A Special Little Sky (Commission)
Got commissioned to write some Keys stuff so you know I had to! This one is specifically sort of a mini Keys prequel of sorts, all about Sora's dad Tsuki noticing how his son is just a little... different. :3 I had a lot of fun working on it, I love writing baby Sora and also Tsuki and Himari back before this tiny little family was so cruelly torn apart. Enjoy!
There are times, so many times, when Tsuki wishes his mother were still alive, that his father had actually been a father. That he had someone to teach him how to be a proper parent long before he actually became one. Maybe if he had, heâd feel a little more steady. Maybe if he had, he wouldnât feel like heâs making one mistake after the other.Â
But even then, heâs not so sure anyone could have prepared him to bring up a son as⌠special as Sora.Â
At only four, Soraâs heart is as big and bright as the sky he was named for. Heâs curious, cheerful, compassionateâall qualities Tsuki is sure he gets from Himari instead of him. And heâs just fine with that, content to let his sun and his sky fill his life with the kind of love and light heâs always longed for.Â
But there are some days when that sky doesnât shine as brightly as it should.Â
Tsuki doesnât think much of it at first. It must be a coincidence when it starts to rain just as Sora runs home, crying from a scraped knee. It must be a coincidence when a thunderstorm starts one night, only after Sora climbs into bed with his parents after a particularly scary nightmare.Â
It must be a coincidence that the night sky, the moon especially, always seems just a little bit brighter whenever Sora is staring up at it.Â
It only stops being a coincidence when Tsuki finally realizes heâs been keeping count. He finds himself paying closer attention to his sonâs mood and whatever weather might come along with it. He isnât really sure what theory heâs even trying to prove, or what will happen if that theory is proven right. But he does pay closer attention than usual when he comes home from work one crisp fall evening without a single cloud in the sky. He pays closer attention than usual when Sora comes rushing downstairs, tears in his eyes and a broken toy in his hands. And he pays closer attention than usual when he looks outside and sees a steady shower soaking the shore, with rain that almost seems to fall in perfect time with his sonâs tears.Â
âThatâs so strange, isnât it?â he asks Himari as they get ready for bed that night. Or rather, as Himari climbs into bed to watch her husband restlessly pace in front of it. âItâs not the first time Iâve noticed it either. Itâs like the weather just⌠follows his mood sometimes. When heâs happy, the sunâs as bright as it can be, when heâs sad, it rains, when heâs angry or afraid, it storms. I have no idea what to think of it.â
âI know what I think,â Himari offers him a playful grin. âI think youâve completely lost it.â
âIâm serious, Mari!â Tsuki protests. âIt happens way too often for it to just be a coincidence. Thereâs gotta be some sort of connection hereâI just⌠donât know what.â
Himari canât help but let out a small, good-natured laugh as she rises out of bed to pause his pacing. âThere is no connection here, Ki,â she assures, taking his hands in hers. âSora isnât secretly controlling the weather with his emotions. Heâs a perfectly normal kid.â
âPerfectly normalâŚâ Tsuki echoes, wanting to believe that. And yetâŚÂ Â
He only continues to see so much evidence that he isnât.Â
To his credit, Tsuki tries to put his suspicions about the weather aside. He doesnât want to trouble his wife with it any further, doesnât know how to even begin asking Sora. So he lets it go for the time being. At least until something just as strange happens only a few weeks later.Â
Tsuki is just about finished fixing the mailbox when he hears his sonâs cry ring through the air. He glances up to see Sora running from around the far side of the house where heâd been playing. A deeply worried look fills his face as he carries something carefully in his hands.Â
âHey there, kiddo,â Tsuki offers him a smile all the same. âWhatâs got you so worked up? And what do you have there?â
Sora doesnât hesitate to open his hands up to show him. A very small bird rests in his palms, one of its wings awkwardly bent as it feebly chirps in pain. âI found him in the bushes âround back,â Sora devoutly reports. âHeâs hurt real bad. Can we help him, Daddy? Please?â
âOh noâŚâ Tsuki kneels down to get a better look at the bird. Thereâs no way to know what happened to it, but whatever it was, it wasnât good. With its wing broken that badly, it wonât be flying anytime soon. And if it canât fly⌠there isnât much of a chance that itâll survive on its own. Not that he dares to tell his expectant, innocent son that.Â
âWell,â he says instead. âWe sure can try to help it. But itâs gonna be a lot of work to get this little fella back on his wings again. Are you sure youâre up to it?â
Sora nods as if heâs answering the most important question in the entire world. âAnything to help Mr. Bird feel better!âÂ
