Miranda the Bar Prepper

today’s cafe session after gym. it was a cloudy, warm day!! ahhh I loved every bit of it. I walked my dog when I got home and I’ll just wash up before I have to study again.

yesterday, I was feeling really anxious about next week’s major exams so my beau took me out to watch a movie (amsterdam! I loved it even though it got dragging at some point) and a late lunch/early dinner. I went home after and had a productive study sesh with my peers until 1 in the morning and turned in.

Monday, the 26th of September

I am back home now and I don't feel too well. I am in a weird headspace, furthered by the anxiety of my own writing goals for the next few days but I'll get through that! At the end of the day my writing can never be worse than blank pages.

This morning I already had a lovely phone call with my closest friend and my dog has been in a very cuddly mood as well.

6 o'clock reflection: after a very time consuming and mentally challenging meeting I went to lunch and allowed myself an anxiety and anti-cold nap. I didn't set an alarm, knowing that my nervousness would spike if I awoke solely to work on my to-do list. For two hours I slept in peace before making myself a cup of tea and doing some focus exercises. It was the best decision for me and I know, I wouldn't have allowed myself to rest just a couple of months ago but would have sat in my anxiety for hours, unable to get anything done. Now I am in a good writing process. It reassures me that giving myself space for mental health brings the best results in the end.

Studying

Meeting at 10 o'clock

Finishing reflection pieces

Write 4 pages of my term paper

Good afternoon!

How have you been doing?

I have spent my day very literature immersed, analysing some Wordsworth poetry (because poetry is, most definitely, my weakest genre so I’m resolved to practice it more) and reading. I’m already 75% through Crime and Punishment, although I have to admit that I’m not enjoying it that much. Have you read it? Tell me about it!

18/100

21st September 2020

Another day, another draft of my fourth chapter. I just can't seem to get this chapter to work even though I know it should. At least I had homemade pear and toffee muffins for breakfast.

18/09/20

it’s been a while since my last original post, so here’s an almost identical picture to my last ones as well as an out of focus ‘selfie’ from the one and only colonel mcfluffikins

sending lots of love 💛

stay safe,

lily x

19.09.20 | 1/56 days of productivity

thursday, 28 december — studying for finals and journaling, trying my best to enjoy the little things and start living without over thinking for everything.