching himself toward Tempest in a blur of movement. His fists connect with Tempestâs chest in a rapid series of strikes, each punch landing with a dull thud against the villainâs armour. But Tempest barely flinches, his body crackling with electricity, his smirk widening as he grabs Chan by the arm, sending a surge of lightning coursing through him.
Chan screams, his body convulsing in pain as the electricity sears through his nerves. His vision blurs, his muscles locking up as he struggles to break free. Tempest's grip tightens, his laughter booming like thunder as he watches Chan writhe in agony.
"Pathetic," Tempest sneers, throwing Chan across the room like a ragdoll. Chan crashes into a bank of machinery, the sharp edges biting into his back as he collapses to the ground. His chest heaves, his body shaking uncontrollably from the aftershocks of the lightning. Every nerve feels raw, every movement like fire.
For a moment, he can barely move. He hears Tempestâs footsteps approaching, the crackling energy growing louder with each step. Chanâs vision swims as he tries to push himself up, his limbs sluggish, the weight of the fight pressing down on him. Tempest looms over him, the villainâs eyes glowing brighter as he raises his hand, ready to deliver the final blow.
âYouâre done, Comet,â Tempest growls. âYour city is done.â
Chanâs breath comes in ragged gasps, his mind racing. Heâs out of options, out of strength. But then, through the haze of pain, he thinks of you. Youâre trying to shut down the gridâbuying him time, risking your life to stop Tempest. He canât let you down. He canât let you face this alone.
With a pained groan, Chan forces himself to his feet, swaying slightly as he stands. His body protests every movement, but he grits his teeth, pushing through the pain. He raises his fists, squaring his shoulders as he locks eyes with Tempest. âIâm not done yet,â he growls, his voice filled with defiance.
Tempestâs smile falters for a moment, irritation flashing across his face. âYou shouldâve stayed down,â he spits, raising both hands, lightning coiling around his arms in a deadly swirl.
The air hums with electric tension, and for a heartbeat, time seems to freeze. Chan braces himself for the incoming strike, every instinct screaming at him to dodge, to move, but his body is slow to respond, his muscles stiff from the earlier shocks. He knows heâs not fast enough. Not this time.
But just as Tempest unleashes the full force of his power, the room suddenly plunges into darkness. The lights flicker once, then die. The hum of electricity disappears, leaving only silence in its wake.
Tempest freezes, his hands still crackling with fading energy, but his powers falterâflickering like a dying flame. His eyes widen in shock as the realization hits him.
The power grid is down.
Chan feels the shift immediately. The oppressive weight of Tempestâs electric aura vanishes, the air stilling as the last crackle of lightning fizzles out. Tempest stumbles, his control over the electric currents slipping through his fingers.
Chan takes the opportunity. With Tempest momentarily weakened, he surges forward, his body moving on pure adrenaline. His fist connects with Tempestâs jaw in a brutal uppercut, sending the villain staggering back. Before Tempest can recover, Chan grabs him by the collar, pulling him close.
âThis ends now,â Chan growls through gritted teeth.
Tempestâs eyes widen in fury, but without the power grid to fuel him, his strength is faltering. Chan slams him into the ground, pinning him with a knee to the chest. Tempest struggles, his hands sparking weakly with residual electricity, but itâs no use. The fight has been drained out of him.
From across the room, he hears your voice crackle through the earpiece. âI did itâthe powerâs down, butâScottâs here! I needââ
Your voice cuts off suddenly, and Chanâs heart drops.
âHold on,â he mutters, his grip tightening on Tempestâs collar. He delivers one final punch to the villain, knocking him out cold, before rising to his feet, every part of him screaming in pain. But thereâs no time to rest. Youâre in danger, and Scott is still out there.
Without hesitation, Chan takes off, sprinting through the now-darkened room, desperate to reach you before itâs too late.
Chan races through the maze of darkened corridors, his heart pounding in his chest, every step driving him closer to you. His breath is ragged, and every muscle in his body aches, but the thought of you alone, facing Scott, fuels him. He canât let anything happen to you. Not after everything.
He rounds a corner and skids to a halt as he hears voices aheadâyours and Scottâs. The sound sends a chill down his spine, the urgency in your voice mixing with the low, taunting rumble of Scottâs.
âI told you,â Scott says, his tone dripping with mockery. âYour little boyfriend canât save you. Heâs too busy with Tempest to even know youâre in danger.â
Chanâs heart clenches at Scottâs words, and he presses himself against the wall, moving silently toward the source of the sound. He peers around the corner and his blood runs cold.
There you are, backed into a corner near the control panel, Scott towering over you with a cruel smile on his face. His fingers trace a small, menacing blade in his hand, the tip glinting in the dim emergency lights. Youâre holding your own, standing tall despite the fear thatâs clear in your eyes, but Chan can see the tension in your shoulders.
Chan's breath catches in his throat as he watches the scene unfold. His first instinct is to charge in, but something makes him hesitate, his heart pounding even harder. It's youâthereâs something in the way youâre standing, the way your movements subtly inch you towards the metal pipe lying next to the control centre. Youâre not just holding your ownâyouâre planning something.
âIâve been in worse situations,â you say, your voice tight but steady, the words slipping through gritted teeth. âAnd youâre not nearly as intimidating as you think.â
Scott laughs, a low, cruel sound. He steps closer, the tip of the blade catching the dim light, and Chan tenses.
âIâm not looking to intimidate,â Scott sneers, âIâm just making a point. Once Tempest brings the city to its knees, people like you wonât have a place anymore. There wonât be anyone to run to. No heroes. No Red Comet to save you.â
You shift slightly, your gaze flickering to the corner of the room. Chan follows, and his heart skips a beat as he spots it â a small metal canister tucked away near the base of one of the computer systems.
âShut up,â you snap, your voice filled with a fiery determination Chan has always admired in you. âYou talk too much.â
Scottâs smirk falters for a second, and in that moment, you move. In one swift motion your hand snatches up the heavy pipe from the floor and, with all the strength you can muster, hurl it towards the canister of compressed air.
The wrench strikes the canister with a sharp clang, and for a heartbeat, nothing happens. Scottâs eyes widen, his smirk faltering as he processes what youâve just done. Then, with a deafening whoosh, the canister bursts open, releasing a blast of compressed air with explosive force. The sudden eruption knocks over machinery, sending a wave of sparks into the air, and ignites a small fire as it hits an exposed electrical panel.
Chan darts in, fear spiking as the room plunges into chaos.
Scott stumbles back, his arrogant composure shattering as the explosion disorients him. He throws his arms up to shield his face from the heat and debris, his confident swagger replaced with pure instinctual panic.
"WHATâ" Scott shouts, but his words are drowned out by the roar of the flames licking at the side of the control panel, smoke curling into the air. The ground trembles beneath your feet as the machinery in the room jolts, sparking uncontrollably from the burst.
You dive forward, using the confusion to close the distance between you and Scott. Heâs still reeling, eyes darting around the room in shock, trying to regain his bearings, but youâre faster. You slam your shoulder into him, knocking him off balance. His knife clatters to the floor as he stumbles, barely catching himself on the edge of a console.
âNo more talking,â you grit out, grabbing a broken-off piece of equipment from the floor. You swing it with precision, striking Scottâs leg just below the knee. He cries out, collapsing to the floor in a heap, pain and fury etched across his face.
You step back, panting heavily, and spot Chan. Heâs standing in the doorway, his chest heaving with exertion, eyes wide with a mixture of shock and relief. For a moment, the noise and confusion around you both seem to fade, leaving only the two of you. His gaze flickers from you to Scott lying on the floor, and then back to you. He canât help but be overwhelmed with pride for you.
He rushes forward, dodging a sparking cable that snaps to the ground beside him. âAre you hurt?â he asks, his voice filled with barely contained urgency. His hands hover near your shoulders, wanting to touch, to check for injuries.
âIâm fine,â you breathe out, though your hands tremble. âI had it under control.â
Chan shakes his head, disbelief mingling with a faint smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. âYeah, I saw that.â
Before he can finish, a groan from the floor snaps both of your attention back to Scott, who is struggling to push himself up, his face contorted in pain. His eyes, wild with anger, lock onto you and Chan, but thereâs a flicker of something else thereâfear.
âYou think this is over?â Scott spits, his voice hoarse and filled with venom. âTempest is alreadyââ
â-is already beaten.â Chan cuts in, his voice low and dangerous. He steps forward, his body tensed like a spring coiled up, waiting for a release. Scottâs arrogant demeanour falters. His eyes flicker between you and Chan, weighing his options, and for the first time, itâs clearâhe knows heâs lost control.
Scott's face twists in frustration as he struggles to comprehend his downfall. His once smooth and confident façade now appears cracked, broken by the realization that his carefully orchestrated plan has failed.
"Youâre finished," Chan growls, stepping closer, his presence looming over Scott like a shadow. "Tempest is down, and your men are scattered. Itâs over."
Scottâs jaw clenches, his hands balling into fists as he scrambles to pull himself together, grasping for the last shred of control. "You donât understand," he spits. "You mightâve stopped me here, but this city... itâs already rotting. You canât save everyone, and when it crumbles, youâll fall with it."
Chanâs eyes narrow, but he doesnât flinch. "Maybe. But not today."
With a final blow, Chan knocks him unconscious. The room falls silent except for the distant crackle of the damaged electronics and the faint hum of the emergency lights flickering on.
As Chan turns to face you, his features softened in the dim light, a sense of relief washes over both of you.
He steps closer, searching your eyes for any lingering fear or doubt. But instead, he only finds exhaustion and a shared understanding of what youâve both just survived. His hand reaches out, cupping your cheek gently as his thumb brushes against your skin, wiping away the smudge of ash from the battle.
His breath hitches, the emotion of it all threatening to overwhelm him as you stare at each other. He takes a deep breath, pulling you into his arms, holding you tightly, afraid to let go. You cling to him, feeling the steady beat of his heart against yours, a grounding rhythm to remind you that youâre both still here.
âIâm not letting you go,â Chan says softly, his voice thick with emotion. âNot now, not ever.â
You smile, your heart swelling as you look into his eyes. âGood,â you whisper back. âBecause Iâm not going anywhere.â
And in that moment, with the city still buzzing in the background, the chaos subsiding, and the weight of the battle falling away, Chan closes the gap between you, pulling his mask out of the way, and kisses you. Itâs slow and deliberate, filled with the kind of tenderness that only comes from knowing that youâve both found each other on the other side of something dark and dangerous.
And as you pull back, resting your forehead against his, he knows that whatever the future holds, youâll face it together.
You look up at him, your eyes sparkling under the glowing light of the plant. A small, soft smile curves your lips, your face contorting as if youâve remembered something important. âI love you.â
Chanâs entire body stutters at your words. His breath catches, and for a moment, heâs complete still, feeling like the world has stopped spinning around him.
âI love you,â you repeat, your voice quieter now, more certain. The words hang in the air between you, vulnerable and raw, yet filled with a warmth that settles into every corner of the moment.
Chan exhales slowly, his grip on you tightening just a little, as if anchoring himself to the reality of what youâve just said. His hand slides up to cup your face, his thumb brushing tenderly across your cheek. He opens his mouth, his voice hoarse with emotion. âI love you too. And I donât know how to do that without pulling you into this fight, but I know that I canât keep pretending that I donât feel this.â
The world outside might be chaotic, and the battles ahead uncertain, but right here, in this moment, everything feels clear.
Chan pulls back slightly, looking down at you with a smile thatâs equal parts relief and joy. âWhatever happens next, weâve got this,â he says softly, his voice steady with conviction.
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đMSc Economics: Choi Seungcheol & TA!reader
đCourse Name: ex-conomics by @ugh-yoongi
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đď¸Course Overview: you supported seungcheol through years of being an aspiring athlete, and all you got to show for it was your undergraduate degree and an awkward, stuttered apology when he dumped you to go semi-pro. now heâs back after an injury derailed his career, and thereâs only one problem: youâre the only one available to tutor him. you - 0; the universe - 1. talk about no return on investment.
đCourse Name: building blocks by @the-boy-meets-evil
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đď¸Course Overview: agreeing to be the teaching assistant is the last thing you want in a semester where you're already swamped with work. but, you need a letter of recommendation from the professor and you're out of other options. enter jeonghan, the menace who signs up for the class seemingly on a whim and disrupts your entire routine.
đM.A. Spanish: TA!Joshua Hong x reader
đCourse Name: How to be a Latin Lover by @haologram
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đď¸Course Overview: the dreadful semester has started â meaning your summer vacation has come to end, and so has your summer flingâŚor has it?
đMSc Human Anatomy: Wen Junhui & TA!reader
đCourse Name: pulse points by @wheeboo
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đď¸Course Overview: Being the TA for your anatomy class has always been really rewarding, especially stemming in your passion for the medical field. But as itâs approaching the peak of the school semester and labs have gotten more intense, you arenât surprised to be dedicating your time to tutoring your strangely handsome, dorky, yet enigmatic classmate during after school hours â and reassuring him how to not be afraid of dissections.
đMSc Zoology: TA!Kwon Soonyoung x reader
đCourse Name: Araneae by @haologram
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đď¸Course Overview: when you realize your friend (with benefits) actually has feelings for you, a tangled web of lies and avoidance ensues.
đMSc Chemistry: TA!Jeon Wonwoo & TA!reader
đCourse Name: endpoint by @highvern
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đď¸Course Overview: Senior year of college is meant to be full of celebration and smooth sailing. Years of work culminating in the final semesters that will send you off into the real world where clubs, sports, and weekends packed with hungover volunteering to pad your resume no longer mattered.
Itâd be a piece of cake if it wasnât for your fuck buddy turned coworker having the same plan. But only one of you can get the departmentâs most coveted recommendation that all but guarantees your acceptance. Tension rises and the nearly four year thing youâve had with Wonwoo approaches its endpoint.
đMA Classics: TA!Lee Jihoon x Reader
đCourse Name: Oh, Agony! by @cheolism
đLecture Posted Here!
đď¸Course Overview: when you both find out that your boyfriend, lee jihoon, will be the ta for your classic literature class, it is agreed your relationship will take a temporary pause . no public dates, no pda; and, most tragically, no sex. nothing that can give away the truth to your relationship. only, it really is easier said than done.
đMSc Astronomy and Astrophysics: TA!Lee Seokmin & TA!reader
đCourse Name: Do Stars Collapse Into Black Holes, or Fall Into Something Unknown? by @idyllic-ghost
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đď¸Course Overview: Starting your second year of your masterâs degree in astrophysics, and your first year as a TA, you were stressed enough - but the universe knows no bounds for your suffering. Seokmin, your handsome and annoyingly smart classmate, just had to become your colleague. As if you werenât hard on yourself already, Seokminâs presence only proved to fuel your self-loathing. But does he hate you too, or do you need to open your eyes and come back down to Earth?
đCourse Name: Statistically Speaking... by @gyuswhore
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đď¸Course Overview: In all your years of academic endurance, youâve never failed. A 100% success rate, despite you cutting it close at times. However, the line graph that is your life starts tanking somewhere around the time you began taking this hellsent Statistics in Psychological Research class. With a professor that wouldnât know his ass from his head, and an overworked, overenthusiastic, and overcaptivating TA, it couldn't possibly get any worse than this.
However, statistically speaking,âŚit could.
đMFA Studio Art: TA!Xu Minghao x TA!Reader
đCourse Name: Perspective by @tomodachiii
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đď¸Course Overview: Xu Minghao hates you. You've been sure of it ever since you met him. And when you find yourself working alongside him as a teaching assistant for your painting professor, you think you might hate him too. But one late night, two semesters, and three exhibits later, you find your perspective beginning to shift.
đCourse Name: Put It In Writing by @bitchlessdino
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đď¸Course Overview: You keep things professional--as you should--even if one of your students is someone you hooked up with one night before the college semester started. Meanwhile, Boo Seungkwan is anything but honest--he's a writer after all--but if he is honest about one thing, it's about wanting to write a new story with you.
đMS Computer Science: TA!Chwe Hansol x TA!Reader
đCourse Name: love between the lines by @etherealyoungk
đLecture Posted Here!
đď¸Course Overview: despite the initial nerves of your new gig as an english literature TA, youâre ready to tackle the new job. thatâs where you meet vernon, the computer science TA, and heâs interesting to say the least. heâs all about coding and numbers while you live and breathe poetry and novels. itâs clear that you both have contrasting interests and personalities - but they say opposites attract, right?
đMSc Mathematics: Lee Chan x TA!Reader
đCourse Name: rates of change by @wqnwoos
đLecture Posted Here!
đď¸Course Overview: Your first semester as TA throws your previously unassuming college life into disarray, fuelled almost entirely by the brown-eyed and charming student whoâs slipping closer to failing with every lecture. And in return for your mathematical assistance, Lee Chan decides heâs going to set you up with the guy youâve been persistently pining over for a year and a half. Itâs a simple equation: you teach him calculus, and heâll teach you how to flirt. Except, as youâre both quick to discover, mathematical equations donât translate over to real life as easily as youâd expect.
Pairings: Kwon Soonyoung x fem!reader, suggestions of Kim Mingyu x fem!reader
Genres: fluff, angst, camp counsellors AU, sunshine x sunshine
Warnings: drinking, profanities, mentions of sex
Word Count: 18.7k
Summary: Get ready for the most unforgettable summer yet at Camp Logan, where lifelong memories are made, friendships are strengthened, and old crushes make new appearances.
In the backseat of your best friendâs pink Honda Jazz, with Britney and Fergie blasting on the radio and wind rushing through your hair from the rolled-down windows â it has never felt more like summer break.
As you speed down the highway, Emma turns around from the passenger seat to offer you a sip of her Spire remix, which you eagerly accept.
âAre we getting close?â She yells over the music.
You nod as you gulp down the fizzy drink, unable to respond with your mouth full. Unfolding the map beside you, you check the upcoming junction.
âYeah! I think itâs only three more junctions?â You reply, grinning with excitement.
âSeeing how pumped you are right now almost makes me jealous,â Jane laughs from the driverâs seat, catching your eye in the rearview mirror. âExcept, then I remember youâre going to summer camp as an adult, without getting to do any of the cool stuff.â
âThatâs not true!â You gasp, feigning offence. âI donât have to follow the rules, just enforce them â so once the kids are asleep, I can do whatever I want!â
âOh, youâre adorable.â Emma chuckles. âThose kids are gonna wear you our so much, youâll be asleep before they are.â
You pout at her, huffing in disagreement.
Sure, being a camp leader might not be everyoneâs idea of a great summer, but they at least have to admit that it would be fun. What could be better than running around, doing fun activities, and helping kids have the best time ever?
Well, Jane and Emma would probably argue that their trip to Majorca would be more fun â but youâre convinced that theyâre underestimating just how awesome campfires and sâmores can be.
âOkay, how about this â if you have a summer fling with a hot, mysterious camp counsellor that you never see again, Iâll consider your summer better than ours.â
You snort at the suggestion, a bit of the fizz going up your nose, making you sneeze.
âWhen I was a kid, I used to write diary entries every day at camp wishing for a passionate summer romance with another camper,â You admit after a moment. âIt was always about the same kid â Kim Mingyu â we went every year, and I think I ended up talking to him all of twice?â
âWow, new (Y/n) lore! That explains why youâre such a hopeless loser when it comes to crushes.â Emma teases.
âI canât even deny it!â You dramatically fall back into your seat in mock despair. âItâs hard being a hopeless romantic in a world where everyone else is so ⌠practical.â
Jane chuckles, shifting her seat as she glances at you in the mirror. âYou say that now, but just wait. True romance only comes when youâre not expecting it.â
You roll your eyes, though you canât help but smile at the thought. âYou two are just setting me up for disappointment. What if all the other counsellors are, like, sixty?â
âThen youâll get some great life advice,â Emma quips, twisting around to give you a playful grin.
âBesides, age is just a number!â Jane adds, waggling her eyebrows suggestively and making you all burst into laughter.
âTo be honest, I think youâll be too busy looking for frogs to look for a prince. You wouldnât realise someone was into you if they hit you round the head with it.â Emma snorts.
âYeah, yeah â that was one time!â
âThe frogs or the crush?â
âAlright! We canât all be Casanovaâs now can we? Besides, youâre probably right â I do plan on going frog catching and it might take a while.â
You lean backwards, posing with crossed arms and a nodding head. Your pretence at coolness is unfortunately cut off quickly, as Jane slams the car down the junction exit that sheâd almost missed, toppling you back into your seat.
A chorus of giggles explodes in the car.
âDo you think youâre going to be able to survive on your own for a month?â Jane chortles.
âThe real question is â do you think youâre going to be able to survive a month without me?â You respond, playfully patting her shoulder.
âItâs going to be tough.â Emma agrees with mock seriousness, although you can feel the tender truth to her words. âLuckily, weâll have sexy Spanish men and bottles of champagne to drown our sorrows in.â
The road in front of you becomes narrower, winding through dense woods, and the familiar scent of pine fills the air.
âThatâs it!â You exclaim, sitting up straighter, your heart beating a little faster.
As the camp entrance comes into view, marked by a large wooden sign that reads âCamp Loganâ, you canât help but feel a thrill of anticipation. Itâs been just under a decade since you were last here, and everything feels exactly the same as you remember.
The car pulls up to the inlet at the start of the woodchip trail leading into the camp. Leaning all the way forward, you embrace your two friends in a long hug, thanking them for dropping you off and cracking up at the almost sombre mood caused by your departure.
Stepping out, you reach for your trunk from the rails on top of the car, pulling it down with ease.
You wave your friends off as they speed away, leaving fading declarations of love as they go. The reality of being on your own sinks in as the dust from their departure settles on the gravel road. You take a deep breath, adjusting your bag on your shoulder, trying to steady the butterflies fluttering in your stomach.
The entrance to camp looms ahead, a rustic wooden archway adorned with carvings of pine trees and woodland creatures. The path is just as you remember, lined with tall, towering pines that stretch up into the bright blue sky.
You can hear faint laughter and the distant sound of campers running about, already immersed in their summer adventure. The excitement you felt during the drive here is still there, but itâs now tempered with a hint of anxiety. What if you donât fit in with the other counsellors? What if the kids are too much to handle?
The doubts creep in, but you shake your head, pushing them away. This is what youâve been waiting forâa summer of new experiences, challenges, and maybe even that elusive summer romance your friends teased you about.
As you approach the main lodge, you catch sight of a group of counsellors gathered on the porch, laughing and chatting as they prepare for the week ahead. They seem at ease, already forming bonds that you hope to become a part of. You watch them for a moment, taking in the scene, before a voice behind you interrupts your thoughts.
âHey there, you must be the new arrival!â
You turn to see a tall, athletic guy with sun-kissed skin and a friendly smile walking toward you. Heâs wearing a camp T-shirt and cargo shorts, his camp name, âFrosty,â stitched onto his shirt in bold green letters.
It takes your brain a moment to compute that you recognise his face.
Oh, God.
You look up to the sky for a second, sending a silent SOS as the sun shines down on you, leaving you nowhere to escape. You can feel shock flooding through your body, and youâre struggling to even reply.
âKim Mingyu?â
The manâs eyebrows shoot upwards, and itâs clear youâve taken him aback too. You stare at other for a moment, before realisation dawns across his features and he lets out a loud laugh, reaching forward to grab your shoulder.
âOh my god, (Y/n) (Y/l/n)! I should have known youâd be back here! Youâre even wearing the same outfit that you used to wear!â
You peer down at your old camp tee, little denim shorts, and hiking boots, your hair twirled with twine and ribbon into two plaits, feeling a little embarrassed that heâd immediately clocked your effort to recreate your camper days.
âWell if it helped you recognise me, then Iâm glad I wore it!â You stammer, releasing a nervous laugh. âWould have been awkward if you hadnât remembered me but I remembered you.â
Mingyu laughs in response, nodding his head, and youâre grateful that the calm, friendly demeanour he had as a kid is still alive and well.
âIâm meant to give you a tour and get you set up, but I suppose you wonât really need it.â He smiles, running a hand through his hair and you canât help but look at the flex of his biceps as he does.
âOh â um, I suppose a refresher wouldnât hurt!â
He nods, and points over to the right side of the clearing. âOkay, well, your cabin is just that one over there, with the three on it. Let me know when youâre all set up and Iâll introduce you to the other counsellors and we can catch up!â
You thank him, and practically sprint away into the cabin.
The wooden cabin of the counsellors is not far different than the camperâs cabins, although notably nicer smelling and less beds. There are three bunks inside, with chests and small side cabinets to keep possessions on. The floor is covered in a green rug, and you can see that two of the other bunks already have unpacked belongings next to them.
You let out a shaky breath, steading your racing mind as you sit down on the empty bed. You can practically hear Emma and Jane laughing at you, and decide that youâd text them the moment you know theyâve landed from their flight.
Kim Mingyu? Seriously? It is like the universe decided to play a cruel joke on you. Itâs not like you still have a crush on him, even if he has grown up well, but even the flash from the past has rattled you entirely.
âAlrighty, so over here we have the other lead counsellors â Ace and Fairy. These guys are the ones to find if you need anything; theyâll be far more helpful than me.â
âHi, Iâm (Y/n)!â You greet them, waving.
âGonna have to get you a camp nickname before the kids hear your actual name and refuse to call you anything else!â The taller person, Ace, jokes. Their short sandy blonde hair is pushed back by a black band, and they sport the same camp t-shirt as Mingyu, with a pair of long khaki cargo pants.
To their side, Fairy stands, giving you a friendly wave back. She, unlike the others, is wearing her camp t-shirt as a bandeau under dungarees shorts that are only strapped on one side.
âThatâs a fair point â have you got something in mind or do you want us to give you one?â Mingyu nods thoughtfully.
âOh, thatâs so exciting!â You beam as you look over at Ace and Fairy, still unable to meet Mingyuâs gaze. âI used to love the idea of having a special nickname when I was a kid!â
âI think âsunshineâ would do the trick,â Fairy snorts. You feel a blush tickling your neck at the suggestion, and you wonder if your positivity is rubbing off the wrong way.
âWeâll put that one on the maybe list,â Mingyu laughs, holding out a hand to gesture to where youâre walking next.
âOver by the lake are all the kids' cabins. We've got somewhere around 100 campers at the moment, but a few more will join us in the later weeks. Obviously, all the water activities will be done from the dock over there - do you remember what sort of stuff you signed up to run?"
"All of the outdoorsy ones, I think."
"Okay, cool. You'll probably be working with me, Ace, or Hoshi mostly. The counsellor toilets are just round that corner there; they're hidden out of sight so that the kids don't get confused, but you'll need the code to get in anyways. Over there is the mess hall, as you probably remember. Last year they moved a bunch of the arts and crafts stuff into the left wing of the building, so that might be a little different, but the dance, music, and other indoor activities are still in the west building. The admin office, infirmary, and camp store are all in that building over there - you should pop by something today just to say hello to Laura and Maureen - they're super nice but they like to know who's in camp at all times! And finally, all of the sports fields, woodland areas, and the outdoor theatre are over to the east of the lake. You got all that?"
"I think so! It seems mostly the same?" You smile nervously.
Mingyu seems far less concerned about it all. âGreat! So, how have you been? It must be almost a decade since I last saw you!â
You feel slightly overwhelmed by trying to catalogue your life over the last few years into a few sentences.
âIâm good!â
Thatâs a good start.
âIâll be starting my third year of university in September, and Iâm studying geography, but I think I might do teacher training afterwards. Iâm not really sure â but, I guess this summer will be a great tester! Um, I took up knitting in June? Oh â and Iâm so excited to be back! Canât wait to be back out on the lake! How about you?â
Good enough.
 âOh nice â I could definitely see you as a teacher, you always were one of the nicest campers in our cohort.â Mingyu smiles genuinely, and you feel yourself blushing again. âIâve been a counsellor here for a few years now; Iâve been doing it since I started university. Donât judge me, but I am studying business â hoping that the camp counsellor label cancels out the bad reputation though!â
You laugh, nodding. âItâs a bit of a stretch, but I think youâll get away with it.â
âGlad I have your approval,â he chuckles, shooting you a toothy grin. âHere, lets go to the hall and you can meet some of the other counsellors.â
âWhere did âFrostyâ come from, by the way?â You ask, curious, as you both walk towards the entrance to the mess hall.
Mingyu hums, glancing at you with a mischievous twinkle in his eye. âAh, the infamous nickname story. Itâs actually not as cool as you might think,â he begins, pushing open the heavy doors to the hall. The scent of wood, faintly mixed with lingering hints of breakfast, wafts out to greet you.
