그땐,

is there a way i can get in contact with kittebasu 😭 i want to make a crossfire audiobook and i wanna make sure its okay but i cant find any social media i know for sure is them. please i must make this a reality

attachment theory isn’t enough. i need someone to tell me what’s wrong with me then bang my head in with a rock

i clutch the teddy you got me to my chest and think of all the ways i let you know exactly what to do to make me feel loved and seen and about how you still chose to do none of it. you can cry on the phone, trigger that panic in me to immediately resolve it but when i cried directly in front of you, you made it clear my doing so was an inconvenience. it all was. an inconvenience. maybe one day i’ll actually shoot myself over this shit like i should’ve over 3 years ago. over 3 years of being your inconvenience

reading some of my random text posts i don’t remember making like “oh i exposed my heart a little too much with this one huh?”

i text her that i think it’s too late to go back to being friends and she says it isn’t. there’s always room for second chances but no there not. i may give one or she might but it will never change that the ocean of time won’t. what a joke. just let me mourn decisions passed