Escapism.

who wouldve thought that a year after marriage, id come back here often.

ghazlan finally secured a new job which requires him to be working until 9pm 5 days a week. i guess one year of always being together makes me feel lonely as soon as he started his new job. i'm always alone nowadays, sometimes it scares me that my head speaks louder than my voice. i am still trying to cope with things. still adjusting to this new journey. i hope i find a new hobby or maybe i can go back to painting. i just dont know.

Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan, diberi keberkatan dan dipersiapkan diri untuk menjadi seorang isteri yang baik. Semoga Allah memberkati, memperbetulkan niat untuk kahwin.

Honestly I am excited for the ceremony but thinking the post-ceremony life is quite frightening because there will be many challenges in marriage. I hope we will make it.