Ā Ā Ā perhaps from a third perspective, one would think he handles her too roughly ā so hostile, so annoyed at the sight of her here. clicking his tongue when she takes too long to answer, soĀ aggressive.Ā her neighbors had mentioned their concerns once or twice after a few noise complaintsā jade was a quiet neighbor, so it was a cause for concern to see an assertive young man showing up in the middle of the night, banging on her door until she answered, pushing himself inside her apartment and spitting venomous things at first sight. but thereās no malice behind his actions, no real animosity. he might have grabbed her wrists, but heās gentle when he lets goā tells her that worrying is unnecessary, stupid. though she doesnāt miss how quick he is to reassure her in his own way, mentioning that the cause of his wounds are from a recent match. sheās relieved to see he hadnāt been involved in some random scuffle, but she still worries her bottom lip between her teeth.Ā ā i didnāt think you had one tonight.. ā she admits quietly, locking up the door as he passes by her and heads towards the couch. heās unsteady, but able to make it to his usual spot. their usual spot. but not before shouting into the empty space that heās here to stay for the nightā that whoever is here can rot the rest of the evening away in their hiding spot. no one replies, as expected, because no one ever keeps her company at night like this. only youāre here. itās only ever you.Ā she thinks as his voice bounces off the walls, taking the opportunity to retrieve the first aid kit from underneath the sink in the bathroom, damp wash cloth in tow as she returns to the living room a heartbeat later.Ā ā no oneās here. itās just me and you. ā she reassures him softly, or at least tries toā finds her place by his side on the couch, close enough to touch, warmth from one another mingling. her hands busy themselves with the lock on the first aid kit before retrieving one of the many hair ties she keeps in there.Ā ā iām sorry.Ā ā she apologizes the second he mentions her taking too longā stretching her frame up as his head tilts, running her hands through his locks and gently pushing the hair from his face so she can tie it and survey his injuries properly. ā .. i must have fallen asleep while editing, so i didnāt know what was happening. ā her hands linger for a second longer than necessary before sheās securing his bangs with the hair tie and pulling away slightly, sheepish with tinted cheeks at her admission.Ā ā i .. was startledā erm, so it.. took me a second to realize what was going on. ā
