there would come a point where her back finally manages to hit the wall behind her. thickly she swallows the aching lump in her throat, fists loosening at her sides just a tad despite him drawing forth. it was true⌠all of it had been true. once upon a time, adam was one of few who looked after her in their youth. he had always made sure to patch up her wounds and selflessly give her his extra rations; taught her how to fend for herself as best an adolescent could, and watched over her in the dead of night whilst on post. that much would never forget. she refused to. just as she refused to forget the wrong he has done all the while.
the same old song and dance does get exhausting after its monthly rounds, doesnât it?Â
throughout his entire monologue that had been pitted against her, there was one thing that had angered her more than the restâ more than him reminiscing about what once was, and preaching false predictions to which she could argue against him for the integrity of her teammates. there were not many things that had angered blake belladonna. annoyed? sure. but genuinely, purely pissed off?
only one phrase to come from him caused her to use her words as weapons.
â donât you dare say that to me. you donât â love â me anymore. thisâ â she gestures to the situation with open arms, raising her voice just a tad. â this isnât love, adam. this isnât anything remotely close to it! if your idea of love is to gaslight me to the point of feeling sorry for you? praising you for something decent you did out of unconditional compassion for me as a literal child? â a dangerous move, but it happens all at once; a finger jabs into his chest, sneering up at him with sharp canines peeking from her angered snarl. â then your definition of love is twisted. iâve always been grateful for what youâve done for me, and you know damn well how much i said it time and time again. every verbal thank you, every attempt at returning what you call a favor. i tried my best for you. and even then, that wasnât enough. â
there is an uneasy silence between them as blake catches her breath. yet she starts again. â ⌠but weâre past that now. i know where your intentions lie. you arenât the brother who i used to look up to and who i aspired to be. if you think now that i owe you anything? â her hand stays on his chest for only another moment, soon after lifting the finger off of him before hissing her final statement.
â youâre. dead. wrong. â
With every jab, comes a shoot of pain. Not emotional pain, no-- itâs anger so thick, so chokingly thick, that he can feel the heat of bile in the back of his throat. Now his lip begins to fully curl back, leaning closer, the tenseness of his body betraying his emotions. Hooking Wilt and Blush to his belt to free both hands, Adam replies:Â â Have you ever heard the phrase... â A pause. With a single, violent motion, he yanks off a glove. Revealing knuckles scarred from the past, nails neatly trimmed despite his skin being tarnished with marks of war.Â
      â ...donât bite the hand that feeds you? â
â How dare you say I donât love you, you traitorous coward. â Despite it all, the closeness, the palm hovering between their faces, his wrath remains at a thrum. There, but lurking beneath the surface. Leaking out with every moment he dwells on her biting retort. â In the end, it doesnât matter you left the White Fang, Blake. Friends and allies died because of your absence, but the White Fang is no more. That can be water under the bridge. â His tone says otherwise. â But I cannot-- will not-- forgive the very fact you turned your back on your own family. You call me unloving, but who pushed me to this point, Blake? Who left me alone when I needed you most? I had to take on the burdens of the White Fang for myself. I led them into battle, I struggled to keep them in good health-- but who was there to take care of me? â
Breath has grown heavy. Inches from Blakeâs face, his ungloved hand snaps up abruptly to throw aside his mask. Creases have formed between his eyes, sparking with a wild fire. â No one, Blake! Do you know how that feels? To have no one watching your back? You seem to enjoy running off and playing with your new human friends, excusing them for all that theyâve done-- and you donât think for a second-- â His voice lowers, spitting snarled words onto her nose, â About the brother you left behind. â
His hand tightens into a fist, finger by finger, not held in Blakeâs face like a threat, but as though attempting to regain control of his own body. â You-- â he struggles to find words for a second. Teeth gnashing in their absence. â You care nothing about ANYTHING except YOURSELF, Blake Belladonna. Donât SAY that IâM the one whoâs twisted when YOUâRE the one who ran off to play huntress-- to align yourself with the heroes that have forsaken us from the very BEGINNING. If you think youâre a HERO for turning your back on us, THINK AGAIN. â
He thinks of the Schnee. Blake protecting her rather than him. The huntsmen and huntresses that supposedly fight for justice-- their own brand of justice. His crusade, and how theyâve made REAL PROGRESS-- a cause supposedly not GOOD enough for Blake. Adam leans in, roughly butting his forehead against her own. Staring her down in those golden eyes full of contempt.
â You think youâre ABOVE ME? Think AGAIN! â Thereâs a visible snap in his gaze. Something wild. Untamed. â THINK AGAIN, YOU SELFISH, MISERABLE WASTE OF SPACE! â
Ungloved hand snaps forward, taking hold of her head as though to crush it. But though the strength of a bull flows through his veins, itâs not enough to shatter a skull in one palm. Letting out a snarl, guttural and contorted by the baring of his teeth, he does the first thing his instincts tell him to. RAKING his nails across her face, tearing flesh, blood welling beneath his fingers. Index, middle, and ring. The only three in position to sink solidly into her skin. Spittle and hot breath herald a horrible, horrible roar:
             â THINK AGAIN! â