Makeup and hate

I am slightly overweight by times. I eat healthy, work out and take care of myself. I am tall and chubby. So whenever I go to a food place and buy myself food outside, people will look at me disgusted, sometimes comment or whisper something to their friend. I am a girl who is 1,82m tall and my measurments are 104/76/106 not something you would call obese, huh?

And still while not being morbid obese, people get angry at me being hungry. Can you believe it?! Strangers, people I haven’t seen even once in my life, who don’t know any aspect of my life, will be assholes to me because I DARE TO EAT A BURGER OR ANYTHING THAT ISNT A SALAD!

When I go shopping for clothes, salesclerks are always watching “thicker” ladies. They will come to you and tell you that “this size isn’t yours you would rip it” and check after you try something on, if it’s really ripped. Those women are schooled to behave like this. They get told that they should check on big women. Once I got myself a top that was an M and I saw that my breast area would fit in perfectly, while I wouldn’t have to deal with too much space on my stomach. I had to deal with an anooying salesclerk that told me to put on an L at least. In the end the M fit me perfectly and she looked pretty pissed off.

When outside, drinking with friends or going to a disco or something, people will laugh about fat girls. They will take pictures or videos to show their friends so they can laugh about this human being too.

When you get sick, they will tell you that it’s because you’re thick.

If you can’t do crazy athletic shit that even skinny people sometimes can’t do, they will blame your fat on it.

If you’re fat because you’re sick (I dare anyone to say that this isn’t true I will throw medical books at you ffs) then your sickness is just an excuse for being lazy.

If you work out, eat very healthy and can’t lose weight, it’s you lying and munching on sweets when nobody looks. 

So now..once again.. when exactly did this all happen to skinny people? 

When I was really skinny, all I got was a comment every now and then about how skinny I am and that I should eat.

Now that I am chubby, people will try to hurt me with all they have. They will try to break me for being not skinny. They will be angry at me for going out shopping, for eating, for drinking, for having fun. 

SO FUCK NO, BEING SKINNY IS NOT WORSE THAN BEING FAT!!!!!

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Ok so I was a bit worried about the way my own biological father looks at me and I thought it was so bazar that I always even end up crying and it seems I’m really not the only one. and then after searching for so long, this is how they put it, “she is like my wife but 25 years younger, ofcourse it’s normal” 

men are terrifying, like I wish I could say this is so completely un normal, but how many times do you hear about fathers and step fathers sexually abuse their daughters. like I can’t help but wonder how many just simply don’t act on their thoughts like this guy but still have it in their heads.

and he worst part is, this doesn’t happen when the girl is like an adult, it happens when she is begining or is hitting puberty.