Ā Ā Ā itĀ takesĀ himĀ TOOĀ LONGĀ toĀ warmĀ upĀ toĀ someoneĀ andĀ jade,Ā havingĀ beenĀ consistentĀ inĀ hisĀ lifeĀ forĀ aĀ while,Ā knowsĀ itĀ tooĀ wellĀ asĀ well.Ā itāsĀ bothĀ aĀ CURSEĀ andĀ aĀ BLESSINGĀ howĀ wellĀ sheĀ knowsĀ him,Ā howĀ sheĀ justĀ takesĀ hisĀ blowsĀ andĀ holdsĀ forĀ theĀ underlyingĀ kindnessĀ inside.Ā alexĀ knowsĀ wayĀ tooĀ wellĀ toĀ holdĀ himselfĀ out,Ā throwĀ knifesĀ andĀ blowĀ slursĀ inĀ allĀ directionsĀ toĀ avoidĀ closeness,Ā becauseĀ thoseĀ closeĀ areĀ theĀ onesĀ whoĀ stabĀ theĀ hardest,Ā butĀ inĀ thoseĀ momentsĀ withĀ jade,Ā heĀ feltĀ almostĀ whole,Ā almostĀ secure.Ā everything snappedĀ backĀ intoĀ realityĀ whenĀ heĀ wokeĀ up,Ā butĀ theĀ kindĀ memoriesĀ burnedĀ inĀ hisĀ mindĀ untilĀ itĀ happenedĀ again.Ā theĀ quietness,Ā theĀ lowĀ lights,Ā theĀ wayĀ herĀ gentleĀ handsĀ runĀ throughĀ hisĀ messyĀ locksĀ toĀ pullĀ themĀ outĀ ofĀ hisĀ face;Ā heĀ wantsĀ moreĀ ofĀ that,Ā heĀ wantsĀ thoseĀ gentlyĀ fingersĀ toĀ runĀ throughĀ hisĀ headĀ someĀ moreĀ Ā āĀ Ā Ā SCAREDĀ ?Ā stupidĀ girlĀ ...Ā Ā Ā āĀ heĀ mumbles,Ā butĀ stillĀ awareĀ howĀ scaryĀ sheĀ hadĀ mustĀ feltĀ whenĀ heĀ bangedĀ theĀ door.Ā evenĀ underĀ theĀ influence,Ā heĀ triesĀ toĀ pullĀ himselfĀ outĀ ofĀ itĀ butĀ again,Ā beforeĀ heĀ couldĀ sayĀ anythingĀ else,Ā theĀ movementĀ stopped,Ā replacedĀ byĀ theĀ damp,Ā warmĀ towelĀ andĀ heĀ sighsĀ outĀ inĀ frustration:Ā itāsĀ notĀ thisĀ heĀ wants,Ā whyĀ isĀ itĀ soĀ hardĀ toĀ understandĀ ?Ā still,Ā hisĀ eyesĀ remainĀ shutĀ andĀ his movementsĀ toĀ theĀ minimum.Ā itĀ hurts,Ā butĀ maybeĀ notĀ asĀ muchĀ asĀ theĀ actualĀ match.Ā hisĀ handĀ gentlyĀ rubsĀ againstĀ herĀ leg,Ā maybeĀ reassuringĀ her,Ā maybeĀ reassuringĀ himself;Ā heāsĀ notĀ sure.
Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā YOUĀ SERIOUSLYĀ NEEDĀ TOĀ STARTĀ SLEEPINGĀ EARLIER.Ā thenĀ iĀ wonātĀ haveĀ toĀ doĀ coffeeĀ inĀ theĀ morningĀ forĀ you.Ā Ā Ā āĀ heĀ reallyĀ doesnātĀ mind,Ā heĀ reallyĀ doesnāt.Ā makingĀ smallĀ thingsĀ forĀ herĀ pleasesĀ him,Ā butĀ heĀ canātĀ letĀ himselfĀ believeĀ it.Ā doingĀ anythingĀ remotelyĀ niceĀ justĀ toĀ beĀ niceĀ meantĀ weaknessĀ andĀ heĀ wasnātĀ goingĀ backĀ toĀ it.Ā jadeĀ couldĀ seemĀ niceĀ andĀ sweetĀ andĀ maybeĀ aĀ littleĀ bitĀ tooĀ naive,Ā butĀ heĀ knowsĀ sheĀ couldĀ beĀ pretendingĀ Ā āĀ Ā Ā YEAH,Ā itĀ wasĀ toĀ makeĀ myĀ managerĀ happyĀ beforeĀ weĀ wentĀ onĀ theĀ trip.Ā probablyĀ willĀ haveĀ aĀ fewĀ moreĀ matchesĀ onĀ theĀ road,Ā butĀ weāllĀ see.Ā Ā Ā āĀ heĀ keepsĀ mumbling,Ā keepingĀ hisĀ handĀ onĀ herĀ legĀ andĀ sheĀ gentlyĀ tendsĀ forĀ hisĀ wounds.Ā heĀ usedĀ toĀ doĀ this.Ā nowĀ ?Ā everythingĀ seemedĀ broken.Ā slowlyĀ andĀ onceĀ more,Ā hisĀ wallsĀ startedĀ toĀ crumbleĀ slowlyĀ aroundĀ herĀ andĀ heĀ canātĀ helpĀ himselfĀ butĀ letĀ hisĀ armĀ gentlyĀ surroundĀ herĀ waistĀ toĀ pullĀ herĀ toĀ hisĀ sideĀ Ā āĀ Ā Ā IFĀ IĀ KNEWĀ YOUāDĀ BEĀ UP,Ā iĀ wouldāveĀ invitedĀ you.Ā alas.Ā donātĀ editĀ soĀ lateĀ ...Ā itĀ isnātĀ goodĀ forĀ yourĀ schedule.Ā Ā Ā āĀ heĀ mumbles,Ā tiltingĀ hisĀ headĀ towardsĀ herĀ andĀ openingĀ hisĀ foggedĀ eyesĀ toĀ lookĀ atĀ herĀ Ā āĀ Ā Ā CANĀ YOUĀ DOĀ THATĀ FORĀ MEĀ ?Ā ...Ā sillyĀ ...Ā woman,Ā god.Ā Ā Ā ā
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