Poet_Uninspired

My body ails

Instead my silence lay witness to my sufferings

There is no escaping trials, one after the other

Thus I bear with it and push on to the future

There is no sense avoiding, might as well soldier on

One step, a second, a minute at a time

We will survive.

Instead of “how are you?”

“My beloved, stay sturdy and strong.

I am here going through life too

Do I think that fate is through with us? I dunno

All I know is that, I need to persevere and reach you

For with you is my destination

With you start my new life.

My beloved, you will not die young.

I’ve paid fate to let you live.

For you to pursue what you were meant to have eons ago

Im sorry for your suffering that knowing me from before caused you

Live life to the fullest, my Love.

Please find me if you can

If you can

If you want to

They are slowly piecing themselves together

Why the pain?

Can we not separate the good ones from the bad?

I want more of the good memories

Create more with you in this lifetime.

Find me? Have you? I have seen your aura but

Too hard to reach…. So hard.

You are untouchable

Come now and be with me please.

Come find me….

I want to be close to a warm body that is yours

To be embraced like there is no more time left

I want to be engulfed in your arms and smell your natural scent

Be inside the cocoon of your warmth and scent

I would be safe, I know I will be. I need that today.

Before I disappear again

“Mahal kita” ng labis

Ang makita ka ang nais

My patients are fine and takes most of what I can offer.

At every visit I leave something for them until I come again

Im so exhausted thats why I need to charge every day off.

How are you?

I hope you are fairing better than me

I miss you.

Ill be strong, its just that my fear of driving is keeping me stuck

Ill get the best of me , I promise

Take care.

And no. Im not happy. I try but no.

I try to be contented, I really do.

It is easy to pretend when I am empty inside

I can just lie, a little smile goes a long way

I can never trully happy when you are not here.

These are just illusions I make up to say im alive

I live in a world of a make believe that people see

My reality is you and me in one place, one time

Me touching you and be held in your arms.

I really question why is life like this but I need to live

To live and see you face to face.

Please please I can barely hold on

Come find me. I long for you.

Ive been empty for a long time, shah

You said you will come for me. Look for me.

Its been a long time. Come for me please

Soon I hope. I dont want to waste another lifetime

Without you and me together.

Just you and I.

Shah, te amo.

What if I dont succeed in getting over my trauma

What if I get lost for Im not go with navigation

What if im not good enough of a nurse to keep my patients comfortable

What if I cant establish rapport with my patients