âIt was my first year here as a counsellor. I was super eager to make a good impression, but on the first morning of camp, I didnât realise just how cold the lake water could be at dawn. So, during the early canoe session, I jumped in to show the kids that it was âno big dealâ.â He pauses, shaking his head at the memory.
âAnd?â You prompt, intrigued by the story.
âAnd I came out so cold that I was shivering, my lips were practically blue, and my skin had turned icy. One of the kids started calling me âFrostyâ and the name just stuck. I guess it was better than being called âshiversâ or something worse.â He adds with a laugh, his cheeks reddening slightly.
You giggle, imagining the scene. âThatâs actually a great origin story. Itâs kind of endearing.â
âItâs grown on me.â Mingyu admits.
You both step into the mess hall. The room is spacious, filled with long wooden tables and benches, with large windows on one side letting in the afternoon light. A group of counsellors are gathered near the front, some arranging supplies with others chat animatedly.
As Mingyu leads you over, the chatter quiets down slightly, and all eyes turn to you.
âAlright, everyone, this is (Y/n), our newest counsellor. Be nice and donât scare them off on their first day,â He teases, and the group chuckles.
One by one, they introduce themselves, each with their own unique nickname story. From what you can remember, thereâs Hatter, whose nickname is cryptically based on the Mad Hatter from Alice in Wonderland, Sparks, whoâs the go-to guy for anything involving campfires or fireworks, and Gecko, who is in charge of the art station in camp.
âWelcome to the team, (Y/n)!â Sparks says, tipping his baseball cap at you.
âThanks, everyone! Iâm really excited to be here.â You reply, basking in the warm reception.
Mingyu gives you a nod, clearly pleased. âIâll leave you to get acquainted. Feel free to explore more, just be back for dinner at 6!â
As Mingyu heads off to tend to other duties, the counsellors start to chat to you, sharing stories and giving you tips for surviving your first week. You quickly learn that despite their laid-back appearances, they all share a deep love for the camp and seem as dedicated as you to making it an unforgettable experience for the campers.
âI pitched scuba diving at this yearâs council, but it got vetoed.â Hatter grumbles.
Gecko scoffs, crossing her arms. âThe only thing interesting in that lake is the random shit that kids throw in â thatâs if you can see anything at all.â
âWere you the one that vetoed it?!â
âI suggested creating a camp newspaper,â Sparks interjects, cutting through the bickering. âAnd since it wasnât a safety hazard, they decided to include it this year.â
âThatâs really cool! And the kids can send them back to their parents to let them know what they've been up to!" You gush, imagining how much fun it would have been to have that option when you were a camper.
"You always get your projects picked!" Hatter sighs, throwing his hands up in frustration.
"First of all, that's not true." Sparks says, rolling his eyes. "And second, mine wasn't the only idea to get picked. Hoshi got his star gazing sessions, remember?"
It dawns on you that you still havenât met all of the counsellors. The thought must be clear on your face, as Gecko turns to you and asks: âHave you met Hoshi yet?â
You shake your head. âNo, Iâve only met you guys, Min â sorry, Frosty, Fairy, and Ace. Are there any other counsellors I havenât met?â You have to force yourself to use Mingyuâs camp name so that you donât let his real name slip in front of the kids.
âYou havenât met Old Bill yet, but heâll be holed up in the music room.â Sparks replies, visibly ticking off names in his head. âAnd aside from him and Hoshi, the rest are arriving tomorrow.â
"Oh! Speaking of which - Frosty mentioned I should check in with Laura and Maureen, so I might go do that now?" You exclaim, remembering Mingyuâs advice. The group nods and waves as you head off. Feeling good about the other counsellors, your earlier apprehensions fade, leaving you with a growing sense of joy at being back in camp.
That afternoon, you wander over to the main building, making sure to pop into both the infirmary and the head office. At dinner, you sit amongst the kids, starting to get to know their names and faces and hoping to make a good impression in return. You return to your cabin afterwards, fondly thinking about your start to camp. You're sharing your dorm with Gecko and Fairy, and the three of you spent the evening chatting and getting to know each other over a bottle of gin that Fairy had sneaked into camp - which had felt rather scandalous to you.
When you get a chance, you shoot a text off from your flip phone to Emma and Jane, reminding them not to call because you didnât want to discuss the situation in front of your new cabinmates.
You have to stifle a laugh as you receive their elated replies, and almost block Emma for the R-rated suggestions she leaves in your inbox.
Snuggling down that night, you wonder if you might finally get the second chance youâd dreamed of as a kid.
The next morning, youâre practically bouncing with excitement as you make your way towards the campâs rope course. The first day of camp is always the best. Youâve been looking forward to getting into the activities ever since you got the job, and climbing was always your favourite as a kid. Thereâs something about heights, the thrill of adventure, that speaks to the childlike wonder still alive in you.
The sun is already warming the air, but thereâs a cool breeze filtering through the pine trees that keeps the camp feeling fresh. You cannot wait to start creating memories with the campers.
As you approach the ropes course, you spot a figure standing near the gear shack, fiddling with a bundle of harnesses. Heâs tall, lean, and has a shock of platinum hair that contrasts against the dark forest. As he turns around, you are left a little starstruck by the handsome face that greets you, and you have to remind yourself that you donât have to crush on every cute person you encounter.
Banishing the thoughts from your mind, you wave energetically. âHey! You must be Hoshi! Iâm (Y/n)! Fairy said that we were co-leaders today!â
He turns to face you, blinking at your sudden burst of enthusiasm and offers a small smile, looking a little surprised. âOh! Yeah, nice to meet you.â He says a little shyly. âYou here to help with the ropes course?â
âAbsolutely!â You chirp, extending your hand. âIâm so excited to work with you this summer. I love this kind of thing - clinging, jumping, swinging through the air like a superhero. It's so fun that I get to do it for my first session!"
Hoshi shakes your hand, trying to stifle a laugh at your enthusiasm. "Yeah, it'll be ... interesting. But not everyone's into it, though. Some of the kids can be a little scared at first."
"Don't worry!" You declare, "I'm sure we'll be able to hype them up. They'll be climbing like monkeys by the end of the session!"
You expect a polite laugh or another small smile, but instead, something shifts in Hoshiâs expression. His eyes sparkle with a hint of mischief as he straightens up, looking at you with an almost playful glint.
âOh yeah?â he asks, raising an eyebrow. âWeâll see about that.â
Before you can ask what he means, a group of campers starts to arrive, chattering excitedly as they line up near the base of the ropes course.
âAlright, everyone!â you call out, clapping your hands to get their attention. âWhoâs ready to have some fun and conquer this ropes course?â
A few kids cheer, while others look a little nervous, shifting their weight from foot to foot as they eye the towering structure ahead of them.
âNo worries if youâre feeling a little scared,â you say reassuringly. âItâs totally normal! Weâll go at your pace, and I promise, by the end of it, youâll feel like Spider-Man swinging through the city.â
The kids giggle, some of them visibly relaxing. Youâre about to continue when Hoshi steps forward, a wide grin etching onto his face. "And just to prove it to you all, we're going to start with a little induction ritual for our new camp leader!"
You glance over at him, surprised by the sudden spotlight on you. Thereâs a challenge in his eyes now, one that wasnât there before. He adjusts his harness, tightening the straps with quick, practiced movements, and without another word, he leaps up onto the first platform of the ropes course with the agility of someone whoâs done it a hundred times.
He glances down, grinning for real now, and holds a hand down to you. "Come on, I'll race you to the top!"
Without waiting for a response, he takes off again, scrambling up a rope ladder with impressive speed. The kids cheer, and suddenly your competitive spirit kicks in.
âOh, itâs on!â you yell, rushing over to grab a harness and clip yourself in. You barely take a second to check the straps before youâre darting after him, laughing the whole way as the kids below start cheering for you both.
You manage to keep pace with him, climbing and leaping with the same energy thatâs always been your signature. Every time you think youâre about to catch up, Hoshi takes another daring leap, swinging across gaps or balancing on the narrowest part of the beams just to show off. Thereâs a wildness to him thatâs completely different from the almost shy guy you met earlier.
By the time you both reach the final platform, breathless but grinning from ear to ear, the kids are cheering so loudly you can barely hear yourself think. Hoshi swings up onto the last platform just a second before you, throwing his hands up in victory as you flop down beside him, laughing.
âOkay, okay, you win,â you gasp, wiping sweat from your forehead.
Hoshi chuckles, leaning back against the railing and catching his breath. "You're pretty fast yourself," he says, nudging your shoulder with his elbow. "I didn't think you'd keep up."
You sit up, grinning widely. "You're just lucky I didn't eat a second breakfast today. Otherwise, I totally would've smoked you."
He laughs again, before peering down at the kids below. "I think we might have to get them strapped up before they start trying to climb the trees themselves."
You nod, finally understanding his plan. The spectacle of the race had taken all of the pressure off of the kids, and had let them see just how safe the course was. It was a trick that you'd have to remember.
Soonyoung watches as you move to the back of the line of kids, crouching down to speak to a young boy at the end. The kid looks nervous, clutching the harness like itâs the only thing keeping him from running back to the safety of the cabin.
He doesnât know what you say to the boy, but itâs obviously helping as he looks up at you with awe, his hands loosening their grip. Youâre offering your hand out to him, and Soonyoung realises that youâre going to go up into the course with him.
Heâs manning the guide ropes, and offers you a nod as you look over for confirmation that heâll be able to manage without you. Now alone at the bottom of the course, his thoughts begin to overwhelm.
The moment youâd run over waving at him this morning, Soonyoung had been flooded with memories. When Mingyu had mentioned last night that the new counsellor was someone theyâd both known from camp, heâd never have guessed it would be you.
But you are entirely recognisable. You are just as bubbly and energetic as you were as a kid, running around camp, always surrounded by friends. Soonyoung reminisces over his old camp days, getting stuck on the memory of your first meeting.
It is a week in summer camp, and Soonyoung is having a bad time. His parents insisted on him going; they had assured him that heâd have fun, that he loved the outdoors and heâd make friends quickly enough.
Unfortunately, they are mistaken.
Heâs not surprised. He knows heâs shy and meeting new people is never his idea of fun. He was hoping that some extroverted kid may pick him up and carry him into a social group, but that hasnât happened yet and heâs starting to worry that heâll have to find a different way.
Soonyoungâs cabin mates are nice enough, but theyâve already formed their own tight-knit group. At night, they talk about things he doesnât really know about â sports teams, video games, and shared inside jokes.
The worse part is, the camp counsellors are always so cheerful, always asking him how heâs doing, if heâs having fun. He puts on a smile, nods and says itâs all great â what else is he supposed to say?
Soonyoungâs sitting on the edge of the lake on afternoon, his knees pulled up to his chest, staring at the rippling water as a canoe glides by with some laughing campers in it. He picks up a small stone and skips it across the surface, watching it hop once, twice, then disappear into the lake.
âHey, that was a pretty good skip!â
Soonyoung jumps at the voice, his heart racing as he turns to see a girl standing beside him. Youâre wearing a camp t-shirt, your hair tied back in two messy braids, and youâre smiling at him like youâve known him for years.
âUh, thanks.â He mumbles, unsure of what else to say. You pick up another rock from beside him, fiddling with it in between your fingers.
âMy brother said skipping stones is all about finding the right rock. Here, look at this one!â You present the rock to him â flat, smooth, and lightweight with rounded edges. Flicking the stone with a snap of your wrist, he watches as it skips over the lake three times before dropping down below. You let out a laugh of achievement, and Soonyoung commits the sound to his memory.
âIâm (Y/n), by the way.â You say, plopping down beside him without waiting for an invitation. âIâve seen you around but havenât had the chance to say hi yet.â
Soonyoung feels the heat rise to his face. âOh, um, Iâm Kwon Soonyoung.â
You grin, your eyes sparkling with playful energy. âNice to meet you Soonyoung. A few of the other campers and I are planning on stealing some marshmallows from the kitchen tonight and roasting them over the firepit â do you wanna come?â
He glances over at you, surprised at your offer. You clearly notice his hesitation and offer him a friendly smile, and he cannot help by accept. âOh, yeah, that would be fun!â
âOkay, great!â You jump up excitedly, and he feels his own spirits lifting in tandem. âMeet us at the kitchen at 7pm.â
He had gone that night, and youâd introduced him to the rest of your friends. Soonyoung fondly remembers that evening, getting to know those campers and watching you laugh and dance around in your own little world.
He hadnât spoken to you much after that, but he remembers everything. He can admit in hindsight that, by the end of that summer, heâd had a huge crush on you. He was sure you didnât return those feelings â in fact, heâd heard you gushing to one of the other campers about Mingyu.
Yet, seeing you now, Soonyoung cannot help but feel like heâs been given a second chance. There is a new freedom in knowing that you didnât remember the past. He could be confident, more daring â everything he wasnât back then. There is no reason for you to ever associate this version of him with the kid you used to know, and he isnât about to remind you.
At dinner that night, you find yourself peering back over at the blonde, your mind occupied with questions about him.
You feel like your camper self, looking over at a cute boy that youâre kind of scared to talk to, except this time Kim Mingyu is not the object of your attention. You can actually feel your younger self gawking at you for not taking the chance to flirt with her crush, but for some reason itâs your daring co-leader that is taking up all the space in your mind.
Wow â you think you really are absurd, blushing over a guy youâd met earlier that day. Your friends may have mocked you for your hopeless love life, but they wouldnât be able to contain themselves if they saw you now.
The rain is coming down outside in a steady drizzle, a soft, rhythmic patter against the cabin roof that creates a cozy, if dreary atmosphere. Some of the campers, having been stuck indoors all afternoon, are grumbling about their ruined evening plans, while others huddle together in the hall, trying to stay entertained.
You glance out of the window, watching the drops streak down the glass as the grey sky darkens into evening. The air inside the cabin feels a little stuffy, and you can tell that everyone needs a pick-me-up, even the other counsellors. Thatâs when an idea hits you â your trip down memory lane jogging a sweet treat that always lifted your spirits when you were younger.
âHey, guys!â You call out, clapping your hands together with a grin. A few heads turn your way, curiosity flickering across their faces. âWhoâs up for some peppermint hot chocolate?â
âPeppermint hot chocolate?â One of the young girls asks, her eyes wide with anticipation.
âOh yeah,â you beam, heading toward the small kitchenette. âItâs my special recipe. Guaranteed to make rainy days a hundred times better.â
In the corner of your gaze, you see Mingyu standing up with a large grin, nodding at the kids. âJust what we all need!â
A buzz of excited murmurs spread through the group. Meeting Mingyuâs eyes to express your gratitude for his support, you let everyone know that the hot chocolate should be ready in only a few minutes.
As you gather the ingredients, pulling out the cocoa powder, milk, sugar, and peppermint extract, the chatter in the cabin grows livelier. Youâve been making this recipe for years, ever since you learned it from your grandmother, and it has become your go-to for nights like this.
Just as you get into the rhythm of stirring, you feel someone step beside you. Turning, you see Hoshi leaning casually against the counter, watching you with a small smile that makes your heart skip a beat.
âYouâre a lifesaver,â he says, glancing around the room. âThe kids were about to start climbing the walls.â
âItâs my secret weapon for rainy days.â You reply, glancing at him form over your shoulder. âPeppermint hot chocolate â grandmaâs tradition.â
Hoshi chuckles, watching you with a soft gaze. âSecret weapon, huh? I had no idea that you were a hot chocolate expert on top of everything else.â
âOh, you have no idea the depths of my talent. This hot chocolate is just the tip of the iceberg.â
He raises an eyebrow, his lips quirking into a smirk. âIs that so? Guess Iâll have to stick around and see what other surprises youâve got up your sleeve.â
âOh, trust me, youâre not ready for the full 'Peppermint' experience,â You tease, trying to sound casual, but feeling the heat rising in your face, and you know the cause isnât the hot chocolate. Was he being... nice? Or is thatâno, donât overthink it, you tell yourself.
Hoshi steps a little closer, peering into the pot as the chocolate mixture begins to bubble. âLooks like youâve got this down to a science.â He remarks, voice low and teasing.
You shoot him a playful look. âWhat can I say? I aim to impress. Besides, I figured the campers deserve a little something special after being cooped up all afternoon.â
He smiles now, and for a moment, the teasing falls away. âItâs hard to believe that itâs your first day doing this â youâre good at it. Taking care of the kids. Keeping everyoneâs spirits up.â
âOh, itâs nothing,â you say, waving a hand dismissively, though the warmth of his words settles in your chest. âI just want them to have fun, you know? The same as all of you guys.â
âI donât know if you realise it, but youâve already got most of us hooked. That hot chocolate is just the cherry on top.â
Your breath hitches slightly at his words, and you look up at him, your eyes meeting his. For a moment, the rainy world outside the cabin fades away, leaving just the two of your standing in the warm glow of the kitchen, the pot bubbling gently between you.
You blink rapidly, feeling your cheeks turn even redder. Is he flirting? No way. You are probably just misreading it, like you always do. Right? Surely, he is just being friendly. Thatâs all.
Before you can spiral any further, you snap back around to the hot chocolate. You quickly ladle a scoop into one of the mugs, spilling a little onto the counter in your haste.
âYouâll be hooked on this when youâve tasted it!â You chirp, overcorrecting for your nervousness with a panicked cheerfulness.
Giving you a small, lingering smile, Hoshi softly takes the cup from your hands and takes a sip, his eyes never leaving yours.
âOkay, Iâll admit it,â he says, lowering the mug with a grin. âThis is really good. You might be onto something with the peppermint.â
You smile sheepishly, feeling a swell of pride but still a little awkward under his gaze. âThanks. Iâm glad you like it.â
âI donât just like it,â he teases, his voice dropping slightly. âI think you just made my day.â
Your heart feels completely overwhelmed. Is he doing this on purpose? Youâre already hopeless at telling friendliness from flirting, and you certainly arenât used to these little compliments, and itâs all too much for you to handle.
You hand out the rest of the mugs to the campers, avoiding eye contact with Hoshi who stays by your side to help. The kids take them eagerly, sipping their hot chocolate with delighted smiles. The cabin is filled with warmth, not just from the drinks, but from the cozy, cheerful atmosphere that has blossomed despite the rain.
âHey, this is great hot chocolate!â Mingyu sings as he walks over to your station, half-full cup in hand.
You grin at him, happy for a distraction from the uncertainty standing next to you. âThanks! The kids seem pretty happy.â
âTotally. You saved the day.â Mingyu praises with an exaggerated sigh of relief. âAnd, I heard some of the kids calling you âpeppermint hot chocolateâ, so I think â if we shorten it â you may be able to embroider your shirt. âPeppermintâ is a pretty cute nickname, all things considered.â
To your side, you think you see Hoshi grimacing for a second, but the expression is quickly wiped from his features.
âItâs a good suggestion.â He says, his tone flatter than it had been earlier.
âIâll take it! Although if the kids are already calling me it, I suppose I donât have much choice!â You say cheerfully, feeling your cheeks flushing at the thought. But, you are endeared towards the nickname, and having the campers respect you enough to give you a personalised nickname is pretty special.
By the time youâve finished talking to Mingyu, Hoshi seems to have disappeared from your side. Even though you feel increasingly nervous around him, a part of you is a little sad that you no longer get to talk with him. But, you have chores to get on with, and 100 mugs arenât going to clean themselves.
The next two weeks fly past. The camp is alive with the sounds of laughter, shouts and the crackling of campfire, and the days blend together as the campers rotate through their favourite activities.
Youâve spent a lot of time trying to get to know everyone, with a particular focus on your group of campers and the other camp counsellors.
Hoshi and you have still been co-leaders for most of the time, although youâd had a few sessions with Mingyu, Sparks, and one with Gecko. The more time that you spend with Hoshi, the more you are falling deeper into your crush, even if you hate to admit it.
At the start, youâd wondered if the crush was just the product of a new environment, new people, and a lingering suggestion from your friends of a summer romance that latched onto the first cute person you saw. But, if that were true, Mingyu would have been the object of your affections. At this point, you are forced to admit that your crush on Hoshi is more than a matter of convenience. Heâs funny, adventurous, and great with the kids, and you have to stop yourself from staring at his face for too long when youâre together.
Itâs made it a little harder for you to co-lead with him, but you think youâve done a pretty good job of hiding your feelings. The last thing youâd want to do is make things awkward for him and the kids, and youâve had one too many unrequired crushes to make such a rookie mistake as to publicise it.
That evening, after a long day of camp activities, the kids finally settled into their own cabins, the counsellors are left with some well-earned downtime.
You, Gecko, and Fairy pile into your shared cabin, which has quickly become a sanctuary at the end of each hectic day. The cabin is cozy, its wooden walls creaking faintly with the evening breeze that slips through the screen windows.
You flop onto your bed, letting out an exaggerated groan of exhaustion, your limbs spread out like a starfish. âI donât know about you two, but those kids wore me out today,â you say, dramatically throwing an arm over your eyes. âIf I have to get into another canoe, I think I might actually become one with the lake.â
Gecko, who is sitting cross-legged on her bed, leafing through an old camp magazine, snorts. âYeah, right. Youâre like the Energizer Bunny, Peps. Iâve never seen you actually sit still.â
âTrue!â Fairy pipes in, hoping up onto her bunk and dangling her legs over the edge. âI swear, you were running circles around those kids during the canoe races. I was convinced you were going to tip the boat from sheer excitement.â
You peak out from under your arm, grinning. âHey, Iâm just trying to keep the energy up! These kids need someone to cheer them up!â
"You and Hoshi sure are making it hard for us other counsellors to keep up. My kids came in today asking to have a paint fight because of your antics yesterday."Â Gecko rolls her eyes, but smiles. "Are we sure you're not secretly still a camper?"
At the mention of Hoshi, you feel a blush creep up your cheeks, though you try and laugh it off. âPlease, if youâre going to blame anyone, blame Mingyu â he threw the first brush!â
Fairy smirks, noticing the slight pink tint to your face. She twirls a lock of hair around her finger, her eyes narrowing playfully. âYou know, it always catches me off guard when you refer to him as Mingyu.â She begins, her voice dripping with curiosity. âHeâs the only counsellor you do that with.â
âI hadnât realised.â You hum, thinking over her words. âI guess because Iâve known him for so long, it feels weird to not call him Mingyu.â
Gecko and Fairy share a look.
âSure, but you guys have been spending a lot of time together lately.â Gecko says, raising an eyebrow as she leans back on her hands.
You feel your eyebrows shoot up in surprise. Had you?
Youâd co-led with Mingyu a couple times over the last few weeks, and spent a bit of time catching up on old memories, but you didnât think youâd spent any more time with him than any of the other counsellors.
âYou think so? I wouldnât say so.â
âOh, please,â Fairy scoffs, hopping down from her bunk and plopping onto the bed next to you. âTell me honestly that there isnât some history there.â
You blink, flustered. âOh, well, I guessâŚâ You begin, feeling compelled to tell the truth under their curious gazes. âOkay, well you canât tell anyone, but I used to have a crush on him when we were campers. Not anymore though!â
You see the pair of them smirk at each other.
â- weâre just friends now. And I wouldnât want any more. To be honest, Iâd be more likely to date Hoshi than Mingyu.â You admit, the blush on your cheeks darkening at your confession.
âOf course! We wouldnât think any different!â Fairy says in a tone that makes you wonder if sheâd actually heard what you just said.
âAnd itâs totally fine, everyone thinks Mingyuâs hot.â Gecko adds, and you realise that they hadnât at all heard what you just said.
You sigh, leaning back onto your arms. âI guess.â
Fairy hums out a satisfied tune, moving back onto her bunk. You suppose that itâs still a bit early to emphasise your crush on Hoshi right now, and let the moment pass, hoping that they wouldnât take it any further in their mistaken understanding of your love life.
Soonyoung is not jealous â heâs determined.
Heâs spent the last few weeks trying to keep his cool around you, but itâs hard not to get caught up in everything you are. Thereâs something magnetic about the way you move through camp, always laughing, always making the kids feel safe and happy. Heâs changed so much since you were younger, but you havenât changed at all.
The issue is â your feelings are an enigma to him. In his eyes, it seems like youâre flirting back with him, laughing at his jokes, placing your hand on his arm, and heâs spotted you looking at him a few times now.
But heâd overheard some campers around the campfire giggling about you and Mingyu and begun to wonder if heâs mistaken your kindness for something greater.
He doesnât want to make you uncomfortable if heâs wrong, especially when you havenât explicitly given him any signal, but he also doesnât want to ignore the spark he feels between you.
That night, as the campfire crackles under the stars, the campers roast marshmallows and sing songs under the stars. Youâre sat cross-legged on one of the logs, leading a small group of kids in a lively rendition of an old campfire favourite. Your voice is light and playful, if a little off-pitch, and Soonyoung can feel your laughter infecting him as the kids fumble through the lyrics.
He sits back in his seat with a content smile, watching from across the fire. The firelight dances on your face, your hair illuminated in soft, flickering hues.
âHey, Hoshi!â You call out from across the fire, your eyes gleaming with excitement. âWeâre going to have a marshmallow roasting contest. You in?â
He chuckles, standing up and making his way over. âYouâre on,â he says, grabbing a stick. âBut donât say I didnât warn you â I make the perfect golden marshmallow.â
You stick your tongue cutely out at him in mock defiance. âWeâll see about that.â
The campers gather round, joining in and bursting into laughter as Soonyoungâs marshmallow drops into the fire. He canât find it inside himself to care though, as he watches the delight etch onto your face as you realise his mistake.
As the kids head off to their cabins for the night, you grab his arm, pulling him off to one side.
âSorry, I know you probably just wanna crash out, but I wanted to ask you something.â You say quietly, with a small, apologetic smile.
Soonyoungâs heart begins to patter, curious and slightly nervous at what youâll want to know.
âHowâd you know that I was a camper here before?â
Ah, shit.
He thinks back to your second day as co-leaders, when heâd let it slip that he knew you went to Camp Logan as a child. The rain had started pouring, cutting off any questions you could have had, and heâd hoped youâd forgotten about it.
âWell, it was only your second day, but you were bounding all over the place like you knew where everything is â and I know Mingyu doesnât give that in-depth of a tour.â He replies, his tone casual.
âAhh, I suppose it does make sense. Also-â You poke at your old camp t-shirt that you are still donning. âI guess I fit the stereotype a little.â
âWell, if it makes you feel better, youâre not the only person who returned here as an adult.â He laughs, hoping to make you feel better.
Your eyebrows shoot back with curiosity. âOh, really? Did you come here too?â
Soonyoung realises his mistake. âOh, uh, I did go to a summer camp as a kid,â he splutters, caught off guard. âBut a different one. Not this one.â
You look a little confused for a second, but nod your head in understanding.
Soonyoung lets out a quiet breath, thankful that you didnât push the subject further. Heâs always been good at staying calm, at least outwardly, but right now, standing here with you so close, his heart is doing somersaults. Not to mention, the way that the firelight glows on your face is making it hard for him to focus on anything else.
âSo,â you say with a smile. âYou promised to tell me the story of your nickname â I havenât forgotten!â
He lets out a relieved chuckle, glad that the conversation topic has changed.
âOh, well, technically Hoshi means âstarâ â I got it because I used to stare at the stars every night when I was a camper,â Soonyoung explains, his voice taking on a nostalgic tone. He glances up at the sky, taking in the faint but twinkling stars. âI guess the other counsellors thought it was funny that I was obsessed with them. I got approved to do some star-gazing sessions this year, though, which is pretty cool.â
You smile, your curiosity piqued. âWow, I didnât realise that you were into that, thatâs really amazing.â
He grins, eyes flicking back to meet yours. âYeah, and I kinda like the name now â âHoshiâ sounds cool, right?â
You giggle. âIt does suit you. Though Iâll have to keep an eye on you during nighttime hikes, just in case you wander off to stare at the sky.â
Soonyoung laughs, shaking his head. Thereâs a comfortable pause, the crackling of the fire filling the space between you. The warmth from the flames mirror the warmth in his chest as he stands next to you, but there is something more pulling at him. He canât help but feel the weight of everything unsaid between you twoâthe lingering looks, the playful touches, the way your smile always seems a little brighter when itâs directed at him. He needs to know if heâs imagining it.
âActually,â Soonyoung says, his voice lowering slightly, a playful edge creeping in, âI think thereâs something else that suits me.â
You tilt your head. âOh? Whatâs that?â
He hesitates for a beat, his eyes locking with yours, a slow smile spreading across his face. âBeing around you.â He says, his voice soft but teasing. âIâve gotta admit, the stars just seem to gleam brighter when youâre around.â
A blush immediately creeps up your neck, and you look away from him for a second, taken off guard.
