hi welcome to my blog :) i'm maeve! or you can call me mae for short. i'm 16, gay 🏳️🌈 and i go by they/she. (i tried a little they with my she and i ended up really liking it)
i'm a digital & traditional artist, and i will post my art on here occasionally!
some general interests of mine include: cartoons, music (mostly rock or indie rock), drawing, taking naps, crystals & anything whimsical
media i like: the amazing digital circus, splatoon (2 & 3), vast error, danganronpa, and deltarune, and just to name a few!
i'm homeschooled, so i have a hard time connecting with others... but PLEASE don't hesitate to reach out!
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i'm probably bisexual but i tell people i'm just queer because i genuinely don't see myself with in a guy. i'm not like that. i'm really not interested in them at all. in the past, i have experienced attraction to some. i feel like if i were to identify with a label other than something adjacent to bi, that i would be invalidating lesbians somehow.
luckily, i knew i was gay since i was around 11. even now is it that i'm questioning myself in this way. i thought i had it all figured out regarding sexuality but nooooo.
for the last few months, not knowing 100 gecs was a band, ive been saying "100 gecs" whenever i meant to say "lmao", "lol" and "lmfao" as a direct result of me misunderstanding this tweet.
my friends knew the band so they didnt have this misconception. and still they just kinda rolled with it??? like imagine something like your friend seemingly randomly saying the beatles, sometimes in all caps in the middle of their messages HELPP
i also thought the amount of "gecs" would change depending on how funny something was, so for example just sort of saying lol at the end of a message would be translated to about 20 gecs. a standard lmao would be about 60 gecs, and a proper LMFAOO was 100 gecs. i had a whole system
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I think if you understand TADC as a deeply personal and direct story centering on transness, emotional/self repression, the inner complexity of cruel people, ego, control, self-destructive tendencies, second chances, and what it means to live a meaningful life, all filtered through the core vision of one person, you'll find a raw expression of all those things, an experience being shared. You'll find a story that is consistent in its theme, subject matter, and quality throughout. Not something impossibly esoteric or flawlessly sophisticated, but a story that puts every piece it needs to into place. A story that completes itself, that says what it needs to and leaves a mark after it does.
Conversely, if you understand TADC as a story to take every single aspect, moment, outcome, and detail totally literally rather than in tandem with the thematic signficance it communicates. Or were looking for a more lore-driven story. Or were hoping for a more rounded exploration of its world and characters, a hollistic dive into the premise it sets up rather than a story barreling towards a specific end goal/a very pointed thematic stance. You're gonna end up disappointed with what you got.
And this is not a moral judgement, I don't think any expectation is at all more correct than another. I actually think my last point is probably even the most fair stance to have. Especially if you don't engage with any secondary material and just look at the show itself, since it doesn't totally establish Jax as a core focus until later in its run. Some storylines do feel very sidelined.
But if you view the show for what it was meant to be rather than what it was expected to be, I personally think it was rather beautiful. Not perfect, not the pinnacle of cinema, but as a trans woman, it was meaningful to me, dearly so. I feel like the standards its being held to aren't totally reasonable. I think it's a story that deserved to be told as it is, I think it's human.
many people are against the idea of jax being transgender. it is undeniable. you will especially see this on twitter and tiktok. i don't use tiktok anymore, but i've seen screenshots from the app.
one of the things i often see pointed out is that just because a male character lacks security in their masculinity, that it does not make them transfem. i totally agree! positive male representation showing that boys can be in touch with their feminine sides and it does not inherently mean something about their gender identity is entirely sensible.
it's called repression. i am not transgender. however, i know that feelings of internalized transmisogyny and repression are common amongst transgender individuals.
i could not possibly tell you all of the reasons why jax is transfem. there are several posts on the internet showing proof of this. considering that the amazing digital circus is often criticized for being "too on the nose," they act like jax being transfem is an outlandish thing to consider. they deliberately deny it. this makes me annoyed that it is not outright said. it should not have to be, but it adds to the plausible deniability people may have towards this aspect of her character. it's just so in your face, and i wish that people were more open minded.
idk how to finish off this post. if i have more to add, i will...
