ᴍᴀᴢᴅᴀ ᴍɪᴀᴛᴀ ᴍx5 ᴏꜰ ᴊɪʀᴀɪʙʟʀ

WIP into post

✩ Miata • Valentine • blight

✩ He / it / rot

✩ 16 turning 17

✩ really fucking mentally ill

☆ Britain timezone

Lifestyle jirai (?)

TW's for my blog:

⚠️ SH

⚠️ SA

⚠️ abuse

DNI (link)

Warnings about me:

• unstable mental state

• attention seeking

• can stop posting for a while due to mental health

Anons : " ~💉🫀 "

Main: @rab1d-rub1d1um-cr3atur3

Current Jirai acc: @miata-landmine

Rocky (phm) and Kieran valentine fictionkin.

Alterhuman (mostly Angelkin ATM)

Tag list:

#× •-•-•⟮ ᴘʀᴇꜱꜱ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛ ⟯•-•-• × - own posts

# ≪—— ꜱʜᴀʀᴇ ꜰɪʟᴇ ——≫ - reblogs

#¤(`×[¤ ᴍᴀʟᴡᴀʀᴇ ᴅᴇᴛᴇᴄᴛᴇᴅ¤]×´)¤ - triggering posts

#└➤ ɢʀᴇᴇᴛɪɴɢꜱ ᴜꜱᴇʀ。✑ ───┐ - answering asks

First hate anon ( link )

Poetry (?) (not mine.)

“I had become so accustomed to carrying the sword that I forgot my hands were made for gentler things. for wildflowers

for for poetry

for reaching instead of defending.

And maybe that’s what safety is, remembering who you are before the battle.”

-✨🦫

Is kinda fine now . She apologised for yelling at me ( absolute miracle ) but it still kinda left me rattled ngl .

Thank you for the poetry Darlin' , it did cheer me up . /Gen

You have a child with ADHD , you have ADHD and you fucking wonder why I struggle . Yes just scream and yell at the child suffering when you're the one who's been neglecting to return the paperwork that will get me the help I need .

How I keep myself feeling safe when she ' s being shitty :

☆ get out of her way at all costs

☆ display no emotions ( which evolved into feeling no emotions )

☆ cleaning my stuff up so she cannot either a) threaten to bin it or b) say I ' m the messy one

☆ clean up in general so I ' m useful

☆ remain calm despite her screaming at me

Just love how she acts so badly done for when she was the one that mainly slapped me when I was younger . The twat barely hit me , I mean yeah he screamed but she screamed and hit me.

Ah yes mother , act like I'm the messy one when the whole lounge is full of yes that's right , your stuff mother .

Scream at me for my room being untidy when it was all of your clothes , your make-up and your items that were being moved in when we removed the table .

I just learnt that when I'm being yelled at :

1. I turn off all emotions just so I don't show any signs for a reason for my mother to hit me .

2. My mother will not hit me in front of her boyfriend .

Reminds me when I told her that she gave me trauma and she affirmed to me " I never laid a finger on you ", hm odd because I distinctly remember you slapping me because I didn ' t fold my clothes in the flat .

I took learning anatomy to a whole new level. . .

For the ask game,

Soul ;; I wanna bite you platonicly

Claws ;; Long nails or short nails ??

Monster ;; Are you " i can fix them " or " I can make them worse " ??

(Also, not really related but I love ur neopronouns, I might steal some)

Soul: * nom back *

Claws: short for passing reasons

Monster: I can fix them

-(sleepy n regressed( ✨🦫

Awww my sleepy little boy how cuteeee

Sharing tub my ass . I will slap a bitch if they touch my cheesy crackers .

Bloody hell it was cold this morning .