Finally, the flesh reflects the madness within...

Missing someone that I used to be real close to but never talks to me anymore no matter how hard I try. I have no idea what I did and even if I heard from them just one more time for them to tell me what happened then at least I’d have closure. I’ve lost a lot of friends and I’m beginning to wonder if the problem is me. I’ve had one tell me that they felt I only messaged them when I needed something but that wasn’t true. I just have had really limited energy for a long time, and social energy is the lowest. My last two friends (after having multiple large groups of friends so this feels really really weird) understand that I rarely have energy to start or sustain conversations and I know that I shouldn’t worry about the others because if they couldn’t understand that then they weren’t the right friends for me but this person I’m missing now feels like they left a huge, huge hole in my soul because of how we shared everything, ever. And it feels like it stopped really suddenly and I’m pretty sure I unintentionally messed it up more a while ago but I did everything in my entire power to mend that. I know that no matter what, if I hurt them then they have no obligation to forgive me but I just wish I knew so I could stop laying awake at night wondering why someone that I love so much doesn’t speak to me anymore unless it’s required. And even then it feels like they don’t want to.

Kingdom Hearts is great because these are all different people:

Or my very favorite: