I fucking hate myself

I guess somethings in life you just have to accept the reality and do your best to take care of those you love.

Im really exhausted of this feeling of not being good enough. I'm tired of having to watch backs and make sure that someone is really there for me, or at least cares some what about me. Fuck this feeling. Why do I have to stress myself out over someone, idk why I do this to myself. Idk why I love people with all of my heart right away. I wish people would treat me like I treat them

Whats the point in pursuing anyone when they just care about themselves.

Whenever something good comes up into my life I always end up over thinking how that good thing will end up being my misery. Idk what to do with myself anymore. What's friendship, what's love? everyone just looks out for themselves

I'm still trying and I don't want to give up. I really do love you and want to create great memories with you. I want to fall in love all over again with you. My insecure thoughts hold me back and I don't want to be scared anymore to love you. I wish I could explain myself to someone, especially you. I can never build up enough confidence to tell anyone anyway... I've become a lot happier since we met and also a little bit more depressed.

I wish you'd get off that phone and talk to me. Ask me if im okay again so I can say yeah again at least.

Burn one for the young one