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another log, scribbled because doctor asked for it again. nothing huge has happened, at least nothing that feels real-real. though i did meet someone new from his system. kylar. thatโs his name. i donโt like him. i donโt think i ever will. thereโs something off about him, heโs strange in a bad way. invasive. he talks like he should be the only boy orbiting me, like he could replace doctor, like heโs somehow better. that little tone of superiority he carries around makes my skin itch. comparing himself to doctor at all is ridiculous. it annoys me more than i want to admit.
kylar watches me. i can feel it, even if thereโs nothing special to look at. i donโt know what he wants, and i hope he gets bored soon and leaves me alone. thereโs also been whispers about someone named joseph. i wouldnโt say iโm scared, not really, but it sits wrong in my chest. i donโt know why he matters, or why heโs being mentioned at all. itโs probably nothing. everything always is, until it isnโt. whatever.
all i know is that right now i just want my doctor. i miss him terribly. too much. heโs the only one i love, the only one i ever will love. no one compares. i crave our appointments, the way he talks to me, the way his affection feels like it was made specifically for me. being near him fixes something in my head. his presence is right. itโs always been right. ~













