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"please be kind to jeremy!!!" lol nah

For those interested, can I offer you Armies by Nekojita on ao3?

AS SOON AS I READ THE FIRST LINE I WAS LIKE ARMIES BY NEKOJITA((T_T))

I think if someone told Jean Moreau that he wasn’t allowed love after he was raped and beaten over wanting love because “he needs to heal first” he’d blow up the entire tri state area

>>> the perfect court the foxhole court the raven king the king's men the sunshine court the golden raven the broken cage >>> the queen's game

I can't stop thinking about Dark Heir and how Will was essentially rejected by everyone he cared about and even then when they were all accusing him of being the dark king he was still fighting, wracking his brain trying to figure out a plan to save everybody.

just a string of thoughts but james being raised as a steward to be Good and to be a Protector and to Defend and Remember and then the world throws him for a loop and for years he finds himself on the "bad side" and he's not even entirely on their side he's lying to everyone he knows in order to find the collar and prevent it from being put around his neck, fully on his own side and no one else's because no one else is on his side. in a way he's more of a betrayer than he was in his past life. betraying the light then betraying the dark then betraying the light then betraying the dark again. and then will comes and he gives him a choice, and james chooses to be good because that's all he wanted to be. but is he good? what good is he? it's too late to be a good steward. he can be a good mage? he can be a good weapon. a valuable asset. a useful Thing. he can never be a good person not good not a person. but then will says you're a protector. it's who you are. you're good and a person. and james even believes it for a few moments. and he's collared and he's an object again. and he might be bad morally but he's so loyal. so efficient. a good thing. and he betrays the light again. he makes me crazy

so interesting that will can't help himself from deceiving and using people like puppets even when he has good intentions. violet's escape has nothing to do with her own survival instincts and smarts and everything to do with him practically leading her out the front door. james can only preserve his autonomy bc will keeps him from knowing the truth, and even his free will is dubious at best. like that's such good characterization wtf

i really admire c.s. pacat's ability to write sexual tension and to create an erotic atmosphere, cause tell me WHY THE FUCK was i giggling and kicking my feet while will stabbed james with a unicorn horn and had his hand around his neck?????