Tsuki lets Sora lead the way inside so they can convene with Himari on what to do next. Between the three of them, they get the poor bird set up in a fairly comfortable shoebox, complete with plenty of water and birdseed and even a makeshift splint for its wing. Sora insists upon the bird staying in his room for the night, something Tsuki and Himari allow as long as he promises not to bother it while it's trying to rest. A promise Tsuki catches Sora breaking almost immediately.Â
He heads upstairs to tuck Sora in for the night, only to find Sora in the middle of already doing just that for the bird. He hovers over it, a soft smile on his face as he sings his favorite lullaby as best he canâas fractured and out of tune as it might be. And even stranger yet, the bird looks like it's intently listening to every last word of it.Â
âThe sun, moon, nâ stars are why-â
âWe like lookinâ at the sky-â
âLook up there and youâll see-â
âA long, long chain ofâum⌠oh, right! Memory-â
âSora, what are you doing?â Tsuki finally speaks up from his spot in the doorframe.Â
âSinging Mr. Bird to sleep!â Sora exclaims, as if it's obvious. âThe lullâby always makes me feel better when Iâm feeling sad, so itâll make him feel better too!â
âI like the idea, but I think itâs gonna take a little more than a song to get, uh, âMr. Birdâ feeling his best again,â Tsuki grins as he steps in to properly usher Sora to bed. âI know you want to help him, but youâve gotta be patient, ok, kiddo? Like I said, itâs gonna take some time for him to heal up all the way.â
âAw, but I want him to be all better now!â Sora pouts.Â
âAnd as long as you take good care of him, then he will in no time,â Tsuki assures as he tucks him in. He sings their lullaby, just as he does every night, and Sora loudly sings alongâmore for the birdâs sake than his own. Tsuki canât help but glance over at the bird, noticing that its sights are strangely set solely on Sora alone. And on Sora they stay, even as Tsuki switches the lights off and heads out to let his son sleep.Â
âHuh,â he muses to himself as he shuts the door behind him. âStrange little fellaâŚâ
Whether heâs talking about the bird or his own son, Tsuki himself isnât even sure .
A sudden shriek starkly wakes Tsuki and Himari the next morning. In an instant, theyâre up and rushing down the hall to their sonâs room, terrified by what they might find. And yet⌠what they do find is just about the last thing they could have ever expected.Â
Sora is indeed squealing, but out of joy instead of fear or pain. He laughs, clapping his hands in delight as he chases the bird around his bedroom. The bird who is somehow flying as if its wing had never been hurt at all.Â
âMommy! Daddy! Look!â Sora points up at his new friend, beaming. âMr. Bird is all better!â
âAlready?â Himari asks, bewildered.
âB-but itâs only been one night,â Tsuki frowns as he steps into the room. He tries wrangling the bird down to his level to make sure, but itâs far too quick for him to catch. If that isnât a sign that itâs made a full recovery, he doesnât know what is.Â
âItâs just like you said, Daddy!â Sora pipes up. âI took suuuuuper good care of him and it made him better in no time!â
âW-well, yeah, but I didnât think itâd be this fastâŚâ Tsuki mutters, exchanging a confused glance with his wife.Â
Still, Himari can only shrug as she shares her sonâs smile. âI guess we have a real miracle on our hands here.â
âWhatâs a miracle?â Sora tilts his head, curious.Â
âSomething very special that canât really be explained,â Himari leans down to his level, playfully tapping him on the nose. âSort of like you, my little sky.â
âA miracleâŚâ Tsuki echoes in a whisper. His gaze is set solely on his son the same way the birdâs is as it comes to land on his outstretched hand, perfectly content to be as close to him as possible.Â
âNow that Mr. Bird is all better,â Himari heads over to the window. âIt's time to let him go so he can go back to his family. I donât think heâd be very happy staying cooped up in here all the time.â
âAw⌠Ok,â Sora heaves a sad sigh as he joins his mother at the window. âGoodbye, Mr. Bird!â He still smiles as the bird takes flight to the clear morning skies. âIâm so glad I got to help you!âÂ
While Sora and Himari continue bidding their âguestâ a fond farewell, Tsuki can only continue staring at his son, so filled with care and compassion for even the tiniest, frailest creatures of all. His son, so eager to help anyone he can however he can. His son, who somehow healed a bird's broken wing in mere hours alone.Â
His son⌠who might just be a miracle unlike any ever seen before.Â
Himari simply shrugs it off, chalking it up to the bird not being as badly hurt as they first thought. But Tsuki canât help but think thereâs more to it than that. Much more. He isnât really sure who else to go to. The last thing he wants is Himari thinking heâs crazy, even if thatâs how heâs been feeling lately. Himariâs parents would probably think the same thing if he told them. His own father, so mysterious and so well-traveled, might somehow know something⌠but Tsuki puts the thought out of his head as soon as it enters it. He doesnât know where his father is these days, hasnât seen him in years and doesnât care to either. And he certainly doesnât want Sora anywhere near him either.
