In the Sunshine, No Guilt

Daenerys Targaryen in Meereen is not the first ruler of a fantasy realm to chafe under the burden of ruling rabbits while wearing unsuitable headgear.

You may know that that the 1939 film The Wizard of Oz was an adaptation of Book 1 of a 14-book series by author, playwright, and filmmaker L. Frank Baum. The series was extremely popular and their author became famous from writing them.

Book 6 of the Oz series, The Emerald City of Oz (1910), is a great read. It follows two converging point-of-view narratives with Dorothy on a cutesie-pie walkabout through the realm while the Nome King, Roquat the Red, prepares a subterranean invasion of Oz. The invasion story is wholesome fun, but I want to focus on one of Dorothy's encounters, during her visit to Bunnybury.

FedSoc is a force that is intellectually spent, and is going to require ever more political power shoveled into it to sustain itself. GOP has a lot of political power to burn on that pyramid scheme, and it will do incalculable damage along the way, but the supply of talent and cash is not inexhaustible, if we continue to organize in opposition to their power grabs.

When I say FedSoc is intellectually spent, its politics are now unrecognizable as legal practice to careerists with white shoe partnerships and law professor tenure, whose training is structured around being completely nerdy about transactional squabbles and corporate compliance.

White shoe partners and law professors are, of course, bourgeois capitalists and NOT comrades, but bourgeois capitalists see themselves as the inheritors of our small-r republican tradition, in the most pedantic possible ways, and the more the GOP invests in making-shit-up Kraken-law, the less legitimacy its judges will have in the eyes of the lawyers who get paid a lot of money by businesses to be their supernerds-for-hire.

Young conservative lawyers who have the talent to build a decades-long career in the law are going to choose careers where they are going to get paid, working for mainstream business clients who value the stability of a settled legal system. The Kraken-style lawyer only has the pyramid scheme of media attention to sustain herself. 

Brianna Randall has never been my favorite character in the books and I think I finally got a grip on why. 

It’s jarring to see how poorly Buffy is aging, when, during its original airing, it felt so ahead of its time.  I unabashedly loved that show, I loved watching it with friends, and it was the constant cultural touchstone that carried me through a great life transition from one career to my next life doing whatever <wavey hands> this is now.

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I have been assembling first aid kit coverage for our household.  This is a thought-dump post about my progress.  I have no medical training beyond my 20+-years-rusty first aid course, so if you're looking for real/medical advice, please go to a real place like https://www.redcross.org/get-help/how-to-prepare-for-emergencies/anatomy-of-a-first-aid-kit.html.  This post will talk about various possible superficial and life-threatening injuries.

Situation: I'm staying-at-home with a relative away from my primary residence.  The location is within a 10-minute drive of two modern rescue facilities.  There are three of us: myself, my relative, and an older child for whom I am the primary caretaker.   We enjoy outdoor activities such as hiking and river boating.  We have pre-existing conditions that are managed with medication, diet, and exercise, but no mobility-restricting disabilities. My relative has significant first responder training and some rescue gear, but no formal medical credentials. The location of the house is prone to flooding and snow impeding access, and treefall power outages are not uncommon, in any weather.  The house's water well system requires power to operate.  The house fronts on a narrow two-lane highway with a traffic load beyond its capacity and we regularly observe reckless drivers on it.  

Due to the pandemic shutdown, the vast majority of our time is spent in immediate proximity to our home medicine cabinet, so stocking it is a higher priority than preparing for more exotic treatment settings.  Common "household" medical incidents that we maintain readiness to handle without seeking professional care are:

falls and scrapes

kitchen accidents like cuts and burns

rashes and bites from plants and insect

blisters

joint sprains

headache and menstrual pain

upper respiratory infections

My preference is to treat the above situations out of a well-stocked, organized in-home "medicine cabinet" rather than a packed "first aid kit".   From the list of anticipated incidents, we need to be able to disinfect and bandage a flesh wound, apply Rest-Ice-Compression-Elevation (RICE) care to a joint sprain, and administer OTC meds.  This resource has a lot of ideas about what a home medicine cabinet could include that would meet those needs, and more. I like how it emphasizes 80/20 preparation and thinking strategically about where to spend your money and space budget on supplies.  

From out of the medicine cabinet, "boo-boo kits" can be packed for everyday carry (EDC) and ready access from virtually every bag and outerwear with pockets.  I.e., bandaids + disinfectant + tweezers + a dose of your favorite pain meds.  Depending on the outing, I like to have some multi-use items at hand (I like this list of ideas), items I already have a high level of comfort of working with on the go.  Right now my EDC bag has the following multi-use items: a bandana, a multitool, medical tape, and a lightweight mylar blanket.  

