same old me again today

It's how Tanrak was just going to tear out the pages, and then he freaked out and grabbed the lighter and the whole book, then he ULTRA freaked out and grabbed every single scrap relating to Barth's presence in his life, INCLUDING THE FLOWERS. NOBODY WOULD HAVE SUSPECTED THE FLOWERS. BUT HE BURNED THEM ANYWAY 😭. He really wanted to remove every trace, like he wanted to burn Barth out of his heart altogether. But even reducing that all to ash left a stain, left evidence, left a reminder. He burned it all but he couldn't erase it.

I had forgotten 2 whole pics (!!), so letting it go another round.

I remain convinced that this series doesn’t end with Tanrak getting ordained. And it’s not because this is a GMMTV show. It’s because I just don’t believe that this is a story of a young man realizing his queerness, experiencing queer joy, and then repressing it to join the priesthood. I think it’s a story of finding the courage to step outside of something that has provided a strong sense of comfort and safety. Of finding the courage to rethink your belief system, and the grief that comes with that. And of choosing a life of love and joy, as opposed to the promise of an afterlife of love and joy.