your eternal torment

the leak in the roof and a bucket by the counter

and i love it too

lit candles and midnight dancing

so take us back

our tentative camaraderie and sacred intimacy

why I’m sometimes so distant 

I told you that it’s better this way

so when I leave, 

it will hurt less

you want to play hide and seek with my love

cold shoulder in the street

kissing me in dark corners

safe behind closed doors

so if I can't have you

the way I want to

and you don't want me

the way I am

carve open your chest

and let me crawl inside

let me make a home

a lifetime in your eyes

dazed by your smile

I met you in spring

you had your fingers wrapped around my heart

My summer nights belonged to you

we sat on the beach and watched the waves crash into the shore

our wine glasses

always full

our hearts too

or so i thought

autumn came and we fell apart 

but ill hold onto these Polaroids of us through winter

of happily ever afters and forevers

I used to look for love with rose tinted glasses,

in places where only idealism and infatuation existed,

because now you’re running through my mind, like an endless stream of sand grains in a hourglass

and i can feel you in every inch of my skin, the very essence of you sits in my pores

It'll hurt like hell

But I'll hold you tight

when the world is set alight

you were never mine

not mine to hold, nor mine to lose

So I'll keep these half written love letters 

None right now sorry, but I'll probably have something in a couple of months. 🤞

Is it too late for me to do this?

To darken your front step with my presence,