STUNG BY THE WASP

       HIS FOREHEAD KNOTS UP at her question, traces of skepticism wedged between each furrowed line. would she? not on purpose, no, but – well, it’s impossible to know for sure! thomas glances from her back up to the dark building with a reluctant look. ‘ i sure hope not. ’ he intones, head tipped over to one side as if the change of angle may help him see things from her self-assured side. but before he’s had the chance to take her size-small shoes for a test drive, she reaches for his hand, their fingers intertwining. such a simple gesture and yet, it’s all he can focus on as she leads him onward. ‘ how do you know this? ’  it’s a rhetorical question, doesn’t need to know the details, he’s awestruck all the same. thomas falls into sync with quiet desperation, each winding row of books presenting him with the challenge of staying close. because, as he’s learned in the past, once their elbows extend she’s more likely to slip from his grasp. ’ yeah. ’ he blinks, thrown by the truth resounding in her wispy tone. ‘ it’s not nerdy. ’ his eyes soften back on her, a faint smile playing on pale lips. his first inclination is to merely cite a line from bukowski – something he’d hope would catch her attention and remind she’s not alone. but as per usual, he chickens out. ‘ tom clancy. ’ he drolls with a firm nod, lips curling into a wry smile. ‘ joke. but, uh … wow, that’s hard, i enjoy a lot of poisons. – does it have to be just one i have to stick to only one? ’

         A SOFT LAUGH AND A SQUEEZE of his hand before zephyr turns to look at him for a second with a wide grin. ‘ i watched the janitor leave one night when i was on a walk, how else?’ he keeps close to her, to her satisfaction, and she slowed her pace down a bit just to stick that much closer. she didn’t expect him to sound like he actually understood her, understood what it was like to just need some time of silence to yourself. to get away from everything for a minute. she doesn’t want to let go of his hand now that they’re there, pretends instead that she doesn’t notice it.‘ it’s not?’ a soft smile turns her lips up at the corners and she bites down on her lower lip shyly, glad he agrees.‘ tom clancy.’ she mocks him, snorting quietly before shrugging.‘ i have a lot of poisons too, baby. but what’s your favorite one?’ zep places herself down on top of one of the tables, swinging her legs as she looks up at him and waits for his response. 

you’re all fabulous little snowflakes and i hope 2016 brings you only happiness and joy, and be sure to accept any form of happiness, no matter how small. 

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❝we’ve had our share of HARD times, but that’s the price we paid     and through it all we kept the promise that we made.     —— i swear you’ll never be lonely. ❞

❝ i just think maybe we’ve had enough hard times. maybe it’s       just time to let go.❞

he’s smiling more than he had intended, now. his hand immediately extending toward her’s. “i’d love to,” he began before heading toward the other side of the vehicle. samuel had not introduced himself yet, and he began to battle within his thoughts which alias he’d use. lately he took over the alias HUGH, but as he looked into her eyes the words flew from his lips effortlessly. “samuel mckinney,” he began, opening the passenger side door. “sam for short.”

SHE TAKES HIS IN HER OWN, narrowing her eyes slightly at the strange feeling that shoots up her arm, into her veins, through her chest. swallowing thickly, brecken looks up at him as he takes her to his car, lips parting slightly as he speaks his name. there’s something all too familiar about him all of a sudden, a weird nostalgic feeling lingering about now that he’s spoken once more. “ SAMUEL MCKINNEY. ” she murmurs it back without thinking, feeling it against the roof of her mouth, her tongue. “ HM. ” leaning against the back of the car, ignoring the door he’s opened for her, breck studies him for a moment before speaking as she gets into the passenger seat. “ SAM. NICE. I’M BRECKEN, IT’S..-- A P L E A S U R E. ”

❝these days i can’t seem to get along with anyone    get by with anyone. these days i CAN’T seem to make    this right —— well, is this fine? will it be alright? ❞

❝ you’re not letting anyone get along with you. it took years just to get you to talk to me about something deeper than what you ate for breakfast. it’s going to be okay, bandit. you just got to let it be.❞

❝ i’m just tryna get you out the friend zone     —— ‘cause you look even better than the photos. ❞

❝ there’s no such thing as a friend zone, jordan.❞

“maybe one day soon, you’ll realize how special you are.” he nodded, slowly before turning his gaze elsewhere. his heart began to slam in his chest, screaming. reaching. begging. it knew who it was that lingered in that ribcage. danced behind those dark hues. the beauty of eternal life is second chances, he believed. knowing the past life he had ruined it all by surprising her far too soon. he has learned from their tangled history. “would you mind following me?” he inquired, taking a slight step backwards toward his jet black cadillac. 

“ ....MAYBE. ” the statement catches her off guard and her mind stumbles to catch up with the conversation, usual wit thrown off. guys selling her drugs, willing to F U C K, don’t say things like that to her. they never have. humming softly in agreement, taking a step closer to him a bit warily, brecken raises an eyebrow at him before the earlier grin that slipped off of her lips is back in place. “AREN’T YOU GOING TO OFFER ME A HAND, BOY WONDER? ” 

            HEAT FLOODS UP FROM beneath the jittery boy’s collar to paint his cheeks crimson. somewhere between here and the car, thomas had become catatonic, bulging eyes frozen on a flashing light above the building’s closed sign. ‘ i dunno .. – you sure there’s no alarm? ’ he cuts her a dubious look, an edge of uncertainty still clinging to voice. perusing a library after dark has always been a fantasy of his, to be surrounded with the musty promise of countless tales. plus, she seems so CONFIDENT and she’s done it before … ‘ okay, okay. ’ he surrenders and takes her offered hand. ‘ – ladies first. ’

            SHE LAUGHS SOFTLY AT the way the sign’s light is dancing across his face, making it impossible to tell whether he’s blushing or the shadows are merely playing a trick on her eyes.‘ of course! i wouldn’t take you in if there was, would i?’ laughing softly as he finally takes her hand, zephyr slips in through the cracked door and tugs him along with her.‘ the employee that closes up on thursdays is super lazy and never locks this door.’ biting down on her lower lip, heart threatening to beat out of her chest, the blue-haired girl hopes desperately that her hands are sweating-- or that her fingers don’t feel weird between his own-- or that he isn’t weirded out by her idea for the night. there are a lot of scattered worries on her mind, actually, and she sighs quietly to get rid of them. unconsciously weaving through aisles with shelves stacked with books, rooms with tables and computers, she finally reaches where she normally spent her time late at night.‘ it’s nice to just get away sometimes.’ she’s whispering, offering him a hopeful smile, before sitting down cross-legged on one of the tables around them.‘ i normally read the poetry. nerdy, i know. what’s your poison?’

( &&. CHARACTER AESTHETIC . ) — delinquent similar to japan’s sukeban

“the first time is always free,” he insisted, before shifting his weight a bit. through life, you seem to meet the same people just in different bodies. different pasts, different futures. but over all, the soul remains the same from person to person, and as he looked into her eyes he saw something that almost felt familiar. “i’ve found i’m not either.” cue a small, suggestive smirk to press on his features.

“ ALWAYS? ” the brunette offered him a friendly pout, lips trying to curve at the corners into a smile. “ NOW I DON’T FEEL AS SPECIAL. ” he’s attractive-- clearly-- and she supposes it wouldn’t be so bad to sleep with him. better than her last customer, at least. and, hell, this time she’ll even get something out of it. brecken had been chasing her next high for the last couple of days, shaking hands eager for the feeling that lifted her into outer space and dug out the hole in her chest that she needed to feel. “ OH? ” she smiled coyly, feeling almost as if they were dancing around each other now. “ P E R F E C T. ”