M.Natalie Green

As we all know, the Surgeon is a mouse. She may not understand why you are sad in front of the screen, but she knows that there is always a lot of malice in the world who want to hurt you.

所以，如果你累了，痛了，难受了，想哭了，不知道该找谁聊天，或许你可以和外科佬贴贴。她保证自己不会掉毛，而且也不会借机给你进行一些危险的手术。你可以对她做任何事情，但是请不要喂她吃巧克力，除非你更喜欢P2的她......

Therefore, if you are tired, hurt, uncomfortable, want to cry, and don't know who to talk to, maybe you can hug the Surgeon. She promised that she would not lose hair and would not take the opportunity to perform some dangerous operations on you. You can do anything to her, but please don’t feed her chocolate, unless you like her P2 more...

最近发生了一件很不好的事情，可能大家的情绪或多或少都会受到影响，或许发泄出来会更好？这就是外科佬的诞生过程啦，只要你需要她，她就会在。

A very bad thing has happened recently. Maybe everyone's mood will be more or less affected. Maybe it would be better to vent it? This is the birth process of the Surgeon. As long as you need her, she will be there.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Freak Circus (Visual Novel) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Main Character/Pierrot (The Freak Circus), Harlequin/Main Character (The Freak Circus) Characters: Harlequin (The Freak Circus), Pierrot (The Freak Circus) Additional Tags: 人外, NP, 指奸, 骑乘, 混乱 Summary:

It’s also a very happy thing to see Neko’s new statement today. Everything will be fine!!!

Today is a special episode of Qixi, with a number of words 9k➕, which takes a lot of time to read. Thank you for your patience!

以及：中国的读者朋友们可以移步lft或xhs直接看中文版本的，我的ID——流光沐笙，同时我推荐搭配歌曲《拉萨乱雪》by河图 一起食用！

Well, let’s start!!!

The cycle of Pythagoras

The first ray of sunshine in the morning still carried a little coolness of the night, like a dexterous elf in the mountains and forests through the layer of tulle and shone on Pierrot’s face. Pierrot, who felt the change of light and shadow, frowned slightly. He was still in a confused state, but he subconsciously raised his hand to isolate the light that disturbs people’s dreams.

However, Pierrot failed to complete this simple action. Because as soon as he raised his hand, he touched a piece of smooth skin and soft hair. Pierrot opened his eyes doubtfully and saw a woman lying in his arms, her hair hanging on her bare shoulders, and a blanket covered most of the beautiful spring light.

Looking at the familiar and strange face, Pierrot’s heart beat violently, and the irregular jump was about to break his chest. The woman’s warm breath gently swept over his chest. Her palm was holding a strand of white hair, and his hand fell on her back.

Pierrot’s dull thoughts gradually returned to the cage. He cursed himself secretly in his heart. Isn’t this the lady he has been thinking about day and night? He was so obsessed with her, why couldn’t he recall her appearance for a moment? I was in a trance for a while at the her charming face, just like a dream. It’s really... I shouldn’t.

“Well... Pierrot? Are you awake? Why don’t you sleep for a while?”

Just as Pierrot was blaming himself, the lady snuggled up in his arms slowly opened her eyes and yawned while playing with his long hair. Pierrot stared at her inadvertently exposed pink tongue and a few small tiger teeth, and the crazy sound in his head sounded again. He felt that his lower abdomen was a little hot.

He don’t know why, Pierrot suddenly wanted to hold his lady tighter, because he still doubted her authenticity? Pierrot thought, but he couldn’t figure out his messy thoughts anyway.

Pierrot silently hugged the lady who was rubbing her eyes and made the distance between her and himself a little smaller until he could easily smell the familiar smell on her body, until he could feel her temperature again, until he could kiss her forehead.

“...I want to look at you, my lady... Why do I think all this... is like a dream?”

Pierrot asked softly, and his heart gradually became uneasy. He hugged her hand in his arms and exerted a faint force. If he didn’t pay attention, he left a few light red marks on her back. Pierrot was shocked by his recklessness. He immediately controlled his strength, but his expression quickly became indifferent, and a strong sense of guilt and self-reproach rolled out.

At this moment, two delicate jade hands touched Pierrot’s face, and a faint fragrance lingered on him, almost instantly calming his restless heart. Pierrot looked at the person on the tip of his heart and found that there was only one figure in her focused eyes. When he realized this, Pierrot understood that he was undoubtedly the happiest creature in the world at this moment.

“What nonsense are you talking about, Pierrot... Aren’t you in a good state? If that’s the case, let’s not fly a kite today...”

“No, I’m fine... Let’s leave in a while...”

Pierrot put his hand on her hand, and then slid down her wrist a few inches. The delicate touch made him hot all over. Even though he knew that this was not the first time, Pierrot still suppressed his thirsty eyes. He didn’t want to scare her.

Even if the twisted desires in my heart torture me day and night like a bottomless pit, no matter what I do or how long I do it, I can’t be satisfied... However, I will control myself, my dear lady, I will definitely... I won’t let them hurt you, I promise...

So, can you give me more of your tenderness, your gaze, your love... everything about you? I’m really hungry...

Pierrot thought a lot, but years of silence allowed him to hide his emotions skillfully. He didn’t let his young lady find out these dirty thoughts. Pierrot looked at the person who was lying in his arms with a playful smile one second and pushed him away the next second with a red face, indicating that she needed some personal space to change clothes.

Pierrot was happy. He laughed and got up obediently. He planned to prepare some breakfast for his lady first, and then pack up the items he would need to fly a kite later. Pierrot’s behavior is so gentlemanly that people can’t make a mistake at all, but what hovers in his mind is full of some childish and extremely beautiful pictures.

My lady, what part of your body I haven’t seen or touched yet? Why should you be shy? Obviously, we can do some more with the tide... However, your shy appearance is always so charming, and your eyes staring at me seem to be flirting with me, which makes it difficult for me to control myself... It’s so dangerous, I almost...

Many dangerous ideas flashed through Pierrot’s mind, but he was used to it. The expression on his face was very calm, and the things to be dealt with were done methodically. When his lady was ready, Pierrot pulled her to the table and watched her swallow her carefully prepared breakfast with a smile. This time, he prepared a very pure breakfast, and nothing that should not be added was added.

My lady seems to be very happy. It seems that she likes the breakfast I prepared for her very much... In the future, I will cook breakfast for her like this. Just thinking about it makes me happy to the extreme... But I’m also jealous... If I can be eaten by my lady, can I blend with her flesh and blood and never be separated?

“Let’s go, Pierrot!”

Soon, she put down the tableware in her hand and stretched out her hand to the stunned Pierrot. With her back to the sun, with a soft smile on her face, she didn’t seem to understand Pierrot’s thoughts at all. Looking at her gentle eyes, Pierrot suddenly fell into a trance.

How similar this scene is to the scene where they first met! It seems that everything is still developing smoothly, so beautiful... Isn’t this really a dream?

Pierrot was slow to respond, and his lady was not annoyed. It seemed that she was familiar with Pierrot’s behavior. She took the initiative to step forward, held Pierrot’s trembling hand, and pulled him, who was afraid and hesitating, into the spring with her.

Under her guidance, Pierrot felt that his whole body was warm, and the gentle wind blew up his clothes mischievously, pulling the lifeless bells to dance. Pierrot watched her run on the green grass with a smile. The kite made by himself successfully flew into the sky, and the bright rose pattern floated over the blue sky.

She is my angel, my everything, the only beauty left in the world, and her who brings warmth and happiness to me... My lady, you have given me a bright world and poured intoxical poison into my throat. You must be responsible for this. My dear lady, you belong to me and my only...

“Hey, ma’am, it’s nice to see you here! My dear, your figure stayed in my dream last night for a long time. Maybe I can understand it as your dream to me? Haha, don’t be too shy. Maybe we can talk about it later... Of course, I didn’t expect to see you here, Pierrot. What a coincidence! What do you think?”

Before Pierrot finished his emotion, a deep voice sounded from behind him, breaking his appointment with his lady. He saw that the lady who was flying a kite stopped, turned around, and suspiciously looked at the source of the sound, that is, the proud Harlequin.

No, I don’t think it’s a “coincidence” at all! Harlequin, you sticky slug, you can’t get rid of anything, damn it! Who gave you the courage to look at my lady with such greedy eyes?

Pierrot was about to explode with anger. He turned his head with a black face. His naturally drooping hands had been clenched into fists, and the muscles of his arms were tight. He was always ready to punch Harlequin in the face. But Harlequin doesn’t care about this at all. He and Pierrot have been getting along like this for many years. To be honest, Harlequin himself is getting tired of these childish fights.

But this time, Harlequin can swear to God that he is serious.

This is the first time that Harlequin has experienced such extraordinary emotions in his long life. It is so hot and gorgeous that he can’t ignore it. Like the only lighthouse in the dark, whether there is hope or a new abyss ahead, Harlequin can’t resist this temptation.

The lady who fascinated Pierrot also made Harlequin unable to take her eyes off. He was arrogant and had to admit that he chose to fight with Pierrot this time probably just because of herself.

Think about it, if that gentle gaze can stay on him forever, those warm hands will only soothe him in the middle of the night. He can possess her, dominate her, kiss her in name, and put a white veil for her... That feeling is simply... Wonderful!

Pierrot, my dear brother, even if she belongs to you now, so what? It doesn’t matter. I’m not in a hurry. Hunting people always need to have enough patience and perseverance, so that they can be worthy of the one we love deeply. Dear Pierrot, I believe that even if you are angry again, you will not refute this point.

Harlequin did not hide his aggressive eyes and raised his eyebrows at Pierrot, who was angry but speechless, and deliberately provoked him. Relying on his verbal advantage, he wanted to take advantage of the opportunity to mock his “good brother” a few more words, but the charming lady had turned her attention to them, so Harlequin gave up.

When you are here, of course, you are the most important thing, my dear. As for Pierrot, oh, he is just a poor little supporting actor in this good play.

Thinking like this, Harlequin bowed slightly to her, who was full of doubts, and made an inviting gesture. His words were extremely sharp: “My dear ma’am, you have been with Pierrot for a long time. I really envy you. Perhaps, you should now pity the lonely Harlequin, what do you think, honey?”

Originally, Pierrot was annoyed when he saw Harlequin coming to provoke his lady. At this moment, he was even more angry when he heard the words of his mouth. He couldn’t wait to beat him up on the spot, making this guy with a sweet-mouthed sword completely disqualified from competition.

Although at present, it seems that the young lady is more biased towards him, Pierrot, who is extremely insecure, has never been at ease. He is afraid that one day the person in his heart will be kidnapped by a bastard. After all... something similar has happened, Harlequin, you hateful slug!

Pierrot looked at his lady nervously, hoping that she could directly refuse Harlequin’s bright invitation, but in fact, he also knew in his heart that the kind lady always couldn’t bear to refuse their request. Therefore, as long as it doesn’t seem unreasonable on the surface, she will agree. His lady is such a considerate and gentle person. Pierrot himself is dizzy by this, and now he is also suffering from this.

It’s always like this. Every time I can’t get anything completely. Maybe this is the law of world conservation, but there is no doubt that this law is as bad as the world itself.

Pierrot was in a bad mood, and even his inner thoughts became chaotic. Countless irrelevant things were mixed together, twisted into a strange ball, and turned upside down in the empty cranial cavity. He heard her hesitant response, his clenched fists suddenly relaxed, and ten fingers hung weakly on his side.

Today’s date is terrible, Pierrot thought.

…

In the noise, Pierrot slowly opened his eyes. He was surprised to find himself sitting on a bench in casual clothes. The surrounding people were bustling and lively. Pierrot looked around nervously. He found that there was a huge Ferris wheel in front of him. Behind him, he could hear the sound of roller coasters running and people’s screams, and on the right side was a two-story carousel... This seemed to be an amusement park.

However, when did I come here?

Pierrot was a little confused. He felt that he seemed to have forgotten something, but he couldn’t remember it. He stood up hesitantly, very confused. Where should he go now?

“Sorry for your waiting, Pierrot. Just now, Harlequin suddenly said he wanted to eat ice cream, so he delayed for a while, but I brought one for you. Hey, strawberry-flavored.”

A gentle voice stopped him, which was very familiar and warm. Pierrot followed the reputation and saw a face that haunted him, and also saw Harlequin standing obliquely behind her with a speechless face. Pierrot directly ignored Harlequin, who was also wearing regular clothes. His heart was throbbing, and he rushed forward with an arrow step to bend down to hug her.

Great, so you are here, my lady... I almost thought I...

Pierrot ignored the surprised look of the pedestrians around him, put his face directly on her shoulder, and held her hands trembling, as if she were his lost treasure. Pierrot wanted to say something, but he didn’t know how to open his mouth. Those questions seemed to be no longer important.

Because she is here, that’s enough.

“Be careful, Pierrot, or the ice cream will fall off. Okay, okay, I’ve just left for a while. Take it. If I lose it, I won’t buy you a second one!”

Yes, today is the day to go to the amusement park with my lady. It was set a week ago. Why did I forget it? And it was also known by the difficult Harlequin. In the end, his lady had to take this annoying guy with him... How could I forget this kind of thing?

Maybe I’ve been too tired recently...

Pierrot slowly recalled the whole thing. He took the melting pink double-ball ice cream with a smile on his face. He saw his lady respond with a brighter smile, and clearly heard a mocking sneer, which was Harlequin’s voice. He knew that this slimy slug was nothing but disgusting!

“Ma’am, you doesn’t care whether my ice cream will melt or not. You only have Pierrot in your eyes now. It’s unfair, my dear.”

Harlequin took advantage of this to make trouble. Although his tone sounded no different from ordinary jokes, in fact, the eyes that fell on Pierrot’s hands quickly became cold. Harlequin deliberately stepped forward, put his free hand on her other shoulder, and looked at the black-faced Pierrot, unwilling to give in.

Such a strange “three-way picture scroll” was soon noticed by the pedestrians who came and went. The heroine in the center of the incident obviously realized that the situation was wrong. She smiled awkwardly, flashed flexibly, and escaped from the encirclement of two tall clowns.

“Maybe... Let’s play something else first, gentlemen, how about it?”

She smiled generously and didn’t look at anyone. She pulled one with one hand fairly and pulled away the two clowns who were still trying to kill each other with their eyes.

They went to play the roller coaster first, but because no one wanted to give up sitting next to her, they didn’t play in the end. Two big men over 1.8 meters stood at the ticket gate of the roller coaster and started a strange duel. Harlequin blindly spoke, while Pierrot stared at him with murderous eyes. The air around was cold to minus 80 degrees.

She was quite helpless about this. In the end, she could only change her position and take the two uncoaxable “childish ghosts” to the carousel. This project is fun, because there are three seats side by side. There is no doubt that she sat in the C position, but it was not very pleasant to “enjoy” two overly hot gazes along the way. It’s like an evil wolf saw delicious meat and couldn’t wait to swallow it immediately, leaving no residue.

