moon river

i think there is a way of just not posting that much / that many pictures that helps to soften the internet

i feel so lonely and so tired and defective

also im so in my luteal phase right now and i just need rest…

it also does feel related to s*xual assault stuff bc it reminds me of that and its like i freeze up and cant do anything except think that its a joke

being hit on by someone actually stresses me out so much bc it means i have to set a boundary and acknowledge the situation but i dont know how to do that in a gentle way…

lying in bed hearing the cicadas remembering life can be magic

what to do when everything feels like too much?

feeling so many feelings abt my weed consumption. and im about to deal w them by having more 😭

im actually so much happier w/o instagram i feel like it super charges my brain worms at 100x speed

huge palpable full body relief upon returning home

literally my mind is throwing projections at a wall…

im in a place of NEEDING. a nightlight in my parents house. literally im scared of the dark and the absolute silence…

i think i actually just as a cancer am opposed to the concept of travel… like i understand but it stresses me tf out. anyways practice run before i go on my longer (week long) trip. my brains gonna expand <3

im so like. sitting back reeling rn trying to fold my clothes and pack to stay at my parents’ and im scared im gonna get triggered… i feel like i cant self regulate my emotions or express them when im w my parents. i know that im in the present moment rn but like… im so tired. i dont want to carry this with me… anyways im gonna put on a timer for 30 minutes and see how it goes and just do as much as i can in that time <3 xoxo praying for peace on earth. we exist in one million realms and times simultaneously. also im listening to nfr obvi

god im so obsessed w clothes and fashion and when i buy clothes at the thrift store i feel like im winning

considering growing out my bush again…