Mitsuki

In the first year on here, I was groomed by 7 different people, not including anons. I was a fool and I didn't know it wasn't safe or legal.

7 people.

Because of that, I'm hypersexual now. It's constant and ruins a lot of relationships. I also struggle horribly with boundaries.

And a great friend of mine, Lady Serenity/Lady Kenway always tried to protect me no matter who it was or what it was. And I thank her for that.

But when she was accused of grooming me (wrong person to accuse, bro), she had to deactivate her account. That sent me over the edge for the first time.

And that led to a year and a half long SH struggle that I'm finally overcoming. I'm over a month clean now, but it started with something that may seem small to others. In the process, I went to the psych ward twice. I had kept it hidden for almost a full year.

And after the first psych trip, I started realizing, SH isn't my only problem.

I recently figured out I probably have an ED, amongst other things I'm not ready to share.

But was I gonna tell anyone? No.

I lost 20 pounds in a week before someone noticed. My boyfriend whom I absolutely love talked with our best friend and they both came to the conclusion that something was going on. They tried to force me to eat but that made it worse. (They were trying to help)

I'm still fighting with that.

And to top it off, a toxic bio father. I won't go into detail about him. But imagine almost daily screaming matches and a short temper, especially when you're all stuck together, and you're doing online learning because of Covid so you're home all day long.

I'm in a good place now though. I stay with my grandparents. I never have to see him. I've blocked the groomers. I've been able to take baths again without hurting myself. And I'm trying to work on not letting my ED take control.