She sighed and felt that if she continued to develop like this, she would sooner or later get heart disease or high blood pressure. She don’t know if she can apply for a work-related injury from Jester at that time?

In order to avoid those hot eyes, she deliberately set the haunted house as the next stop, but she didn’t expect that it was to move stones and hit her feet. Humans can’t easily see things in the dark, but for monsters, it’s like fiction.

Those unyielding eyes still stayed on her for a long time, as if the two sides were the beasts drawing each other’s territory, using the most barbaric and primitive ways to compete, possess and mark. When she came out after the game, she was scared out of a cold sweat on her back, but it was not the haunted house’s fault, but the unknown, with a little restrained but crazy touch that scared her.

Pierrot and Harlequin have put on layers of masks in front of her, covering up a lot of hostility to each other. However, as soon as it came to the darkness of darkness, all the disguises were removed, and the human coat was stripped off, revealing the true appearance of a bloody monster.

To be honest, they have restrained enough. If it hadn’t been for her mood, her thoughts, her body, and the reputation of the circus, these two “people” would have turned this place upside down long ago. Maybe they will fight over the “priority mating right” or something like that, even if they beat the other party to death.

Obviously, the place of a threesome date is not suitable for the playground.

She shook her head helplessly, and finally raised her hand and pointed to the tallest Ferris wheel. She said, “Let’s ride the Ferris wheel. This is a must-play project in the amusement park.”

Pierrot’s words to her can be said to be obedient, and naturally it is impossible to object. As for Harlequin, he is still returning to the stimulating touch, and nodded absent-mindedly.

Oh my God, what did Pierrot, an inexperienced little virgin, do with her before? It’s really a violent thing. Such a beautiful lady should be enjoyed exclusively by me. Only in this way can I completely release her charm!

Harlequin thought of many things. He glared at Pierrot fiercely. Unfortunately, the other party only had a smiling in her eyes, and he did not receive his own eye knife. Harlequin let out a soft sigh, turned around and put his head around her waist, trying to touch more warmth... Then, his hand was pulled off by Pierrot.

Seeing that World War III was about to take place, she quickly stopped shouting to prevent further world destruction.

“It is said that people who ride the Ferris wheel together can accompany each other until the end of their lives.”

The two clowns quietly quieted down together. Harlequin put away the look of being a fool and asked her seriously about the origin of the sentence. He even planned to go back to consult Ticket and Taker. This kind of thing would probably be better understood by the old antique.

As for Pierrot, who had a black face, he changed his face in an instant. He looked at her excitedly and looked expectant. Pierrot was willing to believe that this was the truth. He recorded his lady’s smile and put it in the most precious box in his heart.

On that day, the three of them were very quiet on the Ferris wheel. In the small space, you can even clearly hear the breathing of each of them, as well as the disordered heartbeat, mixed together, and they can no longer distinguish each other.

No one wanted to make a sound to destroy this moment. They stood with her and watched the fireworks show in the distance.

…

“Tick-tick...”

It’s the sound of rain. It’s so noisy. I don’t like rain, so it’s easy to get the performance clothes wet. It’s very troublesome. The performance clothes are so complicated that it’s difficult to clean and dry. I don’t want Jester to worry about it anymore...

Pierrot raised his hand and rubbed his swollen temples, and slowly opened his eyes. The dense rain curtain unfolded in front of him, and the cold rain fell on him. He sat on the wet ground and thought for a long time. It was not until the square stone tablets in front of him gradually became clear that Pierrot remembered what he was doing.

My lady,I’m here to see you...

The rose paper flowers folded by his own hands have long been dyed red by him with his own blood, but most of the bright colors have been taken away by the dripping rain. Now in front of her is a dark and light red flower with extremely uneven color.

Pierrot was in a trance. He seemed to see her last appearance again. Blood and rain were mixed together. The fishy smell was diluted by the fishy smell of the soil, and he escaped into the darkness with a little imperceptible elegance.

Pierrot was not very willing to recall the scene at that time. Everything was so chaotic. Some people were screaming and talking loudly, but more people just stood around and whispered. No one took the initiative to stand up and say anything, and no one was willing to help.

Pierrot was not there at that time, but he could fully imagine the scene at that time. Human beings are always the same, and he had already understood this.

And when he arrived, everything was too late.

On that day, Pierrot held her in the rain for a long time. He tried to gather her body, but he couldn’t. The flesh and blood that had been repeatedly run over by the car was blurred and washed away by the rain for a long time. Her smell was scattered in the air and could no longer be taken back.

Harlequin is the second person who is willing to contact her, although in fact it is no longer “contact”. At best, it is just a corpse collection, and he is not a “human” in the traditional sense. But what does it matter how to define these? Anyway, Pierrot doesn’t care about this, and Harlequin is also indifferent to it.

For the first time since that incident, the two of them did not quarrel. Pierrot and Harlequin looked at each other and began to clean up the mess. When they realized that the drunk + drugged driver had already escaped, and there was no one in human society who could do justice for her, they just took her away silently.

The circus’s Doctor tried his best to “mend” her. During this period, Pierrot and Harlequin cooperated to catch the hit-and-run, and then... the end of that guy was obviously obvious, so I won’t repeat it here, so as not to arouse Pierrot and Harlequin’s murderous intent again.

According to Pierrot’s intermittent description and Harlequin’s untimely interruption, Ticket Taker consulted books and personally chose a feng shui treasure for her as her resting place. As for where the funds come from, it is naturally funded by the regiment leader Jester, and everyone has no objection to this.

“Tsk, if you think Jester is not busy enough, just go in the rain, inexplicable Pierrot.”

The endless rain above his head suddenly stopped, and a dark green umbrella stood above Pierrot. Harlequin glanced at Pierrot sitting in the mud with disgust and complained relentlessly. However, complaining is a complaint, but he is really blocking most of the wind and rain for the depressed Pierrot, and he doesn’t even care that his shoulders are wet.

Pierrot did not answer, but just touched the wet stone tablet. A coldness penetrated into his body along his fingertips, freezing his heart. The young lady has left, and no one will hold her hand gently again. Those warmth, those kindness... will no longer exist.

Harlequin didn’t make a sound anymore. He just looked at the small stone tablet silently and complained about Ticket Taker’s old-fashioned eyes many times in his heart. He must say that this style is the most classic and will not be out of date even after another three hundred years.

But in Harlequin’s opinion, Ticket Taker has this idea purely because the guy’s own vision is old-fashioned and will never change.

How can this ugly thing be worthy of his noble and charming ma’am?! Joke, there is no tombstone in the world that can match her... Of course, it’s best not to have a tombstone. If you are always alive, you can not have a tombstone...

“Liar...”

Harlequin whispered something, and the magnetic voice echoed in the lonely rain, and finally fell to the ground weakly, stirring up ripples. Pierrot was still staring intently at the line of names, as if he could meet her again through those cold words. It was ridiculous.

Harlequin couldn’t help frowning and tilted his umbrella a little towards Pierrot. It’s not because I want to take care of this annoying guy, but because Jester told me to take care of him more, that’s all. Harlequin found a reason for his abnormal behavior. He finally smiled proudly, but it was only once.

“Isn’t it said that we can always be together on the Ferris wheel together? I knew it was nonsense and had no basis... LOL, I actually believed it...”

Harlequin complained, and the eyes of the stone tablet became resentful. His memory floated back to the long time. No one spoke anymore, and the air suddenly quieted down.

The rain still refused to stop, but blindly came to the world, making the hearts of the two mourners colder and their bodies more and more painful, until every breath became a sin.

…

The deceased has passed away, and memory and pain are the rights of the living.

Time is a circle, or everything is a cycle of Pythagoras.

For some reason, Ticket Taker recorded these two sentences on the sheepskin roll. At this time, the sound of stepping on the puddle came from outside the tent. He poked his head out, glanced at the unruly Pierrot and the expressionless Harlequin, and sat back thoughtfully.

Jester knocked on the table with a sigh, caught a glimpse of the words on the sheepskin roll, frowned and asked, “The cycle of Pythagoras? Is this theory helpful to them?

“I don’t know... but time is undoubtedly a circle. Maybe... one day, the lost will come back in another way.”

“...I hope so... I’ve already said, don’t provoke humans, they are all a bunch of dangerous crazy people... Just don’t listen, hey...”

“Haha... Do you still want to discuss philosophy with me? I can explain to you what the ‘Pythagorean cycle’ is, Jester.”

“Thank you, but no need. I’m going to settle the account.”

Jester refused Ticket Taker’s offer and turned around and left the tent, but before settling the score, he decided to ask Doctor how the two careless guys were doing recently. As the leader of the regiment, he really worrys too much.

Anyway, the living “people” must live first. Jester thought that this is what he is most concerned about now.

As for that damn cycle, let’s talk about it when it’s sunny.

Warm daily life, dialogue style!

Os: Although it’s interesting to read this short article in Chinese, I hope the translation software won‘t make it strange!

Including:

Pierrot✖️MC

Harlequin✖️MC

Ticket Taker✖️MC

Pierrot：

MC (looking through the script, laughing badly): Hey Pierrot, do you want to play a game with me?

Pierrot (Don’t know why, but because of she, so nodded obediently): It’s my pleasure, my dear lady~

MC (pretendingly coughing twice): Once upon a time, there was a couple. The husband called“I don’t love you” and the wife called “I love you”. One day, the husband died unexpectedly. So what are the names of the remaining wives?

Pierrot (as if he realized something, blushing but still a little uncertain, answered in a doubtful voice): I love you?

MC (put down the script and show a smile): That’s right! Pierrot, you are really a smart and good boy.

Pierrot (he stopped talking, hesitated and hesitated, looking at the MC with lingering eyes and a little probing): My lady, in fact, I...

MC (standing on the chair under Pierrot’s doubtful gaze, holding up Pierrot’s hot face and dropping a dragonfly kiss): I love you too.

Pierrot (conditionedly tightened his arms reflexively, held MC into his arms, and his heavy breathing sounded):...

Harlequin：

MC (slumped on the sofa, bored): It’s boring...

Harlequin (he rushed over when he heard the sound, with sly eyes): Oh, my charming ma’am, do you want to play a fun game?

MC (thinking for a moment, raising eyebrows): Of course.

Harlequin (with a smile, gradually leaning close to the MC in the process of speaking): Once upon a time, there was a couple whose husband’s name was “I don’t love you” and the wife’s name was “I love you”. One day, the husband died unexpectedly. So, my smart and beautiful ma’am, what’s the name of the wife?

MC (looking at the eagerness in Harlequin’s eyes, suddenly got up, frowned and pretended to be thinking): I think... widow?

Harlequin (the corners of his eyes twitched, but soon regained his cynical expression, with his arms on both sides of the MC): No, the answer is three words. Think about it again, my dear.

MC (hooking the corners of his mouth, taking the initiative to approach Harlequin and exhale in his ear): Well... I know, the answer is - person who alive!

Harlequin (curling his lips, sighing, smiling helplessly): ...ma’am, you are still as naughty as ever...

Ticket Taker (the character’s personality may not be accurate, please refer to the settings of Neko in the future):

MC (was a little bored and wanted to have some fun, but Pierrot was not there, so she aimed at the honest Ticket Taker): Hey, Ticket Taker, let’s play a game. I promise it will be fun!

Ticket Taker (looked around and shrugged his shoulders): Well, just don’t delay my work...

MC (patting the chest to promise) : I promise! Well, please listen to the question: Once upon a time, there was a husband called “I don’t love you” and the wife called “I love you”. One day, the husband died unexpectedly... So, Ticket Taker, what is the wife’s name?

Ticket Taker (stunned for a moment, blinked in amaze, stared at the MC seriously, and smiled pamperingly): I love you.

MC (Looking at the ticket Taker who lowered his head and blushed quietly, she was very shocked and answered for a long time): ... I love you too...

Ticket Taker (looking at MC blankly, with serious eyes): Who is this again? Their children?

如果你是中国玩家，那么我推荐你搭配歌曲《红豆》by要不要买菜 一起食用～

以及，你可以去lft上直接阅读全中文的版本！我的ID是：流光沐笙 ₍˄·͈༝༝༝·͈˄*₎◞ ̑̑

The character comes from @nekoboydreams I wish you all the best.Compared with the game, obviously you are more important!Please don’t overwork.^_^

The last letter

Prospect summary: In this era in which the private “I” lives, communication is not developed, and only meetings or sending letters/postcards can communicate.

This winter was unusually cold, and white snowflakes swept the town overwhelmingly, covering the holy coat of grass, trees, flowers and leaves. The snow outside the house has flooded the windows of the residents on the first floor. There is no one on the street, and there is silent silence everywhere.

I stood in the empty room, and the gas exhaled from my nose turned into a dazzling white as soon as it left the human body, and then quickly dispersed, as short as a slug.

However, this is not the worst thing. If this is just a simple natural disaster, and it’s just a time when I need to be cold and hungry, my heart is full of longing for him, and naturally I can endure it.

I thought of those happy past days, as well as the letters, postcards and other gadgets he sent back after a long trip. Even when I coughed, I felt less painful. I blinked with a smile and comforted myself that it was just an ordinary cold, only related to this damn weather, and nothing else involved.

I’ll be all right.

I glanced at the clean refrigerator and closed the refrigerator door with a sigh. The last food was finished by me three days ago, but I still wanted to confirm it.

I ordered my stiff feet to take me back to the bedroom, and then controlled my numb hands to change into my thickest cotton coat and put on the red scarf. I looked at the golden five-pointed star embroidered on the scarf, my cold fingers crossed the slightly rough threads, and the corners of my mouth raised unconsciously.

I miss him...

After tidying up, I turned around and went to the study, adding a few more stamps to a sealed envelope. This simple action is very difficult for me now, because I can’t feel the existence of my fingers at all, and I can only act with my understanding of them in the past.

But fortunately, I finally pasted all the stamps. Although there were some crooked ones, it did not affect their value.

I recall what I read in the last letter I received. Pierrot has gone far away with the circus. I don’t know if the letter can be handed over to him directly there, or if it needs to be forwarded again?

But it doesn’t matter, because the value of the stamps I added is enough to make the letter run from one end to the other in this country, so Pierrot will receive it anyway. It’s just that the length of time may be different. It’s okay.

It is inconvenient to communicate in the times we are in, but I will keep in touch with him until I can wander with him, or he agrees to go far away with me.

I stuffed the letter into my pocket and screwed open the ice-like door. As soon as I poked my head out, I was slapped in the face by the unreasonable cold wind. I took two steps back timidly. With one hand, I grabbed the door frame desperately to stabilize my backward figure, and with the other hand, I put on the hood and buttoned it.

The wind is really strong.If there was such a strong wind in the spring when Pierrot was still there, then our kite that day could have completely flown into the sky.

I walked down the steps step by step, groping downstairs in a misty water vapor, and my mind was full of memories of that time. I feel like I have returned to that warm and bright spring, and even the temperature around me is not so cold.

