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before i talk about fletchman i want to talk about whiplash as a whole. it's something i can relate to on a pretty personal level because whiplash to me is an exploration of who i could be if i was more depressed and didn't have adhd but i did have a teacher like fletcher. i've always had an undercurrent of relentless willpower inside me but the fact that i have adhd stifles it to a crippling point of unproductivity. the movie itself (and i know everyone who says this is missing the point of it but bear with me) is almost, almost a sort of motivation? like if i get the right teacher i'll be able to become great, just like how andrew did, but i'll lose myself along the way and that's not worth it enough for me to want that fully. fletchman is also the result of really toxic, but at the end of the film a more mutually toxic, homoerotic hatred between these two characters and i feel like it's just so interesting on a narrative and analytical level instead of me just wanting to see age gap yaoi. barely spoke about fletchman but its brief yknow

ivandrew. im gonna try my best to explain this properly because i was reading through thatcactusman's blog and it cleansed me of the fanonification of these two. i don't see ivandrew as sweet, and i'm definitely not naive enough to see it as a proper relationship in any sense, either before or during ivan's abuse. when i say i enjoy ivandrew i don't mean i enjoy the idea of them dating, i find ivan's obsession with andrew extremely interesting with the added context of them both being attracted to one another - ivan's crush being objectively creepy and unhealthy while andrew's is more conventional, and how these two types of attraction would be expressed within each character and through their actions. i also just think that crushes and stuff like that in different fonts, so to say, is really neat. but in this case not like awesome neat, more like god this guy needs help neat