Supplies:  It is foreseeable that we could face situations beyond the scope of the home medicine cabinet, where more robust mobile trauma first aid supplies would be of use:

serious outdoor sporting injury

road accident

stranded in the home without access to rescue facilities

mandatory evacuation from the home

attending a political protest in proximity to aggressive police

mass casualty incidents (MCI)

My goal is to have a grab-and-go kit of a reasonable weight and size, appropriately organized for use by me or another first responder, and to have training in the safe use of the equipment I'm carrying.  I want to be able to stop a catastrophic bleed and stabilize a hiker with a bone/joint injury, as either a primary or secondary caregiver.  Packing list includes:

EMT shears

Triangle bandages

Ace bandage wrap

Tourniquet

Israeli bandage

Headlamp

Sterile pads in various shapes

Medical tape

Emergency blanket

Antiseptic swabs

Moleskin patches

Irrigator syringe

Eye injury protector

Of course, this kit also serves as a supplement to the home medicine cabinet.

Notably, the EMT shears are the only thing anywhere close to a bladed object in the med kit, because I want this kit to be protest-ready, and carrying blades to a protest can result in bullshit felony charges.  I don't have a cold pack, and I should, but I haven't found a product that I like for portability and durability.  

I'm not carrying gear I have not familiar with how to use safely, like anything esophageal or trachial, or an epi-pen.  I will probably add aspirin to my mobile kit and otherwise limit my supply of pharmaceuticals.  

Procurement: So the first thing I did was I bought a couple of cheap commercial first aid kits.  They aren't sufficient for the grab-and-go trauma kit I would like to build: the supplies aren't of high enough quality, and they aren't robust enough to stabilize a heavy bleed or a bone/joint injury.  The cheap kits I bought are, essentially, very fancy boo-boo kits that include a mish-mash of starter first aid and survival gear. They’re fine as anxiety-relief while I educate myself and decide what equipment matches our needs and my comfort level.  

However, I am getting something out of these kits as learning devices.  I can practice care-providing-skills with the cheaper stuff, AND I can spec out packing capacity and organization without unnecessary wear and tear on the real supplies.  Meanwhile, I am upgrading to better materials (I'm happy with the order I received from https://www.chinookmed.com/).  In the long term what will probably actually stay with me from the commercial kits is the cheap-but-not-flimsy carrying bags with their high-visibility medical markings.

An additional consideration is that some or most of the gear I purchase here at my relative's house is not going back to my real home when coronavirus restrictions end.  So I'm getting spendier with gear that I know my relative likes to use, or that would supplement gaps in their first aid kit.  But I’m not going to duplicate their SAM splint, which is a terrific item but I don’t have a completionist need to check it off my list.

Real Prep Talk: One of the worst things about many many of the first-aid supplies lists out there for Americans is that they are written from an individualist perspective, as if your sole obligation is to buy and carry a tourniquet, while assuming we’re on the brink of an inevitable collapse that makes such gear necessary :( .  When what we really need is robust systems that support communities caring for each other.  If you are stocking your home medicine cabinet, and you have the means, consider sending some cash or supplies to protest medics, jail support crews, and other groups fighting for a better world for us all.

The first one is about trauma, family, and orphaned children.

The second one is about how Dickens structures Scrooge's miracle around guessing games.

One of the holiday traditions in my family is our annual read-aloud of A Christmas Carol; last night we wrapped up this year's, which is why this tale has been on my mind.

Also, in a previous life, I worked backstage on more than one stage production of the story. It's a story that many of us know, and I feel like I know it well, and yet on every contact, it reveals new details and nuances.

You can read download etc A Christmas Carol here: http://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/46

Stave IV of A Christmas Carol, featuring the spectral Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come, may be one of the most unfilmable famous sequences in English literature. I've never seen an adaptation of this chapter that doesn't throw up its hands in despair and simply deliver a spooktacular tripartite memento mori of 1) the shrouded figure of Death a-lurking half the frame, 2) the body of our hero laid out in a cold dark room and 3) the gravestone with his name etched upon it (EBENEZER SCROOGE). And yes, of course, there's usually a domestic break to tenderly mourn Tiny Tim, alongside Scrooge's psychological horror sturm und drang.

But Dickens was paid by the word, so in the book he takes his time getting to the money shot in the graveyard. We dawdle along with Scrooge and Ghost, eavesdropping on three city scenes of people reacting to the death of some? unknown?? person referred to as "Old Scratch" and "a wicked old screw". They banter Victorianly about a funeral with no lunch served and what a man's bedcurtains are worth, and these scenes require a stupendous effort of dialect work beyond the capacity of mere American casual readers. Throughout all of this Scrooge wonders and wonders and wonders some more who it could possibly be who has died, and feels a bit sorry for whoever it was whose death inspires callousness and even rejoicing. Who is it? he asks the Spirit.