The snow outside the corridor is already thick, and the stairway has long been blocked, but I can still go out of the window on the second floor, just to fall on the soft snow. My feet sank a little, and a chill suddenly penetrated through the soles and uppers of my shoes, replacing the remaining warmth quite unreasonably.

I clearly remember that it was a cloudless afternoon. Pierrot was not assigned a task that day, and I happened to be off.

Everything is so just right, the weather is suitable, the temperature is comfortable, and we are leisurely.

Pierrot brought a huge kite, which is quite suitable for his height. It’s just that the kite is very simple. At a glance, you can know that he made it himself. Even the red roses painted on it have not completely dried, reflecting the bright light.

I stepped on the boundless snow and listened to their fragmented crying under the soles of my feet, intertwined with the chaotic sound of the wind, which made me have a headache. I bent my waist and coughed a few times. The cold wind poured into my throat, like swallowing a sharp knife, and there was a burst of pain from my mouth to my lungs.

How wonderful it was that day. I sat on the grass and watched Pierrot run up and down and play with the kite, just to make it fly to the sky. Before that, I just casually mentioned to Pierrot once - spring is the season to fly kites - and then the next day he sent me an invitation to ask if I was free tomorrow.

From my casual talk to his rushing to realize my idea, Pierrot only took less than two days, which was still calculated according to the time of “the beginning of execution”. If it is calculated according to the time of his “wanting to realize my idea”, I think it’s probably just a momentary thing.

There was no wind that day, and our kite did not fly to the sky no matter what.

I walked in the snow against the wind, and the vague footprints behind me would be covered by the snow again in a short time. There is no food at home, and there is no medicine to treat colds, but I think I can’t buy it when I go out now, which is not the reason why I went out this time.

I put my hands in my pockets and covered them, but it was still difficult to resist the cold outside. Ten fingers were coldly squeezed into my pockets, with the letter. I should have met it, but I couldn’t feel its existence.

TURNING THE CORNER, THE WIND NO LONGER TRIED TO HIT MY FACE, BUT BEGAN TO HIT MY SIDE, AS IF HE WANTED TO HIT MY WHOLE BODY ON THE DOOR OF A STORE. Fortunately, the snow was big enough to cover all these glass doors. Otherwise, if it was blown on the door of the store and the glass was broken, I would have to lose money!

I laughed without thinking and saw a familiar store. I once bought a cake there, which was a thank you gift for Pierrot. At that time, Pierrot and I had only known each other for a few days, and we were not very familiar with each other. After receiving the special ticket from Pierrot, I picked a small cake here and gave it to him as a return gift.

I can still clearly recall what he looked like that night.

Pierrot didn’t seem to think that he would receive the cake I gave him after the performance that day. After hearing that I repeatedly assured that it was an ordinary cake bought for him from the cake shop on the corner, Pierrot was stunned for a long time. Just when I was thinking that he didn’t like sweets, Pierrot suddenly stepped forward, firmly grasped my empty hand, and clasped his fingers with me.

Pierrot’s force was well controlled. He neither hurt me nor let go of a trace of space close to my fingers. The sharp fingertips gently fell on the back of my hand, but seemed to fall on my heart.

It’s like a light and flexible cat, circling around your feet carelessly, disturbing people’s hearts are not at peace, but it looks at you innocently and pretends to be considerate and meows a few times.

“Really?! This is a gift from you to me! My dear lady, I’m so happy! Please forgive me for having to make sure that you are real in this way, and all this is not my fantasy. My dear lady, you are really...”

Pierrot looked at me in surprise, and the raised corners of his mouth showed his joy and excitement at the moment. I looked at the orange love dancing in his eyes and felt that I was not sending a return gift, but confessing to Pierrot.

I was not confessing to Pierrot that day, but the letter in my pocket was a well-deserved love letter.

The wind is getting stronger and stronger, but there is no obvious change in the snow. It is still falling down one after another, which is no different from tearing off the goose down quilt at home. I pinched the love letter in my pocket, and my eyebrows hidden under the hood were stained with a little smile. This kind of pleasure made the snow above my head look less cold and ruthless.

I don’t know how Pierrot is doing now. Can you buy delicious cakes in such a remote place? If you can’t even buy eggs, flour and cream for making cakes, so wouldn’t my Pierrot be sad?

The bone-chilling cold wind made my thinking slow down a lot, just like a paste that would solidify in winter. I thought about a lot of irrelelent things, and my eyes looking ahead were full of worry.

While thinking about things out of tune, I pushed open the door of the post office with my body. The room was a little warmer, but it was still not a very comfortable temperature. I stood in place at the door and jumped a few times, and the white snow on my body fell to the ground. The crystal clear snow soon turned into a pool of transparent water.

“Are you still here to send a letter in this damn weather? I really don’t know what to say about you. Our town has no future, and the circus he stayed in doesn’t look very polite. You two can simply go far away together to live a small life!”

After hearing the sound of the door opening, the recipient, who was curled up behind the counter, curiously poked out a head wearing a cotton hat. Then, after seeing my face clearly, she lay down and said a lot of complaints.

I have heard this kind of similar meaning many times, but I still patiently explain it to her every time:

Pierrot is not my boyfriend, and we are not a young duo. We are just pen pals, and at most we have a slightly better relationship than others.

Of course, the recipient never believed my words. She would only put on an expression of “I understand the love between you little couples”, and then help me send the letter out while complaining about me.

However, the situation may be different today, because I’m going to send a love letter.

A love letter I wrote to Pierrot.

When Pierrot was still in this town, I didn’t realize how much my feelings for him had reached, so after hearing his sad retelling - Jester didn’t allow me to travel with the circus - I was actually not sad.

I just blinked my eyes and looked at Pierrot, who was so sad that he was about to cry. At first, I felt very unreal - a young man with a net height of nearly two meters would cry because of such a thing?! I’m afraid the world is crazy!

So in order to comfort the injured Pierrot, I patted his arm. Originally, I wanted to pat him on the shoulder, but when I raised my hand, I found that I couldn’t reach it, so I changed the direction of my hand movement with a calm face.

I couldn’t understand Pierrot’s mood at that time, but now I understand, but maybe it’s a little late.

No, it’s not too late.

I turned out the love letter in my pocket tremblingly, put it on the counter, and pushed it to the bored recipient, with a faint smile on my face, but some sadness in my eyes as well.

“We are not lovers now, but... I hope that when I receive his reply, our relationship will be as you wish.”

After hearing my answer, which was completely different from the previous one, the recipient was stunned. She stared at me for a long time, and then finally reacted.

But I don’t think it’s better for her to react, because I’m not good at getting along with a human who can make a sharp sound like a groundhog. If this human being can ask more than a dozen questions in one breath, the situation will be even worse.

I sighed, shrugged my shoulders helplessly, turned my head to look at the dark cloth soaked in snow on my shoulder, and my memory flew back to that day a long time ago.

Pierrot told me that he ran a circus with Jester and others when he was very young. The circus is their home, and they are undoubtedly family members. As the main manager of the circus, Jester has the power to say anything about their behavior, and now he doubts my intentions, so he doesn’t allow Pierrot to take me with him.

Pierrot was very sad, but he didn’t know how to choose.

On the one hand, the family members he has been with for many years, and on the other hand, it is me ambiguous partner who has known him for less than two months. To tell the truth, if it were me, I would definitely choose the former without hesitation. Pierrot, who is pure, obviously fell in love for the first time and is in a state of emotional madness. Perhaps it is only because he can’t tell the difference between true love and ambiguity that he hesitates.

And it was this hesitation that caused his pain. Maybe I should help him and try to cut off this relationship slowly.

“My dear lady, what should I do... I really don’t want to be separated from you, but Jester... I don’t know, but I can’t be separated from you. Without your attention and care, my existence is meaningless... But the circus... No, I can’t be separated from them either. That’s my home!”

Pierrot knelt at my feet, but he could still hug me and even put his head on my chest. I listened to his hurried and chaotic words, and the tone of his speech was already slightly raised, as if he would cry in the next second, or even burst into tears.

I couldn’t bear to see Pierrot sad again, so I raised my hand and rubbed his hair, wrapped my fingers around the white hair in front of his forehead, and made a decision for him, which I thought was a very good decision—

“Well, you can go with the circus, and I will stay here. Pierrot, maybe this is just a temporary separation. We will find a solution, but before that, let’s be pen pals!”

I’m just a short passer-ber-in your life. When you leave here, you may find that I’m not as beautiful as you think. At that time, we can even directly avoid each other’s entanglement. As long as one party chooses to stop writing here, everything can end decently and without knowing it.

It was with this idea that I made this suggestion to Pierrot, who was so sad that he could no longer think normally. I originally wanted to coax him first, wait for the emotions in his heart to cool down and then quietly withdraw from his life, but I never thought that I really lost my way in a sincere letter.

After the circus left the town, Pierrot wrote to me almost every day, but I didn’t receive a letter every day. In this era when it is so difficult to keep in touch with people, letters and postcards need to be walked for a long time on the road before they are alternately delivered to each other by countless strangers.

Therefore, I often receive three or five loving letters written by Pierrot at once, and then I need to wait more than a week, and I will receive many letters written by him at once, as well as the gadgets sent with the letters. Sometimes it’s a few strange shells, sometimes it’s two or three dead yellow fallen leaves, and sometimes it’s a sketch he pretended to draw, on which we are sitting together watching the sunset.

Even once I received a white handkerchief, and I didn’t understand Pierrot’s intention at all. It was not until another seven days later that I received his letter. It turned out that Pierrot wanted my kiss.

“My dear lady, please forgive my presumptuous request. If you don’t want to, just assume that you haven’t received this letter! My lady, I wonder if you would like to give me a kiss? Just print it on this handkerchief. I miss you so much...”

…

At first, I just replied to Pierrot as I wanted with an interesting mentality, and sometimes it took half a month or even a month to send a letter. Because of this, sometimes the letters I send cannot be delivered directly to Pierrot, because he has left for the next city, and the address I filled in is still the one mentioned in the previous letter.

But it doesn’t matter. After the letter was returned once, I have learned enough lessons. Later, I put stamps on it, so that the postman could forward the letter directly according to the local people’s dictation.

I wonder how long it will take for Pierrot to give up writing to me, giving up telling me about his life and describing his life to me, but he has never stopped writing to me.

Looking through every letter written by Pierrot, I suddenly realized one thing - Pierrot really fell in love with me, and this kind of love may also be mixed with desire and appeal, which is inevitable. But I am also willing to believe that there is more sincerity in this relationship.

It took me half a year from interest to fall. During this period, Pierrot has written me more than a hundred letters, and now I have decided to respond to his feelings. I hope it’s not too late.

As for how our future should end, will I wander with Pierrot? Or did he choose to drift away with me? Or can we find other ways to balance?

I think it’s all a matter of later. It’s better to confirm the relationship first.

The recipient was still gossiping endlessly about my relationship with Pierrot, and I didn’t want to communicate with a noisy groundhog here, so I chose to turn around and leave.

On the way home, the wind and snow all over the sky did not stop, and there was even a faint trend of getting bigger, but my mind had been playing the content of every letter written by Pierrot, so I didn’t feel cold.

I looked up at the sky and felt that the new spring was not far away.

…

Half a month later, I changed my mind.

On that day, I sent another letter.

…

Two months later

Pierrot hadn’t received her reply for a long time. He was a little uneasy and often turned over and over again to wonder if one of his letters was not written well enough to make his lady bored with him. Pierrot stared at the handkerchief with her lip print and thought a lot. The more he thought about it, the more he panicked. Could it be that the absurd act of his last letter disappointed she?

What a pure person his lady is. She must have offended by his words. Otherwise, why didn’t he receive a reply from her for more than a month? Usually, she sends a reply every half month, at most one a month, and this inexplicable period of time must be the deviation caused by the damn delivery speed!

Pierrot thought indignantly, directly ignoring the exact time point written in black and white at the end of each letter, and turned his head to blame the postman about the long interval between her letters.

I don’t know if she likes the chocolate I sent last time...

The thoughts in Pierrot’s mind piled up in a mess. He thought of the small gift he had sent with the letter last time, and suddenly felt a little apprehensive. Although Pierrot’s temporary residence was relatively remote, it was rich in chocolate, so he chose a piece to send to his lady, but maybe she didn’t like chocolate...

Damn it, could it be because of that chocolate?

Just as Pierrot had greeted all the 18 generations of chocolate ancestors, the panting postman found him with a gloomy face. Before the postman finished reading Pierrot’s name, he snatched the two letters.

“Hey, hey, hey, you... Really, don’t be so anxious. Let me tell you, I heard that the place where the sender lives is pneumonia some time ago! I advise you to eliminate the poison or something first. I don’t know what kind of pneumonia it is, in case it will be contagious! Oh, it’s really bad. I don’t know when the logistics system can be improved. Day by day...”

Pierrot ignored the postman’s friendly tips and complaints, and just touched the two bumpy envelopes, which were densely pasted with many stamps. Pierrot laughed, his decadent and depressed mood swept away, and a bright smile appeared on his face.

He knew that it was impossible for the lady to abandon him. It was all the damn mail delivery system that made him wait for so long. But it’s okay. I can see two letters written by she at once. Ah, it’s really great!

Pierrot thought excitedly, regardless of what the postman said. He just unsealed the letter wholeheartedly, slowly and cautiously, for fearing that he would destroy the integrity of the envelope if he was careless.

Pierrot opened the first letter first. He couldn’t wait to read the words, almost greedily feeling the smell of his lady’s residual on it. Those familiar fonts and charming atmosphere made Pierrot intoxicated by them, but what made him feel dizzy the most today was what was written in the letter—

His dearest lady... is confessing to him?!!

It must be, right?! I don’t think I’m wrong! Yes, I’m not mistaken. It’s the word! So here’s the question, is she really expressing this meaning? Or can this expression also be used between close friends?

Look at it again... No, no, no, this is confession!!! Absolutely can’t be wrong! Absolutely, that’s what she must mean. There will be no objection to these words!

Pierrot stood in place in disbelief and read the letter over and over again. His hands trembled so much that he almost missed another letter several times. Fortunately, Pierrot’s reaction was extremely quick and did not let any of the lady’s letters fall on the ground.

Pierrot has obviously been carried away by the content of this letter. His beautiful and charming lady actually confessed to him! This is really the best thing this year! It’s worthy of a spring full of hope!

Pierrot feels that he likes the spring season very much now, but it’s all because he received a confession letter from the young lady in the spring.

Pierrot smiled in a daze, and his always sharp eyes were very dull at this time. He felt that his brain was dizzy now, like a small insect falling into a honey pot, drowning in this sweet ocean.

However, Pierrot did not forget the existence of another letter. Since the young lady has expressed her intentions to him, will the other letter be all about the vision of the future? Although suddenly separating himself from Jester and others would make him a little depressed, Pierrot thought that as long as he was firmly chosen by she, he would also steadfastly choose her.

Pierrot thought happily and opened another letter happily. After a few seconds, the smile on Pierrot’s face froze, and his calm hands trembled again, but this time it was not because of the intense joy.