So instead, Tsuki decides to get an outsiderâs perspective. A few days later, he takes Sora a few doors down to spend the afternoon playing with Riku. And as he and Rikuâs father sit on the porch to watch their boys chase each other around, Tsuki happens to bring the subject up.Â
âAnd it was perfectly healed!â Tsuki finishes telling the story, still beside himself by how impossible it seems. âThat sort of thing doesnât just happen, Daichi! I know Sora had something to do with it, I just⌠donât know what.â
Daichi eyes him curiously, the same way Himari did when he brought up his concerns about the weather. Tsuki canât really blame him for it either; he knows just how out there it all must sound. If anything, heâs lucky his friend hasnât broken down laughing in his face.Â
âTsuki,â Daichi offers him a knowing smirk. âDo you really think your boy is some sort of magical miracle child?â
âI⌠I donâtâI mean⌠maybe?â Tsuki shrugs, confounded. âI just canât shake the feeling that something is⌠different about him⌠Something special.â
âEveryone thinks that about their own kid,â Daichi chuckles. âTrust me; Hana and I feel the same way about Riku. Everybody wants to think their little one is the brightest star in the sky. But at the end of the day, theyâre just kids. Special as can be in our eyes, sure, but⌠in the grand scheme of things? Usually not so muchâŚâ
Tsuki can only frown, unsure of what to say to that as he watches the boys play out in the yard. Itâs true; heâs always thought Sora was so very special, from the very moment he first held him in his arms. Itâs not an unusual feeling for any parent to have, just like Daichi said. And yet⌠what heâs noticed about Sora, what heâs seen and heard⌠it all goes beyond that. Far beyond.Â
Heâs so lost in thought that he almost doesnât catch the moment the laughter flowing freely between Sora and Riku suddenly starts to shift into something else entirely. âNo!â Sora shouts, throwing his wooden sword down onto the ground. âI donât wanna!âÂ
âSora-â Riku tries to reason, but Sora isnât having it.Â
âI said no!â Sora lashes out, outright shoving Riku straight to the ground. âI donât want to be the king!âÂ
âHey!â Tsuki shoots to his feet. Daichi is right behind him, hurrying to help Riku back up. To his credit, Riku doesnât cry; if anything, he can only stare at Sora, utterly shocked that he actually pushed him in the first place. Tsuki feels much of the same way. âSora, whyâd you do that?â he kneels down to his sonâs level. Sora scowls away from him, his face red as tears streak down it. âYou know better than to push anyone, especially not Riku. Heâs your best friend-â
âHe wanted to force me to be the king!â Sora stomps his foot down. âWe were playing knights and he said I had to be the king, but I donât want to be!âÂ
âWell, why not?â Tsuki asks, puzzled. âBeing a king isnât so badââ
âYes, it IS!â Sora practically screams. Try as he might, Tsuki canât ever remember seeing his son so mad, so furious. âBeing king is the worst! Itâs the most boringest thing ever! You canât go anywhere or talk to anybodyâall you ever do is sit around doing nothing! I HATE IT!âÂ
Sora looks like heâs nearly on the verge of pouncing on Riku all over again before Tsuki quickly scoops him up. Sora flails against him, still screaming and crying and Tsuki canât even begin to understand why. This hardly seems like the kind of disagreement that warrants such an intense reaction. A glance back at Daichi and Riku shows that theyâre every bit as bewildered as he is by it all.Â
âUm, I think Iâd better take him home for the night,â Tsuki tells them over Soraâs bitter sobs.Â
Daichi only nods a solemn farewell, hardly angry over Soraâs unexpected outburst. But Riku speaks up, worry all over his face as he says, âI-Iâm sorry, Sora.âÂ
Sora doesnât respond, doesnât even look Rikuâs way. Instead, he buries his face into his fatherâs shoulder and keeps on crying all the way home.Â
Normally, Tsuki would hand him off to Himari. Sheâs usually better at weathering whatever storms their son might face far better than he ever could. But something about what just happened has Tsuki wanting to handle this all on his own. For better or worse.Â
So instead of taking Sora inside, he carries him out to the beach behind their house. By now, the sun has set as the stars and moon show up to take its place. Soraâs still crying when Tsuki gently sets him down into the sand. He pulls his knees to his chest, sobs shaking his shoulders, even as Tsuki takes a seat next to him and pulls him into a loose embrace.Â
