The Mental Case Files

I don't know why you thought that we are good You've never treated me the way you should And I've continued to have your whole back Now it's time to cash in the chips I stacked You don't know how to value someone's time You only know how to cross every line Cuz when I have to I defend myself So you can take the side of someone else I know you well enough you love a fight You've poked me for too long now I will bite So after all this time that I've been shunned You've earned it and I've only just begun The end is near you have dug your own grave I'm brave enough to watch you suffocate The realization as you gasp for air That for the first time it's me who's not there.

I've gotta figure out how to get off your lawn I'm stuck playing in sunflowers while the world goes on And I figured out what you meant when you said They only love your life when you end So I decided to decide about decisions long lost And I learned how emotional inflation drives up the cost Because I love that you love the same loves I love but How do I open all the doors you nailed shut? Sometimes you get lucky and find your peace in the land Once in awhile it'll hold your sweaty ass hand While you find your way through the sunflowers at night And you run through the grass using the moon for light But right now I guess I'm just talking to the clouds Keeping to myself and avoiding the crowds Maybe I don't know to which planet I belong But I'm gonna figure out how to get off your lawn.

I have faith the road is paved My heart’s never been enslaved To the point of no return I still have lessons to learn.

You really just don’t know How you betrayed me so Get ready to begin Game over bitch, I win.

When you feel so alone Like no one throws a bone Remember you have you And what you have to do Sometimes God takes away Those who aren't bound to stay Because they served their time And there's more hills to climb I guess I can't believe Words that are said to me People talk so much shit Most aren't aware of it This time I didn't run Collapsed and felt the sun I found entire peace But had to set it free I hope that it comes back And cures my cardiac Because entire peace Is something you can't see.

When nothing's left to gain And trustpicion remains Just like I knew it could Because I knew you would I thought you were for real You wouldn't try to steal The very best of me The part you couldn't see I'm not an afterthought The one that you forgot The one that always stayed Is now the one afraid To let you in the door Time to even the score I've come to take what's mine You're no longer my kind So after all you've done I am my number one You truly crossed a line And I will be just fine.

I never needed to Depend solely on you Now I've set myself free To be the best of me I can't believe you thought Something that I am not But although I'm not gone It's my way from now on I run my heart just fine Because it's half my mind With no place left to go There's only me to show What I can really do Whether you clap or boo Solitary confined All by myself to find A home not just four walls I admit to the fall Into the lions den Head first I did descend And now I'm almost out At first I had my doubts But I believe in me The way it's meant to be.

So I don’t open up Nope I’ll never open up Cuz once I did try to But now I refuse to.

Clenched from my thighs to knees I need to find release Wish I was in our bed My mouth around your head I close my eyes and dream Of you on top of me You moan? I do the same Only one word, your name The way you lick my soul Every drop in the bowl You leave me wanting more Fucking me til I'm sore Position 69 Or take me from behind Making love hard & deep There's no time left for sleep It's always multiple Your dick is culpable Parting my lips for thee Pour your love into me.

I almost called you just like everyday 300 times and 80 different ways But what if you refuse to talk to me My timing sucks, maybe you're too busy? I wear your clothes just like a second skin The essence of you deeply sinking in I miss the way you look into my eyes Why can't we find a way to compromise? You underestimate what you can take I know you're stronger than you guesstimate But complicate your life that's not my thing A queen should make life easy for her king I talk to God about you every night I always ask Him how to make this right Instead of silence overanalyzed Why don't we find a way to compromise?

Does it rain where you are When I cry myself to sleep Are you happier apart Than you ever were with me How can you say we're strangers When you orchestrated this? You're the master rearranger I was fine with wedded bliss I never wanted you to clam It was you who chose that life Drop your pride for once like damn I'm supposed to be your wife Isn't our communication The most important thing Remember the vacation You are still my everything.