Pierrot blinked his eyes and couldn’t believe the message his eyes were sending to him, so he read it again—

My dear Pierrot：

I should have been gone when you read this letter. I seem to have some kind of pneumonia, and I can’t find an effective medicine.

I’m sorry, I can’t fly a kite with you this spring.

sorry...

…

以下内容是由我和小夜老师讨论后的一个脑洞展开的产物，我已经取得了她的转载允许，这是证明：

The following content is the product of a brainstorm after I discussed with Lost Light. I have obtained her permission to reprint, which is proof:

我超爱她的画风！！！（对不起了neko你只能屈居第二了）

I love her painting style so much!!! ( Sorry, Neko, you can only be second)

以及，这是她在这个平台的博客（有一说一，这个名字真的很怪）：@jwwbraientlmgvd

And this is her blog on this platform(In fact, the name is really strange): @jwwbraientlmgvd

Passers-by

Foreword: The official father said that Harlequin is the most morbid in terms of X behavior among the five people (I hope I didn‘t misunderstand this point), but here you will see MC who is even crazier than Harlequin, so there will be a large number of private settings, and the plot will involve all kinds of contents that may bring discomfort... If you still plan to watch it, well, have a good meal!

“Hi, Harlequin! Would you like to come to my house for a cup of coffee after the performance tonight?”

I deliberately waited early on the way back to the circus, just to invite him to my house tonight. As for the purpose, I can only tell you now that it is to treat him to a cup of coffee I made myself.

Harlequin raised his eyebrows and looked at me thoughtfully. The corners of his mouth raised a faint arc, and the expression on his face was a little mocking in the joke, “Coffee at night? My dear ma’am, can your excuse be more clumsy?”

I smiled and cursed a few words from the bottom of my heart. I was really in a hurry. In a hurry, I forgot to find a more suitable reason. Really... This is really a big failure in my “perfect” plan!

“...You can also choose not to come, Harlequin.”

After being stabbed by Harlequin, I was not annoyed. I just shrugged my shoulders casually and pretended to be indifferent. Harlequin, who was suspicious, said. Harlequin didn’t reply to me at the first time. He frowned and put his hand on his chin. His eyes were uncertain, as if he was thinking about something.

I don’t know what Harlequin was thinking at that time, but no matter what, he finally agreed to my invitation. Harlequin leaned slightly to me, and the tone of his answer was a little teasing. The slightly curled black hair swayed, and the people’s hearts were in a panic.

“Oh no, my dear ma’am ~ Of course, I won’t miss your invitation. Even if it’s a Hongmen banquet, I’m willing. I just hope... tonight, you and I can have a pleasant night.”

I smiled lightly, nodded, and a trace of light flashed in my eyes. Just like a shy girl after inviting her boyfriend, I hurriedly waved goodbye to Harlequin, but I was not shy, but I still needed to do some preparations for tonight’s “revelry”.

After turning around, I no longer suppressed my emotions, and a scheming smile appeared on my face.

Harlequin, we will definitely have a good night.

…

At the moment of being invited, Harlequin quickly found loopholes in the other party’s words - who is a good person will drink coffee at night - even if his favorite drink is coffee!

Harlequin knew that his ma’am was extremely intelligent and thoughtful. Under normal circumstances, she would never make such a low-level mistake, unless... she was planning something and forgot about it.

What on earth is going on? Are you treating me as your prey when you take a lot of time to invite me to your place? However, my dear ma’am, the result of your doing this is likely to be to lure the wolf into the room! It seems that Pierrot is going to be sad. It’s a pity, haha...

At that moment, Harlequin recalled the little past between himself and she, Harlequin hesitated for a moment. If he agreed to her invitation, was it really just because he wanted to anger Pierrot?

Does he really... just want to compete with Pierrot for her?

Harlequin thought of his first meeting with her, which was not very pleasant, and could even be described as terrible. After noticing the red ticket in her hand, Harlequin felt the flame of jealousy burning in his heart as usual, and he immediately decided to snatch her from Pierrot’s hand.

Therefore, he pretended to be friendly and tried to fool her with unnecessary “KPI indicators” as an excuse to persuade her to exchange tickets with him. What Harlequin didn’t expect was that the young lady had a smart mind that was not inferior to her. She quickly reacted and took the green ticket, but did not give him the red ticket.

“It turns out that your circus still has such a request! Don’t worry, I’m happy to help you. In fact, I always don’t mind a lot of tickets. If you still have unfinished targets, you can continue to come to me.”

Harlequin was stunned. Before he could react, the young lady held up the two tickets in her hand - one red and one green, with a bright smile on her face, as if she were a winner, smiling so brightly. A trace of slyness flashed in her eyes, and the curve of the corners of her mouth was just right, like a warm winter sun shining on Harlequin’s body.

At that time, Harlequin thought that his dark, dirty and cursed monster, which seemed to be worthy of hiding in the sewer to beg for a living, could actually be favored by the sun? Even if it’s just a moment, it’s enough for him to remember, and he will never forget it in this life.

Pierrot is really lucky. Unexpectedly, he met such a charming lady before him... But it doesn’t matter, there is still time... The sun can shine on the earth and send warmth and hope to sentient beings, but she is my sun, and she can only be my sun alone...

I will get her. One day, I want her to belong to me completely, and her bright smile will only belong to me. My ma’am, I’m looking forward to this day!

Before meeting her, Harlequin never believed that he would fall in love with any existence, let alone the dramatic “love at first sight”. In the opinion of actor Harlequin himself, those are just inferior means to deceive the audience to coax them to buy tickets. There is no love in the world.

However, sometimes the arrival of love is so unexpected that people are defenseless.

After the first look, Harlequin began to deliberately pay attention to her. He wanted to know everything about her, what she liked, what she hated, what she was afraid of, what she longed for... How was her mood today, was her childhood happy, did she fall in love with anyone... What did she have for breakfast today, what kind of clothes she wore today, would she come to see his performance today, will she... confess to him today?

At that time, Harlequin did not admit his feelings for her. He awkwardly blamed Pierrot for his strange transformation. If he hadn’t wanted to grab this guy, he wouldn’t have thought of these inexplicable things! I won’t fall in love with her at all... No, he’s just a little interested in her, which is not...

Isn’t it really love?

Harlequin struggled in his heart. He tried his best to deny this. Even if everything he had done during this period could be explained by “jealousy”, how could he explain his strange behavior? Will such a rational self really be willing to attend the meeting after seeing through her clumsy excuses?

How is it possible! He is Harlequin!

He will never fall in love with someone!

Although Harlequin insisted on refusing to admit his feelings, his body was very honest. Although he sneered, didn’t he still agree to her invitation?

No, I’m just confident in my strength! No matter what kind of medicine she sells in the gourd, I believe that I will definitely retreat with my whole body!

However, this can’t be regarded as a reason, right? If you really think so, isn’t this a worse excuse than “inviting guests to have coffee at night”?

Harlequin was a little annoyed. Why did he agree to her?

He gritted his teeth and snorted heavily, glanced at her arm to say goodbye to him, and decided to use the non-response as evidence that he did not fall in love with her. However, his ma’am didn’t notice his entanglement at all, and didn’t even care whether he responded or not.

Harlequin was angry. He put his hands on his chest, and his hot eyes fell on her distant back without concealment. He was actually looking forward to it, hoping that she could turn around and project the warm eyes on him again.

But she didn’t look back...

Why... I like you so much. Why can’t you like me more? Why can’t I be different from others? Why...

Harlequin turned around angrily, and a trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes, and the bitter smell spread between his lips and teeth, which was a very strange feeling for Harlequin. The sun was setting, and the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on him like broken gold, dividing his lonely figure into two, and the sullen shadow with a low head always followed him.

…

In the evening, Harlequin came as promised.

The moment there was a knock on the door, I subconsciously glanced at the hidden bedroom, which was hiding the “props” I had carefully prepared. I swallowed my saliva, and a strange excited expression appeared on my face, but in the next second, I returned to my former amiable appearance.

Don’t worry, the night has just begun...

I led Harlequin to sit down at the table and talked to Harlequin one by one. At the same time, I turned around and went to the kitchen and began to make coffee for Harlequin under the “invitation excuse”. The grinding sound of the coffee machine sounded. I stared at the gradually broken coffee beans and the white powder mixed in them, and the corners of my mouth raised a strange arc.

This is a “good thing” that even adult elephants can knock down. If it weren’t for you, Harlequin, I wouldn’t be willing to give it to others... You charming little thing, just... have fun with me!

I brought the cup of “special” coffee to Harlequin, who was staring at me playfully. His green eyes flashed with a strange glow, and even the diamond-shaped painting on his eyes was stained with a dangerous smell.

He is definitely thinking of some bad ideas, this bad kitten.

“Try it, Harlequin, I’ve carefully prepared this for you~”

After handing the coffee cup to Harlequin, I took a step back and stood beside Harlequin. A syringe filled with an unknown liquid suddenly appeared in my back.

In the process of getting along with Harlequin and Pierrot, I naturally found that they were different from ordinary people. Although I couldn’t figure out what kind of species they were, I firmly believed that all fear came from the lack of firepower. Even if a normal person’s measurement is ineffective for Harlequin, as long as the measurement I give is large enough, as long as he is not completely immune to the drug, there is no reason not to let me down!

I added a special oral drug to the coffee, and the syringe in my hand contained a re-concentrated injectable anesthetic. With these two double guarantees, I am full of confidence in tonight’s “hunting operation”.

However, I also admit that this plan has many shortcomings. If I am a little careless, I may be captured by Harlequin. But it doesn’t matter. There is no plan in the world that can be 100% perfect, and I just need to bear the consequences of failure.

Just as I was nervously fighting, Harlequin slowly raised the coffee cup. He put the coffee in front of his face, squinted his eyes with pleasure, and smelled the coffee. Then, he paused.

I swallowed my saliva, and the syringe in my hand was ready to go. As long as the situation was not for me, I would immediately implement Plan B.

But Harlequin just flashed a shot. He paused for two seconds, then sighed for a long time, and then drank the cup of hot coffee without any elegance. Looking at Harlequin’s steel esophage-like operation, I couldn’t help frowning, followed by a pain in my stomach.

This guy... won’t it feel painful?

“My dear ma’am, this cup of coffee is really good, but it would be better if you didn’t add anything in it. Let me guess what you have added to it...”

Harlequin put the empty coffee cup back on the table. He did not deliberately retract the force, so the bottom of the cup touched the table, making a crisp collision sound. Harlequin stood up and faced me while raising his hand to tidy up his waffle collar. He looked at me with joking eyes, as if it was just a clumsy joke between me and him.

I was stunned for a moment, and my pupils enlarged in disbelief. I bit my lip and stared warilantly at Harlequin, who looked unharmed, and held the syringe tightly with my fingers behind my back.

My brain is turning fast. Anyway, it seems that Harlequin is in a good mood at this stage. Maybe I can try to divert his attention. In this way, whether it is waiting for the effect of the drug or finding a chance to give him another shot, the immediate unfavorable situation can be reversed.

“Since you know, why do you drink it? Harlequin, don’t you think your behavior is contradictory?”

Harlequin listened to my question and froze in place. He was really stunned by this question. Yes, he obviously smelled that something was wrong with the cup of coffee, so why did he insist on drinking it?

Am I too indulgent to her? Is such a defenseless action really what I Harlequin did?

There is another problem that Harlequin can’t figure out, and it is still related to the woman in front of him. Harlequin suddenly felt a little headache. Why is the love story of the male and female protagonists described in the script so smooth, happy and happy, but when it comes to himself, it has turned into a spy film that fights?

What’s the truth about this?

Wait... No! Why did I take her into the role of love for granted? How is this possible?!

Harlequin’s head was a little swollen. He covered his head and took a step back, and the base of his thigh hit the edge of the table. He raised his head and looked at her with a hard time. This made him gradually not like the culprit of himself, and his consciousness began to become blurred.

In Harlequin’s last memory, he heard his low and frivolous voice: “Because I love you.”

…

Harlequin fell into boundless darkness, empty and empty around. All living things in the world disappeared, and even the annoying Pierrot disappeared. A panic gushed out of Harlequin’s heart for no reason. He ran in the abyss, shouting loudly the names of the circus’s family members and... her name.

There is no response...

Harlequin gasped, and his heart beating in his chest seemed to stop beating. He felt that his blood had stopped flowing because his hands and feet became extremely cold, just like a corpse. Harlequin doesn’t know where to go. It’s so dark and cold here... So lonely...

When Harlequin finally got out of the boundless darkness, he tried to move his hands, but found that he had lost control of his hands and feet.

Harlequin came to his senses in an instant. He turned his head and found that his hands were tied to a crossbar by a thick iron chain. He frowned and lowered his head, finding that his waist was also chained to an upright piece of wood. Although his legs are still free, perhaps the residual medicinal effect is still working, and Harlequin also can’t feel their existence.

That is to say, he has now lost the ability to act, and he has become an object that can be slaughtered.

Harlequin thought and cursed irritably.(I won’t record it here) He frowned and looked at the iron chain. Damn it, if it weren’t for the effect of the medicine, how could this level of goods trap him?

However, why did she do this? Did she find out the secret of the circus? No... If that’s the case, she should also attack the stupid guy Pierrot first. Isn’t it more likely to win?

Harlequin was puzzled. Just as he doubted the world and doubted his monster life, the lady he put in his heart came in. Harlequin saw a large roll of red cloth, a whip and a bucket of water in her hand.

“Ah, you’re awake, Harlequin. How about it? Does it feel comfortable to be tied up?”

I looked at Harlequin, who had completely woken up. With a happy face, I quickly put the miscellaneous things in my hand on the bed on one side. When Harlequin was unconscious, I moved him to my bedroom and tied him to the cross with a prepared chain.

This project is not very easy for me. Although Harlequin is the shorter of the five clowns, there is no doubt that he is a strong adult man.

I approached Harlequin step by step, looking up and down at his eyes full of inexplicable meaning. I only know that I have wanted to do this for a long time. Think about it. Harlequin, who has always stood on the high level of feelings, has always been used to flirting with others, what kind of scene would it be if it was treated the opposite?

I’m so curious. If I can successfully control Harlequin, I must do something indescribable to him. After all, life is short, and you should have fun in time!

Harlequin was gritting his teeth and staring at me, but I always felt that the way he looked at me was not pure hatred, but a little more imperceptible indulgence and pampering. I blinked my eyes quickly, suspecting that I had stayed up late to be blind.

This is an irresistible Harlequin. How can he bend his waist because of me?

I showed a suspicious expression and thought of the last sentence that Harlequin blurted out before he fell into a coma. Is it because of “love”?

“Tsk, is this your purpose? It’s really boring, my dear ma’am. If you can only do this at best, then I’m so disappointed.

Harlequin’s hands drooped weakly. Obviously, he was still in the effect of the medicine, and he couldn’t even control his own body, but there was always a cynical smile on his face, as if he didn’t care what I would do to him at all.