âYouâre shameless.â You stammer, unable to meet his gaze again.
âItâs true â Iâve noticed that the stars just look better when weâre together. Or maybe itâs just because Iâm distracted.â
He has to admit that heâs enjoying how flustered you look as you blink at him. âOh, come on,â you finally reply, âyouâre just trying to get out of telling me more embarrassing stories from your camper days.â
Soonyoung chuckles, stepping just a little closer. âMaybe,â he shrugs. âOr maybe Iâm telling the truth.â
The space between you suddenly feels much smaller, and he can feel his own heartbeat racing.
You look back over at time, a small smile ghosting across your lips as the firelight reflects from your eyes. âYouâre impossible.â
âMaybe,â he says again, his voice light. âBut if it means I get to see you smile like that ⌠then Iâll take it.â
Your smile grows brighter, and Soonyoung wonders if you know that he is telling the truth.
âWell, you have a knack for making me smile.â You respond softly, and itâs his turn to feel bashful. All he can do is nod his head, unable to keep his own lips from quirking up back to you.
At the mid-point of the summer, you can tell that the camp is at a bit of a low. The homesickness has kicked in after weeks away from family, and the other counsellors are struggling to maintain the energy after the exhaustion of endless work.
Thankfully, as you well remember, this has been a recurring problem every year, and one that the camp has provisioned for.
Unlike the general mood, you are rather excited. Mingyu has been organising a camp disco for all of the campers over the last few days, and you canât wait to see the shine come back to the kidsâ faces. But, more than that, the counsellors are having their own little after party once the kids are asleep.
Youâve spent a lot of time with the other counsellors now, and although there havenât been many chances, you have been able to do some group activities together. But, to have a night to properly relax, kick back, and have a drink whilst the camp manager Laura watches over the kids is going to be a much-needed break. You can almost feel the anticipation buzzing in the air as you and the other counsellors exchange knowing glances throughout the day. Mingyu has been working hard to keep the details of the disco under wraps, and although the kids donât know it yet, tonight is going to be exactly what they need to shake off the homesickness and recharge for the rest of the summer.
You glance across the campgrounds, catching sight of Hoshi helping some of the kids with a craft project. Heâs been quieter the past few days, but you canât help but notice the way he sneaks glances at you when he thinks you arenât looking. Since that night by the campfire, when heâd said those words that left you a blushing mess, things have been... different. Thereâs this undercurrent between you two, subtle but undeniably there.
You feel a little flutter in your chest as you think about it, shaking your head to focus back on the task at hand. Tonight is going to be a good night for everyone, and youâre not about to let your presumptive heart distract you from the fun.
The camp disco is in full swing by the time the sun sets. The kids are bouncing around the hall, glow sticks in hand, dancing to their favourite songs, their earlier gloom forgotten. Mingyu, as expected, has done an amazing jobâstreamers hang from the ceiling, fairy lights twinkle in the corners, and the DJ (Old Bill) is playing all the right tunes. You smile, watching the kids come alive again, their excitement contagious.
You find yourself swaying to the music, encouraging the shy campers to join in on the dance floor, and before long, the room is full of laughter and energy. Itâs working. The mood has completely shifted, and for the first time in days, it feels like the homesickness has melted away.
At one point, youâre pulled into a dance-off with a group of younger campers, their enthusiasm too infectious to refuse. Youâre spinning and laughing, barely noticing when Hoshi sidles up next to you.
âYouâre showing them up,â he says with a grin.
You stop mid-spin, a little breathless, grinning back at him. âWell, someone has to keep up with them,â you reply, playfully nudging him.
He laughs, and the sound is too quickly carried away by the thrum of the music. Before you get any chance to chat more, one of the campers tugs at your hand, pulling you back into the dance circle.
The night flies by, the disco ending with tired but happy kids heading back to their cabins. You wave them off, thanking Mingyu for organizing everything as you begin to gather with the other counsellors towards the staff cabin.
An hour later, the camp feels almost eerily quiet. The campers are fast asleep, and the counsellors have migrated to the staff cabin, music playing softly in the background, the lights dimmed. You can feel the collective sigh of relief as you and the others sink into chairs, finally able to relax.
Mingyu cracks open a few bottles of wine and passes them around, and the conversation quickly shifts from camp duties to light-hearted banter. Everyoneâs unwinding, the exhaustion of the past few weeks melting away with each sip.
Hoshi takes a seat next to you, handing you a glass with a casual smile. "You look like youâre still buzzing from the dance party.â
 âIt was fun. Youâre a good dancer, you know?â You say sincerely, remembering watching him out with the kids. When he wasnât twirling the campers around or doing stupid moves to make them laugh, he had truly been a sight to behold â moving perfectly to the rhythm with a groove you hadnât expected.
âThanks â you killed it in the dance battle. I think youâre lucky you already have a nickname or theyâd start calling you âthe sprinklerâ.â
Your nose crinkles with disgust, and you can hear Hoshi laughing at your expression. âAbsolutely not. I hope that never-â
âHey, Pepper!â You hear from behind you, and you turn to see Fairy waving for you to come over.
You turn back around to Hoshi, giving him an apologetic smile as you move towards your cabinmate.
âWhatâs up?â
Fairy grins mischievously, patting the spot next to her on the couch. The other counsellors are gathered around, some holding their wine glasses, others lounging in comfortable silence. You sit down beside her, and she wastes no time leaning in conspiratorially.
âWeâre starting a game,â she whispers, her eyes sparking with mischief. âYou can thank me later.â
You raise an eyebrow, confused at her meaning. âHuh? What kind of game?â
Before Fairy can answer, Mingyu appears, plopping down on the other side of you with a bottle of wine in hand. âWeâre playing âTruth or Drinkââ he announces with a grin. âOr, as I like to call it, exposing everyoneâs secrets while weâre too tired to care.â
You laugh, shaking your head. âWow, I think we played this when we were campers.â
Fairy nods, smirking. âHeâs just trying to get out of answering questions.â
âOh, no. Iâm an open book,â Mingyu teases, leaning back and crossing his arms behind his head. âBut youââ he gestures toward youââI bet you have some juicy secrets.â
Fairy claps her hands together, drawing everyoneâs attention. âAlright, letâs get started! Weâll go in a circle. Truth or drink. If you donât wanna answer, you take a drink.â
The game kicks off with the usual light-hearted questions. The counsellors take turns asking things like, âWhatâs the most embarrassing thing thatâs happened to you at camp?â and âwhatâs the weirdest thing youâve seen a camper do?â Laughter echoes through the cabin as the group shares funny stories. Your gaze catches on Hoshi, sitting across from you, as he animatedly retells a story about the time that he ran a 100m sprint whilst drunk.
A little way into the game, Fairy turns toward you, a look that puts you on edge in her eye. âOkay, Pepper, this oneâs for you.â
âGo onâŚâ
She leans forward, her voice lowering to make the moment feel more dramatic. âHave you ever had a crush on anyone here?â
The group immediately bursts into giggles, all eyes turning toward you. You feel the heat rise to your cheeks from the attention. You cannot believe that sheâs just asked you that.
You let out a soft groan, covering your face with your hands for a moment. âYou guys are ridiculous.â
âCome on,â Mingyu says, nudging you with his elbow. âYou canât back out now!â
Looking back at Mingyu, you realise you have a choice. Admit to your childhood crush on him, admit to your current crush on Hoshi, or drink and let everyone realise that you do in fact like someone. The answer seems obvious to you â you didnât like Mingyu anymore so admitting to that crush would be embarrassing but you could get over it.
You peek out from behind your fingers, letting out a flustered laugh. âAlright, alright!â You take a deep breath, deciding to just go with it. âWhen I was younger⌠I used to have the biggest crush on Mingyu.â
The room goes silent for a beat before erupting into laughter. Mingyuâs eyes widen, clearly not expecting that answer, while the others start whooping and teasing him.
As the laughter from your confession settles, you glance around the circle, catching a glimpse of Hoshi sitting quietly across the room. His playful grin is still there, but something in his eyes has changed. It's subtle, but the usual lighthearted sparkle has dimmed just a little, and his posture seems more tense than relaxed. You blink, wondering if youâre imagining it, but you canât shake the feeling that somethingâs off.
Meanwhile, the other counsellors are still buzzing with excitement over your confession. Mingyu, clearly enjoying the attention, leans back with an exaggerated smirk.
âSo, Peps,â he teases, his grin wide, âI guess I was your first camp crush, huh? Man, thatâs a big responsibility.â
You roll your eyes, laughing. âDonât flatter yourself too much. I was, like, twelve. It doesnât even count.â
Fairy chimes in, giving you a sly look. âI dunno, you two always seem pretty close. Are you sure youâre over him?â
Youâre about to respond, to brush off the teasing, but before you can say anything, Hoshi speaks up from across the room, his voice a little sharper than usual. âCome on, Fairy â she said it was ages ago. We donât need to interrogate her.â
You blink, surprised by his tone. The group falls silent for a beat, and you can feel a shift in the room, the playful banter suddenly feeling a little heavier.
Mingyu, ever oblivious, laughs and holds up his hands in surrender. âAlright, alright. No more teasing. Pepper, your secretâs safe with me.â
But as the conversation moves on, you canât help but glance over at Soonyoung again. His jaw is tight, and while heâs pretending to be engaged in the new topic, you sense his mood is off from his usual demeanour.
After a few more rounds of the game, the atmosphere goes back to normal â aided by a very funny impression of Hatter by Sparks.
âAlright, my turn to ask.â Sparks grins, looking around the circle like a predator looking for prey. Sparksâ gaze lands on Hoshi, a mischievous glint in his eye. "Alright, Hoshiâno dodging this one. Truth or drink?"
Hoshi raises an eyebrow, smirking but clearly unfazed. "Truth. Hit me with your best shot."
Sparks grins wider. "Alright, Soonyoung, tell us⌠whatâs something from your camper days that none of us know?"
The moment the name "Soonyoung" leaves Sparksâ lips, you feel a jolt. Soonyoung? Why does that sound so familiar? The name echoes in your head, and suddenly, it hits you like a wave crashing onto the shore.
Soonyoung.
You stare at Hoshi â no, Soonyoung â wide-eyed, your heart skipping a beat as the realisation sets in. He was at camp before. Not just any camp, but this camp. And you knew him â that shy boy from all those summers ago.
Your breath catches in your throat as the pieces click into place. Youâd spent all these weeks with him, not realizing he was that Soonyoung. Heâs changed so muchâmore confident, more playfulâbut thereâs no mistaking it now.
Soonyoungâs gaze flickers, meeting yours for just a moment too long before he looks away, his expression shifting. His smile vanishes, replaced with something more guardedâsomething that makes your heart twist. Youâre on the verge of saying something, of asking him, why didnât you tell me?, when he clears his throat, breaking the eye contact as quickly as it happened.
âUh yeah,â he says, his voice more subdued. He forces a laugh, but is sounds hollow. âThereâs nothing too exciting â one time, I accidently called the counsellor âmomâ in front of the whole group. That was pretty hard to live down.â
The other counsellors chuckle, buying into his casual response, but you canât tear your eyes away from him.
Minutes pass, and every time you try to say something, to bring it up, heâs conveniently out of reachâanswering a question from Fairy, joking with Mingyu, or pouring another drink for Sparks.
The atmosphere in the room returns to normal, everyone laughing and enjoying the game, but youâre stuck. Your thoughts are racing, replaying memories from your time at camp, piecing together everything you now know about him. You want to ask him why he never said anything, why heâs been keeping this hidden when you couldâve shared stories, laughed about the past. But more than that, you canât shake the hurtâthe feeling that maybe he didnât want you to remember him at all.
Finally, as the game winds down and people start to leave the cabin, you seize the chance to approach him. You wait until the others are distracted, your heart pounding as you take a step toward him, your mind already formulating the questions you need answered.
"Soonyoung," you begin quietly, your voice just loud enough to catch his attention.
He looks at you, but the guarded expression is back, like a shield between you. He doesnât give you time to say anything more.
"Hey, I think Iâm gonna head to bed," he says abruptly, cutting you off before you can even start. He glances around the room, avoiding your eyes again. "Itâs been a long day, you know?â
Your mouth opens, but nothing comes out. You watch, frozen, as he turns away, leaving you standing there with a knot in your chest. He slips out of the cabin before you can say another word, disappearing into the night without looking back.
The drunken chatter in the cabin isnât making Soonyoung feel any better. Mingyu and Sparks had stumbled back together, laughing and swaying and not giving him any time to work out what just happened.
His head is a blur of emotions â scared that you now know the truth, sad at the look you were giving him, embarrassed of the past, and a little jealous of Mingyu.
Soonyoung leans against the wall, arms crossed tightly as Mingyu and Sparks collapse onto the bed in a fit of drunken laughter. He tries to smile, to act like everything is fine, but his thoughts keep spiralling. His heart hasnât stopped racing since Sparks let his name slip, and now, every time he thinks of the look on your face, that wide-eyed realization, it twists the knot in his chest a little tighter.
You know. You finally know who he really is, and he has no idea what to do with that.
âSo, (Y/n) really had a crush on me, huh?â Mingyu says, grinning as he pulls off his shoes and tosses them into the corner. âI mean, I knew I was charming, but I didnât realise I was that charming.â
Sparks laughs, kicking his legs up onto his bunk. âDude, she admitted it in front of everyone. Youâre lucky we didnât start calling you âPepperâs new boyfriendâ right there.â
Soonyoungâs jaw tightens, and he stares down at his hands. He doesnât want to listen to this. He really doesnât want to hear Mingyu, whoâs been hovering around you for weeks, talking about your confession, as if itâs still a big deal, as if itâs more than just an innocent childhood crush.
But Mingyu keeps going, his voice full of amusement. âMan, I shouldâve paid more attention back then. I didnât even realize she was crushing on me when we were kids. Can you imagine if Iâd noticed?â
Sparks snorts, shaking his head. âYou probably wouldâve been too clueless to do anything about it.â
Mingyu shrugs, laughing. âMaybe. But hey, itâs not too late, right?â
Soonyoung feels his chest tighten. The words hit him like a punch, even though Mingyu is clearly joking. The easy way he talks about you, as if he could just turn on the charm and pick up where your old feelings left off, makes Soonyoungâs blood boil.
âMaybe you should try,â Sparks says, grinning. âPepper is cool. You guys would make a cute couple.â
He wants to say somethingâanythingâto stop this conversation from going any further, but he canât. His throat feels tight, and his thoughts are all over the place, tangled in confusion and frustration.
Mingyu laughs again, the sound light and careless. âNah, Iâm just messing around. Weâre good friends. But still, itâs kinda funny, right? Me and (Y/n). Who wouldâve thought?â
âCan we drop it?â His voice is sharper than he intends, cutting through the laughter. Both Mingyu and Sparks go quiet, turning to look at him in surprise.
Mingyu raises an eyebrow, clearly confused. âWhatâs up with you, man? Weâre just joking around.â
Soonyoung swallows hard, trying to keep his voice steady. âI know. But can we just⌠not?â
Sparks glances between the two of them, sensing the tension but not quite understanding it. âDude, relax. Itâs not that serious.â
But it is serious, at least to him. He can feel the weight of everything pressing down on himâyour confession, the truth about his past, the way you looked at him earlier when you figured out who he really was.
Mingyu narrows his eyes slightly, finally starting to catch on that somethingâs bothering Soonyoung. âOkay⌠whatâs going on with you?â
Soonyoung exhales, leaning back against the wall, his heart still pounding. He doesnât want to have this conversation. Not with Mingyu. Not when heâs still trying to sort through his own feelings, his jealousy, his fear that maybe heâs already too late.
âNothing,â Soonyoung mutters, his voice tight. âJust tired. Iâm heading to bed.â
Without waiting for a response, he pushes himself up from his bunk and heads for the door, needing to get out of there.
As the door closes behind him, he hears Mingyu say something to Sparks, his voice lower now so that Soonyoung cannot hear what heâs saying.
âYou think heâs jealous?â Sparks asks, half-joking but with a hint of seriousness.
Mingyu chuckles softly, but thereâs an edge to his tone. âMaybe.â
Soonyoung grits his teeth as he steps into the cool night air, the quiet of the campgrounds a stark contrast to the noise in his head. He doesnât want to be jealous, but he canât help it. Itâs eating at him, the way Mingyu talks about you so casually, like he has the right to claim a piece of your past, like it wouldnât be that hard for him to step into your present.
And all Soonyoung can think is that heâs been hiding behind Hoshi for so long, afraid to show you who he really is, that he mightâve lost his chance before he ever truly had it.
The problem with being known as the bubbly, energetic counsellor is that itâs immediately obvious to everyone when you are not feeling bubbly or energetic.
Youâve tried to keep your energy up and youâre still having a lot of fun with your group, but its hard when half of your mind is filled with unanswered questions. And it doesnât help that the only person that can answer them is avoiding you entirely.
Having had a bit of time to think about it, you are still entirely confused about the situation. You donât understand why Soonyoung hid your shared past from you, you donât understand why heâs ignoring you now, and you donât understand why not talking to him is making you feel so bad (okay, maybe you do understand that one).
Youâre not used to feeling like thisâso off balance. Normally, youâre the one with the infectious energy, always the first to lift everyoneâs spirits. But now? Now itâs hard to keep up the act. The kids donât notice, thankfully. Theyâre still having fun, still looking to you for guidance, but the other counsellors have started to pick up on it.
âHey, Pepper,â Gecko says one evening, sidling up next to you while you sit on a bench outside our shared cabin. âYou okay? Youâve been kinda⌠off lately.â
You force a smile, even though your heart isnât in it. âYeah, Iâm fine. Just a little tired, I guess.â
Gecko raises an eyebrow, clearly not buying it. âSure. And Iâm a unicorn.â
You huff out a laugh despite yourself, grateful for the attempt to lighten the mood. âI donât know. Itâs just been a weird few days.â
Gecko nods, leaning back against the bench. âAnything to do with Hoshi?â she asks, her tone casual but probing.
You blink, startled by the directness of the question. âWhat? No, why wouldââ
âOh, come on,â Gecko interrupts, giving you a knowing look. âItâs obvious somethingâs going on between you two. Heâs been acting weird, and youâve been all mopey. Donât think I havenât noticed.â
You bite your lip, unsure of how to respond. Part of you wants to spill everythingâto tell Gecko about Soonyoung, about the past, about the way heâs been avoiding youâbut another part of you feels too raw, too exposed to talk about it yet. So instead, you just shrug.
âI donât know. We just⌠havenât really talked lately.â
Gecko snorts. âYeah, no kidding. Heâs been avoiding you like youâve got the plague or something.â
The words sting, even though you already know theyâre true. You donât say anything, just stare down at the ground, your mind racing with everything you havenât been able to figure out.
Gecko seems to sense that youâre not ready to talk, because she nudges your shoulder gently and stands up. âWell, if you want to vent or throw pinecones at him or something, let me know. Iâll back you up.â
You manage a small smile as she walks away, but the moment sheâs gone, the weight of everything comes crashing back down.
By the end of the week, your patience has worn thin. Soonyoung is frustratingly good at avoiding you. Every time you try to approach him, he slips away, always just out of reach. Itâs almost like a game, except thereâs nothing fun about it.
You watch him across the campfire one evening, the flames casting flickering shadows on his face. Heâs laughing with the other counsellors, his expression as lighthearted as ever, and you donât know how heâs so unbothered. It makes you want to scream.
You donât know what to do, but you do know what you normally would do when you feel like this â who youâd normally talk to.
That night, you find a snug space in the mess hall after everyone else had gone to bed. Typing the familiar number into your phone, you hear the brief ringing before the twin voices of your best friends ring out through the tinny speakers.
â(Y/n)!â Emmaâs voice is the first to break through. âWhatâs up? You never call this late. Everything okay?â
Janeâs voice follows immediately after. âYeah, itâs gotta be past midnight over there. Whatâs going on?â
You let out a sigh, leaning back against the wall of the hall and twirl a strand of your hair between your fingers. You donât even know where to begin, but you know you need to talk to them. If anyone can help you sort through this mess, itâs Emma and Jane.
âHey, guys,â you say, your voice quieter than usual. âIâm⌠Iâm just feeling a little off, I guess. Campâs great, but thereâs this... thing.â
Thereâs a pause on the other end of the line before Emma pipes up. âOoh, sounds like someoneâs got boy drama.â
âShut up,â you mutter, even though a smile pulls at your lips. âItâs not like that.â
âOh, but it totally is,â Jane interjects. âI can hear it in your voice. You sound all conflicted and mopey like the time that Joshua Hong rejected you in freshman year. Spill, (Y/n). Whatâs going on? Is it about Mingyu?â
You bite your lip, unsure of how to explain everything without sounding completely ridiculous. You hadnât let slip about your feelings towards Soonyoung on any of your previous calls, even if you had mentioned him before. âNo, itâs about someone else - my co-leader, Soonyoung.â
You can hear your friends cooing through the phone.
âIt turns out we were campers here together when we were kids, and he just didnât tell me. Now that Iâve figured it out, heâs avoiding me, and I donât know why.â
âSo⌠wait,â Emma says slowly, as if piecing it all together. âYou knew him when you were kids, but he didnât tell you who he really was until now?â
âExactly,â you sigh. âI didnât remember because heâs so different now â I mean he looks different, and he used to by really shy - but now that I know, heâs been dodging me. Every time I try to talk to him, he slips away. Itâs like he doesnât want me to know the truth.â
Janeâs voice is thoughtful when she finally speaks. âOkay, so letâs break this down. Why do you think he didnât tell you?â
You shrug, even though they canât see you. âI donât know. Maybe he thought it didnât matter, or he didnât want to dredge up old memories.â
âOr maybe,â Emma chimes in, âhe thought it would change how you saw him.â
You blink, taken aback. âWhy would it change anything?â
âBecause heâs not the same person anymore,â Emma says matter-of-factly. âHeâs confident and outgoing now, right? Maybe heâs worried youâll only see him as the shy kid you remember instead of who he is now.â
That thought hadnât even crossed your mind, and you let it settle for a moment. Soonyoung was so sure of himself now, but was there a part of him that was still afraid of being that quiet, overlooked kid?
âOkay, but that doesnât explain why heâs avoiding me now,â you say. âI just want to talk to him and clear the air, but he wonât give me the chance.â
Jane speaks up this time, her voice firm. âWell, then youâve got to stop waiting for him to come around. Youâve got to force him to talk to you.â
âForce him?â you ask, feeling a bit unsure. âThat doesnât sound like a good idea.â
âNot literally drag him by the collar or anything,â Jane says, laughing softly. âBut you need to be direct. If heâs not coming to you, then you go to him. Corner him somewhere he canât run away. He obviously has something heâs not saying, and the only way youâre going to get answers is if you stop giving him the option to avoid you.â
Emma agrees immediately. âYeah, if heâs not going to be brave enough to face it, youâve gotta take the lead. Youâre (Y/n), for crying out loud. Youâve never been one to back down from a tough conversation.â
You chew on your lip, their advice sinking in. Theyâre right. Youâve been waiting, hoping that Soonyoung would come to you, that he would explain himself. But thatâs not going to happen. If you want answers, if you want to figure out why heâs been avoiding you and whatâs really going on, youâll have to be the one to confront him.
But the thought of it makes your heart race. âWhat if heâs just avoiding me because⌠I donât know. Maybe he doesnât want to be friends anymore?â
Janeâs laugh is sharp and confident. âIf he didnât want to be around you, he wouldnât be this weird about it. Heâd just be distant and chill. This sounds more like heâs scared or confused. Youâve got to talk to him.â
Emmaâs voice softens, more serious now. âLook, the worst thing you can do is leave things unsaid. Youâll drive yourself crazy overthinking it. So just corner him somewhere, ask him straight-up whatâs going on, and donât let him avoid the conversation.â
You take a deep breath, feeling a mix of anxiety and determination settle over you.
âOkay,â you say, nodding to yourself. âYouâre right. Iâm going to talk to him.â
âDamn right you are,â Jane says, her voice filled with pride. âAnd, oh my god, can we just quickly mention that I was totally right about your summer romance.â
You choke out a laugh, your head falling back. âDonât forget that he currently wonât speak to me, let alone actually like me back.â
Emma scoffs, booing down the phone. âNuh, uh. I donât want to hear that negative speak. Youâre going to find that boy, force him to talk to you, and then jump his bones â I can feel it in the air.â
âOkay, Iâm going to hang up now.â You crack up, unable to contain the joy from chatting with your best friends again. Despite Emmaâs proclivity for vulgarity, you canât help but feel a sense of home radiating from the phone.
In spite of your threat, you do actually want to hear about how your friends are doing, what theyâre up to now that theyâre home from their holiday. You spend the next hour or so chatting, laughing, and feeling a whole lot more like yourself again.
The first rumble of thunder that afternoon had been distant, barely a low grumble on the horizon as the campers gathered in the west building for their activities. By the time that dinner started, the sky has darkened dramatically, thick clouds rolling in like a blanket over the campgrounds. A sudden gust of wind sends the trees swaying, and the smell of rain is heavy in the air.
You have been leading a group of campers in a silly skit, testing their acting abilities with some bastardised version of Shakespeare. Their laughter bubbles through the room as the first flash of lightning streaks across the sky. The crack of thunder that follows seems to shake the whole camp and, just like that, the power flickers out.
The mess hall is plunged into darkness, the only light coming from a faint glow of the evening storm outside. A collective gasp goes up through the room, and the campers freeze, their eyes wide as they look around in fear.
âAlright, guys, no big deal!â You hear Mingyuâs voice call out from across the other side of the hall. âThe powerâs just taking a little break.â
A second bolt of lightning lit up the hall, and the windows rattled with the booming thunder that followed. This time, a few of the younger kids whimper, and one of the older ones calls out, âWhat if the storm gets worse? What if weâre stuck here?â
You feel a flicker of doubt, but before you can speak, a familiar voice cuts through the nervous chatter.
âHey, come on, guys. This isnât a storm â itâs an adventure.â
Soonyoung strides to the front of the room, his expression completely unbothered, his signature grin firmly in place. Even in the dim light, there is a calmness radiating from him that instantly shifts the mood. He rubs his hands together, as if gearing up for some grand plan. âYouâve all seen movies, right? Power goes out, storm rolls in⌠thatâs when the real fun starts.â
A few campers exchange glances, clearly intrigued, and you feel a wave of relief as the attention shifted from fear to curiosity.
âAnd what weâre going to do,â Sparks jumps in, joining Soonyoung at the front. âIs make this the most epic camp night ever. No electricity? No problem. That just means we get to tell the best stories.â
As the kids begin to chat between themselves, a spark of excitement now overtaking the room, you gather with the other counsellors to work out a plan.
âFairy and I will go and get some torches and candles, make a nice cozy atmosphere while weâre waiting for the power to come back.â Mingyu suggests.
âGreat, and I can lead a story time, get the kids distracted.â Sparks adds, and Hatter nods in agreement.
Mingyuâs brows furrow for a moment, looking around the room. âWe should probably get Old Bill to go check the breakers, see if we can turn the power on.â
âOh, no need, I can go check them!â You say with a cheerful grin, wanting to be as helpful as you can.
âAre you sure?â Mingyu checks with a frown. âMaybe someone else should go with you.â
âSoonyoung should go.â Gecko pipes in, and you see her giving you a look in your peripheral vision.
Soonyoung hesitates for a moment, before nodding.
âOkay, cool, and Gecko and Ace can work on some snacks and drinks for everyone?â
As everyone agrees to the plan, you feel a sense of opportunity. Soonyoung is going to talk to you tonight, whether he likes it or not.
The loud bangs and rustling of the storm prevents you from any conversation on the way to the breaker room, leaving you filled with tension as you slam the metal door shut behind you. Soonyoung is in front of you, flicking on the battery-powered lights in the room as you lock the door.
He glances around at you for a second, before turning back to the breakers. âSo, I guess we just switch them off and on and see what happens?â
The dim light in the breaker room flickers overhead as Soonyoung turns his attention to the row of switches. You watch him quietly, your heart racingânot from fear of the storm, but from the sheer weight of everything youâve been wanting to say to him.
For a few moments, neither of you speaks. The distant rumble of thunder fills the silence between you, and the occasional burst of lightning lights up the small, cramped room. Soonyoung seems entirely focused on the breakers, flipping one switch after another, as if the problem at hand is just the electrical outage and not the unspoken tension hanging thick in the air.
