Hi Im Miserable

Finally drew this idiot narcissistic womanizer with the ability to create the next hiroshima ya'll know who it is I dont even need to say it along with some other fan favorites

10/10 how'd I do though drawing gamma jack?

Yall happy now ? I learned how to draw his stupid face so you dont have to. 🫠 God dammit this guy already has a bunch of fanart here i go adding more shit to this godforsaken character

I feel like I drew him differently each time Idk why lol

Everyone keeps making the comparison to Homelander, which is understandable but I feel like Jack's different. Quite honestly, i don't hate HATE Gamma jack but I don't want to idolize him either. I find him intriguing as a character. Jack is more of a morally grey complex superhero. Although, I feel like if I meet this guy in person I would be so f*ckin eager to punch him in the face. Just from the way he talks about women LMAO.

Also quick macroburst and hypershock appearance cuz why not? ;-)

All this to say, the file on him I feel like is not fully representative of him. (dont get me wrong gamma jack is still an asshole) Or any of the supers for that matter! Remember, these tapes are just a snippet of what the other hero's were like , I betcha there's more than meets the eye. Everyone's saying he should be the next villian for incredibles 3 but eh idk I'm a little torn on that one.

Maybe its just me but I don't like the idea of him being the main villain. I dont know- I feel like he can be redeemed somehow- ima sucker for a jerk with a heart of gold.

Sketch dump of the glory day supers in random cheezy scenarios i made up 👌 👍

This time with plasma and downburst(ФωФ)

I want to start drawing actual art of the heros in the NSA files ( or just actual art in general ) if I can rather than just leftover sketches just to keep this blog going lol but whatcha gonna do? ( ´∀`)

Life's been hectic lately

Im just wondering do you think how all the glory days superheros in the incredibles just chill and hangout after a long hard day of superheroing? I like to think so

I have more sketches coming up to post later

The big three.

Both new and old..

Now Colorized

Albeit still a rough sketch

I often think about what really happened to the team before they split. Im sure gazerbeam didnt have the best communication skills with the gang but with the issues of collateral damage on supers maybe it was always inevitable that they would be disbanded.

Personally I think gazerbeam just got too much hate for being so by the book and strict on missions I bet. Both by his own team and other supers alike.

The Beta force gang

Since they were in a team and were described to have a "dysfunctional relationship" I like to imagine them in this father - daughter duality.

The NSA files ...My current hyperfixation is consuming me now.

Blazestone in particular is pretty interesting character to me.. since shes practically an arsonist and struggles with self control based on the tapes. Everyone's worried about gammajack or psychwave being a potential villian(which is valid) but you have a literal ex villian right here in the tapes.

Meanwhile Universal man is just a tired father and just wants to do his job

some leftover thrilling three fanart! This time with phylange !

I feel like he doesnt get enough love in the fandom.

he's hair is hard to draw,...forsomereason.

The words next to phylange doodle says "dashing phylange" for anybody that's wondering

Been awhile since i posted on here so why dont I contribute to this blog by posting quick random doodles of apogee & gazerbeam based on the incredibles nsa files.( just imaging what they were like together since they were in a team before).

Back in dem days

Been hyperfixated on the nsa files so much it almost revitalized my passion for drawing.

I low-key dont like the way I drew them lol

I canfuckingdrawhands i swear 😫

I need to fucking vent or scream into the void

been awhile hot fucking minute since I wrote here but anyone else increasingly frustrated with american mental health care in this country ?..... that seems like a good enough excuse to write a random blog post!

This is my probably never going to be seen but here goes nothing..

Long Story short - I've been seeing a therapist for a while, and something she said recently stood out — that I may be showing signs of ADHD, Autism Spectrum Disorder (or Asperger’s), or possibly OCD.

I'm not claiming to have any specific diagnosis, but I am interested in exploring whether I might be on the autism spectrum — and possibly ADHD as well. That said, I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed and unsure of where to even start or how to find the right professional to talk to about it.

During our sessions, my therapist stated that some of the behaviors or things I do in daily life might fall in line with either being autistic or having Asperbergers. ( this is a spectrum i know just cuz i might have similar symptoms doesn't mesn i have it ) I have asked my therapist if she can just evaluate me herself on that, and she explained that she doesn't have the ability to diagnose me like that. All she does is manage or talk about symptoms.

Not to mention that my therapist explains that it's difficult to find a diagnosis on autism in adults because the DSM 5 only accounts for autism in kids.

In sessions, I would keep bringing up on finding an evaluation because I either i feel like I need more answers or I feel like she's not listening. To her credit, she did point me to some resources, but most of them, so far, have hit a dead end , except for a couple to have yet to look at still. I guess I just feel like Im not making much progress. I think most of what's getting to me is how my therapist has mentioned how a diagnosis wouldn't make a difference for me and that I would still be progressing the same way in life and in our sessions. Or that what would the point or purpose of getting a diagnosis? ( which makes me more infuriated honestly because it would be like Idk EXTREMELY helpful to understand the framework of who i am ?!?! Likewhatdoyoumean ?!?! ? )

And if its all hearsay and not really an official diagnosis then how can I really claim to have these disorders? And how can I really understand how to cope when I am having a idk a breakdown if the normal way isn't working?

And in the same breath (my therapist) will also describe how helpful getting a diagnosis is to understand one's self better , insights on further treatment ect;

like isnt that a contradictory to what you are saying ?!?! I like my therapist but this comment got me confused, maybe even a little offended- it just feels very dismissive about something that seems VERY IMPORTANT and is a BIG revelation for me!!!

This feels like a big deal to me, because it’s the first time in my life that someone has looked at me and said, “Hey, you’re showing signs of a mental health disorder.” And not just in passing — it actually seems to show up a lot in my life. I’m a 26-year-old Hispanic woman, and let’s be honest — in our culture, mental health isn’t something we really talk about or take seriously. So hearing this now, at this age, feels heavy… but also kind of validating..

So saying all of this to say, the more prolonged I am in finding a place to get an evaluation/diagnosis, the less incentive I have to even get one and just end up procrastinating.

Im not sure why im sharing this. lol this blog is, and this site, for that matter, is dead. Im just tired.. I just can't shake the feeling that I've always felt different from my family, friends, society.. it really is exhausting when you dont know whats wrong with you and trying to find to navigate the world around you. Navigating the mental health industry with no insurance, getting turned down by people/doctors, people getting mad / annoyed at the things I do because they see a "pattern of behavoir or habits" in me

Gee its almost as if I could living with a potential undiagnosed disorder. But im not sure yet.

I know theres bigger problems in the world right now everything from trump being back into office, the deportations, to the introduction of the big fUGLy bill....which really is just the shit icing on this shit cake isn't if im talking about us healthcare / mental health.

Im not sure what else to say on here other than the fact im sick of this bullshit. I don’t have many close friends I can talk to about this—at least none who are nearby or easy to reach—and I don’t feel comfortable sharing these heavy thoughts with people I’m only just starting to get to know.

So im sharing it on here where strangers can see and judge my writings lol