Or is he looking forward to what I will do to him?

”Don’t try to provoke me, Harlequin. You know it’s useless to me.”

”Of course, my dear ma’am, I am the person who knows you best in the world except yourself. I just hope... you can really do something to me and don’t waste this good time, okay?”

I smiled, turned my head and picked up the whip, shook it away, and the two-meter-long whip naturally drooped. I held the whip handle in one hand and wrapped the whip in the other hand. I played with it and experienced its touch, hoping to familiarize myself with its taste before Harlequin’s body was familiar with it.

I pulled the whip and listened to it make a bursting sound, and the smile on my face was even worse. I lifted it up leisurely, aimed at Harlequin’s face and pulled it. Although there has been a saying that “hit people without hitting people in the face” since ancient times, I have to do the opposite today.

Unfortunately, I was not very proficient in using this kind of prop technique for the first time. The whip deviated from the part I imagined. Instead, it slanted down Harlequin’s neck, and finally hit Harlequin’s chest heavily, making a dull impact sound.

The red liquid soon oozed out and slowly down Harlequin’s neck. The fabric on his chest was also broken, revealing a beautiful muscle curve, and then quickly covered with bright blood.

The bright red blood contrasts sharply with the green uniform he is wearing. How beautiful it is!

My eyes became crazy, smelling the fishy sweet smell in the air, and my tense nerves relaxed involuntarily. Coincidentally, Harlequin mocked me at this time:

“Oh, my dear, your accuracy is not very good!”

“Don’t worry, Sweetheart, we still have a lot of time... Oh, by the way, in fact, I’ve always been curious about which one will be more painful to pull people compared with a simple whip or a whip soaked in salt water? Harlequin, maybe you can tell me the answer to this question after tonight?”

I squinted at Harlequin. His expression was not painful at all, but it made me feel that he was already excited. I raised my eyebrows, and the provocative eyes fell straight on his lower body...

I can’t see it clearly. Is the clothes too thick... or is he too inconspicuous?

Such a bad idea flashed through my mind, and I couldn’t help laughing. I immersed the whip into the bucket just brought. After a while, I took out the wet whip and threw it on the ground first.

“Bang—“

A sharp sound of breaking the air sounded. I stared at the straight water mark and nodded with satisfaction. I looked at Harlequin again, and I still didn’t see the idea of panic or fear in his expression. He had been smiling all the time, and even the smile on his face was thicker at this time.

Sure enough, our adaptability is not generally high, my dear Harlequin...

I said silently, raised my hand and waved the whip again. This time - the target was his arm!

…

“Well~ Hahaha... My dear ma’am, do you like this kind of gameplay? It’s really interesting. It’s my honor to know more about you in this regard~”

After several whips in a row, I was a little tired of it, so I casually threw the bloody whip aside. But Harlequin, like a machine that doesn’t know how to be tired at all, still provoked me with a bright blood color. It was the blood that flowed from when I broke his forehead, but at this moment it had solidified and oxidized, turning into a large pool of dried dark red blood scabs.

I glanced at Harlequin, and I also pulled out several distinct blood marks on his arms. The red blood slid down his green uniform, printing a unique logo. I snorted angrily and didn’t find anything wrong. Harlequin’s hands were still in a weak state, and his unbound legs had been honestly hanging in the air.

I was about to withdraw my probing gaze, but I was stunned when I brushed his knees. Why... I think Harlequin’s knees are together? In my impression, it seems that Harlequin’s legs were naturally drooping at the beginning. Shouldn’t they be separated and parallel?

My line of sight moved all the way up to a part below Harlequin’s abdomen and above his knees. I think I saw an obvious bulge. I was stunned for a moment and couldn’t believe my eyes. Harlequin, a master of flirting, was actually excited by me?

Under my dedicated and hot gaze, how could Harlequin not notice my gaze? He turned his head and stopped looking at me, but his knees were closer in a trance, and I even vaguely felt that he was rubbing his thighs.

“...There is, what’s interesting... Don’t you want to continue? Really, I thought you would have something new to entertain me...”

Harlequin was quite embarrassed to start the topic, but the direction of the shift was very stiff, so that people could find the clue as soon as they heard it. I didn’t say anything, but just stared at him silently. My heels deliberately made a heavy impact on the ground, and I walked to him.

Even if I was tied to the cross, in order to keep Harlequin’s feet hanging in the air, in fact, Harlequin’s current posture still requires me to look up to see his expression. Harlequin’s eyes were uncertain, but there were undoubtedly two suspicious blushes under his cheeks. He was embarrassed.

It’s so cute... I really want to do something more excessive...

I stepped forward, raised my hand to pinch Harlequin’s chin, and then straightened his face with force. At this time, he was finally full of me.

Under Harlequin’s puzzled and embarrassed gaze, I took the initiative to stand up and let go of the hand holding his chin, so that I could barely kiss his chin. After the kiss, I stood up again, watched Harlequin’s cheeks getting redder with interest, and gradually moved my hands down, and my fingertips slid through his throat knot, chest, abdomen in order...

Finally, stay in that place.

Well, it’s really proud. It seems that the male’s masculinity is proportional to his height.

I hooked my lips and laughed, ignoring Harlequin’s low curse, holding four fingers, gently pinching the little Harlequin, and rubbing it there for a while until the object under the palm of my hand became hotter, bigger and harder. I then withdrew my hand, frowned and rubbed twice against Harlequin’s waist, and returned the liquid or other things that did not exist in my hand to him.

“What...what? How can you bully me like this... Ma’am, you are too bad. Can’t you pity me?”

Harlequin muttered something, but it was a pity that I had gone far away, so I didn’t hear his complaints. I’m still immersed in the joy of playing with Harlequin. How can I have the heart to think about other problems?

Sure enough, it’s so interesting to watch Harlequin eat and shed!

However, when my eyes fell on the big red cloth, the eyes of the thief became gloomy in an instant. I still have business to do, but I can’t indulge in the beauty of Harlequin like this...

I opened the cloth roll, revealing more than 30 shiny and shiny silver needles, as well as a large bundled red ribbon. These are the tools that I am going to make human leather buckles on Harlequin.

“Harlequin, have you ever heard of human leather buckles? This is a great art. It is a complex product of pain, blood, violence and love. From the day I knew it, I have been thinking... One day, I will engrave my name on the person I love, not with vulgar knives, but with them...”

I talked about the aesthetic artistic conception of human leather buckle art. My fingertips crossed those beautiful reflective silver needles one by one, and the corners of my mouth were getting bigger and bigger. Finally, a completely strange and crazy smile appeared on my face.

“Harlequin, I know that the so-called ‘love’ in your mouth is just a vassal of jealousy, but it doesn’t matter... You use jealousy to nourish jealousy, so I’m going to return this jealousy, along with my love for you from it, now... Maybe this way is a little crazy, but honey, it’s all because I like you, so... You will accept all this, right?”

I muttered the upside-down sentence and approached Harlequin with the red cloth. I had no time to pay attention to his expression. I just mechanically tore off his clothes, and then began to pierce the needle on his beautiful abdominal muscles.

The sharp silver needle easily penetrated his skin. I used them to build the foundation of the canvas on Harlequin’s skin, and then slowly took out the red ribbon and tore them with my teeth until they became the length and shape I wanted.

The fragments of the red ribbon stuck between my lips and teeth, and at first glance, it looked like I was injured. My tongue rubbed around my mouth, hooking many fragments. I frowned in disgust and wiped my lips hard with the back of my hand. I took a few steps back and admired this unique work of art in the world - I left my name in the form of a leather buckle on Harlequin!

I finally... got what I wanted...

It’s not in vain that I tried my best to hide my true self, just to find someone I should love, and finally complete this feat.

As for love, it doesn’t matter to me at all. It’s just an insignificant link in the artwork I pursue. It’s the icing on the cake, and nothing is irrelevant.

I smiled with satisfaction and admired the artwork I made with my own hands, until Harlequin’s slightly gloomy voice came:

“My dear, it seems that this is all you want to do to me... So, is it my turn next, my ma’am?”

Harlequin hooked his lips and smiled, like a demon. He just raised his hand and tore off the chain that bound him. After losing the things that imprisoned him, Harlequin had a dangerous smile on his face. He walked towards me step by step. The blood stains on the rest of his body had dried up, and only the leather buckle of the person who made up my name was still bleeding.

I’m not surprised by Harlequin’s break-off. This will happen sooner or later, and I only care about whether my art can be completed. Fortunately, I finally won the bet. I closed my eyes with a satisfied smile on my face, silently waiting for my end.

After being treated badly by me, I’m afraid Harlequin has wanted to smash me to pieces. In this way, the love born of jealousy in his mouth can be logically ended. It must be tiring to disguise for such a long time. How good it is that we can all get what we want...

“We are just passers-by. Treat me as you want. Anyway, I have... I have no regrets. Thank you, Harlequin. You cooperated with me to do what I have always wanted to do.”

I muttered and prayed in my heart that Harlequin could be killed with one blow, but I didn’t wait for the cold dagger to poke into my body, nor for the rough rope to wrap around my neck.

I waited for a warm hug.

“No, my dear ma’am... I don’t want to be a passer-by with you. Since you have dedicated your love to the whole world for disguise, in order to get your love, I want to take away your love for the world...”

Harlequin hugged me tightly, pressed his bloodless half of his face against my face, and told the madman’s confession in my ear. The leather buckle that I made with my own hands was also attached to my body. Even through a layer of clothes, I could feel that it was cold and gradually getting hot.

“My dear, it seems that we know each other well enough. Maybe we can do something more meaningful in the next time tonight...”

I didn’t give Harlequin a positive answer. I just smiled, raised my hand and put it into his mouth, pinched his forked tongue, and said something to provoke him:

“Harlequin, didn’t you mean to take away my love for the world? Then, you can start.”

Well, Harlequin and I should have been just passers-by, but sometimes things will develop beyond our expectations. It’s like Harlequin didn’t think that he would fall in love with me, even my everything was willing to tolerate, and I didn’t think that I would agree to Harlequin’s pursuit.

Maybe we can really play HE once, from an pathological perspective.

This is a reprint!!!

画手老师：Shinobu

Painter teacher: Shinobu

已获得授权，图片如下：

It has been authorized, and the picture is as follows:

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Original address link:

https://xinjinjumin209175543409.lofter.com/post/8b86f358_2bf51c1ab?incantation=rzYrwY2Xq829

是Shinobu老师根据我写的同人文《情深不寿》绘制的小视频，希望你们喜欢！

It's a small video drawn by Shinobu based on the same humanities I wrote.

I hope you like it!

Pierrot✖️MC✖️Harlequin

I really can’t make a pick between them, so...

Anyway，I hope you like it!!!

What I sent was really just Yili chocolate!

As a senior coffee shop worker, I know a truth, that is, being friendly with people around me is a necessary quality for workers in the service industry. Therefore, in order to express my gratitude to the boss, colleagues and friends who have taken care of me for a long time, I decided to make Yili chocolate at home and give it to everyone on Valentine’s Day.

However, the ideal is beautiful, but the reality is cruel. After buying the raw materials for making chocolate, I looked at the rapidly thinning wallet and had no choice but to hold my forehead. Finally, I had to endure the pain and give up all kinds of molds and wrapping paper, and only chose the most basic square molds and clear food-grade kraft paper.

After a long video study and hands-on practice, I finally got a chocolate that looked a little slumpy but tasted good. I evenly divided the fixed chocolate into four parts and wrapped it with the same wrapping paper to prepare it for Valentine’s Day tomorrow.

The next morning, I arrived at the store on time according to my usual work time. First, I took out two chocolates and handed them to the considerate boss and my colleague, an introverted and shy little girl.

“Happy Valentine’s Day. This is chocolate made by myself . Thank you for taking care of me. I hope we can continue to get along with each other.”

“Wow! Great, then please take my chocolate, too.”

“Since that’s the case, I’ll accept it. I’ll return the gift on March 14. Keep working hard!”

My colleagues and the boss both took Yili Chocolate with a smile. I was a little relieved to see them happy. But I still have some anxiety. I’m worried that everyone will dislike these delicious chocolates because of the simple packaging, so I quickly added:

“Well, although the packaging doesn’t look good, and it even looks like a three-free product, it still tastes very good. I tasted it last night. It’s absolutely non-toxic!”

After getting their positive answer, the stone on my chest fell to the ground. Seeing that customers had already come to the door, I quickly changed into work clothes and started today’s work.

Today is Valentine’s Day, and there are a lot of young couples who come to the coffee shop for a date and people who like each other, which makes our business very popular. But I’m not sure if the boss will be happy about this. Now he is making coffee for the guests and has to meet the order needs of several guests at the same time. It can be said that he is very busy.

As for me and the little girl, our two little employees naturally don’t have time to be idle. We should not only always pay attention to recycling the used cups on the table, but also make various drinks according to the requirements of the guests. They can’t wait to wash the cups that can’t be washed.

It’s really a busy day!

The three of us were busy until after eight o’clock in the evening before we had a chance to breathe. There were empty tables in the store, and the number of customers waiting in line was gradually decreasing. I think those little couples should also go on other romantic dating projects. I don’t know if there will be a special performance in the circus today...

I was thinking nonsense, and my mood suddenly went down. Neither Pierrot nor Harlequin has come to me today, which makes me feel a little wronged. Although I don’t know what I’m wronged about, I haven’t known them for a long time, and I usually get along with them. I only occasionally receive special tickets from Pierrot or Harlequin to watch the show, or they come to the coffee shop to order a drink, and then take the opportunity to chat with me. A few words.

In this way, it seems that we are ordinary friends at most, and there is no need to meet on a special day like Valentine’s Day. What’s more, maybe they all have their own favorite women, and they are destined to accompany her today. What’s the point of complaining about me, a person who can only send chocolate?

But I’m just depressed. I always feel empty in my heart, but I don’t know what to fill in. I lowered my head and poured the coffee, a little absent-minded, and didn’t notice that the hot coffee had overflowed from the cup.

“Ah!”

The burnt finger jumped, and I let out a cry of pain and let go of the coffee cup without thinking. The coffee cup fell on the ground at an angle, and ceramic fragments splashed around. The hot coffee spilled all over the ground, and a lot of it splashed on my legs. The mellow fragrance quickly spread in the air, making the small shop, which was originally full of coffee aroma, more mellow.

“Hiss—“

I took a few steps back, but the coffee had been wet on my calves and ankles. Fortunately, the thicker clothes I wore in this season did not hurt my legs. But there was still a lot of coffee that soaked my socks, and then quickly burned my ankles, and there was a tendency to continue to expand.

The boss noticed the accident here, but he just quickly came forward to check my situation and looked at me with apologetic eyes, claiming that if it hadn’t been for my busy work today, I wouldn’t have been hurt. I bowed my head guiltily and apologized to him, saying that I was willing to compensate for the broken coffee cup, but he refused.

