Chivalry Isn't Dead

Life's been good

#carsandcoffee

Holidays are always hard. For the last decade I've spent them alone. Partly because being around other people reminded me of how lonely I am. That and practically everyone being in a relationship... Christmas is no different. Another year of disappointing dating. I'm more convinced now than ever that I'm incapable of being loved. Destined to spend the rest of my days alone...

And here I am stuck knowing I deserve better but those better days aren't going to come. I won't give someone that opportunity again. Not now. Not anymore. So because I know old habits die hard I'd rather just 86 any potential to hurt myself again.

None of them mine by the way. 😭😭😭

"we ain't trying to turn up tonight."

J I still love you and thank you for being there and making the days easier to deal with. Don't forget how far you've come and keep pressing forward. You saved me from myself. I'll always be grateful for that 🤍

Just been reading smut novels, gaming, and trying to stay busy. It's been a minute.