âSoonyoung.â Your voice comes out a little sharper than you intended, but it gets his attention. He freezes for a second before turning to face you, his expression guarded.
âYeah?â He asks, his tone too casual.
You cross your arms, feeling the frustration youâve been bottling up for days bubbling to the surface. âWe need to talk.â
He glances back to the breakers, clearing trying to avoid your gaze. âAbout what? The power should be back on in a few minutes.â
You step closer, not letting him dodge the conversation this time. âNot about the power. About you avoiding me. About why you didnât tell me who you were.â
He sighs, running a hand through his hair. âThis really isnât the best time-â
âNo,â You cut him off, your voice firm. âIt is the best time. Youâve been avoiding me for days, and Iâm tired of pretending like nothingâs wrong. I want to know why you didnât tell me. And why youâre acting like ⌠like you donât even want to know me anymore.â
Soonyoung finally turns to face you fully, and thereâs a flicker of something in his eyes â guilt, maybe, or regret. He doesnât say anything for a long moment, the silence stretching out as the storm rages outside.
âI didnât tell you because I didnât think it mattered,â he says at last, his voice low. âBack then ⌠I was different. I wasnât like I am now, and I didnât want you to think of me as that shy kid from all those summers ago.â
You stare at him, processing his words. âSo you just pretended we didnât know each other?â
He lets out a frustrated sigh, shaking his head. âNo, itâs not that. I didnât think youâd remember me. I barely talked to anyone back then, and I figured it didnât matter.â
You feel a pang in your chest at his words, at the thought of him feeling like he had to hide part of himself from you. âBut I did remember you, eventually. And when I did, you started avoiding me. Why, Soonyoung?â
He flinches at the sound of his name. His jaw tightens, and for a second, you think heâs going to deflect again, but then he takes a deep breath. âBecause I was scared,â he admits quietly, his eyes meeting yours. âI didnât want that version of me to affect how you see me now. Iâve changed, and I didnât want to mess up whatever this is by dredging up the past.â
âSo you thought that hiding it was better?â You ask softly.
âI thought it was easier.â He corrects. âBut clearly, I was wrong.â
The frustration that had been simmering in your chest starts to ebb, replaced by something elseâsomething softer, more understanding.
âYou know,â you begin, your voice gentler now. âI love how fun and adventurous you are, how youâre so great with the campers and that I can never predict what youâre going to do next. But I liked that kid too. Sure, he was quiet at first, but I thought he was really funny and sweet when I got to know him.â
You move forward, feeling a surge of confidence in the dim light of the breaker room. You feel your hand reaching out to grab his, and his fingers are smooth and warm under your grasp. He looks a little taken aback at first, but then his grip tightens around your hand and you feel your heart beat rising. âI donât just want to know one side of you, Soonyoung. I want to know all your sides, but you didnât even give me the chance to figure that out because you kept pushing me away.â
He looks down at the floor, his shoulders slumping slightly. âI didnât mean to push you away,â he mutters. âI just ⌠I didnât know what else to do.â
He looks impossibly pretty under the dim light, his hair hanging in front of his eyes, wet from the rain. His lips are slightly ajar, and you can tell his breathing is slightly ragged from how close you are standing.
âWhat are you so scared of?â Your voice is the quietest itâs ever been, the question coming out as little more than a whisper. You can feel his fingers flex away from yours for a second, before renewing their grip on your hand.
âIâm scared that Iâm the only one feeling this,â He responds, his voice just as quiet. Your heart pounds in your chest, and youâre certain he must be able to hear it. âI thought â I donât know, maybe you did too, but then I saw you talking to Mingyu and I wondered if it was better to just keep my distance.â
âMingyu?â You blink, startled by the confession. âWhat about him?â
His eyes flick up to meet yours, and you can see the vulnerability there. âCome on, (Y/n). Everyone else can see it, even the kids. You even admitted it at the party, and I knew I had no hope then.â
Your breath catches in your throat, the weight of his words settling over you like the storm outside. You open your mouth to respond, tell him heâs wrong, but the power suddenly flickers back on, the lights buzzing to life around you.
The sudden brightness makes you blink, and in that split second, Soonyoung turns back to the breaker box, flipping the last few switches into place as if nothing had happened.
âWell, the powerâs back,â he says, his tone abruptly casual again. âWe should probably get back to the others.â
Your heart sinks. The moment is gone, and Soonyoung is already slipping away again. You want to stop him, to make him face everything he just said, but the door to the breaker room creaks open, and Mingyuâs voice echoes down the hallway.
âYou guys good in there? Powerâs back on, thank god!â
Soonyoung doesnât even glance at you before he heads toward the door. âYeah, weâre good. Just flipping switches.â
You stand there for a moment, watching him walk away, your mind swirling. And as the storm rumbles outside, you realise that this conversation is far from over.
Soonyoung leans against the stack of crates in the activity shed, trying to look busy, but all he can focus on is the knot in his stomach. The conversation in the breaker room with you, the almost-confession, the avoidance â it all keeps replaying in his head, and none of it makes sense to him anymore.
He knows he should talk to you, that much is clear. But whatâs the point? Youâve got Mingyu, havenât you? The way you laugh with him, how comfortable you are around him. If he had to admit it, thatâs why heâs been holding back all this timeâbecause deep down, Soonyoungâs afraid heâs already too late.
The door to the shed swings open, and sure enough, Mingyu steps in, looking for something on the selves. Soonyoung tense, inwardly groaning. This is the last person he wants to see right now.
Mingyu, oblivious to the turmoil brewing inside Soonyoung, grabs a soccer ball from one of the shelves and tosses it in the air. âOh, hey! You good, man?â
Soonyoung shrugs. âYeah, fine.â
Mingyu raises an eyebrow, clearly not buying it. âReally? Because youâve been avoiding me for the last few days, and (Y/n) for like two weeks. Whatâs going on?â
Soonyoungâs jaw tightens. He doesnât want to have this conversation. Not with Mingyu. But the frustration is bubbling up, and before he can stop himself, the words slip out. âWhatâs the point, huh? You and her⌠itâs pretty obvious.â
Mingyu catches the soccer ball mid-toss, frowning. âWhat are you talking about?â
âYou and (Y/n),â Soonyoung mutters, running a hand through his hair, avoiding Mingyuâs gaze. âItâs clear you two like each other. I donât want to get in the way of that.â
For a second, thereâs silence. Then, Mingyu lets out a laughâan actual, full-blown laugh, so loud and sudden that Soonyoung jerks his head up in surprise.
âWhat?â Soonyoung snaps, his frustration rising. âWhatâs so funny?â
Mingyu shakes his head, still chuckling as he sets the soccer ball aside. âDude, are you serious? You think me and (Y/n) are into each other?â
Soonyoung blinks, completely caught off guard by Mingyuâs reaction. âWell⌠yeah. I mean, youâre always together. She used to have a crush on you, and itâs pretty obvious you guys get along.â
Mingyu sighs, running a hand over his face, as if trying to figure out how to explain this to a five-year-old. âOkay, first of all, that was years ago. She had a crush on me when we were kids. And second, (Y/n) and I are just friends, man. Thereâs nothing going on between us.â
Soonyoung stares at him, still trying to wrap his head around what Mingyuâs saying. âBut⌠Iâve seen the way you two are. Sheâs always smiling around you.â
Mingyu rolls his eyes. âYeah, because weâre friends, and sheâs a friendly person. But that doesnât mean she has feelings for me. Trust me, dude, if she liked me like that, Iâd know. And I donât know, because itâs not happening. If anything, sheâs been trying to figure out whatâs up with you.â
Soonyoungâs chest tightens at those words. All this time, heâs been avoiding you because he thought he didnât stand a chance, when in reality, he was the one making things complicated.
âLook,â Mingyu says, his tone softer now. â(Y/n) likes you. I donât know how else to say it. That fact that you donât know it already is crazy to me, but apparently you donât. And as your friend, I have to tell you that if you keep acting like this youâre going to ruin your chances.â
Soonyoung lets that sink in for a moment, his thoughts spinning. He feels like an idiot. All this time, heâd assumed the worst, convinced himself that you and Mingyu were something more, when in reality, heâd just been too scared to face his own feelings.
Mingyu pats him on the shoulder. âYouâve gotta stop running. Go talk to her. Be honest. Otherwise, youâre going to lose her before you even get the chance.â
Soonyoung lets out a deep breath, feeling the weight of his mistake settle over him. He knows now that thereâs only one thing left to do. He has to find you, talk to you and explain everything.
Soonyoungâs practically sprinting through the camp trying to find you. Thereâs an air of desperation from Mingyuâs warning, and he feels like if he doesnât solve this now then youâll never forgive him. He can feel eyes slowly turning towards him as he skates through the campfire area towards the mess hall.
Heâs got one mission. He needs to tell you the truth, even if you reject him and tell him to never speak to you again. Itâs not Soonyoungâs style to not take the risk, and he needs to stop reverting back into someone heâs not anymore.
The large expanse of mess hall is full of people, whose gaze all turns on him as he slams open the large wooden doors, but you arenât there. He takes a second to scan the room once more, feeling slightly crazed, before running through to the kitchenette.
Heâs already checked the main and west buildings, and if youâre not here then that means you can only be out in the forest or in your cabin. Heâs debating whether going into your cabin would be over the line as he steps back out towards the mess hall doors.
âHosh, you alright-â
âSorry, no time!â He cuts off Sparksâ questioning, making a mental note to explain later. He practically stumbles as he barrels back outside. His heart is racing, his pulse pounding in his ears, and all he can think about is finding you. He has no idea what heâll say, but he knows he canât let you keep thinking he doesnât care, that heâs been avoiding you out of anything other than fear and his own stupidity.
The air outside is thick with humidity after the storm, the ground still wet beneath his feet. He jogs toward your cabin, his thoughts swirling. If youâre not in there, if youâre somewhere in the forest, heâll search every inch of camp until he finds you.
And then he sees you.
His throat feels like it closes as you appear in the distance, and his feet falter.
But even as he hesitates, youâre moving closer, practically marching towards him. He can now see that youâve got this determined look on your face that is making your cheeks puff up in such an endearing way.
âKwon Soonyoung!â You yell, your voice even firmer than when youâre scolding one of the campers.
He gulps his fear down, willing his feet to start moving again. â(Y/n)âŚâ He calls back, sounding far less confident than he intended.
And then youâre in front of him, an accusing finger pointed at his chest and reddened cheeks betraying your frustration. You seem so angry at him, but itâs the complete opposite of your normal character and he thinks that it makes you look so cute. âThis needs to stop, right now. You need to tell me the truth, because I canât stop thinking about you and itâs completely ruining my mood. I donât know what delusional story youâve thought up about Mingyu and I, but itâs not true, and youâre using it to dodge your own feelings. I wonât take one more day of this-â
Soonyoung reaches out to push your hair out of your eyes, his hands lingering on the sides of your face. He completely interrupts your rant, causing you to freeze. Your eyes are wider than he thought was physically possible, lips still parted in a half-finished sentence.
The moment is here now, and heâs going to be brave. âI like you, (Y/n), much more than as friends.â
A small gasp leaves you.
âIâve thought that you were the best person Iâd ever met since we were kids,â Soonyoung continues, his voice shaking slightly but his determination unwavering. âBack then, I didnât have the guts to tell you, and when we reconnected here, I told myself Iâd do it different. I told myself Iâd be confident, but ⌠I messed it up.â
He takes a deep breath, gathering the courage to continue. âIâve been scared stupid that if I told you how I felt, Iâd ruin everything between us. And then I was jealous about something that wasnât even true.â
You blink, your hand reaching up to cover his own. âSoonyoungâŚâ
âI like you,â he repeats, stepping closer, his voice softer now. âNot just as a friend. I like the way you laugh even when things get tough, the way you look after the kids, the way you make everything feel lighter. You make everything better just be being around. And I know Iâm not always the best at showing how I feel, but Iâm done hiding it.â
The words hang between you, heavy but freeing at the same time. Thereâs a slight, uncontrollable tremor in his hands as he waits for your response.
âIâŚâ You swallow, trying to find the right words. âI didnât know ⌠I didnât know you felt this way. I thought you were avoiding me becauseâŚâ
âBecause I was an idiot,â Soonyoung finishes, offering a nervous lopsided smile. âAnd I didnât know how to handle my feelings.â
You donât respond for a second, and it settles inside him that youâve still not told him your own feelings. The same anxiety that heâd felt before lurches up into his throat, and he has to will himself to be patient and let you have time to process everything.
He watches your lips part and close again, clearly struggling to find the right words. He feels almost certain that itâs because you donât know how to let him down nicely, and begins to pull his hands away from your face.
But then, you surge forward and before he realises whatâs happening your lips are on his, warm and a little chapped, but so soft, so gentle, that his mind goes completely blank. For a split second, Soonyoung freezes, his heart slamming in his chest as the realisation hits him: youâre kissing him. Youâre kissing him.
The rush of warmth floods through him, his anxiety melting away as he melts into the kiss. His hands move back to cradle your face gently, puling you closer and deepening the kiss just slightly, as if afraid you might slip away.
When you finally pull back, your faces are still close, your breaths mingling in the cool night air. Soonyoungâs heart is racing, his mind spinning, but thereâs a calm that washes over him â a peace he hadnât felt in days. The weight of his confession, the fear of rejection, all of it had been for nothing. You kissed him.
He searches your eyes, still not entirely convinced this is real. âDoes this meanâŚ?â He trails off, almost too afraid to ask.
You smile softly, your hand still resting on his cheek. âI like you too, Soonyoung. Iâve been pining after you since he first met â I honestly donât know how you didnât see it.â
He lets out a breath he didnât realise he was holding, a smile spreading across his faceâone so wide, so genuine, that it almost hurts his cheeks. Relief floods through him, a wave of happiness so strong that he canât help but laugh softly.
âI canât believe this,â he admits breathlessly. âI really thought Iâd screwed every up.â
You laugh too, your eyes crinkling at the corners as you shake your head. âYou did, but not beyond repair.â
Soonyoung chuckles, his forehead resting against yours. âIâm sorry for being such an idiot.â
âYouâre forgiven,â you reply, your voice light, teasing. âBut next time, donât wait so long to tell me how you feel, okay?â
He grins, his heart swelling in his chest. âI promise. No more waiting.â
For a moment, the two of you stand there, the tension and uncertainty finally gone. And then, he reawakens to the rest of the world. Soonyoungâs eyes widen in horror as the reality of where you both are crashes down on him. The echo of cheers and catcalls rings through the air, carried by the counsellors and campers alike, all watching the two of you from across the clearing. His face burns with embarrassment as he quickly spins around, spotting Gecko and Sparks practically doubled over with laughter, while Fairyâs clapping enthusiastically, a wide grin on her face.
You, meanwhile, are giggling uncontrollably, your hands covering your flushed cheeks as you try to hide.
Soonyoung wants to disappear into the ground, but he canât help the laugh that escapes his lips. The situation is too ridiculous to feel anything but mildly horrified and amused at the same time. He scratches the back of his head, turning to face the crowd again as he raises a hand awkwardly.
âWell, uh... surprise?â he calls out, his voice cracking slightly.
The crowd erupts into more laughter and teasing applause, a chorus of âFinally!â and âAbout time!â floating through the air. Mingyu, standing in the front with a smirk, shouts, âTook you long enough, Hoshi!â
Soonyoung glares playfully at him. âYeah, yeah, alright, I get it!â
Youâre still beside him, peeking through your fingers, but then you glance up at him with that familiar sparkle in your eyes, and all of a sudden, the embarrassment doesnât seem so bad anymore.
Soonyoung lowers his voice, leaning in closer to you. âWell, at least now we donât have to hide it,â he jokes, trying to play off his own mortification.
You giggle, your blush fading slightly as you finally uncover your face. âI guess not,â you say, a shy smile tugging at your lips. âStill, couldnât you have waited until we were somewhere a little more⌠private?â
He laughs, rubbing the back of his neck. âTo be fair, you were the one who stormed up to me.â
Before either of you can say anything more, Sparks bounds over, eyes wide with mock excitement. âOh my gosh! The drama! The romance! How scandalous!â he exclaims, fanning himself dramatically.
Gecko saunters up behind him, shaking her head with a grin. âYou two are worse than the campers. Could you not have waited until after lights out?â
Soonyoung groans, burying his face in his hands for a moment. âOkay, okay, we get it, weâre the campâs entertainment for the night.â
But when he glances over at you, he canât help but smile. Youâre still laughing softly, your eyes meeting his with an affection that makes the whole embarrassing spectacle worth it.
Soonyoung looks down at you, his expression softening. âYou okay?â he asks quietly, just for you to hear.
You nod, your smile widening. âYeah. Iâm good.â
He grins back at you, his heart feeling lighter than it has in days. âMe too.â
You bound out towards the camp entrance, your hair messily crimped by some of your campers, t-shirt stained, and a wild grin smothering your face.
Screams of excitement meet you as you round the wooden âCamp Loganâ sign and spot that familiar pink Honda hastily parked on the side of the road. The sight of your two best friends is more than you can handle, and you rush to pull them into a big group hug.
âOh my god, I missed you guys so much!â You cry out, grabbing Emma and Jane in a tight embrace, your heart bursting with joy. Their laughter fills the air, just as loud and chaotic as you remember, and it feels like no time has passed at all since you last saw them.
Emma pulls back first, grinning from ear to ear. âWe missed you too. Look at you! Youâre a total camp disaster in the best way possible.â She flicks a playful finger at your hair.
Jane raises and eyebrow and smirks. âUh-huh, and whatâs with the expression? Youâve got that âsomething happenedâ face on.â She pokes your arm teasingly, her eyes narrowing in suspicion. âSpill.â
You laugh, trying to act nonchalant, but the truth is bubbling up inside you, ready to burst. âWell... okay, a lot has happened,â you admit, biting your lip as you try to contain your excitement.
Emma immediately gasps, leaning in closer. âOh my God, youâre glowing. This isnât just camp fun, is it? Tell me Janeâs prediction came true?â
âWell, technically no.â You start, pausing to watch the excitement fall from their faces into confusion. You lips quirk into a smirk. âYou said that Iâd have a fling with a mysterious counsellor that Iâd never see again, and I know, for sure, that I will be seeing him again.â
Emmaâs jaw drops, and she grabs your shoulders, shaking you playfully. âWHAT? Youâll what?! Tell us everything right now.â
You canât help but grin as you launch into the story, telling them about the confession, the campâs accidently audience, and the time youâd spent together since. They listen intently, reacting with gasps and giggles, hanging on every word.
When you finish, Emma practically squeals, throwing her arms around you again. âThis is so cute, I canât handle it! And the whole camp saw?! Youâre living in a rom-com!â
You beam, happiness radiating from your chest. âI have both of you to thank for it â your advice definitely worked.â
Jane laughs, unlocking the trunk. âHere, pass me your trunk and then we can catch up on all the details. We brough snacks and drinks for a mini picnic â you can tell us more about your camp romance while we stuff our faces, and weâll give you all the updates of whatâs been happening in the real world while youâve been stuck in camp. Thereâs so much gossip.â
Janeâs hand reaches out to grab your trunk, before noticing that youâre not holding one. Her face scrunches up in confusion for second, before she follows your gaze which has turned back down the woodchip trail.
âSorry, I was just helping a kid find his parents.â Soonyoung smiles widely, one hand swinging into a wave, the other holding your case. You can hear a small gasp of shock leave your two friends, and cannot help but bubble with pride.
You run forward, grabbing the case from his hands and setting it down next to the car. Slipping your hand into his with a reassuring smile, you lead him over to your friends. âGuys, this is Soonyoung. This is Emma, and this is Jane.â You introduce everyone, your heart full as all of your favourite people meet.
âNice to meet you both, Iâve heard a lot about you!â Soonyoung grins.
Emma looks at you, quirks an eyebrow, and then spins back round to your boyfriend with a smirk. âIâd hope so. We are the most important people in her life. Although, apparently, weâll have to make room for one more.â
You laugh, seeing the blush creeping up Soonyoungâs neck. âI hope thatâs not too much trouble for you.â He replies with a soft smile.
Jane moves forward, handing the picnic bag over to him and linking his other arm with hers. âIf you tell us all the embarrassing things (Y/n) has done this summer, then weâll consider you accepted.â She chuckles, leading the group back towards the camp.
You fall behind for a second, happy to see your friends and Soonyoung already chatting like theyâve known each other for years. Your heart swells at the sight, and you smile up at the camp archway with gratitude.
âCome on!â Emmaâs arm links with yours as she pulls you out of your thoughts towards where the others had gone. You laugh, stumbling to keep pace with her.
âWhat do you think?â You whisper in a low tone.
Emma hesitates for a second. You feel slightly nervous waiting for her response, but then a smirk breaks out across her lips. âHeâs so hot, (Y/n). You will tell me if you got some, right? You can wait until later if youâre scared other people will hear, but I wonât believe you if you tell me that you didnât.â
You burst out in laughter, shaking your head at your friendâs familiar antics. âYouâre unbelievable.â
Summer camp may have been coming to an end, but you can truthfully say that youâre now even more excited for what comes next.
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Summary: Over a decade of handwritten letters later, you can happily say that the Pen Pal Project was your greatest success.
Reaching up into the top shelf of the wardrobe, toppling onto your tiptoes in order to do so, your fingertips brush against a satin, bowed box. Pulling the box down to your chest, you perch at the edge of your large, periwinkle-sheeted bed, gingerly untangling the pretty blue ribbon and lifting the lid off of the top. Leafing your fingers through the stacks of paper inside, you feel a wave of nostalgia enrapturing your body. Your head rolls back, eyes falling shut as your mind is overtaken by memory.
"Honey, the guests will be here soon!" Your husband yells out from down the stairs.
"I'll just be a few minutes! Can you take the cake out, my love?" You call back, praying you have the time to reminisce before everyone arrives.
You gently pull out the first letter from the top of the stack.
April 5th 2007
Dear pen pal,
I am writing to you because my class has signed up for the Pen Pal Project this year. Because I don't know who you are or anything about you, I am going to answer some of the questions my teacher has given us, and hopefully you can answer them too in your reply!
1. What is your name?
My mom said that I shouldn't give out any personal information, so I can't actually answer this question. My friends all call me Dusty, so you can call me that too.
2. What hobbies do you enjoy?
I am really into skating, starcraft, hockey and rocks. Yesterday, me and my friends went out to the outskirts of the city to see if we could climb the big oak trees, and I found a piece of dolomite next to the river! I really want to find a meteorite but they're very rare so I think it'll take a lot of searching. I also play in my school's field hockey team - my mom wants me to stop playing because last week I cracked one of my teeth, but I think she's going to come around when she sees our tournament next weekend.
3. What do you want to do when you grow up?
My dad is a teacher and my mom is a nurse, so my parents want me to go to university and become a doctor or a professor, but I'd quite like to be an astronaut or Indiana Jones, whichever pays better.
4. What's one thing you want to know about your pen pal?
I want to know everything about you (more than one, sorry)! What's your school like? What year were you born in (mine is 1995)? What do you do for fun? Do you like dogs? Do you have a phone?
I'm not sure if I'll get a response to this letter, but if you do want to, I hope we can keep in touch for a long time :)
Yours truly,Â
Dusty
May 21st 2007
Dear Dusty,
I'm really glad I got your letter. Some of my friends got letters that didn't even have a return address, but thankfully I get to write back to you and answer some of your questions. I was also born in 1995 so we are same-age friends. I'm finding this year in school a bit harder because of all the tests we are doing, but we just started doing football again in Physical Education so it's not too bad. Sports are my biggest hobby - I do football and basketball and I want to start wrestling this year. I mostly like to go and play with my friends at the park. I'm on some of the school teams, but my friends tell me I'm too competitive to play professionally.
I also really like gaming and reading. I finished the Protoss campaign over the winter break, but I've had to stop now that school has started again. My friends are all really excited about the announcement of Starcraft II, are you too? Will you keep going with the original or switch to the new one?
When I grow up, I either want to do sports or I'll study to work a good job in business or finance. Being an astronaut would be so cool! You'd definitely be able to find a meteorite then.
About your other questions, I don't have a phone yet but I do love dogs. When I'm older I want at least one dog, if not more. Do you have any pets?
I hope that we can keep writing to each other too - it's fun to have a secret friend.
From,
Cherry
January 4th 2011
Dear Cherry,
Sorry it's been a while - I've been really busy over the winter break, but I just had my tonsils removed so I have a bit of free time in recovery to write this letter. Before you ask, no - I didn't wake up during the surgery which I was a bit disappointed about, but I did manage to swallow enough blood to make me throw up after waking up so that was kinda crazy.
I can't believe that your friend did that! One time my friend Jiwoo got suspended for unscrewing all of the lightbulbs in the science classrooms, but that was because of a dare, not her own free will! I've never been suspended before, but I came close for tardiness last year. Have you ever been suspended?
I also appreciated your inquiry into the Heiran - Hyunki situation. I can't believe I forgot to update you in my last letter, and you'll be glad to receive it! Unbelievably, they got back together. I know it's what we feared would happen, but apparently Heiran has made some of her own mistakes in the relationship, so she's willing to overlook the whole thing. Absolutely crazy - I think that she's just scared to break up with him, which I suppose is a fair concern - just not for a 16-year-old. The whole situation really made me think about the purpose of relationships and love. All of my friends keep rushing into relationships this year, and I feel like I'm being left behind. I just don't care as much as they do, but they act like I'm some alien creature for not wanting to make out with someone in the school locker rooms. Perhaps this isn't something you can relate to, but it would be nice to know if you think I'm justified in my opinion or if there really is something wrong with me.
The thought of starting school again after the break is actually making me want to run away to the mountains. My sister is leaving for university and I don't want to go to school without her. Of course, I can't tell her that, but it's going to be really lonely walking in on my own. Plus, my parents' attention is firmly on me now, so I can't mess up in exams this year. The amount of pressure is going to make my head explode. How are you feeling about the year? I guess because you have the football season to look forward to your mind is probably focused on that?
I'm thinking about rejoining hockey this year. Even though it was too much last year, I did really miss it and I think I can better manage my time now that I don't have to be in the choir anymore. I think my mom might have a fit when I tell her, but the way you talked about sports really made me miss playing. Plus, apparently, I need an outlet for all these teenage hormonal emotions seeing as I'm not getting it on in the McDonald's parking lot.
Anyways, I need to get going now so I have time to blend some fruit up before lunchtime.
Yours truly,
Dusty
A chuckle leaves your lips as you read back over your letter. You'd been so worried about who was dating who and, more importantly, who you weren't dating. You were always so grateful for someone to discuss your fears with - your friends at the time certainly didn't understand. You'd had your first kiss a few weeks after you'd sent the letter. A party at a friend of a friend's house had devolved into typical teenage party games and you'd been pressured into kissing a boy whose name you couldn't remember. In fairness, you remembered that he was cute - curly dark hair and sharp cheekbones - but you'd made a joke about not being able to engage in tonsil tennis and he hadn't laughed so you'd known he wasn't the one.
June 27th 2011
Dear Dusty,
I finally asked out Myunghee and she said yes -
Nuh uh, skip that one.
October 23rd 2013
Dear Dusty,
All the kids in the year have planned a big Halloween party to celebrate our last your of high school. It's pretty exciting - apparently, they've bought some major decorations and they're going to set out the host's house to have scary surprises in all the rooms. I wouldn't be surprised if someone dresses up and decides to chase drunk kids around all night. It's a bittersweet feeling - our last Halloween party, but perhaps our best? Do you have any plans for Halloween and the holidays? I'm thinking of doing a Superman costume, but I'm wondering if that's a bit too obvious?
I put off writing about it first because I didn't want to open the letter with bad news, but I wanted to let you know that me and Myunghee broke up. Even though it's pretty sad, I've known it was coming for a while. If you remember my last letter, I told you about the fight that we had about next year, and I think that was really the beginning of the end. I was hoping that we could make it work a bit longer, but she said that we'd just be dragging out the inevitable and I guess she's right. I think I'm still a bit annoyed about the rollercoaster of the last month seeing if she's known the whole time that we should break up but I'll get over it. It's mostly just weird not having her around all the time. Everywhere feels a lot emptier now. I'm glad I can write to you about this - it's a bit awkward talking about it with my friends because they are also friends with her, but I can actually be honest with you.Â
Anyway, I hope you are doing a bit better than me. Your date sounded pretty cool - I've always wanted to go on an ice-skating date but I'd be a bit scared of falling over and making a fool of myself so I admire your confidence. If you are still seeing him, I hope he's treating you well. Chocolates and flowers at least once a month - and you can tell him I said so if he asks. If you're not seeing him, I (pre-emptively) can't believe he did that to you! What a jerk...