“It’s just an accident. Forget it. You all worked hard today. I was supposed to get off work an hour ago, but it was delayed until now. I’ll pay you overtime. Now pack up and get ready to go back to rest.”

The boss waved his hand and generously exempted the compensation I proposed, and comforted me again and again. If I found any discomfort after going back, I could apply to him for three days of sick leave, but he would deduct my full attendance bonus accordingly. The boss raised his eyebrows at me and said in a joking tone, but I don’t think he will really deduct my bonus. It’s just a joke to ease the atmosphere.

I expressed my gratitude for his open-mindedness. After cleaning up the mess by myself and dealing with the remaining customers, I finished today’s messy work. I brought four packets of chocolate to the coffee shop in the morning, but I brought back two packets of chocolate when I got off work. A strong sense of frustration haunted me, which made my mood more and more depressed.

There is still time. Would you like to go to the circus to find Pierrot and Harlequin? In this way, you can send Yili Chocolate away, and maybe you can quietly observe whether they have gone out on a date with the lady they like...

The idea that was originally normal inexplicably turned into this jealousy, which made me shiver. I shivered and didn’t understand why I had such an idea. I’m just treating them as friends. How can I have such an idea that involves possessiveness between lovers? I’m so dirty...

I shook my head quickly and packed up these dark ideas together and threw them out. I tried to divert my attention and began to observe the couples on the street, but unfortunately it had little effect. When I accidentally touched the chocolate in the backpack, this strange idea still hovered in my mind and refused to leave, and even faintly showed signs of getting worse.

Just when I was doing my left and right brain mutual exercise, someone patted me on the shoulder. I turned around and saw that it was Pierrot! In just a short moment, most of my unhappiness dissipated, and my brain, which was still at war with heaven and man, immediately quieted down. I looked at Pierrot with a smile and found that his left hand was behind his back, and his face was a little shy.

“Pierrot, it’s you! Great, I was still thinking about it...”

I lowered my head and rummaged through the Yili chocolate in my backpack. Just as my finger touched the packaging bag, someone gently tapped my back with his fingertips. I raised my head hesitantly. The second before I turned around, I saw Pierrot showing an extremely disgusted expression. I thought I knew who was standing behind me.

“Good evening, my dear ma’am! Of course, this greeting is also for you, Pierrot, although I know you must be scolding me in your heart now, haha.”

Harlequin covered his lips with one hand and put the other hand on his waist. He smiled and bowed to me, interacting with Pierrot as “friendly” as always. When I looked back at Harlequin, Pierrot’s face was even more ugly, and a dart was ready to be sent at his fingertips.

“Harlequin, why are you here?”

I felt a little unexpected. I had no hope, but I met Pierrot and Harlequin at the same time on my way home. It was really a coincidence! But from this point of view, maybe they don’t have a favorite lady, otherwise they wouldn’t appear in front of me at this time.

I was very happy when I thought of this possibility, and I felt a burst of joy for no reason. I took out the remaining two packages of Yili chocolate and hesitated for a moment. The packaging committee is really too simple. Do I really want to give such a gift to Pierrot and Harlequin?

Forget it, it’s just a Yili chocolate, not the Zodiac chocolate, and it’s normal to be simple.

I sighed helplessly, turned sideways, took a righteous chocolate in one hand, and handed it to Pierrot and Harlequin respectively. At that time, the angry Pierrot had raised his hand holding the darts. It seemed that he would insert the thing into Harlequin’s head fiercely the next moment; as for Harlequin, he looked at Pierrot jokingly, and his deep eyes were full of provocation.

“Anyway... Happy Valentine’s Day, gentlemen!”

Seeing that the atmosphere between the two people had reached a new state of white heat, I quickly interrupted their next move. Come on, I don’t want to be invited to the bureau to drink hot cocoa today!

“Woo-hoo! Did you give it to me? This is chocolate, my dear lady. You and I are really a perfect match!”

Harlequin took the chocolate in my hand with a big smile, and the corners of his raised mouth were almost touching his ears. He cast the victor’s eyes at Pierrot and raised the chocolate I made with a proud face. Pierrot did not take my chocolate at the first time, but threw out the dart. A cracking sound sounded from above my head, and it flew straight to the dancing Harlequin and tied it on his hat.

I looked at the dart and swallowed in fear. I couldn’t imagine what it would be like if it was really inserted into Harlequin’s head. However, Harlequin just shrugged his shoulders and restrained a little, but the expression on his face was still flamboyant. He took out a beautifully packaged chocolate out of nowhere and handed it to me. Harlequin leaned down to me and said intimately close to my ear:

“Honey, look at Pierrot. It’s so scary. I was almost stabbed to death by his darts. It’s too bad that I can’t date my charming ma’am on the streets of such a romantic festival.

Harlequin stuffed the green-wrapped chocolate into my hand while suing me of Pierrot’s aggression. Everything that happened suddenly just now made me a little overwhelmed. I was stunned in place, but subconsciously grabbed the chocolate he sent and didn’t move.

“Well, Harlequin, I think Pierrot may just be...”

I scratched my head and tried to justify Pierrot, who couldn’t speak in public, but before I finished speaking, I was pulled into a warm embrace by a pair of strong arms.

“Emm…”

My head hit a hard chest, and the sweet smell enveloped my body. Pierrot was holding me tightly, and my arms were firmly in his arms, unable to move. Pierrot’s body trembled a little. He put his head on my shoulder, and his soft white hair drooped naturally, rubbing my cheeks, which was a little itchy.

“My dear lady, you belong to me, and I have also prepared chocolate for you... Can you throw away the chocolate made by Harlequin? I promise you that the chocolate I made will be more suitable for your taste, okay, my lady?”

Pierrot begged me carefully, like a large dog wagging its tail. He also held a red chocolate in the hand in front of me, and the other empty hand rubbed my waist. Pierrot’s breath sprayed between my neck. He looked pitiful, but he hugged me in a floating posture. At that moment, I thought of many things, and my whole face burned.

“I, I know. Thank you for the chocolate you gave me. Pierrot, let go of me first... This is on the street, and there are so many people watching...”

I spoke in a quieter and quieter voice. I looked around quickly like a thief. As a result, the farce that happened here has attracted a lot of people’s attention. Those eyes full of curiosity and exploration made me very embarrassed. I even wanted to faint on the spot, so that I couldn’t hear those whispers—

“Hey, look over there, what’s going on...”

“This height, hiss, those two clowns should be men. That man still holds a girl in his arms. It can’t be...”

“What kind of drama is this about two men fighting for one woman? It’s so funny. I can’t even think of seeing this on Valentine’s Day. Who do you think she will choose?”

“I don’t know, but I feel that the green clown is about to fall apart. Looking at the girl I like being hugged by the other man ...”

“...I prefer the red one. Isn’t it that men are directly proportional to their height? I will definitely choose him!”

…

What the hell is this! What are people thinking about all day long now? What I sent was really just Yili chocolate!

My face turned into a ripe tomato with a “boom”. I broke free from Pierrot’s confinement in a panic, threw the Yili chocolate into his arms, and then pulled out the red-wrapped chocolate from his hand. I don’t dare to look up to see the reactions of the people around me, and I don’t want to know the expressions of Harlequin and Pierrot at this time. I just want to find a hole to get in, and I don’t want to come out in my life.

“Well... Thank you for the Yili chocolate. I, I have something to do, so I’ll go first, hahahaha...”

I hurriedly threw the two chocolates I received into the bag together, and then slipped away quickly as if my feet were smeared with oil. I pushed away from the crowd and walked in the direction of home in a daze. I bumped into many young couples along the way. Some of them cursed a few words very unhappily, but I didn’t care about it at all.

After returning home, I don’t want to see those two chocolates anymore. Whether they are Yili chocolate or Zodiac chocolate, now I just want to get rid of them completely. I pounced on my bed, wrapped myself tightly in a quilt, curled up in it and refused to come out.

“Now people’s imagination is too rich. Obviously... Obviously, we are just ordinary friends, and what I give is Yili chocolate... How can you speculate about our relationship so much...”

I hid under the quilt and speaked to myself, racking my brains to forget the absurd scene tonight, but things went against my wishes. The more I wanted to forget, the more deeply I remembered. Even later, I could clearly recall the breath felt by my skin when Harlequin was talking to me. I could feel Pierrot’s sharp fingertips slowly stroked my waist...

The air in the quilt became cloudy, and the more I thought about it, the more I got into it. Instead, I completely wrapped myself in. I suddenly lifted the quilt and sat up to breathe fresh air.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw Pierrot and Harlequin with colorful faces. They were standing at the end of my bed on the left and right, looking down on me with a sense of oppression, and their straight eyes were full of undisguised desire.

“You, how did you...how did you come in?”

I shivered and moved my body back, and then I leaned on the wooden board at the head of the bed. I couldn’t back down. However, there is still a lot of offensive space left for Pierrot and Harlequin, and they are also eager to get a positive answer from me at the moment—

“My dear ma’am, why are you running so fast? Can’t you wait to enjoy the good time tonight? Well, although I need to share you with this annoying guy, but... maybe you want me to be the first?”

Harlequin tilted his head and stared at me intently. He deliberately touched his clown hat, where there was a hole pierced by Pierrot with darts. Harlequin hoped to get priority by pretending to be pitiful.

However, just when he was in a concave shape, Pierrot had taken the lead in front of me. He stood beside me and looked at me, and there seemed to be a jumping star in his orange eyes. Pierrot knelt on one knee, but he could still keep his eyes on the same plane with me. He held my hand and held it on his face.

“My lady, don’t pay attention to that damn guy, choose me... I’m bigger than Harlequin, and I will definitely make you more comfortable. Believe me, my dear lady.”

After a word, the star in Pierrot’s eyes disappeared and turned into a circle of ripples, orange and black intertwined, like a mosquito coil. This inhuman sense of déjà vu scared me a little. I wanted to pull back my hand, but Pierrot was so strong that I could only let him kiss my hand, and then lick my finger with his tongue.

I couldn’t think anymore. My whole person was like a dead computer. I stared at myself in a daze, hoping that all this that happened now was just an illusion in my brain.

This is ridiculous!

“Well, Well... It Seems That This Makes You Feel Very Difficult. Well, My Dear Ma’am... Well, Let’S Spend This Romantic Holiday With You Together!”

I blinked my eyes hard and felt that I had auditory hallucinations.

What is Harlequin talking about? Together?? What are he and Pierrot going to do together???

Before I fell, I was still thinking:

The kitten said: People, it is forbidden to take photos without dried fish.

Anyway, I hope you can like this 13,000-word article (in fact, I don‘t know how many words it will be after translation, but maybe no one will count it). Please read it patiently.

If you want, you can discuss the plot with me. In fact, I’ve been exhausted recently (this can’t be blamed because there are too few plots in the game)

Summer Cicada

July 1st Sunny

Today, I went to the street to distribute leaflets according to Jester’s request, but people in this city still don’t like our existence, just like everyone we met before.

But she is different. The first time I saw her, I knew that I had been captured by her.

When she saw I was bullied by others, she was so much shorter than me, but she still chose to stand in front of me and fight for a guy like me. For the first time in my life, I felt kindness. She was so bright and touching, like the warm sun in the cold winter and the twelfth lunar month suddenly shone on me, and I would hold her to death like a drowning person, and I would never let go in this life.

After driving away the rude man, she stretched out her hand to pull me up from the ground, but how could I touch such a gentle and beautiful existence? Could she be just a kind of salvation that I imagined in extreme pain?

I stood up by myself, but my height seemed to scare her. She let out a sigh, and her voice was so beautiful, as if the spring warmed and thawed spring water, flowing into my barren heart.

I think I must be in love with her, otherwise why would my heart beat so fast?

“Uh, are you all right? I have a dand-am here. You can use it first, but if the injury is serious, you should go to the hospital for treatment.

My redemption smiled at me and handed me a band-aid. I carefully took the band-aid with a seductive aroma, for fear that my sharp fingertips would cut her hand. She said goodbye to me with a charming smile on her face. Why is she so kind to me?

Does she really exist?

I don’t have the heart to care about these damn leaflets anymore. My heart is full of her thin but brave figure, as well as the corners of her raised mouth and the faint body fragrance. I pasted the gift she gave me on the wound, and I still couldn’t believe that all this was my real experience.

So I followed her to the coffee shop where she worked. I watched her greet the boss and customers gently through the glass. Her mouth opened and closed, as if she was saying something to the customers. I was so jealous of them. Why could they get her gaze like this? Strong unwillingness filled my heart. I continued to keep an eye on her with lustful eyes, and the strong possessiveness was about to drive me crazy.

And the kind she didn’t seem to notice my behavior. I secretly drew five hearts with my tongue on the glass, not only hoping that she could find my twisted love, but also afraid that she was just a fantasy in my mind. I want to keep my eyes on her all the time, but I can’t do it now. I need to continue to finish my work, otherwise Jester will make trouble for me.

I quickly completed my task, but she was still busy. I hid in the dark corner and watched her make drinks, clean up the plates, cups and saucers, and chatted with customers. I kept her every move in my heart. I heard her boss call her name, and then shouted her name silently in my heart over and over again. I carefully described her smile. I was eager to touch her, and before that, I needed to make sure whether she was real!

I went to deal with some personal affairs and encountered a little trouble. I was injured on my forehead, but this level of wound is not a big problem for me. However, I looked at the blood shed and thought of a good idea - maybe I could give her a gift, a gift that I made myself and even some of the raw materials came from myself.

I finally waited for the moment when all the customers in the store had left, and her boss disappeared. I can finally be alone with her, my angel.

“It’s you. It scared me...”

She turned to look at me. Her eyes were full of wary at first, but soon softened. I tried to look at her with my kindest eyes, hoping that I would not scare her. I handed her the rose and still looked at her silently.

“Is it for me? As a return gift for the back-aid?”

I nodded with a smile and watched with satisfaction that she accepted this special gift. I was about to invite her to the circus to watch my performance, but was interrupted by her urgent voice. It turned out that she noticed the wound on my forehead. She asked me to sit on the bar and took out a clean rag to wipe my blood. In fact, this small wound had healed long ago, but I did not refuse her.

With her gentle movements, the blood that was about to solidify was wiped away one by one. I could feel the touch of her fingertips, and the faint aroma that could not be described in words enveloped me. I began to think nonsense again, but the content was all about her.

I really want to hold her in my arms with my best strength, just like rubbing her into my body and integrating with me. But no, the human body is too fragile. She should stay with me for a long time, instead of becoming a disposable consumable.

I want to keep her by my side, I want to occupy her body and mind, until she only sees me in her eyes, until she can no longer leave me, just like I can’t live without her. Finally, I will mark her body with a mark that belongs exclusively to me and let her smell like me until her body is more familiar with my body than herself.

My thoughts drifted farther and farther away, and it was not until I heard her voice again that I ended these absurd fantasies. She curiously asked me why I didn’t make a sound, and I made an exception to talk to her, told her everything and invited her to see my performance.