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this is my ranking on all of the episodes of the amazing digital circus... there wasn't any episode in the show that i outright disliked. i hope you guys like my way of ranking, lol
i'm not confident about the placement of the finale. i liked it for the most part. however, it would feel wrong placing it any higher
i have nobody else to talk to about this. i have SO much on my mind. it would make me very happy if somebody read this...
regarding the theatrical experience... it was fun. there was a decent number of people, and they were well behaved for the most part. i saw people with shirts, plushies, and a few cosplays related to tadc. i never had an experience like this watching a movie before. i really liked it, you could tell everybody was so passionate. we all clapped in the end, it was great!
i would rate the finale a solid 7/10. it was good for the most part, but i have my gripes with it. just so i don't make this post too long, i will share exactly what i liked and didn't like about the finale
(note: i will be using she/he on jax in case you get it confused)
the stuff i liked about the finale:
the scenes in jax's mind were fun. i feel like they really locked in with that part. seeing these different versions of her interact with each other was so fun. jax played daisy bell on the piano, which was a nice detail. the moment pomni finally gets to the real jax, it's already too late. it is one of the most heartbreaking scenes in the show. i was trying hard not to cry... you'll have to see it for yourself. that scene really did resonate with me, and i'm sure that it did for many others.
i love how gangle's feelings towards jax's abstraction was handled. she wasn't happy but she wasn't exactly upset. which is so very realistic. gangle is a victim, and jax has caused a lot of pain to her. i do love this writing decision. i am relieved they didn't go with the whole "the victim forgives the abuser because they are misunderstood" trope.
i also liked the stuff with the real-world versions of the cast. i'm still not fully sure how i feel on it, but i like the casting. i find it to be charming.
the voice acting was phenomenal as always.
although what i'm about to say contradicts what i say later in this post, it was adorable to see caine interact with the cast. it's bittersweet, and i like it.
also uh. ABSTRAGEDY SEX SCENE IN THE CREDITS!?!?!? the audience in my theatre literally cheered. we all yearn for abstragedy yuri and it shows. we also got ragapom which makes this even better
the stuff i didn't like about the finale:
the pacing seemed a little off ? other than the scene where we explore jax's mind, i feel like the rest of the finale had awkward pacing. it's kind of an issue.
i am conflicted on my feelings towards caine's return. i DO think there was a way that they could handle it properly. my issue lies in how it makes it so that episode 8 feels less impactful. i think if caine didn't return, it would make what kinger did feel more consequential. caine just sort of comes... back.
i don't LOVE how the stuff with ribbit was executed. this isn't actually an issue with the show itself. i think the stuff with ribbit was a bit overhyped. now, don't get me wrong, she's adorable, and i love her. she deserved better for sure... i'm just way more interested in the lore regarding c&a and how the circus came to be. i would feel less strongly about this if it didn't feel like ribbit and kaufmo existed solely to add to jax's character. it does not feel like they get to be characters outside of jax. we didn't even get to see much of kaufmo, unlike what i initially thought.
i love the scene with ribbit and jax inside ribbit's room despite this. it was super cute. seeing jax be so vulnerable with someone makes me feel things. ribbit placing her bow onto his ear was one of my favorite scenes in the finale. a sweet gesture, and it adds to the transfem jax implication. of course, it gets ruined because jax is such an idiot that she tells ribbit to act like it never happened. jax tells the rest of the cast that anything ribbit says about her is not true at all. essentially causing ribbit to be isolated from everyone else. in character? sure. did it leave a sour taste in my mouth? yes. idk... she didn't deserve what happened to her.
that's it for now! thanks for listening to me rant for a minute! i really needed to get this off my chest. i highly recommend watching it in theatres if you haven't already/if you're able to. i'm gonna go grab a box of tissues now.
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