Are you watching the AFC Champions League final? A few friends and I are going to go down to the bar to watch it together and pray for a good result - either way, it should be fun. I suppose your dad will have it on in the house, but I'll be shocked if you tell me you're going to watch it with him after last time. Best to avoid the flying wrath of a TV remote. There's something about dads and sports, isn't there? I wonder if I'll be like that when I'm an adult. I hope not, but I already get too into it so maybe it's inevitable.
Yours,
Cherry
That date had been a good one as far as you remember, but the memory has become blurry after all the times your husband has taken you ice-skating since. You'd dated that guy for a few more weeks after this, but he made a weird comment to one of his friends when he didn't think you could hear it so you knew he wasn't the one.
Finishing high school and moving on to university had been a formative time for you. You gained a sense of identity that you'd lost as a teenager, and reconnected with your younger self. A smile crinkles your lips as you think about that time. The stupid escapades of adults let loose on their own for the first time, the lifelong friends you'd made, and the wealth of knowledge you'd gained about yourself and about the world. Your husband never attended university so he never experienced any of that, but you suppose he did have his own life-changing revelations during this time.
February 8th 2015
Dear Cherry,
I'm in crisis and I need your advice! I haven't spoken to anyone else about this yet, but I have a feeling building in me that needs to be released and you always give me the best advice. I'm thinking about dropping out of my program.Â
I know this sounds super rash and stupid, but I really hate it. I find it so dull and confusing, and everyone else is much better at it than I am. And, if I'm really being honest, I only chose medicine because my mother wanted me to. I would feel so stupid revealing that to anyone else, but I think you already knew that was the case. I'm struggling to keep going with it without the passion that other students seem to have, and when I hear about my friends' courses they sound so much more interesting.
If I actually go through with it, this may be the last letter I write to you. But, given that I survived my mother's wrath, a life studying literature or archaeology sounds so much more fulfilling to my brain even if not my pockets. What do you think about all of this? Is it worth following a passion that may lead to nothing or sticking it out with a stable, reliable path to future success without enjoyment?
As you know, I make very impulsive decisions, so I need your help in deciding whether or not this would be one of those.
Yours truly,
Dusty
P.S. I got asked to the dance by this really attractive guy who works at the coffee shop on campus so not everything is going wrong.
P.S.S. I found a rock which I thought was a meteorite but it was actually a magnetite - better luck next time!
You'd dropped out of your medicine major the moment you'd received the reply. Of course, your pen pal was a lot more supportive of your decision than your parents were but they got over it in time. Your fate had been decided the moment you'd stepped out of your first archaeology class - heart beaming and mind brimming with all of your plans for the future. Despite your parents' apprehensions, it had been the right decision. It didn't take long for your burning enthusiasm and insatiable appetite for learning to be picked up by your professors, and by your second year in the major you'd been invited on an exclusive trip one of your professors was going on with a handful of other students.Â
It was around this time that you'd started wondering more about your pen pal. The flutters of your heart each time the small envelope appeared in your dorm pigeonhole had been drowned out by the rush of university life. Reflecting back, your obliviousness to your own emotions makes you shake your head in disbelief. But then, you'd met Daejung. He'd taken you out dancing, brought you flowers and laughed at your jokes, and you began to wonder if he was the one.
May 16th 2017
Dear Dusty,
Officially, you may know me better than anyone else. I know I already sent you a letter this month that you probably haven't even received, but I realised that it is the tenth anniversary since I received your first letter. Not to be soppy, but it truly means the world to me that we've been able to keep up this correspondence this whole time.Â
As far as I'm aware, we won the Pen Pal Project. No one else I know stayed in touch with their childhood pen pal for nearly as long as we have, and I think that we deserve some kind of reward for it.
But, beyond any records we must have broken, I'm most grateful for the friendship we have developed. In any other circumstances, I would have said that it was impossible for people who have never met to be each other's closest confidants, but I can confidently say that there is nothing I wouldn't tell you. If it turns out you've been some 60-year-old man this whole time, consider me logged off from this life.Â
My wish is that we can keep doing this for as long as we are able to hold pens in our hands, and even then I'd consider getting a scribe to write the letters for me.
As a gift, I feel that it's about time that I tell you my name - my real name. If you (and your mom) still don't feel comfortable sharing yours then Dusty is still perfectly fine for me, but the fundamental disconnect between telling a person your deepest secrets and not telling them your name has gotten too overwhelming for me, so it's time to rectify that.
Yours,Â
Seungcheol
P.S. If you still want to call me Cherry that's also a-okay!
The first time Seungcheol revealed his name to you, you remember you'd dropped the letter in shock. As if knowing his name changed things, as if he didn't live a completely separate life from you already. It wasn't like knowing who he was would change anything about your life - you had no connection to him other than your letters - but the intimacy of his name had you staggering a few steps backwards, eye bulging from your head at the fallen letter. It seems rather overdramatic now, but in hindsight it always does.
This letter had been a bit of a turning point in your relationship, beyond the end of the nicknames you'd used for ten years. You'd always felt close enough to Seungcheol to pour your heart out to him in writing, but the closeness you felt was compounded in this letter. You wipe a few rogue tears from your eyes as you read back over it, moved by the raw declarations Seungcheol had been brave enough to express. If you really think about it, this letter was the first time you'd truly tried to picture what your pen pal looked like. Up until this point, you'd been enflamed by his words and unloaded all of your deepest thoughts to him in return, but this was the first time that you'd realised that your pen pal was a real man your age that you were already deeply connected to. The thought had been scandalous in your mind, and the shame that overwhelmed you when you'd met up with Daejung later that day made it hard to look him in the eye. Fantasising about a man you had never seen before had felt as bad as cheating, and the various forms of him that had appeared in your dreams for the rest of the week only compounded your guilt.
August 4th 2018
Dear Seungcheol,
Happy 24th Birthday! It's actually shocking to me to think that we're this old already, but I think mid-20s is a label that suits you well these days. Jokes aside, I hope you have a really lovely day doing whatever it is you have planned. I'll assume you're off bungee jumping with Jeonghan or on an all-inclusive golfing retreat until you tell me otherwise. In all cases, I hope that you are surrounded by friends and family to remind you how special you are.
Also, congratulations on your new job! I can't believe you didn't tell me that you were interviewing for it, but I suppose you didn't want to jinx anything by putting it into writing. I always thought that coaching would suit you - you could scare me into coming to practice any day! You should be really proud of yourself; I know that I am.
You'll never guess who got in contact with me this week! All out of nowhere, I got a message from Heiran of all people inviting me to her and Hyunki's wedding! I guess I was really wrong about that one... For their sake, I hope that their relationship is a bit better than it was in school. I was very surprised to be invited seeing as we haven't spoken in years, but I suppose it'll be nice to see everyone from school again. Perhaps I should tell Daejung that he can't come and you can be my plus one instead - I think you know the couple better than he does!
Another one of my friends just gave birth to a baby boy. All of this marrying and birth-giving is really screwing with my head. As far as I was aware, that's a thing that proper adults do and we're nowhere close to that yet. Even if I know that 24 is a very common age to be doing that stuff, it's still more than my brain can process. Once again, I am left behind as everyone else moves on to the next stage of life. I'm grateful, at least, that Daejung is pretty relaxed about all of that stuff. Hoping we can have a few more years before we start thinking about any of it - I still have so much travelling to do, things to see, and meals to eat before I flush all of my money down the toilet.
Jiwoo got really excited this week because she thought she saw Lee Byunghun walking past her work, so that made me feel a bit better about my life priorities.
Yours truly,
(Y/n)
P.S. I'm spending extra money to make sure this gets to you on time, so if it doesn't you cannot blame me.
P.P.S. My new address is - XXX
That year you and Daejung had finally moved in together. The apartment was small and in a less-than-nice area, but you'd been ecstatic at the chance to live with the man you loved. It had been a rough year before that - Daejung had missed out on a job offer for his dream role and you weren't able to go abroad on an excavation because he didn't want you to leave for months just as you were moving in together - but you'd seen the new apartment as symbolic of the new beginning you two would get together.
You'd also thought a lot about meeting up with Seungcheol that year. Looking back, it was crazy that you never did. Both of you expressed a will to do so, but something had always prevented you from actually doing it. You were completing your postgraduate degree part-time and working a service job that was supporting both you and Daejung at the start of the year, moving in together in the middle of the year, and Seungcheol had gotten busy with his new job in the latter half of the year. Even though you had never met up before, that you weren't able to that year was the first time it felt like a loss.
December 12th 2019
Dear (Y/n),
I've been thinking about you a lot recently. Writing to you has been the highlight of my month for a while now, and I'm so proud of you for everything you've achieved. It's amazing that you're already being asked to go on your first excursion as a proper expert, and I hope that Daejung comes around to the idea of you being away for so long. I'm sure that I'll miss your letters so I can imagine he's feeling much worse about it - but that shouldn't stop you from going. You might find an ancient vase and accidently release a curse upon the world, or discover a new dinosaur! Even if you go and are just digging up dirt with no results, I'll still be impressed.
One of the kids I mentor asked me if I knew what Starcraft was yesterday, and at that moment I really felt my age. I think it's led to some level of introspection I usually avoid, but one thing that has become clear to me is that I'm very grateful for this friendship. I hope that one day soon you can perhaps travel to Daegu and visit, or I can come see you in Seoul. Or perhaps it will take away the great fun of having a pen pal if we meet - you may be expecting someone completely opposite from me and seeing me may ruin the magic?
But the main reason I've been thinking about you is because I finally finished Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982. You were very correct in your recommendation - I can't believe it took me so long to read it! Summary of thoughts: I'm raging and also apologising to my mother and grandmother every time I see them. You have to send me another recommendation now that I'm finished - maybe some sort of mystery or thriller if you know any?
Yours,
Seungcheol
P.S. I suppose I should send you a whip and brown fedora and then you can officially say you're Indiana Jones.Â
January 7th 2021
Dear Seungcheol,
I'm glad you had fun on your trip! The picture you sent of the mountains was absolutely gorgeous and was a hilarious reminder that I have no idea what you look like. I keep saying I want to go to Japan but can hardly find the time, but after seeing the picture I really must go now.
I have some big news.
Daejung proposed and we're getting married!!Â
I know it's a bit out of the blue - I was surprised too. He's been putting off any mention of marriage for the last few months so I assumed he just wasn't interested but I guess that was all a cover to stop me from suspecting the proposal. It happened a few days after I got back from Vienna. It was really sweet - he threw this big party with all of our close friends and family to celebrate the end of my project and proposed at the end of the night. I was pretty shocked which I suppose was the point, but I'm really just excited that we're taking that step together.
My main purpose for writing is that I wanted to invite you to the wedding. It's a big step, but it wouldn't feel right to get married without one of my oldest friends there. If you decide you don't want to and you want to keep our friendship strictly on paper then I'd totally understand. But if you do want to come, we'd love to have you with us. I'll cover any travel and hotel fees if it means I can have you here.
Your continued support via letter means the world to me.Â
Yours truly,Â
(Y/n)
The wedding. Oh, the wedding.
A few nights before your wedding Daejung had come to the hotel you'd been staying in that week to finalise all of the preparations and observe some old-fashioned pre-wedding rituals your mother insisted on as if you and Daejung hadn't lived together for years before that. He'd given you a marriage gift a bit early because you were supposed to go straight to your honeymoon in Japan on the day of the wedding. Your heart fluttered in excitement as you opened the box, electrified at the surprise of what your future-husband could have gotten you to symbolise your union together. The reality had been, you could now admit, disappointing. The necklace had been pretty, and certainly not cheap. A silver heart set with a gleaming diamond to match the ring that Daejung had picked out for you. You'd smiled, thanking him for the gift and tried to ignore the discontent brewing in your own heart.
The first time you saw Seungcheol was at your wedding reception. Because of his job and the distance, he hadn't been able to make your morning ceremony, but the fact that he even chose to come all that way meant a lot to you.
"Who's the hunk with the green scarf?" One of your bridesmaids, Jiwoo had asked, pointing out a man standing alone by one of the drinks tables.Â
For a moment you didn't want to believe that it was him, but who else would be at your wedding that you didn't recognise? Tall and broad with fluffy hair and a handsome-beyond-belief face, Seungcheol had been a picture to witness. All dressed up in a suit, you thought he looked rather like a super spy or a CEO from one of those corny romance books. In any case, you were shocked to your core that that was the man you'd spilt your darkest secrets to for over a decade now.
"Oh, I think that might be Seungcheol," You breathed, voice wavering with uncertainty even though you were now certain it was him.
"Seungcheol - hmm, why does that name sound so familiar?" Your other bridesmaid, Mirae, pondered, her brow crinkled as she tried to identify the name in her memory.
"Oh my god, you invited your pen pal to your wedding?!" Jiwoo exclaimed, spinning on her heel to give you an incredulous look.Â
"Of course I did, I've known him for almost as long as I've known you!" You stuttered, your head still trying to play catch-up after the dizzying appearance of said topic of conversation.
"Why didn't you tell me that your pen pal was so hot?" Mirae scoffed, mock fanning her face in a way that made you feel shamefully irritated.
"Surprisingly, he didn't mention it in his letters." You responded, offering her a deadpan look and an eyebrow raise. She shrugged, but you'd known that wouldn't be the end of that conversation.
About 15 minutes later, you'd finally managed to make your way over to Seungcheol's perch. It was hard to decipher if your delay was because of all of the people trying to talk to you at the same time (perks of it being your wedding) or because of the unexplained fear and anxiety that was bubbling inside you at the prospect of finally meeting him face-to-face. As you finally made eye-contact, and he'd flashed his teeth at you in an infectious grin, you'd felt all of that melt away from you.
"Hi," You greeted, not able to wipe your own smile from your face.
"Hi," He responded, a peace settling between the two of you. "You look really beautiful."
Your face was all ablush and you felt a sense of dread at what would happen if you started like this. Starting down at your dress, you were unable to look back up at him.
"Thank you, I had it specially made," You smiled, your eyes gleaming as he chuckled at your joke. "I really appreciate you coming all this way, it means so much to me that you're here. Please let me know if there's anything you need - have you eaten yet? I can get you some-"
"It's okay, I'm feeling great." His hand reached out to still your own, which you hadn't realised was nervously picking at at skin around your nails.
"I can't believe that this is how we're first meeting," You breathed, a sense of shyness overwhelming you at the feeling of his skin against yours.
"If you ask me, we've definitely met before. Just not physically." His words had your head spinning so much that you were struggling to remember that you were both at your wedding.
"Poetic," You agreed, trying to present at least outwardly calmer than you felt inside.Â
"Oh! Before I forget, I got you this." Seungcheol extended a hand out with a small, wrapped box in his palm. "It wasn't on the registry, and really it's only for you so I thought I should give it to you personally instead of putting it on the gifts table."
"That's really generous of you, you didn't have to." You offered him a shy smile, taking the gift from him. The neatly wrapped box had been laced shut with a pretty blue ribbon, and you remember the thumping of your heart in your chest as you undid it. A small gasp involuntarily left your mouth, your hand moving to cover it in shock.Â
"Important backstory - I found it a few years after you told me you were looking for it. I wanted to just send it to you then, but I thought that I should keep it for when we met. I never thought that it would take so long to do so, but I hung on to it just in case."
A small chunk of dark meteorite sat in the box in your hand. Looking up and down between Seungcheol and the rock, you felt your eyes well up with tears that you had to force back down to not ruin your wedding makeup.
"Oh wow," Your voice cracked, "Seungcheol, this is seriously so sweet. I'm shocked that you kept this for me."
You felt unable to tell him all of your emotions, hoping that the gratitude in your eyes was enough to express them all to him. The sweet, adoring expression on his face told you that he understood without you needing to say any more.
That, unfortunately, had been the highlight of your wedding.
Not an hour later, it had all gone to shit, starting with a well-intentioned comment from your best friend.
"The wedding is so gorgeous (Y/n), I'll have to take notes for my own." Jiwoo gushed, pointing at all the flowers that had now been revealed as people moved into the outside area of the venue.
"I know, Daejung did a really good job picking out this place."Â
"I'm so happy for you two, especially after the whole Vienna situation."
A bolt of alarm rang through your bones as you a struck still by the comment. You didn't miss the panicked look Mirae sent Jiwoo, who looked equally as confused as you felt.
"What-" You tried to compose yourself amongst the rushes of fear that were threatening to render you completely useful. "What do you mean the Vienna situation?"
Jiwoo was now floundering, looking between you and Mirae with a gaping mouth.
"I just meant - I mean, nevermind - I thought... I thought you knew?" The last whispered part had your heart sinking to the bottom of your chest. Mirae was refusing to meet your gaze, and that was telling you all you needed to know.
"Did something happen when I was away?" You demanded, your voice slick with emotion.
"(Y/n)..." Mirae started, but the withering look you gave her immediately stopped her placating.
Four words later and your entire life had exploded. He cheated on you. Whilst you were away, no less. And then, as if it would magically make everything better, proposed instead of telling you.
The look on your then-husband's face when you stormed up to him demanding to know the truth was enough to convince you of the reality of your friend's words. You could now admit, amidst all of the hurt, anger and disgust you felt towards Daejung at that moment, your overriding emotion was utter panic at the thought of having to tell all of your guests that the wedding was to be stopped and annulled. A trivial emotion amongst the personal grief you were experiencing, but undoubtedly the cause of your greatest distress at the moment.
You didn't see Seungcheol as or after it all happened. Any pretence of calm instantly slipped the moment you began speaking to your family and friends - a speech which ended with you in floods of tears being escorted away from the hosts of shocked guests. It was only hours later that you realised that you hadn't said goodbye and, worse, that you'd invited him all of this way just to witness the shitshow that was your failed marriage. Too ashamed to burden him further, you chose not to write to him for months afterwards He gave you space too, and you weren't sure if you felt grateful for it or utterly alarmed that he may just never want to speak to you again.
May 6th 2021
Dear Seungcheol,
I'm deeply sorry for my complete silence, although I suppose I do not need to explain to you the reason for it. My hand has been itching to pick up my pen and write to you every month that goes by, but only now have I overcome my own shame and disgrace to do so. First of all, I have to sincerely apologise for making you waste your time coming to such an awful event. I can only hope that you managed to get a slice of cake before it all fell apart so that I could at least offer you the condolence of a delicious snack. I also must apologise for completely abandoning you during your trip to the city. I was really looking forward to showing you my favourite spots, and I let my own misery get in the way of being a good host.
I hope you are well. As I haven't heard from you in a little while, I don't know what's going on with you so I have little to comment on. But, at the very least, I wish for your good health and general happiness. If you are worried about me, you don't need to be. I have taken the last few months to put my life back together, and I feel like I'm making better progress these days - hence the letter writing. I'm thinking of getting a dog for companionship since I have vehemently sworn off men for the foreseeable future.
I also wanted you to know that I treasure your gift. As it turns out, meeting you and getting a meteorite was the best part of that night, if you'll believe it. I have it kept in a special box on my desk just to make sure that it's safe and that I'll never lose it. I wish I could have given you something in return. If we end up meeting again I'll have to start planning now to make sure my gift is just as good as yours was. Speaking of, you are welcome to come and stay with me any time you want, and we can rain-check that city tour. Alternatively, if you want to ignore this letter and never speak to me again, I'd also understand.
Yours truly,
(Y/n)
May 19th 2021
Dear (Y/n),
I'm so glad to have heard from you, and that you are doing okay. As much as I appreciate all of your apologies, none of them are necessary. If anything, I feel that I should be apologising to you for leaving you in the dark for just as long as you left me - you had a much better excuse too. Although I didn't want to overwhelm you with letters after such awful news, I realise now that leaving it so long was not the right course of action.
I think getting a dog is a fantastic idea. Company is something you'll never lack with a dog around, and I can agree that dogs are much better companions than men.
As for me, I am doing well too. It's mostly just been a cycle of work and sleep, so I haven't got much to report, but I'm hoping for a more eventful summer. Visiting the city would be a wonderful way to achieve this, so perhaps closer to the time I'll write again to arrange coming to stay with you. I would love to see you again soon. My only other news that I know you'd be interested in is that Jeonghan has seemingly met someone. He's keeping all of the details close to the chest, so I'll have to update you in the next letter when I know more, but it's an exciting revelation. He seems very happy, which is all I can hope for.
When I told you that I wouldn't stop writing to you until I could no longer hold a pen in my hand, I meant it. I hope that you will never again think that I wouldn't want to speak to you -it's the highlight of my day.
Yours,
Seungcheol
P.S. I'm sure you don't want to talk about the wedding, but just so you know - he was a fucking fool to let you go.
You remember the relief you'd felt at getting that letter. The uncertainty of whether or not Seungcheol still wanted to talk to you was enough to keep you on edge for the entire 13 days that it took for you to get his response. But, as always, your friend was reliably there for you.
The time you'd taken over those last new months, and the few months afterwards had been tumultuous, but cleansing. In your post-marriage clarity, you'd realised all of the opportunities you'd missed because of Daejung. Deciding that you wouldn't let him take anything else from you, you'd arranged to go on a long excursion you'd waved off for wedding planning when you'd first heard about it. Learning about the project from one of your old professors who'd transferred to Cairo University, you were offered a position on the ongoing expedition in Saqqara. Although Egyptology was not your speciality, your master's dissertation on the mummified scarab beetles found at Saqqara in 2018 and your tutor's reference got you onto a low-level position on the expedition.
Six months in Egypt had been exactly what you needed to move on from Daejung. At that time, your relationship with your closest friends was also on the rocks, and it was really only Seungcheol and your family that you missed during your time abroad.
December 23rd 2021
Dear Seungcheol,
I've finally got some time off over the holiday break, and I'm ready to give you the download of everything that's happening here in Saqqara! But, first, I'm going to have to beg you for the details of your double date with Jeonghan and Jooyeon. How was it!? Was Jooyeon's friend nice? Were there sparks? How many times did Jeonghan bring up embarrassing stories about you as a kid?
I hope it went well - you deserve all of the happiness in the world.
Now, onto the important stuff!
I'm not sure if you saw on the news, but we've made some pretty huge finds since I got here, Obviously, I can't give myself all the credit, but just being part of the team that made it happen is pretty incredible. We've found multiple tombs of dignitaries from the reign of Ramses II. I'm doing a bit of research on one of the tombs, belonging to a military leader called Hor Mohib, but I have to keep taking breaks every 20 minutes to pinch my arm and remind myself that this is reality.
My Arabic has gotten significantly better now - I was rather rusty when I first got here. I'm able to have reasonably complex conversations with the Egyptian members of the team and the locals helping out, and it's pretty cool for my nerd brain to be surrounded by a group of people equally as excited to be digging up ornamental graves as I am.
I'm really glad I came. It's hard to admit, even to you, but my life really fell apart after the wedding. Honestly, I didn't even know if I wanted to keep working in archaeology or if I wanted to jet off to Iceland and buy a farm. And the worst bit is that it's been so lonely since. Losing Daejung was one thing, but I haven't spoken to Jiwoo or Mirae since. I can't bear to look at them knowing that they hid that secret from me for so long. Maybe one day I'll be able to forgive them, but it certainly won't be now. Your letters have been my only sanctuary of human connection in these past few months, and that's something I'll have to add to my list of neverending gratitude I hold for you.
I realize now that I havenât been very good at expressing how much your friendship means to me, how it's been my lifeline in this mess. Your letters are the only constant, the only thing that feels like home even when I am surrounded by ancient wonders and new colleagues.
And so, I have a confession. I want to see you again. I want to tell you all of this in person. I can't say what will come of it, but I know that after all of these years, after all the letters and confessions and secrets shared, we owe it to ourselves to meet in a way that isn't rushed or overshadowed by anything else.
Maybe we could meet halfway between Seoul and Daegu, or I could take the train down to visit you? I need to see you again, not as a guest at my ruined wedding, but as Seungcheol, the one person whoâs known me at my best and worst, and still chooses to write back.
Let me know what you think.
Yours truly,Â
(Y/n)
P.S. I've included a small rock I found on the dig - nothing special but it reminded me of our old conversations. I hope it makes you smile.
P.P.S. Please don't feel pressured to say yes, but know that I would really like to see you again.
You can't quite recall what possessed you to write such a bold letter. Perhaps it had been the desert sun, the thrill of discovering something new in something old at Saqqara, or simply your immense loneliness.
Days had turned into weeks as you anxiously waited for a response, checking your makeshift mailbox daily. Then one morning, there it wasâa simple white envelope with Seungcheolâs familiar sloping handwriting.
January 17th 2022
My Dear (Y/n),
I've thought about meeting you countless times since our first encounter. After reading your words, I realise that I've been waiting for this just as much as you have. How's this - I'll take the first train up to Seoul when you're back and we can spend the day together. No distractions, no interruptions - just you and me, finally getting to know each other beyond the pages of our letters.
I'm looking forward to me, more than I can express. Until I see you again, take care, and know that I'm counting down the days.
All yours,
Seungcheol
P.S. the best bit about the date was spending time with Jeonghan. No more needs to be said.
You stare down at the letter, your heart pacing as fast as it had the first time you'd received it. Beautiful words from a beautiful man with a beautiful soul.
You'd gotten back to Seoul by the end of March 2022, and, as promised, Seungcheol came to visit you that first weekend in April. When he'd stepped off the train in the bustling station at the heart of the city, you were there to greet him. You'd spotted him standing there, taller even than you'd remembered, with that same easy smile that had always leapt off of the page.
The world around you had seemed to blur as you walked toward each other, nerves fluttering in your stomach but quickly dissolving as he pulled you into a gentle, lingering hug. The connection between you, once confined to words on paper, felt more real than ever.
You spent the day wandering through the city, visiting old bookstores, sipping coffee in quiet cafes, and talking as if no time had passed since that fateful wedding reception. Every shared laugh, every story swapped, deepened the bond you'd forged in ink.
June 14th 2022
Seungcheol,
It feels like only yesterday that we were wandering through Seoul together, but at the same time, it feels like a lifetime ago. I keep finding myself replaying that day in my mind - how easy it was to talk to you in person, as if we'd done it a hundred times before. It's strange, isn't it? How someone can feel so familiar, even when they're a whole new experience at the same time.
I've been thinking about our conversation in the bookstore. You said something about how some stories are better left unfinished, that sometimes the best part of a tale is imagining what could be. I can't stop thinking about that -Â about how some stories do need an ending, and how others are meant to keep going, even if we donât know where theyâll lead.
There's something I've been meaning to tell you, but I haven't found the right words yet. I guess I'm still figuring it out myself. It's just that being around you feels different to how I expected. There's a comfort, yes, but also something more, something I can't quite define. It's like we're on the edge of something new, and it's exciting and a little terrifying at the same time. I'm not sure if you feel it too, but I hope you do.
Anyway, I don't want to get too ahead of myself as usual. I'm just really glad we've reconnected, and that we've managed to keep in touch after all these years.Â
It means more to me than I can say. Letâs make sure our next meeting isnât too far offâIâm already looking forward to it.
Until then, take care of yourself, and donât work too hard. Iâll be watching the clock until I see you again.
Yours,Â
(Y/n)
That day in April 2022 hadn't been the last time you saw Seungcheol. You'd made that mistake once in the past, and neither of you was willing to do so again. He continued to come to Seoul to see you, and you travelled down to Daegu to meet him and his friends. Your letters ceased for a while over this time due to the frequency you were seeing each other, but for the first time that didn't bother you.
You remember, with teary eyes, the day that you finally confessed your feelings.
It was 25th September 2022, after a whole summer spent together, and the air was tinged with the first hint of autumn's chill. THe leaves were just beginning to turn, painting the streets in warm hues of amber and crimson as you walked side by side in a quiet part in Seoul. The easy laughter and conversation that had marked your friendship over the years felt heavier that day, as it something unspoken was lingering in the crisp air between you.
You had spent countless days together that summer - visiting museums, trying new restaurants, even embarking on a spontaneous week trip to the coast. Each moment with Seunngchaeol had felt like a dream, a slow realisation that your heart was no longer just content with friendship. But with that realization came a fear you hadn't expected. What if this was enough for him? What if risking everything by confessing how you truly felt would unravel the beautiful bond you had spent so many years cultivating?
That evening, as the sun dipped low on the horizon, casting long shadows across the park, you found yourselves sitting on a bench overlooking a small pond. The water was still, reflecting the fiery colours of the sky, and for a long moment, neither of you spoke. Seungcheol had been quieter than usual that day, his expression pensive as if he, too, was wrestling with unspoken thoughts.