My heart was beating uneasily in my chest, looking forward to her consent. The red ticket trembled slightly at my fingertips, showing my anxiety. How I wish she could accept my invitation! In this way, I can try to take my time and approach her little by little until I completely possess her.

However, she said that she already had a ticket.

I suddenly panicked. How is this possible? Could it be that Harlequin, the annoying guy, also noticed that she was kind and tried to compete with me once again？My face suddenly became gloomy, but I still remember to disguise myself in front of her, at least at this stage.

”Reas that so? Dear lady, what color ticket do you have? Can I have a look?”

She handed me the pink ticket without hesitation. I was relieved. Fortunately, it was not Harlequin’s special ticket. I played a little trick, exchanged the ticket for my red ticket, and then handed it back to her with an excited face.

Fortunately, I found it, otherwise...

In fact, it doesn’t matter. Even if she is really brought into the pink tent, I will take her away as soon as possible, but that will definitely attract Harlequin’s attention, and I don’t want more people to focus on her.

“My dear lady, this is a fake ticket. You can’t enter with it. It’s better to use mine. I don’t want you to have trouble when entering.

I watched her accept my ticket and heard her promise that she would go to the circus to watch my performance. I was so happy that I couldn’t wait to tie her to the circus immediately, but I resisted my restless heart and just secretly followed her to find her place to live.

After washing up, my lady leaned on the bed and watched TV, while I hid in a large wardrobe in her home and watched her. It’s not difficult for me to pry open the human lock. I easily entered her house through the door on the balcony, and then took advantage of her bathing to find a suitable hiding place, and she didn’t find my existence. What a little angel who lacks vigilance.

I looked at her through the gap of the cabinet, and my eyes were full of greedy and ugly desires. I wanted more than that, but I would wait patiently until she adapted to my existence. She was so tired that she fell asleep. I came out of the closet, turned off the TV and the light for her, and covered her with a quilt. When I was doing these things, my heart was pounding, for fear of waking her up by accident, but fortunately, she had been asleep.

I carefully stroked her soft cheeks and felt her warm skin sliding under my hands. I was so happy that I almost fainted.

She is actually real! The lady who brought all the kindness in the world to me is real, just like me! She is not the character I imagined, let alone the product of nervous. My lady is real.

My eyes became feverish, more explicit than before. If she came to her senses at this moment, she would be frightened by my appearance. I looked at her over and over again with hot eyes, and over and over again with her touching face in my heart. I told her about the surging love in my heart, but it still couldn’t express my feelings for her.

I know that I have fallen into it, and my heart, which will never be satisfied, is still longing for more. I will get her, definitely.

July 2nd Sunny

I didn’t leave my lady until early in the morning. I need to go back to take a nap, and then continue today’s observation. I need to know more about her. Her preferences, her habits, her appearance when she is happy, her appearance when she is angry... Everything about her attracts me so much that I am willing to become her slave.

As long as she is willing, I can become whatever she likes and get along with her in the way she likes. I want to take away all her attention and care. I hope... she can also like me.

Harlequin still found her this morning! Why did this ghostly guy appear here? Like an annoying toad, he kept chirping around my lady, and he didn’t even see how much my lady didn’t want to pay attention to him? This shameless guy!

I saw the green ticket in Harlequin’s hand, and my heart was alarming. I rushed forward to grab it. How could he still want to give his special ticket to my lady? How dare he! Harlequin had long expected my reaction. Once again, he laughed at me on the rule that I could not speak in public, and even slandered me in front of the young lady, saying that my heart was full of dirty thoughts. What does he know? This disgusting slug!

I stared at Harlequin, who was joking, viciously, and countless malicious things were rolling in my heart. How should I teach him a lesson? There are so many kinds of torture in the world that I can’t make up my mind for a while. Maybe it’s the right answer to try it all on Harlequin?

My lady didn’t accept Harlequin’s ticket. While I was confronting him, she had bypassed us and went to work. I know that this annoying guy has noticed the existence I cherish, and he will definitely try his best to take her away from me, just like the disgusting things he has done before.

I won’t let go. I need to please the young lady as soon as possible. At the same time, beware of Harlequin, who is full of bad water, and let him keep a distance from my young lady.

At almost noon, the work of distributing leaflets finally came to an end. I couldn’t wait to go to the coffee shop to find her. Even if I can’t talk to her, I just watch her silently and take a milkshake from her hand, which can soothe my heart full of desire.

Look at what you have done to me, my dear lady. Your kindness is both an antidote and poison to me. You pulled me out of the dark hell, but you refused to put me in your arms. You are so cruel, my dear lady, but it doesn’t matter. I will lie by your side until one day you voluntarily throw yourself into my arms.

I saw her boss pull her arm and whisper something to her. Why was that man holding my lady? Is he bullying her behind my back? Is it just because my kind, simple and lovely lady is kind-hearted?

I was so angry that the flame of anger spread endlessly in my heart, pushing my anger to a new peak. When she handed me the milkshake, I leaned close to her ear and asked her in a low voice if she was in trouble. This is another violation of my rules, but I don’t care at all. Now the most important thing is to make my lady happy, and all the things that make her angry should go to hell.

Although she denied to me that her boss was not good to her, I still decided to give the man a small warning, hoping that it could attract his attention and not to criticize my lady too harshly. I followed the man to a hidden alley and grabbed his arm fiercely while he was unprepared. I would never let others bully her.

In the afternoon, I have been preparing for the evening performance, and I used a man to deliver a pink ticket to the rude woman. That woman actually accused my lady in front of me. It’s too much! Since that’s the case, I’ll let her pay the price of her life. Isn’t that too much?

I repeatedly practiced the content of the evening performance, and I felt restless. Will my lady like my performance? If she likes it, can she like me more? I want to hold her hand openly and kiss her lips, instead of secretly hiding in the dark and staring at her.

She really came to watch my performance at night!

She took my ticket to enter and sat in the front row. Although she was surrounded by people, I still saw her at a glance. My beautiful young lady sat on the seat, holding her cheeks with both hands and looking at me extremely intently. Her eyes were about to roast me!

I endured my inner restlessness and continued my performance. I don’t want anything to go wrong at this time. Just like the rehearsal in advance, I rotated and jumped on the stage with a special dance step, using the light to separate me from the movement of the shadow, creating a tricky atmosphere. I heard the crowd under the stage begin to cheer. These angry shouts made me a little annoyed. I wanted to confirm her mood again, but I didn’t want to destroy my carefully prepared performance because of this little action.

So I endured it and vented my irritation on the grumpy woman. She appeared on the other side of the stage as my stage assistant. Her body could not resist because of the effect of the drug, and she could only move her head slightly. I took out the darts and began to throw them in the direction she was.

The audience under the stage became even more crazy. Under the dim lights, the atmosphere of the scene was pushed to a whole new height. They were all shouting for me to hit the woman.

Oh, this is what the vast majority of human beings look like. Obviously, they have crazy ideas and dirty desires in their hearts, but they pretend to be humble gentlemen in front of others. It really makes me feel sick.

I patiently threw out the first dart, stuck next to the woman’s head, and did not hit her. I need to enhance the atmosphere of the scene more fanatically. I can only take this gradual approach, even if I have long wanted to kill this woman and make her painful.

Will she like this form of performance? My heart was full of uncertainty, but I still threw the second dart, which fell under the woman’s armpit, closer to her body.

The figures of the audience under the stage have been distorted, and the shadows are like demons from hell, entangled together. All kinds of desires are intertwined, gushing out like an erupting volcano.

I responded to the audience with exaggerated movements, and then threw a third dart. I still didn’t hit her, but it was very close. The audience began to roar with dissatisfaction, and the violent factor hidden in their hearts was screaming wildly, testing their bottom line.

Between the satisfaction of desire and the unsatisfaction, the feeling that will be obtained but cannot be obtained is the most tingling. I am well aware of this, because this is exactly what I have experienced now.

And those are all given to me by my dearest lady. I can’t stop my dirty thoughts. What I want is much more than that...

“Bang—“

The sharp dart flew out and pierced the middle of the woman’s forehead. She could no longer embarrass my lady. I laughed with satisfaction, and the audience below the stage was also very satisfied with the result. They were noisy endlessly, and some even began to throw flowers and paper and pens on the stage.

I bowed down the stage as usual to thank them for watching, but when I looked up at my lady, I was stunned. Because it’s empty, where is my lady? I’m like I’m in an ice cave. It’s hard to believe my own eyes. How can this be? Is the shadow I saw before the performance just my own fantasy?

I waved goodbye to the audience who were still immersed in the performance, hurried back to the backstage, and then rushed out of the tent at the first time. No matter where she is now, I will find her.

Maybe she just left the performance first, not that she didn’t like my performance. I comforted myself like this, but the uneasiness rising in my heart was getting stronger and stronger. I always had a bad premonition.

I found her outside. She turned her back to me, bent down and coughed, as if she was feeling a little uncomfortable. I hesitated for a moment, but I still stepped forward and patted her on the shoulder. The moment she turned around, I saw the green heart-shaped badge.

Damn Harlequin! When exactly?!

I subconsciously grabbed her collar and ran over the annoying little mark with my fingertips. How dare he leave such a thing on my dearest lady?!

“...Pierrot? This was given to me by your colleague...”

After listening to her explanation, my mood didn’t get any better. I just felt that the treasure I longed for was once again coveted by Harlequin, a ghostly guy. I took a deep breath and added a yellow five-pointed star above the badge, which was my own mark.

My dear lady hesitated for a moment and then thanked me, but her eyes at me were much more complicated, and I could feel her hesitation, anxiety and fear.

My heart was beating anxiously in my chest. I seemed to have expected her answer, but I still asked her heartlessly:

“My dear lady, I’m glad you came to see my performance... So, do you like my performance?”

I stared at her nervously, trying to read her ideas from the small changes in her expression, which was what I was good at, but that day I sincerely hoped that I had not mastered this skill.

Because I saw the fear and dread in her enlarged pupils. She is afraid of me, and my dear lady’s emotions for me are only fear at this moment. This is not all I want, but it seems that I can only accept it. I have no choice...

No, in fact, I have thought about this for a long time and have made full preparations for it.

But I’m like a fool who doesn’t look back, persistently trying to get the answer from her mouth. She decisively admitted her fear and looked at me with a gentle smile on her face.

“So... can we see each other again tomorrow ?”

After all, I still asked this question. Although I had got a negative answer from her reaction, I just... like a person who likes to abuse myself , persistently let her reply repeatedly delay me.

“Uh... It’s better not to...”

“...Why, my dear lady? Is it because you don’t like my performance? Or did I do something wrong? Why...”

I don’t understand if I have done anything out of the way these days, and why things have developed like this? I don’t like this kind of ending, but fortunately... I still have a chance to modify our relationship.

I quickly put away the haze on my face, leaving only reluctance and retention in my expression. I took out a small cake with a large amount of special drugs and handed it to the angel who wanted to stay away from me.

“Well... Since we can’t see each other again, please accept this as the last farewell gift... Okay, my dear lady?”

The simple and kind-hearted she hesitated for a moment and finally took it. I watched her lower her head and take a bite of the cake, then looked up at me with a smile, telling me that she liked the gift very much.

Oh, my dear lady, you are still so cute. Your smile moves me, and I can’t forget your figure. Even if I use some unconventional means, I will keep you and keep you by my side.

Looking at her eyes gradually becoming confused, and her will could no longer support her body, she muttered something, and then fell into my arms obediently. I carefully hugged her, and my greedy eyes stayed on her eyebrows for a long time. At that moment, I felt that I had the whole world.

“...I’m sorry, my lady... But I can only keep you by my side in this way. I will take good care of you... I will keep you up until you have fully adapted to me, until we fall deeply in love with each other, and no one can separate us anymore.”

July 3rd Rain

It began to rain this morning. The sky was gloomy and covered with dark clouds. It looked like the sky was squeezing towards the ground. It’s exactly the same as my mood at this time. Although I kept my angel by my side in that way, I still didn‘t feel the mood of mastering the whole situation.

I hid her in a coma in my single tent and locked her feet at the head of the bed with an iron chain. It’s very safe here. It won’t be found out by others for the time being, especially the disgusting Harlequin, who can never enter my private tent.

However, is it really right for me to do this? Can I really keep her?

I fell into self-doubt, but there was no turning back. I couldn’t go back to the past to change my choice. It’s just that I’m a little confused and nervous. How can I explain all this to her? Do you tell me bluntly about the deformed love I have for her? Or do you disguise yourself as a mentally crazy person and gradually improve her opinion of me by getting along with her in prison? But I think doing this will only make things worse.

Perhaps, her smiling person will prefer freedom rather than be bound in a small tent by me.

Fortunately, she hasn’t woken up yet. At least now I don’t need to face her frightened, timid or shocked eyes. I still have time to think about how to continue to get along with her.

This afternoon, when I returned to the tent after work, she had already woken up and was curled up on the bed. She buried her face between her knees, and her soft long hair scattered on her back and chest, covering her closed legs. My young lady is curled up in an extremely insecure posture, as if she had returned to the fetal period.

My throat is so dry that I don’t know how to start a conversation. Just when I was at a loss, my lady found me. She took the initiative to break the silence between us and saved me again, even though I had done such a bad thing to her.

“...Pierrot? Is it you? Why did you... do this?”

She raised her head and looked at me with disbelief. Her lips trembled, looking forward to and afraid of my answer. Her thin body trembled, and she clasped the hem of her clothes with both hands, and her joints turned white.

I looked at her and felt the tension in the air. I saw her uneasiness, panic and fear on the surface, as well as a trace of expectation hidden in the depths of her eyes. It seemed that she hoped it was a prank.

I really want to respond to her expectations, but not this time.

I can’t let go, absolutely not.

After a long time, I took my eyes off and no longer indulged in her beautiful eyes. I can’t look back, otherwise things will only get worse, and I’m destined to get further and further away from her, just like two straight lines that only intersect, moving away from each other after intersecting, and never seeing each other again.

“I’m sorry, my dear lady, but you have to stay here... I’ll take good care of you...”

I didn’t know how to continue, and then she suddenly got excited, jumped up from the bed, rushed to the bedside and grabbed my waffl collar. The thick iron chain was pulled by her and made an earth-shattering sound. I was worried that it would hurt her ankles, but there was only my figure in her eyes. She grabbed my collar fiercely and pulled me towards her, and I was willing to lean towards her with her movements.

She gasped violently, her chest rose and fell, her beautiful eyes trembled in her eyes, and her pupils widened because of fear and shock.

“Why? Why me? Pierrot, tell me... why...”

I was filled with her fragrance, and my head was a little dizzy, but her shocked and panicked voice soon pulled me back to reality. I looked at myself who appeared in her eyes. I was the only one in her eyes now. I should be very happy, but...

Why do I feel a little sad?

I tasted the strong fear emanating from her, and a sour breath spread between my lips and teeth, which made me speechless.

“...Because I love you, my dear lady... Don’t make trouble. It’s not good to hurt yourself. Do you want to eat something now?”

