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I haven’t used the app in like a year or 2 but I thought I might as well update it because I still love my blog,

I think I already addressed this, but broke up with my boyfriend of 6 years about 2 yrs ago 

Started working at a new job got a apartment with my best friend in pioneer square that was basically my dream apartment it is huge and has giant windows and brick walls, felt like I was living in my own world that wasn’t Seattle. 

Started dating someone new, that lives in the same building as me I really loved him

My best friend basically moved out for her mental health because she’s young and pioneer square was too much for her, and she had a lot going on that she needed space and time on her own to deal with and figure out, so I’m not mad at her at all I love her. But now I have to move :( out of my dream apartment and dream life. 

Nothing is perfect, I just want it to look like it is. 

I just wish I had rich parents that paid for my rent instead of having to Waste my life working everyday and never enjoying anything in life

I did get a new job recently that’s made me a lot happier and my old job created a great platform of growth for me and I met some great people it was just really toxic work environment, but I learned a lot. 

Anyway I have a lot of anxiety right now and am dealing with a lot of change, I think coming back will feel good because I always used this blog as something I could control, color coordinate (if you didn’t know color coordinating is my thing and always makes me feel calm) and vent on, I also miss having weird anon convos with you all and sharing advice. ❤️

A couple really good things that have happened in the last couple months:

Even though I’ll miss my apartment I am really excited to start a new chapter of life! And live by myself for the first time ever! I think it will be really good for me

I started painting again and it feels good, I actually got to be a part of a art show at the new love city love with lots of friends and so many people supporting me, it was honestly one of the most positive experiences I have ever had I even sold one painting! I was also vending clothes and made a good amount of money from that ;)

I feel really beautiful my journey to self love is still long and has its ups and downs but I am the cutest and happiest I have ever been in life