Days before a traumatic event in my family i had nightmares where i found myself in a position of caring for someone close to me. I'm now in a space where i have to be a support for someone. The person who visited my dream was someone who i hadn't been able to support when she was still here, i feel like she was pushing me towards the person that i can become.

it's my birthday month! :)

I remember youtube-to-mp3-ing this album to my phone as a teenager. After school, when i'd find myself home alone, i would lay flat on the floor of our living room "Through the Night" blasting, reaching for comfort.

I didn't really get what was happening to me at the time. Overwhelmingly, what i carried on from that point has been the weight of feeling incapable, Like I'd been placed in a life that i would never be ready for.

it wasn't until my birthday last year where i began to recognize and acknowledge myself. The day was spent alone, comfortably and by choice, doing things that i liked. The evening was spent with people i loved in a space where i allowed them to love me.