You felt your heart pound in your chest, each beat louder than the last as you tried to summon the courage to speak. The words were caught in your throat, but the fear of losing him if you didnât say them was stronger. Finally, unable to hold it in any longer, you turned to him, your voice trembling as you broke the silence.
"Seungcheol," you began, your hands nervously fidgeting in your lap. He turned to look at you, his eyes soft and attentive, encouraging you to continue. "Thereâs something I need to tell you⌠something Iâve been feeling for a while now."
His gaze didnât waver, but you noticed the slight hitch in his breath, the way his fingers tightened slightly around the edge of the bench. The world seemed to shrink to just the two of you, everything else fading away as you gathered your thoughts.
"Iâ" You paused, trying to find the right words, but there were none that seemed adequate to express the depth of your feelings. "I think Iâve fallen in love with you."
The admission hung in the air between you, a fragile confession that you could no longer take back. For a moment, time seemed to stop, the world holding its breath as you waited for his response. You searched his face for any sign of what he might be thinking, every second feeling like an eternity.
Then, without a word, Seungcheol reached out, his hand gently cupping your cheek, his thumb brushing away the tear that had escaped down your cheek. There was a tenderness in his touch, a warmth that radiated through you, calming your racing heart.
"Iâve been waiting to hear those words," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "Because Iâve been feeling the same way for a long time too."
His words washed over you, a wave of relief and joy so overwhelming that you felt your breath hitch. You had been so afraid, so uncertain, and now, with his quiet confession, all those fears melted away. He leaned in slowly, giving you time to pull back if you needed to, but you didnât. You closed the distance between you, your lips meeting his in a gentle, tender kiss that felt like a promiseâone of many yet to come.
Hearing the doorbell ring down below you, and the sound of your husband's voice calling out to say he'll get it, you rush forward to reach your favourite letter - just one more before you return to reality.
November 3rd 2023
My dearest (Y/n),
I'm so glad you're having such a good time in Rome - I'm rather jealous of all of your sightseeing and pasta-eating. Kkuma and I are holding the fort down at home, although I had to be scolded yesterday for breaking the toaster when I tried to make Kkuma some breakfast. I sent some more suncream over in the mail because I know you've already run out and forgotten to get some more - I'm not sure if this letter will reach you first, but if it does look out for the parcel.
Now, I'll admit, the main purpose of my letter is something a little different than simply catching up, as much as I love those letters too. I thought about doing this once you returned home, but you've already had one man declare his everlasting intentions to you after you returned from an excursion, so I thought it better to avoid rehashing those memories (we'll do this again when you're home, but I thought it might be fun to do it this way).
If you have the suncream box already, then you may have a sneaking suspicion of what I'm about to say.
I've loved you for as long as I've known you. As a twelve-year-old kid, I didn't know that was what it was, but the level of obsession I had with writing to you and receiving your replies was beyond any normal friendship. You were always so fascinatingly cool, out of reach, and genuinely yourself. Being in love with your pen pal isn't always an easy thing - the cold sweats I would wake up to after dreaming about meeting for the first time, the constant updates about a life that I wasn't a part of, the announcement of your engagement to another person. I tried to pretend it wasn't real for a long time, see other people, because of how silly I felt about being in love with someone I'd never met.
And then I saw you standing there, in that beautiful white gown with your hair up and that gorgeous smile on your face. Did you know that my hands were sweating when I gave you that gift? I don't think I've ever told you that before. I became certain then that I was completely screwed. Entirely head over heels.
I'll never be happy that that marriage didn't work out for you - all I've ever wanted is your happiness, be that with me or someone else. But I won't lie and say that nothing has made me happier than the consequences of it.
This past year has been the happiest time I've ever known. Every moment with you is filled with such joy, and every moment without I'm left with a record of memories to remind me of the time we've had together. When I look at you, I don't just see my past, but also my future. I see a lifetime of shared experiences, of laughter, or quiet moments that mean more than words ever could. I see us growing old together, supporting each other, and playing trash hockey on the wooden floor of our kitchen.
You are my best friend, my partner, the love of my life. And I want to spent every day making sure you know just how much you mean to me.
So, that being said, will you (Y/n) (Y/l/n), do me the honour of marrying me?
All yours,
Seungcheol
P.S. Please don't feel pressured to say yes, but know that I would really like it if you did.
You fiddle with the precious ring on your left hand, your fingers lingering over the smooth chunk of dark stone in the centre.
A gentle brush of a hand on your shoulders brings you back to the real world, tears now flaking on your cheeks as you sniffle at the words on the page.
"Are you okay, darling?" Seungcheol asks gently.
"Yes, sorry, I know the guests are here now - I just wanted to look at these," You reply, holding up the letters for your husband to see.
You watch his expression soften, a suggestion of moisture in the corner of his eyes as he looks over the written words.
Swooping down, he places a long, loving kiss on your forehead, letting your bodies rest together in harmony for a moment.
"I can't believe they still make me cry," You huff, letting out a soft laugh. "And I don't even think I can brush it off as hormones."
"Seeing that just looking at them has me tearing up, I don't think I can either." Seungcheol smiles, stroking the back of your hair affectionately.
"They're probably getting antsy downstairs, right?" You say, beginning to pile the letters back up into the box.
Standing up, you lean forward to press all of your passion and adoration onto your husband's lips. You can feel his intensity matching yours, his hands finding the side of your hips to keep you stable.
"They can wait," Seungcheol replies, his forehead leaning softly against your own. "They're not the ones who are pregnant after all."
You laugh, a sound filled with both joy and contentment, feeling the warmth of his love surrounding you. "I suppose you're right," you say, a smile spreading across your face. You take one last glance at the box of letters, a testament to the incredible journey you've both sharedâone that began with innocent childhood exchanges and blossomed into a love story more profound than you could have ever imagined.
Hand in hand, you and Seungcheol make your way downstairs to greet your guests, the letters safely tucked away in their satin box. As you step into the room, you know that no matter what the future holds, you'll always have those words, those memories, and most importantly, each other.
Warnings: Profanities, drinking, reader is a bit of an asshole, exercise
Word Count: 17.4k
Summary: Winning is the only thing that matters, except if you're raising money for a charity event with an infuriatingly good-looking swimmer.
The burn of your muscles and the sweat on your brow are a satisfying reminder of how far you've come.
Reaching for the water bottle at the base of the wall, you take a well-deserved gulp before turning to your coach, whoâs approaching with a towel in hand, clapping proudly.
"If you can recreate that in Tokyo, you wonât have to worry about coming home empty-handed!" Sungjin grins, his pride almost matching your own as you bask in the achievement of a personal bestâalmost.
"I guess I'll just have to keep at it to make sure of that," You smile gingerly, leaning forward to grab the towel and dab the moisture from your face.
"Well, motivationâs never been your problem," he says, raising an eyebrow as if to protest, but instead, he simply gestures back to the climbing wall, hinting for you to continue.
You know Sungjin thinks youâre pushing yourself too hard, but as you square up to the lead course in front of you, feeling that familiar sense of belonging and purpose the wall brings, youâre certain even he has to admit the hard work is paying off.
With a steadying breath, your hands dip into the chalk bag at your waist. Just a little faster, a little stronger, and youâll be up there competing with the greats of your sport. The clarity of your purpose washes over you; you know your place in the world, and youâre determined to reach it.
"Done already?"Â
Iseul's voice pulls you out of your thoughts as you realize you've been staring at the chipped paint on your admittedly worse-for-wear front door.
The shiny black hands on the cockerel-shaped clock at the entrance to your apartment read 9:20 pm. Glancing between the clock, the half-filled pot of chilli simmering on the stove, and your roommateâs teasing look, you realize youâve missed dinner.
"Honey, I'm home!" you sing-song, spreading your arms wide to envelop Iseul in an apologetic hug. She screeches and runs away, but her laughter lets you know that all is forgiven for your late arrival.
"Sorry for missing dinner, Sullie. I got caught up in that headspace again and completely forgot you were cooking tonight."
"Donât be sorry, just be grateful I left you someâit should still be warm!" she hums, offering you a reassuring glance.
You feel her eyes on you as you hang your jacket up and begin ladling out the leftover chilli into your favourite bowl.
"What is it?" you ask, tentatively meeting her gaze.
"I justâ" she pauses, her expression softening as she searches for the right words. "Iâm worried about you. You spend all day at the training gym or the actual gym. I know youâve got important milestones coming up, and Iâll be there cheering you on from the sidelines, but your whole life canât revolve around competitions. Youâre not going out, seeing friends, meeting new peopleâ"
"I donât need you setting me up on another blind date if thatâs what youâre suggesting," you interject, raising an eyebrow as you take a bite of chilli. "And I have enough friends."
"When was the last time you saw anyone other than me or your coaching team?"
When was the last time you'd seen any of your other friends?
The corner of your mouth twitches in defensive annoyance, trying to come up with a reply that you both know won't be truthful.
"Okay, fine. You might have a point. How about I promise to see people after Tokyo? Iâll even make an appearance at one of your wretched salsa classes."
Youâve attended exactly one of Iseulâs salsa classes and vowed never to repeat the experience. Sixty minutes of humiliation in a class way above the beginner level you were promised, stumbling through the steps only to collide with your rather handsome dance partner and send both of you crashing to the floor. Needless to say, youâve managed to avoid that classâand that manâever since.
"You canât just avoid people for a month, squid!" Iseul protests. "Maybe you couldâ"
"No," you warn, dread filling you as you anticipate her next suggestion.
"Come on, I think it would be fun! You could-"
"I don't want to!"
"And what if you didn't have a choice?"
That stops you in your tracks. Blinking slowly, you set down your fork and look blankly at your best friend.
"What ... does that mean?" You ask cautiously.
Iseul grimaces, swallowing hard before replying.
"Okay, donât be mad." Thatâs never a good sign. "I might have sent the campaign info to Sungjin."
Your brain feels like itâs been doused in ice water as you process what sheâs done.
"You mean to say, I decided three months ago that I definitely didnât want to do the campaign, and you, despite this, still sent the info to my head coach, who will undoubtedly force me to do it for 'good publicity' and 'sponsorship opportunities'?" you scowl, shooting her your best attempt at a withering look.
"That may, perhaps, be correct." She confesses, giving you a look youâd only reserve for your mother after sneaking out without permission.
A long, loud sigh drags its way out of your body.
"Iseul ... really?"
"...yeah, really."
"God, I don't even remember what the campaign was about!" You complain, pushing the half-eaten bowl of chilli aside, your appetite gone with this new revelation.
"Oh! Here, I have the email up!" Iseul beams, clearly feeling far more helpful than you currently think she deserves to feel.
"Of course you do." You glare, moving to look at the computer screen beside her.
Dear Miss (Y/l/n),
As the excitement builds for the upcoming Olympic competition in Tokyo, we are organizing a special event that combines the spirit of athleticism with the power of giving back to the community.
We are thrilled to invite you to participate in our Road to the Rings relay event, scheduled to take place in the week commencing 5 July. This unique relay will bring together athletes like yourself to not only celebrate the Olympic spirit but also to raise awareness and funds for the KSPO.
As a respected athlete, your involvement would greatly enhance the impact of this event. Not only will this be an opportunity to showcase your support for a meaningful cause, but it will also allow you to connect with fellow athletes and fans in a memorable and inspiring way.
Your participation would include:
Joining a team of athletes in a two-day relay through Tokyo city
Promoting the event on your social media platforms
Engaging with fans during the event to share the importance of the cause we are supporting.
With your help, we can make this an unforgettable experience and a powerful force for good. We would be honoured to have you as part of this initiative.
Please let us know if you are available to join us by replying to this email or contacting Soma Kimiko at [email protected] by 31 May.
Thank you for considering this opportunity to make a difference through sport.
Warm regards,
Hu Chunho
International Olympic Committee
"Thank god, the deadline for this passed ages ago." You sigh, relief washing over you.
The guilty look that remains stamped on Iseul's face does not inspire confidence in you.
"Well, about thatâdonât quote me on this, but I think Sungjin might have contacted them, and they may have agreed to let you join anyway?"
"Shit." You swear, wracking your brain for a way out and coming up empty. "Let me call Sungjin; maybe I can convince him to change his mind."
Surrounded by athletes youâve never met but who all clearly know each other, you scan the crowd for the one face that could save you from your awkward solitude. Soon enough, you manage to catch a glimpse of your teammate, Jeon Wonwoo, across the sea of people. As you begin to wade through the crowd toward him, you realize heâs not alone like youâd hoped but is at the centre of a large group of athletes, all laughing and taking photos outside the Olympic Village entrance.
You've all been allowed early access for the event, a privilege everyone else seems stoaked about, but has left you out of your depth and far from where you want to be.
Deciding that you can morph your embarrassment into a cool, solo mystique rather than face meeting all of Wonwooâs friends, you pull out your headphones and start wandering around the entrance, feigning busyness.
Keeping one eye on the other athletes, and the other half-heartedly on the information board in front of you, you quickly realise that no one else cares about what you're doing and feel yourself relaxing into the music.
All this waiting has made you hungry, and you wonder if there will be food available in the village or if youâll have to brave your rudimentary Japanese to find your own sustenance. Surely they'll give you access to the village resources - you'll need to use the gym and the climbing equipment at least -
A sharp tap on your shoulder interrupts your thoughts.
Swivelling around, youâre met face-to-face with a tall, muscular man whose lips are moving, but you canât hear a word. Gaping at him in confusion, youâre about to tell him heâs not saying anything when he gestures to his ear, miming pulling something out of itâoh, right, your earphones.
You scramble to pull your left earbud from your ear.
"Sorry, I was just saying that they're letting us into the village now."
"Oh, uh thank you! And I thought the language barrier would be my biggest comprehension issue!" You exclaim with a smile too wide and a laugh too loud. The cringe instantly seems into your body as the man cocks one eyebrow at you, and it takes all of your will not to shrivel up under his gaze.
You force yourself to keep smiling, even as the heat of embarrassment creeps up your neck. Clearing your throat, you quickly try to recover. "I guess I'm just a little nervous," you admit with a small, sheepish grin, hoping to smooth over the awkwardness. "I've been waiting to be here for a long time, and now that I'm actually here, I'm not sure what to expect."
The manâs eyebrow slowly lowers, and you catch a glimmer of understanding in his eyes. He nods slightly, the tension easing just a bit. "It's natural to feel that way," he says, his tone softening. "The games can be... overwhelming at first."
Relieved that the moment has passed, you take a deep breath and offer a more genuine smile. "Thanks for letting me know, we should probably head off before they leave us behind."
"I'm not too worried about that,"Â He lets out a little laugh. As you both start to walk, you finally take in the small crowd that has gathered outside the gates. Though you canât make out what theyâre shouting, the team flags and posters bearing the manâs face clue you in on the nature of the turnout.
Pressing your lips together, you nod your head in mock understanding. "I see, can't keep the fanclub waiting?"
His head snaps away from the crowd to meet your eyes, and for a split second, you worry youâve said the wrong thing. But then you catch the faintest hint of a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
"They're more persistent than I expected," he says, his tone light but tinged with weariness. "But I suppose it comes with the territory."
Relieved that he didn't take offence, you relax slightly, feeling a bit more at ease. "Must be exhausting, though," you offer, your voice softer now. "All that attention."
He gives a small shrug, glancing back at the crowd with a resigned expression. "You get used to it," he says, but there's a hint of something in his voice. "But we should really get moving. Don't want to keep anyone waitingâfans or otherwise."
You nod, falling into step beside him as you both head towards the entryway. The buzz of the crowd fades into the background as you walk, the earlier awkwardness slowly dissolving into a comfortable silence.
Once inside the village, the man turns to you again, a curious look on his face. "So, first Olympics?"
You nod, a bit of excitement creeping back into your voice. "Yeah, itâs been a dream for as long as I can remember."
"Well, youâve got a lot to look forward to," he says, offering a small smile. "Itâs an experience like no other."
You smile back, feeling a bit of your nervousness melt away. "Iâm sure it will be."
Weary from the day but still buzzing with anticipation, you finally make it to your assigned room. The sight of the cardboard bed brings a huff of amusement. You flop down onto it, savouring the comfort even if itâs temporary. You have the room to yourself for now, but itâs clear that another athlete will be joining you once the games officially begin. For the moment, though, you relish the peace and quiet.
You managed to grab some sashimi from a nearby restaurant earlier on, and with your hunger sated, you start to settle in, considering whether to crack open a book or simply drift off into an early nightâs sleep.
A pounding knock on your door quickly dashes those plans.
"Hey! (Y/n)?" A familiarly deep voice calls out, and you drag yourself up to let your teammate into your room.
"Wonwoo, what a nice surprise." you greet him with a forced grin, his chuckle telling you heâs not fooled.
"Donât tell me you were planning to spend your first night in Tokyo cooped up in here?" he teases, and you respond by chucking a pillow at him.
"Do you not get exhausted from travelling like a normal person?"
"The plane journey was like three hours, tops." He retorts, falling onto your absentee roommate's bed.
"You have a point." You concede. "And yet, a nice warm bath and a book call to me."
"God, you're so dull!"Â
"What are you on about? You read more than anyone I know!"
"Yes, but I'm not reading now, am I? That should tell you something..."
You hate that his logic is making sense to you. Giving him a long, squinty-eyed stare, you eventually give in.
"So, whatâs the plan? Not that Iâm going, Iâm just curious."
Perking up, Wonwoo lifts himself off the bed with a speed you usually only see on the climbing wall. The sly grin that spreads across his face makes you instantly wary.
"A few friends are gathering in one of the common rooms for some drinks and mingling. People might split off later to go clubbing or karaoke or something, but you could just come to the party part if youâre interested. Itâs just down the corridorâyou wouldnât be able to sleep with the noise anyway."
You mull it over, remembering the promise you made to Iseul before you left.
"Fine, maybe Iâll make an appearance." The satisfied grin on Wonwooâs face forces you to hold back an eye roll. Your expression softens, hesitating to confide your apprehensions. "Just⌠donât ditch me, okay? I donât really know anyone else here."
Wonwooâs playful demeanour shifts to one of gentle understanding as he nods in agreement.
"Itâll be a good chance to meet some new peopleâtheyâre really nice." He notices your screwed-up look of unease. "And Iâll introduce you. Donât worry, the room is like 300 square feet; youâre not gonna lose track of me."
"Alright, fine. Now get outâI have to get changed!" You playfully whack his arm with your remaining pillow, and his laughter echoes in your room as he leaves, making the decision feel a little less daunting.
Rummaging through the unemptied suitcase on your bedroom floor, you thank Iseul for the scrunched-up red dress at the bottom of the case. Throwing it on with your probably unnecessary black leather jacket and some knee-high black boots, you feel like you at least look like you belong at a party.
Lining your lips with a rouge that matches the dress, and blasting some hyper pop to get you pumped up, you take a deep breath, realizing that, despite your nerves, this could be a chance to really settle in, to find your place not just in the competition, but among the people who, like you, have worked so hard to be here.
The bass of the music drums into the back of your skull as you fix yourself a drink in the small common room kitchen. You'd beelined straight to the drinks, grateful to give yourself something to do and to get some liquid courage before you face up to the other athletes.
Taking a sip from your cup, you scan the room for the face of your friend. As promised, you make eye contact with Wonwoo on the other side of the room, who flags you over to come talk to his friends. Revving yourself up for socialising, you make sure to keep an easy smile plastered to your face as you head over to join him.
"Hey, guys, this is my fellow climber, (Y/n). This is (Y/n)'s first Olympics, so ease her in gently!"
A flurry of names and greetings follow, and you take in none of them.
"Between the nerves and the secretive partying, I feel like it's the first day of high school again." You joke, trying to break the ice.
"Ha, if only I was cool enough to be invited to parties my first year of high school!" A lanky man with frosted tips replies, chuckling into his drink.
"I feel like that explains a lot about you, Chunghee." A pretty woman with a knowing smile laughs. Looking towards you, she leans forward, half-whispering, half-speaking. "He's been making up for it ever since," She teases, earning a playful shove from Chungee, who rolls his eyes but grins nonetheless.
You laugh along with them, feeling the tension in your shoulders start to ease as the groupâs friendly energy begins to draw you in. The music still pounds in the background, but it seems less overwhelming now.
Wonwoo nudges you lightly, a reassuring smile on his face. "You settling in okay?"
"Yeah, I think so," you nod, glancing around at the group. "It's just a bit surreal, you know? One minute, I'm in my usual training routine, and now Iâm here, surrounded by all these amazing athletes. Itâs a lot to take in."
"Tell me about it," the woman who teased Chunghee chimes in. "I still remember my first Olympicsâit felt like stepping into another world. But donât worry, by the time the opening ceremony rolls around, youâll feel right at home."
"Thanks," you say, genuinely touched by the support. "Iâm excitedânervous, but excited."
"Excited is good," Wonwoo says, clinking his drink against yours. "And hey, you've always got tonight to get embarrassingly wasted and earn your spot in the Olympic Village Hall of Fame!"
"Speaking of, I got in late for my first Olympics, so my first night ended up being the night of the opening ceremony. I got nervous sick in my room beforehand and used the twenty minutes I had to get absolutely hammered. Next thing I know, I'm tripping over my own feet holding the Olympic torch and trying not to set everything on fire. To this day, the other athletes still call me 'Torch Tango' after I somehow managed to spin around and do a full pirouette, nearly taking out the torchbearer behind me," A jovial woman standing to the right of Wonwoo chimes to a chorus of laughter.Â
You find yourself laughing along with them, the image of her drunkenly dancing with the Olympic torch so absurd that you can't help but be amused. "That sounds both terrifying and hilarious," you say, shaking your head. "I canât imagine how you pulled that off."
"Trust me, it wasnât on purpose!" she replies, still giggling. "But it broke the ice for me. I figured if I could survive that level of embarrassment in front of the entire world, I could handle anything the games threw at me."
"You know, thatâs actually kind of inspiring," Wonwoo chimes in, a mischievous glint in his eye. "Maybe (Y/n) here should start off with a bang like that, get all the nerves out of the way early."
You shoot him a mock glare, though you canât help the smile tugging at your lips. "Letâs not tempt fate, okay? Iâd rather not be remembered as 'the one who set the Olympic Village on fire.'"
The group chuckles, and Chunghee raises his glass in a mock toast. "To avoiding accidental arson and to surviving our first Olympics without becoming memes!"
"Cheers to that," you agree, clinking your drink against his. The mood in the room is light and warm, and the camaraderie in the group is palpable. You feel yourself relaxing even more as the conversation flows naturally from one topic to the next. Stories of past competitions, travel mishaps, and favourite training rituals are shared, and before long, you find yourself laughing along, no longer worried about making a good impression.
You catch Wonwooâs eye across the group, and he gives you a small nod, as if to say, "See? I told you itâd be fine." And as you take another sip of your drink, you canât help but smile to yourself.
Moving back to grab a second round of drinks, you overhear the conversation loudly playing out on the other side of the room.
"-definitely Haneul, she's an Olympic medalist in shooting. I'm not gonna get mauled by a tiger if she's protecting me!" A passionate voice calls out to a chorus of laughter.
You peer around to see a group of about eight to ten people occupying the common room sofas and floor in one big circle. Amongst the group, you spot the man from earlier, leaning back in his position on the couch with an easy laugh and a cup in one hand.
"No offence, Haneul, but if I'm trying to survive a deserted island, I think I'd have bigger priorities than shooting wild animals with a non-existent gun." Another man replies. "I know who I'd want."
"Oh yeah, who?" The original voice calls back, belonging to a confident-looking woman dressed in all black.
"Kim Mingyu, obviously. A world-renowned swimmer, self-made handyman, and absolute gym lad. Not only could he cook me meals, but he'd cuddle me around the fire to keep me warm. And if that didn't work, then his hoards of lovers would track him down and rescue us!"
Kim Mingyu... you recognise that name. The group are now all laughing and nodding at the man on the floor, and you quickly put together the pieces. The fan club, the name, and the admittedly handsome face - the man you'd spoken to earlier was the infamous breaststroke swimmer. You'd seen countless articles in the newspaper about his latest fling, being caught at a rowdy party, and, of course, the record-breaking swims. You hadn't made the connection at first - he'd been so down-to-earth during your brief conversation that it was hard to reconcile that with the image of the notorious athlete plastered across the tabloids.
Youâre not sure how long youâve been standing there, hovering on the edge of the group with your fresh drink in hand, when suddenly Mingyu catches your eye. His laughter subsides as he notices you, and without missing a beat, he flashes you a toothy grin.
"What about you, Mingyu? Who would you bring? You can't pick yourself!"
"You guys have got it all wrong - I'm not the best pick." He starts, putting his cup down in mock seriousness. "I'd bring someone who could gather food, get resources, and save me if I fell off a cliff. The obvious choice is (Y/n)," You feel your heartbeat skyrocket as your name leaves his mouth and the group of debaters swivel round to look at you. "She's literally a world champion in climbing. She could climb a tree for food, wood, or leaves to craft things, and she's the only person here I'd trust to be able to pull me up if I was swinging from her grip off of the edge of a cliff."
You didn't know that he knew who you were. Your heart patters at the realisation, and you feel a blush begin to creep up the side of your neck.
"Oh, I'd be a bad choice," You respond shakily. Mingyu gives you an inquisitive look to carry on.
"I'm deathly allergic to nuts, if the island had any I'd have to choose between insta-death or starvation - not a very good ally if I'm dead."
His gaze lingers, a playful curiosity flickering in his eyes, and it takes all your willpower not to squirm under the attention. You force a laugh, trying to shake off the growing tension. "So, I guess weâll have to make sure thereâs a nut-free island for me to survive on," you quip, attempting to keep the mood light.
Mingyu grins, leaning back against the couch with a nonchalant shrug. "Donât worry, Iâd make sure of it. Can't have my survival expert checking out early."
The group laughs, and the conversation shifts back to the hypothetical island debate.
"I'm sure you've had your ear chatted off about the games, but have you got any interesting plans for afterwards?" The woman in the black outfit, who happens to be sitting closest to you, calls out.Â
Double-checking that she is speaking to you first, you perch down next to her.
"Nothing too serious - an unavoidable salsa class and more training probably. There was one sponsorship deal my team got sent with Samsung, but I don't think I'm gonna do it,"
"You're seriously considering turning it down?" Mingyu asks, and you hadn't even realised that he'd been listening to your conversation. "That's a huge opportunity."
"Sure, but I didn't come here for sponsorships. I just want to compete, to push myself. The whole media circus that comes with it ... I don't want it."Â
You can feel the weight of his disbelief on you.Â
Mingu leans forward, his expression more serious than you've seen before.
"You do realise that sponsorships are part of the game, right? They're what keep you here, you can't just ignore that."
You feel a flicker of frustration at his words. "I get that, but it's not why I'm here. Not everyone's looking for the celebrity lifestyle; sometimes it's okay to not have your whole life plastered over the daily newspaper."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
The icy look in his eyes is entirely different to the friendly aura you'd experienced earlier.
You hadn't meant for it to come out that way, but the words had slipped out before you could stop them. The tension in the room thickens instantly, and you feel a knot of regret tighten in your chest.
"It means - it doesn't mean anything. That's just not my priority," You reply, trying to appear calm despite the hard edge to your voice.
"Not everything in life is about winning a race, you know that right?" He retorts, and you feel yourself scoff.
How could he think that?
That's why you were all here, what brought you together - a mutual dedication to being the best. To deny it was naive.
"-hey, man, we're heading out now, you coming?" The deserted island man leans over Mingyu's shoulder, pulling his arm towards the crowd gathering at the exit of the common room. Mingyu gives you one last look, before nodding at his friend.
"Yeah, coming."
"Thank you everyone for being here! My name is Hu Chunho, and I am the coordinator of this event!"
You wince as the sound of the loudspeaker makes your head pang. You'd managed to get in a quick training session early this morning, and had not been surprised to see a host of other athletes in the gym already.
"As you all know, we're here to help raise money and awareness before the Olympic Games start. We've set up a fun two days for you guys - and hopefully a fun experience for all those following along at home. Throughout the city, we've set up checkpoints. Taking it in turns, you will be asked to travel to each consecutive checkpoint and complete a task with your teammate when you get there. The winning team will be crowned based on a mixture of factors, including points for each task, the most money raised, and the best viral moment! Remember, getting people engaged and donating is the aim of the game! Now, a list of the teams has been posted on the door over there - please get ready, fill up your bottles, and connect with your teammate and we will begin in 30."