Dear reader, of course, you know the answer -- the answer is always Scrooge. It's not a difficult mystery. And yet. Dickens stretches out our protagonists's discovery of the answer over pages and pages, and it works wonderfully; the reader is carried along on the irony, laughing AT this one asshole who has disconnected himself from the world so thoroughly that he doesn't know we're cackling at him when he asks, Why are you showing me these trivial encounters? And, Where am I on this future Christmas morn? We are told he is a competent man of business, but he is genuinely flummoxed here by his persistent lack of self-knowledge, by a failure to add 2+2 and get 4, and it quickly becomes too grim to be as funny as it is.

Any attempt to adapt this joke for performance after what has already been at least an hour of ghost FX and flying beds and Fezziwig's dancing and some carolers and fake stage snow, and knowing that Turkey Boy AND another Tiny Tim benediction is Yet To Come, well, it's not hard to understand the temptation to cut these city scenes, for dragging on the momentum of the extremely filmable story of the Cratchits' grief, and for making our protagonist look like a fool at the climax of the story.

Moreover, this is a three-part joke, because comedy comes in threes, but one of the earlier scenes is a tempting cut. At the end of Stave II, just after the Jiltening, the Ghost of Christmas Past shows us this charming domestic scene:

“Belle,” said the husband, turning to his wife with a smile, “I saw an old friend of yours this afternoon.”

“Who was it?”

“Guess!”

The answer is Scrooge.

This first set-up scene is a throwaway; it delivers an expository glimpse of Scrooge on the night of Marley's death, but otherwise simply repeats information and regrets already staged more effectively in the Jiltening.

Now, in the second scene of the set-up, in Stave III, with the Ghost of Christmas Present, Nephew Fred and his holiday party play a rousing game of Yes and No (It's 20 Questions but I always always call this scene the Charades scene), and it goes like this:

The brisk fire of questioning to which [Fred] was exposed, elicited from him that he was thinking of an animal, a live animal, rather a disagreeable animal, a savage animal, an animal that growled and grunted sometimes, and talked sometimes, and lived in London, and walked about the streets, and wasn’t made a show of, and wasn’t led by anybody, and didn’t live in a menagerie, and was never killed in a market, and was not a horse, or an ass, or a cow, or a bull, or a tiger, or a dog, or a pig, or a cat, or a bear. At every fresh question that was put to him, this nephew burst into a fresh roar of laughter; and was so inexpressibly tickled, that he was obliged to get up off the sofa and stamp. At last the plump sister, falling into a similar state, cried out:

“I have found it out! I know what it is, Fred! I know what it is!”

“What is it?” cried Fred.

The answer is always Scrooge.

The Yes and No (Charades!) scene is wonderful in performance; it practically adapts itself as playscript off of Dickens' original page and it's funny and the costumer can have some fun with these Victorian hipsters and it gives the actor saddled with the thankless Fred role a chance, if he knows what to do with it, to shine after playing the lighthearted straight man to Scrooge in Act I. And Dickens tells us nothing about Scrooge's reaction to the surprising! reveal, which gives the actor playing Scrooge enormous leeway to invent a necessary moment of petulant shock or hurt before the next scene change (though I would just once like to see a Scrooge with the wisdom and maturity to appreciate the joke, coming from his sole living relation, whose thoughts are clearly fixated upon Scrooge on this day, even just a little bit as a step along his journey to redemption).

Anyway:  Setting aside questions of adaptation, Book!Scrooge has watched both of these guessing-game scenes. He knows the answer is always Scrooge. And yet in Stave IV, as he listens to the businessmen and domestic pilferers and reprieved tenants enthusiastically answering the call of how he lived by assessing his life’s worth in purely transactional terms, he wonders, Who Could It Be? Who Is It?

It's you, Scrooge. The answer is always Scrooge.

(an essay about A Christmas Carol)

Stave II of A Christmas Carol, In Which Scrooge Visits Himself Upon Scenes From His Past, provides the basic narrative of where the miser Ebenezer Scrooge came from. In flashbacks, we see that Scrooge was sent away to boarding school as a child, then apprenticed with a warehousing business, and then was dumped by his long-term fiancée Belle for being too career-driven. These scenes appear to set up the obstacles before the Three Spirits in changing the old miser's heart, particularly in Belle's scathing (but loving) read of how greed and acquisitiveness have changed and overmastered him. But they also hint at hope for Scrooge yet, by letting us glimpse, as if out of the corner of the Spirit's eye, his sincere affection for friends of the past and his regrets for roads not taken.

