M Jawad Usman

Hiding from someone is a really easy thing, when we were younger you use to always win at these little games we played & I never said a thing. 

Now we are older & nothing's really changed, we don't play these games anymore but what's really strange is that you're still winning & I'm losing every day. 

 These days I can always find you, it's never been that hard, but you've always been so closed with me, like a book with two separate parts. I hope now we can be closer, more than we were before. 

 The only way this can happen is by opening the door, which has forever been in our way. I will try, try & try again to open it up, of this you can be sure. All I ask you to do is push from the other side, cos it's really lonely over here, on this side of the door.  So please open it and let me through cos I don't want to be frozen out anymore.

Don't know what I'd tell you if I passed you on the street. Don't know what I'd say cos you are all I need. How do I explain that every time you leave, my heart begins to slow down a little & really skips a beat?

I always feel better when I’m with you, even when we argue in the end we always pull through. This much is true we have different views but for me that’s no excuse, because one thing that will never change is my love for you. I’ve heard that God said everyone has been created in pairs, well I hope that I have been paired with you because you’re the only one who is able to breakthrough the walls I put up, like they aren’t even there. You know all my fears, you’ve always been there to get me through the tears. For this and every other moment we’ve shared, I thank you for always being there and handing me a tissue to show me how much you care. Thank you for being there with me during the sad times and moments of despair. The times when things weren’t clear to me at all, but you were always there. You know exactly what to say and do, therefore I know that I am better with you.  

It’s always good to tell the truth, this is something I thought you always would. It’s turns out you never could. I told you everything, but it turns out you never really cared about anything I shared with you. I told you my deepest fears, hoping that you would always be there, but you just stared straight through me like I was never really there. It’s like you don’t even care about those fifteen years we shared, will you just look straight past them too like they were never there? Whatever answer you give from now I don’t really care, you were the one I held most dear but now I fear you’ve changed into something I cannot bear. Just know I always saw you as someone to whom I could be most sincere, but it turns out you didn’t care about me and the things I held most dear. Now it’s clear to me that you’ve changed into something beyond repair, and I’ve been left behind with broken pieces of a friendship that was never really there. Whist everyone else is moving on with their lives know that I am left here, trying to pick up the pieces of a broken bond that was never really clear.

Hey you there, I never thought I would say this, but it seems to be so clear. I feel like if I don’t tell you now it would turn into something I eventually couldn’t bear. People say words, but they aren’t always sincere. But this is where I’m different from all the others out there. I want to tell you how I feel with a little honesty and flair. So, this is for you and no one else out there. Let me just start off by saying that you’re the only thing I need, honestly nobody else comes near. Because the connection I have with you is something so very rare. I know I’ve already said this, but I will always be there. Because living without you for me is just not something I couldn’t bear. Hopefully I don’t have to think about that ever, because we still have our entire lives together to share. It’s because of this I ask you not to despair over what people say or when they really glare. Those stupid people only do this because they’ve never declared love for anything more than a chair. This is why I’m writing this to tell you loud and clear, that you’re the only thing I need and certainly no one else comes near to what me and you have, because we are the perfect pair regardless of what you wear. I will always be there to wipe away those tears. For now, I pray that you and I live happy lives, ones with a lot of happiness and no fear. Because that’s the least you deserve as you’ve always been there. I hope from this poem I have made it very clear how much I love you and value what we share.

Didn't know our hearts spoke so fluently to each. A connection like the one we have cannot be taught, it is the most natural thing I've ever felt. You've stolen my heart, but this is no crime because a heart like yours should be next to mine. People care about money and cars, but nothing else matters to me when I look at you. I would climb mountains and tress for you and when I finally get to the top, the view would just be better with you. My legs cannot carry me that far, but they've carried me to the door of your heart. This is the best thing they have ever done. The rest is up to fate so let's just have fun. I tried to catch a star for you but it burned a hole in my hands. But then I realised that the biggest star was always there next to me. There are not enough words in the world to explain what you mean to me, so I'll just have to say you are the biggest blessing I've ever had and the best person I've ever known.