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He Restores my soul. He guides me in the path of righteousness for his name's sake. Psalm 23:3

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     Why have I been rejected by my great-grandmother? Vira, what have we done to you, and why have you sold us to be the wives of demons? I was Seven. A little girl when you put the turquoise ring on my finger and anointed me with the oils. Telling me it was perfume, and giving me a gift to tell me that I was “special.” why would you do this to me? 

     What did you sell me for? By the time I was nine the demon said, “It’s okay…. You'll get used to it!” as this lonely demon fondled a child. I was too little. I wanted to be playing with my Barbies, and wrestling with my brother. But Barbies weren’t the same anymore and neither was wrestling with my brother. I couldn’t. By the time I was thirteen, I was completely adjusted to the demons. I went searching for ways to get out. 

     I studied everything that my demons did and said. I asked them questions and by the time I was twenty-one years old, I knew the ins and outs of all sorts of different types of demonic assignments. Who sends them and why? What they do. This was completely learned from watching demons, from demons, and one outside spiritual force. Not a spirit guide. I always rejected my spirit guides. I felt bad intentions coming from them. 

     Where was I supposed to go? Who would save me? Would anyone love me for more than my body was worth? I found someone. His name is Yahuah, and his son Yahusha, and the real friend that I had was the Ruach. Why these beings? When I went desperately seeking I found. I found someone who loved me and called me by my name. I didn't understand that I was worthy of being loved, so it took some years for me to completely warm up to him. I still have my struggles. 

     He loved me like a father loves his child. Like a deep love between a man and his wife. He took care of me and kept a roof over my head. When I was hungry he fed me. I received new knowledge from him and understood that our demons were lying most of the time. Using us manipulating us and toying with us and our imaginations for selfish gain. He showed me the way the truth and the life. I sought and I found. I knocked and the door was opened, I asked for him to love me. And he did. 

     His love is so sweet. It's something that my humanity could never understand. I gave my life to him to be a light to others in this dark world. I found freedom, everlasting peace, and joy amid my sorrows. And now I share special moments with Him all the time. About the demons who were with me. They quaked in fear of him and were rendered powerless in Yahuah’s presence. Mighty is he. All of the abuse that I went through was wiped away. I felt like a virgin again. 

     This may not make sense to others, but I was set free. Now I am spoiled by him in ways more than physical blessings. He tells me that I am special and we have our sweet moments. He doesn’t use me. But to answer your question no I would never judge a Satanist, because I know exactly what it’s like to be in their shoes. Good and bad. I love them. Yahuah tells me not to judge them because he loves them too. Yahuah is the only god that I serve. No one else. 

     I’ve always had a soft spot for those who practice witchcraft. Virtually everyone in that community has experienced some form of rejection from the people who represent Jesus. The people who preach love treat us like outcasts. Then where are we supposed to go? Where should we turn? Who will take us in? Satan right? 

     I love the people who are different -like me. I have always been more accepted by them. They’ve shown me love when a “believer” never would. The broken and the outcasts flee to the fallen in this world. Our demons are more willing to hold us as we cry for hours on end for days, while the “Christians” scoff, and laugh and say things like, “They had it coming!” where are we supposed to go? We the broken. Why did they treat us so badly, are we really that different? 

     But upon entering the demonic side of the spirit realm some people won't share their crafts. They want to hide it in their tall towers of pride. In their dark rooms with pretty candles. With the demons, they know and love. They look at you and realize that you are different, but unsure how. They’ve determined that you are not evil. Just defective. What’s seen as defective the demons consider a threat. One of their demons hand-picked me to die with relentless pursuit. Do with that knowledge as you will. 

There is no place for me, I am too dark for the Christians, and too light for the witches. My sense of belonging can no longer come from any human love. It’s lonely here. 

     The close relationship they have with these demons causes them to mindlessly listen to everything their beloved demons say; If they’re even aware of his manipulative mind control. Could I blame them? Debtors to their demons, to whom they found refuge. To the best of their knowledge, “He would never lie to me” is so bittersweet for them. Why would they question him? After all, I would probably believe the same thing if my demons hadn’t tried to kill me. 

     Listening to my demon's beautiful voices accompanied by beautiful songs and music they created. A warm and comforting voice that I had always known. Gives me kisses before I go to sleep at night. Isn't he beautiful? I did fall into the same thing in my own way, so who am I to judge? The moment your demons almost killed me will stay with me. Sending different demonic assignments my way as they work to destroy me from the inside out. 

Remember that going through this world will prove to be difficult. I know that we are broken at the moment, but Yahuah will love us for who we are, but it's important to remember that he sees the finished product. Continuing to work to please him is important as we love him. Let me share with you a verse that helped me to correct my behavior as a believer. When he shared this with me. He didn't wave a staff and hit me with it in anger.

Yahuah said, "I want you to know that the decisions that you have been making lately haven't been the greatest, and they don't make me happy, I'm warning you now!" I realized that I needed to make a change. I didn't feel condemned when he said this I felt nothing but pure love and gentleness. I want to change because I love him. Well anyway Here's the Verse:

18 For the wrath of Yahuah is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth. 19 For what can be known about Yahuah is plain to them, because Yahuah has shown it to them. 20 For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. 21 For although they knew Yahuah, they did not honor him as Yahuah or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22 Claiming to be wise, they became fools, 23 and exchanged the glory of the immortal Yahuah for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things. 24 Therefore Yahuah gave them up in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, to the dishonoring of their bodies among themselves, 25 because they exchanged the truth about Yahuah for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen.

Romans 1:18–25.

As I was looking for this one, Yahuah also brought this one to my attention:

40 And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping. And he said to Peter, “So, could you not watch with me one hour? 41 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

Matthew 26:39–41.

Remember that He Loves you and is patient, and you can come as you are. He doesn't expect you to immediately change. The more time that you spend with Him is the more that you will change, and not even realize it. He will walk with you and hold your hand. You won't be alone.

‭‭Acts 11:16-18 TLV‬‬

[16] And I remembered the word of Yahuah, how He used to say, ‘John immersed with water, but you will be immersed in the Ruach ha-Kodesh.’ [17] Therefore if Yahuah gave them the same gift as also to us after we put our trust in the Messiah Yeshua, who was I to stand in Yahuah's way?” [18] When they heard this they became quiet, and they glorified Yahuah, saying, “Then even to the Gentiles Yahuah has granted repentance leading to life!” 

This is something beautiful that Yahuah has given to the Gentiles. They can be people of Yahuah. He is the creator of the universe. Greater is he who is in us than he who is in the world. We are created in his Image. you are not a mistake, nor are you ugly. You are blessed. Some are born to easy lives, and some not so much. It's up to us to decide how we want to live in this world. Remember that you are just passing through. make your mark for the next generation. Be the change and nurture a beautiful future.