The chapter also addresses the question, Why Is Scrooge The Way He Is? but that story is only lightly sketched in with some scant details scattered through the chapter.  Dickens is not particularly concerned with unearthing Scrooge’s boyhood traumas for display upon the page, but he is alert to the effects of bad parenting and systemic privation upon a man’s soul.  Why, when Belle delivers her ultimatum, does Scrooge resign himself to the life of the "squeezing, wrenching, grasping, scraping, clutching, covetous, old sinner" that he becomes? There are answers in the previous two scenes, in the schoolhouse and at Fezziwig's party.

At his boyhood school, while Scrooge is delighted by the sight of his old friends, the narrator describes the scene:

It was a large house, but one of broken fortunes; for the spacious offices were little used, their walls were damp and mossy, their windows broken, and their gates decayed... entering the dreary hall, and glancing through the open doors of many rooms, they found them poorly furnished, cold, and vast. There was an earthy savour in the air, a chilly bareness in the place, which associated itself somehow with too much getting up by candle-light, and not too much to eat.

I.e., in this scene we learn that Scrooge was sent away for years by his father to starve at a shabby boarding school. Until his sister Fan walks in that one Christmas morning to bring him home, home and family do not mean love and safety to the child Ebenezer Scrooge. Home and family are rejection and privation, and being warehoused in a place that is "dreary" and "cold".

The contrast with Fezziwig's holiday party is so stark, and so sudden, Dickens does not even give us a moment to recognize what Scrooge has survived. And we know he can show us privation when he wishes to; the opening scenes of Oliver are the trope-setter for portraying starving young boys. Here, we share Scrooge's relief in escaping that place and are invited, like young Ebenezer did, to never think upon it again.

So in the blink of an eye we join young Scrooge in clearing a dance floor and celebrating the holiday in a bright, warm, safe place with a boisterous chosen family -- and plenty of food.

Given the stark contrast between the cold neglect of the elder Scrooge (let’s call him “Tywin”, shall we?), and the open-handed care and joy of the Fezziwig establishment, is it any wonder, when Belle runs out of patience with her fiancé's "changed nature" (is it really changed, or has she simply come to see the truth?), that this young Ebenezer chooses the safety of the counting house over the risks and frigidity of a family? Can we fail to notice how many of the scenes visited by the Ghost of Christmas Present feature the display, preparation, and consumption of food, from the birds being toted to the street bakers' ovens, to the Cratchits’ devouring of their Christmas goose, to the grog shared by the lighthouse keepers. 

And of course, note how Dickens ends this Stave of celebration and plenty with a hard look at the starving children allegorizing Ignorance and Want, children in far more distress than we would think that Scrooge and his schoolmates would have suffered, who constitute Dickens's sharp rebuke to the austerity politicians of every era.

But to get back from politics to the personal drama that fuels the central character study here, we also get a glimpse of the generational trauma affecting Scrooge's family, centered on the bright spot that is Fan, and her untimely death. In Stave III, Nephew Fred, who is Fan's son and Scrooge's only known surviving blood relation, tells us:

Here, he takes it into his head to dislike us, and he won’t come and dine with us.... I mean to give him the same chance every year, whether he likes it or not, for I pity him. He may rail at Christmas till he dies, but he can’t help thinking better of it—I defy him—if he finds me going there, in good temper, year after year, and saying Uncle Scrooge, how are you?

There's a whole prequel's worth of story here (which I beg you not to make because there are already far too many prequels in the world), the story of Fred deciding, in that year when his mother died, to visit his uncle to give holiday greetings, and being aggressively rebuffed by the old man so grieved by his beloved sister's death that he never NEVER thinks of it again. 

And that's how these two men maintain a slender connection to the woman they both loved, by trolling each other every Christmas Eve with a dinner invitation and a Bah Humbug in response, and their resolution to hang on to this most meager tradition of care for one another. It's not much, these gifts that old Tywin Scrooge handed down to his children and grandchildren, but this is what the Scrooge family is, until the miracle of the Spirits.

Perhaps Dickens is overly sentimental about how the magic of Christmas can heal childhood trauma, but he delivers a character study of Scrooge's magical transformation that feels grounded in a family yearning for each other’s affection.

This week, we: 

-Rank our favorite Star Wars movies (lest we be the only ones not to) 

-Discuss our...mixed feelings about Dany's prophetic arc in ACOK and her spiritual place in general

-Praise how George writes Dany as a young mother, albeit of lizards.... 

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