s.

be with someone who loves the feature that you hate the most

fall inlove with someone who looks at you and knows they don’t want anyone else

They want to make you think that they’re really the good guy.

They want to make you think that you’re wrong for being upset.

But the thing is, you don’t know when they’ll snap again. You don’t know when they will stop feeding you and yell at you for walking too loudly upstairs or call you worthless or yell slurs at you or threaten to kick you or hurt your pets again.

You can’t always stay on your toes and be prepared for everything. After years and years of dealing with it, it gets exhausting trying to stay on top of everything all the time.

Living in an abusive household isn’t always scary. Sometimes it’s just exhausting. It’s impossible to always stay on your feet and sometimes all you can do is sit down amidst all of the noise and chaos and pain and try to plug your ears the best you can.

you’re really something, aren’t you

come here

sit next to me?

you’re my favorite

i was just thinking about you

i notice you all the time

here, i made this for you

this instrumental reminds me of you

if you do it, i’ll do it

i miss you so much

i wish i had known you sooner

has his own organization system that no one else really understands 

fidgeting, always, like, always

ALWAYS talking, usually to say that he just figured something out or remembered something unrelated to the situation at hand 

like in the first episode he interrupts the arrest and is like “Oh my god I just figured it out!” like not the best time 

Impulsive

that desk is a MESS but it’s a system he understands 

incredibly bored by repetitive tasks such as paperwork 

constantly taking on a new case (starting a new project)

boredom is I.N.T.O.L.E.R.A.B.L.E. 

wants to be challenged

just, distracted, always, but also on task

like they accept him, and Holt even does things to help him work better and challenges him to not just be arrogant about his abilities 

smart

creative

but again, just, distracted, always, all the time, just, it never ends 

It’s not just about my ships being canon. It’s about great, well written stories where the characters are LGBTQ. Fanfiction has way more representation than actual books and I love it.

If I want to read an actual book with LGBTQ characters, it’s going to be a dramatic coming of age thing or a side character where their identity is heavily coded/barely mentioned.

With fanfiction, I can read space operas, high fantasy, rom coms, horror, or whatever  and the characters being LGBQ, while important and part of who the characters are, is not the entire plot.

 It’s part of why I liked the Captive Prince. I get gay/bi rep, but I also get an interesting story of betrayal and war and intrigue. I shouldn’t have to read coming of age novels in order to get LGBTQ characters.