âWhatâs really the matter here, kiddo?â he asks softly, carefully. âWhatever it is, you can tell me. You know you can.â
âI already told you,â Sora spits between gritted teeth. âI. Donât. Want. To. Be. King.âÂ
âYou donât have to be,â Tsuki shakes his head. âItâs over now. Riku even said he was sorry for trying to force you. So why are you still so upset?âÂ
Sora is quiet for a long time. Tears are still in his eyes as he stares up at the night sky before he quietly, mournfully admits. âI donât knowâŚâ
Tsuki tries to think about how Himari would handle this, what kind of questions she would ask if she were sitting here instead. Even though her help is just a few steps away, he still wants to get to the bottom of thisâto help his son feel betterâall on his own. âCan you tell me a little more about how you're feeling right now, Sora? I want to understandât-to help you, if I can.â
Sora sniffles, though he doesnât stop crying. If anything, his tears only seem to flow even more under the pale glow of the full moon above. âI⌠I think somehinâs wrong with me, DaddyâŚâ he admits, his voice barely above a whisper.Â
âW-what do you mean?â Tsuki asks, already unnerved.Â
âI just⌠keep feeling so⌠sad all the timeâŚâ Sora leans a little closer into his embrace. âLike somethingâs missing⌠Or like Iâm missing someone⌠It hurts, like, um⌠right here,â he taps his chest, his heart. âIt hurt bad when Riku said I had to be the king. But it hurts the worst any time I look at the moon.â
âThe moon?â Tsuki follows his gaze up to it. Thereâs nothing out of the ordinary about it as it hangs high in the heavens, painting the shore in its gentle light. Tsuki was named for it, heâs always found comfort in it, always loved it. But his son somehow looks up at it, and feels nothing but pain instead.Â
âT-then donât look at it anymore,â Tsuki pulls him in to shield him from whatever might be causing him harm. And yet, Sora wiggles out of his hold, stumbling to his feet as he sets his sight on the moon, on the very source of his anguish, all over again.Â
âB-but I want toâŚâ he insists, taking a step closer to the sea, to the sky. âW-whoever Iâm missing⌠theyâre up there! I know they are!âÂ
âSora, that⌠doesnât make any sense,â Tsuki comes to stand by his side. âNo oneâs up there. Itâs just the moon. Thatâs all there is.âÂ
âNo, itâs not!â Sora protests, devout and distressed. âSomebodyâs up there! I can hear them! Theyâve talked to me!â
âThe moon⌠talked to you?â Tsuki raises an eyebrow. Only now does he start to suspect what might be going on here. Soraâs yet to have an imaginary friendâit was only a matter of time before he made one up. Still, finding an imaginary friend in the moon of all things is⌠unexpected, to say the least. Â
âYou donât believe me,â Sora frowns, kicking at the sand at his feet. âRiku didnât believe me eitherâŚâ
âNo, no! I believe you, kiddo,â Tsuki lightly ruffles his hair. âSo, what does, um⌠the moon tell you when it talks to you?â
âAll sorts of stuff,â Sora shifts his gaze back up to it. âI tell âem that I miss them, and they say they miss me too. And then, um⌠sometimes it talks about a door? And a key? I donât really get a lot of what it tells me⌠b-but I love it! I really do!âÂ
Sora shakes his head, deeply serious when he says, âItâs not the moon.âÂ
âOoooh, ok,â Tsuki pretends to understand. âSo if it isnât the moon, then who is it?â
For what feels like ages, Sora has no real answer. He loosely clutches his shirt over his heart, his eyes still wet with tears as he stares up at the moon. Or perhaps, at something else entirely. â...A friend,â he finally settles, finally smiling. âA friend I hope I get to see again soon.â
âI hope you do too,â Tsuki shares his sonâs smile, opening his arms up him. Sora bounds into his embrace, letting out a tired yawn as he lets his father carry him back towards the house. And as he does, Tsuki thinks little of the weather, of the bird, of kings or even of the moon. Instead, he thinks only of his son, his bright, beautiful, special little sky. He thinks of Sora, and how he still doesnât understand him in the slightest. But maybe he doesnât really need to. Maybe just being there for him is enough.Â
So Tsuki thinks of Sora as he carries him inside. And as he does, he doesnât see Soraâs eyes, empty voids of black and white, still focused on the moonâand only on the moon.Â
On his Heart hanging so high above his reach.Â