You are faced with the true task of your trip, and the reason why you wanted to avoid it in the first place. Your brain skips in circles as you try to work out how to balance your dislike for social media with your need to win. The challenge ahead feels like itâs pulling you in two different directionsâon one hand, the competitive spirit that has driven you this far pushes you to give your all, to win this event just like any other. On the other hand, the idea of chasing âviral momentsâ and being under the scrutiny of social media makes your stomach turn. Youâre here to climb, to compete, not to entertain the masses with antics designed to go viral.
But thereâs no backing out now. Youâve committed to this, and like it or not, itâs part of the game.
With a sigh, you weave through the crowd to where the team list is posted, each step a reminder of the tightrope youâre about to walk. As you scan the list for your name, your heart skips a beat when you find itâright next to Kim Mingyuâs.
Of course. You shouldâve seen that coming. Itâs like the universe has a sense of humour. Mingyu, the guy whoâs practically a social media darling, always in the spotlight, the one who you'd argued with about embracing this side of sport last night. You can already imagine the smug grin on his face when he finds out.
You glance around, searching for him in the growing crowd of athletes, and spot him near the front, chatting animatedly with a group of other competitors. As if sensing your gaze, he turns, his eyes locking onto yours across the room. He flashes that familiar, easygoing smile and you wonder if that's meant for you or for the series of onlookers around.Â
Your pulse quickens as Mingyuâs gaze lingers on you. For a moment, you consider slipping away, avoiding the inevitable confrontation. But that would be cowardly, and if thereâs one thing youâve prided yourself on throughout your career, itâs facing challenges head-on. So, you straighten your shoulders and start making your way toward him.
As you approach, the group heâs with gradually shifts their focus to you, and the hum of their conversation quiets. Mingyuâs smile broadens, clearly amused by your reluctant approach.
âLooks like weâre teammates,â he says casually, as if the tension from last nightâs conversation had never happened.
You manage a nod, trying to suppress the irritation bubbling up inside you. âYeah, seems like it.â
One of the other athletes, a sprinter you vaguely recognize, perks up. âYou guys make a good teamâpower and endurance. Should be interesting to see how you handle the challenges.â
âThanks,â you reply, keeping your tone polite. You turn back to Mingyu, whoâs watching you with that same inscrutable expression. âSo, whatâs the plan?â
âPlan?â Mingyu echoes, tilting his head slightly. âI thought we were just winging it.â
His nonchalance grates on you. Of course, heâd suggest going with the flow. Thatâs probably how he handles everythingâcharming his way through life with a smile and a shrug. But youâre not wired that way. You need a strategy, a clear path to victory.
âI donât know about you,â you say, trying to keep your voice steady, âbut Iâd like to win this thing. So, maybe we should come up with a plan.â
Mingyu studies you for a moment, his smile fading into something more thoughtful. âAlright,â he says finally. âWhat do you have in mind?â
You hadnât expected him to concede so easily, and it takes you a moment to gather your thoughts. âWell, we know that completing the tasks is important, but so is raising money and creating those âviral moments.â I think we should focus on playing to our strengthsâuse your popularity to get the attention and donations, and Iâll focus on the physical challenges.â
Mingyu nods slowly. âMakes sense. But we should also make sure weâre having fun with it. If weâre too focused on winning, people will notice, and it might turn them off from supporting us.â
You bite back the urge to argue, realizing that he has a point. This event isnât just about competition; itâs about engaging with the audience, making them want to be part of your journey. And as much as you hate to admit it, Mingyuâs easygoing nature might actually help with that.
âFine,â you agree, âbut we still need to stay on top of the challenges. No slacking off.â
Mingyu grins again, the playful glint returning to his eyes. âDeal. Letâs show them what weâve got.â
The tension between you eases slightly as you both start discussing potential strategies, and by the time Hu Chunhoâs voice crackles over the loudspeaker again, you feel a bit more prepared for whatâs ahead.
âAlright, athletes, itâs time to head to your first checkpoint! Good luck, and rememberâhave fun!â
You'd agreed that Mingu would take on the first challenge so that he could introduce your tasks to the audience, and god you are glad that he did. As you'd hopped into the car to get a lift over to Meiji Jingu, the shrine that was to be the first checkpoint, you saw Mingyu being handed a traditional bow and quiver full of arrows. You couldnât help but stifle a laugh as the realization dawned on you: the first challenge was archery, something you had no experience with and Mingyu, as far as you knew, wasnât exactly an expert in either. But, you had to admit, he looked the partâfocused and serious, with the bow in his hands, and that ever-present confidence on his face.
As you lean back in the car, you are relieved that Mingyu is the one in the spotlight. You know how to navigate the climbing wall, how to plan your routes and push your body to its limits, but this? This is something entirely different.
On your journey, you watch the live stream coming from Mingyu's phone as he runs through the park to get to the shrine. He's happily chatting away to the audience with a level of casualness you've never experienced in the rare times you've been forced into the public spotlight. Watching him jogging along, bow and quiver in hand, hair tousled in the morning breeze, you wonder if he might go viral just for this image alone.
When you arrive at Meiji Jingu, the historic shrine surrounded by ancient trees, the atmosphere is electric. The shrine grounds are bustling with peopleâlocals and tourists alike, all eager to see the Olympic athletes tackle this unique challenge. Cameras are everywhere, capturing every moment for the live stream, and you can acutely feel the eyes of thousands, maybe millions, watching from around the world.
After a short wait for the running athletes to arrive, you spot Mingyu and the other contestants entering the competition zone. At this moment, you can't help but admire the serene beauty of the shrine. The towering Torii gate, the carefully manicured gardens, and the ancient architecture give the place a sense of calmâat odds with the tension brewing in your stomach.
You spot Mingyu a little way off, adjusting his grip on the bow, chatting casually with one of the event organizers. Even from a distance, you can see the ease in his posture, the way he seems to be soaking in the energy of the crowd rather than shying away from it. As much as you hate to admit it, Mingyu seems in his element here.
"Hey, ready to show off those archery skills?" you call out, approaching him to take over the live stream duties for the team whilst he shoots.Â
He turns to you, flashing that trademark smile into the camera. "Ready as I'll ever be. How hard can it be, right?"
You laugh, shaking your head. "Iâm glad itâs you and not me up there. I donât think Iâd even hit the target."
"Well, let's hope I do, or weâre both going to be in trouble," Mingyu jokes, but there is a seriousness in his eyes that tells you he is more focused than he lets on.
An organizer approaches, signalling that it is time to begin. The challenge is simple: hit the target as close to the centre as possible. The closer the shot, the more money raised for charity, and the more points your team would earn.
Mingyu takes his position, and you can feel the collective anticipation of the crowd as they quiet down, all eyes on him. The camera drones hover above, ready to capture every moment.
The camera in your own hand is shaking slightly. You steady your hand and your nerves as you narrate what you are seeing to the phone.Â
He draws the bowstring back, his movements surprisingly smooth for someone who, as far as you knew, has never held a bow before. You hold your breath, the tension in the air palpable as Mingyu focuses on the target.
Then, with a steady exhale, he releases the arrow. It soars through the air, and you watch, heart pounding, as it flies towards the target.
It isnât a bullseye, but it is closeâcloser than youâd expected. The crowd erupt in cheers and applause, and you canât help but join in, a grin spreading across your face. Mingyu turns to you, raising his arms in a mock victory pose, and you laugh, shaking your head at his theatrics and making sure to get the moment on camera.
âNot bad, Kim. Not bad at all,â you call out, genuinely impressed.
He jogs over to you, still holding the bow, a satisfied smirk on his face. âTold you weâd figure this out. Now itâs your turn to show me what youâve got.â
You raise an eyebrow. âLetâs just hope the next challenge is something that doesnât involve me embarrassing myself in front of the entire world.â
As the car pulls away from Meiji Jingu, you glance at Mingyu, who is scrolling through the latest updates on his phone, probably checking the social media response to his archery skills.
The city of Tokyo rushes by outside the window, vibrant and alive, and you feel a renewed sense of determination. This isnât just a challengeâit is an opportunity. To prove yourself, not just as an athlete, but as someone who could rise to the occasion, no matter what it demanded.
âLooks like people are pretty impressed with your archery skills,â you remark, breaking the silence between you.
Mingyu glances up, his smile widening. âYeah, not bad for a first try, huh? Theyâre calling it beginnerâs luck, but Iâll take it.â
You chuckle, shaking your head. âHey, whatever works. Just donât let it go to your head.â
âToo late,â he teases, flashing a playful grin. âSo, any guesses on what the next challenge might be?â
You shrug, glancing out the window as the car slows down, weaving through a narrower street lined with small shops and eateries. âNo idea. But Iâm hoping itâs something more in my wheelhouse.â
The car eventually comes to a stop in front of a small, unassuming building. The sign above the entrance reads 'Nihonbashi Hamacho' in elegant calligraphy, and as you step out of the car, you notice the rich aroma of fresh food wafting through the air. A group of event organizers are already waiting, along with a few locals who have gathered, curious about what is happening.
Mingyu looks around, taking in the scene. âSmells good. Maybe the next challenge involves food?â
You raise an eyebrow, intrigued by the possibility. âWouldnât mind that at all. But how would that tie into a charity event?â
As if on cue, one of the organizers approaches, holding up a small card with instructions. âWelcome to the second checkpoint, Nihonbashi Hamacho,â she begins with a smile. âYour task here is to make traditional Japanese soba noodles. You will then serve them to local residents, who will donate based on how well they think you did. The team with the highest donations at this checkpoint will earn the most points.â
You exchange a glance with Mingyu, a mixture of surprise and amusement on both your faces. Cooking wasnât exactly what youâd expected, but it is certainly a unique challenge.
âWell, this should be interesting,â Mingyu says, rubbing his hands together in anticipation. âThink you can pull it off?â
âI donât know,â you reply. âBut Iâm sure itâll be entertaining to watch me try.â
The organizers lead you into the building, which turns out to be a small, cozy kitchen set up specifically for the challenge. Everything is neatly arrangedâflour, water, rolling pins, and a large wooden cutting board. A local chef stands by, ready to give instructions and oversee your efforts.
Mingyu immediately steps up to the station, eyeing the ingredients with a curious expression. âAlright, letâs see if you can make some magic happen.â
You join him, rolling up your sleeves as the chef begins to explain the process. It sounds simple enoughâmix the dough, roll it out, cut it into thin, even stripsâbut as you get started, it becomes clear that it is much harder than it looks. The dough is tricky to work with, and your first few attempts at rolling it out are uneven and lumpy.
To your side, Mingyu is playing up your cooking for the audience of local spectators and online viewers, and you find yourself slowly joining in with his antics.
His positive attitude is annoyingly infectious, and soon you find yourself relaxing into the task, focusing more on enjoying the experience rather than worrying about perfection. The chef occasionally offers tips, guiding you with a patient smile, and gradually, your noodles start to look more like actual soba.
After what feels like an eternity of rolling, cutting, and re-rolling, you finally have a decent batch of noodles ready. The chef gives a nod of approval, and the organizers quickly set up a small serving station outside, where the locals are already gathering, eager to try the soba made by Olympic athletes.
Mingyu and you take turns serving the noodles, chatting with the locals and trying to convince them that your cooking is worth a generous donation. The atmosphere is light and playful, with plenty of jokes and laughter, and to your surprise, people seem genuinely impressed with your efforts.
âHey, not bad,â one of the locals says after taking a bite. âIâd donate just for the entertainment, but the noodles are actually pretty good!â
Mingyu grins, giving you a playful nudge. âSee? We might have a future as soba chefs if this whole sports thing doesnât work out.â
You roll your eyes, but canât help but smile. The challenge has been a lot more enjoyable than youâd expected, and for the first time, you feel like you are really getting into the spirit of the eventâengaging with people, raising money for a good cause, and, most importantly, having fun.
As the last bowl is served and the donations tallied, you and Mingyu stand back, watching the locals disperse with a sense of accomplishment. The organizers hand over the final donation amount, and you canât help but feel a surge of pride at the total.
The other teams slowly gather their own tallies, but this time you are less concerned with your place in the rankings, and more with chatting to the remnant locals left in the area.
The car hums quietly as it moves through the busy streets of Tokyo. After the high of the soba noodle challenge, you find yourself falling into a contemplative silence. Mingyu, sitting beside you, is flipping through the comments and reactions on his phone, his earlier enthusiasm noticeably dimmed.
You glance over at him, sensing the shift in his mood. âEverything okay?â you ask, trying to keep your tone casual.
Mingyu doesnât look up, his eyes fixed on the screen. âYeah, justâŚreading over the comments. Some of them are pretty harsh."
"Honestly, if it were up to me I'd just turn off the phone and focus on the tasks at hand." You grumble off-handedly, looking out at the Toyko skyline from the car.
"It's not really that simple if the whole point of being here is about raising awareness." He replies.
"Yeah but there's no point trying to pander to every person's perceptions of us. You're overthinking it."Â
As the car slows down at a red light, you spot a small street market tucked away in a side alley, illuminated by the warm glow of lanterns. The stalls are bustling with activity, vendors calling out to passersby, and the vibrant colours of fresh produce and handmade goods catch your eye.
"Hey, put the phone down and look at that!" You exclaim, nudging Mingyu and pointing out the window.
Mingyu looks up from his phone, following your gaze to the lively scene outside. A small smile tugs at the corner of his mouth as he takes in the sight. "That looks pretty cool," He admits, his tone lighter than it was just minutes ago.
"Let's take a pit stop and check it out - we can just say we got caught in traffic on the way," You suggest, excited by the atmosphere of the market. "It'll be a nice break."
Mingyu hesitates for a moment, but then nods, tucking his phone away into his pocket.
"Yeah, why not? Let's go."
You signal for the driver to pull over, promising to buy him a tasty snack to make up for the detour.
You step out into the cool evening air. The sound of the city is all around you, but the market feels like a little oasis of calm away from the noise of the competition and the city.
As you walk through the market, the sights, sounds, and smells envelop you. You can hear the sizzling of street food being cooked, the chatter of people bargaining with vendors, and the distant strumming of a guitar from a musician performing near the entrance. The aroma of grilled skewers and freshly baked bread makes your mouth water, and you realize how hungry you still are despite the soba noodles earlier.
Mingyu seems to relax as you both wander from stall to stall, occasionally stopping to admire the crafts or taste a sample offered by a vendor. You notice the tension ease from his shoulders, and the earlier clouds of doubt that hung over him seem to disappear.
At one stall, you find a small display of handcrafted jewellery. Delicate silver chains and intricately designed rings catch the light, and Mingyu picks up a simple bracelet, turning it over in his hands.
âThis is nice,â he says, more to himself than to you. âMy sister would love something like this.â
âYou should get it for her,â you encourage, smiling softly up at him.
He nods, slipping the bracelet back into its place before handing over some cash to the vendor.
The sentimental thought behind the purchase, and Mingyu's affectionate and friendly atmosphere this whole trip seem entirely at odds with the image of the rakish, irresponsible party boy crafted of him in the headlines.
At the far end of the market, you come across a small food stall selling taiyaki. You order one each, Mingyu opting for custard while you go for red bean, and an extra one for your driver.
As you bite into the warm pastry, the sweetness spreads through your mouth, and you let out a contented sigh. Mingyu chuckles at your reaction, his earlier mood now completely gone.
âThis was a good idea,â he admits, taking a bite of his own taiyaki. âI needed this.â
âSometimes, itâs good to just disconnect and enjoy the moment,â you reply, leaning against a nearby railing as you savour the treat.
He looks at you with an expression you can't really distinguish but makes your stomach flip.
"I get why you and Wonwoo are friends - you're pretty similar." He finally says, and you find yourself looking up at him, intrigued to know what makes him say that.
"I mean, you might somehow be even more averse to human contact than him, but you both have a grounded connection to reality that I lack sometimes. I admire it."Â
Such a simple statement - a judgement of you that anyone could have made - has you feeling a little light-headed. It's just a moment of tender insight, perhaps blown out of proportion due to your lack of going out over the last few months, but you can't help but feel bashfully shy at his admiration.
And yet, in the back of your mind, a small doubt nags at you, wondering if this was his move - to shower someone with attention and make them feel seen just to leave after it gets boring again.
"Ha, ah, thanks." You say, unable to keep the awkwardness from your voice. "That's ironic - because grounded, you know, climbing and all ..."
He lets out a puff of laughter, but it feels strained and you're choking on the dead air between you.
"Right, let's get back - they'll probably start worrying soon!" You declare, jaggedly cutting into the silence. Spinning on your heel, you don't wait to see if he's following you or not.
As the car approaches the next checkpoint, Odaiba Marine Park, you take a moment to gather your thoughts. The sun is starting to dip low in the sky, casting long shadows across the city, and the air has cooled considerably.
The organisers greet you at the entrance to the park, explaining the next challenge: a swimming relay. The task involved swimming out to a buoy, retrieving a flag, and racing back to shore. It sounds straightforward enough - although swimming isn't exactly your strong suit.
"Finally, something I can show off in!" Mingyu grins, thanking the organiser who helped you at the entrance. You bite back a remark about how the whole day has really been about who can show off the most.
"Guess I'll be relying on you to carry us through this one." You chuckle, trying to hide the nerves building in you at the thought of failing.
âDonât worry, Iâve got us covered. But youâre swimming too, right? Itâs a relay, so we both have to take a turn.â He shrugs casually, and you wish you had the confidence he has.
âRight,â you say, forcing a smile. âGuess Iâll just have to do my best.â
The idea of letting your team down, of being the weak link, gnaws at you.
You walk onto the beach, the water glittering in the light of the low, late afternoon sun. The crowd of spectators and media are even larger here. The atmosphere is electric, with the excitement of the event palpable in the air.
As you and Mingyu make your way to the starting point, you try to block out the noise, the cameras, the expectations. All you have to do is get through this challenge.
The event coordinator greets you both, handing Mingyu a sleek wetsuit and giving you a similar one. âYouâve got about ten minutes to suit up and get ready. Weâll start the relay as soon as everyoneâs in position.â
Mingyu takes the wetsuit with a confident nod, but you hesitate. The tight suit is designed for efficiency, but you canât help but feel self-conscious as you pull it on, the material clinging to your skin. When you are finally suited up, you catch a glimpse of yourself in one of the reflective surfaces nearby and have to resist the urge to cringe.
Together, you walk down to the water's edge, where the other teams are already gathering.
"Okay, game plan-" Mingyu gives you a small smile, and you know that he's only really talking strategy to calm you down. "You should take the first lap, and then I can make up for any time you lose - if I even need to!"
You nod, steeling your nerves. Competition is what you are good at, even if swimming is not. You're not going to let yourself down now.
As the starting signal blares, you take a deep breath and plunge into the water. The coolness of the ocean envelops you, and for a brief moment, it's all you can focus on - the sensation of the water against your skin, the rhythmic pull of your arms as you begin to swim.Â
You feel yourself slipping into that familiar headspace. Brutal efficiency and speed at the cost of the pain in your limbs only further motivates you as you manage to tune out the excited shouts of the spectators and other teams.
Reaching the buoy, you see two of the other teams had already grabbed their flags and turned around. Although the disappointment of not being first flares up in you, you know that all you need to do is keep up with the rest of the group and Mingyu will do the rest of the work for you.
Pushing your aching limbs to their limits, you splash your way back to the shoreline. Your bones sigh with relief as your fingertips graze the sand banks and you hear a splash behind you as Mingyu leaps into the water.
Pulling yourself up onto the beach, spluttering out some wayward water, you watch Mingyu's confident strides through the water. Although you've seen his races before on TV, watching it in real life is like nothing else. The powerful strokes, effortlessly pushing him forward, makes it clear that he was born to be in the water.
By the second quarter of his lap, he's already managed to take the lead. You feel yourself cheering out despite the burning sensation in your lungs. Reaching out for the second flag, he easily lifts it up, beginning to spin to turn back for the second lap.
Your excitement turns to confusion as you watch him just ... stop.
"What are you doing!? Keep going! We're going to win!" You yell, confusion bubbling over into frustration.
But he doesn't hear you, or isn't listening.
Mingyu has turned back around, having spotted another team struggling to untangle their flag from the buoy. Swimming over to them, he steadies the base of the buoy so that the swimmer is able to pull the flag free from its constraints.
Your stomach drops as the team previously in second place breaks out in excited screams, their second-leg swimmer touching the sand bank.
Looking back out at the water incredulously, disappointment searing through you, you watch Mingyu glide back towards the shore, pulling ahead of another team for a third-place position.
"What was that!?" You lash out, as Mingyu pulls himself up onto the bank, panting heavily with droplets of water dripping from his hair and eyelashes. He's looking up at you with a confused, puppy-dog expression, and it's only annoying you more.
"We could have won! Why did you stop?"
Mingyu takes a moment to catch his breath, water dripping from his face as he processes your words. His confusion slowly morphs into something more serious, his brows knitting together as he stands up to face you.
âThey needed help,â he says simply, as if itâs the most obvious thing in the world.
Your frustration only deepens, and you can feel the heat rising in your chest. âBut we were winning, Mingyu! This is a competitionâweâre here to win, not to play lifeguard!â
Mingyuâs expression hardens, the usual lightness in his eyes replaced by a quiet resolve. âI know itâs a competition, but itâs not just about winning. Itâs about more than thatâitâs about sportsmanship, about helping each other out. They were stuck, and I wasnât going to just leave them there.â
You open your mouth to argue, but the words catch in your throat. Deep down, you know heâs right. Youâve always valued integrity in sports, the idea that the game is bigger than the outcome. But in the heat of the moment, all you could see was the finish line, and the thought of losingâespecially when victory had been within reachâhad blinded you to everything else.
You let out a long breath, trying to rein in your emotions. âBut we were so close⌠You were in the lead, Mingyu. We couldâve taken first.â
He lets out an incredulous laugh. "You're unbelievable."
He shakes his head, walks up the beach, and leaves you to stew in your quiet shame.
"You got mad at him because he ... helped someone?"Â
Iseul's obvious confusion is only making you feel worse.
"Yes, that's exactly what I did." You sigh into the phone. You'd called Iseul the moment you'd gotten back to your room, not even waiting to shower off the crusty salt water in your hair.
"Squid, that's a little bit insane." You can hear her grimacing on the other side of the line.
"I know," You admit, chewing on your bottom lip. "This whole day I've been so anal about winning, but the most enjoyable parts were all the times that I wasn't thinking about it! I liked making things for other people, getting to meet the fans, and exploring the Tokyo market. I don't know why I just blew up like that at the end, especially considering, as you said, he was just helping someone."
A long hum buzzes through the phone.
"I don't know squid," Iseul begins, carefully pacing her words. "I think you're so used to thinking about competitions and winning, and now you've been faced with a situation where that's not as important, and a person who has very different priorities to yourself, and you're struggling to deal with it."
"I know, you're right." You say, letting out a long breath. "It's just ... Mingyu's approach to all of this is so different from mine, and I guess a part of me is jealous that he's able to balance having fun and still doing well in competitions in a way that I've never been able to do."
Iseul's voice softens. "It's not a bad thing to want to win, but you have to remember that it's not the only thing that's important in life."
You nod, even though she can't see you. "I can't believe I let my frustration get the better of me. I didn't even give him credit for what he did. He was just being kind, and I ... I snapped at him."
"I don't think it's too late to make things right," Iseul says gently. "Talk to him. Apologise. It's okay to admit when you're wrong."
You fall silent for a moment, considering her words. The knot in your stomach tightens at the thought of facing Mingyu again, but you know that she's right. You can't just let this fester.
"Yeah," You finally say, your voice firmer. "I'll talk to him. I just hope he doesn't think I'm a complete asshole."
Iseul laughs softly. "Based on what you've said about him, Mingyu doesn't seem like the type to hold a grudge. He's experienced all of these pressures too, I'm sure he'll understand."
"Thanks, Sullie," You say, grateful for the calming presence of your friend.
"Anytime squid. Now go shower - you can't face up to the sexy man you heavily insulted smelling like sea rot!"
You chuckle, wishing her the best as you hang up the phone. For a moment, you linger at the edge of your bed, letting Iseul's words sink in. Dragging yourself in the shower, the warm water washes away the salt and the stress bubbling up in your mind. As the steam fills the bathroom, you replay the events in your mind, trying to figure out what youâll say to Mingyu. Apologizing has never been easy for you, especially when it comes to admitting that your single-minded focus on winning might not always be the best approach.
Changing into something more comfortable - sort, worn jeans and a loose sweater - you make your way out to the rooftop garden in the Olympic Village. You aren't sure where you will find Mingyu, but you figure that if you were trying to decompress after a hard day this is where you'd go.
The garden was quiet, bathed in the soft glow of string lights that crisscrossed above the paths. The sky was a deep shade of indigo, dotted with the first stars of the night, and the distant hum of the city below felt like a comforting lullaby. You walked slowly along the path, taking in the scent of blooming flowers and the rustle of leaves in the gentle breeze.
As you rounded a corner, you spotted a familiar figure sitting on a bench, his face illuminated by the warm light. Mingyu was there, dressed in casual clothes, his hair still damp from his own shower. He was leaning back against the bench, staring up at the sky.
"Hey, mind if I sit?" You say, your voice tentative.
He looks up, emotions flashing across his eyes as he takes you in. The silence in the moment before he responds feels like it drags on for an eternity.
"Yeah, sure." He finally replies, a coldness to his tone that chills you more than the late evening air.
Carefully perching at the end of the bench, leaving enough room between you, you release a long breath, hoping for the courage to rectify the situation.
"I wanted to apologise for earlier. I shouldnât have snapped at you like that. You were just trying to help, and I... I was so caught up in the idea of winning that I didnât see what was really important."
Mingyu's gaze swings around to meet your own, and you can see that he's trying to beat down the anger he's feeling.
"Well, I appreciate that." He relies steelily. "But, you know, this whole obsession with winning isn't cool. You've had this problem with me all day about how I do things - that I'm more laid back, that I like to have fun, or be in the public spotlight. But, really, out of the two of us, it wasn't my actions that ruined the mood."
His words cut through the quiet of the rooftop garden, leaving you momentarily speechless. You knew this conversation wouldn't be easy, but hearing the hurt and frustration in Mingyu's voice brings the reality of the situation crashing down on you.
You take a deep breath, trying to steady your emotions. "I know," you say softly, your voice barely above a whisper. "You're right. I let my obsession with winning cloud my judgment, and I took it out on you. That wasnât fair, and Iâm sorry."
Mingyuâs eyes narrow slightly as he studies you, his expression guarded. "Itâs not just about what happened today," he says, his voice measured. "Itâs like... youâve been judging me from the start. Like I donât take this seriously because Iâm not as intense as you are. But thatâs not who I am. I love competing, but I also believe in enjoying the experience, in being kind to the people around me. That doesnât make me any less dedicated."
The knot in your chest tightens as you realize just how deeply youâve misjudged him. Youâve been so wrapped up in your own perspective that you failed to see things from his side.
"I don't know how to express how sorry I am. I got caught up in the winning, but I also got caught up in all the headlines and tabloid articles. I acted like I knew you before I actually did - even though all of your actions today have shown me the complete opposite of how they portray you."
You take in a deep, steadying breath.
"The truth is, you've made me confront a part of myself I've been running from for a while now. Your effortless friendliness, your kindness to everyone, and the way you live your life outside of the competition - it was like watching the truth that I'd been avoiding. The truth that my way of doing things, the complete focus to the detriment of every other part of my life, wasn't actually necessary after all. And that revelation wasn't something I wanted to confront. You just happened to be the unlucky recipient of my turmoil - just by existing - and that was entirely unfair of me. I understand if you think I'm a major asshole or a loser, but if you can find it in you to forgive me I promise all of that baggage will no longer be put on you."
The air weighs heavy in the aftermath of your confession.
Mingyu looks at you for a long moment, before slowly nodding his head.
"I don't think your an asshole or a loser," He says sincerely, with a small chuckle in his voice that immediately reverberates through your body and eases out the tension. "I do think that you should stop reading tabloid newspapers though."
You let out a small huff of laughter, releasing a breath you didn't realise you'd been holding.
"Look, I know what I said was harsh," He begins, and you quickly shake your head in disagreement. "No, it was. The drive you have is something that reminds me a lot of myself. You might not believe it now, but I used to do the exact same thing as you - head completely filled with both my own and other people's expectations. I honestly don't think there's anyone here that's gonna be any different. And your drive, it makes you great at what you do - and you are really great at it - but there's so much more to you than being good at climbing."
