i affectionately thought of "when i meet my true love" i call him papa bear because i was known as "baby bear" as mi *nickname* of sorts. and demons were sent my way to take that title and dirty it...."ruin it".....but this was different. this was a couple who saw i was broken, "alone", struggling, sick, vulnerable, overwhelmed. a couple who belonged to a religious cult which i wasnt judging them for but since they tried to indoctrinate me into tht cult which they knew had sinister practices whilst also trying to legally adopt me so they could have me as their live in daughter who they could use as their emotional punching bag and also molest and involve in their incestual toxic twisted domestic fantasies- i am judging tht cult now yes. they sought to isolate me and turn me against anyone who would have a issue with them being in my life, the woman kept leaving me alone with that man and that man kept touching me and rubbing me and trying to do things to me and everytime i had a mental breakdown over it he would spend hours and days doing damage control and when I'd be extra firm they would both hound and harass me and not give me the chance to get away, overwhelming me with chaos and confusion to where i was in near catatonic states for such long hours on end it felt like i was experiencing one long unending bad trip from a bad drug, it was so surreal in a nightmarish empty dark even when its light way. he told me that he'd stop touching me those ways once he was "made perfect" after being ressurected, and the thoight thats that whats life was gonna be for me,, i was rescued by angels from thoughts of scary things to try to escape. it felt so desolate like being doomed to this man touching me and using me and kissing me and that woman competing with me and putting me down and hating me and them both referring to themselves as my mama bear and my papa bear and i belonged to them and they were gonna be better for me than the others, but they were the same, and worse. theyhad me watch the trumann show and kept remarking how uncannily similar to my life it was, because those demons get excited when they play in your face, and hide in plain sight. well. they kept quoting scriptures of Job and false comforters when they wrre the false comforters. which by the way i need to reread the book of Job this time from my bible i already had instead of the one their organization has mass produced and they were forcing me to read, because they literally have changed up the words in their bible. which at the end of the real bible it explicitly states not to do. but their organization is full of predators and protecting predators and providing victims for predators and they do it under the guise of being followers of God yet their practices are against what God is and stands for. they were some of the most awful conniving people i ever met and i was born into a den of wolves and scoundrels. anyway God caused a great storm to separate me from them and help me escape them.
to regard people affectionately who have wiggled their way into your life and heart like a worm, a parasite.......whole time they are plotting on your physical and spiritual demise, and seeking to be active hands in the work against goodness, the evil works that they will have to show for......they were not being kind to me. they were grooming me. i accepted them regardless of if they were crazy or damaged or messed up or apart of stuff they didnt really wanna be apart of. and i dont regret doing that. theres people in this world buried underneath lies forced to wear the skin of who they are not. forced to live as something else other than themselves. trapped behind the doors and walls and webs and glasses of deceit and confusion and absolute evil. and i know they are here, i feel them and i have only love and kindness for them. and though there are many imposters and decoys and killers, seeking to intercept me on my way to you, im still on my way <3 and they will not prevail. no weapon formed against Love shall prosper. and whats meant to be will be, just you wait and see. just hold on a while longer for me. please
