Marauders as mitski songs
Hi! another one? yeah, but this time weāre here with my love regulus because i kin him and, honestly, i always want to talk about him
iām a little wary about this one
once again i must remind yāall that this is my own interpretation. especially since i kin this boy and that affects the way i think of him (am i projecting? probably) but at the same time i must say i donāt want to romantice the death eaters nor justify bigotry. i could make an entire post of my personal interpretation of regulus
not gonna lie, at first i thought about giving regulus āgoodbye my danish sweetheartā with the focus being, of course, his and siriusā relationship. and it may be because iām an only child, but i donāt really like how sometimes we reduce regulusā character to siriusā little brother, because he can be such an interesting character
anyways, i finally chose for him everyone, from lauren hell, a song which mitski defined as minimalistic - she actually made it when she didnāt had any instruments around!
letās go with regulus āeveryoneā black
(did i lose the chance to do regulus āeveryoneā black // sirius ānobodyā black parallel? yes, i will never recover)
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Everyone said, "Don't go that way"
So, of course, to that I said
"I think I'll go that way"
the song begins with this rebellion, the protagonists is going against everything their surroundings are telling them. thereās a certain cockiness to this decision, āso, of course, to that I saidā is telling us the protagonist usually does whatever they want.
this may no sound like regulus at first, i know, but itās because thereās been this weird babygirlfication of reggie, and i think yāall are forgetting this boy wanted to join the death eaters. iām not the one to take jk rowling seriously, but she had something to say about regulus. apparently, he "got in a little too deep... He was attracted to it, but the reality of what it meant was way too much to handle"
now, we can argue about what was regulus attracted to, but as a slytherin i will assume regulus was attracted to the power voldemort possessed. now, āthe reality of what it meant was way too much to handleā could be the fact that voldemort was actively making horrocruxes, but i would find it weird that someone could excuse a literal genocide but draw the line at immortality, so the reality of what it meant is probably more about the killing part.
now, you may be thinking āwhy would he join the death eaters if he couldnāt stand some death?ā well, growing up with that kind of family probably desensitized him to some extend. we canāt forget that this boy died at 18, he was barely a child when he joined the death eaters and he didnāt become active until 17.
regulus definitely wasnāt defying everyone when he joined the death eaters, but i like seeing it this way:
regulus was getting into so much danger by joining the dark lord, there would be probably people around him who were worried about him, he may have ignored them.
but there was one who tried harder than anyone. his brother. i will fight whoever i have to fight, but i wonāt believe that sirius let his little brother alone for a second while he could still look out for him. i wonāt believe he didnāt beg for reg to come with him, and i wonāt believe that even when he was disowned he didnāt ask for reg to not join the death eaters.
and, definitely, i wonāt believe that regulus didnāt care about sirius. everyone may had told regulus to join the death eaters, but the one regulus cared the most was telling him not to join them.
so, of course, he joined them.
And I left the door open to the dark
I said, "Come in, come in, whatever you are"
But it didn't want me yet
he joins at 16, quite a young age, yet nothing happens yet, heās not old enough after all
maybe he hanged around the future death eaters gang, and maybe he cursed some muggleborns, but he wasnāt active, all that once had screamed danger looked now stupid, after all, what had changed?
heās still far way from the reality of the situation, the dark didnāt want him yet
Then like a babe in a crib
After some big hand turns out the light
And I opened my arms wide to the dark
I said, "Take it all, whatever you want"
a babe in a crib is such a painful metaphor
babyās are supposed to be comfortable in a crib, happy,safe
when regulus had grown comfortable in that situation, he faced the reality, the violence, the death
his first reaction was probably to keep his posture and try to follow the others ātake it, whatever you wantā after all, regulus was active for a year, yet when he disappeared he had made enough of a reputation himself that people believed he was killed by voldemort. this boy was probably a menace.
I didn't know that I was young
I didn't know what it would take
I didn't know what it would take
this is the most painful part for me
āi didnāt know i was youngā
sometimes we like to think weāre so mature and so old only to find out years later we were only kids. i think of sixteen-year-old me and i canāt help but smile at the fact that i believed i was practically an adult, because i was a teenager and so young.
my memories are sweeter than regulusā, for sure, as he had joined a terrorist group, and he had probably sacrificed so much of his integrity in order to fit in.
the fact that āi didnāt know what it would takeā repeats twice makes me think thatās the breaking point of the protagonist, and regulus breaking point was voldemort hurting kreacher. for me, regulus probably had suspect about the horrocrux for a while until that confirms it
in that moment he makes the decision to end it all, and to redeem in his own twisted way
āSometimes I think I am freeā
the desire to redeem himself, the hope thereās something else for him, that he can do something better with his life
āUntil I find I'm back in line againā
life isnāt a fairytale, regulusā redemption stays between him and kreacher and his hopes evaporates as heās drowned by inferis. heās back in line, as he will be forever remembered as regulus black, the death eater.
or, well, kreacher doesnāt die there, and he lives long enough to clean regulusā name
āFight! Fight! Fight for my master, defender of house-elves! Fight the Dark Lord, in the name of brave Regulus! Fight!ā
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itās interesting to say that before weāve talked about the āAfter some big hand turns out the lightā part, and it can be interpreted both as the reality of what joining the dark lord meant and being dragged by the inferis.
iāve been missing for a while, i know, but right now iām about to face one of my countryās most difficult exams and iām in the excellency program, so i have little to no time left
i love regulus so much and i need more morally grey regulus fics, drop some recs if you know any please
yousharknotpass
origamiaround
2087
kianamaiart
stormborns
areudirty