I stumbled and said something to divert her attention, which certainly could not be successful. She let go of the hand holding my collar in astonishment, knelt on the bed helplessly, looking straight ahead, and her eyes were a little empty.

She didn’t say anything more, neither looking at me nor answering my question. She sat there in a daze, digesting the unfortunate facts I told her. I was a little afraid of her appearance, and the uneasiness in my heart began to amplify. I almost ran away and didn’t dare to look at her again.

Is it really right for me to do this?

July 7th, cloudy

From today on, my young lady no longer planned to escape. She became much quieter, and the rador on her face faded. The food I prepared for her was almost not moved. She just curled up on the bed silently, like a baby.

In the first few days, I could still see her lively, although it was only because she wanted to untie the chain that bound her. She tried for a long time, and I just watched all this silently, neither stopping her nor taking the initiative to untie the chain for her.

I could see that my young lady was afraid of me. The way she looked at me had lost trust. Her eyes became cold, but still lively. She stopped shouting my name with a smile, and she didn’t even want to try the food and water I sent, although I repeatedly guaranteed that there was nothing that shouldn’t be put in it.

I had to take tough measures to restrain her and force her to pour some. After that, my young lady would look at me with angry eyes, but she never scolded me. If she did this, I might feel a little better.

I got her, but I also completely lost her trust, and things went beyond my expectations. Even if I imagined what the situation would be like, in fact, when it was really my turn to experience it myself, I realized that imagination and reality are completely different.

Maybe, I shouldn’t have done this...

July 11th Rain turned sunny

It has been raining heavily for several days recently, and the flow of people in the circus has been much less, and the local government has begun to suspect us, because more and more people have disappeared from the city recently. This caused people to panic. They were the first to think of us outsiders, indiscriminately thinking that it was our fault.

Although this is indeed the case, the vast majority of the disappearance of the population is insegrable from our monsters.

Jester told me that we might leave here soon. After explaining the business, he stared at me suspiciously and asked me if I had hidden anything from him. I kept silent, neither denying nor admitting.

I won’t tell anyone about her existence until I can be sure that she completely belongs to me.

In recent days, Harlequin has also looked at me suspiciously from time to time, and his inquiring gaze swept over my private tent from time to time. He smiled strangely and asked me if I knew where my lady had gone. As far as he knew, the charming lady had disappeared for almost ten days, but I didn’t show any anxiety, which made the shrewd Harlequin suspicious.

Harlequin doubted me. I couldn’t tell him where my lady was. She belongs to me alone, and can only be mine alone. I put her in a very safe place, and no one can hurt her anymore.

I didn’t pay attention to Harlequin’s yin and yang. I turned around and went back to my tent, hoping to convince her today so that she could give up struggling and begin to adapt to the new mode of getting along between us.

I came to her side, but I only saw a piece of debris, which was a fragment of a broken dish. My young lady didn’t curl herself up today. She lay quietly on the bed I prepared for her. Her left arm drooped, and only her pale arm could be seen from my perspective. But I smelled a strong bloody smell, and I also saw her frowning eyebrows and her increasingly pale and sickly face.

Contacting the mess, I suddenly realized something, and my heart suddenly stopped beating at this moment. I knelt beside her in a trance. There was a large amount of dark red liquid on the ground, most of which had solidified and turned into sticky gelatinous substances. I pressed the wound on her left wrist desperately, but it seemed to be of no use.

My lady has always been so brave, and it’s the same in this kind of thing. I can even see the white bones in her flesh and blood. I dare not think about how many times she cut herself to cause such a wound. My heart was full of fear, and her warm body seemed to be getting colder and colder in my arms.

I called her name, took out the key of the chain with trembling hands, and wrewed the shackles that trapped her. I picked her up, but I took a few steps back at the moment I got up. I didn’t expect that she had become so thin. She was lying quietly in my arms, with a relieved smile on her bloodless face.

I felt that I was about to be unable to catch her. I choked up and prayed to her in the most humble tone, hoping that she would open her eyes and look at me, instead of falling asleep without reacting like this. I need to take her to see a doctor. I want to keep her no matter what.

I walked on the road with her in my arms, and the cold wind and rain swept over us. The gradually weakening raindrops hit her face and wet her hair. The person in my arms seemed to hear my prayer, and her rain-stained eyelashes trembled gently, and she slowly opened her eyes.

The world outside was covered with dark clouds, and the light was not strong, but it still made her squint again, but soon she opened her eyes again, and her turbid and gloomy eyes burst out with a different kind of brilliance. I can feel that her vitality is accelerating, but I can’t do anything about it. There is no other effective way but to pray.

My eyes were firmly locked on her face. She smiled, and the curvature of the corners of her mouth was the same as in my memory, but her lips were no longer so rosy and healthy. She raised her head with effort and looked at the dark cloudy sky above our head. She looked at it for a long time, and I only saw her thin appearance.

“...Pierrot, today’s sky...isn’t it beautiful...isn’t it?”

Her dry lips muttered, and some words came out of her mouth intermittently and came into my ears. I don’t know how to respond to her. I can only silently hold her tighter and make her body gradually lose temperature closer to me.

She smiled and looked at me indifferently. I couldn’t feel her resentment and fear, but only her faint sadness. My young lady raised her hand with effort, her purple nails reached up, and the fishy blood flowed down her pale arms. She always kept smiling.

“...Perhaps, in fact, we can...”

Her hand fell down weakly and drooped silently two centimeters away from my face. She closed her eyes.

I don’t know when the dark clouds covering our heads have dissipated. The gloomy sky has changed. The beautiful and clear azure blue exudes a different kind of beauty. The collapsed sky has returned to its original position.

I stood in place for a long time until the dazzling sunlight shone on us, and the unique smell of the grass after the rain penetrated into my nose. I still stood there, holding my lady.

I really shouldn’t have done this...

July 15th Fog

I didn’t do anything wrong, and the development of things was completely in line with my expectations.

Today, the circus came to a brand-new city. My young lady chose to wander with me. Taking her away that night was the most correct decision I have ever made in my life.

At first, Jester did not agree to take a human with us, but after listening to my story, his eyes became much more complicated.

Jester’s eyes glanced past me and drifted behind me, where my young lady was hiding nervously. He was silent for a long time, and his eyes turned to me again. Finally, he only said one sentence:

“Whate it is, Pierrot.”

I was very happy that I could be with my lady forever. I looked at her with a smile and found that she was also looking at me with a smile.

My young lady and I are indeed a perfect match.

July 17th Rain

My lady always looks gentle and looks at me with a smile, but when my eyes fall on her, she mischieously avoids my gaze. I regard this as a small interest between us. Others will not understand, especially Harlequin. He often looked at me with ghostly eyes, as if I were a madman, but I didn’t care about his attitude towards me at all. As long as Harlequin, this disgusting slug, doesn’t peek at my lady, then I can regard him as air for the time being.

Although my lady has become much quieter recently, and the food I carefully prepared for her is rarely changed, I believe she loves me, but maybe she still needs more time. And I am a very patient hunter, and I am willing to wait for my prey to change hers mind.

Everything is going well.

July 18th Cloudy

Today, I brought back a very fresh bouquet of roses for her. I knelt on one knee and held the bouquet of dew in front of her. My lady smiled. She pointed to the vase on the bedside table and signaled me to put the roses there. I did.

She seems to like that bouquet very much. Maybe I can give her a different bouquet of flowers every day, so that I can see more of her smiles.

Everything is going well.

July 21t Sunny to cloudy

I rehearsed a new program. Although my lady lives with me now, I still hope she can go to see my performance. I will reserve the best viewing seat for her and let her enter with my exclusive ticket.

I told her what I thought and handed her a ticket. My lady tilted her head and looked at me. She nodded and agreed to go to see my performance tonight, but she didn’t take the ticket.

That’s right, my lady doesn’t need tickets anymore. It’s really unnecessary to do so.

But there was a little incident at night. The seat I reserved for her was robbed by a nasty middle-aged woman, and I didn’t see where my lady was. Is it because there are too many spectators under the stage?

But... Obviously, I could easily find my lady in a group of people before. Her unique temperament has always attracted me, just like a lamp in the dark night attracting moths, and I was willing to fall into that fatal trap.

I was very angry, so I went to question Ticket Taker. It’s his job to check tickets and guide the audience to enter, and I don’t think he will not know the relationship between me and my lady, so why did such a mistake happen?

After listening to all my complaints, the way he looked at me was strange, which made me feel similar to the way that Harlequin, the annoying guy, looked at me recently. I don’t understand why he did this.

Ticket Taker seemed to explain something to me, but he hesitated for a long time and didn’t say a word until Jester found out the dispute between us. Jester glanced at me, then looked at Ticket Taker and shook his head. I don’t know what agreement they reached behind my back, but Ticket Taker quickly apologized to me and said that he would reserve that position for me in the future.

I didn’t correct that his seat was reserved for “my lady”. Now I just want to find her quickly and see her gentle smile. I want to ask her if I have done something wrong recently, or why didn’t she come to see my performance?

…

I didn’t find her. Something was wrong.

July 24th Cloudy

She seems to be a little unhappy recently. Sometimes I can’t find my lady, which makes me a little uneasy, but I don’t know how to talk to her. I don’t object to her going out now. I just hope she can tell me where she went, so that I don’t look around for her like a headless fly.

In addition, Harlequin was even more annoying. He seemed to have found something interesting, with disgusting sarcasm on his face all day long. I’m too lazy to pay attention to him. Anyway, he is the only one who doesn’t provoke my lady, so I can consider a truce with him, and from now on, the well water will not violate the river water.

But what if the lady’s strangeness is caused by the shameless thing Harlequin? Could it be that he said something to the innocent lady while I was away? Or did he try to seduce her again?

His damn bastard! I need to talk to him.

“Huh? Don’t be kidding, Pierrot. I’m not interested in falling in love with someone who has died long ago, and I don’t have time to play boring fantasy games with you like them.

In the face of my questioning, Harlequin stared at me with contempt, still saying nothing good. This can’t be too difficult for him. After all, I know that a dog can’t spit ivory out of his mouth, but he can’t humiliate my lady!

How dare he curse my dearest lady for being a dead person?

I punched Harlequin hard and knocked him to the ground. Harlequin cursed loudly and fought with me unwillingly, and kept shouting those vicious curses.

I really want to kill him, this disgusting slug!

This time, Harlequin and I both almost fought to death. The action of the fight was to the flesh, and we were fighting with the idea of killing each other. Hearing the news, Jester separated us angrily. He looked at the black lines caused by me and Harlequin. He first stared at me and Harlequin separately, and then pulled the slug aside.

Jester was whispering to Harlequin. His voice was so small that I could only hear a few simple words, but those words scared me. My head began to hurt, as if something was about to come out of my head.

“...Can you not...excite...just follow him...”

I covered my head and slowly squatted down. I really wanted to hold my lady. Now only she can comfort me. But where did she go?

Why can’t I find her?

July 27th Rainy

I... got it...

Why is my young lady always smiling gently? Why does she always keep silent? Why has she never taken anything from my hand? Why will she never take out a bandage to bandage my wound again? Why...

…

Because she has been gone for a long time...

The companionship for more than ten days is the product of my imagination, which is my escape from reality.

Why is my lady always smiling gently? Because this is her last expression before her death, and it is also the clearest appearance of her in my memory.

Why does she always keep silent? Because I needed to keep silent in public, I also imposed this rule on her, even if she was just a illusory shadow of my fantasy. How funny! I haven’t found anything wrong. How could the once gentle, kind and lovely lady not talk to me for so long?

Unless... she is dead...

Why has she never taken something from my hand? Because I know that it is impossible for her in the fantasy to touch real objects, but I don’t want to admit it, so I direct and deceive myself - my lady just prefers to see me serving her.

…

I understand everything...

July 31 Sunny

This is probably my last diary... The following days are mostly tasteless, and there is no need to record them.

…

I don’t know what to write. That’s it...

…

I don’t like this ending...

Write in the front: emmmm an inexplicable little brain hole, I just want to express my love for the original author @nekoboydreams . I hope you don’t misunderstand me!!!

Maybe I can use it as a game publicity copy? I think this will definitely attract the attention of fans...If you don’t like it, please don‘t sue me.qwq……

That day, the teacher walked into the classroom with a serious look. He stared at us and asked loudly: "Everyone here, who plays the original version of" The Freak Circus "?"

I watched several classmates next to me raise their hands trembling.

Immediately, the teacher took out several darts and threw them at the students, causing watermelon juice to splash everywhere.

We were scared when the teacher said,"We received news that a sick clown enthusiast in our class had stolen a large number of pink tickets. Now I can only kill all the freaky circus fans in our class to prevent the disappearance of persons."

Amid panicked exclamations, the teacher continued: "I know that there must be more than those people in our class who were dating Pierrot online." The teacher leisurely paced to the front of the podium, and after a series of operations, projected high-definition photo photos of the five clowns onto the large multimedia screen.

My best friend couldn't help but shout:

"F * ck! It's Pierrot's innocent puppy! Harlequin, bad cat! Jester is the absolute owner! Ticket Taker and The Fifth Tall Man! HD photo! Even... Damn it! The last one is actually a high-definition photo of the original author!!!"

The teacher looked in the direction of the sound, laughed coldly, and took out a new dart from his arms. He raised his hand and killed my best friend on the spot. Then, the teacher seemed to think that the cleaning plan was proceeding too slowly. He directly took out the self-drawn line manuscript picture of the original author Neko, and then openly provoked:

"Neko is just an ordinary painter."

At this time, all the tfc enthusiasts in the class couldn't sit still and shouted that it was impossible,"Neko's drawing skills and creativity are obviously at the master's level..."

"That's just because you have vulgar taste and can't appreciate Neko!"

"People who don't understand Neko are destined to spend a failed life in the sewer."

......

The teacher's eyes turned cold. He quickly took out more darts from his arms and raised his hand to send these fanatical fans to the west.

At this time, I stood up and walked directly towards the teacher without fear.

"Teacher, you are the one who stole a large number of pink tickets. You stole pink tickets for your own selfish desires and openly used the rules of the circus to murder people. Not only that, you also intended to disrupt market prices and tried to steal special tickets for other members!"

The teacher looked panicked: "How, how did you know?!"

I walked towards him step by step. The teacher quickly pointed the sharp darts at me and threw out darts one after another. However, I easily avoided all the darts and came to him like a Superman.

The teacher was completely panicked. His face was ashen as he retreated and asked me: "This is impossible! How did you do it?"

I shook my head slightly."You shouldn't have slandered Neko."

I watched as the teacher lowered his head in collapse. He murmured to himself: "I'm sorry, I was wrong. I admit that Neko is the god among game creators and the big shot among big shots."

I nodded in satisfaction and activated the skill-a small cake with a knockout content of 99.99%, which transformed all the dying students on the ground into a coma. As long as they wait a little longer, when the medicine wears off, they can happily play the original version of "The Freak Circus" again.