"That's the lesson I learned for myself, and that I'm still having to learn. Being good at swimming is not my only personality trait, nor is it the only thing I like to do. I still struggle with what other people expect of me, and, like you showed me today, sometimes I do need to get out of that social media bubble. I really did appreciate that, by the way." He continues.Â
You feel a wave of relief wash over you at both his forgiveness and his gratitude. Part of you feels even worse for judging this man who's been nothing but kind and introspective, but a larger part feels serene basking in the atmosphere of your late-night confessions.
"Can I ask you something?" You say softly, still apprehensive about disrupting the gentle calm that existed between you.
Mingyu nods, humming a 'yes' for you to continue. His posture is far more relaxed than when you first found him, and under the background lights of the cityscape you can't help but notice how beautiful he looks.
"All of the stuff about the partying and the girls - is any of it true? To be clear, it doesn't matter either way, I'd just like to get to know you better." You ask, feeling too shy to meet his eyes.
Mingyu chuckles, the sound warm and reassuring. "I mean, some of it's true I guess. I don't really think I've done enough to live up to the 'party boy' title though," he says, his tone light but honest. "Yeah, I've had my fun, gone to some parties, met some people, but it's not like I'm out every night getting into fights or causing trouble. The only reason it gets picked up on more than any other athlete is because I have a big following on social media so the stories sell more."
You nod, still too shy to meet his eyes, but you can sense the sincerity in his voice. Itâs clear that heâs not trying to brush off the question or hide anything from you.
"I guess when youâre in the public eye, people tend to exaggerate things," he continues, his voice softening. "And, yeah, Iâve been with a few people, but itâs not like Iâm out there chasing every girl I meet. Most of it is just rumours and assumptions. You know how it isâpeople like to talk."
You finally muster the courage to glance up at him, and the gentle look on his face tugs at your heartstrings. "I appreciate you being honest with me," you say quietly. "I didnât mean to pry, I just⌠wanted to know the real you."
You watch his face contort from a peaceful smile to an excited expression, raised eyebrows and a large grin that makes you jittery.
"I have an idea - why don't we go out and do something fun? There's not gonna be many chances when the games actually begin, and you're gonna be too tired to want to. But Tokyo nightlife is unlike anything else, and that way we can get to know each other better outside of the pressures of the competition. What do you think?"
He's standing up, his hand outstretched for you to take and you can feel your heart pounding in your chest at the gesture.
This time, you don't need any time to decide. A broad smile taking over your face, you reach out to grab his hand and pull yourself up off of the bench with a small nod.
âOkay, letâs do it,â you say, feeling a rush of excitement that mirrors his own. Thereâs something thrilling about the spontaneity of the moment, the idea of exploring the city with him, away from the pressures of the competition and the watchful eyes of the media.
Mingyuâs grin widens as he gives your hand a gentle squeeze before letting go. âAwesome! I know just the place,â he says, his voice bubbling with enthusiasm. âItâs this little rooftop bar with an amazing view of the city. I think youâll love it.â
As you walk together through the vibrant streets of Tokyo, the cityâs energy pulses around you. Neon signs flicker in a kaleidoscope of colours, and the sounds of laughter and music fill the air.Â
When you arrive at the rooftop bar, the view takes your breath away. The city sprawls out below you, a sea of lights stretching as far as the eye can see. Itâs magical, and for a moment, you both stand there in silence, taking it all in.
Mingyu leads you to a cozy corner, where you settle into comfortable chairs with a perfect view of the skyline. The atmosphere is relaxed, the kind of place where you can talk for hours without feeling rushed. And thatâs exactly what you do.
As the night wears on, the conversation flows easily. You talk about everything and nothingâyour favourite places to travel, the challenges of balancing personal life with the demands of being an athlete, your dreams for the future. Thereâs a vulnerability in the way Mingyu opens up to you, sharing stories and thoughts he doesnât often reveal. And you find yourself doing the same, feeling a sense of trust and connection that surprises you.
"You know, my flatmate, Iseul, she calls me squid?" You laugh, embarrassed by the childhood nickname.
"Woah, okay - was not expecting that! There must be a story there?" Mingyu replies, a light breeziness to his laughter.
"Nope, no explanation." You quip, shaking your head in mock indignation.
"Oh, come on!"
"Okay, yeah that was a lie." You chuckle. "In elementary school, on the first day of class, Iseul and I sat next to each other in science class. I'd just moved to the area - I think we were about eight or nine? - and I was so nervous to be in a new school and meet new people. Anyways, I hype myself up to talk to the cool looking girl with one of those summer holiday braids. As I go to open my mouth and speak, my pen explodes in my hand, covering my hands, my shirt, my face - everywhere. Iseul has called me squid ever since. I guess I'm just grateful she still decided to take a chance on me after that."
You peak your head downwards, your ears burning up as you let out an embarrassed laugh.
"Oh, wow - that's a pretty good nickname originator." Mingyu hums. "I never really had any proper nicknames in school, the best I've got is my sister calling me squishy when we were really young."
You release a relieved giggle, glad for the levity Mingyu is able to bring to each moment.
You push your hair back for your face in embarrassment, only to feel Mingyu leaning forward and pushing your hair behind your ear for you. With his face so close to your own and the feeling of his hands next to your face, you feel your smile drop and lips part in shock.
The moment only lasts a second, before his face has moved back again, his hands away from your hair.
Mingyu leans back, a thoughtful expression on his face as he watches the city lights flicker. âYou know,â he says softly, âIâve been to so many places, done so many things, but this⌠tonight⌠it feels different.â
You look at him, your heart swelling at his words. âI feel the same way,â you admit, your voice barely above a whisper. âIâm glad we did this.â
He turns to you, his eyes warm and full of something you canât quite name. âMe too.â
As the night stretches and the bar begins to empty, neither of you are in a hurry to leave.
"I heard you guys didn't make it to karaoke yesterday, would you wanna go now?" You question, feeling a levity you haven't felt in a long time.
Mingyu's eyes light up at your suggestion. The look is honestly adorable, and you can't help but feel even more endeared towards this overly enthusiastic man.
"Karaoke? Now? Absolutely!" He exclaims, the smile across his face contagious.Â
"You really like karaoke, huh?" You tease, enjoying how animated he's become.
"Who doesn't?" He replies, standing up and offering you his hand once again. "Come on, we have to go before the night is over."
Together, you leave the now-empty bar behind, stepping out into the cool night air. The city is still alive, even at this late hour, and you can hear the faint sounds of heels clicking against the pavement as club-goers making their way home, takeaway boxes in hand.
As you walk towards the nearest karaoke spot, Mingyu is practically bouncing with anticipation. âOkay, but just to warn you,â he says with a playful grin, âI take karaoke very seriously. Iâve got a playlist and everything.â
You raise an eyebrow, amused. âA playlist? Youâre really prepared.â
âAlways,â he says with a wink. âBut donât worry, Iâm up for anything. Whatâs your go-to karaoke song?â
You think for a moment, considering the question. âProbably something upbeat and fun. Maybe a classic pop song that everyone knows - some Shinee or BIG BANG?"
Mingyu nods approvingly. âGood choices. Iâm all about the crowd-pleasers too. Nothing better than getting everyone singing along.â
By the time you reach the karaoke bar, youâre both buzzing with anticipation. The place is lively, with groups of people gathered around tables, cheering on their friends as they sing their hearts out. The atmosphere is warm and inviting, and you feel any lingering nerves melt away.
Mingyu arranges for a private room, and as you step inside, youâre greeted by colourful lights and a large screen displaying an endless list of songs. You canât help but feel a little thrill of excitement for spending this time with Mingyu.
âAlright, letâs see what youâve got,â Mingyu says, handing you the remote to choose the first song.
You scroll through the options, finally settling on a catchy, upbeat tune that you know will get the energy flowing. As the music starts, you grab the microphone and throw yourself into the performance, letting go of any self-consciousness. Mingyu watches with a grin, clapping along and cheering you on.
When your song ends, Mingyu takes his turn, picking a song with a dramatic flair. His voice is surprisingly good, and he belts out the lyrics with a passion thatâs both impressive and hilarious. You canât stop laughing, but youâre also genuinely impressedâheâs not kidding when he says he takes karaoke seriously.
The night continues like this, with the two of you trading songs, singing duets, and laughing until your sides hurt. Thereâs a carefree joy in the air, a sense of freedom that you havenât felt in a long time. Itâs as if, for these few hours, youâre both able to forget about the pressures of the competition and just enjoy the moment.
As the final song of the night plays, a slow, sentimental tune, you find yourselves standing side by side, sharing the microphone. The playful banter fades, replaced by a quiet connection as you sing together. Itâs a sweet, unexpected moment of closeness, and when the song ends, you both linger in the silence that follows.
Mingyu turns to you, his expression softening. "Thanks for this, it was a great suggestion." He says quietly.
You smile up at him, feeling the warmth of his words. "It was perfect."
The tension between you floods the room in a manner that feels entirely different to the argument earlier. The way he's looking at you and the fluttering of your heart - you feel yourself being sucked into his aura and he's not doing anything to stop it from happening.
But then it's all too much and all too fast, and your brain processes the situation, and you're here, with the most handsome man you've ever seen, and you're just you. With the little experience of romance you've had, dampened by the very little time you've ever spent trying to pursue it, you feel yourself floundering, unsure of what to do or if you've entirely misread the situation.
What if this was just a friendly night out between teammates? Something to clear the air after a disagreement? What if you're feeling something that he's not?
Breaking the eye contact and pulling your head back around to the karaoke machine, you let out a little, awkward cough.
"We should probably be heading back now - don't want to oversleep and miss the second day of tasks, right?" You say, attempting to keep your voice light but utterly failing.
"Right, yeah, definitely." Mingyu replies, and you can't bear turning back to look at him to further gauge his reaction.
You wake up early on the second day of the campaign. You had tossed and turned all night, your mind racing with endless thoughts about last night. Deciding it is better to get up and do something productive to clear your head, you end up getting up and heading down to the training pool for a few laps of calming cardio.
Reaching the pool, you strip down to your swimsuit, wrapping a tool around your body and holding on to your bag which you intend to just dump next to the pool.
The sight you are greeted with when you reach the pool stops you in your tracks. Mingyu is already there, cutting through the water with powerful, graceful strokes. He's completely in his element, his focus entirely on the rhythm of his movements, oblivious to your presence. For a moment, you stand there, towel clutched around you, watching him. There's something almost mesmerising about the way he moves, each stroke smooth and deliberate, a perfect blend of strength and precision.
As you continue to watch, a swirl of emotions churns within you. The memories of the previous night, the almost-kiss, and the way you pulled away flood your mind. Part of you wants to rush forward, to apologise, to explain your hesitation, but another part holds you back, uncertain of how to approach him.
Caught frozen between your two instincts, it's Mingyu who first notices you standing there. He stops at the edge of the pool, his eyes locking onto yours, and for a second, neither of you says anything. The tension lingers in the air, something unsettled and unspoken.
âMorning,â Mingyu says, his voice gentle but carrying an undercurrent of something moreâconcern, maybe?
âMorning,â you reply, managing a small smile as you step closer, placing your bag down beside the pool. âDidnât expect to see you here so early.â
"Gotta keep a consistent routine going, even if I'm going to spend the day doing more exhausting physical activities." He nods, pulling himself out of the pool and reaching for a towel.
You can't help but marvel at his swimmer's physique. Broad shoulders, a muscular back, and water trickling down his toned stomach. You catch yourself staring, and feel embarrassingly predatory with the way you just ogled him.
"Of course!" Your voice comes out squeaky. "Same here; I just wanted to get in some cardio before the campaign starts again."
"The pool's all yours, I just finished." He makes eye contact with you, offering a small smile as he reaches down and grabs his own bag from the floor.
"Thanks!" It's all you can muster up, and you have to push the bubble of disappointment down as he leaps back up the steps towards the exit.Â
Perching at the side of the pool, you drop your bag and towel down and submerge yourself into the clarifyingly cold water, brushing aside everything but the feeling of your body moving through the water.
The energy around the Olympic Village is electric, buzzing with the anticipation of the day ahead. You can feel it in the air, in the quick, purposeful strides of athletes and the hurried conversations between event organizers.
As you finish your quick meal in the communal dining area, Hu Chunhoâs voice crackles over the loudspeakers, calling all the participants to gather at the main event area. You can feel your heart rate pick up, your body already thrumming with the adrenaline that had become so familiar over the past day.
Rather than travelling by car, all the pairs are given a map of the city and offered clues to find specific landmarks or hidden spots around Tokyo.
Peering over at the map of the team next to you, you note that their clues are different to your own.
"I think we might all have different tasks," You say, looking from the map to Mingyu. He hums a note of understanding.
You look back down at your first clue.
'Where the world converges under neon lights, countless footsteps create a symphony of chaos and order. Stand where five paths meet and become part of Tokyo's heartbeat.'
"Oh, I know what this is!" Mingyu exclaims, a grin gracing his features. "It's Shibuya Crossing - the converging paths and neon lights. It has to be!"
You feel yourself smiling back at him, a spike of pride at his quick wit.
"You're right, I'm sure of it. Let's get going now!" You reply with excited glee.
With the destination clear in your minds, you and Mingyu waste no time. You quickly gather your things and set off toward the nearest subway station. The map in your hands outlines the general route, but Mingyuâs familiarity with the city helps you navigate through the bustling streets more efficiently.
The journey is a blur of fast-paced steps and fleeting glimpses of Tokyoâs vibrant city life. As you near Shibuya, the energy in the air intensifies. The streets grow more crowded, the buildings taller, and the lights brighter. When you finally arrive at Shibuya Crossing, the sight before you is both exhilarating and overwhelming.
The crossing is as chaotic and mesmerising as you imagined. Hundreds of people are waiting at the edges, ready to surge forward the moment the lights change. Neon signs tower above, flashing advertisements in a dazzling array of colours. Itâs the epitome of organized chaosâa perfect reflection of Tokyoâs heartbeat.
âHere we are,â Mingyu says, his voice filled with awe as he takes in the scene. âItâs even more intense than I remember.â
You nod, feeling the adrenaline coursing through your veins. âYeah, this is incredible. But whatâs our next step? Weâre here, but Iâm sure we need to do something to complete the task.â
Mingyu pulls out the next clue, which had been tucked under the first. ââCapture the moment where the world pauses and moves in perfect harmony. Your time in the spotlight will guide you to the next step.ââ
You exchange a glance, both of you quickly understanding the challenge. âWe need to take a photo or video of the crossing,â you suggest. âBut itâs more than just capturing the chaosâwe need to find that moment of perfect harmony.â
The two of you wait, watching the flow of people, searching for that precise moment when the crossing becomes a symphony of movement. After a few cycles of the lights changing, you finally see itâa brief pause when all the pedestrians are perfectly aligned in their crossings, creating a visual harmony thatâs almost surreal.
âNow!â Mingyu says, raising his phone to capture the scene. You run into the centre of the crossing, spreading your arms up in the air and grinning as wide as you can before running back towards a chuckling Mingyu.
"Getting more into the spirit of things, huh?" He teases, and you feel your cheeks turning red.
"More points for a viral moment." You remind him playfully, feeling that familiar elevated pace as he smiles back at you.
You take a moment to appreciate the photo before Mingyu checks the time on his phone. âWe should send this in to confirm weâve completed the task. I think theyâll give us our next clue once we do.â
With a nod, you send off the photo, your heart still racing with the thrill of the moment.
Mingyuâs phone buzzes with a new notification. He checks it and grins, showing you the screen. âLooks like weâre moving on to the next location. Ready to keep going?â
You smile, the excitement in your chest bubbling over. âAbsolutely. Letâs see where this adventure takes us next.â
'Where giants clash in a ring of honour, find the arena where tradition and strength reign supreme. Seek the sacred ground where wrestlers bow to ancient rituals and the thundering footsteps echo the spirit of Japanâs warriors.'
"Wait," you say, your eyes lighting up as you reread the clue. "Do we get to go to the sumo wrestling arena?"
Mingyu looks up from the clue, his own excitement building as he connects the dots. âRyogoku Sumo Hall! That has to be it. The 'ring of honour' and 'giants clashing'âitâs definitely talking about sumo wrestling!â
With your destination clear, you both set off, navigating through the bustling streets of Tokyo. The journey takes you deeper into the heart of the city, where the modern skyscrapers slowly give way to more traditional structures. The closer you get to Ryogoku, the more the city's energy seems to shift.
The atmosphere around the hall is vibrant, with banners fluttering in the breeze and the faint sounds of drums echoing from within. It's as if the very air is charged with the spirit of the ancient sport.
As you and Mingyu step into the grand interior of Ryogoku Sumo Hall, youâre immediately struck by the rich history that permeates the space. The arena, with its towering roof and sacred dohyĹ at the centre, exudes a sense of reverence. You can almost hear the echoes of past matches and the cheers of crowds that have filled these seats over the years.
A guide approaches you with a warm smile, holding a scroll that seems fitting for the traditional setting. âWelcome to Ryogoku Sumo Hall,â she says. âYour task today is to immerse yourselves in the ancient traditions of sumo. Youâll be participating in a special challenge that combines both physical skill and cultural understanding.â
Mingyu and you exchange intrigued glances as the guide continues, âFirst, youâll each don a mawashi, the traditional sumo belt. Then, youâll enter the dohyĹ for a ceremonial shikoâthis is the ritual leg-stomping exercise that all sumo wrestlers perform to purify the ring and demonstrate their strength.â
The guide gestures towards a small area where the costumes have been laid out for you. You both eagerly move to change, slipping into the mawashi with some assistance. It feels a bit awkward at first, but the sense of tradition and the significance of the garment quickly overtake any discomfort.
Once youâre ready, the guide leads you to the edge of the dohyĹ where a set of cameras and one of the event coordinators is waiting on the sidelines.
âThe shiko involves raising your leg as high as you can and then stomping down forcefully,â the guide explains to you and the audience. âIt symbolizes grounding yourself and dispelling any evil spirits. Itâs as much about mental focus as it is physical strength.â
Mingyu steps into the ring first, his expression one of determined focus. He takes a deep breath, then lifts his leg high, bringing it down with a powerful stomp. The sound reverberates through the hall, and even from the sidelines, you can feel the intensity of the movement.
Encouraged by Mingyuâs performance, you follow suit. You step into the ring, feeling the cool clay beneath your feet. Taking a moment to centre yourself, you lift your leg, feeling the stretch in your muscles, and then bring it down with as much force as you can muster. The stomp resonates through the space, and for a moment, you feel totally connected to the earth of the theatre.
After completing the shiko, the guide smiles approvingly. âWell done,â she says. âFor the final part of your task, youâll need to demonstrate your understanding of the sumo rituals by performing a brief reenactment of the pre-match ceremonies. This includes the ritual clapping, salt-throwing, and bowing. Itâs important to show respect and precision in each movement.â
You and Mingyu work together to recall the steps youâve observed from past sumo matches. As you move through the ritualsâclapping your hands sharply to summon the attention of the gods, throwing salt to purify the ring, and bowing to show respect to your opponentâyou feel ever more connected to Mingyu.Â
As you finish the task, the guide hands you a small, ceremonial fan, a symbol of your successful completion of the challenge. âYouâve shown great respect and enthusiasm for our traditions,â she says. âYour next clue will lead you to your following adventure in Tokyo. But for now, take a moment to appreciate the history youâve become a part of.â
You and Mingyu exchange a look of mutual pride, before offering one last wave to the audience and going to take off the costume.
Exiting the sumo hall through the front entrance, you hear a ding on your phone and pull it out to reveal the third clue.Â
'Where the flame of unity is rekindled, and the worldâs eyes gather once more. Seek the grounds where champions are crowned, and the spirit of competition ignites the heart of Japan.'
"Back to the Olympic stadium?" Mingyu queries, looking over the clue.
"Sounds like it," You say, still uncertain. The clue's language is undeniably pointing back to the arena, but you're unsure of what could be waiting for you back at the beginning.
With the Tokyo National Stadium as your destination, the two of you pick up the pace, heading back through the city. The streets are familiar now, and the route to the stadium is etched into your memory from the many times youâve travelled to and from the venue.
Stepping into the stadium, you spot two of the over teams already waiting in one corner of the track field, and make your way over to them.
"Guess we're all here for the final task?" Chunghee beams.
Taking a moment, you look around the stadium, completely soaking in the atmosphere. In a few weeks, you'll be back walking here with your whole team, representing your country. The sense of awe and pride has you feeling small under the arena lights.
Soon enough, the rest of the teams begin to filter into the stadium.
Feeling a presence behind you, you spin around expecting to see Mingyu. A smile breaks over your face as you see your other teammate walking up to you.
"Didn't catch you last night. Did you finally get that night in?" Wonwoo chuckles. His clothes are dirty, as if he's been rolling around in the mud somewhere.
"Not quite," You respond, a ghost of a smile flickering at your lips.
"Cryptic."
"Gotta keep you on your toes, haven't I?"
"Please, you're about as predictable as the sunrise." He teases, and you bat his arm in mock offence.
"You wouldn't be able to guess what I was doing if you tried." You retort.
"Oh, really? It wouldn't have something to do with the hunky swimmer that hasn't let you out of his sight since you got here?"
You feel your cheeks warm at Wonwoo's teasing, but quickly regain your composure, rolling your eyes in response. "Oh, please," you say, crossing your arms playfully. "You're just jealous of me and Mingyu's great teamwork."
Wonwoo smirks, clearly not buying your casual deflection. "Uh-huh, sure. But just so you know, you're not as subtle as you think." He winks, making you groan in mock frustration.
"Come on, Wonwoo, can we just focus on the tasks and not whatever wild theories you're cooking up in that head of yours?" You protest with a lightness to your tone.
He chuckles, raising his hands in mock surrender. "Alright, alright, I'll back off. But if I were a betting man, I'd put money on you two spending last night together. He's practically glowing today."
You shake your head, unable to suppress a smile. "Maybe it's you who's got the crush."
"I have it on good authority that I'm not the one with the crush."
"What's that supposed to mean-"
"Hey, man, ready for the final challenge?" Before you can finish your sentence, Wonwoo turns around to greet Mingyu who's walked over to the pair of you, but not without shooting you a knowing look first.
Mingyu nods, glancing at you with a smile. "Absolutely. What have you two been talking about?"
"Just catching up," You reply quickly, giving Wonoo a look that says to keep his mouth shut.
Wonwoo laughs, clapping Mingyu on the shoulder. "Yeah, nothing important. Letâs just say Iâm curious to see how this day pans out."
The event coordinators hand you over the final task - although the course at the middle of the arena has already given the game away.
The last challenge of the day was revealed to be an intense relay race. Each team member would have to compete a different leg of the course, each designed to play to different strengths. The course was a mix of speed, agility, and sheer endurance - sprints though tight obstacle courses, balance tests on narrow means, and a gruelling final leg that involve scaling a steep incline with a weighted sack of rice together.
"Hey, so, how do you wanna play this?" Mingyu calls out, huddling next to you as to conceal your planning from the other teams. The warmth from his body next to you makes your breath hitch in your throat.
"Uh, um, I'm amenable. Is there a particular part you'd rather do?" You cough, looking over the course with an analytical eye.
"Your balance is undoubtedly better than mine, so maybe you should do the beam and I'll do the sprints?" He replies and you nod in agreement.
"That makes sense to me!" You smile before taking your phone from your pocket to take a photo of the two of you. "Gotta keep up the socials, right?"
Mingyu shakes his head in surprise, a small laugh escaping him.
"You must have had a good teacher."Â
You wink at him in response, and instantly feel the blush creeping back up your neck.
Looking around, you see the other teams still huddled together, getting ready and planning their strategies.
"So, uh, you and Wonwoo are close right?" Mingyu asks, the confident air to his tone noticeably lacking.
"Oh, yeah! We were in the same climbing club when we were younger - made it right to the top together." You smile, thinking back over the memories. "You know, one time, we both got stuck on this insanely tough route. Everyone else had given up, but not Wonwoo. He was determined to figure it out, and I obviously couldn't let him be the only one to finish, so we stayed there for hours. Eventually, we worked together to figure out the route, and we managed to do it. I swear, he more than anyone else taught me the value of perseverence, even if it was out of spite."
Mingyu listens intently, his expression softening as he watches the nostalgia play across your face. âSounds like youâve been through a lot together."
âYeah, we have,â you reply, meeting his gaze. âHeâs like a brother to me. Weâve always had each otherâs backs, no matter what.â
Mingyu nods, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. âThatâs really cool. Itâs good to have someone to bring you back to earth."
"-to the starting positions! The team that performs best across all challenges will be crowned the champions. But remember, this is also about raising awanress and funds, to keep the energy high and the spirits up!"
âReady?â Mingyuâs voice breaks through the announcement, and you look up to see him watching you, a question in his eyes.
 âYeah, Iâm ready.â
The whistle blows, and the first leg of the relay begins. Mingyu takes off like a shot, his powerful strides eating up the ground as he navigates the winding course with ease. You watch him, your heart in your throat, feeling that familiar pressure being assauged by pride.
When it gets to your turn, you sprint up to the balance beam, forcing yourself to block out the noise of the crowd and focus solely on the task ahead. The beam is narrow, barely wider than your foot, and it wobbles slightly with every step you took. Every muscle in your body is tense, coiled like a spring, ready to react to the slightest imbalance, but you are in your element.
As you near the end of the beam, the crowdâs cheers grow louder, and you feel a surge of triumph as you leap off, landing smoothly on the other side. No time to celebrate, thoughâthere is still the final climb ahead.
Running over to where Mingyu is waiting at the base of the incline, you begin to hoist the rice sacks over your shoulders, exchanging a determined nod before starting the final ascent. The incline is steep, and with the added weight of the sacks, every step becomes a test of endurance and strength. You focus on your breathing, matching your pace with Mingyuâs, both of you pushing each other to keep going despite the burning in your legs.
As you near the top, you catch sight of another team struggling halfway up the incline. One of their members has slipped, and their sack has tumbled down, spilling some of its contents. The other teammate is desperately trying to help, but itâs clear theyâre exhausted and frustrated, their progress slow.
Mingyu notices too, glancing at you with a question in his eyes. âIt's your call.â he says, his voice tight with effort.
You hesitate, the competitive part of you screaming to keep going, to push through and secure your victory. But another part of you, a bigger part, tugs at your conscience. You know what you have to do.
âLetâs help them,â you say, making the decision in a heartbeat.
Without waiting for a response, you turn and start making your way back down the incline. Mingyu follows without hesitation, both of you quickly reaching the struggling team. You offer a hand to the fallen teammate, helping them back to their feet, while Mingyu retrieves the spilled sack.
You can hear the live stream commentator yelling frenzily into the mic.
âHere, weâve got this,â you say, as you and Mingyu steady their loads and start guiding them up the incline. The other team looks at you with a mix of surprise and gratitude, clearly touched by the gesture.
The climb is slower now, and you can feel the weight of the rice sacks digging into your shoulders, but thereâs a different kind of satisfaction growing in your chest. When you finally reach the top, you help the other team place their sacks down before doing the same with yours. The other team thanks you breathlessly, clearly overwhelmed by your assistance.
As you all cross the finish line together, you know youâve lost the race, but the sense of accomplishment in doing the right thing far outweighs the sting of defeat. The crowdâs cheers are louder than ever, and you can see that many of the spectators have noticed what you did.
Trying to regain your composure, you look over at Mingyu who is looking back at you with an affectionate smile.
"We didn't win." He pants, causing you to let out a sharp, breathless laugh.
Stepping closer, you place a steading hand on his arm. He looks up at you from his crouched over position, before moving to straighten up. Whether it is the adrenaline of the climb, or the confidence from your conversation with Wonwoo, you don't move away this time.
"I know," You smile, eyes sparkling. "I still feel like I've won something though."
"Oh, really?" He replies, moving closer still as that infamous grin breaks out across his face.
"Yeah." You nod, closing the gap between the two of you.
"You wanna make a real viral moment?" Mingyu asks, his tone light and jovial but his eyes conveying a sense of seriousness.
"You know what, I would actually quite like to." You respond, pushing onto your tiptoes to meet his lips with yours. Although you can hear the screams of the fans and other athletes alike behind you, the sound quickly fades into the background as the immense feeling of passion and joy overtakes you.
HIs hand cups your face, pulling you closer to him as his lips move against yours.
Finally breaking apart, he rests his head against yours, shallow breaths being exchanged between the two of you.
"You know that this is gonna make tabloid headlines tomorrow, right?"